#well the memories were happy

[sleepless-crows]

i just tried dancing the 2 blackpink songs i danced a lot 4ish? years ago and im so happy that my body still remembers it but also younger me had no sense of direction lol

#like i still remember them omg that makes me so happy #but also ill do the correct direction and then in some my body only knows how to do the mirror #i guess that never really mattered to her lol #im so nostalgic i will cry #i used to dance to as if its your last with my cousin and her friend in my cousin's room like every sunday #and im not close with that friend anymore and my cousin is migrating in 2 months so #well the memories were happy

[lotus-pear]

"feels like we could go on for forever this way.." (x)

#wooo new header for me <33 #also back to skk posting i missed them sm #wanted to pratice some scenery and try a new style which simplifies my current one and focuses more on colors and painting #and i'm super happy with how it turned out i think i won #for forever fits skk so well it rly brings back the bittersweet memories of when they were once partners and each others halves #and it just feels reminiscent of days gone by and they were once so close but time and life their own decisions have torn them apart #ben platt's voice is so pretty i love this song sm i heard it for the first time again in years and was slammed by all the emotions😭😭 #i was so normal abt deh when it first came out i swear #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd #dazai osamu #osamu dazai #nakahara chuuya #chuuya nakahara #soukoku #skk #lotus draws

[liquidstar]

<3

#its been a long time since ive done pixel art like this #but this is a doodle ive had in my head the past couple days #and ive had a rough day so i dont have energy to do a big drawing but i did wanna draw Something to unwind #but yeah its just about fond childhood memories. we havent spoken in a long time but its still nice to look back on those times #so i tried to get the colors to look kind of like sepia.... #but wherever my childhood bestie is i hope shes well truly. even if its been a while since we were in contact i wish her all the happiness #finn's art #pixel art

[basofy]

ages since i last drew these peopel, it feels really weird but also theyre the only things i feel like revisiting from there

#i dont have many happy hs memories as of now #i only started drawing this as practice for a comm #my stuff #homestuck #nepeta leijon #terezi pyrope #neprezi #neprezi be reminding me a bit of a couple i doodle a lot now hmmmmmmmm #i have a type #this post did well uhh the people yearn for neprezi it seems #where were you when i was 13 and did not play about neprezi

[luck-of-the-drawings]

oh the dread, oh the worry! you love your sister so much and you need to know shes okay. you trust her but you cant trust the world, and more than anything else you cant trust yourself

#jrwi riptide #jrwi fanart #jrwi riptide spoilers #jrwi show #gillion tidestrider #edyn tidestrider #RAHHH IVE HAD THIS ROTTIN IN DRAFTS FOR A BIT but im finally here n ready to POST!!!! #SO THE LIL GILLION AND EDYN ARC HUH?? #gillion as a character makes me so emotional. he means so well yet sucks so bad in every way he wish he didnt #HE CARES SOO MUCH ABOUT HIS SISTER. MAN HAS NEVER CRIED EXCEPT FOR THE DAY HE SAW HER AGAIN #HE WAS SOOO HAPPY TO SEE HER AND FIND OUT SHES OKAY. I ALSO REMEMBER SCREAAAAMIN WHEN SHE FIRST APPEARED #I HAD BEEN THINKIN ABOUT EDYN FOR SO LONG... ohhh older sisters where u at... u understand... only us older sisters get it #andNOW WHERE IS SHE..? WHERE IS SHE NOW.... working with the navy to 'undo' what the undersea has done to her precious baby brother #OKAY ENOUGH EMOTIONS TIME FOR ME TO TALK ABT MY ART #REAAALLY THIS IS ONE OF MY BEST DOODLE PAGES SO FAR. IM SO PROUDA THE COLORS N THE SCENES AND THE EMOTIONS #the lil scene with edyn comforting gillion after 'a day of alot of failure. that was the first we ever saw of edyn right? i love my colors #A MIRROR! edyn painted in red when shes often blue. framed by rock and coral and memory sharing bracelets and fire. #A MEMORY! a recent event! finding her at the bar and meeting her at a tavern. its cathartic to hear your older sister tell you its okay #even more cathartic to have her remind you that you are not your tragedies. you were just a kid. you didnt deserve what happened. #you really missed having her here #OH BUT THE NEXT. A NOTE LEFT BEHIND. NOTHING ELSE. i love you a million gillion #BUT THATS NOT A REASSURANCE IS IT? its a trust fall. emphasis on the fall. emphasis on the needle in your chest as wind rushes past #you anticipate the ground but you wish you could anticipate her arms. you wish you could trust. you need to trust. so why cant you? #instead you lash out. again. just like last time. just like always. you were never good at controlling your emotions #all you do in the end is break stuff. none of them can trust you. thats why she cant tell you. thats why he didnt tell you. noone trusts yo #chips got way too many damn belts btw. put some o those back boy u do NOT need all that mess jingling around ur gay hips. you FRUIT!!!!!!!! #I liked the scene with jay n chip dragging gillion around. its a comical scene ofc and i LOVE that balance here. but that sadness remains. #they care about gillion so much..... auuwuuuu..... #OKAY FINAL THOUGHTS. I RLY LIKE DRAWING DIFFERENT TEARS FOR DIFFERENT TYPES OF CRYING #when the tears well up so big from uncontainable joy that you cant even see

