#we have so much to offer this world

[joan-of-feminism]

Women are so much more than the brainless, two dimensional creatures that men think we are. They truly cannot comprehend how we have complex inner worlds, emotions, experiences, and hobbies that have nothing to do with them. We play sports, make clothing from scratch, cook elaborate meals, read stacks of books, code computer games and so much more. We don’t just stop existing and living our lives whenever men aren’t around. I love women so much. We can do so many amazing things completely separated from men.

#men are stupid #men are trash #women are wonderful complex people #we have so much to offer this world #all men do is sit on their ass and make podcasts #radblr #radfem #radfems do touch

[inkskinned]

you were raised in comparison.

it wasn't always obvious (well. except for the times that it was), but you internalized it young. you had to eat what you didn't like, other people are going hungry, and you should be grateful. you had to suck it up and walk on the twisted ankle, it wasn't broken, you were just being a baby. you were never actually suffering, people obviously had it worse than you did.

you had a roof over your head - imagine! with the way you behaved, with how you talked back to your parents? you're lucky they didn't kick you out on your ass. they had friends who had to deal with that. hell, you have friends who had to deal with that. and how dare you imply your father isn't there for you - just because he doesn't ever actually talk to you and just because he's completely emotionally checked out of your life doesn't mean you're not fucking lucky. think about your cousins, who don't even get to speak to their dad. so what if yours has a mean streak; is aggressive and rude. at least you have a father to be rude to you.

you really think you're hurting? you were raised in a home! you had access to clean water! you never so much as came close to experiencing a real problem. sure, okay. you have this "mental illness" thing, but teenagers are always depressed, right. it's a phase, you'll move on with your life.

what do you mean you feel burnt out at work. what do you mean you mean you never "formed healthy coping mechanisms?" we raised you better than that. you were supposed to just shoulder through things. to hold yourself to high expectations. "burning out" is for people with real jobs and real stress. burnout is for people who have sick kids and people who have high-paying jobs and people who are actually experiencing something difficult. recently you almost cried because you couldn't find your fucking car keys. you just have lost your sense of gratitude, and honestly, we're kind of hurt. we tell you we love you, isn't that enough? if you want us to stick around, you need to be better about proving it. you need to shut up about how your mental health is ruined.

it could be worse! what if you were actually experiencing executive dysfunction. if you were really actually sick, would you even be able to look at things on the internet about it? you just spend too much time on webMD. you just like to freak yourself out and feel like you belong to something. you just like playing the victim. this is always how you have been - you've always been so fucking dramatic. you have no idea how good you have it - you're too fucking sensitive.

you were like, maybe too good of a kid. unwilling to make a real fuss. and the whole time - the little points, the little validations - they went unnoticed. it isn't that you were looking for love, specifically - more like you'd just wanted any one person to actually listen. that was all you'd really need. you just needed to be witnessed. it wasn't that you couldn't withstand the burden, but you did want to know that anyone was watching. these days, you are so accustomed to the idea of comparison - you don't even think you belong in your own communities. someone always fits better than you do. you're always the outlier. they made these places safe, and then you go in, and you are just not... quite the same way that would actually-fit.

you watch the little white ocean of your numbness lap at your ankles. the tide has been coming in for a while, you need to do something about it. what you want to do is take a nap. what you want to do is develop some kind of time machine - it's not like you want your life to stop, not completely, but it would really nice if you could just get everything to freeze, just for a little while, just until you're finished resting. but at least you're not the worst you've been. at least you have anything. you're so fucking lucky. do you have any concept of the amount of global suffering?

a little ant dies at the side of your kitchen sink. you look at its strange chitinous body and think - if you could just somehow convince yourself it is enough, it will finally be enough and you can be happy. no changes will have to be made. you just need to remember what you could lose. what is still precious to you.

you can't stop staring at the ant. you could be an ant instead of a person, that is how lucky you are. it's just - you didn't know the name of the ant, did you. it's just - ants spend their whole life working, and never complain. never pull the car over to weep.

it's just - when it died, it curled up into a tight little ball.

something kind of uncomfortable: you do that when you sleep.

