#what else was a brother supposed to do?

[moonlitdiane]

There is one rule in having siblings that is true: pure love for each other was never real. A curse from the very first siblings. The moment hot, searing blood stained Cain’s hands and Abel’s pulse stilled into nothing. The curse was sealed. You can never love your brother and your brother can never love you. But God, do you try. You try so hard it hurts. It hurts to the point of unfamiliarity.

#Cain tried to love his brother #but the tyranny of comparison will always haunt those bound by blood and omphalics #god loved abelm #what else was a brother supposed to do? #my writing #can and abel #i hate my brother #web weaving #and my brother hates me #the tragedy of the youngest sibling #dark academia #light academia #gothic #moonlit hymns #text #prose

[buccellato]

I love seeing people analyzing Vash (and Knives') stubborn and hypocritical traits, even early on, but as someone with siblings I feel like sometimes people aren't realizing that when siblings take opposing positions in a fight there's a good chance neither will budge on their position unless someone else steps in, even if said position ends up being obviously dumb

It's not a matter of being right, but a matter of proving a point (no matter how stupid it is) because you can never be the one who is Wrong™️ in front of their siblings

#I have yet to admit that I was wrong during a fight with my brother over who played what role in a movie #and with god as my witness if I can help it I will keep it up until my dying day because I would rather eat glass than admit that to him #yeah Vash and Knives are stubborn in their viewpoints to the point of hypocritical self-destruction but what else are they supposed to do? #admit that maybe they weren't always correct? to their sibling? and then actually learn to apologize?? to their sibling?? #lmao good luck with that #trigun #trigun stampede

[ch1zzie]

Some Julie's and idk a little thingy for today

#welcome home #partycoffin #julie joyful #man i have a LOT to do #today was kind of a mess we were suppose to go to my aunts house but uh my mom sort of took long in storage so its too late #not a bad thing actually #we have a lot more things that can help us and i have my missing nintendo switch thats been gone for 2 (or more) years! #its missing one controller but its fine! we can get a new one for it (it been had one controller because my brother broke it ages ago) #time to unpack everything i packed and uh do more work? #i still need to finish that freeplay menu im working on for my buddys fnf mod #and also need tooooo post some art i made (some time when i make more) #i haven't had much time for making my own art of things i like #OH I FORGOT ABOUT MY ART PROJECT TOO #welp things are going bad #what else did i forget? #curse you terrible memory CURSE YOU BEING DISTRACTED EASILY CURSEEE YOU HAVING HARD TIME TO FOCUSS CURSEE YOU EVERY ISSUE I CANT THINK OF

[tricoufamily]

one thing i will say about villareal set up is that even though it's difficult i've decided to start it in 2014 which means WHOO HOO HUGO WARDROBE INSPO LET'S GO

#see i don't think the old flashback posts of teen hugo really captured this vibe. and this /was/ his vibe. #his favorite band is arctic monkeys what else was he supposed to be doing in 2014 #i'm doing it like this because w the new way i've structured it the story takes place in parts over the span of like 10-12 years #and i really don't want the story ending in like 2035. you know think of the iphones #they can't have iphone 13s in the 2030s some of them are billionaires #also 10+ years lmao. you thought the PREVIOUS main romance plot was slow burn brother you haven't seen an ounce of my power

[incesthemes]

it is utterly miserable for a mediocre show to have a really good plot or make god tier parallels or connections because you're like well this show isn't good and the writing is flimsy and there are so many holes and bland storylines, but they paralleled the season finale to an earlier season finale and then made the weight of that decision foundational to the next season so now my every waking thought is consumed by it

#liveblogging: supernatural #i'm shaking and trembling as the horrors consume me #season 9 was so lacking for it to have been so significant and insane #sam's CHOICE he CHOSE dean. he CHOSE codependency. he CHOSE love for his brother above ALL ELSE #and then season 10 kicks off with all of that CRASHING DOWN AROUND HIM #1. he can't save his brother 2. his brother hates him 3. he's having all his shortcomings thrown in his face #he gave up EVERYTHING for dean in the s9 finale. and then dean TURNS INTO A DEMON #this show is not good. the writing isn't good. technically speaking. there are so many plot holes. senseless retcons. underexplored ideas #it's flimsy and weak and poorly paced and developed #and then they throw THIS SHIT into it #like WHAT am i supposed to do. WHAT am i supposed to feel #season 9 sucked but it changed the trajectory of my life forever. HOW do i cope with that #i wish demon dean would kill ME with a hammer so i didn't have to sit here and stew in my feelings. over this season 8-10 insanity #supernatural goes TOO HARD for having such mediocre writing. i'm going to light myself on fire #.txt

