#no chemcl for me

[givemewallywestorgivemedeath]

Man it'd be horrible if I had superspeed. I procrastinate everything to the last minute and it's only in the final hour that my panic levels are high enough to make enough adrenaline in my ADHD riddled brain to counteract the Nothing Response™ and actually kickstart The Task™.

It's bad enough that I literally wait until the last possible second to do anything ever but if I had superspeed?!?! BRUH. I would be waiting until the last second. Because I would have so much time!

And you know the time blindness would be infinitely worse with relative time. Like goddamn, I barely understand the flow of time as it is and it's been consistent my entire life! I can't imagine navigating that when it isn't consistent.

#i say as i actively procrastinate #i am #currently doing the thing i talked about #im chill as a fucking cucumber babe #i shouldn't be #i should be doing the thing #but im not #and i won't #until the anxiety kicks in and makes my brain do it #because my brain does not have chemicals without anxiety #it has no chemcal #no chemcl for me #God they all have adhd too. like genuinely. before the powers. they all had adhd. so they got ADHD and speed #fate worse than death i think #anyway wild given like my blog title and who i post about all the time but Barry Allen is my spirit animal #we both procrastinate and hyperfocus #we're both the quiet zoned out adhd that doesn't get diagnosed as a kid #both late to everything cause we got sidetracked #both know WAY too much about a specific field #both very academic focused #FUN FACT ABOUT ME! i was almost a forensic scientist i got accepted for the course i went to fake crime scenes and sat in on a live autopsy #fun times... #anyway now im working on my doctorate. adhd be damned! i fail upwards! woo! #sometimes I genuinely wonder how the fuck i got here in life. surely its a cosmic prank #(wanna clarify that i did not fail the Forensic Science course. i literally only applied cause that was the Flash job) #(so i checked it out and passed on it) #other things i got accepted to: pre med! psych! business! comp sci! a law school in England! #man high school me had no fucking clue what to do lmao. i was like 'ill apply to everything and just go where i get in' #then i got in everywhere and i was like '... fuck' #Forensic Science was really cool though. it was top of the list. they had an entire class on blood splatter?!?