[youronlybean]

I’m clipping from the Ze, Chilled, and Junk streams on my break and I love them so much,, it feels so nostalgic and there’s very clear chemistry of old friends just hanging out,, plus Shellshock is super nostalgic as well as them trying out that new racing game

#they reminisce a lot on old times and still make new memories together you gotta love it #and sometimes I remember old jokes!!! #unrelated but on a prop hunt stream they did a couple months ago they were on the fish cone map and I was like: #wait…. THEY ACTUALLY ADDED THAT TO THE MAP??? I GET THAT REFERENCE HOLY SHIT #(it’s an old mark bob wade jack reference if my yt brain remembers correctly) #and CHILLED!! I will never stop praising him for how understanding he is of other peoples needs!! outside of his menace of a persona #he’s super empathetic and always makes sure everyone is happy whilst sticking to his morals as well #I’m gonna make a separate post about how awesome chilled is in terms of streamers and people I think #private recording 1 #youronlychat

[shirtlessradfahrer]

So what do you do when your favourite rapper makes a catchy song about the hardships of life that you want to love but upon release can’t connect with at all and after a few listens almost outright dislike because none of the pain and hardship life has put you through has ever made you a better person or given you the energy/motivation to do better and it actually just did the complete opposite and you’ve lost out on precious years of your life and so many opportunities while trying to process the trauma and undo the damage

But everyone else seems to love the song to the point that you start to wonder if maybe you’re just a fucking idiot for not being able to make something good out of said trauma and hardship instead of just being filled with crippling anxiety and depression and bitterness and grief and rage

#käärijä #yes this is about ruoska #the mental health tanked again this week #sorry to put my ramblings in the main tag but I need someone to tell me I’m not insane for being so uncomfortable with the song #I’ve been nervous to say my full thoughts because people loved it so much and I didn’t want to rain on their parade #and the umk performance and mv were genuinely well done #but it just really hurts #if the metaphorical whip that hurt me was a tangible item I’d fucking shred the thing to pieces #and then burn the remains #so that no one else could ever suffer the same way again #it didn’t push me through life #it made me want to give up on it completely #I’ve been at my happiest and most driven and most fulfilled when I finally got a fucking break from it #one of the opening lines about sitting at the gas station actually triggered a really fucking bad memory I would have loved to forget #it fucking sucks because his songs have brought me so much happiness #a kind I haven’t felt in a long time #and then there’s….this #if nothing else I wanted to love it for Erika’s sake #but I just can’t #am I just misinterpreting the lyrics? #or projecting too much #I probably am #because god I am NOT looking forward to hearing it all though Kä summer camp #and i hate that

