#where the fuck am i gonna find another place to create one of those in dw that doesnt seem too out of place.

[quietwingsinthesky]

but i dont want to do any of that because i like even having their little watch! they’re accessorizing!

#(finds a bullshit reason to give them a different chameleon arch watch aldjfjlfjsk) #where the fuck am i gonna find another place to create one of those in dw that doesnt seem too out of place. #perhaps 13 uses the chameleon arch at some point that i dont know about and i can just have even steal it. just for a little bit. #thats their comfort item doctor you have to understand. they need it. #dw oc

[wannab-urs]

The Spreadsheet Digest - Vol 17

Hello darlings!

It was another big week - 24 fics! I should really start sleeping at night instead of reading until 3 am.... oh well. Enjoy the fruits of my sleep disorder!

You can find the Spreadsheet in all it's organizational glory here and all of my previous recommendations here.

Recommendations below the pedro meme (created by @gasolinerainbowpuddles)

Ravish -a Joel series by @psychedelic-ink

I've read a few like... cam girl/chat service/sex work type AUs and I have to say this is one of my favorites. I really really love the little Dieter cameos. And a little birdie (the literal author) told me he may be making an appearance in a future installment??? I am so excited ugh. Joel is like... stunningly hot in this despite being the kind of guy that falls in love with a cam girl. Yummy yummy

Seven minutes in heaven (the bathroom) -a Frankie one shot by @tieronecrush

A fun twist on the bathroom quickie trope. Frankie is so filthy in this fic and it is fantastic. I really like the ending also. Made me giggle

A Savage Place - a Joel series by @gasolinerainbowpuddles

SUB JOEL MY BELOVED!!! This is one of those more realistic sub joels where he's confused as fuck about liking it, but he really clearly needs someone to take control for a little while. I really fucking love this so much. (there's pegging in part 2 @ my pegging enthusiasts <3 ) Reader is hot as hell, also. GOD I love this.

Whistle in the Dark - a Joel series by @gasolinerainbowpuddles

Romantic cucking <3 No but okay the like basic plot is that your husband is a piece of shit who cheats on you so you like forcibly cuck him with Joel and Joel has feelings and it's sooooo hot and so good and like... affirming? and sweet? And your husband deserves to have his dick cut off bc he does something real fucked up, but having to watch Joel Miller dick his wife down GOOD is a start.

He hurt me but it felt like true love - a Joel one shot by @iamasaddie

Mean sexy Joel is pissy cause he found your dildo and he's gonna make that your problem. It's so hot. Vaginal DP????? GOD DAMN. Someone said DP isn't depraved a while back (eyeroll). They should read this. This is beautifully depraved

Feral Woman - a Joel series by @gasolinerainbowpuddles

This series has me feeling so many emotions. Watching FW/reader/Julia/Bug heal over time and learn to trust again is so fucking good. Susan is the light of my motherfuckin life I love that woman with all my heart. This series is GORGEOUS

Endless Night - a Joel series by @gasolinerainbowpuddles

yes i basically worked my way through Puddles' masterlist can you fucking blame me look at this shit. Anyway. EnNi reader/OC is, on the surface, the sunshine to Joel's grump. But the thing I love about her is that she's got this underlying darkness that adds so much depth to the grumpy x sunshine trope. I'm also eating up the borderline enemies to lovers dynamic going on here. Joel is such a dick lmao. I'm so excited for the rest of this fic.

All the good girls go to hell - an Ezra one shot by @psychedelic-ink

DUBCON with PRIEST EZRA yesssssss. The Haunted Hoedown is the gift that keeps on giving. This fic is so fucking HOT. Ezra as a priest seems so wrong and so right at the same time. This is excellent. I'd gladly go to hell for this man UNF.

Three's a crowd - a Marcus P/Javi P one shot by @agentmarcuspike

Marcus motherfuckin cute ass baby Pike watches Javier Peña fuck you. Yeah. Cucking Marcus Pike. That's what this is. Marcus is also characterized perfectly. Like this is so fucking cute actually. And it's really hot. obviously.

Begging for you to take my hand - a Joel series by @jupiter-soups

This fic is driving me up the wall in the best way. Joel is a big dumb idiot man who is like... not emotionally intelligent enough to realize he's in the wrong while trying to do what he perceives to be the "right thing." Here's what I commented verbatim on part 2 "Joel 'You Deserve Better Than Me' Miller back on his bullshit. I love this so much. Joel is so sad and so stupid i kinda wanna hit him." So if you're like me and you like to watch Joel be a sad little idiot who is also super hot.... this is the one

Refuge - a Joel series by @cool-iguana

GAH THIS IS SO GOOD!!! This fic really situates you in reader's head. Like you feel disoriented and frustrated and scared when she does and you feel like a powerful badass when she does and it's SO good. Basically in this one your husband joel shows up with some kid who is def not your kid in Jackson after you've been there for a hot minute and it's a big wtf moment. There's some other shit going on that I don't wanna spoil but like... this is so good. I know I keep saying that but GOT DAMN

Exposed - a Javi P one shot by @atticrissfinch

big fat dub con warning on this one. I so rarely see Javi written as a creep and I really fucking enjoyed it. I would like to humbly request more creep!professor!javi p

The Apprentice - a Dave York one shot by @pedropascalsx

This has like mafia!au vibes while not really being that, but what I mean by that is that the big bad murder daddy who you thought you'd be scared of saves you from murder father (ur dad). I really liked the characterization of Dave in this and the smut was HOT

Stockings - a Joel one shot by @atticrissfinch

Daddy kink daddy kink daddy kink. This is inspired by a photo that literally looks like denim shirt joel is helping you put your stockings on. This fic manages to be adorable and aggressively hot at the same time. I am in love.

Slumber - a Joel one shot by @cool-iguana

I love a good somno fic. also this is literally their 2nd fic they ever wrote and it's so good?! TALENT. There was a thing in this that caught me off guard bc I fully did not read the warnings, but I was not at all mad about it... HOT

Yearling - a Joel series by @justagalwhowrites

Holy motherfuckin shit balls dude. I'm noticing that I'm reading a lot of Reader-Who-Is-Extremely-Traumatized fics this week and I refuse to examine why that is but also they all have handled the heavy content very very well. Anyway. Reader is super duper good with horses and Joel is so soft and Ellie is so Ellie and I love all of this. I really love the way Kit builds the world in her fics. Like the opening chapter and then the way Bambi's back story is built up and the spaces that she exists in, they're all so vivid and good and real to me. I'm so fucking in love with the way Kit includes these details like reader singing and playing music, joel's coat, the light on in the house when Bambi is gone. It feels like nothing is there just to be there, like it's all important and it has a significant impact on the story and man... (also if you're worried about starting a longfic that's not finished, it updates like twice a fuckin week. Fast writer lol).

The Cabin in the Woods- a Dave York one shot by @xdaddysprincessxx

Getting kidnapped by Dave York and held in his cabin in the woods. Dark dark dark fic and so fucking well written. Love this <3

Isn't She a Doll? - a Dave York one shot by @proxima-writes

You are Dave's perfect little housewife and that is definitely the only thing going on here. Nothing out of the ordinary at all. (just read it)

Who do you call? - a Joel one shot by @chloeangelic

Your hot neighbor Joel helps you get rid of a spider! How sweet of him. Oh and then he rails you on the couch. I really love the way they have a whole conversation while they're fucking about how long it's been since they've fucked anyone. Chloe just has this wonderful way of infusing humor into really really hot fics that I adore

Does your mother know? - a Joel one shot by @cupofjoel

Another bathroom quickie for the rec list and god DAMN this one is hot. Close Family Friend!Joel (god I love putting this man in situations). There's something about being forced to stay quiet that just makes everything hotter.

Cellmate's Nephew!Joel - a Joel series by @toxicanonymity

JoJo is actually the love of my life. His tattoos, his voice, his dick print.... sigh. Can't wait to get out prison so this man can rail me on every available surface between the prison and Mabel's house.

The Man That I Love - a Joel series by @lumoverheaven

Joel is an idiot who doesn't know what he has until he almost loses it. The first part is heartwrenching and sad and I love it. The second part is wonderful and makes me tear up a lil

I said I didn't feel nothing, baby, but I lied - a Veracruz one shot by @iamasaddie

Veracruz is so hot. I swear that man could punch me in the face and I'd suck his dick for it (that is not healthy oops). This lovely little drabble is literally just you getting your ass spanked so raw you won't be able to sit for a week and it's HOT AS HELL

Creep - a Joel one shot by @theywhowriteandknowthings

Joel Miller is your super hot creepy neighbor and he manages to get you to fuck him and that is definitely the only thing going on here. nothing fishy at all. nope. totally normal reader fucks her creepy neighbor fic. (just fucking trust me and read it ok?)

