#tw: csa mention

[boyfriendgideon]

as yr favorite local jason todd fan sometimes i get so fed up with the apparent inability of most dc comic writers to write a class conscious narrative about him.

and yes, i know that comics are a very ephemeral and constantly evolving and self-conflicting medium.

and yes, i know they’re a profit-driven art medium created in a capitalistic society, so there are very few times where comics are going to be created solely out of the desire to authentically and carefully and deliberately represent a character and take them from one emotional narrative place to another, because dc cares about profit and sometimes playing it safe is what sells.

and yes, i know comics and other forms of art reflect and recreate the society within which they were conceived as ideas, and so the dominant societal ideas about gender and race and class and so on are going to be recreated within comics (and/or will be responded to, if the writer is particularly societally conscious).

but jesus christ. you (the writer/writers) have a working class character who has been homeless, who has lost multiple parents, who has been in close proximity to someone struggling with addiction, who has had to steal to survive, who may have (depending on your reading of several different moments across different comics created by different people) been a victim of csa, who has clearly (subtextually) struggled with his mental health, who was a victim of a violent murder, and who has an entirely distinct and unique perspective on justice that has evolved based on his lived experiences.

and instead of delving into any of that, or examining the myriad of ways that classism in the writers’ room and the editors’ room and the readers’ heads affected jason’s character to make sure you’re writing him responsibly, or giving him a plotline where his views on what justice looks like are challenged by another working class character, or allowing him to demonstrate actual autonomy and agency in deciding what relationships he wants to have with people who he loves but sees as having failed him in different ways, or thinking carefully about what his having chosen an alias that once belonged to his murderer says about his decision-making and motivations, you keep him stuck in a loop of going by the red hood, addressing crime by occupying a position of relative power that perpetuates crime & harm rather than ever getting at the root causes, and seesawing between a) agreeing with his adoptive family entirely about fighting nonlethally in ways that are often inconsistent with his apparent motivations or b) disagreeing and experiencing unnecessarily brutal and violent reactions from his adoptive father as if that kind of violence isn’t the kind of thing he experienced as a child and something bruce himself is trying to prevent jason from perpetuating. because a comic with red hood, quips, high stakes, and familial drama sells.

it doesn’t matter if it keeps jason trapped, torn between an unanswered moral and philosophical question, a collection of identities that no longer fit him, and a family that accepts him circumstantially. it doesn’t matter if jason’s characterization is so utterly inconsistent that the only way to mesh it together is to piece different aspects of different titles and plotlines together like a jigsaw. it doesn’t matter if you do a disservice to his character, because in the end you don’t want to transform him or even understand him deeply enough to identify what makes him compelling and focus on that.

and i love jason!!!!! i love him. and i think about the stories we could have, if quality and art and doing justice to the character were prioritized as much as selling a title and having a dark and brooding batfam member besides bruce just to be the black sheep character are prioritized. and i just get a little sad.

#jason todd #jason todd meta #red hood #batfam #batman #dc comics #comic analysis #classism #tw: csa mention #maybe someday half of the most intriguing and nuanced aspects of his character will be touched upon #red hood outlaw 51-52 had some cool moments wrt jason + class + hometown friends + systems of power but. that was a two issue arc #and even then it was admittedly messy #GOD i want him to be three dimensional and well rounded and well used #even if a writer wrote a fucking. filler comic for an annual or smthn exploring what jason does outside of being red hood #keep the name if u want. have him have deliberately taken the name of his killer and twisted it until ppl from his city know rh #as a protector of kids and the poor and sex workers and so on. that WORKS. but show him connecting w his community #have him get involved in mutual aid. have him do something when he’s not out as red hood at night. let us see jason & barbara interact more #or jason and steph !!!!!!!! or another positive but complicated dynamic (he has a lot of those) #i just. i think that his stagnancy makes me fucking sad. i liked some aspects of task force z. felt like it ended too soon tho #FUCK the joker lets unpack his self concept & have him be a real person outside of vigilanteism (?) and vengeance #i liked some aspects of the cheer arc in batman urban legends mostly bc he had SOME agency and bc he wasn’t completely flat #even tho i hate the retconning of robin jason being angry and moody and so on #part of the problem is we don’t see him too too often for more than semi brief appearances so im so happy to see him i’ll just accept it #love the idea of a nightwing & red hood team up comic. hate that tom taylor a) wrote it and b) gave jason that stupid ass line abt justice #u think this man trusts cops ????? or the legal system !????????? BITCH. #get jason todd into like a sociology / gender and intersectionality / feminist studies class NOWWWWW #ok im done im sleepy and going to watch nimona. thx for reading to anyone who did #PLS anyone who reads this let me know what u think im frothing at the mouth rn #wes.txt #mine

[coockie8]

I don't know if I've mentioned it on here before, but I've mentioned it elsewhere, that I probably wouldn't be able to maintain a relationship, romantic or otherwise, with an anti. Whether they're the feral ''kys'' type anti or not.

