#usually I’m asleep

[rosicheeks]

🌻

I’m probably the sleepiest girl you will ever meet 😴

send me a 🌻 and ill just tell you whatever the fuck i want

#idk why but sleepiest doesn’t look like a word haha #but my family called me sleeping beauty growing up cause I would *always* be in my bed or cuddled up on the couch fast asleep #and like yes #it’s nice to be able to fall asleep whenever and wherever I want #but fuck being sleepy 24/7 isn’t super fun #no matter what a nap is always in the back of my mind #i also think I shouldn’t drive anymore because of my ‘sleepy disease’ 😂 #I’ve had a few scary moments while I was driving #one time I had to pull over and take a nap on the side of the road cause I was so tired #I’m saying this #cause I NEED to get up and pack and get ready for the week #but all I wanna do is lay down and sleeeeeeeeeeep #i just want to be someone’s sleepy gf #they can use me whenever they want #usually I’m asleep #so the thought of my bf seeing me and they *have* to use me right then and there? #ooooooof that’s so hot #wow this is all over the place hahaha #thank you so much for the 🌻 lovely #ask

[o0o0thorn0o0o]

Have a sleepy Zangetsu. Quite possibly my favorite Shinigami Illustrated Picture Book omake, tbh.

This was actually supposed to go along with my first Zangetsu post, but the pose was frustrating me (and I just really wanted to post it already ^^;), so I decided to put it off another day. And considering my last post, I figure now was a good time too.

#bleach #zangetsu #hichigo #fanart #digital art #digital sketch #ok even though it’s not canon #something about zangetsu in a slice-of-life setting is really nice to see ok? #i’d like to know how he usually spends most of his time #something i ponder every once in a while #am i supposed to be asleep myself? yes #but i felt inspired… #also did i say first zangetsu post? i guess it’s actually my second… #but the sketch dump featuring solely him is what i’m referring to ofc

[anonymous-dentist]

If I’m lucky, I’ll be asleep when the new year hits, so I’m gonna do my Sappy Post now:

This year has been maybe my absolute worst year ever. A ton of Bad Stuff happened, and it sucked

But also? This year was really genuinely amazing. I got published for the first time! I discovered a genuine love for cooking! I started working out again and I’ve started actual self care for the first time, and it’s amazing!

And then there’s the QSMP. If you asked me what I thought of it when I watched the trailer for the first time on a gas station bathroom floor as I was sick to my stomach, I would’ve said it was cool. But I never would’ve expected to experience such a genuinely fantastic and welcoming community!!! You guys are awesome!!!

I’ve learned enough Spanish to be able to translate basic sentences out in the wild (back in May, I was able to translate a Spanish conversation I’d heard on vacation, and I can only imagine what I could do now.) I started learning Portuguese even though my pronunciation is actual garbage, and I picked up French again after letting my French education rot for two years. I’ve always thought language learning was fun, but now it’s just !!!!!! you know?

And then there’s my fics because HOLY SHIT I’ve done so much this year! I’ve done a ton of one shots and aus and I’ve managed to finish a multi chapter fic for the first time ever, and then there’s Breaking Dawn, which is insane on its own. I organized a fandom theme week for the first time, and I can’t wait to do it again!!

Maybe next year I’ll convert my twitter into something I can use to network over there. I want to bridge the gap between the twitter Guapoduo Guys and the tumblr Spiderbit Girlies because, really, we’re just two communities on two different platforms. I want to finish Breaking Dawn and work on the Fantasy AU. I want to do a zine if someone advertises for one. I want to play the Paranormal Order rpg (maybe my regular rpg group would be down for a oneshot lol.)

I started this year with 300 or so followers, and I’m ending it tonight with 1,599 and I’m not even joking. I’m so happy to get to experience everything with you guys, and I hope our collective spiderbit hysteria moments continue into 2024 and culminate in a reunion and some murders and a birthday party for one silly little egg.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! :D

#about a.d. #it won’t be the new year for like six more hours #but I’m usually asleep by 10 lol

[vergilthelibrarian]

I find it hard to breathe.

I swear I hear something in my closet.

No… I think it’s someone, it has to be.

Someone has been leaving me love letters.

At first it gave me chills simply how poetically he would write his yearn for me.

Then it started giving me chills for weirdly needy he was becoming for me.

Then finally it would fill me dread without unabashedly obsessive he became for me.

Right now, I’m laying down in my bed trying to calm my breathing.

I’ve been having some issues with them as of late and I would hear them scattering around but recently they would sometimes become silent.

Usually I fall asleep pretty fast and once I’m sleep, it’s hard for me to wake but I’ve been dealing with a bout of insomnia, mostly from stressed and anxiety.

Both from college and from the love letters.

At first I thought I was being paranoid about someone being in my home, most people are but when I noticed the mice’s movements cease and whatever video I had playing stop and the room silent… I noticed that the room wasn’t completely silent.

I heard breathing.

Light and soft, like as if someone was trying to not be noticed.

The first night I noticed this, I pretended to wake up and ran to my bathroom to take some NyQuil to force myself asleep.