#writeblr #warm up #my dad was actively doing bad shit to us and we STILL were told we were lucky . and to a point i do think im lucky #i just think also there's somethin to be said about like. how about we stop using comparison to dismiss ppls individual struggles #yes there are people who have no perspective. for the reference tho having perspective actually made me really unwilling to get help #for what was a serious and debilitating mental health issue. bc i thought i didnt DESERVE IT #and i would rather have 600 ppl who aren't THAT bad get help and get heard and get seen #than make any 1 kid. do the math that i did: look at the world that is dying and the people who are hurting and say #''oh. okay. others have it worse. they are probably better people than i am. i am being unreasonable. i cannot ask for help #i am not good. i am taking too much space. i am not worth saving.'' #bc our WHOLE lives we are taught a scarcity mindset - that you can 'steal' from someone. so that instead of changing a system that doesn't #actually offer fair support to everyone #we put the impetus on the individual to just... demand less. #and here's something - there are probably ppl who think i DIDNT deserve to get help #bc i DID have it better than other people #and something about that is ... so sickening. bc i think all of us in some way at some point WILL need help. #we were supposed to make communities. we were supposed to offer our hands. we were supposed to raise the barn #instead we said: it could be worse. now handle it yourself

[the-punforgiven]

Hey, I'm really sorry to have to ask y'all, but my family and I are being evicted from our home and we can't really afford to live anywhere else.

We've been saving up for a while and we've found a place we can almost afford, but we're still short about $4,400. So like, if you have anything you can do to help I'd greatly appreciate it, but like, I get that times are tough all around so I totally understand if you don't

Here's a link to my paypal, but like, please only donate if you've got the cash to spare, I don't want anyone to go hungry on my account

#I'm sorry to have to do this y'all ;-; #Idk what else to even do though #like this shabby little trailer we're looking at is like the second cheapest place in the entire town #we're getting kicked out of the first #the rent was dirt cheap due to the asbestos and ghosts and even then we could barely afford it lol #I wish I could offer emergency commissions or something but I've been so paralyzed by the stress of this whole situation #it's hard to do shit like draw and I'm afraid if I do the emergency commissions thing the stress'll just crush me #as if it hasn't been already lol #and I feel bad because there's like #so much more important shit in the world going on rn #and more important voices that need to be heard than mine #but also like #we need a place to live #y'know? #sorry for this again ;-; #pun's text posts #help

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

idk why, but your art is the image my browser uses for tumblr, which means I get to look at it all the time~

Tumblr said “you need a silly little guy to wave at you” and boy howdy is that silly guy waving.

#ask #Preview image selection is a mysterious force I do not understand - but I am honoured to have my silly doodle showcased #i am also so deeply flattered - even if its random chance I am still going AAAA #still not over the fact that people not only percieve my art but enjoy it!! #I hope he is bringing you as much warmth and joy as you need (plus some!!) #its a cold and cruel world out there. we all need a silly guy to get by #I have a hunch puffy sleeve wwx is losing terribly so I hope we can still remember him fondly from this #he’s telling you how to be a good bird: 1) get puffy and 2) beep a lot #3) eat seeds 4) avoid taxes #this is also the advice the other wwx offer you. Who said what is another mystery!

[maegalkarven]

The thing what kills me what it's not even OOC for the team to work with Gortash. You can canonically do that.

Wyll and Karlach don't even leave the party if you do that, you don't even have to make a roll to convince them.

You can either abandon Ravengard or save him BEHING GORTASH'S BACK after you've already killed Orin and solidified your pact and he went to the Morphic Pool. Like this is legit the thing I did in one on my playthroughs.

He canonically only attacks you if you attack him first, give him the stones (proving yourself to be weak) or if you went to a place he Explicitly told you Not To Go.

He calls you before you enter the Iron Throne and tells you not to do that. It's a direct warning and pretty much the only line you can't cross. You can destroy Steel Watch Foundry and STILL he offers an alliance.

(Fr how desperate is he for an ally??? Hello?? @ Mr Bane's Chosen, I don't think Bane approves???? You got this whole tyranny thing a lil wrong???)

His downfall is HIMSELF; if he did not go for that dumb stones grab he'd survive, but also he KNOWS they're going to fail in confronting the Brain, he pretty much states it in the convo next to a Morphic Pool, but he still pushes to try it, to meet the downfall on his terms.