A lot of people seem to misinterpret that as me letting pointless fandom drama control my relationships, but that's genuinely not the reality. Fictional squicks are not the issue here; the treating fictional anything like it's comparable to my lived trauma is, and that is a thing that all antis do.

I don't care if lolicon and incest fiction makes you uncomfortable, you are allowed to be uncomfortable, but the reality is this shit is fiction, and fiction is not the same as 13-17 year old me getting sexually assaulted by multiple different adults on multiple different occasions.

I simply would not be able to maintain a relationship of any kind with someone who thinks a fucking drawing is in any way comparable to what those men did to me!

#just anti things #anti bs #proship #profic #tw: csa mention #trash king vents #I see people talk sometimes about how their romantic partners are antis #and I just can't wrap my mind around that #maybe it's easier if you're not an sa survivor #but I can't fathom being in a relationship with/being expected to trust someone who thinks a cartoon is the exact same thing as my trauma #'cause how can I expect them to be able to listen to and take seriously what happened to me? #I would be living in literal constant fear that I might one day create vent/cope art that would make them compare me to my abusers

[jtl-fics]

*people shouting in the streets* MATH NERD!! MATH NERD!! MATH NERD!! MATH NERD!! MATH NERD!!

Give the people what they want!

- @neilimfinejosten

WIP Wednesday - 10/18/23 (Closed) | Math Nerd AU

Andrew's tired of this whoel song and dance in an instant.

"Cass what do you want?" he asks just wanting this all to be over holding a hand up to silence Neil. Neil's mouth audibly clicks shut. "Say it and leave." he looks at her.

He watches her face shift from tightly controlled anger to one that he knew was going to be uncomfortable. "Drake was a good brother to you Andrew, won't you please testify that those other kids a-are just...they're just lying! They have to be. Drake never ever touched any of them or you." Cass asks pleadingly.

"Drake was a monster." Andrew says, "He didn't touch me because he didn't get the opportunity to touch me." he says and tries to ignore the quiet table, "Since I had a friend who looked out for me." he says.

#Is it you #Are you the people #;) #Math Nerd AU #Andreil #Cass Spears #Luther Hemmick #Drake Spears #Drake Spears Mention #Math Nerd - Thanksgiving - 36 #10-18-23 WIP Wednesday #WIP Wednesday Ask Game #10 #TW: SA Mention #TW: CSA Mention

[outlawssweetheart]

Spare the Erron Black headcanons. 🫴

THANK YOU! 🤗

Warning, this is dark from the get-go because Erron's family are scum and he is not a happy man. (TW for: Mentions of child abuse, implied CSA, alcoholism, and suicidal ideology.)

My headcanons are thought of with MK11 retconned Erron in mind; however, it isn't really relevant outside of his hometown (which didn't exist until the 1920s). So really, you can think of this with either backstory you'd like.

His birth name is not Erron Black; he changed his name when he grew up and left Wickett. He wanted to reinvent himself.

Erron's father left either when he was a baby or before he was born. (Though, really, I'm kind of stumped because he said he didn't know his father, then found and killed him, and implied that his father is/was worse than Rain's father. Like... how? For leaving him with his mother? Or maybe it was just Erron's narcissism causing him to feel like his problem is always worse than anyone else's?? Idk, and I doubt the MK11 writers do either! 🙃)

Erron has an older sister, his only good family member. She's 3-5 years older than him.

The rest of his family were awful. His mom was physically and verbally abusive, the other adults were pretty much the same, and his cousins picked on him for being the "scrawny" one.

His uncle was the worst kind of abusive. "Funny ain't the word for it" with the utmost disdain in his voice, my mind naturally goes to the worst scenario. Some redneck stabbed and killed the guy in a bar fight when Erron was a teenager, and he has been bitter since then that he was robbed of getting to kill his uncle himself.

His sister feels guilt for not protecting him from their mother or uncle, even though they were both just children. She didn't even know the SA was happening until he told her when they were older. (This is more of a headcanon for her, but it's in my mind, so I must mention it.)

He left home and changed his name in his late teens.

Erron is a bit of an alcoholic. No surprise, considering his life.

Subconsciously, Erron wants to die, but he thinks he wants to live. That's why he's so reckless, other than his thrill-seeking.

