#which. not ideal.

[perilegs]

every time i try to do something scary on purpose for my social anxiety the universe decides to add in unexpected situations 😔

#i was supposed to go pick up a package and then i was like. ok wait. ive gotten good at buying something while pickiing a package up. what #if i also buy stamps #bc you have to ask the cashier for those (same as with the package) #and it was just at my cornerstore so it's a safe nonscary environment #well. as not-scary as any store can be. #but. there were a lot of ppl there. which! i thought would be fine bc the line was still relatively short but. what happened was that they #opened another register. #and i was queuing for the reguster that had stamps and handles packages #and i would have loved to stay at the queue. but. only one person went to the queue of the new register. so there were 2 ppl in line before #me. one already had their stuff on the conveyor belt and the other was about to put their stuff there too #and the person who went to the other register only had like 2 things to buy. so. it was me. in line behind 2 people. versus an almost #empty register. so. i had to switch to the free register before the cashier had the time to b like 'there's a free register here!' #bc i don't have a script for hearing that and saying 'no' !!! #so i just. switched over and bought my snacks. leaving the store with no package and no stamps. #bc if i hadnt i would have had to say something i dont have a social script for and probably stumbled on my words and gone red and dizzy #which. not ideal. #and this sucks ass bc all i really needed was one (1) success in a social situation #bc this week has been kicking my ass social anxiety wise #usually when i go and get coffee from a coffeeshop they dont ask me shit and just make my order to regular milk which. ok. i dont have an #allergy or anything. i just think plant alternatives taste better in coffee #but this week. i got asked 'do you want that in regular milk?' and i was not expecting that #so i was like 'yes please 😊' and drank my grossly milky coffee dreaming about what i could have had #and that happened TWICE #after the first time i did think about it and decide i could have said 'do you have oat milk or something' and then the barista #could have either said yes or no and both of those would b easy to answer #but instead of asking if they have oat milk i just said yes. again. #can you guys imagine some people speak without being scared #some people even go to the store without feeling even an ounce of fear. imagine #leevi talks

[areyouwho-ithinkyouare]

hm haha ok so i’ve reached the first actually challenging combat in bg3 and babes this is not exactly going well 4 me

#it’s the nightsong fight #keep getting fucked by initiative and these guys just push me off the edge to my death before i can do anything #which. not ideal.

[jakeperalta]

I'm curious. what job would you do if money was no object (you just automatically had an income you could live comfortably on)? including work like volunteering, studying etc. please share in the tags :)

#under this premise part time work is valid too! #personally i think i'd probably study. maybe do another masters maybe part time across two years this time #if i were to do a job job i think i'd try out working in a library (ideally an academic library). which would technically be more studying #since i'd need to get a library qualification first #i'm just very curious what people would choose if it was purely a choice of what appeals to you over the practicality/necessity #talking

[jamesbranwen]

this is not me trying to defend nintendo's business practices or say that either of these games don't have flaws, but I think a lot of the comparisons people are making between breath of the wild and tears of the kingdom are a little unfair and don't really take into account that they are different games with different purposes.

"breath of the wild feels so empty compared to tears of the kingdom" ... yeah? with breath of the wild, one of the game's main themes was isolation. you wake up in the future far after the apocalypse you were trying to prevent has already settled. you have no memories, very little strength. just like hyrule, just like zelda, all you have is your will to continue. breath of the wild is the quiet moments, the secret spaces, the weight of the world that has continued to turn without you still resting on your shoulders.

tears of the kingdom is not like that. hyrule is no longer the wild. it is no longer quiet and lonely. there's community. every sidequest is intertwined. your friends fight alongside you. this isn't "fixing" breath of the wild, this is it's natural continuation. as time goes on the world continues to heal and rebuild. if breath of the wild was clawing hope, tears of the kingdom is direct action.

like yeah there are things tears is doing better and (imo) things breath of the wild did better. but i don't think either one is a replacement for the other.