I'm pretty sure it would be possible to convince him the Elder Brain needs to be destroyed because it became uncontrollable and is too much of a threat now (the things you can't control should be destroyed, yadda yadda, survival is a strong instinct and would win against thirst for power bc power is a means of survival too and power can be achieved elsewhere, meanwhile in death he is sentenced to Bane's wrath)

All the possible scenarios where his death by Netherbrain's command does not happen cloud my mind and I suffer. They could have had it all! Even Good!tav/Durge could have a Good Ending(hero of Forgotten Realms) and alliance with Gortash.

We could have had it all!!!

#lord enver gortash #enver gortash #like he is the worst #but also the fuck he offers the most respectful alliance you can have??? #where you clearly know where you stand? there you can genuinely Work Together??? #it makes me believe he follows Bane only on the surface/poser level and only for as long as he profits from it #because the equal alliance is not banite thing #bc “we will be gods” is pretty much a heresy concerning his servitude to bane. wdym YOU'LL be god? i don't think bane would approve of that #me rewriting the entire act 3 bc fuck that: Enver Gortash is not dying bc I said so #like the possibilities!!! #i think the thing what chains me to him is what he refuses to accept the cards he was given #he refuses to accept the fate #he refuses to accept any rules but his own #he is Defiance in the last instance. his enemy is The World in its entirety #he uses everything and everyone he meets went stop no matter what #probably CAN'T stop #i admire this level of...uh. obsession?

[maythearo]

College of Belas Artes using AI designs in advertisement for their courses, hm interesting, eat acid please

#shut up may #entire art world mutually understands this tech is not being used as a tool but to exploit and leave artists jobless #so yeah anyway one of the biggest academic institutions for art in Brazil uses it for their own promo anyway #bcs god forbid they hire any of the artists they graduate to make important social media advertisement right /s #the advertisement that announces open matriculations for the year therefore first inpressions of their institution as a whole #they graduate their students bcs they're paying for classes but offering job opportunities is suddenly not their responsibility anymore ig #whoever the fuck is the head of these decisions is so utterly out of touch with the art market like how do you still have a job #idk if I expect any uproar because this is Brazil after all and it's cultural how much we undermine art in general 🧍i hate it here #hope all ai bros go to hell this is not an exaggeration

[hooned]

i need two business days to recover OH i just love sunghoon so much you guys do not understand :((

#text post #for someone who doesn’t even cry in front of his friends and family #how heavy was the weight he was carrying all on his own for him to just burst out crying in front of thousands of people ? #he’s given so much of himself ; sacrificed too much of his youth #& not once have we heard him complain or say anything ill about anyone. not even those who’ve forsaken his name #even to those who were unkind— he offered nothing but warmth #it takes a lot of heart to remain kind when the world isn’t & yet sunghoon chooses to do so every day #sunghoon you are one of the best people i’ve ever had the grace of knowing #i love you for everything you were— you are— and everything you are yet to be #i’ll always follow your star little one #YOU WILL ALWAYS BE LOVED BY ME. ♡

[bylertruther-moved]

will says that el has a book of letters from him because he’s just pointing out that they kept in contact regularly whereas he and mike didn’t but somehow mike interprets that as if will was implying there should be something romantic between them too and it stumps will bc that’s not what he meant at all and he doesn’t realize yet why mike is actually so mad or who he’s mad at, and while we clown mike for being oblivious i think will is oblivious too bc this isn’t the first time mike’s done that and yet. will doesn’t question it. he never does and they never talk about it. he just continues with what he’s saying about how they used to be best friends. they never talk about the fact that when will fights to salvage their friendship mike talks about it as if it was more than what it was and as if continuing as they were would get between his relationship with eleven. which implies that he himself feels that their relationship is inappropriate if he wants to date eleven concurrently and explains why it’s the only friendship within the party that seriously falls apart and why will is the only party member that he completely changes his behavior n actions towards and why he’s the only party member that he no longer touches once he dates eleven. which again also explains why after they start dating it’s only when eleven isn’t around that he allows a softer, more open and present mike to reappear around will. it’s just like. why would he do any of that if he’s not projecting? will is literally the one with a canonically confirmed interest in him and yet he’s mad at the roller rink because will is ignoring him [or so he thought at that point]. he’s not mad that eleven lied. he’s not mad at what those bullies did to her. he’s mad that will didn’t talk to him. he’s so mad and hurt by will that he doesn’t even console his girlfriend who was encircled, taunted, and had a milkshake thrown on her all on tape. he stays by will’s side despite everything, even when she’s fidgeting and crying to the side of them. to top it off he even makes a passive aggressive bitchy little comment at dinner afterward because he’s still. mad. at. will. will is the one that ruined his day. not those bullies being cruel to el, but will. it clouds his vision so much that he can’t even pretend or begin to attempt to entertain the idea of being there for her when she so clearly needs him. how does anyone fucking watch any of that and not get what’s going on. HOW????