Erron has a weird relationship with morality. Part of him has very loose morals, part of him is an actual sadist, and part of him has a strange sense of moral superiority. (He freed Cassie and Jacqui from the BD for reasons unknown, he says Sindel seems "a little too proud" when bragging that she murdered Jerrod.)

He hates caring about others. And if he begins to care, he pushes them away. Examples are: Cheating on Nitara with Skaret, and dumping Skarlet "because he got bored." (Only partly true, as Erron does get bored easily.)

He's a smoker, but he's addicted to them.

Okay, that's all I got that aren't Skarron headcanons. (I think.) I hope you enjoy this, and apologize for the long wait! 🫶🏽

Send me a character

#I'll try to get to the post about their my OC Skarron babies soon! #I gave to get my info together. #erron black #mortal kombat #mkx #mk11 #mk headcanons #txt #tw: child abuse #tw: csa mention #tw: alcoholism #tw: sui ideation

[lexyscross]

I just saw a tweet (and no one correcting them) calling William Afton a p*do as if it were canon, and I just...

NEVER in canon has that ever been even remotely implied. William is a horrid monster, but he isn't Freddy fucking Kruger!

#YES he committed atrocities but he didn't commit the WORST atrocity!! 🙄 #william afton #fnaf #five nights at freddy's #fnaf fandom bs #txt #tw: csa mention

[sunnymusingsao3]

Hello comic fandom fanfic writers! PSA Time (SA/rape mention warning):

Stop using the "hero breaks up a shady alleyway almost-rape" trope as a device for plot or characterization, when the plot does not center around the victim, or when the character focused on is the hero, and once again not the victim.

The threat of sexual violence is not and should never be a throwaway plot device to give your hero something to do that shows off their abilities or heart.

In addition to that: it perpetuates the myth that most rapes are performed by a stranger in a shady back alley (note: the fact that it always happens in a "sketchy part of town" is classist, and the hero asking the victim why they were walking alone in that neighborhood is victim blaming, regardless of the tone of the question).

Look. I get it. Sexual violence is a real plague on our society, and it's extremely common. It makes sense that someone like Batman, for example, might come across it in his line of work. In fact, in canon, he has, though I admit I don't know exact issue numbers off the top of my head. I can also point to a more substantial instance, in that Green Arrow has most definitely encountered a survivor of CSA in his line of work, given his connection to Mia Dearden (a fantastic character, btw). We know this comes up.

I am not asking you to erase the topic altogether. In fact, I'd prefer we didn't ignore sexual violence on the whole, since it is something that needs to be given awareness, in order to create understanding and help aid in prevention.

What I am saying is that, if you decide to breach the subject in your works, do your research and address it in full. Do not use it as a throwaway plot. Do not leave it untagged. Do not give your hero angst feelings about it ("what if I hadn't been fast enough...") that overshadow the victim's feelings, and most importantly: do not leave the victim's voice out of it. In fact, the victim's voice should be the primary voice that we hear in reference to the event, to how they would like to seek justice and healing, and how the experience has made them feel. This is not to say that you can't write about it from the perspective of the hero who stopped it, but if you do that, then make sure that the hero gives up story space to the victim to listen to them speak.

Sexual assault should be discussed in stories. It is good to raise awareness and I, like many survivors, like having the option to read and write about this topic as a form of catharsis, release, or comfort. Telling these stories can be good, when done in such a way that lifts the voices of the survivors and centers them as the focal point or authority on the experiences that they faced.

When survivors are not centered in the story, we immediately face further harm and silencing. It hurts the entire community when rape, almost-rape, or any other type of sexual violence and assault, is treated like it's just a device to further someone else's narrative.

Stop discarding your almost-rape victims in the alleyway that they were attacked in.

#it's saam and i'm thinking about these things a lot so here's an essay #there's probably more coming too #i'll tag them accordingly #saam #sa #sa mention #tw: sa #tw: sa mention #// sa #// sa mention #not sure how many other tag styles there are for this so lemme know if you need this tagged in another style #rape mention #tw: rape mention #csa mention #tw: csa mention #batfamily

[opinated-user]

Funny enough, when I first read the latest Pokemadhouse comic I felt happy. It’s the first time G was actually nice to Mikaila, it was refreshing to see her interact with anyone that isn’t Lily (because Butterfree isn’t a character anymore I guess)

But then I thought about it and…she’s only nice to her because of what she does for LILY. Not because she’s kind, or her friend, or even a good roommate. It’s only because of how she made LILY feel better. She has no relationship with Mikaila as a person, except for that one time she called her a “fucking nobody” (which by the way, Lily NEVER reprimanded her for OR G apologized for)