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Happy Reading!

#fic recs #the spreadsheet digest #fanfiction recommendations #pedro pascal #pedro pascal fanfiction #pedro fics #pedro pascal character fanfiction

[chaoskirin]

Fucking. Stop it with the AI Art.

I’m extremely upset by people I respect using AI art more and more. I don't know what to do about it, from the people in comments being like "shut up, people have been inspired by others' art for centuries" to others saying "it's just a tool."

A lot of those people don't know how AI art is made, and either won't believe a factual explanation or just don't care. Datasets aren't "inspired" by art. Datasets are machines. If they're asked to do something, they output their best guess as to what it is you want. Recently, a very famous artist, Kim Jung Gi, died, and someone on Twitter fed his art into a dataset and spit out new art that LITERALLY could have been made by the original artist. And this person just... didn’t see a problem with doing that. He called it an homage.

SO MANY people don’t see a problem with that, either. I don’t get it.

The truth is, AI is replacing artists.

That’s not debatable. From an AI entry in an art contest winning first place to Cosmo using AI art on a cover and bragging that “it only took 20 seconds to do” AI is being used to push artists out of careers.

And let’s all be honest here. If you need a portrait, it must be at LEAST a little tempting to ask MidJourney to do it, because a portrait of similar quality is going to cost you a couple hundred bucks from an ACTUAL artist. And if you pay a dataset to do it for you, it might run you $8bux at most. Easy as fuck, man. And that’s the problem... Why pay a real artist to do it when you can get nearly the same result in 20 seconds?

This might seem doom-and-gloomy, but no one can tell me it’s gonna be okay. No one has offered a logical counterargument to me. No one's said "look, here's why you're fine" and given me a reason that doesn't have a logical rebuttal.

The reason I find it so difficult to keep fighting is because there's no one reason AI art is bad. There's dozens. And more become evident every day. So if I make one argument, I HAVE to be prepared to make another, because someone is going to counter with another argument that has to be refuted. And so on and so forth. I just don’t have the energy to keep up. ALL OF IT IS BAD. The only advantage is to the people who want cheap, fast art.

I’m not gonna name names here, but... There are people out there with the platform to stop this, and it's so demoralizing that instead of taking a stand against it, they are feeding into it. I offer to educate someone and I’m ignored. Immediately after, that person posts more lensa self portraits. God, it’s so fucking frustrating.

Sometimes I do wonder: Am I on the wrong side of history? Is AI art just another panic-scare like photography? Does AI art really have a place in our future? The difference is, photography doesn’t steal other peoples' art. In fact, there are court decisions out there that give artists rights against their pieces being photographed and used without permission. Likewise, photographers are protected against their art being used by traditional artists. (IE, you can't make a sculpture from someone's unique photo. True fact.)

But there’s no protections in place for artists against AI. And so many people don’t understand that the art fed into the dataset is what creates the pieces. It doesn’t draw those things itself. It uses what it has, cobbling things together, to produce something it calls “new.” I saw someone in a Twitter comment say “lol that’s just a collage.” What a fucking bad faith argument. I know those people see the difference between a collage and art theft.

There’s so much more misinformation going around than truth, and people are just parroting it because they want to play with their new AI toy. No one is thinking critically. No one is looking at where this could go.

What’s going to stop people from creating an AI dataset that imitates CCTV footage and places innocent people at the scene of a crime? AI art is getting good enough that with a little tweaking, this is almost possible. I could absolutely do it myself right now, with the number of people feeding their faces into lensa. I have other fears, but that’s one I can post about, because I’m pretty sure my face isn’t inside an AI dataset at the moment.

Anyway. I’m angry. I’m tired. And I just don’t want to draw anymore.

#ai art #not bestiary

[morethanmeetstheass]

alright, let's do the lowdown of "where the fuck has suna been all this time." probably gonna be long so ill put a keep reading, but tldr: life got bad, life got better, im working on existing in fandom space again

SO. i cant remember the last time i posted, so let's start at where shit went bad. 2020 baby, the rona hit, i graduated college virtually, lost my job, and ended up having to move to another state bc new jobs were so hard to come by. started anew down here in maryland, though a little worse for wear bc i went from living with my 4 best friends to having exactly 0 friends. very isolating, no fun. got cats, one of them died, so that didn't help at all.

fandom-wise, iacon online was both a huge benefit in my life and a huge pain. a lot of stress and misery went into that convention, but a whole lot of good came from running it. i ended up getting the chance to do 3 covers for idw, which was a massive blessing. became friends with multiple members of the cybertronic spree, made new friends with other organizers, got to accidentally roast james roberts to his face.

but it was also very stressful, and admittedly, my love for transformers did a huge swell and then took a big hit. i spiraled into a weird pit of having no interest in anything, lost interest in writing my fic, and started exploring other parts of my life. especially when idw lost the license to transformers, because fuck, now if i want to do covers again, i gotta make MORE connections. i was just very tired and burnt out. started hating all my artwork and despising how i was drawing for validation instead of passion.

sort of accidentally became a prominent creator on tik tok, so i got to explore other parts of my life that got lost in the transformers shuffle. got a new job working remotely, adopted another cat, things were looking up. then my apartment had a fire and i spiraled again, even worse. my mental health still hasn't recovered. it is a miracle that my belongings, health, and pets were ok, but i didnt even feel safe in my own home anymore. still struggling with it almost a year later, even in a new apartment. its been hard.

but i was shuffling on spotify today and stumbled onto my blitzbee playlist, and i got a little twinge in my tummy. i miss transformers. i dont miss being completely consumed by it, but i want to reintroduce myself to the fandom, start making mecha art again, as well as other art.

and i swear on my life, i WILL finish my fic. even after all this time, i still read all the comments i get on roe, on aufn, and especially kwz. i see how many of you want me to finish it, and i want to too. and i will. itll just take me some time to reintroduce myself to the fandom, to get comfortable with creating out of a place of love rather than out of a place of need for external validation. roe was a passion project, and its so clear with how much it was loved. it was good bc it was made out of a place of excitement, out of me genuinely wanting to share the story, not just wanting the likes and kudos. and im feeling that passion again. not 100% just yet, but i am.

so yeah, thats the deal. life has settled. still suffering with post traumatic stress from the fire and trying to feel safe in my space again, but im improving. im finding love for transformers again. im finding love for a lot of things again, and i dont want to box myself into one passion or the other. im a lot of things and i want to give myself space to love all of the things that i love. and robots are one of those things, but not the only one.

blitzbee forever. i will die a dirty bee kinnie and a blitzy simp.

#suna speaks

[agentplutonium]

WIP Wednesday

I haven't done one of these in forever, and once again haven't been tagged. Either way you guys get the littlest update on what I am working on so that I am held responsible for what I do. ANYWAY

(if ya'll wanna do something too you should tag me! I love seeing people's works :D)

This week I wanna show y'all two snippets, one from my OC work and one from a fandom I rarely talk about on here. I'll start with the fanfic stuff first (all is gonna be under the cut because I think it looks cooler that way)

So, here I present a part of my Cher & Sherlock character study. These guys are from NeXus (created by the one and only @mr-laveau which can be found on their youtube channel). This mostly is just me seeing how my Characterizations of these two listener characters play out with one another. That and I have been itching to write something NeXus related since the second video on the channel. Anyway:

The clock ticked on the wall. There was the occasional shout from outside the apartment. Cher sat at the table, shoulders rigid, fingers tapping the wood beneath them impatiently. The wood was smooth under their arm, the back of the chair digging into their shoulder blades. They wanted to keep moving. They wanted out of here. They wanted to keep everyone safe. Cher was dropped off at Alonzo’s and his partner’s place to be babysat, despite what Uriah told them. He said it was for their safety but they felt Uriah didn’t trust them, or that he thought they couldn’t take care of themselves. It was humiliating. Not to mention this was probably putting the lovers out of their way just to be there with them. They did not want to do that to them. They were not worth the amount of effort the two vampires were putting into them.  Suddenly, a mug was placed before them, snapping out of their thoughts. Owl, what Cher has taken to calling Alonzo’s partner, took the seat across from them, a matching mug in their hands. They were silent, not looking at Cher. Their presence wasn’t… unwanted, but Cher still felt on edge. Their fingers stopped tapping. They couldn’t help but analyze the situation, Owl’s body language, the way they kept their eyes on the mug in their hands, the mug that was left suspended between the two of them. But Owl just fucking sat there. The silence lasted for a few more moments. “It’s just hot chocolate, I’m not trying to kill you,” Owl said, those eyes finally glancing at them. “Thought you might like something to do than just sitting here.”

