#who do i procrastinate so much

[o2studies]

༻`` 18 Jan 24 — Thursday

100 days of productivity 18/100

Had my very first work experience today at a dentist's and I did not want to leave even tho my back was practically breaking. I absolutely loved it! Yes I really almost passed out not 30mins of me being there but I didn't think others' blood would have that effect on me, still I'd love to come back. It was really interesting too, got to see how the cleanings done, an extraction, a few x-rays, 1st stage of a root canal! Plus the dentist and nurse I was shadowing were so so lovely and funny and great. They answered all my questions, sometimes talked me through and explained the procedures, encounters with patients, tools, uni application tips. It was truly an amazing experince.

Thing is that I haven't considered dentistry before and didn't think it would have appealed to me as much so I didn't take biology and I'd need it if I didn't want to study abroad and for an extra year (I really don't). I'll see what I can do and email the university if an AS could be accepted.

Anyone else been in this situation before? Realising you should've gone down a different path? (and listened to your parents when they were suggesting it at the start of the school year...) (help ;-;)

༻`` 19 Jan 24 — Friday

100 days of productivity 19/100

Studied a bit, finished my chemistry notes and have to start one's for physics. Will do its and maths' homework tomorrow. I started planning out a study timetable and it's both stressing me out and calming me. I have so much time but not enough. Either way I've really got to put more hours into this and people aren't joking when they say to start revising as soon as you start school, especially at A Levels.

Tomorrow:

Study chemistry 1.1-1.3

Study physics 1.1 + 2.1 table

Do a full past paper

work on art

#i really want to get in 3hrs of study tomorrkw #and i know i can #so why dont i? #who do i procrastinate so much #after so many breaks and rests? #student #studyblr #dark academia #light academia #chaotic academia #study motivation #100dop #100 days of productivity #study inspiration #100 days of productivity challenge #chemistry #physics #maths #dentist #dentistry #biology #a level #a levels #wrong subject #burnout #procrastination #productivity #work experience #o2life #o2studies

[snekdood]

"if we make america worse and more of a dictatorship that will be even harder to unravel and make it the way we want the country to be, maybe then everyone will join our Glorious Revolution!" bb girl you cant even be in the same room with someone who thinks you should vote, how in tf do you think you're gonna unite people to fight in The Revolution with you? it's gonna be you and your 5 friends, i hate to break it to you.

#i dont think you realize how repelling you and your politics are to everyone else #you get all of your validation for how Smart You Are from your friends and ignore any kind of feedback that suggests you should #change or do something differently. thats the only reason you're so convinced average people will go along with you bc you keep getting #affirmation from the people who ALREADY agree with you- but you have NO IDEA how to bridge the gap between people who agree #with you and disagree with you. you're horrible at convincing people of your side of things outside of straight up guilt tripping them #or bullying them like a highschooler. im sorry but the tools you learned to survive with as a kid aren't gonna help you in this situation. #the ONLY THING you can come up with to bridge that gap is a bloody revolution. thats how bad you are at this. #and you're also so bad at this and unimaginative that you dont even realize how THAT might not even be enough. #you cant imagine ANY kind of avenue to getting people to change AT ALL outside of blood and fire. and thats why people call you #an authoritarian. #i'll be honest- i really do think the world would be a better place if we did incremental change under a democratic president who wont #set the world on fire vs the godkingemperor republican WHO WONT EVEN LISTEN TO YOU AT ALL EVER AND MIGHT KILL YOU #FOR PUTTING UP A STINK. idk if you noticed but if that evil fuck gets into office we are severely outnumbered if he gets police #n shit to go after his own citizens. letting trump win is making this battle so much harder than it needs to be. #you are choosing trying to fix the world while its exploding vs trying to fix it before it explodes at all. #what is this like a procrastination thing? you wanna wait till the last minute to try? idfgi. wtf is wrong with you #throwing minority lives away to prove a point. and then you try to tell me you care. gtfoh. #accelerationists should never be taken seriously.

