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crimsonred-hi · 3 months

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Controversial Age Gap - Headcanons

Pairing: Andrew Hozier-Byrne

• He would be sooo secretive about it in fear of judgement.

• let’s be honest, most of his fans wouldn’t take kindly to him having a conservatively young lass, until they meet her.

• Someone would do an interview of her, and she just acts like she’s a pensioner when she’s actually a uni student.

• If Andrew was gonna date anyone that young she would have to be an old soul. Like already mentally in a nursing home. She would be like super smart and really mature, like he wants a girl he can talk to about literature and poetry, and the fact she’s really young doesn’t mean that much when she completes him.

• Even his friends and band would be find with her, because she acts about 50. She’s always in the corner talking politics with the oldest guy in the pub, because she likes making grown men cry, because she can.

• The Fans would be shocked, because someone would get a video of him getting a quick good luck kiss before he goes on stage, or someone would get a video of them at a festival while she’s fixing his hair for him.

—> Side Rant! Talking about hair! His hair is so healthy now he has her! Like she forces him to sit his arse down once a week so she can deep clean and condition his hair. He’s getting princess treatment.

• I can imagine her running her uni essays through him before they go to her professors, and every time he’s so shocked at how smart she is. Like, he wasn’t this smart, ‘are the younger generation?’ just better he would ask himself.

• We all know he listens to everything, he’s very eclectic. He would love teaching you the blues, he also doesn’t let you play your music, only his. And if you learn his favourite songs and sing them in the car with him, he might cry.

• He’s getting you in any show you want: ya wanna to see Noah Kahan, your going: ya wanna see Lana Del Ray, your going: ya wanna see Taylor Swift, your going. Etc, etc. He’ll get you there, even if he doesn’t like the music that artist makes, he’ll bring his ear plugs and happily watch you enjoy it.

• He would be so careful about talking about you, but it’s a struggle because he’s so proud of you.

• He just thinks you’re incredible. And he wants everyone to know about it, but he’s scared people will judge him for dating someone so much younger than him.

• That jacket in the photo, I bet you think it looks good on him. He thinks it looks better on you. He thinks everything looks better on you; that green jumper he wears all the time, he thinks it looks better when you wear it.

• He loves when your at his concerts, he adores watching you sing and dance along. While everyone thinks he’s winking at them, he’s actually winking at you.

• He loves it when you lay on his chest, you’re so much smaller than him, and watching you distress with the sound of his heart is everything to him.

• She will just spout TikTok and gen z nonsense at him, she once called him ‘submissive and breed-able’ and the look of fear on his face when he turned around to look at her.

—> “what did you just call me…?” He asks his voice cracking with genuine fear, and she just laughs in his face. She just kisses his cheek and runs of giggling.

• He’s probably the first man she’s been with that has a full beard, so she kinda has a little obsession with it. All the other lads she’s dated were her own age and couldn’t grow there pwn full beards, while Andrew is looking sexy as fuck with his beard.

—> He loves when she scratches his beard, because of her obsession with his beard, he practically purrs when she scratches his beard.

—> Also his chest hair, he very rarely goes shirtless but when he does her hands are always desperately trying to get into his chest hair.

• He also gives her beard burn on her thighs and-

• I really like that photo of Andrew, he looks like a god, just me or is he the perfect Poseidon or Hades or Orpheus. Or is he just drop dead gorgeous.

#andrew hozier byrne #hozier #hozier x reader #the hoziest #hozier my beloved #hozier fluff #Hozier headcanons #headcanon

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thatdammchickennugget · 4 months

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2023 Wrapped Tag Game

To celebrate 2023 coming to an end, create a moodboard inspired by your favourite memories of the year and answer any (or all) of the questions below <3

1. Top 3 songs of 2023 2. Top 3 artists of 2023 3. Top 3 albums of 2023 4. Top 3 movies of 2023 5. Top 3 tv shows of 2023 6. Top 3 books of 2023 7. Top 3 youtubers of 2023 8. Top 3 podcasts of 2023 9. Top 3 videogames of 2023 10. Top 3 celebrity crushes of 2023 11. Top 3 fictional crushes of 2023 12. Top 3 places you visited in 2023 13. Top 3 new things you tried in 2023 14. Top 3 things you were grateful for in 2023 15. Top 3 things you are looking forward to in 2024

1. Top 3 songs of 2023 Daylight by David Kushner, Grüne Augen Lügen Nicht by JEREMIAS, Tommy by AnnenMayKantereit

2. Top 3 artists of 2023 David Kushner, Hozier, Noah Kahan

3. Top 3 albums of 2023 Unreal Earth by Hozier, Wallsocket by underscores and Rush! by Måneskin

4. Top 3 movies of 2023 Dungeons & Dragons: Honor Among Thieves, Ballad Of Songbirds And Snakes, The Boy And The Heron

5. Top 3 tv shows of 2023 Avatar the last airbender, the summer I turned pretty, Julie and the Phantoms

6. Top 3 books of 2023 All The Light We Cannot See by Anthony Doerr, The Isles Of The Gods by Amie Kaufman, Five Survive by Holly Jackson

7. Top 3 youtubers of 2023 Rezo, Wendigoon, BooksandLala

8. Top 3 podcasts of 2023 Hobbylos, Not Another D&D Podcast, Creep Cast

9. Top 3 videogames of 2023 Baldur's Gate 3, Hogwarts Legacy, What Remains Of Edith Finch

10. Top 3 celebrity crushes of 2023 Florence Pugh, Pedro Pascal, Josh Hutcherson

11. Top 3 fictional crushes of 2023 Enzo Berkshire, Fred Weasley, Bradley Bradshaw

12. Top 3 places you visited in 2023 Austria, Köln (favourite german city and Joshua Bassett concert <3), the Netherlands