(You will probably be able to find this fic soon on my AO3 :D)

And now my favourite part of this: the part where I get to show off my OCS. If you haven't seen anything before these two are my god characters. They are the sole reason why in my world anything exists. They are literally my heart and soul you guys i don't know if you understand. ANYWAY, snippet of the creation of the Strix:

Terra had been messing around with different designs for a bit, shaping and reshaping the clay in her hands in an almost bored manner. None of the designs were sticking out to her, and weren’t exactly how she was picturing things. Normally, this wasn’t such a problem. She was usually able to perfectly recreate what she was thinking. However, each time she did just that she found that the design was impractical, or didn’t look the way she imagined it would. In all honesty it was starting to irk her quite a bit.

She was about to give up on the design, but tried one more time. This one was also imperfect, but… Terra thought it had potential. It was a small, winged creature that Terra was going for, but there were a few things that she fixed or added. One of them was a short, curved, needle sharp beak. The other was sharper talons as well. After messing with the colours for a bit, making them a clash of green’s and blue’s, Terra brought the prototype to life. It slowly became mobile, turning it’s head from side to side, watching Terra curiously. Terra held out a finger to it, and it readily hopped over onto it, turning back to Terra and giving a small chirp.

Terra grinned, mouth stretching wide as she watched her creation. “Well, hello, little one,” Terra said gently. “You’re not as big as some of your cousins, but I think you look absolutely adorable.”

The creature chirped in response.

Terra only smiled wider, nose scrunching in the process. “Well then, what shall we name you and your siblings? Hm? Any ideas?”

The creature didn’t respond, only tilting it’s head in the other direction. Terra pursed her lips as she thought.

“What about… finches? No, that’s a bit to human sounding. We need something different.” Terra hummed, reaching up to gently stroke her fingers over the creature’s feathers. She had gotten an idea, and her eyes lit up. “Oh, what about Strix? That’s a fun sounding name. What do you think?” The creature chirped again, and Terra smiled. “I’m so glad. We’ll have to tell Caelus next time we see him, I did promise I’d keep him-”

“Tell me what?” Caelus asked, beside her all of a sudden. He settled next to her on the ground, eyes immediately falling to the Strix. “Never mind. I figured it out.”

Terra gave a sheepish smile, holding out the Strix. “Don’t you think he’s cute, though?”

Caelus didn’t seem like he did. He was never very good at hiding his feelings, especially not from her. “He’s… something,” Caelus said.

Terra swatted at his arm playfully. “Be nice at least. He’s technically yours too.”

Caelus looked spooked by the prospect, however he didn’t have time to comment on it before the Strix was hopping onto his knee. Caelus held as still as possible, eyes not leaving the thing.

“Aw! He likes you!” Terra gushed.

“And, uh… what is he, exactly?” Caelus asked.

“I call them Strix,” Terra said matter-of-factly, but she was already getting distracted.

Caelus stayed like that, staring down this creature. If he was honest, he actually didn’t mind this one all that much. It was a bit of an eyesore, but he was a bit smaller than the others. It was roughly the size of half his forearm in height. A manageable size. The creature chirped at him, and Caelus couldn’t help but give a small smile, reaching forward to cautiously stroke the feathers on the creature’s head. It looked like a freaky bird, he commented to himself.

Terra’s words caught up to him then, and he snapped his gaze to her. “I’m sorry, them? What do you mean them?”

“There’s more than one,” Terra said, like it was obvious, “I just haven’t had the time to make them. But-” She trailed off, taping the ground in front of her, at the feet of a few dozen more. They came to life in a blink, all staring at their companion and at Caelus. It was only a second more before Caelus was swarmed in a flurry of feathers and wings. Terra gasped, watching as the creatures settled and Caelus was covered with the birds.

Caelus did not look happy. Terra tried to keep her giggling subdued.

“Get them off,” Caelus said through his teeth.

“I don’t know, I think this look suits you,” Terra snickered.

“Terra-”

“Okay okay,” Terra said, though her amusement was still evident. She rose to her knees, hands reaching for the creatures, fanning them away or moving them herself. “Come on guys, you heard him. Shoo. Go.”

Caelus was relieved when they were all gone, but he was still grumpy. Terra giggled again.

“Oh come on, It wasn’t that bad! Stop being so grumpy. I saw you smiling at the first one, I know you secretly like them,” Terra teased.

“I do not,” Caelus denied.

“Uh-huh, okay, whatever you say big guy.”

Terra’s amusement was cut short when one of the Strix flew over and pecked at her neck.

“Ow!” She cried out, hand flying to the spot. She frowned at the creature who fluttered in front of her, looking up with that curious gaze of theirs. She pulled her hand away, only for it to come back smeared with blood. Her frown deepened even more.

“Are you okay?” Caelus asked, concern in his tone, half reaching toward her out of habit.

“Yeah,” Terra said, more mystified than in pain. “They shouldn’t… they probably don’t know better. They were just created after all.”

Caelus still seemed wary, but Terra didn’t allow for the conversation to continue. Instead, she started herding the birds up to place in a temporary home until she felt like they could join the rest of the world. It was going to be a while before they were accustomed to their new world, and Terra also had to train them on a few things to keep them safe.

This will be fine, Terra could feel it in her very core.

If you wanna read more, I also have this story about Terra and her realization that Vampires exist.

that is all I have, but but I love talking about my things and am open to any questions, and like I said i'd love to see y'alls work too!!

#plutonium_WIPW #plutonium_fanfiction #plutonium_rambles #Plutonium_Files #guys i need to talk about my things in order to get it written #it is a curse that I bear #ocs #original character #nexus #nexus fanfiction #that's right im starting that tag

[jakowskis]

Day 15 - Are there any ships you dislike?

alrighty so. there are only rlly four i ‘dislike’, and the first three… it’s more complicated than anything, it’s not entirely utter pure-n-simple disdain. it’s less about the ships themselves (in two of the cases, anyway) and more about how they seem to be perceived by the fandom + how much they dominate everything. other ships exist, guys! the other characters exist! anyway ill try not to be mean but i am gonna be petty, lol

so for starters, yeah, jack x ianto. i have a very specific view of it, that i do enjoy, but the fandom seems to be doing something else entirely and i've developed some resentment despite myself. especially bc it’s overrated as fuck. don’t get me wrong, it’s iconic, as far as being culturally significant gay rep, but if im honest idk how well they hold up in 2024? i thought their relationship in s1 and s2 of the show was lackluster at best. poorly written bread crumbs. and yeah i know it was big for 2006 but im just personally kind of offended that they could show them sucking face but not show the intricacies of why the hell ianto would fall for a guy who shot his girlfriend down?? like, their relationship is inherently dark and angsty to me and im interested in exploring that, bc the show certainly doesn’t (initially) bother to, and a lot of the fan content i see is either fluffy (??????????), or angsty in a Tragique way, or is just kind of… fetishy and whumpy? people slot them into a Specific Kind of Dynamic and it grosses me tf out. so the fandom culture rubs me wrong, and then it’s just… such a bummer to like owen and tosh and gwen in a fandom that only seems to prioritize this one ship. there are 22k fics in the torchwood ao3 tag, and 13k of them are janto. now, all that being said… they do intrigue me and endear me, just a bit. but it took the audios to make me give a fuck about them, which is sad. 

on that same note - i have the same relationship with tosh x owen, but i'm significantly less fond of it, cuz it just plain rubs me wrong. i like them in theory, so i spent months trying to figure out how to make them work and what other people are seeing that they think is so endearing and cute - i just can't find it. owen's treatment of tosh is just about the only thing i can't stand about him. he treats everyone poorly, but most of the rest of the cast defends themself (or even hit back, like ianto and gwen, and thats why i ship them with him! it’s spicy! i love balanced unhealthy dynamics in fiction hfdsjkf i can’t lie) - but tosh just lets him, creating an unhealthy power imbalance where she’s just getting hurt over and over again, and it makes me wanna fucking punch him cuz she does Not deserve that. i want him far away from her lmao. except under certain circumstances, cuz i have written fic about them, and i’ve read like three rlly good ones (and the main link between them is tosh stands up for herself and puts him in his place! i HATE how he walks all over her in canon ughhhhhhhhh). additionally, i do admittedly enjoy the angst of their canon arc. i just think fandom throwing them together and making it cutesy is lazy, uncreative, and an injustice to both characters. i think the SHOW throwing them together was an injustice to both characters, especially tosh’s. they're tragic and compelling, ill give them that, but theyre not sweet, and i don't think they'd be good for each other. 