[lazycranberrydoodles]

woe mundane monopoly headcanons be upon ye

follow for more of modern au hua cheng’s outfits

#mostly completed this a month ago and then procrastinated the final touches until now lmao #its. so low quality. i also switched to a new brush for lineart and now this is kinda 🥴 #i wanted to draw my modern au designs :3 #fun facts: #hua cheng has a glass eye but he still covers it with his bangs #modern HC shops at prada btw #MQ is described as looking more like a civil god than a martial one so he has a goth academia type thing going on #FX wears sports team shirts everywhere sorry #mu qing’s mug has 3 different level markers #“fuck off” “i can hear you i just dont care” and “ok what were you saying?” #i think mu qing would hate that sort of mug but feng xin and xie lian keep giving them to him #apologies to anyone who doesnt know the rules of monopoly this is incomprehensible without previous knowledge #so: do i believe these four would actually voluntarily hang out post canon #yes actually. fxmq and hua cheng mutually tolerate each other for xie lians sake #imo after like a LONG time hc could actually be friendly towards fx (in book 2 fx admits how courageous hong hong’er is) or mq (bitch2bitch #but i dont think thatll happen there is way too much resentment that goes both ways #remember that theyve canonically fought multiple times ‼️ #tgcf #art #tian guan ci fu #天官赐福 #heaven official’s blessing #hualian #hua cheng #xie lian #fengqing #feng xin #mu qing #xianle trio #my art

[sparkles-and-galaxies]

There's nothing wrong with "Kai is the Green Ninja" AUs but I feel like we forget that a) elemental powers are hereditary and b) Lloyd is the descendant of the First Spinjitzu Master. Like forgive me for saying this but I think him becoming the prophesied savior of all Ninjago had less to do with his character or destiny and more to do with the fact that he's the literal grandson of god

which then would also explain how Misako knew before anyone else like

Wu: the Green Ninja will wield all four Elements of Creation at once, just like the First Spinjitzu Master

Garmadon, with baby Lloyd in his hands: oh wow I wonder who that'll be

Wu, patting baby Lloyd on the head: such a mystery indeed

Misako:

Misako:

Misako: are you two fucking stupid

#ninjago #yes im aware elemental powers weren't meant to be hereditary originally #but even in the og seasons they actively acknowledge Lloyd's ancestry #and who even knows what's canon anymore anyway #though i do have some theories #i wrote this post bc im procrastinating on that day of the departed rewrite #i will do it at some point but currently #im only at the 'throwing ideas at the wall' stage and i already made myself cry #i needed a break #yall are going to suffer so much #(that is if i ever finish it lol)

[r0semultiverse]

Qrow’s Semblance is Fortune! 🐦‍⬛

I talked about this briefly before, having speculated that Clover’s pin carries on his good luck after death or that Qrow has just done a lot of training mentally and/or physically. @benevolentslut had some amazing additions as well & I want to sum up this theory for you as best as I can as we reached similar conclusions even before I had read her reblog.

Qrow has only been in the negative all his life, mentally and emotionally.

This man has had barely any positivity in his life.

"His whole life he's been the epitome of cynicism and pessimism." - @benevolentslut

Qrow grew up under constant stress & threat of those around him.

Needless to say, but I don't think he could trust anyone he grew up around except maybe Raven.

Then he has to constantly worry about being found out by the other huntsmen! Also growing up with the threat of huntsmen and Grimm the entire time!

Then Oz drops the whole Salem problem on him & I'm sure that didn't help his mental health in the slightest!

"His sister leaves him and their team, and then summer disappears." - @benevolentslut Yeahhhh he is losing everyone close to him in one way or another! That cannot be a fun experience!

This look like the face of a guy that's doing okay?

I'm just going to copy paste this here as I hadn't noticed it & it feels worth noting that the intensity of his misfortune seems to increase with the increasing mental strain.

While we don't know for sure that all of these things are a byproduct of Qrow's misfortune semblance, it certainly isn't out of the realm of possibility. Notice the worsening of his mental health resulting in potentially more disastrous outcomes. 😰

"we see him blaming himself constantly for everything that goes wrong, and it only causes that to become more true." - @benevolentslut

She lists a lot more examples of where Qrow's semblance has potentially worked this way in the original post. Clover comes along & starts lifting him up, giving him actual hope. He now has a little seed of hope planted in him. 🍀

Wow, Qrow is doing so good for himself lately! I sure hope nothing-

Oh... oh no. From his perspective Ruby & Yang could literally be dead. He is stricken with grief as he watches it all unfold & probably sunk back down into a negative spot mentally. He may even blame himself in some way.