13. Top 3 new things you tried in 2023 started writing fanfiction again, learned to crochet, got into poetry

14. Top 3 things you were grateful for in 2023 my friends, books, music

15. Top 3 things you are looking forward to in 2024 new book releases, going to more concerts, going to the netherland with friends again

No pressure tags: @pizzaapeteer @slytherinslut0 @finalgirllx @ashisgreedy @jayybugg @theeslutintheroom @suugarbabe @heirofs1ytherin @dramaticals @theostrophywife @berryzxx @ahead-fullofdreams @once-upon-an-imagine @buckyandgeraltsupremacy @cyrygher @njutul @halucynator

+ anyone else who would like to do this just feel tagged by me <3

#2023 wrapped tag game #tag game #tagging game #moodboard #mutuals #2023

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thevagabondexpress · 2 months

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diagnosing the last hours characters with modern music tastes

Cordelia: I feel like she'd have two modes. The first would be soft, upbeat, folk and country but also piano-based stuff, anything major key and with big sound. Caroline Jones, Ruth B., Noah Kahan. I also thing she'd really like Shakira. That's her kind of day-to-day music, it's what she puts on in the car, around the house, when going for a jog, etc. But she also has a collection of women rap artists of the Megan and OSHUN variety which is what she puts on when she's doing hard workouts/training.

James: I agree that he'd be emo but I don't think he'd actually listen to a lot of "traditional canon" emo music. I think he'd find it too loud and intense in the wrong way. I think he'd prefer shoegaze, a la Radiohead, and bands like Five Three Eyes that are fast but fuzzed out. Generally anything with softer mastering where it sounds great at a lower volume.

Matthew: He'd love disco and neuvo-disco/retro-rock. Gloria Gaynor, Suzanne Somers, MonaLisa Twins, the Lemon Twigs. It's fun and silly and also empowering, besides which I think he'd like the fashion and the sparkle of it all. On his bad days, though, when the depression and/or ptsd and/or temptation to return to the addiction hits hard, what used to be his heavy drinking days, I think he'd fall back on an artist like P!NK or Florence + the Machine. Someone who can speak to the truth of the lowest lows of where he's been and remind him that he doesn't have to go back there, that there are other choices, things to live for. That, with time and effort, it does get better.

Thomas: He dug up the local college student indie rock station and he listens to it religiously. It's a habit he picked up in Madrid, he wanted to listen to Spanish music but didn't know where to look/how to search for it so he acquainted himself with radio and just flipped stations until he found something with a sound he liked. When asked to pick songs individually/curate his own music I think he'd end up falling back on his dad's taste in music: Eric Clapton, Bruce Cockburn, the Stones.

Alastair: I feel like Alastair would have unarguably the vastest taste in music of the lot of them, but also that it would generally run to music from well before his time. His mom has vinyls and cassette tapes from Iran before the Revolution and he's dubbed CDs and MP4's of them so he has his own copies and isn't stealing her. He enjoys listener-supported classical music radio, and also newer instrumental of the Haygood Hardy variety. He likes soft jazz and blues, Mahalia Jackson, Mama Thornton. He would ADORE Nina Simone. I think if I had to give a taste in music from after 1970, I'd say he also probably likes artists like Tracy Chapman and Mint Green that speak to a similar lived experience to his own.

Christopher: On one hand, I don't think he really cares that much about music. On the other hand, I think he would be the type to unapologetically listen to high school concert band music. He got hold of Robert W. Smith's storms series (Into the Storm, The Tempest, The Maelstrom), realized there's a crap ton of pieces in this genre that are Inspired By Science, and now every time Matthew comes down to the basement laboratory he ends up lodging a complaint about the sheer amount of French horn.

Grace: Living with Tatiana I don't think she was really allowed much if any access to music but I imagine she found ways around that anyhow. I think she's the other person who would really enjoy Florence + the Machine. I think most of her music would be older, melancholy women folk singers. Joan Baez, Judy Collins, Joni Mitchell, Claudia Schmidt, the McGarrigle Sisters. I think she'd find them soothing. They'd help her calm down when things get difficult, help her to find beauty in a world that's caused her mostly pain. I think her favorite artist would be Lenka. She's got this kind of upbeat, slightly silly vibe that would make Grace smile but I also think she'd find that songs like "Silhouette" and "Ivory Tower" could speak to her truth when she needs someone to, without getting too deep in and triggering her.

Lucie: She listens to Kpop and movie soundtracks. Also if it's appeared in one of those "badass women" edits over on youtube 100% she has it on her playlist or did at some point.

Jesse: Like Grace, he didn't really have access to music living with Tatiana. Also he was dead for like almost a decade so there's that. He probably mostly listens to whatever Lucie listens to, but I like to think he does experiments like picking a new genre/radio station to listen to every day, trying to figure out what he likes and doesn't like independently of his girlfriend.

Anna: idk. She strikes me as someone who'd like Siouxsie and the Banshees. Also Halsey and Hozier. Maybe bands like Linkin Park and Evanescence—she doesn't say it because she doesn't like being dissed for listening to "old cringe emo" but they got her through gender dysphoria when she was twelve so she knows there's some worth in them.

Charles: He really doesn't listen to music. He listens to NPR or Radio Canada or the British equivalent because it makes him feel up-to-date and liberal but he doesn't actually hear the content, it just goes in one ear and out the other.

@alastairstom @chaosandtwo

#the last hours #cordelia carstairs #james herondale #matthew fairchild #thomas lightwood #alastair carstairs #christopher lightwood #grace blackthorn #lucie herondale #jesse blackthorn #anna lightwood #charles fairchild #i didn't include ari because i don't feel like i know her well enough to say

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allylikethecat · 4 months

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January OTP Prompts

Fun fact! I live in a place that is not cold. However, it has been absolutely freezing the last week to the point where I am currently looking at a North Face puffer coat on the internet and trying to figure out if I order it, if I will still be cold in the 3-5 business days it says it will take to arrive. I have decided to inflict this misery upon Fictional!Matty, however, he at least has a warm coat. I have a denim jacket and a Noah Kahan hoodie.