(also worth noting on a show where everyone has tension w each other, imo barrowman & gareth and naoko & burn pull it off the least convincingly and have little to no chemistry. like every other duo just kind of sparks in some way or another, and neither of those duos do. which SUCKS bc they’re the canon ones. but it’s also heavily poor writing like they were doing the best w what they had. grr. like i still dont know what the fuck ianto likes about jack or what tosh likes about owen 😭 that’s ridiculous!)

the other ship i’m petty about is jack x john hart. i just think it’s far too popular for what it is. idek why that is, do we have a substantial amount of buffy fans in the fandom? don’t get me wrong, i liked john in the show + i liked their relationship as well, but i'll always be annoyed when a minor character gets more attention than the fascinating main ones. 

and lastly i hate john x ianto, because i respect ianto, lmao. i can’t lie, if he was my fav i’d probs ship it HJFKDSHFK i love putting my favs in awful situations. but as is it just grosses me out. get him outta there!! 

tldr: i don’t interact w the john hart side of the fandom, and if a fic is tagged 'jack/ianto tosh/owen gwen/rhys' i probably won’t read it 😷

#tdot #txt #i feel meannn fdshfjkd #idk how tumblr search works anymore i RLLY hope this doesnt go in any tags cuz im not interested in hurting ppl's feelings u kno #i dont wanna be smth negative in another person's fandom experience #lord knows i block owen haters HJKFSD cuz it bums me out to see so #but! yeah these r my thots n opinions

[kcarkwright]

Having Trouble Fleshing Out the Climax of Your Story?

Plot it like its own tale!

A climax is the accumulation of every little thing your story has built. It's the shining cap of a steeple, it's the temple at the top of the hill. It's the end goal, it's the acclimation of change, it's the result of hard work.

It's super easy to fuck up, too, and once it's written, its common for the author to feel like it just doesn't quite hit like they wanted it to. I've definitely felt like that.

A Climax is the peak of the conflict, but a lot of times, we regard it as just that—a peak. A singular bit of action that happens like an explosion of everything that's built to this one moment. Concentrate too hard on the flames, and you'll lose the awe of the explosion—of why it was placed where it was, how it got there and where it was aimed.

That's why, I've found plotting the Climax like it's own 3 point story has made it more impactful as a whole. Fair warning, below 'Keep Reading' is an essay—but hopefully one that'll hold the key to what you're looking to unlock within your story.

We're all familiar with this chart, right? It's the poster child for a perfect story. The Three-Act structure is simply an organizational tool to help you get a hold of that Beginning, Muddle Middle and End. What I want you to concentrate on is the stepping stones of the ascending action. That's what holds the key to creating a well-fleshed out Climax.

Each Climax of each individual Act can also be referred to as it's Plot Point—an incident that directly affects what happens next in the story.

It's Edmund being persuaded by the White Witch to bring his siblings into Narnia, it's Luke returning to find his Aunt and Uncle murdered. It's something that shifts the plot ever so slightly that, by the end, the entire tale has shifted into the storm of the butterfly affect.

Write that butterfly affect.

When you're writing your Climax, whatever it is, start with an inciting incident that gets the ball rolling. In Avengers: Endgame, the Climax is Tony Stark looking Thanos straight in the eye and muttering, "And I am Iron Man," before wiping the foe from existence—but they didn't just get there. The Avengers Compound had to be attacked first, an Inciting Incident to push the rest of the battle into play.

With a Climactic structure like this, luckily, you don't have to wait long for that first Plot Point, either; whatever has incited the fight should immediately dive into the first Plot Point. If you're behind enemy lines, it should be the first attack. If you're trapped at sea, it should be that first giant wave that beats the boat. If you're Luke Skywalker, it's finding Chewie, Leia and Lando captured after avoiding Boba Fett. By dodging Boba Fett and running further into a corridor to avoid him (inciting incident), Luke discovers his friends captured (Plot Point One).

What follows next is the Pinch Point—a reminder of the antagonistic forces. Your character is now engaged in the Fight, and is reminded why it's a fight; because the foe is still oh so strong. Maybe they're wiser, maybe they're stronger. in The Terminator, it's when Reese is wounded by gunfire while escaping from the hotel. This moment is when, after your character hits the town, the town should hit back.

Do this another time: your character(s) need to reach a Plot and Pinch Point. They need to win one, and lose one. This is where I'm gonna drop the allegories and let you in on a cool little secret:

Make the Plot Points here, somehow, reference the Plot Points of your actual story outline!

You ever see something so poetically called back to in media that you can't help but swoon at the writer's capabilities? There's some foreshadow that flew completely over your head, there's an action that connects this character now with someone from their past, or knowledge they learned from someone else's experience?

Yeah, we don't just magically do those things. Unfortunately, they take time, planning, and finesse. Or—you cheat. Like this.

If you reread the biggest Plot Points of your full story, you will, and I guarantee WILL, find pieces you can use as either foreshadow, or a callback. You can use that piece to either give the reader that 'aha!' moment that makes reading worth it, or show that your character has gone through a full arc by having them use something they've learned in the past. You'll find yourself weaving a poetic symmetry between characters, experiences and feelings, and feel all the more confident for it.

Now, once that second Plot Point comes and goes, the second Pinch Point should follow—and this is where you should make things bleak. Your Protagonist is injured, or loses a weapon/tool that, without it, makes the plot impossible to move forward. Maybe someone dies. Maybe they're trapped. Maybe they're swallowed by a whale, who knows. Your Pinch Point—the action that shows the Adversary's power—should lead straight to the Despair, where odds are stacked against them. It's Captain America standing alone and injured against Thanos' entire army in Endgame. It's Miguel plummeting from the backstage to certain death in Coco, it's Chris about to be wheeled to surgery in Get Out, it's Te Fiti missing from the crater in Moana. It's that moment where it looks like everything was for naught, and their mission will fail.

It's that moment that makes the Climax all the more sweeter as they make that leap to victory via the tools, knowledge, and friends you gave them throughout the tale. It's On Your Left, it's Remember Me, it's Jujitsu this motherfucker, it's Let her come to me. It's the moment your character gets to show that they're smarter, stronger, wiser, quicker, than the antagonist anticipated. It's the moment that shocks your reader into place, that makes them do that silly little wiggle we all do when we root for the good guy and they win.

It's how all these critically acclaimed blockbusters got their praise. And it's how you can get yours.

#Arkwright Academics #writer #writeblr #writblr #which one of those is it btw? #writing #writing advice #story writing #writing tips #writing community #creative writing #plot structure #writers on tumblr

[master-k0hga]

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| M O I |

[ Category: Misc OCs ]

| Loveable, friendly and very welcoming robo girl who's original purpose was an OC I created for an awesome group back on DeviantART and the admin was like the nicest person I've ever met online.. Sadly was only short-lived due to the said admin no longer in the world of the living that I don't wanna get into personal detail about..

Loved them to death but unfortunately along with their passing, the community slowly fell apart, so then I've decided to be respectful and have Moi be her own thing while also trying to keep the original meaning of said OC alive... Hence why she's an actual wonderful character and very much holds a special place in my heart along with a few others of mine..

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I just want those times back.. I want him back, I just fucking want him back I don't care if he really did or not I don't care about the "controversy" surrounding it I just need him back...