The world still revolves around Lily, G is still a flat character, and everyone in this comic is just a vent piece for Lily to either cope or feed her own ego (or to echo early 2010 meme humor from Bonnie lolz rawr XD)

How do people defend this garbage 🗑️

i did always find uncomfortable how MO's nickname are mostly nothing but insults and a shortening of her own name, while LO's are full of sweet nicknames.

the way CMO in general is treated is so... gross. CMO is always just a punchline, treated as an idiot by the rest of the cast (namely G and CLO) or an abuse apologist who convinces a victim to forgive the monster that raped them as a child with emotional manipulation.

it is sad that the only time where she finally can be treated positively has to be through G... the abusive monster who raped a child on her sleep.

#lily orchard #tw: csa mention

[lokiinmediasideblog]

Book Review: "Black Wolf: The Binding of Loki" by Una Verdandi

I liked a lot of things about this book (4/5). I think it's a worthwhile read despite me disliking some decisions and aspects. I would only avoid if some of the topics are triggering or if some of the things I mention in the "Cons" list are deal-breakers for you. My main complaint is how LONG this book is. 900+ pages! I would not recommend to people who prefer softer depictions of Loki. He spirals into something akin to the Joker in this one, still a very compelling depiction regardless and I enjoyed it (I do like the Joker as a character).

Loki is not soft or silly in this book. He terrifies pretty much everyone (to the point where they don't taunt him much despite them disapproving of his lifestyle and choices, and I'd argue Thor gets taunted more over being unmanly over his beard being burnt off by Loki). What softness he had gets lost in the end. And he is impossible to humiliate because he just doesn't give a fuck about anything or how he's perceived. With the exception of Sleipnir ( it wasn't rape in this book, he spends a lot of time as an animal and wanted a child), the myths that made Loki seem like a silly fuck-up (such as the goat CBT) were omitted. He's an unnerving and unpredictable force in this re-telling.

Warnings: There's physical abuse, period-typical queerphobia, referenced miscarriages, child abuse, rape, domestic violence, lots of murder, referenced genocide, and questionable use of binding oaths. There's referenced/implied underage sexual activity, implied CSA. The morality is rather "period-typical."

Pros:

It has probably the best Sigyn characterization I've ever encountered in a book. She feels realistic and complicated. She's pragmatic and very strong and independent, and also has a history of being an abuse victim, and she takes no shit. This is coming from the blog that constantly trashes a lot of her characterizations.

I also liked Sif's characterization, and the way her relationship with Loki is interpreted here is very interesting and ends up driving a lot of the plot. Frigg's characterization is also compelling. She did everything to prevent the death of her son. This book wrote women rather well and that's very unusual.

I liked how Loki's shapeshifter powers work here. He basically has to make himself again back from scratch (he can heal himself in that way), and this book also plays with body horror (looking at his transformations is very disturbing and it's painful for him). Loki is shown to have a very high pain tolerance for this reason.

I think this book's messy dynamics and portrayals are compelling and interesting. Odin manipulates his sons and destroys their relationships in doing so while trying to avoid the Prophecy of Ragnarok.

Loki was not boring. He's compelling despite being VERY awful. The Aesir killed off his people ( a clan of Jotnar that are referred to as "Nomads") and "adopted" him, thinking they would avoid the Prophecy of Ragnarok in doing so. He's very much aware of his history and rightfully resents the Aesir for it. He spends a lot of time in animal form, and this is something Jotnar are known to do and how most of his children came to be. Loki reads like a domesticated force of nature more than anything.

I liked the Cain and Abel dynamic established between Balder and Loki. And Balder being a dumb-ass indestructible child taunting Thor into hitting him by telling him that Loki was right about Thor "having fat tits" was hilarious and got me to read the damn long-ass book.

I liked the idea of the Gods navigating modern day post-apocalyptic Midgard trying to catch Loki, and criticizing the lack of housing casually (because Rules of Hospitality).

The Jotnar are portrayed in a sympathetic light rather than evil monsters that must be vanquished.

Cons:

I liked the Logyn in this book a lot and was disappointed to see Loki evolve into a VERY abusive asshole to his wife and children. The one time I thought it plausible and found Logyn compelling this happened! Basically, Loki's marriage to Sigyn was arranged by Odin to avoid intrafamilial conflict. Sigyn gained Loki's respect with her wit and pragmatism. Loki gained Sigyn's with his parental love towards Sleipnir. They bonded over Sleipnir, and I thought that was beautiful. But in the end, it went to shit...

