#personal life

[00tonn]

My kid Shuggy figure arrived today ❤️💙 I love them so much T_T

#personal life #shanks #buggy #buggy the clown #one piece #shuggy

[e-vay]

Today was the big day! We finally got the keys to our new house!

I’m so thankful to Ryan, to our realtor, to the builders and to God for making it all happen 🥰

Had to channel my inner-Amy for this since I’m the strongest of the two of us 😂

#my life #personal life #ryvay #evayXThatGuy

[indestinatus]

I MATCHED I MATCHED IN MY MEDICAL RESIDENCY PROGRAM IN MY TOP SCHOOL I PASSED I PASSED I CAN'T BREATHE 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

#i also fell down the stairs while trying to scream it to my mom and now i cant walk #I'M MOVING TO SÃO PAULO #I CAN'T BREATHE #i've been studying for 2 years for this #damn it the timing of this #I'M GOING TO BE A RESIDENT!!!!!!! #i cant stop crying i cant even type evenly #i'm so happy i'm so happy obrigada deus #sofia is going to be a resident!!!! CLINICAL MEDICINE BABY #in my top SCHOOL I CANT EVEN #OMFG 😭 #personal life

[weirdozjunkary]

I don’t normally like to vent about myself or my life. But everything just feels like it’s spiralling for me and I just don’t know what to do. This is probably as personal as I’ll ever get on here haha.

I might eventually delete this. But I don’t know..

CW: personal life, SH and Sui talk

Right now my country Canada is entering late stage capitalism, as well as the US. It sucks, yes. But I figured that by the time I’m out on my own and I’m able to fend for myself, that most of this would blow over and I will be fine. But now it’s getting hard to think about stuff like that.

I believe I have undiagnosed autism and currently undiagnosed ADHD (was diagnosed as a child), which makes a lot of things hard for me. I’ve been wanting to get a diagnosis to help myself for the future. But I’ve been constantly told not to, as doing so would make people think less of me. And I hate that people have that mindset, even if it is true.

Something that is worse is that I can’t pay for anything. I can’t pay off my loans because it’s too high. I don’t even have a job to pay them off, I can’t even get a job because of my autism and because the job market is fucked. I’m moving to a whole other country really soon that I know nothing about so there’s no point in me even doing my schooling here anymore, the only reason I’m still going is because my dad wants me to. And if I don’t pay off my loans, my credit will be put in the “risk” category, credit mind you that I don’t have because I don’t have a credit card.

I cant even speak the language to the place I’m moving too, so I don’t know if I would even be able to get a job there other than just a cleaning person. And even if I come back here to Canada if I do my schooling there, I don’t know if I would be able to get a house because the housing market is absolutely terrible here.

If I stay here in Canada I have basically no one to fall back on if things turn to the absolute worse for me, and it really feels like life wants that to happen to me. I wasn’t really told much about life stuff as a kid, so now it’s biting me in the ass and I’m paying for it. I know I’m still stable at the moment, I have a house and food and water. But every day I hear more and more worse things.

I used to live out of spite, but now that spite is starting to fade on me. I can’t lie and say that I have thought the worst about myself, what I want to do to myself. I’m terrified of death, but sometimes it seems like the more favourable option. People always say to stay in the present, that’s what matters. It’s hard to stay in the present when the future keeps looking bleaker and bleaker.

I try to stay positive, that I will be okay in the end. I want to believe that I’ll be okay. But it’s getting harder and harder to see that

Everything feels like its burning around me and I don’t know what to do. It feels like it’s all my fault. That I’m just gonna die homeless and alone.

I’m sorry that this is so much more negative compared to what I normally post. Everything just feels so terrible and I don’t know what to do. I shouldn’t be feeling like this, I’m a young adult and yet I’m so worried about everything that it would all crash around me. Every time I feel even remotely stable, it feels as though life just kicks the rug under my feet and fucks everything up for me.

I want to feel okay again. But I don’t know if I ever will be.

#text post #ranta #personal life #vent #CW: self harm talk #cw: sui mention #I know I’m mostly feeling like this cause I’m hungry and it’s past 9 rn #but still I feel like absolute shit

[caitylove]

So I er---did a thing today... And I'm still mentally freaking out. Impulsive solo trip was totally worth it.

#like...how is this this pretty? #I can die now and be happy #personal life #motor city comic con #mary mcdonnell

[night-market-if]

Thank you!

To everyone who has been leaving tips for me when purchasing the Night Market on itch.io, thank you so much! With this wind storm, we lost the entirety of my husbands next paycheck so bills are on me for the end of this month. Every little bit is incredibly helpful. :)

#the night market #you readers are the best #personal life

[npshab]

Setelah menikah aku merasa disayangin banget. Sama suamiku.

Setelah melahirkan aku merasa diperjuangin banget, meskipun kalo dipikir pikir aku ga pernah ga diperjuangin gaksi? Sebelum menikah, ada orang tua yang terus merjuangin aku, tapi baru kerasa diperjuangin pas setelah menikah, oleh suamiku. Mungkin karena komunikasi aku sm orang tuaku tidak terlalu bagus, makanya perjuangin mereka sering aku lupa karena ketutup sama ngomeeel melulu wkwk.