When you're this low, there's a saying that goes "nowhere to go but up."

I firmly believe that Qrow would see things that way, especially after reaching his lowest point. He can only do his best to help those around him. Though he's the most alone he's ever been, he's becoming a part of a new community where people help one another. In that sense, it's impossible to be alone. In spite of it all, he slowly finds his mental health improving! Ruby's message to the world is bringing people together! 🌹

"and we see him take up clover's role, both in terms of how he's helping out around shade, and more literally, in the unmissable parallel where he catches the guy who trips." - @benevolentslut

Ruby & Clover have both filled him with hope & he's more optimistic than he's ever been, which results in bursts good fortune! ✨

There's also already a premise for shifts in mental health and trauma resulting in semblance evolution.

Cinder betrayed Neo & so she winds up in the Ever After & through her form changes is showing us that she now has negative feelings towards Cinder.

She's so upset that her semblance starts to make multiple clones of her which it has never been able to do before. Her Overactive Imagination semblance has evolved due to the state of her mental health.

Her semblance begins to evolve so much to where she can create entire architectural structures and buildings out of it!

She can even use it to talk through the people she recreates, something she's not physically capable of herself.

While we do have to take into account that the Ever After plays by rules that are a little bit different at times; this absolutely confirms that semblances, much like people, can change & grow! 💪

My conclusion: Volume 10 & beyond will show Qrow's personal semblance evolution as he finds out that his power is actually Fortune itself & the ability to control it, good and the bad.

#oh god I have to compress the gifs so much because of tumblr's gif size limit 😩 #thank you for the theory fuel & the supporting points you gave! #maybe I'll do a youtube video on this topic when I come off of my semi-hiatus #wow I told myself I'd keep it brief but here we are; I'm procrastinating packing my bags & making rwby theories #I just think Qrow is a very fascinating character & if we are right about this; he will be an important player in volume 10 & onward #imagine having a guy who can manipulate fortunate on your team; that's actually so powerful as an ability if he can master it #It's not so much that the Clover ebi pin is good luck; but that Qrow himself is becoming a beacon of good fortune #Fair Game lives on in his heart & the hope he's been given even if Clover isn't here to see it #please let me know what you think in the replies; reblogs; whatever; if you have anything to add I'd love to hear all about it! #rwby theory #rwby volume 10 #rwby volume 9 #fair game #qrow x clover #rwby #qrow branwen #greenlight volume 10 #mine #op

[floydleart]

i DO wanna know about this au. tell me about it!!!!!!!!!

This ask is like months old but I think it was in regards to my fairy au??

Anyways fairy au info below cut:

Xephos is a fairy that lives in Lalna’s old gran’s backyard beneath a tree with a colony of bees. When his grandmother dies, Lalna inherits the house and discovers this lil fairy dude living in his back garden. They very slowly go from mutually staring at the other with interest to being friends and later a bit more fluffy romance stuff. At one point during the winter Xeph’ holes up in Lalna’s walls because it’s warmer so he becomes Lalna’s borrower-esque roommate. They can’t really talk to each other because Xeph’s vocal chords are so small Lalna can’t hear so lots of non-verbal communication. Lalna shrinks himself at some points so they can talk. Rythian and fairy!Zoeya are also there. Ryth’ can talk to fairies because his magic compensates for the small vocal chords so he can hear and Lalna hates him for this. Xephos also can’t fly because Spooky Past and doesn’t really remember his past either. Oh, and fairy!Lomadia kidnaps Xephos at one point also because she thinks Lalna is holding him against his will lol. It’s one of my more self-indulgent aus.

Also, Xephos loves strawberries :3

#floyd answers #color practice goes hard #my problem w asks is i want to answer them all with pretty art #but then i procrastinate on the art and end up never answering them #everyone who sends me asks i promise i think about them so so much and im not ignoring them i just want to give u art in response and im so #bad at doing things lmaooo #anyways #fairy au #yogscast #xephos #yogs #g/t #fairy #fanart #giant/tiny #sfw g/t

[s0urfangs]

Only took Fedarys and Dralsin about 9 years, 2 deaths, an uncounted number of Vampire Beast Creature attacks and a whole lotta unhealthy coping mechanisms to settle down in a little house in Echovald. I am sure nothing bad will ever happen now because they're normal and love each other 👍

