#we want to live to get older

[edwardslostalchemy]

It's my birthday today 🥳🎂🎇!!!!!!!

#fran talks #i just keep getting deeper into the underbelly of adulthood #it gets better actually? #we want to live to get older #and achieve our goals

[just-somedude]

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#I had to go to a high school friend's funeral a couple weeks ago #the guy was like an older brother to me #he was only 23 #I spent an hour alone in a room with his coffin just crying #wishing I had gotten to spend more time with him #Now because of that #I'm making sure to live my life exactly how I want to #I've had people tell me to “do the smart thing” and build a career #travel in short spurts etc #fuck that #I want to be the unemployed friend in all those memes #the guy who you don't hear from until you get a video from a glacial lake in the middle of the wilderness #and then a week later a picture from atop a mountain #I want to do cool shit #I want to have DAD LORE #stories to tell #people to tell them #mid life crisis at 22 is crazy but FUCK IT WE BALL #anyways my rambling is over if you're still reading this I'll give you a smooch

[jesterwhoreknee]

Not me wanting to do a Chalastor/Radiobelle roleplay but being scared to death of being attacked or mocked in the roleplay community for it 💀

Don't get me wrong I love Vaggie and Charlie together and loved Vaggie's angel look alongside the backstory and how they met, but Vivzie isn't good at writting women and they don't have chemistry at all. Meanwhile I have always had a soft spot for Charastor and the dynamic/potential they had since the pilot came out. I know it will never be canon and don't intend in wanting it to be because I respect the characters sexualities/official pairings. BUT LEMME ENJOY MY FANON SHIP IN PEACEEEEE 😤😤😤

#chalastor #radiobelle #charlie x alastor #hazbin hotel #alastor #charlie morningstar #Vivzie said we can ship whoever we want #is common sense guys #shipping has always ignored canon #live and let live #Alastor doesn't see Charlie as a daughter #He wants to piss off Luci #anyways they aren't actually related and Charlie is thousand of years older so it doesn't make sense and they have never acted like that #shippers just choose to ignore that part and keep treating them as business partners/friends #or they make Charlie reject that fraternal bond while Alastor admits not meaning it because he only wants to piss off Luci (which is true) #if you don't like it it's respectable but stop shamming other shippers #people are just using this as an excuse to keep harassing Chalastor fans because they have always been harassed for years before this #I said what I said #I will get funned omg #bye #roleplay #vivziepop #shipping

[kanansdume]

Reading Light of the Jedi for the first time has made the fact that the first (non-preschooler) TV show set in the High Republic time period is going to be a Sith-centric anti-Jedi mess even more disappointing than it already was.

#star wars #light of the jedi #high republic #anti acolyte #acolyte critical #the acolyte critical #light of the jedi has SO MUCH of what i've wanted for so long #a positive relationship between the jedi and the republic #because the system DOES WORK when it's not being run by literal sith #more worldbuilding on how the jedi's lives look when they're not literally at war #what happens when jedi get older? #what are some basic training things that jedi do with each other and does it involve shoving each other off cliffs? (Yes) #we get to see so many ways for jedi to be jedi in this universe that allows them to just exist as they are #the jedi love each other and they love the republic and - for the time being - the republic loves them back #it's REALLY cool to see #and the villains aren't these terrible unknowable sith characters #the nihil have literally zero messages to send #they're just selfish criminals #they're nothing and no one #they're entirely banal #and that's honestly sort-of refreshing #i don't WANT the villains to be sith all the time #we've seen enough sith #the nihil are a kind-of basic bland villain that the galaxy would be dealing with in the absence of sith #it's so great #and acolyte so far looks like pure shit #i don't understand how the high republic series which is so adamantly pro-jedi and not about sith at all #has led us to a series like acolyte #whose creator promises us will be all about how the jedi sucked major balls #it's just immensely sad

[todayisafridaynight]

sorry that im obsessed with him <- is not sorry

#snap chats #this is my favorite cutscene in the game it has everything i want and need #i love that first screenshot so much......... top ten frames of ryo aoki ever #i want an aoki photocard of it wahhh hes so cute and pookie </3 #i also like the hand detail we see int he second one....... very nice.... #i love this cutscene cause he gets deadnamed live and thats still the funniest thing to ever happen in rgg to me #'sir youre trending theyre beating your ass in the qrts' DO NOT CARE THAT I MADE THAT JOKE ALREADY. I WAS REAL FOR IT #anyway hes sooooo cuute sorryyy thats my truth #he just looks like a little lad <- hes 43. or wouldve been (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`) #every time i remember the game being like 'ryo aoki is young as hell to be doing this bullshit' i cakcle #maybe he just /looks/ too young yk... round faces be damned you will never look older than fifteen #i still stand that he constantly looks lke he got a frog in his mouth #oh but. Genuine Appreciation Time it is very cute how this cutscene starts with him lit so well and then just. Dark LOL #VERY OBVIOUS AND EASY SYMOBLISM BUT I DONT CAAARRREEE i always live for it #anyway he cutie patootie awwww i wanna pinch his cheeks and then shove him back into a locker