10. Bundled up

Matty shivered, and wrapped his arms tighter around himself, as he trailed after George. He sniffled and reached up to wipe his runny nose with the sleeve of his parka. He adjusted his scarf to cover more of his face, his fingers feeling clumsy in his mittens. He was bundled up in a long sleeve tee shirt, a heavy sweater, the parka, a heavy knit scarf, and a beanie and he was still freezing. He halted, wincing as a gust of wind tore down the street, sending another shiver up his spine. He didn’t even remember what being warm felt like as they made their way through the snow covered street.

Jamie had bought him the warmest winter parka he could find in apology when he realized the tour schedule was going to take them to Canada during the winter. Matty was very adamant that he did not do weather colder than London. Even London was too cold for him in the winter. Despite wearing multiple pairs of socks and an extremely unstylish pair of Sorel boots, Matty still couldn’t feel his toes. He would have started crying ages ago if he wasn’t worried that his tears would literally freeze to his face and cause some kind of permanent damage. The strip of skin around his eyes was stinging from the wind and he wondered if it was possible to have already developed frostbite. He wasn’t sure how anyone even lived here, people weren’t meant to be out in these kinds of conditions! He was glad that even their most loyal fans had realized that camping for the concert in this weather was a bad fucking idea. He didn’t even want to be walking down the street, their destination hopefully ahead, he couldn’t imagine them sleeping in tents to see his sniffly ass up close.

Yet, George was happily plowing ahead, looking at directions on his phone, dragging Matty to some underground used record shop he had seen on instagram that was supposed to be the place to find obscure vinyl. If Matty had realized that around the corner from their hotel meant, around the corner and then straight on a mile and a half he would have insisted on Ubering, or staying behind in the warmth of the hotel room, wearing the complementary slippers and a bathrobe as he made use of the steam shower to try and loosen some of the mucus in his chest.

“You coming?” George called over his shoulder, his warm breath visible in the cold air. Matty wanted a cigarette but there was absolutely no way he could light it, let alone hold it with how bundled up he was, and he was not sacrificing wearing a mitten even for a fag. He’d also have to pull down his scarf, exposing his face to the elements which was another nope.

“I think I’ve frozen to the sidewalk,” Matty complained which just made George grin wider, amused by his misery.

“That just means you need to walk faster,” he teased, picking up his pace as Matty groaned.

Day: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9

#allylikethecat #January OTP Prompts #Prompt Fills #Prompt Fill #Matty fic #Gatty #fanfic #fanfiction #woot woot day 10 here we go #i also got my nails done today #and am feeling a lot more motivated to write now that i no longer have the ridiculous talon claws i had for the holidays #my nails kept slipping off the keys!!#they are a normal length now #i can do things again like pick up pieces of paper and put my contact lenses in lol #thank you for reading and everyone who has been so supportive of these~#even though they are sometimes hard to finish #its been a lot of fun and im so happy ive been able to sick to the goal!

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ttlmt · 1 year

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1, 2, 3, 4 & 9 ^_^

1 - what is/are your top album(s) this year?

oml this year has been INSANE for albums. in no particular order:

stick season by noah kahan

5sos5 by 5 seconds of summer

faith in the future by louis tomlinson

midnights by taylor swift

harry's house by harry styles

2 - name some of your top songs from this year.

i cannot wait for my spotify wrapped this year its gonna be insane but off the top of my head i think my top songs are probs most of the above albums plus

part of the band by the 1975

ironbound by war is over

teeth (from the vault) by 5sos

boundaries by lowen

running up that hill by kate bush

3 - name five artists you wish more people knew about.

war is over (a band made of cameron young and brycen waitkus both of which have other projects and solo work as well and its all awesome)

we three (sibling band that i saw on agt years ago and they make awesome music and they're just lovely)

charlie hickey (signed by phoebe bridgers thats all you need to know)

matt maeson (itches my brain)

madeline the person (opened for maisie peters when i saw her and shes adorable and so talented i also have been watching her on tiktok for a long time and its so cool to see her grow)

4 - top shows you have seen.

okay in no particular order again

imagine dragons (2014, one of their first arena shows, the breath in radioactive was the most amazing experience of my life)

5sos (2022, just so insanely fun and they're all so insanely talented)

jp saxe and noah kahan (2019, great venue, last concert before *gestures broadly*, just two awesome musicians who are now so much more popular and i was so lucky to see them)

arkells (2022, my first and only time at barricade, i got the setlist from this show!)

9 - a song you have to finish playing if it’s on when you stop your vehicle.

i don't drive but i gotta finish 'so down' by mother mother anytime i listen to it that song is a spiritual experience

#thank you harleyyyyy #this was so much fun god i love music and concerts #ask #harley #edit: i realize i misread q 2 but thats my probs most listened to songs #my top songs from the year would be the 1975 and war is over one and then probs stuff from the albums #thank you to my gf for calling me out dlkgjdf

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cosettepontmercys · 4 months

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Thanks for your patience waiting for me to respond to our conversation from a week ago! <3 I just sent a separate happy birthday message but happy birthday again!!

Let's see so since we talked, I actually managed to make a few more bracelets! I'm focusing on making olivia + chappell ones since that's my first concert with bracelets next year. Have you made more since we last talked? Or have you worked on other crafts? I just saw your gorgeous painted vinyl case, which is so nice!

Re concerts - I think bleachers will do a west coat tour leg still! I just can't imagine jack not going to seattle / la at a minimum, but fingers crossed! Like you, I'm going to see olivia/chappell, holly, and taylor. I did get bleachers/samia and noah kahan tickets. And then also haley heynderickx and hozier. I'm more of a casual hozier fan but my best friend who loves fob is also a huge hozier fan so she's going to come visit, which will be so nice. And I'm strongly considering madison beer, which is a bit of a drive + a half day off work, but I absolutely loved her most recent album so leaning towards it. What are your favorite shows you've been to so far?