[doortotomorrow]

John Murphy & Emori kom Spacekru

MY ENDGAME SHIPS

#The 100 #John Murphy #Emori #Memori #the100edit #starting off this collection of gifsets with the ship whose endgame was probably the most satisfying to me #because this was the little ship that could #this ship endured hits that would normally sink ships #time skips and breakups and retools #you name it #they survived it #becoming stronger and more powerful with each season until they were pretty much the last one remaining #they were built to last and get their well earned happy ending

[warningsine]

#the good wife #kalinda sharma #alicia florrick #kalicia #// #sine's edits #tmi ahead: #so this brought back (relatively happy) memories from my teen/ya days #i was out with a friend i was in love with at the time and two guys propositioned us like this. well they were even more forward used #a stupid pick up line and asked to come home with us. we rolled our eyes and looked at each other conspirationally. #the joke was on them bc my friend did come home with me that night #the 'are you gay?' bit happened some days later but it was spoken in riddles and 'i don't like talking about my #personal life' was sth that i did say (cliched much?) #it led to a situationship that was initiated by said friend but it quickly turned sour bc of internalized stuff. and yes it did damage our #friendship. #we are distant friends these days and even though we have nothing in common there are times that i miss our camaraderie #anyway i'm watching the elsbeth episodes first so i dunno if kalinda sees alicia as a friend but there are some scenes that give me pause. #wouldn't surprise me if she was in love with her at some point.

[goldiipond]

i adore thinking about the fucked up tpn stuff that was either not considered during the writing process or deliberately left unexplored.

tpn really said 'each house has about 6 shipments and receives about 6 new children to replace them each year. the minimum age a child can be shipped out is 6. tpn begins with conny's shipment in october, after which dominic is the only remaining 6 year-old at the house' without even considering the implications of that. how about 'we know literally nothing about anyone from the age group between anna+nat's and thoma+lanni's groups because theyre all gone by the time the story starts' also literally no one ever brings them up. or my personal favorite of 'isabella painstakingly hand-made little bunny for conny's 6th birthday. conny turned 6 in september, about a month before she was shipped out' like do you think isabella was at least a little pissed about that. i like to think she was

#skye's ramblings #its totally my love of unexplored side characters but. i do get a little unwell over dominic sometimes #like. hello??? its like a well-established thing that kids in the same age group usually have closer bonds w eachother than others #youare telling me. he watched all 5 of what were probably his closest friends leave in the span of a year. this is what you are telling me #i mean maybe yvette could be considered part of his age group since they were technically born the same year?? #but her birthday is also literally new years eve n shes usually grouped in w the 5 year-olds as a result #also the shipment record in the anime says that hao and sadie were 6 but the 2 kids that left before them were 7 #so maybe dominics age group was just particularly small but. he still watched them all leave in a very short amount of time #canot imagine how his conversation w don and gilda abt the escape went. god this series can fit so much childhood trauma in it #also w how close thoma and lanni are dominic and conny were also probably really close due to being the only ones left of their group #thinking abt don n dominic bonding amd sharing happy memories of conny. ijust live for older/younger gracefield kid interactions #also shamelessly stealing rachels hc of ray using his photograpic memory to share happy memories of everyone who died at gracefield #ithink dominic would really like hearing abt his friends from ray. especially happy/funny stuff he was too young to remember #and also literally any interaction w ray n the younger kids is everything to me. oh hes healing hes a good big brother... dont talk to me #'this is all most likely just a plothole' well where you see a plothole i see a GOLDMINE OF TRAUMA AND CHARACTER DYNAMIC EXPLORATION. anywa

[intoafandom]