I know this will turn a lot of people away from this book, which is why I mention it here. I admit I would not mind as much it if I wasn't annoyed by the overall Jokerification of Loki commonly seen in media depictions. I was expecting Loki to be a very shitty husband like Thor was depicted here, but not to the extent of marital rape and physically abusive to Sigyn, Vali, and Narfi. After his downfall being caused by the loss of some of his children and establishing Loki as very parental and protective of his children earlier in the narrative, the way he treated his less unusual children due to a "spiral into madness" makes for a loss of payoff. And the one thing that really annoyed me is that they implied he raped underage Roskva because "he went mad". This is not in the myths. And IDK, the Jokerification thing bugs me. The Roskva thing felt like it was just for shock value rather than to establish more plot points (which is why I am a bit more forgiving of the "Loki is an abusive husband/father" thing in here since it has relevance to Vali's characterization).

Keep in mind the book is mostly from the POV of characters on the Aesir's side. They do reference Odin's myth-accurate rape of Rindr, but it's focused less than with Loki's retelling-only ones. There's not as much focus on the Aesir's actions of similar weight to Loki's cruel misdeeds. It's just mentioned Thor kills Jotnar women very casually, and a Jotnar in cahoots with Loki refers to putting an end to the constant "raping of Jotnar women" by the Aesir.

#LokiBookClub #Black Wolf: The Binding of Loki #Una Verdandi #tw: rape mention #tw: domestic violence mention #tw: abuse mention #tw: child abuse mention #tw: micarriage mention #tw: csa mention #book review #norse mythology #myth!loki #myth!sigyn #logyn #myth!odin #myth!thor #myth!sif #myth!frigg #myth!balder #myth!vali #myth!narvi #i can't believe i actually finished reading this! #proud of myself lol #LokiInMedia

[sonofapunk]

Hello out there DC fans!

I have a quick question! So, I want to read Mia Dearden's comics! I am aware of the contents of her origin, and so, as someone with CSA as a trigger, I'd like to ask if anyone has recommendations on which comics depict it on panel, that I should try to either be cautious in reading or maybe avoid altogether if it is possible to do so.

To clarify:

I can handle mentions, and I don't want her history erased. As a fellow survivor, it would really mean a lot to see her being a hero and a survivor as well.

I know DC wouldn't show the actual acts themselves, but I'm concerned about dialogue and art implying that something just happened or is about to happen, and having to see anything else that directly alludes to that particular type of act/abuse in an explicit way.

I am well aware of what I am getting myself into, and so I am taking measures to ensure that I'll handle it fine, and this is one of these measures! Again, I don't want to avoid any mention of it at all, or else I wouldn't be reading about the character, but direct depictions of anything are going to be extremely harmful, and I'm not sure when they'll stop being harmful, if ever, hence why I think just having a heads up about certain issues will help make the reading process smoother.

I don't want to inconvenience anyone, so this is why I'm making a public post asking just for recommendations on certain issues that will have direct depictions, if anyone happens to know of any off the top of their head.

If there are any that I can avoid altogether without it affecting the story, that would also be really helpful to know, but I absolutely understand that choosing to read about this character will mean that this is not wholly avoidable. As I've said, I don't want to wholly avoid it because I think it will be really empowering to see a survivor being a hero, but seeing something particularly graphic or near-graphic is gonna be something that I'd like to avoid, again, if it is at all possible!

Thank you in advance to anyone who has even so much as read this post, and I hope you have a great day! Take care!

#mia dearden #tw: csa mention #tw: sa mention #(sorry to put this in the mia tag i just figure someone in the tag might be able to help!) #(thank you again in advance if anyone does!!!) #(much love!!!!)

[daddieslittlescrewup]

hmm how bout both? what were both "first times" like?

First time gettin' fucked was a damn nightmare. Was 13, in a dingy motel room 'cause my mama'd burned the house down a month before. Daddy said it was my fault fer not bein' there fer 'er then decided I needed to take over her... Womanly duties. Don't remember the whole thing 'cause I passed out halfway through, but it was bad enough ta put me in the hospital.

First time havin' sex, though, that was different... That was... Let's jus' say, I could tell he loved me...

#the walking dead #twd #merle dixon #ask merle #tw: csa mention

[thingstrumperssay]

I’m really fucking tired of having to fight for the right to my own bodily autonomy. Especially since I don’t get a choice. I can’t give birth- I’d die way before that point. I HAVE to get an abortion if I get pregnant, otherwise we’ll both die!

Of course i take measures to prevent that, (Measures that the GOP wants to take away) but that’s not going to matter if I get raped.