I have notion bookmarked to explore more soon! The aesthetic over functionality thing is soooooo relatable to me haha I was making a poster at work this week and spent way too long picking out and editing photos before I even thought about the other details. Also yeah omg I think I get a little bit more light here ~4pm or so for sunset but I'm so glad we're almost at winter solstice. Do you have any fun winter plans despite the lack of light?

Thanks so much for the support with post-grad recovery!! I will definitely try to grab some photos of my crafts in the new year (about to travel for the holidays so I'll be away from my final products for a bit). I might also have some decent bracelet photos from eras this year that I can dig up :) I'm glad your voice was (and hopefully still is) getting better! How's it going now? I think baking is kind of crafting! Just crafting with food stuffs.

Totally agree about the holly/muna collab - I'm so happy about it! And also just wanting to see muna live someday. I would also love for holly to do a feature on a muna song too and/or for them to write a fresh song together. Also agreed about both a bfl + 1975 collab for holly too! Fingers crossed! There are a few specific 1975 songs / styles I would love to see for holly (about you would be so good). I'd also love something with charli xcx (or charli + 1975 together since they're connected). Actually maybe bleachers for another collab. I think that could be interesting.

good morning!! 🤍 thank YOU for being patient while i reply as well! hope you're having a good week, friend!

since we last talked, i haven't made any bracelets, but i did work on the vinyl case a little more — realized using acrylic paint pens was much easier than acrylic paint! i actually also got a cake stand for my room (basically, i have a humidifier on my nightstand but i'm worried about water damage, so i got a small cake stand to put my humidifier on) and drew little bows with acrylic paint pens on that too!

i really hope bleachers will do a west coast leg! i'm also a bit shocked and have words with dirty hit about their tour :( i would love to see samia too!! i was catching up on twitter and saw that clairo was at the ally coalition talent show last night and was so incredibly jealous haha. and chappell will be so fun! the seattle opener for olivia is pinkpantheress, and i'm really excited to see her! i started listening to the most recent FOB album and i really like it, so i might make some bracelets for it too! hozier will be so fun! i don't think he's coming anywhere near me this leg which is sad :( i haven't listened to madison beer's new album — i should add it to my evergrowing list of people to check out! i would say sabrina carpenter, maisie peters, taylor swift and the 1975 have put on some of the best shows i've ever been to! what about you?

i had a few fun plans last week! and i went ice skating on monday which was really fun — i haven't been skating since i was like, nine? so it was incredibly humbling and also ridiculously fun. i'm not really sure what i have going on now; probably just seeing extended family and all that — and hopefully catching up on reads + crafts! what about you? safe travels!! 🤍

my voice is still kind of croaky but it's back! i had a facetime call with a friend last night and she was like "oh you're croaky" but at least it's back! and i can talk! thank you for asking 🥺

i would loveeee to see MUNA live too! they were in seattle for cap hill block party but that was the same weekend as eras so obviously i wasn't able to see them :( i would loveeee to see something in the vein of about you with holly — or even something like jesus christ 2005 god bless america; i could totally see her singing phoebe's parts! charli and the 1975 would be fun — i really like spinning which no rome is also on, but would love to see more of them together! bleachers would also be a really fun collab — especially now that bleachers is on dirty hit!

#post: answered #mutual: elle

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landinrris · 4 months

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Tagged by the wonderful @pitmewithyourbeststop. I've been contemplating this all day.

Imagine you're a racing driver, what would be the top ten songs on your pre-race playlist? Go wild and tag as many people as you want

In no particular order:

Vanderlyle Crybaby Geeks- The National

A Concert Six Months From Now- Finneas

Time Comes in Roses- Bess Atwell, Igor Haefeli, Daughter

Sanctified- Matt Maeson

By Now (Stripped)- Vérité

A Different Kind of Love- Son Lux

Fake It- Bastille

Pompeii MMXXIII- Bastile, Hans Zimmer

The View Between Villages (Extended)- Noah Kahan

Without Fear- Dermot Kennedy

My main draw to these songs for this specific prompt is how they generally build to a crescendo despite how melancholy the overall lyrics might be. I'm a sucker for increasing emotion throughout 3-4 minutes that leaves me also yelling in the car as I sing along.

I'll go ahead and tag @ehcahache @forza-carlos-sempre @opfire @7msc and anyone else who wants to join in! I've seen this going around for a handful of days now, so I'm honestly unsure of whose I've seen up to this point.

#the change in emotion throughout ''a different kind of love'' over the chorus throughout the song kills me #i love all of these dearly #about me

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just-a-thought-or-two · 1 year

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A thought or two on Super Bowls, long drives, and past friendships.

I went to my Aunt Michelle’s house for the Super Bowl. I don’t care about the Super Bowl, but I am a poor 20-something and there was going to be free food. Plus I love my aunt and her dogs.

Driving home was perfection. Every time I drive somewhere, the thought on repeat in my head is, “What if I just kept driving and driving until I couldn’t drive further?” But alas, I don’t have that kind of money. I envy those who do, but I can barely pay my rent and buy groceries while staying on health insurance.

After parking in my lot, I decided to stay in my car and finally make an Instagram post for the Noah Kahan concert I went to last week with my best friend, Ellen. The thing is that Instagram is a poison and I ended up on there longer than I had originally planned.

Eventually I found my way back to my childhood best friend’s page. And I made a decision I have been pondering for a while now. I decided to follow her again.

She was my best friend for probably 13 years. From the time I was 2 years old. When I was selectively mute and undiagnosed as autistic, she was one of the very few I could speak with. And oh, did I speak. I may not have spoken to many people but those I did speak to, I never stopped.

When I came out as queer, things didn’t go well between us. I don’t blame her now. I’m not even sure if I did then to be honest.

