#which has been draining

[moonlightpirate]

I'm sorry I'm such a slacker for updates on my fics. This month has been a tough one and I swear my creative energy has like died. But I'm hoping since the next few days I don't have to be up early and don't have much going on in serious due dates that I'll be able to get something out

#had an essay due #have had lots of negative energy around me #which has been draining #ive been working a lot #and a lot of early hours #and it seems no amount of sleep is helping with those #along with the essay ive had so much schoolwork due #i feel ive been running to catch up #im finally feeling caught up #just need the creative energy to catch up #and its trying #typed some for my far from the madding crowd fic last night #got some inspo for the witcher #so getting there #slowly

[khaotunq]

ฉันเคยกลัวความรัก

Khaotung Thanawat & First Kanaphan, The Eclipse (2022)

#the eclipse #the eclipse the series #akkayan #akk x ayan #asianlgbtqdramas #theeclipseedit #mushiemaradame #userjamiec #userbon #and bon made a post yday that reminded me #bc this has been in my drafts since mar 5 #(which shows that it took me at least #full 2 days to even commit to announcing my url change lmao) #i am emotionally and physically drained but i hope this absurdly long gifset of a real-to-me kiss brings some of u joy #the originals of these are all 540px but they uploaded as 500px so whatever #my edits #my gifs #mine: the eclipse #mine: akk #mine: ayan #mine: thai bl #mine: akkayan #the thai is the first line of over the moon #(i used to be scared of love) #on all levels but physical i'm still here

[heynhay]

heynhay klance animatic when?? 🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨 with all that free time of yours

#I NEVER SHOULD HAVE BEEN NICE TO YOU FUCKERS #NEVER SHOULD HAVE TOLD YOU SHIT. #the answer to your question is. never. because for some reason i have no problem cranking out 50 separate concept drawings #but having to do 50 sequential drawings within the same concept seriously drains me #like even those mini comics when i finish (and they only have 3-6 drawings) im like WHEW that has a kick to it #im gasping panting on the verge of throwing up from exhuastion #which is all a shame becuase when driving to work i visualize some absolutely bangin ones #too bad you will never see it #ok ok maybe someday id do like. a short one. a sampler. like 30s. #but its also a matter of i dont know how to use/access any of the programs used for boarding on timelines #so it would just be a mess of folders on one psd or a mess of 50 dif psds #its exhausting me to even think upon rn #ask

[bloodbathfortwo]

” It was a necessary means to an end. ”

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#murderous intent #like minds 2006 #alex forbes #like minds #I LOVE HIM SO MUCH #I'M HAVING SO MUCH FUN MAKING THEM MOODBOARDS #i haven't really been making anything lately which sucks. #it's been draining these past few weeks and my mind isn't the nicest and it has affected my productivity and creativity. #i just want to keep on making my little silly #freaky stuff but instances like these will always appear out of nowhere whether you like it or not! #So knowing I've done something this small to at least contribute to our fandom will always warm my heart!!! #i love this fandom so much and I will always dread the thought of ever having this certain fixation of mine of ever going doormat. #I'M SORRY FOR RANTING #ANYWAS #I LOVE ALEX #I WANNA SQUISH HIS CHEEKS #AND RUFFLE HIS ABOMINATION OF A HAIR.

[strqyr]

rotating the qrow, clover, robyn, and tyrian scenes in V7 in my head bc the potential implication for the summer, raven, salem, possibly spring? mess is. well. it's something.

qrow, clover, and robyn go to arrest tyrian and it goes smoothly until it doesn't: clover follows ironwood's orders to arrest qrow, the whole thing turns into a mess that tyrian is enjoying immensely, the ship crashes, robyn is unconscious and thus sidelined, qrow and clover fight—"we don't have to fight, friend." "you don't know my friends. that's how it always goes."—tyrian gets involved, and clover dies—it's not qrow who kills him, it's his weapon, but he blames himself all the same—"i made a deal with the darkness, and he paid the price."—and is also blamed by others who weren't present (like harriet).

yang, who wasn't present, believes raven killed spring. raven says it was mercy. (and while jaune technically was the one to kill penny, it was cinder who fatally injured her and put them into that situation in the first place.)

qrow: why couldn't you just do the right thing instead of the thing you were told? raven: i'm sure they told you plenty, and you just sat and obeyed.

clover's semblance is good luck -> he dies -> qrow's semblance seemingly evolves to include good luck as well.