My mother-in-law had five ectopic pregnancies as a result of her tubes becoming slightly untied over time and her not being able to afford to get them retied. She’d be dead if she’s gets pregnant as a result of raped if she can’t abort the fetus that’d already be dead anyway.

And not to mention children. Children as young as 7 can get their periods. If they get pregnant as a result of raped they’re fucked. And what do anti-choice people do? They say “adoption is always a thing.”

Sick. All of the anti-choice people are sick.

#rant #roe v wade #bodily autonomy #pregnancy #tw: csa mention #kinda #anti-choice #pro-life #pro-choice #ectopic pregnancy

[coockie8]

The worst part about tumblr for me is that you absolutely cannot escape a popular blogger, even if you block them. The most you can do is blacklist their username, but you're still gonna see it all the time.

Doesn't matter bogleech once told me I deserve to be murdered because I don't think lolisho is comparable to the literal CSA I experienced; I still have to see them everywhere 🙃🙃🙃

#friendly reminder that bogleech is a vitriolic anti who thinks people should be murdered over their fictional interests #tw: csa mention

[sashibunbun]

You know what's fucked up? Nearly 40 years of trauma that I'm just now coming to terms with.

Let's start with, I guess, step-uncle (Dad's step-brother), being a straight up abusive asshole. We're talking training me in Martial Arts in a Cobra Kai way, belittling me, actively tormenting me, basically shit, macho older brother shit, trying to make me into basically the guy with a goatee and sunglasses who would say "Covid is no joke, calling all prayer warriors."

Then the instability, so let's trace it 1 1/2-3 Boise (I only know for certain the latter half), ID; 3-6 Henderson, NV; 6 South Lake Tahoe,NV (2 months in Henderson); 6-7 North Lake Tahoe, CA; 7 Kuna,ID; 7-8 Boise; 8-9Nampa,ID; 9 technically homeless in N. Idaho; 10-21 North Bend-Snoqualmie, WA.

Oh and the fun of watching my paternal grandmother (who raised me), slowly die from Diabetes, and being practically the only family who'd visit.

Dad continually coming in, then exiting my life (usually doing hard time) until I was 13, then dropping me back off again ay 16 (because fucking hell I did not want to move to Kansas). So at least the last time was my choice.

Definitely self induced and perpetuated fasting all my life, because fuck it, keeps me sane controlling my weight, even if it's unhealthy. Sometimes seems like the only thing I can control.

Let's start with the specifics at age 1 year 6 months, left to my grandparents because dad is also dealing with his own shit from a bad childhood, and it's 1982 and mom doesn't seem to want to be a single mom.

Flash forward to 7 years old, go to visit dad and step-mom #1. Let's run downy step-siblings first. Horror Movie freak step-brother with massive mental problems, actually tried to lord over me that he was older, actively tried to punish me, usually for no reason all because he couldn't stay up late watching horror movies. Older step-sister #1, massive Marilyn Monroe Stan, didn't really acknowledge me except a few times to tease me. Older step-sister #2 (see TW tags) very inappropriate, like fuck she's the embodiment of red flags for CSA at 12 (porn, playing with dolls inappropriately, inappropriate flirting with me). Then step-mom #1. I could and still can tell I was not supposed to be around, at all. Wanted me to come visit, but had to sleep in a closet, regularly verbally abused, eventually my dad caught wind and actually did the right thing, twice (sent me back to get away because I was sleepwalking and he knew that was no Bueno, then after him and step-mom #1 moved to my grandparents for a short time caught her giving a very abusive, but not physical punishment and divorced her, before going back to prison soon after.)

Actually that was kinda the problem with my dad's relationships until step-mom #2, had older daughters who flirted with me.

The problem in Kuna between 7 & 8. So shortly after the above divorce moved to Idaho, supposedly because Grandmother's health was going downhill from the altitude later found out it was to keep me from becoming a ward because of my dad. Moved in for about 3 months with my great uncle. Great uncle had a friend or something since he was always there named Ken. Next door was a friend one year older than me. Friend was definitely being sexually abused by at least Ken, if not her family (her sisters, looking back now, also showed signs), literally pulled his dick out to rest it on her 8 year old ass. She was the definition of learned that sex=love, so her BFF definitely needed to do what Ken did... guess who that was. Yeah, abused by a kid 1 year older who didn't know better. Oh and aside from maybe my grandparents because he did that shit when they weren't around (both were actually trying to find a place), everybody, including his friends who were Birchers knew what was going on, including my great-uncle (he'd later cop an Alford for having sex with said friend when I was 16).

