#which I would have accepted

[nelu-chan]

They should invent a myself that can be proud or happy about accomplishments

#seriously i am a bachelor of science #I never felt like that was something I could be proud of #because it only goes on #now I'll be a master of chemistry in less than a month #and I will get my degree and that is it #I will go to work the next day #I will just continue and do a phd #and again it wont feel like an accomplishment #i did it so what #what other options were there ever for me #which I would have accepted #it could not have been anything but academic degrees #it could never have been something else than natural sciences #or math or medicine #I'm too bad at math and had to wait at least 2 years to start medicine #so they are off the list #I cant be a teacher because I would adopt every child that is not treated well in their home #why could it not have been a Latin major or literature #because I needed to learn to value art and language by myself #I actually dont know where that perception came from that things that are passionate are worthless #ah yes it was my school system #my siblings did not nearly turn out as fucked up as I am about that #the overachiever is speaking instead of studying #I am like so close to handing in my thesis #two days #but writing the conclusion and getting it printed feels so bad #idk #maybe I am just afraid

[merrikitten]

well my abigail hobbs hot take is that she understands alana as a shade of her mother (kind but blind, ineffectual and powerless), hannibal as a shade of her father (the monster who protects her and kills her in equal measures), and will as a mirror of herself (which is why she is repulsed and frightened by him despite all his efforts to connect with her)

#I think will feels the same way too which is why he flips out so much when he realizes the truth about her #if they could have understood and accepted each other it probably would have saved a lot of grief #hannibal #abigail hobbs #will graham #hannibal lecter #alana bloom #meow posts

[anakirui]

hot take ??

the only reason people say that "mafuyu and tsukasa have nothing in common" when presented with mafukasa parallels is because they equate mafuyu and tsukasa being similar to "tsukasa has depression" because the fandom equates mafuyu's personality to being depressed and nothing else.

it doesn't help that people (primarily younger people in the fandom) who DO believe in mafukasa parallels end up making the mistake of portraying tsukasa as depressed because as of right now he is not (although it's possible he was in past because of his Very Unclear Middle School Backstory but that's irrelevant)

anyways, mafuyu and tsukasa are narrative foils because their core personalities are built off of the concept of wanting to make the people around them— especially their families— happy.

they both developed personalities at a young age based on someone they looked up to. for tsukasa, it was seiichi amami's performance that inspired him to be a star— a hero that could cheer anyone up. for mafuyu, it was her mother taking care of her that inspired her to be a nurse— and you can see the similarities from there.

for mafuyu, her identity would first come into conflict when her mother expressed her want for mafuyu to be a doctor— suddenly, "everyone's" happiness didn't match what she wanted to do, leaving her in a state of disorder and eventual depression.

for tsukasa, his identity was something he nearly forgot in its entirety at the start of the main story— becoming arrogant and fully absorbed in a hero persona, forgetting the kind person he truly is. furthermore, his current character arc seems to be foreshadowing that what "being a star" to him is going to be called into question— maybe it is something more than just being the main character that saves everyone.

their insecurities are incredibly similar.

in mafuyu's first mixed, mafuyu feels insecure towards ichika because unlike ichika, she feels as if her lyrics have no genuine meaning to be expressed to other people— despite them being her very real feelings. this is brought up again in her second mixed as well.

in tsukasa's third focus event, something similar happens. when watching seiichi's performance, he thinks that his acting is "real" and feels inferior towards him, which is ironic because tsukasa has been method acting this whole time. when tsukasa is acting out rio or bartlett or really anyone at this point in the story, it's not just those characters— it's a reflection of his traumas.

just like mafuyu, tsukasa undermines his passions he's poured his feelings into because someone else's work is more genuine in his eyes.

now, then, foils have many similarities and parallels (and i could honestly list a lot more), but how i define them is that they usually have some kind of major branching difference that MAKES them foils.

for mafuyu and tsukasa it's pretty straightforward.

mafuyu's people pleasing behavior comes from external expectations and pressures— her mother's demands.

tsukasa's people pleasing behavior comes internally, from himself— if he can't meet his own standards, if he can't be the perfect big brother or the perfect star, then he is nothing.