if spring was involved, then obv she was the maiden -> she dies -> raven becomes the spring maiden.

the episode is literally called with friends like these (who needs enemies?) ('war' is a great song btw) (all about that friendship and family and betrayal) (with greatest hits like:)

you screwed me in the perfect way / a friend betrayed / just another mourner / content to follow orders and just a mindless weapon / pointed at an enemy / a simple tool providing someone else with victory, with the latter echoing 'time to say goodbye'—are we heroes keeping peace? / or are we weapons / pointed at the enemy so someone else can claim a victory?—as well as 'this will be the day'—a story will be told / and victory is in a simple soul—referencing ruby / silver-eyed warriors(?) (hi summer).

idk if this is anything but if it is, it has layers upon layers.

#rwby #this has been keeping me awake at night #ramblings ahoy i have arrived #the mission was going well #until it didn't #at which point it went down the drain faster than you can say oh no

[theswedishpajas]

Finally drew the boios 👁👁

#my art stuff #digital art #comic book #comic book style #beetlejuice #toonjuice #posijuice #negajuice #I’ve been having a lot of pressure on my shoulders about what my art looks like since the take the L thing #but I’m really happy with this piece and that’s really important to me rn #i know this kinda style isn’t anything new with me and I’m very good at it #but the fact I made something and really liked it in general #no matter my experience in art #just makes me so happy and relieved #I used to do commissions and pushed myself to go iver and beyond with my art in general for such a long time #it drained the joy out of it for me and I found myself unable to enjoy what I was making #(which has always been a very self-centric activity and a way to express myself) #so once it became about others it just broke down around me #and I was getting really scared this new surge of notes was gonna put me back there #but me finishing this piece and LOVING it shows I’ll still be okay #so this is probably always gonna be a very important piece of art to me

[famewolf]

feeling a little burnt out tbh so I think I'm going to just try and relax as much as humanly possible to avoid crashing and burning like I usually do this time of year lmao

#[static] #work has been ..... Unpleasant #home life is wonderful and amazing as always but man i spend so much time at work fklghfdgf #it's around this time of year where i start to think 'what's the fucking point of working the job i do' and i have an existential crisis #even trying to play games rn is just Too much for my senses. I need to just enjoy silly non-serious things for a week or two I think #been hanging out with friends outside of work which has helped a lot! #i need some whimsy among the constant horrors which I feel bad for needing since it's 100% a privilege to be able to have that #it sucks that work drains my happiness away!! it's really just a couple of people there that make life miserable for everyone #there's nothing anyone can do about it ... alas ... we must continue moving forward because that's all we are able to do #i also feel bad because I started ME3 but I'm going to have to put playing it on hold until I'm in a much better headspace to enjoy it #it's been really amazing so far but it's incredibly intense and sad and i know it's going to eat my heart by the time it's done with me

[fdragon-art]

Day 160 - Stretching One's Back

"With those shoes, it looks like John's about to start a run.

...does John even do runs normally?"

#homestuck #john #john egbert #year 4 #art #It feels like it's been a while since I've drawn a body with any level of serious intent even though the last one was just over 2 weeks ago #(And the last body I drew was only 5 days ago which is hardly any time at all pfft) #Honestly this map has been draining but it's really coming along~ ^^ #But its biggest drawback is sucking away creative energies for other pursuits (except when I'm weirdly energetic it seems XD)

[ducktracy]

i am literally so mad that i have waited years to write this review of Daffy’s Southern Exposure and when i finally do i get the worst cold i have had at least within the past 5 years and am too sick to write a substantial amount. like come on. COME ON! i would almost rather it be COVID because that’s at least a valid excuse!!!!! sorry this post nasal drip made me nauseous and then i got mad that i was nauseous because i also had a bad stomach bug two weeks ago that also prevented me from writing. needless to say i hope you all enjoy the review when it’s out because my goodness it is giving me a hard time. thank you for your patience again 😤🙏

#i’m so maddddd i was writing a good amount today too and then bam nausea because of my stupid sinuses draining!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #i have lemon ginger tea but i can’t even taste it because i’m so congested #this has been worse than the two times i had COVID because my COVID symptoms manifest as fever and aches and fatigue and i can at least just #sleep that off!! not with this stupid cold!!!!!!! #i used to get colds literally every month when i was still in school and my drama director once said i had the immune system of a gnat which #is true. so i’m lucky that i haven’t had a cold this bad/maybe at all at least since i graduated high school since that was pre covid times #but since i’m not not used to being substantially sick anymore it means i’m gonna complain about it when i am sick so there 😤 #okay. sorry. just needed to bitch. back i go to playing Animal Crossig and Pokémon i guess since my body can’t handle any more than that!!!!