#tloz #breath of the wild #botw #totk #tears of the kingdom #inspired by two posts #one saying tears should have been botw dlc #which i think must have come from someone who hasn't played tears (which is fine) #and the other saying botw shouldn't have existed and they should have just released totk #which i also don't think would be ideal #personally botw is still my favorite game #its really beautiful and emotional #i do understand and agree with a lot of the criticism against it #but i am fond of the slower‚ quieter pace it has #ive never played anything else quite like it #even totk

[zivazivc]

so many brainworms about life in the troll tree and jd's adventurous side...

#they were that active couple whose ideal dates are going on hiking trips and doing all sorts of sports like skiing and climbing #(which i hope to see myself a part of one day jdhbsdjhcbjdf) #trolls #dreamworks trolls #trolls 3 #trolls band together #my art #trolls john dory #trolls oc #freesia #tulip #trolls floyd #trolls spruce #trolls clay #brozone #young brozone #i think jd was like the coolest big brother until. yknow... #also his hair ended up too bright in the illustration #and now i'm chewing on the thought of what if that was his original hair color when he was younger #but it then got darker after the parents died... #hmmmm... #it would still match the hair colors i picked for the parents... #*chews louder*

[someoldfires]

whole vampire fam colour version!! thank you guys for being so nice abt the sketch <3 feeling v inspired now please tell me what other wwdits screenshots i should draw

#wwdits #guillermo de la cruz #laszlo cravensworth #nandor the relentless #nadja of antipaxos #colin robinson #wwdits fanart #i did the sketch traditionally and coloured it digitally which turned out to be ideal for me!! #also this dark ass show is good for me bc i need to work on dark/desaturated colours #my art

[jessicalprice]

Sorry, Christian atheists, but “Christianity traumatized me” is not a get-out-of-accountability-free card for upholding Christian supremacy through your treatment of members of minority cultures, reiterating Christian evangelism and colonialism but for your WASP brand of atheism, promoting Christian purity and hierarchy but with the serial numbers filed off, insisting that the Christian model of culture is the only one that exists and shouting down members of non-Christian cultures about their own cultures and experiences, etc.

Oh, you don’t like members of non-Christian cultures pointing out the ways in which your behaviors continue to normalize and uphold Christian hegemony?

THEN MAYBE STOP ACTING LIKE CHRISTIANS.

#Christian atheists will literally be out here like ‘ideally Jews wouldn’t exist’ and then throw a tantrum when we point out they’re still #adhering to a Christian pattern of believing that the ideal world is one in which no culture other than their own exists

[inkskinned]

as we enter the start of a semester and the dreaded Hour of Making Friends us upon us... if ur ever at a loss for what to say in one of those weird social situations where you only vaguely-know people, one of my favorite questions to ask is "what is your favorite food crime." a food crime is like the food combination that you love that other people find revolting. press them to take it further than pineapple on pizza, that's rote. food crimes is a good topic that has many benefits as it turns out all people are degenerates and also it will give you some cool ideas to try out later in the privacy of your own degenerate kitchen

the other good thing to ask is "okay but has anyone here ever been someplace haunted" bc it turns out if you ask most people directly they don't believe in ghosts, but many people are like "oh yeah i lived in a haunted house. ghosts aren't real tho"

