#wallows live

[getwallowed]

goodbye tmtio tour. you permanently altered my brain chemistry after one of the most perfect imperfect nights of my life. we will always miss you and you will ALWAYS be famous <3

till next time, boys <3

#wallows #wallowsmusic #wallows music #wallows live #wallows tour #tell me that it's over tour #tell me that it's over #tmtio #tmtio tour #braeden lemasters #cole preston #dylan minnette #nothing happens #remote ep #remote #spring #spring ep #genuinely what do i do w myself now #idk if i can wait another year or two until they release new music and tour again :(( #alt rock #alternative rock #tour #live music

[wistfullywaiting2]

The biggest misconception in the bsd fandom ever to me is people constantly portraying Atsushi as someone who trauma dumps excessively when he canonically barely talks about it at all.

The entire point is that Atsushi does not talk about his trauma he’s just constantly thinking about/reliving it. He can’t escape the memories of his past so he tries not to acknowledge them.

He only mentions it when asked, either directly or when someone asks him to explain himself.

Atsushi doesn’t even give a cohesive explanation for what he saw while under Dogra Magra, he just apologizes to Haruno and Naomi.

If Lucy hadn’t had her whole “you’ve never suffered the way I have” spiel then I doubt even the audience would’ve gotten to find out about his scars

If Akutagawa never asked him how it felt for the orphanage headmaster to die Atsushi would have never told him that he’s been hallucinating.

In the omake where Kyoka asks him why his hair is like that it’s clear he wouldn’t have told her that unless she had asked.

In 55 minutes Atsushi very briefly mentions sleeping on a dirty floor somewhere to Kunikida because he was trying to explain and justify his behavior.

And the thing is that there are scenes that implies that the other characters see Atsushi behaving strangely and are visibly confused because they do not understand what’s wrong with him.

Remember, we as an audience get to see things about characters that the main cast doesn’t. Just because we see into Atsushi’s mind doesn’t mean the other characters know what’s going on in there.

Also little footnote here that I think the scenes with Lucy and Akutagawa in specific are probably references to the moon over the mountain but I digress

#bsd #atsushi nakajima #bsd atsushi #nakajima atsushi #idk #on the floor wallowing in pain as we speak #bungou stray dogs #tagging is hard and i’m lazy #I love the Atsushi trauma dumping for no reason headcanon too #but I have to complain about it not being canon accurate #just don’t put it in fanfiction ok that’s all I ask #Guys let atsushi be painstakingly vague about his past in peace stop ruining it #atsushi #Atsushi hated pain #but pain had been an intimate- dies #anybody have fanfic recs with this concept or do I have to write them myself #idk guys you’ll just never catch me writing anything where the other characters truly understand Atsushi #sorry #Kunikida will never be written to know what the fuck is wrong with him for as long as I live #He just gives up #at some point

[deimcs]

You don't unsettle me, you know that. (x,x)

#bg3edit #wylledit #gamingedit #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #wyll ravengard #i love him so much he's such a scrunglie :( #romancing astarion in this 3d pt but then. then i'm coming back fo r you babe i swear #honestly tho he's such a complex emotional character to me #he's a living tragedy like most of the companion but the way he choose to act about it is different #and so interesting to me #cause they all go through the stages of grief but he's almost quiet about it #he takes everything with such stride and puts all of his energy in helping others cause it's almost like he's accepted #he can't help himself and there's no point in wallowing in self pity #i just want to hold him and tell him it's okay to be angry at the shitty hand of fate he was served tbh

[hershey-the-person]

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#pinterest #tag game #i was thinking about a friend who i was speaking about pinterest with a few days ago and then i suddenly had the urge to download it again #cuz PINTEREST YANNO #so anyways pls intereact dont let this flop PLS 😭 #also the way all my searches were so accurate #pinterest knows me too well dawg 😪 #I LOVE THE WALLOWS #tho haven't heard them in a while #in my punk rap era but still live their music regardless #and also #the cat is so me #😭 #also trying to interact with some mutuals who ive never interacted with before or been really long since we did #and the regular ones always there lol #pls lmk if u dont wanna be tagged :)