and even then, there's some overlap.

tsukasa's behavior was indirectly encouraged by his mother praising him for being a "good big brother" over the phone instead of asking him if he was okay while home alone.

mafuyu's terrified to be herself around other people because she doesn't want to worry or bother them— she doesn't want to be a burden— and projects her mother's expectations onto them, not realizing that they would prefer the real mafuyu if they knew the truth.

and the concept of mafukasa being foils is most perfectly and blatantly portrayed in these two cards.

mafuyu, the marionette, sitting limp on the floor— puppeteered by her mother's demands and donning a mask to hide her true self.

tsukasa, the jester, standing above everything else— puppeteering silenced plushies— his feelings. he's not being completely honest with himself, and he doesn't even realize it.

mafuyu has cut her strings and ripped her mask in half. she has acknowledged her true feelings and expressed them to her mother, even if she had to run away in the end.

tsukasa has not yet cut his.

#project sekai #colorful stage #prsk #tsukasa tenma #mafuyu asahina #mafukasa #theres also obvious ones im sure you all know. like how theyre the sole sekai creators #or their designs paralleling eachother (color schemes of their eyes and hair) #or how theyre both connected to the moon and bunnies #and how theyre connected by a piano with a moon design thats only shown up in mafuyus 2nd mixed and tsukasas 2nd mixed... where they had #their first mixed events together #or how they both easily overwork theirselves #or how theyre almost always projecting onto other people as if their experiences are the norm #ex: tsukasa with rui in wonder halloween and mafuyu with niigo in main story #I CAN GO ON ABOUT THIS FOR HOURS AS YOU CAN SEE . #EDIT: HERES SOME MORE THAT I DIDNT REMEMBER AT 12 AM LAST NIGHT #theyre both connected to apples! points at tsukasa in fixer 2dmv and points at mafuyu2 #literally all of their vocaloids parallel eachother. #wxs and n25 miku have a childlike sense of curiosity #wxs and n25 rin are based off someone that isnt them for the most part (saki and ena) #wxs and n25 len are both anxious and pessimistic (in island panic... wxs len has a conflicting pov from meiko and wants wxs to just stay in #the sekai instead of being stuck out on an island... which is kinda escapist as hell) #wxs and n25 meiluka have conflicts that are very similar. n25 meiluka represents mafuyus inner conflict between isolating herself and #helping everyone because she didnt know what would be better #and wxs meiluka is the conflict between tsukasas ambition and his fatigue #which is why wxs meiko always acts like wxs luka is a burden whenever she falls asleep— tsukasa himself wont rest #not when he thinks it will burden other people #and wxs and n25 kaito are both driving forces in tsukasa and mafuyu accepting their true feelings #(although tsukasa is kinda not where mafuyu is yet i think you get what i mean)

[chloesimaginationthings]

Happy Birthday!!

TYSM FOR ALL THE BIRTHDAY WISHES! YOU GUYS ARE TOO KIND 😭💜

#ask reply #IM ACTUALLY floored over how much love and support yall have shown me #I WOULD of been happy with one birthday wish but yall blew it out of the water 😭 #I can’t possibly reply to all of you but know I’ve read each one!! #I can never gage how much I am apart of a community #especially seeing I’m not particularly a social person which always worries me #BUT GUESS those worries are squashed cause I feel very accepted in now 😭 #TYSM to all of you again #I hope I can keep making art yall enjoy for many years to come! 💜💜 #it’s the very least I can do for all your kind words and endless support 💗

[keirientez]

Pokemon trainer AU, Reborn is the champion meanwhile Tsuna is his apprentice. Tsuna’s design belongs to my friend @Cloud_Knee (Twt or X)

