#when I’m not sleep deprived lol

[kovalitics]

mildly obsessed with @hitwiththetmnt and their rottmnt dragon au

#I was planning to add more details #but like I’ve never drawn a drsgon before #maybe another day #when I’m not sleep deprived lol #rottmnt #rise of the tmnt

[skullfacedfruitcakee]

Starting Gideon the ninth: wow, what a great book about complex lesbian necromancers being cool and emo and gay, with a great cast of supporting characters, and an interesting and mysterious plot! Cant wait to see what happens next!

Post Nona the ninth: this book is about humanity. It is about the soul. It is about love and It is about power and every devastating and wonderful emotion the human brain is capable of. It is about the meaningless bags of flesh that hold what is really important. It is about Christianity, and applying real human nature to its laws. It is about the end of the world. It is about a guy named John kickstarting the craziest butterfly effect ever. It is about

AND ITS NOT EVEN OVER YET!

#tldr #lois’ tangents #I’m so sleep deprived save me #the locked tomb #tlt #gideon the ninth #gtn #harrowhark nonagesimus #just throwing every tag in here right now it’s in my nature #griddlehark #nona the ninth spoilers #ig #gideon nav #nona the ninth #john gauis #jod #joddy daddy #now why did that come up when I typed jod you naughty hens #ledbian #lol #GAY #permeability of the soul #I’m done

[onyx-got-clowned]

notice how everything feels.