We both grew up in a very intensely conservative Christian church. The kind that borders on being a cult and cannot be a part of a denomination because they’re too extreme. For a very long time, we were the same. We believed the same things, loved the same things, and understood one another more than anyone else. But then I started going to public school. And she stayed home schooled. I was exposed to more of the world, was less sheltered, made friends who opened my eyes to what was right and wrong.

We did eventually leave the church as well. My mom could see that it was wrong after a while. But the damage was done.

She didn’t get that. She stayed there and is still there. I could never blame her for being what I would have been had I never gone to public school, for being what I would have been if my parents had never divorced. I still understand her, and I think that hurts the most. I understand her, but she cannot understand me. Not yet, maybe not ever. But I’ve been waiting for years, and I’ll continue to wait for if or when the day ever comes.

Because of how we were both raised, there are things that only the two of us could understand. We grew up side by side, best friends till the end. But then the end came sooner than we thought.

I’ve come to terms with who I am and how my childhood changed me, but she hasn’t. But I truly hope that she knows that if she ever does decide to explore those avenues, that pain, and become herself fully, I’ll be there to support and guide her.

To be honest, a part of me also hopes she is happy where she is. Maybe she is happier in that life than I ever could have been. Maybe that’s the life for her. Having her first kiss on her wedding day and popping out a kid a year later. I almost, almost, hope that this is the life she wants and is happy in. The road I took wasn’t an easy one. I undid a lifetime of beliefs and relationships. It was the hardest thing I ever did, and sometimes, selfishly, I wish I had stayed oblivious to what was going on around me. Life would have been easier. Become a pastors wife and pop out a few kids of my own. Run the church daycare. That would’ve been my life, and now, I can’t believe it. I could never imagine going back. But getting here was so difficult, I didn’t think I would make it at times.

And sometimes. Sometimes, I hope she’s happy where she is. Because that life is the easy road. That’s the gilded bridge, while my bridge is rusted and falling apart, perilous to get across. I just want her to do what is best for her.

Maybe I’m holding onto the past. I definitely am. But I think that’s okay. I followed her because it’s a step forward. I’m considering messaging her and telling her I’m ready to become friends again, with some firm boundaries in place. I’m going to think on it. That’s a lie, I’m quite likely to do it right after I finish this. But we’ll see.

I crossed the bridge into this world years ago, and I’ve been patiently waiting on the other side for her ever since. I’ve been waiting here, doing my own work on myself. And whenever she is ready to cross as well, I’ll still be here waiting.

I love and miss her. Even when it hurt, she never stopped being my best friend. I do believe wholeheartedly that we were platonic soulmates.

The last time I saw her was at my Nana’s funeral. It was a shock of cold water on me. I just wasn’t expecting her to be there. Hugging her was surreal. We didn’t talk a ton. I didn’t know what to say.

We haven’t really spoken in years. But she is still, and always will be, my best friend. My first best friend. The one who knows me in ways no one else ever will. My sister.

R. Rushing

February 12, 2023

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clumsyclifford · 3 years

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bella if i visited you what would we do. like in your wildest dreams what would we do atl concert but also realistically. because i will do it dont play with me

omg well. it would really depend when you visited and for how long but here is a list of things we could do

have matzo ball soup which i would make, because obviously

go to or (more realistically) watch a baseball game on TV

play with and/or walk samson

have a jam sesh on the various instruments around our house

game night, with or without my family (they are lots of fun i promise)

girly sleepover things (face masks, painting nails, dye each others’ hair if we’re feeling really wild, etc)

honestly go to a concert like. if there was one around and we planned it then fuck yeah why not, atl or otherwise, hell yeah

go for a long drive

see a movie or just do a movie night at home

go for a walk just for funsies, my neighborhood is nice

i’m pretty sure we have portal 2, we could play that

late-night kitchen raids and have some tea

something schmancy like we could go to a show at the kennedy center or see something in DC

speaking of which: go into DC, there’s cool stuff there

museums? if you’re into museums?? DC has lots of museums, could go to any of those

go to the mall and go shopping, or window shopping, or thrift shopping, or just kinda meander

starbucks if that’s your vibe

season-dependent we could go ice skating downtown

go to ihop

cook something. or bake something!

DANCE PARTY

go to the library?? browse the shelves??

basically the opportunities are endless. guaranteed good time with bella clumsyclifford

#in my WILDEST dreams????#yeah atl concert and then nats game #and whatever you wanna do because i wouldnt drag you to a baseball game without reciprocating #like obviously thats not everyone's scene #it would just make me happy #writing this list was difficult because i forgot that #once upon a time we used to GO OUT to entertain ourselves #although can you tell i am a homebody lol #if you came Right Now you could help me unpack my college stuff :)#wait wait wait #what if noah kahan concert. what if. IMAGINE #anyway i could probably keep going #you could come to synagogue just kidding thatd be the most boring thing ever for everyone involved akgdjgdgkfdj #BUT if you came for a friday night we coudl do shabbat dinner and those are nice #or if you came on a THURSDAY night you could participate in the thursday night quiz my dad always gives #if you came in the summer we could probably go swimming #or take a road trip there must be a beach or lake or something nearby #i honestly don't know but i'm sure there is one #we could mini road trip out to baltimore it's a little under an hour away #see what's what over there #could go loiter around my high school just for fun #anyway point being please come visit omg omg omg omg omg #adri #cringeycal #anonymous #ask #answered

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glitterblazercalum · 4 years

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you can tell a lot about someone by the type of music they listen to 🎵🎶

rules: hit shuffle on your media player and write down the first 20 songs, then tag 10 people. no skipping!

tysm to @clumsyclifford for tagging me! I still can’t actually believe it when I get tagged in things lol. PLEASE do not call me out for my very strange and noncohesive taste in music. also, my ability to ramble is unparalleled, so feel free to skip all the commentary bc I know I would.