Setelah sekarang jadi ibu dan punya anak yang udah bisa diajak ngobrol, aku jadi merasa kalo ternyata keberadaanku itu berarti ya?:’) rasanya kaya selalu seru setiap hari, karena aku merasa banyak gataunya, merasa harus belajar belajar belajar terus buat jadi ibu & istri yang baik, jadi tiap hari selalu menemukan momen “oh ternyata hari ini begini, besok harus lebih baik lagi”.

Anakku jadi cerminanku. Alarmku.

Ketika ada sesuatu hal dari anakku yang menurutku “harusnya ga gini deh”, disitu akan jadi titik dimana aku melihat lagi diriku. Anak aku masih dibawah 7 tahun usianya, ketika ada sesuatu sikapnya yg ga sesuai berarti yang harus diperbaiki adalah aku, ibunya. Introspeksi lagi, apa ya yg salah, gimana ya caranya supaya lebih baik, baca baca lagi, ikutan kelas lagi, belajar lagi, seru deh pokoknya.

Terima kasih ya anakku buat semua pelajarannya, buat selalu maafin ibu & ayah setiap hari, buat selalu kasih kesempatan ibu & ayah buat belajar lagi, belajar terus sama sama ya nak. Semoga ibu & ayah bisa terus membersamai kamu sampai dewasa. Sayang selamanyaa <3

#personal life #thought

[38sr]

3 yrs later after the artist program and im happy to share that im a storyboard artist over at nickelodeon on an unannounced project, super excited to be back✨✨✨

#i cant wait for y’all to see it #in like the distant future LOL #animation #animation industry #nickelodeon #personal life

[wolfy1298]

Panic and get it done

#my mood at art school #personal life #welcome to midterms #in other news my teachers seem to really like what I’ve been doing so far so I think I’m on the right track #still don’t know what my grades are but I’ll assume they’re good

[giveamadeuschohisownmovie]

So recently, I bonded with my sister’s boyfriend over “Detroit: Become Human”, which he has never played but heard about. I’ve played the game, so I let him do a playthrough on my PS4 while I watched. Let me just say, his playthrough was SIGNIFICANTLY different than mine, which was fun since it felt like watching a movie for the first time.

Anyways, the results of my sister’s boyfriend’s playthrough:

1) Committed to violent revolutionary Markus (I was pacifist)

2) Saved Kara, Alice, and Luther by crossing the border after sacrificing Jerry (this stunned me because I had no idea you could still get this ending if you went through with the violent revolution)

3) Markus successfully revolted.

4) North romance, which made sense since Markus was only doing revolutionary choices.

5) Connor stayed a machine (not by choice, he just didn’t get enough software instability). Also, since Markus led a successful revolution, Connor became the Final Boss who had to be defeated. It was sad watching Connor’s perma-death, but it made sense for the story. Side note, the game allowing you to choose who was going to be the Final Boss (Markus or Connor) was the coolest thing I’ve seen come out of this game. I didn’t know that could be an option.

6) Hank died trying to stop Connor from assassinating Markus

7) Out of Markus’ circle, only North survived. Simon was left behind at the news station, Josh got shot.

So, yeah. Markus and Kara lived, Connor died. I guess the ending was mostly good because the androids did win at the end? It just sucks that we lost Connor. At least Kara got the best possible ending for her storyline (Jerry dying didn’t really bother us).

Anyways, next up will probably be Heavy Rain. He hasn’t played any of the Quantic Dream games, so that one’s probably the next best one to start.

#detroit become human #quantic dream #dbh #dbh markus #dbh kara #dbh connor #dbh alice #dbh luther #dbh jerry #dbh north #rk800 #markus rk200 #connor rk800 #hank anderson #dbh simon #dbh josh #video games #personal life #video game #cyberlife

[throneofsapphics]

I’ve mostly dated women the last several years and I forgot how disappointing it is when a man can’t find the clit :/

#there’s only so much you can train them #fictional men would never #personal life #i will delete this later

[boookfreeak]

I just tried to quote Andrew Garfield's "she's like a shot of espresso" and said "she's like a cup of coffee" 😭😭

#i was like 'weird that doesn't sound right' #andrew garfield #emma stone #meme #me being stupid #my thoughts #personal life

[e-vay]

Honored beyond belief to take home 2 Emmy awards tonight 💛 I got to share the stage and the credit with some insanely talented people tonight. They all inspire me and encourage me to work harder every day! Congrats to all the winners and all those nominated 🥰🏆

#Rocky Mountain Emmy awards #the Emmy’s #rockymountainemmys #rockymtnemmy #personal life #my life

[m3lodii]

Guys i swear that I'm okay and totally not wasting my time (cof cof)

I try to make every post here i can sfw, even though the content that I do see when I'm out of little space might not be the most family friendly..

Btw should I make an Catnap or/and a DogDay agere caregiver AI on character AI? I'm not good at writing fanfics, specially because english is not my native language but, if you all want to, I don't mind doing them both as caregivers in a sfw fanfic

#little space #character ai #dogday #catnap #poppy playtime #question #ask #personal life #sfw?

[weirdozjunkary]

I really need to make a new proper portfolio cause I think I might’ve accidentally lost all of the stuff from my highschool when I moved dear lord.

#rambles #text post #personal life

[night-market-if]

I AM BACK TO WORK FINALLY!!!

It has been a freaking month! LOL! When I was ready to go back to work, I got sick with another chest cold. So, I am behind on Patreon and the next chapter. But, we should be back to our regular schedule soon.

#the night market #personal life