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INFO

Name: Moi Species: Love-Bot General Personality: Adorable, friendly, supportive, caring, shy, helpful, loveable Height: 5ft Relationship Status: Single

Extra Info:

Despite being very social, loving and talkative, she's actually the very nervous type

She comforts those who are dealing with bad times, whether it's a temporary struggle or long term; She will always be there for anyone in need

Her creator had been lost to her for a very long time that she is slowly wasting away due to no one able to keep maintaining her systems, her battery keeping her going slowly waning

Even though she's a robot, she feels very much real to everyone who she's helped.. Although even she can feel herself getting more and more tired

Loves arts and crafts of all kinds, also loves playing in parks and gets along well with the kids; Has been a babysitter on most occasions and loves it every single time

Contributes to a lot of places and services that either deal with mental health and wellbeing or even just in nursing homes in general. Always bringing many smiles to others

Has had a couple moments in her time where she would encounter aggressive or horribly behaved individuals, almost got busted and destroyed even though she was just doing what she was built to do

She can fix herself when it comes to minor damages or issues with her systems, but anything more than is completely damaging or anything or internal she would need external assistance for

Loves animals, especially dogs and birds, will literally gives scritches and hugs to every single animal or pet she comes across if she could

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That's it really, it's mainly just me re-introducing all the OCs with the refs and overall trying to further adapt and develop them as much as I can.. It's not really easy when motivation doesn't hit you the same way as it used to, I find myself not being able to get passed the designing, somewhat naming and getting the basic information about an OC before I either lose the motivation to do more or lose the will to develop the OCs any further...

It's not because I have loads, in fact that's fine and I just want to entirely re-design them, improve them and develop them so far ahead than what they originally were.. But I think it's cuz I'm getting older, I'm dealing with more stresses of life in general and am just getting to the point where I'm like...

"What's the point"...? ... It's not gonna do much for me in the long run, I'm not gonna get anywhere with this and all these other things.. It's just to give me something to do, I'm not socially active, I don't have the energy to spare after work and over all I'm too tired to do anything.... But oh well, that doesn't matter now does it..

.. Anyway, another one down... Several more to go..

. Moi, Art © Me . DON’T RE-POST .

#MASTER-K0HGA #Ary / Kohga Chronicles #Ary / Kohga OCs and Works #Moi #OC #Fandomless #Original Character #Misc OCs #Female #Love-Bot #My Art #My Character #My OC #Re-post #My art re-posted #I have so many older OCs that I haven't touched in an awful long time and they are in NEED to heavy updating/re-doing so.. #Yeah this is taking so fucking long honestly.. #.... #I love her very much..

[wifegideonnav]

I just finished Nona the ninth and my brain is fried. Please can you explain some things. Where has Harrow been this whole time? She is the one who Alecto swears to in the epilogue but where did she come from? And where is Alecto taking her and why? And how was Paul created? And why am I so devastated? So Alecto is actually the soul of the planet? And she and John are forever intertwined?

hi! i'm happy to explain some things to you, just keep in mind that i've only read nona once, and i'm still digesting myself. i'm also gonna put this under a readmore, bc this is def gonna get long

with that being said, let's get to it!

Where has Harrow been this whole time? She is the one who Alecto swears to in the epilogue but where did she come from?

so there are two halves of the answer to this question. first off, there's harrow's body, and second, there's harrow's soul or essence. harrow's body is the one that alecto lived in as nona, so her body's been there the whole time.

as for her soul: if you recall, nona makes several references to there being multiple souls within her, and one of those is harrow (it's also very likely that nona contained a piece of gideon's soul). if you recall, harrow's soul was in her dream bubble canaan house at the end of harrow the ninth, and through some process that we're still not quite sure of, her soul returned to her body and fused with alecto to make nona.

when nona got back to alecto's body, alecto's soul "hopped" from harrow's body back into her own corpse, leaving harrow the sole occupant of her own body (along with the piece of gideon's soul, which is incorporated into her own). so really, it's not that harrow came from anywhere; she was there the whole time, she just wasn't conscious. remember the chapters with john explaining the whole story of the apocalypse? these are dream sequences while nona is sleeping and alecto appears to be dormant, in which harrow relives takes alecto's place in her memories.

all that is very confusing, so to summarize: nona's body was harrow's body. nona's soul was a combination of alecto's soul and harrow's, with harrow's soul being more or less dormant. at the end of the book, alecto's soul returned to her body, leaving harrow back in control of her own body.

And where is Alecto taking her and why?

at the end of the epilogue, alecto takes harrow to where john is, on some spaceship iirc. the 'why' part of the question is a little harder to answer. short answer is, we don't know. presumably we'll find out when alecto comes out.

And how was Paul created?

paul was created via a soul merge between camilla and palamedes. since pal lost his own body, he and camilla elected to combine into one person, and achieve a new kind of lyctorhood. i would send an ask to someone else about this one, since like i said i’ve only read it once and it’s a complicated topic.

And why am I so devastated?

oh i feel you on this one. my answer: cause muir’s a fucking kickass writer and her books are incredibly good.

So Alecto is actually the soul of the planet? And she and John are forever intertwined?

yes, alecto is the human form of the earth’s soul. back when she was still in planet form, she chose john to try to help save her. he did so imperfectly, and ended up forcing her into a human body. all his power derives from her, and presumably she can’t exist without him either, so yes they are, as you put it, forever intertwined. 

who the heck is Annabel?

annabel is a nickname that john has for alecto! it’s a reference to the edgar allen poe poem, annabel lee.

why did alecto pledge to harrow?

short answer: because harrow more or less “is” the ninth house. longer answer: there may have been some kind of pact between anastasia and alecto that we don’t know about; we also don’t really have any insight into alecto, her thoughts and her priorities. this is another one that’s open to speculation, and i would ask around to get other peoples takes!

why can’t gideon catch a break?

probably bc she’s a ginger :/

#sorry i took a few days to answer this! i wanted to spend time on it #op #asks #nona the ninth #nona the ninth spoilers #ntn

[quotidian-oblivion]

Which of your Fics

Aaaaaaand another tag game which I found while binging through the writer tag game tag!

Which fic did you think would get a bigger reaction/audience than it got?

The most recent one - Greet Me With Open Arms cuz it was a requests fic where I asked people to give me dialogue prompts to use in a single fic. But then again, I posted it just yesterday. I'm just really excited about it and wanna know what people (especially those who put their dialogue prompts requests) think of it.

Which fic got a better reaction than you expected?

The Boy In The Cell, quite honestly. Cuz I thought people would ignore it due to how self-indulgent it was, but so many liked it! Thanks, you guys ^^

Which fic is your funniest?

Based on the comments, Phone Alarms. Quite proud of that one ^.^

Is your darkest/angstiest?

Ahh. Either The Boy In The Cell or There’s So Much Hurt (you can already tell by the title XD) These two cuz they cover darker topics like abuse and stuff. But if you count all the fics including the wips, then definitely this one wip i'm working on which is... pretty b a d. I mean, not the plot, the plot and characters and stuff is awesome! But in terms of rating the angst, its like- up there.

Is your absolute favourite?

Ahh. It depends on my mood, really. Sometimes I say My School’s Local Mafia Boss, sometimes Sometimes You Have To Find Your Own Genes, sometimes a couple of my wips (cuz fbhic i love the plots i've created for them like- bhfvifubhu). But right now? I'm saying I Feel More Than A Simple "Miss You" just cuz I put so much care into it, more than any other oneshot I've ever written.

Is your least favourite?

A Day In The Life Of Tim Drake. No hesitation. It's my first fic. Ok- sometimes, i am proud of it. But most times, nah. Cuz I wrote this on a whim bc i didnt like the thought of having an empty ao3 account and i did not think i would be actually writing fanfiction regularly. But here i am!

Which was the easiest to write?

I... don't know? I wouldn't be writing fanfic, or writing at all period. So I'm gonna say all of them.

The hardest?

As i said, I wouldn't be writing at all if it was hard so i'm gonna say non- NO. WAIT. THERE IS TWO.

Murder On The Stalker’s Turf and I Can See You. Cuz these were casefics and i was writing these while trying to get back into the flow of writing after a particularly hard and taxing writer's block.

Which fic has your favourite line/paragraph?

AHHHHHHHHHHHH WHY THIS QUESTION? DFHIUBF I'M SO INDECISIVE

OK. OK. SO I NARROWED IT DOWN TO THREE:

There’s So Much Hurt (both of them)

“You’re my son, Jason,” Bruce carried on. “Do you think that when you brought Tim over and started calling him your little brother, I wouldn’t start mentioning him as my son too?”