Hometown by French 79: wow. I guess we’re starting off by exposing me and the techno/edm I listen to while studying/working. the lyrics in this song are practically non-existent, which is how I like my study music, but something about it is very soothing, while still being very fast-paced. I heard it/ some other songs on my study playlist described once as “orchestral electronic” and that seems very fitting. a good song, for sure, although I wouldn’t really say it plays a big role in my music taste.

False Confidence by Noah Kahan: the only noah kahan song that I had heard before actually getting into his music, and still one of my favorites. all of busyhead is honestly so good. I think I said this to bella once, but Noah Kahan has such a woodsy, cabin-in-Vermont vibe, and at the moment, I’m very into that.

High Highs to Low Lows by Lolo Zouaï: I really forgot this song existed. My cousin? second-cousin? (idk not much of my family is in the us, so whatever she is to me, we’re close) and I went to see Lolo Zouaï live on of our NYC trips. (Fun fact: this is the only concert I’ve ever been to!) I didn’t know anything about her until like a week before we went, so I listened to a bunch of her music for a week before and after seeing her, and then I forgot about it. It’s honestly pretty good, and her voice is very ethereal-sounding in parts, which is how I like to imagine mine sounds when I sing, so it’s fun trying to sing it.

Classic by MKTO: if I could pick a song to encompass the feeling of sixth grade, it would be this one. this really isn’t the type of music I’d usually choose to listen to, but I always let it play through when it comes on, for nostalgia purposes.

Castaway by 5SOS: YESSSSSS. Best song on SGFG, and no, I will not be taking any criticism. I adore Castaway with my entire heart, and even though I listen to it at least once a day on my morning run, I will never get sick of it.

Teeth by 5SOS: Speaking of getting sick of things... I mean, not really, but I also do not love this song anywhere near as much as I used to back in like March/April. This was one of the first songs by 5SOS that I listened to consistently, and probably THE one that convinced me to get more into their other music, so for that, it holds a special place in my heart, but I overplayed this wayyyy too much. Still good, but I’d prefer to not hear it for a while so I can get back to the place where I would scream-sing my heart out to this.

Mauja hi Mauja by Mika Singh: the first Bollywood song on the list! My parents actually introduced me to this one when I was like seven years old, and I’ve loved it ever since. It always puts a smile on my face, and it’s really fun to dance around my room to, which is always my main goal when listening to Bollywood.

Alejandro by Lady Gaga: Where did this even come from, and why do I still remember all the lyrics?

UNSTATUS QUO by Duckwrth: I originally listened to this bc I liked the title and as a pretentious debate nerd who used the phrase “status quo” at least four times a day, it felt like blasphemy not to. This is def my “cool kid in a movie walking down the street” song. It’s more... loud? cacophonous? than the music I usually listen to, but it really, really does make me feel cool. I think if I were to hear it more often than I do, I would probably stop liking it.

Mystery of Love by Sufjan Stevens: yeah, I don’t know about this one. I feel like I can only listen to this when I’m already sobbing, so I’m gonna skip it for now. I never actually watched CMBYN, so idk how I even found this song. ALSO fun fact, I found a ten hour loop of this song on youtube once, and listened to the whole thing in one sitting. as I’m sure you can guess, that was not a good day :)

Do I Wanna Know by Arctic Monkeys: bitches listen to one arctic monkeys song and think they’re indie, yeah, it’s me. I’m bitches.

Apocalypse by Cigarettes After Sex: wow, really proving my own point about only listening to very well-known indie music.

Greek God by Conan Gray: This song just FEELS aesthetic and I don’t quite understand that but I still like it.

Sweater Weather by The Neighbourhood: it’s actually been a minute since I last heard this, but I still like it! I was def more attached to this song about two years ago, so I don’t have much to say about it anymore.

Summer is a Curse by The Faim: I actually heard this on a German tv show once and LOVED it. I really didn’t have any idea that Ashton was involved until a few months ago and I was like “wait, what??” it’s def a v good song, but I feel uncomfy endorsing/supporting it bc of the sexual misconduct allegations against one of the Faim’s members. Unfortunate, really, but that’s not something I can really get past.

Bang! by AJR: I’m surprised AJR hasn’t shown up sooner tbh. The “Metronome” line and “pretend you know this song everybody” are CONSTANTLY stuck in my head. If I could choose any concert to go to, it would be either AJR or 5SOS. They actually had a really cool socially-distant drive-in concert yesterday, but it was in Philly, which is a bit too far to drive the week before college starts.

Formidable by Stromae: <3 the song I was listening to when I made an ao3 account <3 I feel like I know too many people who had a Stromae phase. I don’t even understand French music all that well, but this is a bop.

Hasta el Amanecer by Nicky Jam: Damn, I just realized that there’s music in four languages on this list now. We stan multilingualism. This is one that I do actually understand most of the lyrics for, so we love that. It was fun listening to this again, bc I really haven’t heard it in at least a year.

Higher by The Score: The album that this is from came out on my birthday a few years ago! (just realized that there’s no recent music on this list, and if one thing describes my music taste accurately, it’s finding music a few years after it was released/popular). This is back from my soccer-playing days, and it was one of my pump-up songs for bus rides to away games. I think I might put this album back on regular rotation bc this is actually quite good!

No Control by One Direction: what even is there to say? I wasn’t really into 1D while they were actually active (rip me), and this is the song that made me give them a chance (chonce). perfect note to end on.

As for tagging others, I think I’ve avoided it enough times that I kind of have to now, so sorry in advance if 1. you’ve already done this/ been tagged and/ or 2. you have no idea who I am and are confused as to why I’m acting like I know you. I’ll just do the first ten people who pop up when I type the at symbol: @originalashstan @tothemoonmikey @5sos-fan-boy @calumcest @ashesonthefloor @kaleidoscopeminds @mashlums @poisonjaffas @tirednotflirting @fuckyeah5sostakemehome

#tag game #tag challenge #fun stuff #music #i have bad taste #5sos

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christinaani · 4 years

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to be.