#my food crime is that i regularly make a “pasta and tuna” situation that has somehow gotten even more evil and degenerate over time. #it is a ''white wine reduction'' (it's just white wine and garlic powder & seasoning) #and tuna from a can. #and plain pasta. #if i have the spoons i will actually chop garlic for it but this tends to be my comfort food for a REALLY bad day #bc its super easy to make: #boil pasta. drain. put into bowl for later. into same pot u used for pasta. #put tuna (with oil/water from can). let fry a little for like 2-3 min. put in whatever amount of wine. season to taste. #the tuna will get a little crisp on it which is nice. important side note: #this began as a Bolognese sauce. #and one day i had to sub for tuna. i know. not ideal. i cried about it too. #somehow over time it is now its own little evil thing. i would never make someone else eat it. it is beautiful. #but yeah i don't even stir the pasta in afterwards i just slap pasta into serving bowl #slap this ''''''sauce'''''''' on top #molto bene #(i really can cook fairly well btw. this is a food crime. not a suggestion of skill or ability) #(i LOVE baking but when i cook for myself. the autism is obvious. bc i just don't understand the point of most of the steps) #(.... i can just eat the deli meat out of the bag. it is protein. i don't even have to like it. i just have to eat enough calories.) #(also i used to cook MUCH more before this apartment which is so small that i can stretch my arms out and overreach the counter length.) #(.... i'm 5.2. so.)

[raiiny-bay]

summer '93

#ts4 #simblr #ts4 edit #ts4 render #sims 4 #myedits #AUverse #kelly #dhestyn #something came over me when i made these man #i don't know #AUverse is the new tag for all of my miniAUs btw. so it encompasses multiple AUs #this one is what i'm currently calling the 90sAU (ideally it will have a real name eventually. it just. doesn't yet) #uh i have a confession which is that i haven't actually written anything for this particular AU yet #like. not even bullet points or anything #but i am completely obsessed with it #something about the boys traveling around in their lil van is just so fun to me #i love the idea of kel just being some punk ass kid who ran away from home #& dhes sees him on the side of the road one day & is like. oh. yea. that one's cute. sure. i'll pick him up. #& they literally just travel the states together #like originally dhes was only gonna drive him to this one concert in a nearby city but #since they had a few days to spare dhes convinced kel to let him take him on a small detour & go sight seeing #& they ended up having a lot of fun!!! #i haven't decided for sure yet but i think they're like... 19 or 20 in this AU #i'll figure out the details once i actually start writing it though

[notbecauseofvictories]

It's interesting to feel the grey malaise of winter trying to drag you down, and know (know) that the answer is to get out of your apartment and talk to some human people, but also absolutely hate the idea so much. so. very much.

#I know all my posts these days are just ''reminder: you have to leave your apartment sometimes'' #but it is sisyphean how I have to keep doing this. #learning this over and over again. #I'm not even that interested in food lately which is. um. #a big flashing warning sign that Something Not Ideal is happening in my brain right now. #I took a nap after work. signs point to rough times a coming. #celestial emporium of benevolent knowledge

[fanvoidkeith]

sometimes being aroacespec is confusing. what do you mean, most people can tell the difference between platonic and romantic and sexual attraction? what do you mean people don't "choose" crushes? what do you mean that people can imagine themselves in a physical situation with someone else?? isn't dating just Friendship Plus??? hell, isn't marriage just Friendship Plus?????????

what do they mean??????????? what are feelings???? why am i so confused????????

*edit: changed "aroace" to "aroacespec", since several aromantic people felt that this was not an Aromantic Feeling. i see you, i hear you, and so i changed it to be more accurate to me personally, since i am Confused About Feelings Always

#void keith talks #aroace #aromantic #asexual #aro #ace #aromantic asexual #i'm so confused as an autistic aroace person #about every emotion i have about another person ever #and i also read a lot of romance so like. i know what romance is *supposed* to look like #i know the ideal and the not ideal #but i have no idea about any sort of romantic social cues irl #because i'm bad with social cues. i miss them a lot or i misinterpret them #i'm good with body language because i was taught a lot of it early #but social cues are different and some change over time which is INCREDIBLY confusing #and also like? i don't feel stable enough or mentally healthy enough to be in a relationship #i feel like it would be unfair for a potential partner(s) for them to be in a relationship with me #because i just Don't Have My Shit Together. like at all #i Only Like Fictional People That Way #fictoromantic #lgbt #lgbtq #lgbt+ #lgbtq+ #lgbtqia #lgbtqia+ #arospec #aromantic spectrum #aroacespec