#katekyo hitman reborn #r27 #sawada tsunayoshi #reborn #my friend and i discussed about which pokemon would be in their team. eevee and umbreon was ther for their similar looks to r27 lol #flygon is a good candidate bc yk. leon. and for tsuna suprisingly we liked the idea of meloetta (bc meloetta has two forms like how tsuna- #-has his normal vibe and his dying will mode) #for reborn we thought of him having a liking for bug types bc of his bug communication skills. like his seasonal bug thing #we also thought of lore for a whole game which was heavily based on pokemon mystery dungeon bc we wanted death (future arc spoilers oof) #but general beginning plot is: tsuna dislikes having pokemon battles so all his pokemons are non-combat #- somehow he meets reborn (? idk maybe bro trips and got silly and he now owes reborn something). and reborn then seeing how close-minded- #tsuna is he decided to accept tsuna as his apprentice so he finally gets it #we discussed about tsuna also seeing reborn often at a lot of places but never got in contact (bc we thought of him living on a mountain idk #like how everyone cant see through reborn’s disguises but he can. so he’ll just see him around (bc reborn is hiding himself from the public) #as a champion. yeah #yeah thats about it i think. ive forgotten most of our ideas dkdgkgfhfhfj maybe another time

[stealingyourbones]

Today is the second time I’ve found a bone in fast food chicken nugget esque items.

When will my curse of finding bones in unsuspecting things end.

#bones speaks #i brought it to the manager of the store bc I know they would greatly appreciate having the bone to test to make sure it isn’t a- #huge food safety issue if it isn’t a chicken bone #they comped my meal which I didn’t expect or ask but I accepted bc I don’t want them to think I might sue bc I’m not taking compensation #they were very nice. much nicer than my McDonalds bone finding where they didn’t offer to comp the meal but instead offered me MORE- #CHICKEN NUGGETS YA KNOW FROM THE SAME BATCH I FOUND A BONE IN #the one I just found was most likely chicken. the one from McDonalds was absolutely a small rodent bone. probably a mouse or rat #i just wanted to try out some chicken fries after not going to Burger King for 10 years and instead I found bones :(

[originalartblog]

Good morning~

#chuuya just scooted over to Dazai's side during the night. stole his pillow and everything #vee (@videogamelover) started sending me pictures of orange and black cats and saying they were skk (and co) #and of course there was a picture of two cats cuddling and it's been proven that it's the easiest way to make me draw cuddles #bsd #bungo stray dogs #bungou stray dogs #bsd fanart #bsd chuuya #bsd dazai #bsd nakahara chuuya #bsd dazai osamu #skk #soukoku #nawy's art #me drawing chuuya's legs: harukawa this is 4 u #featuring my (correct) opinions on what chuuya's living space would have in it #which are mostly music-related and some trinkets/pictures to remember people by #that guy is 22 and didn't have his own space + the will to make it his own until he was like 16-17 i will not accept 'fancy' designer looks #it's 2 sound systems some collector edition guitar mounted on the wall a vinyls collection and general punk/rock vibes all around #no he can't actually play any of the instruments in his home

[lokh]

mom avoids dead anime mom curse because he transitions. he’s always had a complicated relationship with pregnancy because of how woefully little people are told about potential complications and aftercare, and also because of how gendered it is, so after the birth of his second child he’s finally had it and decides to transition

he joins a local community group for mothers and at first it’s played for laughs how often they fall to the dead mom curse, but soon we find out more about how society has failed mothers and people who give birth, from information being withheld, procedures being carried out without consent, lack of accommodations and maternal and paternal leave, racism…

it also turns out that becoming a man doesn’t help with this, not really, because being a pregnant trans man brings its own problems. follow along as he learns more about being a parent and a mother, and maybe even… finding love???

coming to you never because I can’t write!

#if the japanese is bad. MY BAD LMAO #this was also a joke for me at first but then i was like well hang on..... #my initial romance thought was his husband leaves him after the transition and eventually a new single father ends up joining the group #cos he like. idk misread the flyer as being a new parents group but the group accepts him with open arms #and hes drawn to the only other guy there and well u know wink wonk. #then i thought well come on thats not. very nice rip what if his husband sticks with him. #but thats why u have more than one trans guy LMAO so it doesnt become bad tokenism!!!! #the older kid also has a complicated relationship with his mom transitioning tbh #art #wow original art from me... ummm. #he also wears glasses but not all the time #GRAPHIC DESIGN IS (NOT) MY PASSION!!!!! #I WANT YOU TO KNOW IF THIS WOULD EVER BE WRITTEN IT WOULD BE GROUNDBREAKING INCREDIBLE. #but it wont because one that would imply that i finish writing anything ever. #two it would require so so much reading. which you should be doing you should be researching. #but the point is there would be a lot because i would think 'oh it had to be perfect' and then would never do it. on top of already #never finishing anything.................. #ocs