[hella1975]

there's a very specific kind of vibe that comes with living with your friends in final year that it just does not have in first year or even second year. like as a fresher it's usually the first time any of you have lived away from home let alone with SO MANY people your age and it's terrifying and exciting and randomised to boot so it's generally carnage for a whole year in the best and worst ways, and then second year you pick who you're living with and it feels like for the first time you're doing this adult thing PROPERLY. you have a place of your own now. these are the people you've chosen to live with. studying gets serious etc. but it's still fresh. it's still new. you still don't know how to navigate it. but final year? final year is when you actually get it right. you know how to manage your time better. you know what works for you and what doesn't. studying is the main focus and you've been out in the world for three years now and it's not loud and boisterous like it was in first year and you're not exciteable and awkward like you were in second year. you're comfortable. every single one of my flatmates has their own friend group and we mainly keep to our own social circles, but we'll still meet each other back at the house after a night out and sit in the kitchen or my room to do the debrief. sometimes i'll go days not seeing either of them despite sharing a house but every now and then someone will softly call up the stairs that 'the heating's on!' or one of us will sneeze and the other two will yell 'bless you!' through the walls. the lack of interaction isn't interpreted as dislike in ways it would have been even last year, because we're all just old enough to be past that now and settled enough in our friendship not to worry about it. idk. uni is very loud and unsettling a lot of the time so it's been really sweet to see how almost boringly comfortable final year is.

#like my day today was literally drag myself out of bed at 10am to meet my econ friends bc we're in a group together #and i spent two hours with them writing a fucking TRADE REPORT before coming home #and the rest of the day was kinda lost. i showered. i put a wash on. i had a nap. i mainly stayed in my room #which sometimes is the End Of All Things but today was quite nice #and i can hear in their rooms how my flatmates are doing the exact same thing. pottering about and getting on with uni #and we've barely spoken all day but earlier my one flatmate ran into my room all excited to show me her nails #bc she's been teaching herself to do gels and it took her 2 hours but im still one of the first people she wanted to show #and just now we all went to use the bathroom at the same time and it led to one of our Stair Sessions #where we all inexplicably just gather on the stairs and chat for no reason with a cup of tea #idk it's just nice. it's such basic shit but i can't belive in first year i used to spend EVERY DAY with these girls #and we were one single friendship group and that was all we had #and then in second year one girl branched off bc she lived in a studio and got into her societies #but me and the other girl lived together again and it was the same thing of she was a friend before she was someone i lived with #and weirdly that can actually be detrimental to a dynamic. but this year we're all just very solidified and confident in ourselves #and where we stand and yes we all have our own friendship groups outside of the house now #but there's still that love and simple comfortableness around each other that you only get with time and a hell of a lot of proximity #and a sense of being settled that maybe is just what happens as you get older #idk it's just really nice. if i had this exact same day in first year (doing economics and barely leaving my room) #it would've been a really bad depressive day for me so the fact i can find such contentment from it now is really heartening #i love my little life here im very proud of what ive been able to achieve :) #hella goes to uni #feeling nostalgic because SOME BITCH decided to ribs post

[lcevinolusola]

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#my older sister wants to get matching tattoos and that makes me ghjkjhbhj so happy #i barely knew her growing up and she always lived away from me since we're technically half siblings #so i never really had a relationship with her but now that we're both adults and can decide when and how we talk #we've gotten super close and we talk often and we actually act like sisters #and so to get a text from her wanting to get matching sister tattoos is so!!!!!!!! im so happy!!!!!!!!! i love her so much!!!!!!!!! #im like. giddy over this. shes so special to me!!! and often times she the only person i can confide in who gets what this family is like #and idk confirmation that she sees me as the same just makes me really warm!!!!!!! #we havent decided what exactly itll be but we have themes we both like so it wont be hard #i love my sister so much!!!!!!!! #personal

[arabela25]