[nerdie-faerie]

Currently thinking about the last time I met up with my college friends, and we went around the table reintroducing ourselves with names and pronouns, cus it gets like that. And every time it would come around to me, I would deflect and distract instead of answering because I hadn't actually figured it out yet. It's coming up on a year since then, I still have no idea what the answer would be

#Queer gang #it was literally this time last year cus it was the last time i went home for winter break that i saw them all #i panicked and got distracted the first time i was supposed to introduce myself despite the fact theyre the last people who would judge #but were a bunch of very easily distracted fckers so it wasnt even that noticeable that i hadnt answered at first #but then one of them realised id never actually introduced myself and i cant even remember how i changed the topic #but someone would always realise in the middle of someones story so id just redirect the attention to what we were already discussing #to buy myself time to think but i never actually came up with an answer and im stuck on a coach rn so my brain has all this time to think #and im just. its been a year since that incident its been several years since i started to think maybe my gender didnt entirely fit #but every time i try to figure it out like a puzzle like i did with my sexuality the first time i realise i dont really have an answer #its not that i feel that something else would fit better and i cant figure out why it doesnt feel right in the first place #is it because i was raised hyperfeminine despite growing up predominantly around brothers? #is it because tradition gender roles dont fit anyway when yoyre queer because so much of gender is tangled up in sexuality? #is it because im taking too much of a theoretical/whatever approach to it when i know gender is predominantly a social construct? #is it because its just not that deep and i dont care? or do i care and i just havent figured it out yet? idk

[imwritesometimes]

I will not have a second cup of coffee. No matter how sleepy I am. Second cup of coffee is the mind killer. The stomach annihilator. The anxiety escalator.

#idk what else I'm supposed to do though tbh I'm uhhhhhh zombified today my friends #really legitimately just. zonked. told my brother I'm imhotep at stage 3 regeneration today like #just NOT feeling it. absolutely done. feel like I haven't slept in 3 days #even though I slept HELLA #I'm falling asleep RN.... #erin explains it all

[glitterock]

my ex: yes i am dating someone

also my ex: *stays on the phone with me for 6 hours* *spends 2 hours reading aloud my favorite book about femme lesbian identity and butch/femme love and sex while i fall asleep* *tells me they’re gonna come pick me up from sydney when i visit and will take me on a little road trip to spend time with me* *will still do literally anything i say*

#no because WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO BELIEVE BROTHER #also they were being so FUXKING terrible they just started t and kept flexing on camera and being like 😉 like please #please sir do not do this to ME RIGHT NOW #but they are literally dating someone so i want to basically jump off a cliff ! #they also called me a ‘good girl’???? on the phone ??? like QUIET SILENCE! #BE QUIET #like what is all this what do i MAKE OF THIS #BE STILL MY BEATING HEART I AM SO WHIPPED #BUT THIS IS SO PAINFUL ! #and then i kept being like ‘i hate (person you’re dating)’ #and they’re rre like ‘why! why do you not like any of my women!’ #LIKE WHY #DO #YOU #THINK??? #butches with no brain #all i am saying was if i was this poor girlie they’re dating and i knew all this i’d be like take me to the loony bin!!! #and i feel not bad about it tbh i’m sorry like i’m so in love with this person i don’t not give a single fuck about anyone else

[pepprs]

feeling despair i don’t know how to put into words. im trying to figure out why im like this and how i got to be this way but i can’t even do it bc of the way i am and what im like. if that makes sense. like the problem prevents me from fixing the problem bc i can’t get to the root of it. despair despair despair