#byler #YOUR GIRL JUST GOT BULLIED SEVERELY AND YET YOU'RE MAD AT THE BOY WHO USED TO BE YOUR BEST FRIEND? #WILL IS SAYING THAT YOU NEVER TALKED TO HIM AND SOMEHOW YOU THINK HE'S SAYING YOU NEED TO TREAT HIM LIKE #YOU TREAT ELEVEN? SOMEHOW YOU THINK HE'S TALKING ABOUT WANTING MORE THAN JUST FRIENDSHIP? #WHY WOULD YOU THINK THAT IF YOU HAVEN'T BEEN THINKING IT YOURSELF... WHEN WILL HAS NEVER ONCE MADE A MOVE ON HIM #OR ANYTHING OF THE SORT......... #MAKE IT MAKE HETEROSEXUAL SENSE IT JUST DOESN'T IT DOESN'T IT DOESN'T IT DOESN'T 🤯🤯 #will NEVER implies anything romantic between them he NEVER does and yet MIKE the one with a girlfriend is the one that ALWAYS #ALWAYS ALWAYS MAKES THAT THE TOPIC OF THEIR CONVERSATION! he's the one that brings it up! he's the one that rejects will #when will isn't even making any kind of offer!!!!!!!!! #why would he do that if that isn't something that he feels! that he thinks about! that he's projecting onto will! #this is such a clusterfuck this is liek . this shit is more complicated than the fucking vecna plot at this point tbh #none of them know where the other is they're literally all in different fucking worlds my GODDDDDDDD #will is oblivious. and if he let himself realize what mike is doing and actually face it he would put mike on the spot about it. #mike's friendship is more than enough for will. it's enough to just have mike in his life. meanwhile mike is the one that refuses to see it. #he refuses to let himself even consider it which is why he puts that onto will and refuses to face the world around him. #he doesn't want things to change. we knew that in season three and we ESPECIALLY know that now. jesus christ.. #so much is happening in this show. #it's just insane to me tht mike has such a big heart and he cares abt the people he loves nd would protect them with his everything #and when el gets bullied like that.... he just... he's focused on will. because of-fucking-course he is. he's angry at will because #he doesn't want things to change but will's existence in his life will himself is enough to bring forth change in mike that he's scared #to accept. for whatever reason. because why is he constantly doing that? making things romantic? it's not will. it's HIM. #why can't you be his friend and continue to date eleven when you can do the same with everyone else? why is it JUST will? #why do you think that he's propositioning you whenever he talks to you about your friendship? #i'm telling you: it makes no heterosexual sense. #my thoughts #my posts

[queenangst]

percy didnt want to be a half blood. he never wanted to be a hero. he goes home every summer. he craves normalcy. he asked for blue coke. he plays basketball and likes skateboarding. he made the empire state building light up blue for his mom. he turned down immortality because he wanted to live a normal life. percy has always, always wanted to stay tethered to the normal, mortal world. he didn't look back.

