#ughghghghghghggh

[jutsuuu]

girl help I’m experiencing

#weird addendum but pls don’t reblog my vent posts??? why would you even want to???? #everything has been So Much lately and I wasn’t gonna vent but then I remembered this is my blog and I can do what I want #one of my best friends left the country last week and he’ll be gone for like two years and I’m so sad without him around #I mean he’s been messaging me every day since he left but it’s still hard not having him here yknow? #and I’m moving into his place but it requires a lot of work before I can so I’m always exhausted #and my joints have all but given out on me completely so I’m always covered in KT tape and braces #which doesn’t gel very well with moving furniture and heavy boxes #and I have no money so I need to be job searching but I can’t do that until I move. BUT I NEED MONEY TO MOVE #on top of that my grandpa died and there’s so much family drama involving that it’s unreal #and weirdly the thing I’ve recently felt bad about is I’ve been neglecting my self imposed Fandom Duties #maybe not fandom specifically but like. creative duties #I want to write fic. I want to draw. I want to read and comment on other people’s stuff #I also really want to do more of my non fandom writing because I want to get something published this year. but i got no good idea aaack #or early next year #and I’ve just had like. no time at all to do any of it and the time I have had I’ve been too drained to do it #ughghghghghghggh #I think today I will drink and try to write something. as a treat. #after I go on a reblog spree to bury this because emotions are very embarrassing #anyway how are you?

[venusinverted]

actually going fucking insane my stalker found my Instagram (ig not that hard to do it shares a name with my main but) and I just want it to fucking end

7 years of this shit! 7 years and I have not spoken to her once! please leave me the hell alone!!

#personal #I actually want to punch something she cannot take a hint #shes also found accounts that have nothing to do with my other online profiles #like my fucking pinterest that I used as a teenager #and she'll make alt accounts to dm me weird shit to trya nd get me to reply #ughghghghghghggh #anyway if youre my mutual and someone named cambionkid tries to get to me through you block them

[stahl-konigin]

[oh fuck my brain lol]

#♔THE WRITER IS SPEAKING #i hate myself and im a waste of spalce #*space #ughghghghghghggh

[nonbinarypendragon]

is it bad to rearrange plans a bit of something huge comes up? i’m supposed to spend the day with a friend tomorrow (my lil 10 yr old friend who’s like my sister) but i just found out like 5 minutes ago that one of my close friends from middle school is going to be in town for the first time in like two years and she wants to see me

#i really want to go see my friend #but im gonna feel so guilty if i have to go see my 10 yr old friend late #im already in this weird guilty state where i feel guilty just for existing #either way ill feel guilty because ill feel guilty if i miss seeing my other friend bc she'll only be here for a day #ughghghghghghggh