#purrs #delete later #basically i can’t internalize anything about myself. i can’t internalize that i am talented smart strong whatever and i can’t internalize #evidence that i matter and belong and am loved. i take in this evidence constsntly and it just evaporates. and then it’s like i have none of #it at all and im starving and shaking and dying and howling like a wretched little animal. and i live in this constant defaulstate of like.. #feeling worthless and alone and utterly empty and like everything in my life is a dream or something. and in feeling that way and being #quite literally incapable of having emotional object permanence.. i actually make that situation real for myself. i make myself alone and #wretched. i isolate myself and shut down and don’t let myself take up the space i can. and it’s just awful. it’s unfixabke. #i just suck it all dry. i deny myself to myself and to everyone else. and idk what made me like this bc i don’t think i always used to be #this way w depression and depersonalization or whatever the fuck dsm 6 type shit i have going on. but i can’t internalize anything about #myself and my life and have no desire / willpower to look back beyond a certain point and really analyze and probe to figure out what #happened to me to make me like this so i can heal the core wound. soim just constantly in wretched tortured panicking creature mode. awesome #this cry for help brought to you by: my sister guilt tripping me into doing her laundry + my brother showing me his beautiful music + #realizing that unlike redacted i have not documented every part of my life and have no access to early childhood artifacts that would reveal #anything about me and that it does n’t even matter / isn’t special anyway. i love being normal 😎🫶🏻‼️ #at least i haven’t been dissociating as badly about work stuff lately but. that’s definitely still a thing too so. what if my whole life is #just the wrong timeline i wasn’t supposed to be in and nothing is actually real. lawl 😳 #this is a ​really awesome time for my therapist to be going on a monthlong honeymoon btw 😍 she deserves it so much but omg im dying already

[bookwyrminspiration]

??? I’m 3/3 (4/4 if you count the robbing a human store moment in the wings au) of all my fics with tam in them including him getting medical supplies and treating the injury of the other person in the scene. why do I keep giving this guy first aid kits what is my subconscious doing

#kotlc #tam song #he patched Sophie up in that one. he got elixirs for Wylie in the solreef family fic #he got Keefe a few in the most recent one I posted #and he and Sophie robbed that one place for medical supplies for Marella and Linh in the wings au #what is my subconscious doing #big brother who takes control and care of those he’s chosen are family I suppose? #that’s a big part of how I see him #very observant there for damage control and that includes injuries #stepped up when there was no one else to treat them #wild #I need to write this guy without a first aid kit go beyond my comfort zone #this is such. a silly thing #tams trying to live his life but I keep giving him first aid kits

[sukugo]

got COCKBLOCKED in my own HOUSE (both literally and figuratively 🤔)

#f.txt #the house is my dreams. but the dream was in my house #ANYWAYS I HAD A DREAM. WHERE I WAS GONNA FUCK ANAKIN. BUT I DIDN'T BC DGSKDHSJHD #MY MOM CAME INTO THE ROOM 😭😭😭 #so it started with anakin and me in a room. anakin was on a desk with his back to me working on some stuff on a computer #he was wearing s shiny tight leather jacket and jeans. and FUCK did he look delicious. just incredible #so i go to him and i like lift up his jacket from behind and start grabbing his waist. #and then i grab his crotch and start rubbing it (he had a tiny dick <3) (AND I STILL REMEMBER THE FEELING OF IT 😭😭😭😭) #at first he doesn’t want to and he kinda resists. but we all know im into that shit. #but then actually he does get into it and wants to. so i take him and push him into the bed #OK DGDJHF actually there was someone else who wanted to fuck him too in the room with us #idk who it was and for some reason all i remember is that it was spiderman (but i go like BITHC IM gonna fuck him) #(actually i think we agreed to both do it or smth idk) so then there's like some dick grabbing action going on #and then. my mom comes in. #and I'm like. girl. why. why would u do this to me. how could u fucking do this to me. do u not see me having THE moment of my life. #so she uhh sees us. and she's like uhhhh. and we make like if we weren't doing anything ahaaa whaat nothing weird going on here. #so in a desperate attempt to continue i grab anakin's hand and take him to the other room. where apparently there's my brother. #and i want to cry. bc CANT A GIRL HAVE HER PRIVACY PLS (like i get it irl but NOT EVEN IN NY DREAMS 😭😭) #anyways so instead we just like. lay in bed. im between his legs bc no one's gonna fucking get me out of ther now lmao #and we start playing clapping games. bc what else are we supposed to do. and my mom COMES IN HERE too #to u know check up on what we're doing. and the position is uhh not innocent but we're like hey we're just playing. #so she leaves. and then we get up and run in circles lmao. #but anyways yeah that was the end of the anakin fucking 😭😭😭 #then it was hours of me having to listen to my mom and aunt talking about life hardships or smth #OH BUT THE END. i had another lil dream about exo/specifically kai. SPECIFICALLY about his thighs. #like there was a comeback or smth but his thighs were incredible. and then there's like a dance scene but he's mini tiny shorts #and when he moves u can See Things 😳👀 #anyway that is the story. no anakin fucking for me 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #i feel like this dream is so. representation of my Life. like yeah. this is literally my life.