#there's no point to this post I'm just emotional abt percy jackson #that's also why percabeths early dynamic was so interesting too bc #their perspectives were completely different #annabeth was DESPERATE for a quest #always wanted to prove herself in the real world against monsters #she was a year rounder and wanted nothing to do with her dad and her mortal life #until percy convinced her but even then it took years for annabeth to get to a point where she was really like. reconciling with her dad #but i love percy bc he's always been the one torn between worlds #mortal and immortal.... normal and fantasy... #i mean that's why... the scene of Percy turning down immortality is so powerful #bc he was offered what might be considered the most honored gift a hero could have #and he looked back. at annabeth. at his friends. and he refused it #like we talk abt the romance of it blah blah but it's REALLY a deeper choice of percy #choosing to ground himself in the mortal world #percy would NEVER accept immortality #to do so would go against his very character #he wants to go home. #he loves camp and he loves his found family #but his home is in an apartment in new york with his mom #wailing sobbing i love him so much he was just a kid he was always a kid who wanted to go home #and wanted to be normal

[castieldelamancha]

that second dean goes from kinda rolling his eyes to allowing himself to drop the act and enjoy being reunited with castiel and to hug him back after trying to end with the darkness, pretty damn emotional if you asked me

#destiel #even more considering castiel offered to go die with him #he pretty much said “i know we are going to die but i would rather do that with you that have to live in a world without you” #he so not wanted dean to die alone too #damn #like yeah your man bought you flowers but would he offer to go with you to face what you both know is a certain death? that's what i thought

[spaceratprodigy]

Doodle dump! :)

ohhh you know how girls are with their.. weird dogs.. and old ex-con preacher men..

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[naamahdarling]

Send me asks, my brain is garbage tonight.

#sometimes i feel like a failure at everything i have tried or wanted #but like #years of working on this have reduced that feeling a lot #now i correctly attribute that misery to living in a country that actively wants me to die because I am disabled/trans/fat/neurodivergent #and in a way that's so much worse because i could always push myself to succeed or change even if that was futile #but this place ain't gonna change enough to save me and i'll always need to beg for help #so i'm like trapped? knowing i have value that will never be seen clearly enough to be safe and it makes me...tired #i just surf from incident to incident without much good stuff in between and sometimes it feels...not pointless...i do like being alive... #but it feels like i have all this stuff to offer the world and no way to do it because i'm too crushed down to do much of anything #i can't even always safely access effective medications #or afford to move out of this place #idk i know this is depressing i just #we had to buy clothes for boyfriend's new job and now i don't think we can afford to buy meds that are not covered by insurance #and i am tired of ending up here every single month #i deserve better we all deserve better

[xlillilith]

You will get your flowers soon tianamiles i speak it in existence

#Once we get tiana to crossover into mainstream media...its over for you hoes #It's coming soon i just know it just gotta be patient #Marvel better not ever think of getting rid of her she has tooo much to offer #Considering we have so few black heroines let alone BLACK LOVE #They will get their adaptions outside of the comics and all will be right in the world #Or rather anti heroines cause tiana actually got an interesting mindset on certain things

[oflgtfol]

the human cosmos was such a good book in terms of like, talking about how people have studied astronomy across human history, the interdisciplinary nature of both ancient astronomy as well as the study of ancient astronomy, and how it has all culminated into the modern state of the field. but then the final chapter starts talking about how like, The Mind is a fucking fundamental piece of the fabric of the universe akin to matter, or fucking something along those lines, and it's like girl what in the god damn are you talking about

#as much as this book pissed me off . it does live rent free in my head #her points about the disconnect that advancing technology causes between scientists and their actual subject of study #is SUCH a compelling thought and its something thats underlying my whole drive lately to like #actually observe the night sky and rediscover the old observational techniques but for myself and my own intuition #and her discussion of non western astronomy especially was so compelling entirely because i just. like. NEVER see non western #astronomy discussed and like i've tried to do research into it before but whenever i try to look at like. oh. japanese astro or something #i just get the same basic ass shit that offers literally no new information and/or seems to be oversimplifying to the point of inaccuracy #and/or even fucking orientalism #so to read an actual in depth discussion about polynesian astronomy and how their approach was so fundamentally #different from western european astronomy is just so. FASCINATING #its not only about the cultural sociological differences since yknow. literally across the world from each other #but also the geographical physical differences. since theyre halfway across the world from each other! #like all of northern hemisphere astronomy is based around polaris because we have an actual pole star #but the southern hemisphere does not have a pole star and so any southern astronomy cannot use the same techniques that #northern astronomy does since they have no pole star to center their measurements off of #and so that leads to just an entirely new way of observing the night sky based on the horizon instead of the pole #and its jsut like. THATS FASCINATING. ITS CRAZY !!!! i just never even thought of that before but it seems so obvious once pointed out #CANNOT stop thinking about it #AND THEN SHE STARTS TALKING ABOUT THIS WACK MIND POWER PSEUDOSCIENCE SHIT? LIKE GIRL????????????? #brot posts #astro posting #anyway i do really need to do more reading about nonwestern observational techniques #if i ever see literally any discussion of nonwestern astronomy its always just the mythology #and even then its only like 2 sentences #like yknow ofc i learned about polynesian wayfaring and sailing techniques but i never learned the actual /how/ of it all #like /how/ did they navigate the ocean open via the stars. i know they did it but finally learning /how/ is like holy shitttt

