#vent i guess?

[mrmiserymushroom]

one of my personal favorite tropes it’s the “well, we are really close and get along pretty well! they’re one of the best people in the world and one of my best friends. We hook up and good he fucks me so well and sometimes i fantasize about getting married but it’s not like i’m head over hills for them! NO NO NO NO NOPE. NO HOMO!!! TOTALLY BUDDIES BEING BUDDIES! but oh lord if you touch them I SWEAR TO FUCKING-” and i am was absolutely enchanted that this new episode got all of that!!

I also got to understand fizzy a lot more and now he (and maybe Ozzie) is my favorite character after Stolas!

I love how he and Blitz made up after a long time, even though I thought it was kinda quickly (or maybe i was just way too anxious and excited about my hyperfixation getting a new episode). I loved to see Blitzo getting to fix his mistakes and apologizing. I loved seeing him and fizzy talking and making jokes and arguing bc they’re so goddamn funny and have so much connection! Their friendship got my heart warm :]

I was a bit heartbroken about Stolas and how worried he was about his situation with Blitz. but I’m happy he seems to have a friend who will help him a bit and seems he can count on!

I LOVED FIZZAROLLI’S SONG OMG???? it was so yummy and nice and coool and AARSHAJDJAKSKAKSDKS

overall i REALLY loved this episode! Helluva Boss’s have been one of my hyperfixations and helped me through some really hard times. dunno if this is normal but i but i got so happy and excited about my hyperfixation having new content i actually got depressed and needed to take some SOS and go for a walk???? helloooo whatever the GAD and Depression are doing to me this is one of the craziest.

I get really REALLY insecure with talking about Helluva Boss on my socials and with anyone in general since i know the creator of it has some bad reputation and did really shitty things and the Hazbin Hotel series is pretty much hated for what i can see.

yeah i was afraid of what people would think about me if i tell them i hyperfixate on Helluva Boss and worried if they would thought i agree with any of the bad stuff that goes behind the creator and stuff.

so i just thought it would be a good idea if i just posted about it here (since a lot of people liked my helluva boss drawings) and take this stuff out of my chest to calm down my post anxiety attack. yeah thats it thanks if you read until this point :]

so yeah one of my favorites episodes so far!!! <3

#helluva boss #blitzo #blitz #blitzø #helluva blitz #helluva blitzo #helluva boss blitzø #stolas #fizzarolli #ozzies #helluva boss ozzie #helluva boss fizz x ozzie #helluva boss fizzarolli #fizzozzie #helluva boss new episode #helluva boss s2e6 #vent i guess? #yeah idk #:) hehe

[a-small-writer-in-a-big-world]

Growing up (and still having) a mid size body with broad shoulders surrounded by skinny dainty women on the TV telling me that I need to lose weight (wasn’t even overweight) and look like them in order to be desirable really did a number on me :/

#vent I guess? #also my mom #but like #i look at myself now and I’m completely average #(still don’t like my broad shoulders tho) #but sometimes my body dysmorphia gets the better of me #I’m glad to see more of my body type out there tho #florence pugh #yeah me and her look similar and it makes me happy #because people think she’s hot

[solaceinabandonment]

Ever write something and realize you are literally just dumping all of your trauma and frustrations out through this fictional character then have them throw a tantrum so bad they need bandaging and work themselves up so bad they pass out or is that just me

#its not even half of it really but it still feels surreal putting thay down and looking back and being like “oh” #vent i guess? #you can reblog or whatever if you want i dont mind

[monsoon-of-art]

I think one thing that I hate about my writing is I just can't help but slip in jokes or humorous moments. I don't know why. Like even during Pokerus I added an entire scene with Gaeric dancing around the topic of where babies come from and during the very serious chapter of Ingo finding Barry in Donut Hole, I kept joking about him kidnapping. Eugh

#vent i guess? #delete later

[i-may-be-an-emu]

One of those days where I can’t think can’t see can’t feel

don’t feel real. word is foggy, under water.

#I’m okay #dont worry #but dpdr is brutal #It’s like I have to think through a sieve #dpdr #vent I guess? #not really #just my thoughts #to let them out #I guess that is what a vent is #anyway

[purinclover]

>see person who shares f/o

>try not to cry

>cry a lot

#hear her laughter #♡ yume #♡ spider's bite #vent i guess? #negative #complaining #i'm just a girl #and i have bpd and i'm insecure #and i hate ittt

[floydshit]

stigmata

i trust the lord sees to thy crime

stand before me eye to eye

shower gifts of faith and psalm

hot blood doth stream from my palm

transgression saves my face in time

the role to which i self assign

devoted whisper through the night

the lamb of god’s thorn in my side

oh lord free me from this breve

forgive my struggle to believe

oh lord let my good wounds breathe

St Francis of Assisi

by your grace

i beg

let me bear

your pain

as my feet suspend

from your cross again

inedia i bear your love from

holy wounds from those above

mine eyesight hath done to you

my vision red my faith is true

i carry thy cross to feel your strain

as you have done, i do once again

and though the past can not be changed

i can only feel close bearing your pain

#religious #poetry #how does this app work #vent i guess? #hi romeo

[sp1derc1der]

to the one person who’s spamming that vaporeon copypasta in my askbox, please stop.

for the time being, i’m not allowing any anon asks.