#i think i procrastinated posting this lil sketch for like 3 weeks lol #considering how much i rotate these fools in my mind i sure havent posted much about em #they love each other so much its so important 2 me theyre so silly with everything #we r gonna ignore the. whatever the heck they went through for years its fine now. #sometimes a dragon crisis causes so much personal development that u and ur ex who u dont know if u even broke up with r basically soulmate #GUESS TRAUMA WILL DO THAT TO A GUY 😔 #gw2 #sylvari #silvsart #oc:dralsin #oc:fedsy #gw2 art

[evil-but-refined]

Fuck characters that made you question your sexuality. What character made you question your gender? I'll go first (Btw I haven't gotten past season 2, I tried watching the show 3 or 4 times growing up and I never did for some reason. I'm trying to finish the show now but I feel like I'm cursed)

ALSO THIS ANIME IS SO PROBLEMATIC BUT IT'S SO FUNNY AND I HATE THAT

#rambling about tv #istg im cursed #vld pidge #voltron legendary defender #please no spoilers #why do i procrastinate so much #its such an awful habit #but i still do it #i could've finished this years ago #here i am though #at least the world healed from it #trans #ohshc #ohshc haruhi #ohshc needs a less problematic season 2 #maybe its just me who thinks that #problematic fave show tbh #I'm literally the homosexual supporting cast

[phoenixcatch7]

Man I am just SO CONFUSED. About the time line of this game.

No one is telling me how long links been gone! Or how long the botw-totk timeskip was! They all just started selling my stuff again lol. I'm going to have to get everything redyed!

Me: hey random stranger! Lore dump? You look like a lore dumper.

Kindly npc: why hullo there, link ^^! My, I haven't seen you in a while since the calamity ended! I was so worried when they said you and the princess had gone missing! But it's good to see you're well.

Me: aw, thanks. How long has it actually been tho.

Kindly npc: ^u^

#Having a great time btw I've just been chased across a near sea of miasma by stal riders and more! 10/10 nearly died in a high speed chase #Made it out relatively unscathed which is truly amazing lmao #Spoilers ahead: I have had the funniest time doing the great plateau quest chain. Once I sucked it up and made nice with the creepy statue. #He's(?) been alright. Fair trader. Good deals. I've mostly been terrorising kohga in between absolutely failing to craft working vehicles X #His new boss fights are so much easier than the first one lol. Less fun I'll admit but the music is groovy. You can probably make a #Machine and try and dog fight him but with few exceptions the turning circles are decrepit so I just stuck to mild dodging and shooting him #And running over to hit him some more. Kinda bland for a boss fight I'll say. Could have done with a lot more pizazz. It's kohga come on. #Anyway I do feel kinda bad because apparently he's been stuck down there for however many months/years and I AM kinda cheating with the arm #After the first fight he fled to the gerudo mine and the steward very nicely showed me how to get there but never underestimate #My procrastination because I'd already found it by just exploring so I just teleported. In game it must have been terrifying lmao #Racing across an endless void filled only by the light of your rapidly running out of battery glider and the red glow of the gloom away fro #The apparently immortal ancient warrior who beat you up and tossed you down there and there's no sign of perusal so you're probably safe #But you get there and he's already sitting there poking some bananas having wiped out your goons and plundered your supplies. #Like sorry man but the arm comes with the hero territory I can't exactly take it off. #Maybe if you stopped terrorising the people purah would let you have one of her long distance teleportation slates. It comes with photos? #It can't have been long since botw link hasn't grown an inch XD. Also I've been turning the lore timeline over in my head and still no idea #Are we not sure Rauru isn't from some alternate timeline that got fused with the main loz timeline by accident?? #loz #legend of zelda #totk #loz totk #tears of the kingdom #loz tears of the kingdom #totk spoilers

[notanotherinfjblog]

Productivity

ENTJ: Do you know those moments when you’ve got so much to do that you have no idea where to even start and so you start making a list of things that are too unimportant to waste your time on right now? But at the same time you’re wasting time by not working on the things that actually are important. You’re just making lists of all the tiny aspects of your work that you can throw out just to make yourself feel like you’re doing something.

INFJ: No, I don’t know those moments. I’m less productive, you see. When I’m overwhelmed by all the stuff I have to do, I panic and stare at the wall for three hours.