uhm, i never really share my writing, but i really liked how this one turned out and i wanna share it-

~~~~~~~ sky and wild bonding because i wanna see them more >:(

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I’d always been described as cryptic, whether it be by travelers, stable-hands, flora, even my brothers, but i had to admit- they were right. I was never one to sit still, once I’d woken up after my time in the shrine, i’d been drawn more towards nature, the way the grass felt against my feet, the texture of the dirt, the trees lightly scraping my hands as i would climb to see the vast world around me, and the wind carding through my hair as i stood in towers. Even after gaining a handful of memories, i was well aware of the fact that i would’ve been punished for acting so childish- whether by the king or the head commander of the guards. Maybe because i would get dirty and didn’t fit social norms- I would get dirty while rolling in the grass- staining my shirt, shield surfing down mountain sides, howling with the wolves at night, chirping to the birds, cooking some meat for the dogs at stables, and even taste testing every single thing i’d come across. Everything had a sound and texture, some were good, some would make me want to claw my ears and hands off, a gamble truly- but a gamble he was willing to take to find tasty edible things nature had to offer. After joining the chain, no one commented on his strange behaviors, only until he was about to attempt to eat the entirety of a vegetable from the ranchers garden- roots, dirt, and all. They didn’t trust him much after that to be left alone with anything he’d deem edible, sky was the only one curious enough to ask about why he thought that was edible, and they’d talk about it for hours. One specific night on watch in twilights hyrule, wild sat comfortably beside the flickering fire light, occasionally looking around to do his job- watching out for monsters or strangers. Wild carefully laid down flat on his back after the fire had gone to a small dying light source. The moment the flames went out, after about 10 seconds- the night sky was suddenly brighter, stars shined against the black ink that flora had deemed ‘space’ and the moon was a waxing gibbous tonight, so it was especially beautiful. After hylia knows how long, he heard the sound of someone shuffling in their bed roll. He sat up on his elbows, looking around and seeing sky drowsily staring at him, raising an eyebrow as if asking ‘gonna wake me up for watch or no?’ As he sat upright. Wild smiled sheepishly, sitting up now to better watch sky walk over and plop down next to him. 

“You didn’t wake me up for watch”

Sky elbowed him playfully, grinning slightly.

“Sorry, got carried away loving this view”

He gazed upwards, craning his neck to watch different stars twinkle and occasionally a shooting star would follow suit. As he and sky watched the night slowly drift from a cold and comforting silence, to a morning fog of moonlight and sunlight battling for the sky. 

“Well, times gonna throw a fit when he finds out we just stayed up and didn’t wake legend for 3rd watch”

Sky laughed softly, bowing his head in a sad attempt to muffle his laughter in his knees. Wild shrugged, taking in the morning scents of early moon fall and sun rise. The grass had a slight frost of late October, birds starting to stir in their nests, his hands making contact with the frosty grass and would turn his hands light red from the chill, and the fact he was breathing and alive. 

“Do you ever believe that there could be an even higher power than hylia?”

I innocently asked, i knew this could be a touchy subject for sky, but it was a genuine question. He was quiet, but inhaled and exhaled calmly. 

“I’m not sure, i definitely believe there is someone or something at the same power level as her, but i don’t know”

He shrugged mindlessly, not once taking his eyes off the black and pink mixing together to make the view of daybreak. 

“What about a god, goddess, or deity that controls or is associated with nature? I’m sure hylia doesn’t manage the forests, oceans, rivers, and animals on her own..”

I murmured aloud, half speaking to myself and sky.

“Maybe, i wouldn’t doubt it.”

Sky smiled, leaning into wild comfortingly. 

“I’m never going to judge you if you have a different belief than me, we both have very different stories and experiences with hylia, I’d never hate you for expressing your discomfort or disregard of hylia, and i hope you know that”

Sky firmly looked me in the eyes and elbowed my side to truly get his point across- earning a choked laugh from me. 

“I know, i know, thank you sky, I’d also never judge your belief and trust in hylia, I’m well aware she’s your girlfriend.”

I poked sky’s chest accusingly, smiling smugly. 

Sky frowned, but kept his humor in his eyes. 

“These are my favorite bonding moments, just exposed to nature- just us and the spider crawling on your leg”

I smiled widely, after sky heard the last part- he shrieked in horror, looking down and practically flinging himself upward as the little spider was resting on his thigh. Everyone immediately bolted awake and reached for a weapon hearing his screams, but soon realized the false alarm that was sky shuddering and tugging at wilds ear as he chewed him out about doing that to his poor brother. 