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#right so I’m hiding this sht in the tags because im going to sound like an absolute crazy person and i hope no one sees this or reads this #because im going to sound stupid and delusional and ik im 99.99% sure this is not gunna happen but i have to say it anyway to get it out of #my head. sooo woong dyed his hair back to black which normally i wouldn’t bat an eyelash at but idk im just getting this feeling because #they just freaking played bring it on on the radio and were dancing and singing to ravns part and ON TOP OF THAT THEY ALSO DID REWIND WHERE #XION LITERALLY SANG ALL OF RAVNS PARTS and like i cant stop thinking about it. rewind. REWIND of all songs. why did they pick THAT one. #out of EVERYTHING they picked rewind. the song that pays homage to their past memories as 6. literally doing the choreo in their seats when #the song is about TURNING BACK TIME. and now woong dyed is hair back to black. like how it was right before yj left... #leedos hair is also the same length now...and if Seoho’s hair is back to black as well... #we all feel like something big is coming and when u pair this with all the japan stuff...i cant help but think...and im still thinking about #ravns insta stories. there will be an answer let it be. ive done all i can do now i have to wait for fate. paraphrasing but yeah. #and lets not forget the fact that ravn JUST posted his full face for the first time in months. everything feels so significant and like #everything is coming together for some big moment. i cant stop thinking about it. fvcking rewind. like they’re going to be turning back the #clock completely. same looks as malus aka their last true comeback as 6 and apparently their next comeback is ALSO IN SEPTEMBER?? like... #im probably reading into this but...i cant help but think......something very huge is coming. something HUGE. something more than just #ravn dropping his mixtape. if that’s all that happens I’ll be happy 100% duh...but idk...i just think there’s gunna be something MORE. #im too scared to post this on twitter cuz ik ravn lurks and if im wrong which I probably am I wouldn’t want him to see it #or anyone else either. but im saying it here bc if i dont say it at all ill go crazy. and most of my followers here are b’s fans so they #wont read this and maybe i can bury it lol

[stephaniedola]

i miss my stepdad :(

#the circumstances of his death were so tragic and traumatizing #so its hard for me to like #get in my emotions about it and feel #but every so often it overcomes me and i cry a little because like #that was my second dad and he made mom so happy #in so many ways he was kinder to me than my own dad #he was ALWAYS kinder to my mom than my own dad #well until the end but thats what makes dementia so tragic #anyway idk i just wanted to vent a little and put his memory out there #love you jim <3 #thots et al

[glitterghost]

brb mourning all the past mutuals/friends/followers that I've had delightful conversations or interactions with, who either have deactivated unbeknownst to me, or have changed their handles since we've last spoke and I may no longer recognize.

#you all make everything ten times better #and my heart hurts when i think of past mutuals i loved talking to dearly #only to find out one day in the past present or future have deactivated #and ill probably never find again #know that i wish you well in everything you do or have done #and my love and support follows you like a trail of ghostly lights making sure you're safe #that all the moments weve shared meant worlds to me and i can only hope they were the same for you #miss you forever and always and tucking away all the sweetest memories into a box to brush off and open sometime down the road #only to think of you fondly once more with a tenderly aching yet loving feeling in my heart and mind #sorry for the lengthy rant but i can remember users who have just dissipated like a mist into what i hope is a better place beyond #i hold those memories like fragile spun glass now #though they felt like cotton candy memories full of lightness & joy & pure undiluted happiness #that is all & now i must take this nostalgia sword out of my heart and press on #all my love #your very own glitterghost #✨️👻