[heynhay]

i want them fighting like children as in pushing each others faces away, i'm not touching you with a finger a centimeter away, tripping each other in the hallway bc somehow that's flirting do u see the vision or am i alone

we may never diagnose what the hell their problem is

#klance #voltron #vld #oh anon. do i see the vision? #I LIVE the vision. you are literally describing my opinion of klance #which i think is canon tbh like #watch the show! if anyone thinks keith isnt immediately sinking down to lance's taunts you're kidding yourself #i fucking. like. this is the only acceptable klance dynamic to me. full of hate #listen to me anon. look at me. #even if no one else were to see the vision (though i have faith many do) #i am confident i would die on the battlefield with you. on this hill in particular. #ask #art #my art

[skunkes]

#a doodley #the funny thing being real human cheye uses the shower daydream to get his own ass in there #had to scribble this out before i (we?) showered bc i knew the feeling wldnt be there after... #i have a cow al smunker scribble i wanna get out afterwards #i was gonna make a version where talon also has some Option Text but #i dont think its the same. like he'd struggle to say thank you but its a fleeting accepted thing #unlike smunker who has to quickly analyze and toil between all options to stay true to himself while not making talon upset #or making a joke that would cause talon to shy away again #talon doesnt need option text you can see it all in what he doesnt say; which he relies on because he wont say it. #hmmmm i may remove the final smunker option text #its good for gimmick continuity and character but not for punchline #ok edited it out ^_^

[gideonisms]

I become 300% more of both a lover and a hater when I'm on my period. just a time of the month when I have strong opinions I would say

#i want to kiss a butch for 3 hours. also i'm the only one in the world with correct opinions about everything #me the main character of life #anyway i saw this post complaining about sanitized mass marketable queer art #where the person described themselves based on the interests i guess they thought were most stereotypical and then were like #isn't there something rawer or more real than this #to which i would say there is! but you went to the queer market day #idk it is a frustration of mine too i do get it #but i think some people could stand to just get weirder and like the things they like #idk i buy cute little queer stickers all the time but i regularly stand out as a strange person in both queer and straight communities #get a friend who worked the same shit job who will sell you abstract alien art they made while they were high it's not hard #go to goodwill more. you'll find some raw expressions of humanity. #if you just want your interests to be more genuine to you it's simple #you just have to accept that maybe 2 other people will be able to rec you music or foods you enjoy #being more specific isn't everything it's cracked up to be sometimes #i think the problem here is mainly capitalism

[appsa]

OBSSESSED w marcille and laois first meeting apparently being because she thought he kidnapped/forced falin to drop out of magic school and chased after falin to save her probably ajdgdkdhd

#and now laois is her bestieeeeee 😭🙏 #ok fr i love how many things this opens up for me abt falin like...... #falin was bringing marcille all thid food as excuses to hang out w her and marcille didnt get it #so its like. while falin adored marcille she CLEARLY didnt feel secure in that friendship #which is why she jumped ship the second laois got there #i also have to womder how much of it just like... falins unreciprocated feelings #cause marcille is an elf n just doesnt see falin as a peer in a lot of ways/ refuses to because of the whole short lifespan thing #also in laois's mind falin looks unbothered but. #actually she isnt unbothered he knows exactly how lonely she was #but i womder what it would be to hear what falin feels abt his abandonment #im just kind of obssessed w laois saying 'i wont abandon her again till she finds someone better' #i wonder if falin thought laois had left her.... for someone better..... leading to her lack of assertiveness now...... #leading me to think falin would have never accepted toshiros proposal lmfaoooo she wouldnt have left him to go somewhere foreign alone #dungeon meshi