Yeah, wild enjoyed these moments. 

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I’ll proof read this like weeks later and realize i wrote something wrong 😨

#Linked universe oneshot #Linked universe #linkeduniverse #lu sky #lu wild #wild is definitely just me self projecting in this #Sky as well lol #Lu wild centric #Lu wild and lu sky is an underrated duo 😠 #New tag for this blog? Depending how i feel about this when I’m not sleep deprived #Onyx writes⭐️

[daydadahlias]

not to sound mentally ill at 1:30 am on a Sunday night but. when I find leftovers that past!me put in the fridge bc she meal prepped for the week, or when I find sticky notes with reminders on them to brush my teeth or shower that I wrote for myself knowing I might be awake until 1 am again and forget, or when I see that a past version of me has already done an assignment last week so I don’t have to do it tonight,, I just want to say thanks to her for taking care of me.

#it’s probably just bc I haven’t slept a lot this last week bc of all the stuff I’ve had to do #but :( #I’m like oddly emotional over past!jess like we’re not the same person #bc like :( idk :( past me bought chocolate bars a couple weeks ago knowing current me would want them #I stocked up on food so I wouldn’t be hungry #I wrote reminders so that even when I got swamped with work I wouldn’t forget to eat or bathe or take care of myself #and I know that seems stupid to notice and like it should just be Inherent for a person lol #but !! freshman me didn’t do this !! freshman/sophomore me was all outta whack #and so :( idk #I’m usually so sleep deprived and chaotic that I forget I’ve even done things for myself until I see them #and sometimes I am consciously like ‘future Jess will really appreciate this’ #like last night !! I did an assignment that’s not even due until the 29TH!!!!!!! #bc I had the motivation and I knew future Jess would be happy #and when it comes to the 29TH and I don’t have to worry about it I WILL be so happy!!!!!!! #I love people :( #I love what we do for ourselves #I love me #so yeah :) #that’s my bit for the night ok byeee

[tchaikovskaya]

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#when I’m less sleep deprived remind me to bitch about 9/11 vs Covid as generation-defining events and why I’m Bitter™️ #specifically why they’re not comparable at all actually:))) #lol. lmao even.

[timmie-p]

i have so much to say and not enough brain to say it

#alien stage #i’ll prob cone back to this later today or tomorrow lol #when i’m not so sleep deprived #it looks so good tho! #Youtube

[myglassesareinkansas]

I’ve never dogsat a puppy before, much less one that was only 16 weeks old, and I am. Very overwhelmed

#k speaks #i’m not kidding when i say i’m genuinely considering asking friends to help me for the first week #just like a revolving door of friends #i even asked my parents to come and stay with me for an extra week bc i’m already sleep deprived and overwhelmed #i don’t have time to myself anymore #and these are my last two weeks before i move and like #i won’t have any time to adjust to being on my own by then #he’s cute when he’s asleep but only then #and i feel really bad for saying it but i don’t like him #i’m now gonna have a scar on my leg bc he wouldn’t stop jumping and i couldn’t get him down and he ended up scratching me #he barked for an hour bc i put him in his crate for bedtime and then pouted bc i needed to take a shower #how am i supposed to make food or sleep or shower or go to church or any of these things #i need sleep but i also need my me time #he was SUPPOSED to be in the other room for bedtime but then he cried. for an hour #the thing is!!! the other dog is fine!!! i love that dog!!! he’s never given me problems before #but the puppy is. a lot #anyways i’ve decided i don’t want pets or kids lol can you believe it

[queer-ragnelle]

why do i think i can function on 5 hours of sleep

#staying up late to write has its benefits obviously #i love getting chapters done when im on a roll i dont stop even when i should #then my alarm goes off at 5:30am & im like 🙃 #this is why smarter artists than i am have cats instead of dogs lol #i dont regret writing i don’t regret any of my dogs #i just feel sick af when i’m sleep deprived & it makes me anxious #lowkey always terrified every little thing is a long covid symptom randomly showing up #not to be dramatic but if i could no longer write it would be catastrophic for my mental health #biggest fear ever #anyway nap time

[padfootastic]

harry started smoking shortly after the events of the secret camera, he probably found the cigarettes in Uncle Vernon's things . He probably doesn't tell anyone, at first there were just a few but those of thinking that his father's "assassin" is trying to kill him,the tasks in goblet of fire, Cedric's death, the almost death of sirius here sirius is alive so after all this, it became a habit that not even sirius remus anyone in the order knows i can only imagine them discovering molly surtan...