[thebirdandhersong]

popping my head through your window (and possibly shattering the glass woops) to say: I am alive! I've been spending time with family, studying (I can safely say now that Professor Joy is the best and I would 10/10 follow her back to England to take her course at King's College if it weren't for the financial part. She was SO lovely and her class was amazing), preparing for fall classes, chipping away steadily at my essays and my fairy tale novel, hammering out the occasional blog post or poem, cooking, sleeping (or trying to, anyway), doing social things (I had one thing almost every day this week and it just about killed me. Thank God the person I was supposed to meet up with today cancelled, otherwise I'd be pretty much dead), reading TONS (am currently reading Sophie's World, War and Peace, Aggressively Happy, Jamie Smith's On the Road, Gordon Fee's How to Read the Bible for All Its Worth, and the Heidelberg Catechism for kicks, as well as working my way through a few class readings), and have caught up with a few stories I meant to catch up with (in other words: went to watch Barbie in the theatres, which was brilliant and not what I expected, and finished The Bear season 2, which.... I don't know, guys, it was a Lot). Things have been BUSY on the school front and many concerning things have been revealed BUT all is well and all shall be well!!

I shall be back in September. At present things are still SUPER busy. But I shall keep y'all in my prayers! Miss you and love you!!

#this fall semester is going to be Interesting #(@gracie you thought i had tons of midterms last year?? girl i'm taking FIVE english classes this semester....... i'm literally going to be #up to my eyebrows in midterm essays tests and exams in a handful of months) #anywayyyy it has been intermittently emotionally draining because previous church drama #also i have not yet chosen a church to attend which is suchhhh a hard decision to make. after the last one i've found that i'm actually a #lot more reluctant/hesitant/scared to commit to a church out of fear of being unpleasantly surprised again #but i'm trying to work through that! #but overall everything is fine and i am slowly getting up to speed on a lot of things i was behind on #God is good y'all! and very kind in the midst of all This!

[aeide-thea]

sometimes it really is just like. is this all there is. feeling oversensitive & undersocialized—too sensitive to socialize—forever, bc you never got enough ~affirmation~ growing up (poor, pathetic baby; how long will you persist in singing the same self-pitying song…), & so never developed the proper emotional cushioning against the heartache & the thousand natural shocks, &c, &c, &c, &c, &c…

#like—you can't get close to people if you're too raw to bear the inevitable grit of misunderstandings and small incompatibilities #we all fail one another. sometimes in a myriad of small ways‚ sometimes in big ones— #sometimes you and people you care about are simultaneously failing each other on separate but parallel tracks #and ultimately you have to be able to bear that and keep reaching out to people anyway‚ as you hope they will to you #and i just. i need so badly for something—someone—to be new and good and an easy fit‚ because i haven't got trying in me #but also frankly i wouldn't trust anything like that if it appeared to me‚ at this point #molly grue voice how dare you come to me now &c #i'm a fussy person whose capacity for delight has drained away #and i think it's SO important to be kind and yet still so often i don't manage it #despite biting my tongue SO often that it hurts‚ which has taught me to feel there's nothing acceptable abt my own reactions #and i never MEAN to be pompous or dickish or whatever but caring about precision and conscientiousness and whatnot isn't in fashion #so i'm pretty sure that's how i come off to most people #and there's no prospect of anything changing and it's just like. sometimes in the night i think. well. i'm basically already dead then. #like. the last‚ i don't know‚ almost-decade at this point has been a slow painful process of sinking ever deeper into exile #stripping away various social positionalities and connections in trade for—nothing. #alien nation. #all the norms are shit but outside them—what is there. #anyway. #feelingsblogging

[cloudy-with-a-chance-of-chaos]

People people people

Having a job is hard

i want to go back and be 6yo again

I woke up, went to work, came back and i'm working AGAIN i mean-

I miss BEING A WRITER or just playing games that would be NICE

#rant #i'm just tired don't mind me #this one gig has been draining me more than i anticipated #BUT THERE'S HOPE #it's Carnaval next week which means #tiny vacayyyy #yaaay #ok i'm done #back to work #non writing #non sims #rambles

[callixton]

oh i am on the Brink of a mental breakdown. and like a real one. i am going to feel so so fucking terrible and guilty if i don’t go to the first week of mac rehearsal bc i need to recover but i am also getting the sense that i Need to recover. i have never been this burnt out or genuinely terrified of starting a new semester in my life.