#sp1derc1der rambles #vent i guess? #sorry other anons who want to ask me things. i had to close the ask box for you guys

[theclassyelfman]

I have to remind myself that feeling tired all the time isn't normal. I've been accustomed to it for such a long time that I have to stop and go "that isn't good."

I've never had any closure on it so far even though I keep telling myself I should probably get it checked by a doctor (there's a long checklist of things I need to see a doctor about that seem to just keep piling up) so I just chalk it up to probably depression or malnutrition or a vitamin deficiency, since my appetite and digestive health are pretty bad. That's a whole other thing by itself.

I suddenly thought about this just because it's a bright sunny day, it's 1:37pm and my eyes feel so heavy and tired like I just want to sleep, even though I haven't done anything particularly taxing.

#thoughts #personal stuff #vent I guess? #physical health #mental health

[bluegekk0]

fpk’s having a bad day and so am i apparently. he;s had the right idea with the vessels. no mind to think that people are being too kind to you and you don’t deserve it would be preferable

#vent i guess? #will probably delete #not having a good time and bottling it in just makes me want to explode #sorry about this

[a-small-writer-in-a-big-world]

Sometimes I miss how low stakes and fun fandom was.

I was in the Creepypasta fandom pretty heavily up until I was a senior in high school. I watched dumb MMDs about Creepypasta characters and those dumb AMVs with emo music in the background.

It was simpler back then, it was fun.

I didn’t really talk to anyone about it but it felt good to just enjoy something. Now fandom feels like you have preform a lot or at least, I feel like I have preform and create because I have to, not because I want to.

I don’t get a sense of accomplishment when I finish a fic, I’m just happy it’s finished and done with (until I have to write something else)

#vent I guess? #I really don’t mean to sound like a broken record #I’ve just been thinking recently #also I’m drinking #so

[pocketmonstersspecial]

Empathy is something i struggle with and it pisses me OFF!!!!!

#i feel like i can never talk about it because 1. people dont know the difference between empathy and compassion so they think everyone with #low empathy is a monster who should die #and 2. is more just personal everytime i try to talk about it i struggle to because it makes me feel like im just being an edgelord or somet #hing even though i genuinely struggle with it #vent i guess? #not really? but it kinda is?

[the-mistral]

You liked my body when I was sick

And I got better

And you were so so proud

But you didn’t like my body as much anymore

“Don’t gain too much weight” you said

“You’re still just as beautiful” you said

But your hands didn’t feel the same on me

Your eyes didn’t linger on me anymore

“I love the ginger hair” you beamed

I dyed it that color for you

I had forgone my cherry red for you

And even with the ginger hair

I had still gained the pounds

And your eyes still gazed at me the same

“Thigh high socks are so hot” you declared

So I wore the high socks

With the garters with the bows

And they nylon ones with the ribbons

And your hands still didn’t quite want me the same still

“Play video games with me”

And so you built me the machine

And I played. And played. And played.

Without you

Because you forgot I could play

Because you didn’t feel like it

Because you had found a new game

“Stay with me” you begged

Your eyes sad and empty

“Please I love you” you pleaded

Almost on your knees

At the foot of my bed

I could barely look at you

I could barely stand the sight of you

And I longed for when your eyes sparkled when you saw me

And when you would shine with pride

Just because you got to call me yours

And I longed for how your hands felt

How you looked at me

How desired I felt

How much love you put into each touch, into each kiss

I long for the person you were

The person I fell for

I long for How i felt back then

When every hug felt like home and every kiss felt like the first

When every touch felt so perfect

When every beat of my heart matched yours

I miss who you were

But now I got better

And my hair is cherry red

And I play games with other people

And I still wear my long socks

And I no longer wish for you

I no longer need your attention

And your empty promises

I’m not the girl you wanted me to be

I’m not the girl you wished for

#vent i guess? #I wrote this a while back

[theblackcubeofdarkness]

WHELP

TODAY SUCKS!

Nothing like making the same mistake over and over again and not being able to do basic stuff and getting yelled at.

FUN!

#ooc #ignore #vent I guess?

[rosaindomitus]

Ever had one of those weeks?

One of my coworkers died from complications from a chronic illness on Wednesday. One of my long-standing online social communities has been in the process of dissolving for a month now. One of my newer online social communities seems like it's doing something similar. I haven't left my house for anything more than groceries in over a week, and I live by myself (well, with my cats. the cats are important).

I'm tired. And sad. And don't know why I'm writing this tbh. I'm considering saving the stuff I want to keep from my posts and just deleting Tumblr but I think that's just my instinctive urge to isolate myself. I wish I could just get lost in a book or a game like I used to.

#sad #personal #delete later #vent I guess?

[koebishrimpuwu]

I may not have liked the people at school much but for some reason I miss them. I'm not sure why, they were jerks who couldn't have cared less on if I died or not. Is it because they had a big impact on how I am? My music teacher told me something I haven't been able to forget. She asked me if I was okay, she said that I always look like I have something I want to say. Someone I'll never forget asked me something once. "Why do you hide your emotions?" I'm sure she won't remember asking me that now but I never gave an answer. I remember a lot of small things said to me or directed to me. Both happened over a year ago but I still don't have an answer.

#vent I guess? #idk why im posting this #life's weird with what you remember