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Alfred tightened the bandages that had loosened and continued wrapping. At some point, Tim whimpered loudly in pain and squeezed Dick's hand so hard that both their knuckles went white. Jason swept a strand sticking into his baby brother's eye. "I know. I know it hurts, Timbit. I'm sorry." "Jason," the little bird said weakly. "Ouch." Jason smiled smally. "Yeah, bud. Major ouch."

Let Them Be Siblings

Steph blinked twice again. Then she rubbed her eyes tiredly and muttered, "Lord, please bless me some fucks to deal with this bullshit."

which fic have you re-read the most?

My School’s Local Mafia Boss No hesitation. One, to refer back to it while writing the series. Two, cuz I write fics for me first and foremost and so i very much love this fic and reread it quite a lot. Three, i cant believe how much attention its getting! why- ohh that's why, yep. And four, I'm feeling nostalgic and I want to visit the place where I made most of my current friends.

Which one would i recommend to someone reading your work for the first time?

Phone Alarms ig? Cuz it's really chill and cracky and I'm really proud of it. But if we're including wips, then I would rec the Bruce Wayne Writes Fanfic AU first XD

the one you’re most proud of?

Isn't this sort of similar to the favorite one? At least it is to me. Still keeping this question if other people wanna do this question.

No pressure tags: @uncertainwallflower @sardonic-sprite @tristicorde @wakkoroni @blightwritesfic @pevensiechase @ah0yh0y @foursixtwonineoh-pieces-of-lego + anyone else who wants to join

#quotidian convos #writer tag game #which of your fics tag game #fic recs #dc fic recs

[instantartific]

I've been wanting to write this whole character analysis on Nova, but every time I try, I really can't find a way to put it into words.

So I think this deranged rambling that jumps back and forth between screenshots and written text of what's there I went into with a friend sums it up perfectly.

There's a cut because this gets so unnecessarily long, and there should be a mild warning for vague reference to suicide and general frank talk of his poor mental health.

♡

I'M AT A POINT WHERE I'M TOO EMOTIONAL TO BE ELOQUENT SO I'M JUST LOSING MY MIND IN SHORT BURSTS.

ALL I CAN WORD RIGHT NOW IS THAT THERE IS NO WAY THAT MAN HAS THE MENTAL ELASTICITY AND SUCH WARPED WORLDVIEW OF A CHILD AT HIS AGE IF HE DOESN'T HAVE SOMETHING FUCKED UP WITH HIM.

HE CLINGS ONTO A COMPLETELY IRRATIONAL BELIEF THAT MAKES NO GODDAMN FUCKING SENSE WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT IT FOR LONG ENOUGH.

HE THREW AWAY A PRETTY GOOD LIFE THAT HE HAD IN ORDER TO PRODUCE MUSIC, ON A FUCKING DROP OF A HAT MIND YOU, JUST BECAUSE HE HAPPENED TO FIND HIS OLD TURNTABLES, AND THEN DECIDED THAT HE WOULD SPEND THE REST OF HIS TIME AND FOCUS INDEFINITELY TRYING TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO MAKE HIS MUSIC IMMORTAL.

EVEN THEN, HIS OWN WANTS AND MOTIVATIONS CONTRADICT THEMSELVES VERY CLEARLY.

HE GOES ON BOASTING ABOUT HOW HE'S BETTER THAN EVERYONE ELSE, BUT HE'S SO FUCKING IRRATIONAL.

EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM IS COMPLETELY BATSHIT CRAZY WHEN YOU LOOK AT IT.

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I am sitting like one of his students at a lecture listening intently.

THAT BRINGS UP ANOTHER POINT!!!

EVEN THE WAY THAT HE TREATS OTHER PEOPLE IS BATSHIT INSANE.

THE ONLY PEOPLE HE REALLY SEEMS TO PLACE VALUE IN ARE THOSE THAT HE'S PERSONALLY IMPRESSED BY.

EVERYONE ELSE IS JUST TREATED LIKE SHIT.

HIS WHOLE GOALS AND MOTIVATIONS ARE SURROUNDING THE CONCEPT OF MAKING HIS WONDERFUL MUSIC IMMORTAL, BUT THEN HE TREATS THE PEOPLE WHO LOVE HIS MUSIC TERRIBLY?????

HE NEGLECTS THE CITY HE'S SUPPOSED TO CARE FOR AND DOESN'T GIVE A DAMN IF THE PEOPLE IN HIS DISTRICT, THE PEOPLE WHO LOVE WHAT HE CREATES, ARE HAPPY OR NOT???????????

HE DOESN'T SEEM TO GIVE A FUCK IF HE'S LIKED, JUST THAT HE'S KNOWN, WHICH IS...

FUCKING SAD, HONESTLY!

VERY FUCKING SAD!

ALL OF IT AMOUNTS TO JUST WANTING TO BE KNOWN, AND IT DOESN'T MATTER WHAT MEANS HE IS!

BUT IT WOULD JUST BE NICE IF IT WAS FOR A GOOD REASON.

EVEN THE MERE FACT THAT HE SENDS HIS SHIT OUT INTO FUCKING SPACE IS INSANITY.

WHO'S GONNA FUCKING HEAR IT?

WHO?

WHO IS GOING TO LISTEN YOUR MUSIC IN THE VACUUM OF FUCKING SPACE?,????

HOW WILL YOU KNOW THAT YOU WERE HEARD?

YOU WON'T.

AND THAT'S THE FUCKING THING!

HE DOESN'T CARE IF ANYONE LISTENS.

THEY SHOULD, BUT HE COULDN'T GIVE LESS OF A DAMN IF THEY DO.

WHAT HE GIVES A DAMN ABOUT IS IF THEY HEAR IT, THAT'S ALL.

THAT'S THE ONLY THING HE WANTS, FOR THEM TO ACKNOWLEDGE THAT IT IS THERE.

ACKNOWLEDGE THAT IT EXISTS.

HE WANTS TO BE ACKNOWLEDGED THAT HE EXISTS FOR ALL OF ETERNITY.

I AM GOING FUCKING INSANE.

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I CANNOT.

I'VE HIT A POINT IN WHICH I CANNOT FUCKING ELABORATE ANY FURTHER.

JUST.

HIS ENTIRE PURPOSE IS TO MAKE SURE OTHERS KNOW HE EXISTED, FOR ALL OF ETERNITY.

AND ONCE HE'S FINALLY SATISFIED, HE'LL ALLOW HIMSELF TO DIE.

BUT THAT'S NOT GOING TO HAPPEN!

THAT WILL NEVER HAPPEN!

THE OLDER HE GETS, THE MORE PARANOID HE'LL GET!

THE MORE GENUINELY TERRIFIED THAT HE HADN'T DONE ENOUGH HE'LL GET!

HE'LL NEVER BE SATISFIED UNTIL HE WORKS HIMSELF TO OBLIVION AND DIES IN THE VERY THING HE STRIVED TO PREVENT HAPPENING.

I AM CLEARLY ELABORATING AFTER I JUST SAID THAT I CAN'T BUT ??????

TL;DR:

#i might sit down and actually put this into more pretty sounding words but this does it more justice than anything #i have so much to say about this man that i didn't even put here #he needs therapy. so bad. #anyways this is thinly veiled 'nova has npd' propoganda. #no straight roads #dj subatomic supernova #djss #nsr djss #ও musings