The Liverpool Songbook | Eurovision Song Contest 2023

#eurovision #eurovision 2023 #esc #general thoughts: needed more ukraine #more specific thoughts for each performance: #mahmood: no. no no no. absolutely not. NO. NOOOOO #imagine was already overdone long before gal gadot killed it for good in 2020 #netta: fun choice fun performance over the top costuming #dadi: fun!! very much in his style. he seems to be enjoying himself #and I'm also very happy for him for finaly FINALLY performing live to thousands in the arena and millions back at home #(he recently tweeted that they should get rid of prrecorded vocals) #(which I agree with but I'd love to ask him more about it) #(because his music relies a lot on voice effects and he did use a recorded choir in his own esc performance) #cornelia: not only she said ''I'm going to do the most'' she also added ''and I'm doing it for the sapphics'' nothing but respect for that #sonia: the hometown girl!! I always love to see an older act that maybe we wouldn't immediately think of #ofc she's from liverpool and it is the 30th anniversary of her participation so it makes perfect sense #I've always enjoyed her song too #duncan was very nice too especially when everyone joins him on stage and we see ruslana with the kids back in kyiv #what's next?? if sweden does something similar next year (various artists covering different songs) I don't want to see any of these people #I don't want to see them for the next 3 or 4 years at least #there are SO many artists that have participated the possibilities are endless we don't need to see the same people every time

[carrionsflower]

#airika txt. #it’s funny (derogatory) how growing up in a family that seemed to only be able to function in chaos #leads to ✨more chaos✨ #lots of things going on in my family rn so i’m trying not to have a menty b #i just … don’t understand how they can’t see that chaos BREEDS chaos #i don’t think there had been a single moment of my life that wasn’t knee deep in some kind of scandal or problem with my family #and they want to constantly just use the whole ‘every family has issues’ excuse #like respectful we are LIVING shameless season 12 rn #you just never realize how deeply it’s shaped you until you get older #sometimes laying on your bedroom floor in your 30s and crying to sun bleached flies can be healing #anyway i’ll delete this later #i’m just having a really rough go of it and voicing this verbally will just add fuel to the fire

[phineas-and-herb]

i think its insane that candace was only being paid $3.50 an hour for her first job but then i realized that's also how much i made per hour when i got my first job too

#granted my job was after the great recession and i think candace's was probably written before it #im like wow imagine getting paid under $4 an hour and then im like... wait a minute #wow look at this pathetic teen girl... WAIT #phineas and ferb #pnf #dwampyverse #candace flynn #dan povenmire #i think i was also 16 at the time and candace is like 15 in toy to the world #i assume shes younger than vanessa bc she calls vanessa a cool older girl in night of the living pharmacists #and vanessa turns 16 in s1 so i assume candace turned 15 in the mt rushmore episode #imagine that was her s16 i would be so upset if i were her #but also i didn't do anything for my s16 even though i wanted to #my mom got me a gift card for a place we only went to togeter so i was like why would u pay extra to activate the gift card why not just #buy the stuff #idk

[prolibytherium]

Absolutely death gripped clenched trying not to comment on reductive posts on ancient greek homosexual relationships

#It is neither wholly '0mg two gay guys in love!!' and 'I am humiliating and debasing a lower man by making a woman out of him' #There's heavy elements of that in how they conceptualized penetrator vs penetrated but the erastes (lover/protector) and eromenos (beloved) #relationship was significantly more complex than that #Like it is conceptualized as sort of a mentor/mentee relationship and a positive element for an adolescent's development #It was the subject of romantic plays and you get things like people in antiquity in heated debates over who is the #erastes and who is the eromenos between Achilles and Patroclus (to better depict them in plays) #The bottom line is more 'the socially accepted m/m relationships were (what we would now consider) an adult and a child #(or young man) with the age difference being a fundamental element to the dynamic.' #And more broadly being penetrated in sex assigned a 'lower' or 'womanly' role and it would not be conventionally accepted #for an older/more socially powerful man to recieve penetration (which certainly DID happen though) #So absolutely a moment in the history of male homosexuality and not something to just go 'ew ew bad evil ewwie' about but also #not something you want to project modern conceptions of LGBT identity upon #Also we know relatively little about relationships between women in ancient Greece due to lack of sources due to being a #highly patriarchal culture but we can't actually know that they did not involve similar power dynamic #Certainly not to the same extent or in such a well socially defined way (bc they conceptualize sex almost entirely through a lens of #penetration) but I think you should be treating relations between ancient Greek women with the same degree of #historical distance from our lives and identities today. #Ok death grip failed I just typed an entire rant. Fiuck it

[skunkes]

hi im gonna sadpost for a bit

#talkys #down here hee hee #anyway #i keep getting really sad about like. I'm Only Getting Older. When Will I Find My Person. #but its not even in a ''older = no one will want me'' way #its more like. i want them Now. we only have so much time on this earnth i want as much time with this person as possible and im missing #out on so much of it #literally that ''i wish id met you sooner'' post. with the carly rae jepsen lyrics and everything. #i dont even Have em yet and i already wish id met em sooner #i dont even have em yet and im already wondering how i ever lived life without em. bc im living out the answer right now #and it is‚ well. very miserably. im doing very miserably without em. #im optimistically jealous of future me #while also hoping this future me is very very very soon into future me #i want to be there Now. time is being wasted right now without you‚ wherever you are #(saying this as if its ever gonna happen again + as if i wont have to go thru heartbreak 50 more times before ever MAYBE finding a good fit #but whatever. im really trying to stay in the deluded ''im excited for it to happen'' boat instead of the Get Real Lmao. If It Had Never #Happened Once It Still Wouldn't've Happened/No One Is Around or In Line to #Date You Soooooo Get Used to Another Few Decades of Nothing and No One boat. wah #anyway. sad !