ENTJ: You’ve been doing that a lot lately, haven’t you?

INFJ: ... yes.

#i feel like it has to be said that we only had this conversation because entj didn't have the motivation to work anymore today #so he came to my office to make me procrastinate with him together for an hour and then he left to do the same to our estj co-worker #he's such an idiot i love talking to him #every time i meet another NJ (which happens like once every 100 years) i slightly lose it a little #because talking to someone else with Ni is like suddenly being allowed to breathe #suddenly there's someone who actually speaks your language and there's never just one second of silence because there's so much to say!! #(is that how people with more common functions get to feel frequently? like SPs meeting other SPs? SJs meeting SJs?) #also it's very funny to be on the receiving end of the Ni stare because all of us NJs do that #so whenever you see two (not romantically involved) people just staring at each other's eyes for two hours you've found two NJs #my intj brother has a problem with eye contact actually but he STILL DOES THIS just not when you're looking too #this has nothing to do with the post but you know me #maybe i'll do a more elaborate post about the ni stare at some point #also i'm gonna post the list with the writer interviews very soon took a bit longer than i had anticipated and i still only have one isfp #but oh well what can you do #mbti #mbti conversations #entj #infj

[coquelicoq]

you guys would not believe the multitudes i contain. on the one hand i found myself thinking today "pachelbel's canon fucks. like, severely." on the other hand my 17yo cousin thinks i am "really cool" (he doesn't know about my pachelbel's canon opinions). i tried to go up the down escalator at the airport and didn't realize for SEVERAL steps, then tripped on my suitcase at the bottom and exclaimed "LORD ALMIGHTY!" in the middle of a large crowd of people who had watched this happen. a guy at the airport today saw me writing a crossword and came over to talk to my mom about it because apparently he had been on a flight with us a few days ago and saw me doing the same thing (he asked her if i was "coding". on graph paper, bro??). i wore a long, full-skirted floral dress to a wedding and did a little photo shoot of me manspreading and looking disaffected under a neon sign reading "let's party" and my entire family is obsessed with it. i brought a card and a pen to the wedding and made all of my relatives (including the bride lol) sign it for my grandmother who was unable to attend, but i was also super rude to my mom and had to apologize a few hours later after i had calmed down. a baby puked on me and it made my day. my sister said i have "really good taste in music" (she also doesn't know about my pachelbel's canon opinions) but also i am apparently the person who introduced her to janelle monáe, so point to me. the 17yo who thinks i'm cool seemed reluctant to stop talking to me at the wedding because he was afraid we would not see each other again to which i should have been like "dude do we not have telephones? and the internet?? and are we not both members of this family that gets together every few years???" but instead i was like "i know your address! i'll send you a card!" (he wants to be a dentist so i'm now congratulating myself for having saved every "i got my teeth cleaned!" sticker i was ever given as a child, because now i can send them to him and give him all of my very important anthropomorphized tooth clip art opinions.) walt whitman whomst.

#i think pachelbel's canon is good and guess what it probably actually is good. but i do feel very basic for liking it so much #like anyone who's ever played the violin is going to think very pretentious thoughts at me now that i've admitted this #whatever! i don't know anything about it except IT FUCKS! END OF STORY!!!!! #this post is incoherent but guess who was out of it enough to try to go up the down escalator?? so it's not really my fault actually #that was like an hour and a half ago so as you can imagine i am even less coherent now #i should be in bed but i remembered i needed to read some french and now i'm procrastinating. i make such good decisions when i'm tired <3 #i did successfully fill a grid for a crossword at the airport though!! and it has reflectional symmetry which i found very difficult #Good For Me #my posts

[redfeathered]

#Guess who has to call the doctor's office tomorrow once more #Not for one of the big reasons that have been building up over the past months. #Not because I need to discuss the results of the hospital tests. No. #(because I still haven't managed to call the hospital to ask for them) #No because that fucking tick bite acts up 3 weeks after #And because my fucking finger refuses to heal at all... #So I've got to call again once more #Beating myself about it #Using all the energy leaving nothing for all the other important calls I've been procrastinating on... #Whyyyy irghh #I dont have the energy to do all of it #FINGERS CROSSED I can go there early in the morning and don't have to cancel work.. I know I know health is more important and all... #But I don't want to let the kids keep hanging #I've got some pretty unstable clients tomorrow... #tumblr is my diary and you can read along #I can already tell I wouldn't survive chronic pain that's not dull pain #It frightens me how much the two weeks of constant sharp pain is fucking with my head already