did this get cut off towards the end? 👀

regardless, i love this sm!!! harry being full of rage and conflicted feelings, not knowing/being taught how to deal w them. he finds a cig and tries it just for the heck of it (can’t get any worse right?) and lo and behold, things don’t suck as much for a few minutes. he can peacefully float away from all his troubles if only for a small amount of time (genuinely this line of thinking leads me to more substance use hcs like harry’s had the most terrible life and it lends itself very much to those) and over the summer he gets used to those. takes a few packs to hogwarts w him, sneaks off for a smoke every now and then when things get too much, tries to hard it from the people around him.

and like, the thing with cigarettes is that they’re such a slippery slope lol so i can totally see him going for riskier and riskier smoke breaks until he’s finally caught one time. maybe at grimmauld place where there’s only so many places u can hide?

molly will definitely lose her shit, like no question. she’ll be the kind who’ll assume unwanted responsibility and berate him without giving him space to breathe imo (ik she’s much softer when it comes to harry, but i can def see her w the potential to do this). remus would probably pull another ‘your parents didn’t sacrifice their lives for u to kill urself this way harry >:(‘. arthur would bumble around a disappointed, well meaning, but ultimately useless ‘this isn’t the solution’.

sirius, though. here’s my bias coming in. i think he’d be the best equipped to deal with that bc i hc him smoking from a young age as well, for similar reasons. so he gets it, unlike literally everyone else, but most importantly he gives harry the space to talk about it. he’ll be interested in knowing what happened, why he feels the need to rely on cigarettes, and then gently GENTLY help harry come to terms with the fact that his grief is valid without having to resort to damaging substances AND help him find new coping mechanisms. generational healing and unlearning harmful things ftw amirite?

(alternatively, im also just here for a harry who started smoking super young and never stopped ngl)

#sirius black #harry potter #i spend way too much time thinking about characters and smoking #esp when they’re young #(possibly bc i started way earlier than healthy #or legal lol #also think a lot ab how adults should respond to it? bc in my experience nothing really works #like prevention? yes but once it’s begun? idk. confrontations just push them into hiding and safe spaces don’t make them stop #i’ve seen a spectrum of reactions & behaviours re substance use irl and it always fascinates me #idk sorry i’m a bit sleep deprived lol idk if this makes sense #i just went off on a tangent there huh i’m so sorry 💀😭 #pen’s asks

[neondiamond]

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#here is a non-exhaustive list of things i did/that happened today: #woke up at 4:30 a.m. because apparently noodle likes it when im sleep deprived #was fucking slammed with work all day #i locked noodle into the bathroom twice and another time in the pantry #not on purpose he just like to follow me everywhere and sometimes i don’t realize #found out the bottom corner of my fridge door is really fucking sharp #by slicing the top of my damn foot on it after opening it #ouch #had to go buy bandaids bc i’m not a real adult yet and didn’t have any #then taped a towel to that corner as a temporary anti-foot slicing solution lol #realized after picking up noodle earlier that he’s getting real heavy already and that i probably won’t be able to pick him up much longer #… then cried about that lol #i’ve only had small dogs before this has never happened to me and I WAS NOT READY YET OK 😅 #almost cut myself again while chopping a sweet potato #i always forget how hard they are #and texted my mom about 4 times to ask cooking questions bc again…clearly not a real adult lol #and it’s only 6 pm… room for more! 😂

[fingertipsmp3]

Thinking about when my mom (a temp) got ordered to handle the switchboard at this company she was temping at (narrator: she did not have any switchboard training) so she decided to just plug all the wires in randomly and bugger up the machine and when management found out she got escorted out by security

#my mom circa 1987 was. something else #she did this because one of the managers yelled at her when she said she was a typist and didn’t know how to do the switchboard #she was like ‘oh fuck this guy. i’ll do a switchboard. they’ll wish i didn’t’ #and she wonders where i got my habit of going nuclear and quitting jobs at the first sign of disrespect. 🧐 #same energy as when my last boss thought she was calling me up so she could yell at me and instead i yelled at her and quit #i don’t remember that conversation because i was so sleep deprived #but i’m pretty sure the words ‘you have given me an insane workload and i’d rather be unemployed than deal with this’ left my mouth #not to mention ‘i didn’t get three degrees to work in a fucking call centre’ (narrator: they hired her as a teacher) #i think yelling at people in authority is just a family trait. i think my whole surname is blacklisted at some places lol #personal