[decepti-geek]

Headcanon that there's a meme goes round the academy when Cardassians start trickling in in earnest, and it looks something like -

#i think it's very funny if the earliest applicants tend to have something in common in addition to their ideals #and that something is a massive glaring crush on Julian #ds9 #deep space nine #julian bashir #elim garak #by implication (which is a very fitting epithet for him) #garashir

[meirimerens]

a theomachist in the face of a cruel god, or more reassuringly, something worse entirely

#pathologic #daniil dankovsky #мор утопия #bachelor dankovsky #my art #el bibi.... #a wink if you can guess which saint i. tried. to draw. #all beetles from plates by Georgiy Jacobson in his “Жуки России и Западной Европы” 1905-1915 I know he would have it. I know this to be tru #the text (“this feeling of brilliant vermin watch it ebb and flow / be merciful to them like you wish [...] was to you”) is about him #knowing he was gay from a young age (~12) & not dealing with it Ideally in his (christian orthodox + #strict-masculinity-enforcing) household 🤧👍 #<- To Me......... #bit embarrassing that I had this exact concept as a digital wip for 5 months now but it's seeing a cool beetle on my walk yesterday that #kicked me into making it become real..... the unthought benefits of touching grass: it makes wip be made. #everytime i have to color balance in the disgusting indoor light at night. well. gets on my nerves to put it lightly

[redhotarsenic]

@nowfallc PICTURE!! FOR YOU!! PLEASE TAKE IT!! <3

#agh I’m so so nervous but I’m big and strong and you all agree with me <3 #plus it’s nearly 6 in the morning and I pulled an all nighter to finish this. which I’m sure is not helping my stress levels At All! #ALSO! #I’m gonna do another one! #you will NEVER know which picture so get fuckin ready HELLLLLLLLL yeah!!! #<- as for those of you who were Present when I said which picture I was gonna do. ummmmm. shut up! say nothing!! #ALSO…..2!! #wanted to share how I did the scuff marks cuz I felt like it. and also I said I was gonna do it. anyway! #what you wanna do is get a real textured brush. ideally something pencil adjacent #and a mid grey color #and with LIGHT pressure you follow the edges of whatever metal bit you’re rendering #you can go a little heavier on the corners if you desire #from the corners you take a smudge tool and gently blend in the opposite direction of the corner if that makes sense #and then take an eraser (IDEALLY one that’s the same as your rendering brush) #and gently erase back towards the corner. but with a much smaller brush size #add little scratches and pick marks as you please #and that’s it #you know maybe this would make more sense with an actual diagram I’m so so bad at explaining stuff agh #I’m gonna shut the hell up now 🙏 #trigun #nicholas d. wolfwood #trigun stampede #trigun fanart

[aalghul]

this is like a shot of happiness juice for me

#like. the emphasis on red hood and intel. this is after their first meeting since jason's resurrection btw! (if you ignore brothers in blood #which is exactly what the outsiders does here lol) #after i read morrison's jason vs dick as batman i reread this and really it's healing #also reread this after i read teen titans vol3 47 i think? this is just my fav go to when i miss the ideal post resurrection dick and jay

[benevolenterrancy]

Jin Guangyao Is In Desperate Need Of Human Contact And Is Constantly Trying To Find Ways To Make Himself Feel Safe: Therefore He Would Definitely Be A Little Spoon, In This Essay I Will

#it is the ideal situation #mdzs #nieyao #jin guangyao #nie mingjue #jgy #nmj #meng yao #i joked about it early but this is one pointless headcanon that i am committed to #he gets to be tucked away and have an entire human body (strong powerful cultivator body) between him and any potential danger #don't care which ship just committed to the sleeping arrangements #my art #i don't know why i keep trying to shade night scenes i hate night scenes my colours and shadows never work out in night scenes... #but here we are