[elliedafish]

I just realized that I have 15 missing assignments that I have to turn in by Friday and we have tests that we're taking this week and we're getting a bunch of review assignments that we have to do to prepare for them! All I've done this weekend was sit in my room and watch TV. I've barely even started my like 10 page study guide. I'm gonna fail so bad! 😭

#How do I stop procrastinating? It's probably my worst habit. #I guess this is the end for me #So long everyone #I'll miss you! #It probably doesn't seem like that much work but for me it is #I always need help and my friends are busy #Plus I have to help one friend who is slow like me #😭

[collectorcookie]

Central Country textposts but it's mostly oz because he's just that memeable

#i love old man ozzie so much because he went for world domination at first and then noticed halfway that being an evil wizard looking #to conquer the world kinda sucks so he gave up and then found his true life passion of being a Stay-At-Home Single Dad™️ #Sometimes you find your thing later in life and for ozzie that took almost 2000 years and an attempt at ruling the world and das oke <3 #Maybe i'll do more textposts for other countries too sometime when i am not procrastinating on exams #Mahoyaku #mahoutsukai no yakusoku #arthur granvelle #cain knightley #riquet ortiz #oz mahoyaku #old man ozzie needs to steal the royal family's last name because 1) he raised arthur he has every right to #2) i don't wanna write “oz mahoyaku” everytime i refer to him #3) it would be the funniest power move against the royal family. Who's gonna stop the world's most powerful wizard? No one

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

I’m going to love not feeling the crushing weight of being obligated to go to the meeting in the midweek and on the weekend

#exjw #I always get so much motivation to do stuff and I’m about to do it and stop procrastinating #then my mom knocks on the door: #“The meeting starts in 20 minutes; are you going in-person or on Zoom?” #Pain and suffering #Or when I remember the meeting is tomorrow I don’t plan on doing anything productive because I know it’ll drain me #and take up two hours of my day #I’m the kind of person who needs to get started early in the morning or I won’t do it #I need LOTS of momentum to complete tasks #Meetings take away my momentum

[givemewallywestorgivemedeath]

Man it'd be horrible if I had superspeed. I procrastinate everything to the last minute and it's only in the final hour that my panic levels are high enough to make enough adrenaline in my ADHD riddled brain to counteract the Nothing Response™ and actually kickstart The Task™.

It's bad enough that I literally wait until the last possible second to do anything ever but if I had superspeed?!?! BRUH. I would be waiting until the last second. Because I would have so much time!

And you know the time blindness would be infinitely worse with relative time. Like goddamn, I barely understand the flow of time as it is and it's been consistent my entire life! I can't imagine navigating that when it isn't consistent.

#i say as i actively procrastinate #i am #currently doing the thing i talked about #im chill as a fucking cucumber babe #i shouldn't be #i should be doing the thing #but im not #and i won't #until the anxiety kicks in and makes my brain do it #because my brain does not have chemicals without anxiety #it has no chemcal #no chemcl for me #God they all have adhd too. like genuinely. before the powers. they all had adhd. so they got ADHD and speed #fate worse than death i think #anyway wild given like my blog title and who i post about all the time but Barry Allen is my spirit animal #we both procrastinate and hyperfocus #we're both the quiet zoned out adhd that doesn't get diagnosed as a kid #both late to everything cause we got sidetracked #both know WAY too much about a specific field #both very academic focused #FUN FACT ABOUT ME! i was almost a forensic scientist i got accepted for the course i went to fake crime scenes and sat in on a live autopsy #fun times... #anyway now im working on my doctorate. adhd be damned! i fail upwards! woo! #sometimes I genuinely wonder how the fuck i got here in life. surely its a cosmic prank #(wanna clarify that i did not fail the Forensic Science course. i literally only applied cause that was the Flash job) #(so i checked it out and passed on it) #other things i got accepted to: pre med! psych! business! comp sci! a law school in England! #man high school me had no fucking clue what to do lmao. i was like 'ill apply to everything and just go where i get in' #then i got in everywhere and i was like '... fuck' #Forensic Science was really cool though. it was top of the list. they had an entire class on blood splatter?!?