[michuyox]

hey! just wanted to say that i literally dropped my phone when i saw your blog bc... you also like wallows and sp and drawing and crenny and stendy?? so cool ... :)

hope you're well! you're so awesome

we're so cool and awesome

#THANK YOU BTW AA THAT MADE MY DAY <3 #wallows is awesome #i found out they were gonna have a concert where i live but i didnt have time to buy tickets CRIES #i hope youre doing well too mwah #south park #sp #stan marsh #wendy testaburger #craig tucker #kenny mccormick #crenny #stendy #fanart #digital art #my art #also i just watched the last of us series and holy shit #i cried a lot especially in the 3rd eps #loved it tho #PLUS #season 26 comes out on wednesday how are we feelings boys #ANYWAYS

[numbuh424]

this is where I'm currently at emotionally btw.

edit: some people are asking for the link, so here it is! I made this immediately after waking up this morning and still feeling sad about them. enjoy! (or not? I guess?)

#good omens #good omens spoilers #good omens season 2 spoilers #good omens 2 spoilers #gos2 spoilers #aziracrow #ineffable husbands #Aziraphale #Crowley #they'll find their way back to each other eventually I know #but right now I just need to wallow in sadness for a bit #doesn't help that it's currently raining where I live #elle is talking again #you know I'm at a very rough place emotionally when I'm making playlist #Spotify

[stuckinapril]

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#I’m only very rarely inclined to get this intimate w my thoughts so I might as well say it NOW butttt I will never not see the dead children #In everything I do #Like legit #I’ve read up on Hind so extensively and seen so many photos of her #And I have a very healthy relationship w the popular Palestinian journalists so she’s not my blorbo or anything #But hearing that memo destroyed me bc bisan is only 23 and she seemed so vivacious #Idk like I do normal people things I can’t just pause on my life #But idk how it feels like to sit at a boba place and enjoy my pearl milk tea w my friends #While the horrors over there don’t just lurk the back of my mind. I do normal things and I’m guilty for having the luxury #And as an Iraqi girl I’m living in the literal ideal timeline #Where my mom decided to immigrate to the us and that’s why I’m here living a normal life like everyone else #It’s like in a different world if I were born in a different time it could’ve so easily been me. I’m one of the Lucky Ones idk #It’s not survivor’s guilt bc it’s not like I had to survive anything like I never had the chance to live in Iraq or anything #But like. If some things had fallen just a little differently #And I keep thinking about how I’d feel if it were happening to Iraq and people behaved the way they’re doing to Palestinians #I’d be so mad #And some people on here are dealing w assholes while bursting at the seams w grief #For losing their loved ones #This is why I’m so fucking angry at anyone who’s complicit #This was a major tangent but basically I feel weird about doing normal things now while simultaneously knowing I can’t just sit and wallow #And watch life pass by as if it’ll do anything #Misery is not a home but I’m struggling to be 100% normal #And I think that this tonal dissonance is reflecting on my blog too bc I can’t go back to just #Posting about all the other normal things I used to. Like I want to but sometimes I feel off. #Is this anything. I haven’t slept all night #I can’t just allow myself to lose interest in everything I used to like and be and just fade away but maybe it’s about accepting that this #Will also always be a part of me now. It’s that awareness that shadows everything I do #or maybe I need a therapist it’s a toss up #I’ll probably feel better once I get my day started but this was cathartic to voice I think #p

[blinkpen]

evil prevails not just through its own strength but through the weakness of those that insist upon their cosmic scale powerlessness while they are, on top of any valid factors to that, also choosing to actively sit on their own hands

#the grief and rage and agony are real i understand #but i need you to understand #wallowing in your despair and becoming still as a corpse when you are not the dead body here is useless #only the living can protect what living remains #you are still alive are you not?

[mimicmerchant]

I want what they have (a loving friendship and unrivaled rhyming abilities)

#chicago live show #electric feels #zach reino #jess mckenna #jess looked right at my husband for some crowdwork and hE SHOOK HIS HEAD NO #thats a divorce #(love u) #anyway im wallowing in guilt for taking photos in the front row so please enjoy the fruits of my labor #off book #off book podcast

[cheerchime]

It is Easter and it is Trans Day of Visibility and I am with my grandparents, who are so loving, and my father, who is also loving but forgetful, and I transitioned years ago, and my dead name sucks the air from my lungs every time it's said, which is often.

It is usually a direct misnaming. And I gently say, "I go by Gordon these days, actually" in that friendly jokey way. And I am bearded, and low-voiced, and a woman in the hall called me a dapper young man. And my grandfather clarifies to my grandmother, trying to be kind, "She uses a different name now."