[communistkenobi]

I’m thinking about how administrative leave requests would work in starfleet and it’s gotta be a huge pain in the ass right. vulcans would probably need a special expedited leave request process for pon-farr, because they become violent/die if they don’t excuse themselves to have sex asap, but this is probably a narrow accommodation only granted to vulcans, so if they were dating a non-vulcan who had to go through normal, slower leave request procedures that would cause logistical issues cuz emergency pon farr admin leave only works if both parties can do it at the same time, so if you’re a non-vulcan dating a vulcan you would have to probably apply to get that accommodation extended to you, and because I’m assuming starfleet operates on the same punitive logics as contemporary bureaucracies do, they’d be paranoid about non-vulcans “cheating the system” by falsely claiming they were dating a vulcan to get their leave request expedited, so they’d probably require proof of marriage or long-term cohabitation with a vulcan in order for a non-vulcan to get approved for that kind of thing, meaning casual or otherwise non-normative vulcan/non-vulcan couples in starfleet would be administratively marginalised and (re)produce a culture deriding interspecies dating, especially because humans seem to be kinda default racist towards vulcans in star trek in general, so they would probably view a human dating a vulcan as getting “special privileges” for administrative leave even though it’s just a basic accommodation. this is a classic example of how administrative apparatuses operating on a liberal conception of equity can reproduce systems of racial discrimination

#tos.txt #also would probably need recorded proof of your species since humans and vulcans can have kids together so that would be a whole other thin #which would also definitely be racist #watching tos -> experiencing untold bureaucratic horrors at uni -> wondering how spock and Kirk would get approval for pon farr ->this post #like racism appears to be a systemic thing in star trek! perhaps if I use gay sex as an example racist tos fans will finally understandthis #+ also this is a vector of liberal acceptance eg gay couples being able to participate in the nuclear family so u would get institutional #normative acceptance predicated on exclusion of the non-normative #anyway .

[tomurakii]

Look Kristen is a kid so its understandable and Ally is great and I'm sure has a plan for this. But Kristen should not be a cleric lol. I hope that after the wizard synogue incident Cassandra takes the Archfey deal to keep herself safe and Kristen loses her powers because honestly based on her RP that girl has NO wisdom. She has NEGATIVE wisdom. If you don't like the gods currently on offer but can't take responsibility for keeping a new one alive (because you're a kid) then you should just respec. Pick a charisma-based spellcaster class that doesn't require a bunch of work like the Int classes or responsibility like the Wis classes. Give up your soul to Fig (or just give it back to newly-Archfey Cassandra) for Warlock spells idk.

#like I know kristen is a vessel for exploring the experience of growing up in an abrahamic religion and like. developing as your own person #which is why they're working within the existing forgotten realms universe but foregoing the usual pantheon #and replacing it with Sol and Helio which are just God and Jesus metaphors #but that kind of self-exploration usually ends up in either atheism or non-abrahamic philosophies like buddhism no? #neither of which are compatible with the cleric class. like kristen clearly doesnt really like being a prophet. she cant handle it #have her awaken latent sorcery or something. I'd honestly accept her becoming a druid even though they also have a lot of responsibilities #but like shes GONNA kill cassandra if cassandra doesnt leave her first #and that'll be the second god that she created and then killed with her neglect. she may have been helio's chosen but shes a shit cleric #pretty much all teenagers would be shit clerics #maybe she can come back to it later #but cassandra girl you gotta flee. take your cat and your magic and run #d20 #fantasy high #fhjy #kristen applebees #fantasy high junior year #dimension 20

[spacedlexi]

people who think clem surviving makes no sense are so funny. "they were literally foreshadowing her death the entire season" let me introduce you to the concept of a red herring. she tells lilly she isnt lee and shes right. the narrative was forcing her down that path, a path she saw as an inevitable fate waiting to take her too, but its a narrative broken by aj, who is also his own person and not S1 clem

"it happened to lee, and itll happen to you" lilly tells clem she'll die protecting aj from some mistake he makes, when in reality his defiance of her will is what saves her life after she had already accepted her fate. he breaks clem free from the lee cycle and they get their relatively happy ending. good for them