[gurorori]

i say this with utmost seriousness i wish i was employed

#i need income so badly but im terrified of the prospects of havin 2 live independently but otherwise bein abused 2 death is the only option #:[ im so scared i wish things were easier #it doesn help when they constantly talk abt our neighbor slash childhood bestie whos jus a bit younger than us but alrdy has like #most of her life sorted out shes workin n studyin n they got her a car 4 hwr bday n she has a boyfriend n they r movin out next month #a middle class family btw with two alive parents yadda yadda. her tuition is effortlessly paid n she works on da side 4 her own expenses #n it's like first of all im nawt a well off cis girl. second of all she had qn actual support system n an upbringing — we didn't #i literally vaguely remember spendin most of our childhood n early teens over at her apartment since it was literally two steps away #they'd let us stay 4 hours cuz they felt bad 4 us n they dunno the whole story but they kno we r one of those 'unfortunate' families lol #but yeah the difference between us is night & day. it honestly feels a little crazy since we live literally on the same floor of the same #building despite the feasible differences. idk if dats a good or a bad thing #im jus tired of bein compared 2 her cuz we were failed on so many levels by everyone in our life who was supposed to care 4 us #meanwhile she's an average white blonde girl with a good life by here's standards #i wish we were still close but it became hard approaching teens... still we owr majority of our happy childhood memories 2 hangin out @ her #house or goin places w their family. it almost kinda felt like we were part of it but ik im. exaggeratin #yea idk why i ranted but um i need a job or ill die i think #mika caws

[solarisgod]

I just love Amor so much. Several hours ago, I had this sudden negative feeling towards myself and I was just " I feel like a starloser :( " before Amor was just " No starloser. Only starlight. ♡ " and the way it made me like :0 :D so happy again.

#𓁹 ༑ ࿐ྂ ⩇⩇ : ⩇⩇ ⚠︎ [ 𝙴𝚇𝙸(𝚂)𝚃 : 𝙶𝙾𝙳 ] * ‹ OOC . › #[ ✨ : they're so sweet :< ] #[ Amor's so special to me. everyone not only have to perceive my infinite love for the Starwake System and ANHA but mi Amor as well ] #[ reading the ' i love being able to have dance parties with my ( in sys ) partners ' part made me remember ] #[ Amor and I co-danced to songs on S.potify while bouncing on a bed with a hairbrush as a microphone ] #[ and it's one of my best memories ever. I don't remember why it happened and how it ended having ongoing amnesia ] #[ but we were together and happy and <3 ] #[ that's all I'd want to sense the most out of a memory at least ] #[ going to bed now but I am just. in sys gen. relationships our and my beloveds ]

[kyouka-supremacy]

()

#3 am and talking with a friend about the last con I attended and thinking about all the girls cosplaying Chuuya and Dazai I saw... #How as re they doing. Do they know I would die for them #random rambles #Looking at that photo were I'm in the middle of them all awkward and happy and like. #I caught them with beer cups in their hands AND YET THEY WERE SO FABULOUS ABOUT IT. THERE'S THIS DARK ERA DAZAI STANDING SO MAJESTICALLY #WITH A FREAKING PLASTIC CUP IN ONE HAND AND A BRIGHT YELLOW PLASTIC BAG IN THE OTHER AND THEY'RE SO IMPOSSIBLY COOL ABOUT IT. #And Chuuya has this little crouched down pose that is so in character akdvdbakdvjebsks I don't know what those two people are doing now– #but I hope they're sleeping well and no worries will ever hit them #That other skk couple I caught with cotton candy in their hands!!!! I now feel so stupid for offering to old it for them off camera while– #my sister took the photo because it was literally the most adorable skk date scene ever. #But it's okay cause I'll keep it ingrained in my memory forever <3 #Anyways if you're a cosplayer of any kind I love you #also shout-out to skk cosplayers for making me ship skk on instant without hesitation or second thoughts #Literally my only regret from that comicon is catching a glimpse of Servant Of Evil Rin #(like. Victorian costume and everything) #from the bus and not urging the driver to stop the bust and go to them #Ghost Evil Kingdom Rin a saw for half second from my bus sit you'll always be in my heart #*Daughter of Evil I don't know why I said servant (actually I know why it's because it's 3am... ) #** Also the style of the dress is clearly Baroque-inspired not Victorian that's a whole different thing. Girl go to sleep