To my grandmother, I am sometimes her son. I am sometimes a friendly young stranger. Or, sometimes, I am the dead name, and she asks if I have a frog in my throat, and goodness, what a mustache! There's no shame in shaving, she assures me.

Sometimes, she asks where dead name is. Sometimes, she supposes I must be dead name's husband, though she never knew me to date men.

It's not fair of me to be hurt. They are old, and ill, and have always been so, so kind. They love their gay son, and they loved me as their gay granddaughter.

My father is a wonderful robot who loves the forest but doesn't see the trees. A fountain of love for humanity, but only a vague understanding of the individual humans. He cannot call me by my name, and I know I can't take it personally. It simply doesn't matter to him, and that is alright, because I know he loves the idea of me, and loves my queer world, even if he will never actually see me as me.

I am here, in my phone, reminding myself of my great fortune, the great love my family has shared with me. But I am also here aching to be known by the people who have meant the most to me.

In perfect moments, however, my grandparents do remember. And I am Gordon, and Gordon is loved, even though he was reborn in ways they don't fully understand.

Then it's gone, and I let them see whatever ghost they want to see, and I am an invisible grandson carrying the corpse of their granddaughter like a pallbearer, buckling under the weight of myself.

It was worth it, my rebirth, whether or not they see it.

It is Easter Sunday, and I saved my damn self.

#text #vent #trans #family stuff #it's been an extra tough one today #i know i am so so so lucky compared to so many #and to those who suffer under any degree of this sort of shit: #i am so sorry #and i see you #and so will the people who become your true and living family #you're allowed to leave your corpse to those who prefer to wallow in rot rather than rejoice in your bloom

[getwallowed]

you're telling me wallows OPENED their last show with I'M FULL??!?!? what are these absolute scenes holy shit

#I WISH I WAS THERE SO BAD #i'm crying #this is genuinely insane like they went full goblin mode for the OPENER!? #wallowsmusic #wallows #cole preston #braeden lemasters #dylan minnette #i'm full #nothing happens #wallows live #wallows music #festival

[short-wooloo]

A watch of Transformers (1986) got me angry at Star Wars fandom

A dying Optimus tells the Autobots not to grieve for him and that he will be one with the Matrix soon

This is basically the same thing that Yoda tells Anakin

But no one hates on Optimus for this (probably because they're too busy unreasonably hating Hot Rod but still)

Meanwhile this apparently makes Yoda an unfeeling idiot because he didn't know exactly what Anakin was worried about beyond a broad "I'm scared someone's going to die"

#wooloo-writes #wooloo writes #star wars #sw #pro jedi #in defense of the jedi #pro yoda #in defense of yoda #transformers #transformers the movie #transformers 1986 #optimus prime #its the same thing #you need to let go #do not wallow in the sadness of loss and death #celebrate the lives of the departed #cherish the memories #and move on

[heyitsphoenixx]

my mother was genuinely trying to make the argument that people do not fundamentally care about each other’s stories and only care in the ways they can relate their stories to their own experiences and therefore no one should ever try to make new plot lines or share their stories bc it’s all been told before and the only point to you sharing your story is for your own therapy bc no one actually cares and humans aren’t actually pack animals but lone wolves and we keep saying we want to change the world and we could so easily overthrow people in power but bc no one actually cares about each other we don’t do it and just give up. I have never been more certain in my whole life that I am right in saying she could not be more wrong. for the love of god please just share an orange with someone

#this is the same woman who will start yelling at the tv if she can follow the plot that’s coming within the first five mins #and has said before she hates people talking to her and doesn’t care what anyone has to say #like of fucking course you think that!!!! but not everyone has the same brain rot as you!!!! #and if you actually think that’s true in all your fifty years of wisdom from living #then be the fucking exception!!!!! care!!!!!! about something or someone!!!!! #jesus fuck!!!!! #I tried to argue but she gave me a look that was like #‘uh huh but I’m so much older than you I’ve Seen The World I Know better’ #like. the length of your life does not make you more correct than me by default #sorry I’m ranting I’m just like. jfc then fucking care!!!!! do something instead of wallowing in self pity #and saying that you’re just ‘noticing the truth’ instead of being a martyr #anyway. #go hug somebody. lay in the grass in the sun