#we go back to campus a week early for mac. to be clear #and god they’ll be long days and they’ll be physically emotionally and mentally draining and i genuinely dont know if i can take that #but i am also going to be missing SO much time. and i won’t be there to support the people who i need to #i have also. been thinking a lot about how i’m scared that i think so much abt death bc i’m gonna be one of those people #who seem even more than everyone else like they have a finite time and then they die young #and then my mom compared me to jonathan larson tonight #so maybe that’s some sort of sign that i need to slow the fuck down #i am crying rn. for myself. which happens about three times a year #and yeah one is usually during winter break so we’re on schedule #i don’t know. idk!! i don’t know what to do here #and i still have to do my fucking scene prep for tomorrow #bc i was talking my mom about it and i really needed support which she was giving and then she has to leave for five seconds #and when she came back the entire conversation was just about her own problems again which we’ve already talked about every fucking night bc #- you can’t leave conversations with her and i hate when she fucking drunks i hate it i hate it #i am Not Well. i’ve sort of been avoiding admitting to myself just how badly #but man. i can push through anything until i drop but when i start wishing that i’ll drop so i have an excuse for a break….. not good #ted talks #the west wing

[jutsuuu]

girl help I’m experiencing

#weird addendum but pls don’t reblog my vent posts??? why would you even want to???? #everything has been So Much lately and I wasn’t gonna vent but then I remembered this is my blog and I can do what I want #one of my best friends left the country last week and he’ll be gone for like two years and I’m so sad without him around #I mean he’s been messaging me every day since he left but it’s still hard not having him here yknow? #and I’m moving into his place but it requires a lot of work before I can so I’m always exhausted #and my joints have all but given out on me completely so I’m always covered in KT tape and braces #which doesn’t gel very well with moving furniture and heavy boxes #and I have no money so I need to be job searching but I can’t do that until I move. BUT I NEED MONEY TO MOVE #on top of that my grandpa died and there’s so much family drama involving that it’s unreal #and weirdly the thing I’ve recently felt bad about is I’ve been neglecting my self imposed Fandom Duties #maybe not fandom specifically but like. creative duties #I want to write fic. I want to draw. I want to read and comment on other people’s stuff #I also really want to do more of my non fandom writing because I want to get something published this year. but i got no good idea aaack #or early next year #and I’ve just had like. no time at all to do any of it and the time I have had I’ve been too drained to do it #ughghghghghghggh #I think today I will drink and try to write something. as a treat. #after I go on a reblog spree to bury this because emotions are very embarrassing #anyway how are you?

[menlove]

I love chronic fatigue it's just. does literally anything at all. needs to lie down for many hours. often even just sitting in the living room watching tv is too much energy.

#I can't even watch gossip girl in peace 😭 #there's rlly no solution either huh :/ #I don't have a diagnosis of cfs but I'm like 99% sure that's what it is and has been for years #most likely cause being lyme disease from when I was a kid which sucks but like. what can u do #I've just always been this tired and it's hard to articulate. everything is just draining always

[muselexum]

<3

#sending you all so much love #it's crazy how a year has zipped by #every so often i'll come by and check up on the dash and i love seeing all the familiar names <33 #I'll prolly write a more official post in the new year at some point #but im so eager for this work contract to end at the end of this year #im grateful for the job in many ways but in others it was really burnt me out and drained me #ready to turn a new leaf in the new year #and hopefully get some of my creative motivation back when my mind clears #ive put even art/painting on the sidelines as well this year which is something im sad about #but on the positives I think ive had a lot of personal and emotional growth this year that im really proud of!! #(still dont have a driver's license though.. LOL OOP) #and ive really worked on my anxiety and depression. like even if this job is burning out and depressing me// I don't feel DEPRESSED ya kno. #ive just been experiencing a lot of personal growth and change #and the people around me in my life have told me that they've seen changes in me this year too so :') #BUTTTTTT #I so so miss my creative outlets and I feel like I've neglected that this year #I went from escapism to fully avoiding the outlets so now I think it's time to transition into the healthy middle #anywaaaay #hope yall have been doing amazing #love u all and ill probably pop in here for the holidays <33 #blows u all kisses #ooc #tbd