[daemonhxckergrrl]

re: your ask from greyr4t about win10: as you said in your answer its free, just needs a key for 'activation.' ime activating win10 has been worth it. like you mentioned, it isnt strictly necessary, one can make do fine in a somewhat limited capacity with the watermark in the corner forever (unless your monitor is an OLED then have fun with 100% guaranteed screen burn in lmao. or unless always seeing it enrages you disproportionately. as in my case). but having windows activated is honestly just nice, it makes many things easier and is more sustainable in the long run... worth the extremely minor hassle as like a QoL thing imo. you also brought up that its possible to circumvent microsoft (and its brazenly insane asking prices 🤬) & buy cheap keys online from third parties. i wanted to talk about how i did shit, hopefully it helps the original asker directly or at least comes in handy to know

so i bought my (shady bootleg, yes, but perfectly functional for years now) win10 activation key for even cheaper than what Synthia listed as a price point- iirc, under 5 bucks USD. (might be higher now w inflation, but id be surprised if its much more than around 10.) if things still work how they used to, you can do this on ebay. technically ebays policies dont allow it, so the accounts selling these keys come and go frequently due to getting shut down by ebay after popping up. thus, dont necessarily be put off if the seller hasnt existed for long, as often thats just how it goes (or it did. hopefully this sort of thing is still going strong🤞); do trust happy reviews. now, there are a few TYPES of activation keys– priced slightly different, nothing big– that correspond to different editions of windows 10. so basically its home edition, pro edition, and "pro for workstations". might be worth finding a brief summary of each to determine which edition best meets your needs. (there are more editions beyond the main trio, look into those too if you want, but the tldr on em is theyre for like niche markets w/ highly specific use cases.) fwiw, i got pro & am happy with it. another thing, from personal experience: may or may not be obvious but you're gonna wanna save a screenshot of your key somewhere safe and accessible. additionally though, label the screenshot somehow so you know what it is later, and if youre a disorganized scatterbrain like i am then put that in multiple places you can reliably access so if/when youre having trouble tracking it down you know where else to look; it came in handy for me to have access to it in places both online (cloud storage like google drive or dropbox for example, or even just saving the email copy of the ebay mssg in the designated folder in your email for the ones containing info you wanna save) & off (physical note on paper, stored in the files on one or more personal devices, etc). theres a huge chance youll need it again in the future– like say if you want to upgrade certain hardware– and likely more than once. final advice: highly recommend looking into comprehensive ways of "defanging" and/or "lobotomizing" windows, as they say. i.e., a tip that gets circulated is doing the initial setup for windows w your pc in airplane mode / ethernet unplugged so you dont have to make a microsoft account so they cant create a profile on you to collect your data to sell off & target ads at you (which is obvi totally reversible later if you decide the benefits of having an account outweigh the drawbacks). shit like that, plus the loads of guides out there– many here on tumblr itself– on extensive fucking around in various settings to disable bloatware / preserve privacy / other useful stuff, that can get pretty granular. i think ive even seen Synthia herself reblog posts like that here a couple times, maybe? perhaps try checking relevant-seeming tags from the tagging system in her pinned, or do a blog search for the term 'windows' and see what all there is to find

phew, anyway, jesus christ! sorry this got to be such a long writeup!!! some of this blog's aggregate of resources have been a big help to me, so i wanted to try to pay it forward a little <3 and, Synthia, if you wouldnt mind, tagging the original asker in your response to this anon so that greyr4t is more likely to see all this would be very much appreciated by me!! ty in advance!! thanks also for your careful curation of useful info on this blog, plus the helpful posts and guides youve written here for us yourself 👍🌈

hi anon ! thanks for writing all this up !! lots of great points here - hopefully they help you out @greyr4t ! the airplane mode one is real important too if you care about privacy (and the fact you can't choose to make a local account during installation unless you are disconnected from the internet is awful and yet another dark pattern-type tactic.

i'm glad my blog's been good for you <3 (though i do need to go through and make all the important stuff a bit easier to access at some point)

iirc there's some reblogs on general privacy stuff (probably under one of the REPO tags and like "net privacy" or similar) as well as my own firefox post, and maybe more will happen in the future when i get to them

#Anonymous #DATA_REQUESTS #for greyr4t

[kifu]

I feel like I need a long-term list of projects I wanted completed. My manic drive from January/February has died down, but my will to create is NOT gone. That's ... a feat.

Limbo - this project requires research by way of rewatching some if not all of 2k3 (and my definition of this is seasons 1 through 4 only, as I do not include the Tribunal, FF, or BttS as part of my cannon). As I write this, I'm halfway through season 2 and I'm outlining the points that will help me structure Limbo physically. The more I watch, the more I'm pissed about my creative choices for Limbo draft 1. That might turn out in my favor.

◦ outline 2k3 and figure out WHEN Limbo takes place to ground it in cannon

◦ outline major plot points in Limbo

◦ detail major characters' growth throughout entire story

◦ fucking write the damn story

Horse Comic - okay, another one that has tickled me since my childhood. I wanna get it done. I swore to myself that I wouldn't start this project until I had the skill to draw horses unaided by references. Well, mostly. The point is drawing a comic - and I think this comic will be five issues/chapters long from what I figured out last night - depicting a rundown of a modified story that I remember from my breyer horse herd as a little kid. Well, now adult storytelling, years of stacked ideas that go well with the og story, color genetics, and actually having the drive to put a comic together (by myself) come into play. This ain't gonna be a light project.

◦ break the story down into five chapters and detail everything that needs to happen within each chapter

◦ break each chapter down into pages so that I don't have to worry about page pacing when I start putting it all together

◦ "pencil" the ENTIRE first chapter before I even think about "inking" or laying down color/background

◦ work on one chapter at a time, but don't expect more than one chapter per year if I can even keep up my drive for this

◦ come up with an intriguing title because I'm stumped

HARPG - so I even started a blog for this and have a few chapters uploaded already, but when I got caught up in that commission I fell a couple weeks behind already. I am NOT feeling this so much, but I still would like to crank out a couple years of story this year. I NEED TO DRAW RAMSEY RIGHT FUCKING NOW. And then continue to come up with a chapter and chapter art every other week. Like, c'mon, me.

New Nation - another story that haunts me every time I think about my stories. Maybe I'll love Kurt again through Limbo. Probably not. I think I'm falling out of love with the character that got me through ... everything ... the past decade. Is it the Catholicism? I've been at war with Catholicism since my job at the pig farm. It's gotta be more than that. But anyway, I really ... really ... I don't know if I can ever come back to this story anymore, tbh. But it would be cool if I could. I might just say that I need to animate the unpublished scene of the future, because why not add another large ass project to the list. But that fight scene? Is AMAZING.

The Tribes - let's be serious. This needs to be written. Though it would be cool if I could actually write down my plan of action so that I have something physical to fall back on when my brain farts again. As it do. I remember that my goal for this story is to end at around 150-175k words. I believe I have the first 25k words written, though a lot needs to be done to those words to make things better. Even so, this is the best iteration of the Tribes yet. And my crack fic? Is actually really, really helping. I did not expect that.

◦ first 25k words are Kifu finding Taya and Jiogi and getting brought to the Tribe

◦ next 25k words are Kifu fitting into the Tribe, and getting to know the other Tribeslings. Need to figure out Mai's predecessor's name

◦ next 75k words are Kifu training under Kumji, first learning what every Tribesperson knows: hunting, gathering, basic body training; and later he introduces her to his group, where she secretly learns how to fight and kill - more details about this to be figured out later

◦ last 25k words are Kifu's struggle with the group's goals and eventual loss of control

I dunno. The story is my pet and I actually do have the entire series vaguely outlined somewhere with names all of the fucking place in the margins. I *do* want to come up with back stories for each and every person of the Air Tribe so it's not just the Kifu show, but a cohesive land where people are more than welcome to hate the main character because she be a stupid ho, but come around for everyone else. idk Things get better after the first book anyway.

#i dunno all this is kind of pointless #i just needed to write it down to get it off my shoulders yknow? #just a lot of rambling for the sake of it i guess #you know what else i need to do? FINISH MY FUCKING QUILT

[queers-gambit]

I've just read the other two stories, similar to cherry blossoms and OMG. I know I've already complimented you on that one, but boy did I read them in the wrong order because I can't stop crying. I'm gonna shower you in praises because you wrote three ABSOLUTELY STUNNING pieces. The thought that you put behind every single one, every word and action made me feel as if I'm reading a novel written by one of the Brontë sisters. I'm only comparing you to them, by holding you in very high regards, because Wuthering Heights is the only book that made me feel actually heartbroken -something that I've experienced again with your stories.

As a reader I can't help but feel as if I've lived those tales in another lifetime, your beautiful words shaping the stories in my mind as mere memories, making me feel a desperate longing for someone, something, somewhere that never actually happened.