#anyway in the commentary they talk about how they Were going to have a death ending but didnt like the idea of the good/bad ending #and how people would moreso try to avoid the 'bad end' which i understand and appreciate bc thats usually what happens #so instead they gave us both :) idk why some people seem to have such a huge problem with that #they broke the cycle :) the ericson kids broke the cycle by being a loving community :) they all break the cycle by refusing the delta #lilly and minnie were both lost to the cycle. lilly with her dad and minnie with lilly #minnie couldnt let go. clem almost did the same and it would have killed her too. but aj makes a Choice and it saves her #god even tho clem is noticeably happier in s4 shes still so gd depressed and Tired. she accepted it so fast im so glad he saved her #like idk you saw her come back on screen after that massive fake out and you got Mad?? i was crying twice as hard #i know ive made this similar post before but like i still see this criticism in 2024 and i just have to laugh now #it speaks #twdg #i just love the narrative threads of S4 bro.... seasons 1 and 4 are two sides of the same coin and i love that. its satisfying

[puppydoggraham]

Thinking about how Will Graham views his anger as righteous which of course extends to Hannibal. A lot of his anger in s2 is over the fact that he finally trusted someone only for that person to betray him but it’s more than that. It’s more than just what Hannibal did to him. What he’s truly deeply angry about is that Hannibal knows his dark nature and not only knows it, but wants him to embrace the very nature he’s desperately trying to suppress.

He’s supposed to be the one that’s perceptive. He’s the one who is supposed to see it all while remaining unknown and unseen. And yet Hannibal recognizes what kind of person he has as soon as they meet. It’s not supposed to be that way. He hates that Hannibal is the one person he can’t hide from. Who will always see through the facade he puts on for others who buy into it. That’s why when Hannibal essentially tells him in s3 that he hasn’t changed, he’s fuming. If just Hannibal can believe he’s changed, maybe he himself can believe it too.

But he doesn’t. And deep down Will knows that’s just what it is too: a facade. Hating Hannibal is really just him hating himself at the end of the day. He takes a lot of his displaced anger out on him. He has these violent murder fantasies about Hannibal that symbolically can be read as him trying to kill off this part of himself. He can’t kill them off. Suppression only works for so long. The fantasies only grow stronger.

It’s only when he gives in at last during TWOTL. When he stops supressimg who he is. When he stops hating himself for it and overthinking about the act of violence. When he allows himself indulgence. This is when he experiences being at peace with himself possibly for the first time ever. At last, the internal battle that rages on inside him calms. The voices in his head go quiet. Even though this is brief, he knows that what he and Hannibal experienced on that cliff is a moment of peace in a lifetime of unrest. He doesn’t take it for granted, which is why he says what he does. When he stops fighting Hannibal, giving into the violence and also his touch as they embrace, it represents that he stops fighting with himself too. And isn’t that the most beautiful thing in the world?

#hannibal #nbc hannibal #will graham #hannigram #hannibal lecter #hannibal meta #you guys always get my Hannibal analysis #well it’s will hours baby #I’m feeling very will lately which means you get will analysis #I’m so will graham like genuinely you have no idea #I feel like everyone says they’re will bc he’s haha awkward autistic loner #and trust me I’m that too #but I’ve personally had so much of a battle with suppressing myself and shame and not letting myself have desire #especially over things not socially acceptable #and that resonates so hard with me #also the displaced anger #and a lot of my anger I would describe as righteous since it’s directed at those who have harmed me #okay maybe the person who said I write will well has a point #I also have a lot of self hate and don’t believe I’m able to be loved anyways #will graham I love you #literally typed this out like I would die if I didn’t get it out #also he denies affection too in addition to violence #or violence serves as a stand in for affection #(hence the line about speaking to him in a language he understands from chiyoh) #so on the cliff he accepts not only violence but affection #he accepts Hannibal’s love he stops running from it #the dual acceptance agh #so many layers #the way you can tell from how he holds onto Hannibal he’s just giving in completely #in that moment he was probably like what do I even do he’s not used to that