[troublcmakcrs]

y'all: umm... whatcha got there?

me, with the oc i created solely to ship with tweek in his older verses: nothin, mind your fucking business

#misc :: ( ooc ) #//originally i created her To Die #//to show the dangers of drugs or whatever #//just like tweek's older male love interest was created solely to be Kind Of An Asshole #//but now i'm a little attached to her :(((( #//so it might be that in older verses where tweek is not being shipped with anyone he is married to her #//in verses where he is being shipped with other muses she can die a lil. as a treat :) #//tweek: AS A TREAT?! WHAT KINDA FUCKIN TREAT IS THAT??? #//with his male love interest redd (who i named before learning there is already a sp character named red and may have to rename) #//tweek actually wasn't actually in love with him. it was a relationship of convenience. a roof over his head and good sex #//but with this one... who i am considering naming jenna/jenny or aurora/rory... he is hopelessly terribly grotesquely in love with her #//OH TO BE TWO METH ADDICTS ABSENTLY PETTING EACH OTHER WHILE MAKING FUTURE PLANS NEITHER ONE OF THEM IS SURE THEY'LL LIVE TO SEE #//in verses where she does die she gets murderalized by another addict #//tweek is passed out and doesn't learn of her death until the next day #//which is spicy and fun; we love a good dead gf trope in this house (sorry women) #//BUT ALSO I THINK THEY DESERVE TO BE SOBER AND MARRIED WITH KIDS :'( #//she is just such a ray of light and also wants to get off of meth and run away to somewhere warmer #//she's just got such a kind & giving heart and most people can't see past her addiction to get to it #//unlike redd who doesn't care and highkey enables tweek in his bad habits #//timeline-wise tweek is with redd around 20/21 #//and meets the girl around 23/24 #//or so i am thinking so far #//''vacation town'' by the front bottoms is a good song for verses where she dies and do got me fucked up

[rxttenfish]

tbh tho this is EXACTLY what merfolk relationships look like

and they just keep track of this. in their heads. all the time.

#all the care guide says is 'biomass' #they dont have gendered pronouns but they do have tone modifiers for every other fucking word depending on their relationship to the other #and their mood. and if theyre referring to multiple people at once or just one person. and often layered on top of each other too. #merfolk have poor vision but they DO inherently think of things in a more ''three dimensional'' way than we do #considering they live underwater and youre operating with another axis just to move around anywhere #which then gets applied to the rest of their everything #ESPECIALLY language because theyre nerds who went hard into the sound focus #their visual art in comparison has simpler elements than ours (but a lot more focus on light/movement) #this is why merfolk have some very unique spellcrafts and theyre notorious for complicated and detailed spellwork #like yes a part of it is the fact that theyre older than the other species and have had more time to work on it #but also they can just DO really unique things compared to other cultures because they emphasize layered detail in this way #this is also why - from the outside - so much of miranda's job looks like parties and balls and attending to the courts #because again. its all about the emphasis on who has what relationship with who and how to operate within that. #legal agreements are multilayered and come with terms and conditions a mile long and you need to have a very careful hand on the pulse #of all of this #even moreso because royal families go even harder with treating the lineage as the individual and the merfolk #as just limbs and organs of this equation #this is why it was so important that miranda be good at manipulation and speaking and just *charismatic* #literally making people do what she wants or needs them to do is just what makes the merkingdom GO and operate #and why she (and the other royals) occupy a space a little like a public performer does as well #and why royals showing personal favor and having close personal relationships is frowned upon as #mixing pleasure and business #since those relationships ARE their business and so much of the underlying politics #if youre showing undue favor to someone because you personally just like them then you aren't judging them based off of actual talent #merfolk complicated! merkingdom complicated! #(the merkingdom is also SUPER fucked up but thats tangential from this tangent)

[ruanbaijie]

me at 18, last year of high school: *stressing about what to do with my life*

me at 23, last year of university: *stressing about what to do with my life*

me at 27, fourth year of working: *stressing about what to do with my life*

#*ramblings #when will i KNOW #the other day when i met up my uni friends we were talking about fears #and i said my fear was how time seems to pass faster the older you get #i should have said fucking up and wasting my life #everyone seems to have a plan and to know what they're doing #to have already started a family or to know what they want out of their career #and then there's me living day by day just doing my job #then coming home and watching shows and doing god knows what on tumblr #what is wrong with me