[heeheelissy]

do not look at me. do not perceive me. i am not immune to drip marketing

#BROTHER THAT BOOTHILL MFER LOOKS COOL AS FUUUUUCK ARE YOU JOKING RN #my posts #HE GOT TEEF AND GUN WHAT ELSE DO YOU NEEEEED #time to return to honkai star rail i suppose 😮‍💨

[pfudorqueen]

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#i'm really hurt rn by my bestfriend's attitude #and i can't rant on twitter because we're following each other on twitter #but i need to get this off my chest or else he'll take the brunt of it #and he doesn't deserve to deal with my mood #but i'm super hurt rn #because last year i asked him what he was doing for pride #hoping we'd go together #and he told me he was just going with his boyfriends #so i didn't go #and then i found out he also went with one of his bf's sister #and ended up meeting up with a friend of ours there #and obviously i saw it all on instagram while i was sitting alone at home #and then this year i asked what he was doing for pride #and he told me he was going with his brother (who came out to him a couple of months ago) #so again i didn't push and told him to have a great time #and then two days ago i saw that he wen't with his bf's sister #and today i saw that he also went with our mutual friend and at least one of his bf #so you know a bunch of people who are also supposed to be my friends #and i'm so deeply hurt that it happened AGAIN especially after I told him that i was super hurt the first time and he apologized and stuff #also it was super difficult to admit it to him because i didn't want to sound petty and jealous #but my therapist told me it was healthy to talk about it instead of just keeping everything inseide #and i don't want to tell him because it's my shit to deal with and just because i'm fucking insecure doesn't mean he has to like #accomodate me or anything #but fuck it makes me so fucking sad #and it's really hard rn to not just see it as another example of “i don't matter to people” and “i'm not worthy of their time” #so yeah #it sucks rn #so i guess tumblr's gonna be my rant space for all things W

[sonknuxadow]

cant stand sontails people especially the ones who try to argue that theres actually nothing wrong with it and theyre not really brothers and people are just misinterpreting their relationship or whatever. like the proof is there you are literally just purposefully ignoring it for the sake of defending your nasty ship. why do you so badly wanna die on the hill of shipping an 8 year old with his brother whos almost double his age anyway you weirdos

#these people really go ''theyre not REALLY brothers you guys are just taking it too literally'' #what else is sonic calling tails his brother multiple times supposed to mean. #just say you dont think adopted siblings are real siblings and go stop with this ''theyre not actually brothers'' bs #its not even just the sontails weirdos who do this i see the shadria people do it too #they always try to argue that shadow and maria's relationship is up to interpretation #its really not you just dont think adopted siblings are real siblings and wont admit it #Anyway ummm ask to tag i feel like i should tag this as something but dont know what

[little-candy-store-of-horrors]

Flick Fick the gestapo 🖕

#Allo allo #'allo 'allo #20th century #wwii history #Herr Flick #80s tv #'allo 'allo! #J. J from IRL if you ever see this. If THIS is how you find me. Im so sorry #Pretend you never and move on <3 #And @ everyone else i do not condone or support n@zi/far r!ght ideology if ur fash get the hell out of here #I am just a Regular 20th century history and Nonsense enjoyer. #Watching this show when they threw this stupid bespectacled manlet rat enjoyer twink at me like the blitz im SO MAD #As a stupid bespectacled manlet twink n rat enjoyer myself. U tell me. What am i supposed to do 💀 #But anyway this show is a RIOT n theres no fan content for him im v disappointed bc i thought this was the Twink Hellsite so Here. He. #Tried to make him look like a wwii poster etc etc #Also this line was so *chefs kiss* bc he was talkin abt rats/referring to von smallhausen but like. My brother in NOTHING. u are ALSO. Rat.

[mrgirl]

literally home alone with my bedroom door stuck so i'm trapped in my room.. what the hell kind of sitcom ass situtation

#please i was just trying to get up and shower and now i'm just sitting here chilling waiting for my brother to wake up #like come save me lol #i had to call in to work 😔 like oh nooooo.. yah the check is gonna suck but what the fuck else was i supposed to do #its five thirty in the a fucking m im not bothering anyone else with this shit i'm just going back to bed #txt