I know that was really stupid but the police never take stalking cases seriously until it’s too late and even then they still don’t…

Anyway, whosever been in my room, in my closet watching me sleep sent me a letter this morning before school telling me that everything will make sense tonight.

My breathing is erratic as I hear my closet door creak open and I shut my eyes immediately, squeezing them so hard.

I need someone to help me, to save me from whoever this is.

“HELP-“

My eyes open quickly, widen as I come face to face with-

“Don’t shout, you know your neighbors are elderly.” Mark quietly said in a chastising tone.

My heart sunk and my body turned cold.

How could my own best friend do this?

#I wrote this on my phone #this could definitely be better #I honestly really want to continue my mark story but I started school and I’ve been extremely sick since last month #so when I’m not studying or doing homework #I’m usually asleep 😖 #nct yandere #yandere nct #yandere mark #yandere mark lee #yandere nct dream #yandere nct 127 #nct x male reader #nct dream x male reader #nct 127 x male reader #nct x reader #nct dream x reader #nct 127 x reader #mark lee x ftm reader #mark lee x male reader #mark lee x reader

[kkst0904]

Can you do Satoshi Crying and his Wonderful boyfriend Kaki helping him?

sorry this is probably a lot more angsty than you wanted 😭

#pkmn #kaki #satoshi #kakisato #kiawe #ash ketchum #zringshipping #arranged marriage au #request #don’t let me draw any more angst this month it’s love month #I hope these look ok I’m half asleep #it was nice to draw this I usually like drawing Satoshi comforting Kaki so it was a nice swap! #kaki definitely has the best hugs ❤️

[mewtwoevolution]

Have sprout x2 for Halloween day ( ^w^ )

#cute #Pokémon #mew #mewtwo #sprout mewty #I only just woke up so def the other post is more delayed than first thought #I was very tired #usually I have it queued to post while I’m asleep #I’m a night person but people are awake during the day

[telesilla]

Man, I hate to be That Older Person, but every few years, circumstances force me to pull an all nighter, and every fucking time it gets harder and harder, so if you’re young and can stay up for *checks* 30 hours and counting, enjoy it while you can.

#og had to go to the vet again #so there’s the usual thing where alistair is hostile #and since nancy is on a hiring committee #that is doing interviews this week #she absolutely had to go in today #so she needed her sleep and now she’s not here #i was like…i’m taking my pills as soon as you come home #to be fair she was sympathetic and appreciative #but i still want to die right now #on top of it all #these little monsters have slept all day #and if i could sleep without meds or weed #i’d be fine #but once i’m asleep they could have an epic battle on my tummy #and i would sleep through it

[arthur-r]

hello new self portrait just dropped which means this is officially what i look like now

#i have glasses now!!!! i’m not very good at drawing them but i sure have them on my face at all times shdhdf #and i recently started growing out my hair!!!! my distinctive bowl cut had a good run but i’m officially moving forward #i’ve also started exaggerating my big droopy sad eyelashes a LOT in pictures lately it’s part of my core identity now or something #(that’s not true shdhdf but i think my face knew about my puppydog destiny long ago and gave me puppydog eyes) #anyway i just haven’t drew anything in forever like i think i’ve drew four things that weren’t JUST notebook doodling. all this school year #(and one of those was vent art on paper and the other one was coloring with my little sister. so i’ve drew two things on ibispaint at all) #anyway i think my glasses suit me really good and i’m also really excited i can see the world really good now #i still have some vision problems from POTS that aren’t fixed but like. i can see detail in brick walls now and i’m obsessed #house fucker behavior i’m so sorry shdhdhdff (THIS IS A JOKE AND LIE. I DONT FUCK HOUSES) #(and i’m apparently a house m.d. kinnie so i wouldn’t fuck him EITHER cause we’re the same person i could never) #ANYWAYS i can see well finally and that’s good. and in conclusion i’m real tired and should go to bed #i took my meds at 9:30 then started drawing at 10 finished at 11:30 #and now it’s midnight and i’m long overdue to be asleep already. so goodnight world!!!! #i have a sleepover tomorrow night which is very exciting. and also work and homework as usual shdhdf #but in the meantime i get to sleep. for up to 12 hours!!!! here’s hoping #ok anyway!!!! goodnight!!!! #P.S. text or call if you need anything!! #me. my post. mine. #delete later (probably)

[tinseltownie]

So revved up for the race finally get to live blog

Prayer circle for No. 4 Lando to win the 4th race of the season in 2024

#formula 1 #f1 #might fall asleep #but I’m chuffed #japanese gp 2024 #suzuka gp 2024 #lando norris #it’s gonna be Max #but as usual rooting for #lewis hamilton #would be thrilled with any of the Ferrari boys #bonus hopes for #yuki tsunoda #points pls

[orphyd]

Something absolutely shifted astrally cause I came home from work fell face down on my bed and SNORED through my moms entire business meeting 😭