[themthistles]

something about the way guilt is portrayed in beyond evil. guilt as a state, guilt as a place you're condemned to. 'i will go to hell' 'life is hell' 'you shouldn't even set foot in that hell' but it's not really the hell we think of, not in the traditional sense. hell is where you're supposed to be sent to suffer and repent forever but all of them go there willingly. (that's why han kihwan will never end up there as juwon wants because he feels no remorse over his actions) they choose to stay and let it scorch the life out of them until all that's left is someone hollow and brittle, real person buried beneath the surface in a grave they themselves dug. in that way it's not lee changjin or the water that killed nam sangbae. it's guilt. that's what doomed him in the end. that hell of his own making he never managed to escape. and as he drowned, he probably thought he deserved that too. jeongje's still there until the end but so much of him died long ago. he's a ghost haunting himself. he tells juwon 'if you don't get out quickly, every breath, every moment of your life becomes a nightmare' if you stay that hell alone long enough, that's what happens. at a certain point you can't wake up anymore. you forget how to leave

#there are these parallels between nsb jj and jw #how both of them give him advice that comes from experience #'don't do this you'll regret it' 'don't do this there's no coming back from it' and both times he doesn't listen and ends up just like them #jw's almost a ghost in the beginning like jj but ds and manyang yank him back to life #and then ds doesn't let jw become another nsb he refuses to let him stay in that hell alone he says as much #i think ds learned how to claw his way out a long time ago #what he says in ep14 #'wouldn't regret be a luxury for me' #a luxury #he understands that guilt at its most extreme is ultimately self serving #because it keeps you in this woe me state where you become so obsessed with your own failure that everything else gets drowned out by it #ds does the opposite he decenters himself in his mind focuses on the pain of others instead of his own #'this is how he makes himself happy' this is how he survives #he knows that wallowing in guilt won't do any good won't change anything what's done is done he accepts it #he says 'if i could go back i WOULD do the same thing again because that's all he could ever do #he did what he thought was right at the time now he has to live with it #nsb can't figure that out can't accept his mistakes can't move on from them so he's stuck in the past #he dies stuck in the past #'you want to cry aloud for your mistakes but to tell the truth the world doesn't need any more of that sound' you know? #that i think is the point in the end #but does that ever fuck you up how jj nsb and jw (for a while) are driven by guilt but ds always acts out of love #he has so much of it despite everything #and juwon only surivives because he starts acting out of love and care and devotion instead of shame and remorse #beyond evil

[better-call-mau1]

#sabezra #sabine wren #ezra bridger #star wars rebels #I’ve read a fic or two that takes this angle and the angst is poured on thicker and heavier than whole blue milk #hurts so bad to think that Sabine would see Hera’s pain and regret after Kanan’s death #and start to think about how she should say something to Ezra before it’s too late #then all of a sudden…the chance is gone and it *is* too late #that’s a depressed enough thought that she might spend the next several years surrounding herself in his memory #like living in his old tower #and wearing his clothes #and staring at the last holo she has of him #constantly pining and wallowing in thoughts of what could have been #shoot I’m gonna make myself cry aren’t I? #gonna make myself cry with my own kriffing tags

[dutybcrne]

One day, I wanna do a coherent ramble abt how Diluc and Kaeya are embodiments of what each other’s fathers believed in/wanted them to be.

#Crepus: Wanted to have a Vision & Diluc to be an esteemed Cavalry Captain & protect Mond as one of her knights #Kaeya: Is Cavalry Captain; is beloved by practically errbody in Mond; defends her with his every effort and utmost dedication #Kaeya’s dad: We of the Alberich Clan should leave lives as those who blaze like fire rather than those who wallow in the embers #Diluc: literal blazing fire who refuses to stand by when it comes to defending Mond; always shined brighter when he & Kae were kids #☆ ┆ ( .ooc. ); #//So anywho; this is how Diluc will become the savior of Khaenri’ah and reconcile with Kaeya- #//bdbdbdb #//Nah; but can you IMAGINE #//Still holding onto the hope Luc has ties to the Hexenzirkel tho #//Bc boy oh BOY; my lad needs more LORE #//Also chewing in the fact that Kae’s father believed that of the Alberichs; YET KAE HATES BEING CREDITED FOR THINGS HE DOES