Then came the most stable time in my life. But oh, the Universe wasn't done. So going along fine until my dad met step-mom #2. Actually still my step-mom and frankly a better one than either of the others. She doesn't actually have anything here was the first to notice I was not doing well mentally.

Split time between the two homes (as unstable as it sounds was actually stable until...) fast forward to me 12, in 7th grade dad decides, you need to live with me and he's stable now, agree because he is. Unfortunately decides a few months later that I should only live with him (12ish years of not being there and just a year or so out of his thankfully last stint in prison). This causes massive problems in the Family. So torn from grandparents, friends, and school. Eventually changed back after a custody agreement was signed. Had to go into counseling a few more times over the next couple years, but it was stable.

Then I found the internet at 14 and by 15 was cybering, usually with people around my age who were, you know, uwu. First online boyfriend was 18. Didn't last long, second was 17 (note I was 15), third was 18, last was actually almost my age. So kinda groomed but not really. Did help me discover my sexuality though.

Then came 1999, probably the worst year of my life. First came Columbine, think on it a kid who liked Rammstein, Manson, KMFDM and loved trenchcoats (face it also in the area of Seattle so it was functional). Everybody avoiding me aside from friends for a month. Then go to Semenary (ex-Mormon) on a Friday, new friend (well old by this time since I'd known her since the 6th grade) and her sister have a fight. Last time I saw either alive. The next day, her stepfather killed in her, her mom, and that same sister, still don't know the reason. Then I moved to Kansas to be with my dad after school was over. Hell got a job doing cold calls because no diploma (technically needed one credit because of a snafu), it's going OK, until about a month in, my dad gets a call that my grandmother is in the hospital for the last time. I let work know and me and my family drive up to see her and attend the funeral. It was here I basically went no contact for almost a decade on my dad's side of the family, because the funeral was basically bashing on her Husband of 20-ish years who was there for her at the worst parts of her life all because she wanted my aunt back when I was 14 to take care of my cousins, instead of her who was in failing health, and nearly blind. After that moved back because Kansas is ass, and going through my senior year a second time for that one class met my first real boyfriend, we ended up breaking up, I said it was because I didn't know if I liked guys, but truthfully, it was because I was scared of other things (see above about ex-Mormon). Then met somebody else, we stayed together off and on until 2004, through a move back to Kansas, then coming back and being homeless for 3-ish months. But during that was...

So I had a friend throughout High School. We were thick as thieves, and he wanted to be a director, and musician and you know teen gonna be big shit. We also had a friend who was going to be pur editor. I wrote, he directed and she edited. It seemed great until I got a call from his mom. Shortly after his return from either Basic or A-school (he was a Marine for the money) and on his way back, she downed some pills and wine. Hit me hard, within the space of a year, I had lost a good friend, the woman who raised me, my first love and kiss, and another good friend.

So flash forward to September 11th, 2004, have a new girlfriend, we're all living at a friend's place. We get into a bit of a fight because of some stupid shit. She goes to the park nearby and me and one of our friends go over to make sure she's safe. The next 3 hours are such hell, being beaten, threatened to be killed, made to watch her rape, before being made to turn away so no witnesses. We're the cops not looking for these guys, it probably would have ended with me getting stomped and dumped. It destroyed our relationship. Soon after I met a guy, actually loved him, and fell out because neither of us were stable. Got stability when I moved back in with my grandfather for the next 3 years in 2006. Then he had a stroke and died, I was there for that death, but it still hurt and I was, in no way able to pay rent so got the first roomy I could afford.

Big mistake, it was 5 years of problems. Living with a schizoform bi-polar person does that. Even worse was his girlfriend. He might have been physical when he went manic, and hell even tried to kill me because he thought it'd bring her back. She however was verbal and mental, constantly doing the same kind of shit as my stepmother. I pretty much cut them out in 2016 when I came back to the stability I'm in now.

So if you wanna know why I say I'm fucked up, well go back to the beginning and reread.

Edit: Shit I almost forgot something. So shortly before that cutting out thing. Attempted and about the only time the roommate's girlfriend wasn't a piece of shit, she managed to get ahold of the crisis line to keep me from taking a kitchen knife down the road, or tossing myself out our second story window into a dive onto the ground.

#tw: abuse #tw: CSA mention #tw: murder mention #tw: possible ED mention #tw: suicide mention #tw: suicide attempt mention #tw: violence mention #tw: rape mention #tw: violence #need to say shit to get it out

[alyssaforevermore]

How can you be so cheerful after getting special treatment simply because you saw the sherif sexually abusing a minor? 🤨 That doesn’t sit right with me.