#i know the retrograde started but holy mold #I’m so fucking tired #i usually take like 1-2 hours to fall asleep for reference #and i slept fine last night #I’m about to have another nap tbh #nia.txt

[erexart]

Engie has officially entered the “flower crowns and odd coloured skies” territory in my art, next to wilford, welcome buddy

#i’ll post it soon #it’s on queue currently because i’m usually asleep during high traffic times #because my 3 am is most tumblr user’s 2 pm or smth #personal

[poppiip]

day 10- exorcism

#61 days of jujutsu #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #yuuji itadori #itadori yuuji #fushiguro megumi #megumi fushiguro #nobara kugisaki #kugisaki nobara #missed a day because when i was working on this i fell asleep #woke up the next morning with my stylus still in my hands #labelling my days. to keep track yes !!! #i don’t really know how to. draw curses #it was cooler in concept than in execution #i’m still happy with the background im usually terrible at them

[detentiontrack]

I probably have some sort of sleep disorder but I don’t have time for that right now

#when I fall asleep I can sleep for 18-20 hours at a time #it takes MANY alarms to wake me up in the morning #and even then I’m usually late for morning appointments because I can’t wake up #waking up is impossible because I sleep so deeply #usually the only thing that helps is waking up and taking my adhd meds before falling back asleep and waking up when they kick in #I have no idea what’s wrong with me but it causes serious issues in my day to day life/functioning #I think I’ll mention it to my doctor at the end of the month

[fanby-fckry]

Rules: shuffle your ON REPEAT playlist and list the first 10 songs and tag 10 (or just however many) people

I was tagged by @cyanjockstrap

I had to log back into my main Spotify account for this, lol. The one I use for my fandom playlists got a free trial of premium so I switched over to it, but I haven’t used it long enough to get proper results.

Also, wow I forgot how bad Spotify ads suck.

I’m tagging: @nimona-antifa @gremlinvoidfish @motts-erella @fan-of-all-doms @wellthatisbloodyfantastic

Listen, I have an explanation for all the Legend of Zelda covers, I swear…

#they’re good to fall asleep to #also can you tell i was making alastor playlists? #i feel like this is disproportionately alastor and loz related #compared to what i listen to when i’m awake and not making fandom playlists #not that they’re not good songs #just i usually have more metal and alt rock and way more cavetown #seriously surprised there’s only one cavetown song #i’m aspec and transmasc #cavetown is my comfort artist #tag game #Spotify #fanby’s fuckery

[theexorcistiii]

Just so everyone knows I started trying to drugs in the last two weeks & have completely failed to get high each time. Something might be wrong with me

#I’d been putting it off bc usually my brain has a really bad reaction to anything feeling weird or off in my body but I was like fuck it I’m #bored drugs sound found. let’s do it. plus my moms bf is a hippy w endless access to substances so I feel like I should take advantage of #that while I still live with him. so I tried some of his shroom chocolate while we were at the river. did not work. hit his weed vape when #we returned. did not work. hit his pipe several times. did not work. I’m immune I guess #except I HAVE technically gotten high one time my stepdad (diff guy it’s complicated) said he’d been taking gummies to help him sleep so he #let me try one it took me like an hour to fall asleep n then an hour after that I woke up knocked on my fucking ASS #could not move bc my body was too heavy & also I was vibrating & I couldn’t think bc my thoughts were too wiggly. didn’t like it #but that’s it. whatever I will never be cool I guess

[binders-and-beanies]

Doin bad again folx

#might delete later I’m just wide awake and miserable #summer bill came out today and it’s $7100 not including housing which will be $2400 #literally dunno how im gonna pay for that and my dad is. adding to the emotional turmoil of it all #not able to get a loan at least not before the bill is due #able to get aid luckily but again who knows when or how much #my bday is tomorrow and for months I’ve been like please just let my bday be a good day i need one #i need some hope. not that I haven’t had good experiences lately bc I have. but nothing that lasts #nothing i get to feel good about for more than a day before a new problem drops #I need to enjoy my birthday without feeling this deep dark dread and fear and fucking guilt and hopelessness #I have fun plans for today And tomorrow and I’m grateful but honestly stressed about that too #bc it’s gonna be a lot + bc of all I need to do outside of that #+ I don’t get to spend my bday w friends the way I want like I have one friend Maybe coming w me #my bday is supposed to feel celebratory and instead it feels like absolutely forcing some illusion of choice or joy in my life #on top of it all. the most peaceful I usually ever feel is in bed w my partner and now my body won’t even let me hold or be held by them #currently laying next to them not touching them so I at least don’t keep them up w how physically miserable I am rn #I’m literally always physically miserable at this point and it feels like spring is never gonna come and provide any relief #but it’s like can I at least be cozy w them. nope instead I’m wide awake facing various horrors #despite being permanently exhausted and falling asleep in class after 40 ounces of coffee #Im just. so fucking unhappy in life rn dude I don’t want life to be like this forever with the constant threat of it getting much worse #fucking shred of joy in this godforsaken world: the sleep noises they r making rn #mine #txt #vent post #suicidal ideation tw #<- cry for help