3-13

finding gratitude more and more with everything going on in the world right now. all the things that have been canceled/rescheduled/missed opportunities are all intended for reasons of 'care', there is action being done because people care. People care about the well being of others, and that is something that we should all be grateful for- like the fact that they don't want us all to die is actually quite beautiful hah.

I have the next 4 days off from work- and Im going to use this time to reconnect with friends, spend time with myself, read a book, and do all the things I've put on 'hold' because I wanted to go to that event or catch that flight. This negative circumstance forces us to simply just be. to hit pause on this 'busy' life (i say 'busy' because the real people will show up in life for you).

i was just on instagram and Noah Kahan played a live acoustic version on his story and it was so authentic and nice to be reminded of his voice. I went to a concert of his when I first established myself in Nashville, and so much has fucking changed. Myself, my visions, and how I am choosing to manifest daily.

The events going on around us- are being put on hold and all we can do is accept this. To learn to be flexible, to be adaptable because that is the beauty of life. I am learning more about myself and others through this pandemic and what it truly means to be authentic and to live a life of meaning because every day is truly so precious. I sometimes can't believe how much I enjoy living, I enjoy waking up, and feeling my feet hit the hardwood floor (sorry charles I took that quote from you lmao) but it really is true. Perspective and mind is stronger than anyone can imagine- and its the one thing we have control over when all hell breaks loose.

****** Venting session about work ****** 3-12 ( Nursing)

The past few days- have been filled with learning about myself through my job and emotional feeling tired from being a nurse. I had an impulsive TBI patient, and learned that I got really frustrated quickly, as he was fighting and refusing to keep his restraints on, but in that moment I did not have any control over the situation and I let my emotions take over. However, I need to remember that experience and what would I have done differently to manage my own 'burn out'?

I am grateful for being able to actively use my mind to reflect on experiences like that, whereas that poor patient has no idea what he is doing and Its not fair for me to take his actions and turn them into frustration but as a human I am inclined to that.

Back to the present----> I went to Kroger this morning, and I realized that a lot of people are fearful of being tied down to the unknown. All for what? Control, we have so much freedom in this freakin world and the fear of that being possibly taken away from us due to a pandemic is exhausting, and anxiety driven. However, I am still learning to live in a meaningful way- but taking precautions for safety reasons.

I went on a hike with a friend Jenner, and realized that so many people cherish the simple things and if we can take this time to find joy in being outside whether its with friends or alone. Take those moments for yourself to slow down and just be. Followed by exploring a coffee shop and taking time to reflect on places we have been in our lives, but also both realizing we have this travel bug personality makes it hard for us to just be still at a moment like this.

** life can always be exciting though :) sorry I never want my life to be boring.

Side note: I was sad to cancel my Solo trip to San Diego in April and the minimalist podcast I was planning to attend. The way they delivered the news made me reconsider that this is only an inconvenience and it is okay- we need to look out and take necessary precautions. (https://www.theminimalists.com/coronavirus/) *However, the truth is now I will be able to save some money and curate more relationships and experiences right here in Nashville)

sending so much healthy energy out into the world, we all need to take this time to love people a lil harder without the hugs & shit but srry ill still hug da crap out of my loved ones hehehe

--- & tonight I'm going to paint with my friend risa and a random bumble bff gal, so lets take this time to be more CREATIVE and SIMPLE.

tini

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hello!! i am back and on desktop this time. the blog is just as pretty. alex + yellow = v v attractive jfc. this is a long one so buckle in.

to begin: i hope you have the most fun on your day road trip and sing your heart out to atl and taylor swift. i love driving long distances and idk just driving in general is fun. have the absolute best time MWAH

my birthday is in november!! november 23 to be specific. i share it with miley cyrus which is something i always found to be very cool when i was growing up and watching hannah montana. it also means i am a sagittarius and funny little fact i realized is that my best friend is a gemini. alex and jack are also a sagittarius and a gemini. from being 13 i know that tyler and josh from twenty one pilots are also a sagittarius and a gemini. something about sagittarius and gemini besties idk.

also yeah!! ao3 year in review!! it's a bit complicated to figure out at first and if you read a lot the finding pages thing can be pretty tedious, but it's def worth it once you figure it out. it gives you a lot of different stats about everything you read and it's pretty cool. now i am going to go look at your fics to remember my favs. you deserve the praise so i am willing to offer it. jeez you write a lot i respect the motivation sm. you write quite a bit of angst and i won't lie i try to stay away from angst so i haven't read your fics that seem super angst-y based on the tags. BUT there are still so many i recall reading and loving nonetheless. on a quick scroll-through: i usually don't read high school AUs but "paint me in trust (i'll be your best friend)" was super adorable and lovely. "thank god i'm yours" is one of my favs iirc. also i love love love "it's not always easy (but i'm here forever)" like yes please romanticize alex gaskarth i love it sm. "i won't be silent (and i won't let go)" and "i fell asleep in a city that doesn't" are both super fluffy and romantic and are favs of mine. in case you haven't picked up on it i adore very fluffy and romantic fics lmao. alright i am continuing to scroll and there are so many more i could list that i love but this section is getting quite long. just know if it's about a kitchen or hotel rooms being for lovers i probably read it and adored it and that pov is so valid.

waterparks!! will not lie i only really started listening to them about 6 months ago having been distantly aware of their existence for several years by being a fan of bands in the same genre. listen as long as you let yourself be vaguely annoyed by awsten is prevents you from being in love with him. follow him on any social media platform for like a day and you'll be sick of him typing in nothing but all caps within hours. simply do not romanticize him and you can keep yourself from falling!! so this is coming from a slightly fake parx fan, but some of my favs by them have been peach (lobotomy), crave, numb, fuzzy, violet!, you'd be paranoid too, and lowkey as hell. that is a very songs-from-their-most-recent-album-heavy rec, but whatever. i did give the disclaimer about being a fake parx fan.