I'm so shocked and stunned and sad but also happy that I find it hard to put into words just how much I've loved them. I hope you know how ridiculously gifted and talented you are, how you create and destroy worlds so effortlessly. All I can do is say thank you for sharing your work, your talent with us on this app. Thank you!!❤️❤️

I know how awful this is but I'm still crying and it's 1 am, so sorry for dumping this load of emotion on you. Didn't know where else to show my gratitude and appreciation❤️

Also, I'm gonna hug you now.🫂

i saved this one for last because i'm in awe. and i have genuine tears in my eyes, because wow. don't think i'm a pussy, but i'm honestly just a little shocked that you're complimenting me like this.

so, thank you. i'm honestly just tongue tied right now and it's a wee bit hard to see what i'm typing because i'm emotional. you comparing me to actual, legendary authors is just - wow. like, really, wow.

i don't think i deserve it but after reading ALL of these supportive messages, i don't know, maybe i'll have to find a little more confidence in myself. but this message? this message right here? i might have to, like, print out and hang on a bulletin board somewhere so i can look back on it because i'm THAT moved and touched by this. i want to feel what i felt reading this everyday.

i don't think you really realize how MUCH this means to me.

so, just - just wow. thank YOU so fucking much for sending this, i'm still just shocked and in total awe. all i can really say is thank you, again, because it's messages like these that genuinely keep me going. not just on Tumblr, but elsewhere.

no, no, no, poppet, you're not dumping anything on me - i love reading your messages. your responses. seeing the emotion i've evoked with a few silly little strokes of my keyboard. like i'm actually crying a little harder now because i'm still so fucking grateful and keep rereading your message. i just love talking to you lot honestly! and please, showing the author your appreciation and gratitude is the EXACT place to "dump" your feelings.

because i live for it, okay?

just wow.

i really hope i can continue to wow you. and i hope i can continue to do justice to this art form we call penmanship.

every single ounce of love, appreciation, and gratitude i have is yours, my dove. and please, i don't know what else to say but thank you so much. i'm still emotional but this is so validating. so, thank you. thank you so very much. i love you 🖤

[cerise-tears]

bears and empathy

I wanna talk about bear discourse.  

For the uninitiated, when I say “bear discourse” I’m referring to a hypothetical I saw on TikTok about a week ago that recently breached containment and made it to Twitter. Loosely, the hypothetical is “Suppose you are a woman, and are alone in the woods. Would you rather the only other soul in those woods be a man, or a bear?” 

I think the reason this question has gone a bit viral is that you can run with it in so many ways. I’ve seen park rangers talk about how bears really aren’t that scary, and in fact you can learn in a few minutes how to deal with a bear encounter - so just pick the bear. I’ve seen men talk about how while there are some bad apples out there (sometimes they’ll concede that there are several), on average the bear is far, /far/ more likely to actually kill you (it’s a bear are you fucking stupid?) and so if you’d like to make it to your cozy bed alive you should choose the man (like grow up already). I’ve seen well meaning guys frustrated that so many women would choose the bear over them. I’m waiting to see a conservative woman to talk about how these attitudes are further increasing sexism, and that women and men should simply get along. Personally, when I first had the question posed to me, I started asking about specifics in the scenario. Am I naked, or do I have tools to defend myself? Is it the middle of the night? How far away is civilization? Do I spawn in front of the other entity, or is it a Slenderman situation?

I don’t know how this question started and since I’m writing this as my workday comes to a close I don’t think I’m gonna go find it. That said, I kind of love it because it gets at a frustration that I have with social justice with online discourse; namely, the heavy emphasis placed on empathy? The whole thing seems framed as a way to put yourself in a woman’s shoes, but the instant you phrase it as a question those shoes turn into a mirage. When you put your eggs in the basket that is “man or bear”, the important points you want to make can be just easily avoided. 

People advocating the bear have a lot of arguments, but the consistent point they want to communicate is that men in the presence of a lone woman are highly unpredictable. What’s more, those men are highly unpredictable in a way that is not quickly determined. Running into a guy who doesn’t immediately assault you doesn’t mean he’s not going to try to talk you into going to his place when you get in the car. Even if he drops you off at your place, he now knows where you live and can come back later uninvited if he wants. There are all sorts of dangers that he presents and the female individual has no idea at any point when she is in the clear. But when you try to create empathy, the responder can literally just go “well I’m different” at worst or treat it as a fun thought experiment at best. 

I think a lot of people want empathy from majority groups to minority groups. There’s this fantasy that if you could just forcibly transplant someone from brain A to brain B, force them to walk a mile in the shoes of another, they would change their ways, become better. But that’s not how it works. Multimillionaires who do “one year in poverty challenges” can just go back to being multimillionaires. A guy can do a period simulator, wince in agony for a bit, and then go back to sauntering around. A white soul can read Huckleberry Finn one thousand times over. It’s not like there isn’t value in those experiences. But none of them grapple with actually talking to someone, listening to them, trusting them, acting on that trust. Systemic injustice gets to just happen “over there”, a place that you can just visit for a bit. 

I would choose the man, even if I were a woman. I have a crippling fear of death, and the man is infinitely less likely to kill me than the bear. I would genuinely take physical/psychological abuse, stalking, assault, all of it over the chance of dying. That’s where my priorities lie. But none of it matters. Thousands of women online said, “I would rather be in the woods alone with a bear than a man.” It’s my responsibility to believe them. It’s my responsibility to understand why they feel that way. It’s my responsibility to use that knowledge to make life better, easier, less burdensome to everyone around me. My opinion on the bear is completely irrelevant.

#bear #man

[ffntroco]

*another deep sigh*,

Y’all the devil really is working. As you know or don’t know I’m just in a space in life where I’m just trying to you know lead a very straight path. Keep tunnel vision, but bitches keep fucking with me and it’s so annoying. Bro my boss got me freaking arrested simply because what? Who I am or what I look like(which can mean a variety of things). I have all the odds stacked against me. I’m black, queer, and male. I face so much disrespect simply because all of those things and these past two years taught me a lot and taught me the importance of being able to fend on your own. Why I didn’t call myself trans or anything and don’t take part in a lot of the community things in my town is simply because of the fact that I’m not welcomed. Wherever I go I’m an other. Personally I feel the whole movement of creating segregated communities came about because of segregation. Due to that everyone who felt they didn’t belong simply because they didn’t know themselves then created all these separate communities to find a place out of the fear of individualism. Being an individual someone who don’t look like, act like, and even carrying the same burdens comes with a lot. You have to be strong, confidence, aware and simply love themselves. That’s what I see when mfs are attacking me, trying to block me from being able to work or make money, calling me slurs, the sexual abuse and harassment which caused me to be exiled. All of it is simply because ppl don’t love themselves and is scared of themselves. When your face to face with someone who knows their worth and owns it guess what that energy is intimating to most. And you have to be strong enough to recognize THAT IS NOT NY FUCKING PROBLEM. Your intimidation and need to create this fictional character in your head of who I am bc most of the times it’s projections. Projections we either submit to accept or projections we send back to rebel. Truth is all in perception to be honest. That’s it. A simple reaction.

What do you see in the mirror? Do you love what you see in the mirror? And how to you express that love to yourself?

Because I see beauty after all I been through and go through I’m still here. Still able to share breath and still able to give love. A little hope. They keep trying to take my ass out, but I am here. Just like you I have life experience and life challenges and I’m here to share. You know people like me aren’t supposed to have anything. Me identifying w/ my femininity more and me loving to feel and look pretty a lot of hate is spewed my way. You’ll think that it wouldn’t because before I began my actual physical transition even with my beard I would get called a women, men would approach me calling me lady, asking me bc they was confused. Even as a kid boys would say they thought I was a girl with an Afro. I was always androgynous very comfortable with both sides of me and was aware of my ambiguity but inately I know what I was born as. lol. That’s why I say no one really cares, but if you’re beautiful people care not even physically but your aura. The outside helps lol.

Lately I’ve been needing to hold myself extra hard and accountable because the abuse my whole arrest situation was just an abuse tactic and a warning to the others if you get out of line this is what can happen to you. Racism and the ideology of slavery isn’t gone and the treatment I receive here shows me that as well even within the lgbtq community. It’s a hierarchy system only those are supposed to be in certain positions to keep those in check. It’s about what you do when you’re put in that position you can get in line or you can be an anarchist like me. I’m too much of a Gemini to follow trends and systems. My brain is way too intellectually manic for that so I’m gonna register that critically and do it in the way that makes sense to how my brain is saying do this. It’s what works for me. Back to the aspect of individuality. I’m an individual and I’m gonna be me. Trans and all. I don’t care. And I’m keeping my piece and my name because guess what that’s me. Apart of what makes me…me. A trans empress. Goddess if you will. And I carry myself as such. And I’m not stopping until my life reflects that. Stay beautiful. Fight the good fight and never stop going. Never. Through hardships as well as when the more easy times come in to play.

Comment 😈 if you read all the way through.

#dear diary #holisticwellness #transgender #trans stories