[romulanslutempire]

Adelaide Kane needs to reprise her role on SNW (somehow) so we can see her in Romulan tactical gear and with those famous pointy ears.

#* #adelaide kane #sera #star trek #star trek: strange new worlds #also la’an and sera reminded me SO MUCH of the seven and narissa dynamic from st: picard #i need more of it #i pretend not to see that she disintegrated herself and instead choose to believe she beamed herself tf outta there like narissa did #when the borg grabbed her #because no way was girlie quitting after 30 years and flirt-fighting for her life #FR though can we talk about how sera gave la’an an out???? #she had every advantage against her but instead she chose to talk (and villain monologue) with her and offer her the opportunity to live #sera’an could be THAT enemies to rivals to allies in teeth-clenched teamwork #look don’t @ me i love a redemption arc and i think either narissa or sera would be so interesting to see undertaking one bc while they’re #not in that place in their current canon point they could be?? because both of them are just completely brainwashed into serving #the star empire and doing sketchy secret police stuff but they have no idea of a life outside of that #and it’s clear the people they work for don’t give a shit about them beyond the mission or what they can do for their people which #i get is romulan culture and what they’ve been born into BUT #idk idk i just find both of them so fascinating #tal shiar spies will always be loved by me

[spider-man-2o99]

when are you gonna see the new spiderverse?

it's not set in stone or anything, but we're aiming for sometime within the first week of its release if we can afford it!!

(on the note of spoilers: i Strongly Prefer to not be spoiled, but they won't like. Ruin My Life or really even my Day, i just would prefer to not be spoiled cause it's. like. a dick move, y'know? thanks. love yall)

#talking tag #asks #atsv #across the spider-verse #generally movies r a luxury we have to wait a couple months after release 2 see but i have been waiting for This One for Five Years so-- #--it is a very VERY special treat :} #...even if they did For Some Reason decide that THE best color to flash wildly during like. Every Mig Scene is Give Cap Migraines Yellow. #foolish fool fools. if you wanted to reference the end of Issue Number One you need a PALER more DESATURATED yellow or a red/black gradient #in fact pushing the Paler Colors would work a lot better to contrast against him in a properly colored BLACK AND RED SUIT. LIKE THIS DESIGN #sheesh he lives in The Bleeding Neon Future but they pulled Future Inspiration from one of those boring sleek white smooth round shape guys #Nueva York in the comics wasnt meant to be a Cool Future it was meant to be half-criticism of Modern NYC by ppl who Lived There-- #--and the other half was Speculation abt what it Could Be if Nothing About The World In (e616s) 1992 Changed For 107 Years #(...dot dot dot. comma. As Written By Overwhelmingly A Bunch Of Middle Class Cishet White Comic Book Guys[TM]. LMAO) #(the good stuff is GOOD the fun stuff is really REALLY fun and the Bullshit in comic book fashion offers up new writers to KILL On Sight <3 #look man im just. im rambling at this point but like i love marvel 2099 i think there are absolutely Some books that ARE worth reading-- #--from the imprint and dismissing All Of It just for being 90s Comic Books is unfair to the many teams of people who worked on them yknow #i Do Not Like Pat Mills (MANY reasons.) but the initial art team behind Punisher 2099 (especially the penciler) put SO much passion into it #people only really remember Spider-Man 2099 today but e928 has a really rich developed lore that i get the sinking feeling we;ll probably-- #--never actually See Again in any of the same capacity that it once existed at. but. yknow. time passes & things change & that's.. fine.