#show: pllos #pll original sin #pllos; s01e02 #noa olivar #tw: csa mention #alyssa watches ~ pll original sin

[opinated-user]

hey poke madhouse uploaded a new comic with the """Kristen""" character that has no purpose what so ever but to show us what a poor thing LO is

for someone claiming to be so happy Lily certainly likes to dig in own shitty past a bit too much

those new pages are actually a perfect example of one of the biggest writing pitfals of LO. "t growled at me" "she growls at everyone" that's a reasonable point to make from part of Kirsten and this discussion makes LO look bad as a result. if your partner has a pet (as pokemon are legally just that on pokemadhouse) that constantly growls at you and you know she's very dangerous, so dangerous in fact that she has been banned from competitions for hurting other pets to the point it was unacceptable, then anyone would understand getting mad at that partner for completely ignoring your own safety for the sake of defending that pet. other pets can also hurt people, but this G can control your entire body to go wherever she wants (she did it to MO here, who was unable to stop it at all), any instruments that could potentially hurt you without even touching them (something we saw her do before), can get violent on a whim (like here, here, here and here, there are other examples but four should be enough for my point) and her volatile nature is such common knowledge that CLO wasn't even allowed to adopt a kid because nobody thought that was a safe environment. remember that is the whole point why Bonnie had to be created in the first place, there was no other way for CLO to be a parent according to the narrative.

considering all of this, Kirsten has all the reason in the world to be concerned when that thing growls at her and LO completely dismissing that doesn't make me take her side exactly.

in the real world if a pet bites someone hard enough to draw blood they get put down. G has actually killed people. it doesn't matter if CLO likes it, it was "for a good reason" or doesn't mind because the rest of the world, including authorities, that she herself wrote can see already that G is not to be trusted.

LO very intentionally wrote a dangerous, moody, impulsive, murderous abusive monster like G and then expects the reader to be on her side when Kirsten is understandably freaked out about her. L0 might not remember everything she wrote or be happy to ignore it when it's convenient for her, but those things are still there. i know that the intention is that we see Kirsten treating G like a thing and find horrifying that she'd dare to try to separate two best friends... but from everything i have seen on this comic, she's not without reason.

"when I met you that thing was sleeping in your bed" this is another good point she makes. LO is very inconsistent about what is or isn't legal but on this particular point she has actually being very clear, that is: on this world relationships between Pokemon and their trainers are supposed to be illegal. we have entire arcs entirely based on us having that fact brought up again and again to cause more melograma and angst. if someone outside of their house actually did found out about the mating bond between CLO and G, CLO would be the one that gets the blame because G is a pet and therefore legally can't consent. nevermind that CLO was a sleeping child when it happened and she was unable to consent too. CLO herself made it clear that only she'd be viewed as the guilty party. that law it doesn't make any sense considering the way all Gardevours have human intelligence and understanding, but those are the conditions that LO wrote for herself and a point she doesn't want the reader to forget so i won't. G's already so attached to CLO. if on top of finding out that CLO's not willing to hear her concerns, Kirsten also knew that there was already such a lack of boundaries that they even slept together then no wonders she's upset when CLO clings back to her pokemon. her partner could risk going to prison for this. G or CLO could sleep in a couch or get a mattress, the "one bed apartment" is a really bad excuse and Kirsten has no reason to believe on it.

to finish this off... Kirsten was entirely right for distrusting G and the kind of relationship these two have. LO made sure of that. not only because of everything i said above but because at this point G had already made the mating bond and was keeping it as a secret from CLO, only to later have the constant back in fort of confessing romantic feelings for each other, being rejected, talking about being rejected and wondering why they can't be together, only to rise and repeat everything the next week. Kirsten was right to not like G and not like the codependent abusive dynamic they both have. this is also why the ending doesn't really feel earned. it's a lovely sentiment and for once i'm glad to see that CMO is presented as a positive instead of a punchline or a joke because of how obtuse she's presented. this is the first time that CMO has a time to shine as someone that brings joy and love to her wife's life... but i can't enjoy it because everything is completely tainted by what happened on violate. as a reader i'm asked to care about what this adult pokemon, who permanently changed the mind of a child while that child was sleeping, this violent, volatile, possesive monster thinks about CMO and how important it is that G finally approves of her... but i'm just horrified because why did LO ever wrote a situation like this? i don't want to care if this child rapist approves of the partners of her victim or not. i don't want to agree with someone defending that child rapist against a person who has every reason to be concerned about the relationship they have with their victim.

#lily orchard #tw: csa mention