[sir-klauz]

how do ppl be saying they have ADHD and don’t even know what experiencing symptoms are like and are offensive when ppl with ADHD actually express them in their presence irl (unless they have ADHD and internalise hate/ableism, that I’m not counting)

#sorry I just had nearly everyone I tell irl that I have ADHD mimic for 30 mins and say the have it or shit on the symptoms #or they say they have it and don’t express a single symptom and act confused when I express mine m #mine #fml #broken tags #I’m not a doctor tho but yeah I don’t like it either when a coffee addict tells me they have ADHD bc they think coffee high is a symptom #like I have to manage my diet so hard or I’ll be up all night then faint from sleep deprivation n apparently bein tired isn’t an ADHD thing #LOL #if I eat sugary stuff I go nuts #I get called a child n that’s one of the most shiddy things to say to someone w ADHD like yuh symptoms can seem immature #it can’t be helped #ppl think kids always have ADHD when no #adult adhd #adult adhd is adhd as it stays for life it doesn’t just go away #I don’t say you don’t have it unless they mimic what they think it is then forget in an hour and never have ADHD again bc they forgot to #adhd culture #adhd brain #adhd stuff #adhd problems #adhd tag #living with adhd #adhdlife #adhd post #actually adhd

[chibelial]

Monster Hunter TEN: Fuck it, We Ball, with a script more haphazard and grotesquely grafted together than Godrick the Golden, we have Balls to the Walls adventure in store! We know you love become a walking talking crab factory for monsters fellow hunters! So in this newest installment, yes we’re spoiling the main baddy and the story because otherwise nobody will buy this horseshit the gameplay is running on a crate of 72 tiger electric McDonald’s games wired together, the Moon itself is revealed to have been a slumbering monster! That’s right, we know how much better the drawn out raid bosses are, so we made the longest most absurd one ever! Elder Dragons will unite with hunters for survival, we’re gonna be launching fucking mountains at this rotund space born fuck! Prepare for the stupidest fucking hunt you’ve ever seen hunters! DLC planned to explore the desolate remains of earth after its crust is ripped asunder and the remains of the moon crash to the ground! Don’t worry, we know many monsters survived the impossible catastrophe hunters, so get back out there

#this came to me in a vision but I don’t think it’s actually that funny #l but I could feel the details slipping #so i wrote it down #idk I’ll probably read it later when I’m #less sleep deprived and realize it’s not funny or that i wrote it wrong lol #monster Hunter #dreams #weird dreams #I’m also kinda high idk

[everythingsbetterunderthestars]

Hey friends is it normal to want to cry when reading a speech from 1885 against colonisation, because now I’m really emotional about how humans can be so horrible sometimes, or am I just really sleep deprived? (Didn’t get a night of over 6 hours of sleep since last weekend)

#although the sleep deprivation is my own fault for doing 0 work during the holidays #and scrolling tumblr every night when I should really go to sleep #but I miss this site so much during the day :( #I need my daily dose of tumblr shenanigans #that being said I’m genuinely on the verge of tears right now so I think I’m gonna take it easy tonight lmao #good thing this was my only homework due tomorrow #I’ll do the rest this weekend since it’s all for next week lol #hoping to get back into the right rythm then because at this rate I will not last 7 weeks💀 #anyway I’m rambling but it’s fun haha #if you read this far I hope you have/had a lovely day/night! #even if you didn’t read this far tbh but if that’s the case then you won’t know lol

[alovelygulliblememory]

in constant need of a nap

#nap time #sleepy #i take naps at 7pm sometimes #lol #i need a nap even when i am sleeping #no i’m not sleep deprived just sleepy

[ghosthart]

is anyone else here autistic and have a hyperfixation that’s like detrimental to ur health cuz like girl help lol

#rn it’s vapes #i’m like obsessed with researching diff types of vapes #and have been seriously considering starting even tho i have zero need to #other than my brain just decided to be obsessed with it #i’ve never smoked a cigarette before so i don’t need to willingly give myself a nicotine addiction #and i have zero interest in walking into a vape shop or any gas station to buy one #this is worse than when i was 16 and had a hyperfixation on researching ball python color morphs #i would literally stay up until 5 am every night for weeks straight making a huge google doc listing all the colors #and researching breeders as if i was gonna actually buy and raise ball pythons #it was insane i made myself extremely sleep deprived but i couldn’t stop #like it’s all fun and teehee quirky until ur special interest or hyperfixation is something stupid and useless or actually somewhat harmful #i was hoping kpop would save me from developing other obsessive interests but apparently not lol