yeah hayley does have 2 solo albums now!! petals for armor and flowers for vases / descansos. pfa is the one i didn't really like upon first listen but has grown on me. i haven't even listened to the second one in its entirety oops but we won't mention it. dead horse is good but simmer (pretty sure that was the other single??) just ain't it for me. the album has some lovely songs but it's just a hit or miss album all the way through. some favs of mine on it include pure love, taken, crystal clear, watch me while i bloom, and why we ever. it's sorta a storyline album about healing if that adds anything to it?? but anyways. i started listening to paramore around the time after laughter dropped and it grew to be one of my fav albums in existence. idle worship is probably one of my fav songs like ever. i def understand being slightly put off by bands with songs that make religious references (me with twenty one pilots' earlier music that makes a lot more religious references considering i'm not religious whatsoever) but i think i am blinded by being in love with hayley williams and just ignore it. idk that she's like super religious?? she's addressed believing in god and stuff a few times but she's def not the "rub it in your face" type and if she's making refs in music more recently then they're subtle enough i'm not noticing them. ik albums like brand new eyes had a lot more because it was shortly after that the band split and the songwriting process was essentially her and ex-bandmate co-songwriter arguing about their religious beliefs (turns out he ended up being super homophobic and transphobic all based on his religion so do with that what u will and thank the clown for leaving). i feel u on the "i meant to start listening to them" because that's essentially how i started listening to them. i told myself i was going to and then finally forced myself to do it. fuck falling for awsten knight what's more risky is falling in love with hayley </3

also yeah!! you've articulated my feelings towards tde. every song is so vastly different that it's hard to like it all. #1 fan is pretty decent though, and that's not just my bias about finding both ross and his gf hot and a cute couple and getting to see them together and ross half naked in a mirror in the video nope not at all. he's my fav himbo!! he has no personality!! no thoughts head empty!! i still love him and his strawberry-growing saga on twitter tho <3 the hazard of being in love with ross lynch since i was 12. girlfriend better be a fucking banger and there's quite a few already released singles in the tracklist so i have hope. i believe my show is in chicago on november 19 which is a thursday. kinda sucks since i intentionally bought the chicago tix nearly two years ago (the show was originally supposed to be april 25 2020. lol.) because the show was on a saturday and i have to drive 3 hours to get there. obviously i can't speak for them as tde but r5 shows always fucking slapped and i can vouch for them (realized i haven't seem them live since 2016?? 5 YEARS?? wtf) so if u genuinely like them. would recommend going to see them.

anyways. i have not listened to luke's solo album yet. i plan on it. this has gotten so long but i tried to respond in all areas and even organized it in different paragraphs this time (thanks being on desktop!!). hope you are well. hope you have a lovely day. hmm what's a little "going on in my life" fact. i got new glasses a few days ago and my eyes essentially said fuck off because adjusting to the new prescription has left me with eyes that hurt and occasionally slightly nauseous. here is to hoping my eyes get their shit together. mwah LOVE YOU TOO - the other bella/cubs anon/idk

okay hi hello. i have put this off because holy hell it's long but let's do it. i am putting a cut because this whole thing is long even without my answer

first: the road trip was super fun thank you!!! i am intrigued by this information regarding sags and geminis, we should do some scientific inquiry. enquiry. i don't know if there's a difference between those words.

aha! well i tried the ao3 year in review thing and i would say it had about 55% accuracy but still i agree it's fun to look back at that kind of stuff. and i feel you on the angst thing i go through phases of writing angst-heavy stuff and then writing very fluffy stuff and it is entirely based on my mental state buuuut i have lots of fluff and i'm glad you found it all and that you liked it yay <333 KITCHENS ARE FOR LOVERS i will die on that fuckin hill. hotel rooms as well but primarily kitchens.

dfgjhgdlfkhgdfmj honestly i dont use twitter enough that i would see his tweets enough that that would bother me also the fact that he tweets in all caps means that i just picture him yelling everything he tweets which i find absolutely hysterical so i don't think that would help. i have added these parx songs to my listen asap playlist and will get to them when i get a chance thank you i am excited also i already know lowkey as hell and it slaps super hard so im very much lookin forward to the rest of these. merci merci

YEAH simmer was the one i didnt vibe with. and honestly i feel zero compulsion to get into hayley williams as a solo artist. i just don't vibe enough to want to do that so i doubt i'll be listening to her anytime soon but maybe if i hear the songs in passing or get super bored one night, idk who can really say. but yeah christianity typically puts me off of music (speaking as a very jewish bitch) although there are notable exceptions in the cases of thomas rhett and the driver era. i'm just not attached to hayley enough to be like ehhh this doesnt matter. does that make sense

FAVORITE HIMBO PLEASE HGSDFGDFGKLFGJ i dont follow him on twitter but i have seen some interviews of ross and rocky and tbh they're great i love the way ross speaks like i like his speech mannerisms and i like his FACE and HAIR and. yeah. i think hes pretty. and i think he and 5sos SHOULD collab i think that would be sexy as hell. can you imagine that. oh my god can you imagine a ross lynch/luke hemmings collab. i'm not even really talking to you anymore bella because i know you haven't listened to luke yet and don't have a stake in it but if anyone else is reading this long ass answer. ross & luke collab. okay im going to move on and not think about that now. but i probably won't see tde unless i get a job this semester because i'm trying to stop spending so much money on big indulgent things like concerts likeee i was in a really good habit of not spending that much and then suddenly i got paid for one summer and i was just goin Crazy and i need to dial it back. plus i wanna see ajr and noah kahan equally bad so like. i have to make some calls about priorities here. it's Much to think about

good luck to your eyes i'm sure your new glasses are hella cute tho!!! LOVE YOUUUUUUU

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