#ttc after mc

[ttc-baby]

HSG Update

HSG is done!! First it was not painful, I was nervous as hell thinking it was going to hurt, and honestly I didn’t feel anything. The worst part was him trying to get my cervix in the right spot and keeping my feet in the stirrup cause the thing kept moving. Now I wasn’t expecting him to tell me anything but he did which I’m glad for. My right tube was great, but my left tube was blocked. So I assume I will be needing surgery to open it up but I’m not 100% on that. I have a follow up with my regular OB in a couple of weeks and she will fill me in on next steps. I am absolutely relieved that they found something and it’s fixable. I was a little emotional about it but in a good way.

#ttc #tryingtoconceive #ttc baby 1 #rainbowbaby #ttc after loss #ttc after mc #ttc with infertility

[chasingaprilsrainbow]

Baby dust to everyone!

Who's in the tww with me? Let's pray this is our month 🌈

#babymaking #ttc after mc #pcosawareness #pcossupport #polycystic ovarian syndrome #familyplanning #parentingdreams #pcosjourney #ttc with pcos #pcos #ttcjourney #ttc after loss #ttc

[notpietro]

My solangelo headcanons:

•The first time Will noticed his crush on Nico was in ttc, when Nico was asking Percy to take care of Bianca, because he had to be up soon to help in the nursery(Lee got mad at him for being late bc after Percy left, he stayed around 20 minutes just staring at Nico)

•After hoo(but before toa), Will decided that, atleast once a month, all Apollo kids would have a karaoke night and made his siblings accept Nico there with the same zombie excuse that Nico used to sit next to him toa

•After a year of dating, Will admited to Nico that the karaoke night was an excuse to sing taylor swift songs(more especifically the lover album) to him and Nico blushed extremely hard

•In Nico's first birthday with Will, Will made him a corn party and made fun of him for over a month bc of that

•Every second saturday of the month, Nico and Reyna left their camps(and, later, the hunters) to go to mc donalds, and, when Will asked him abt what he did every second saturday of the month and why he was so busy, he said it eas family meeting

•The first person Nico told abt his crush on Will was Jason and the first person Will told was Michael Yew

•Nico used to sneak around to the Apollo cabin to sleep in Will's bed and just cuddle when he had nightmares, but all Will's siblings thought it was something else, so Will started to go to tge Hades cabin instead

•Every time Will slept in the Hades cabin with Nico, Apollo made the sun not hit in their faces bc he though they were the cutest sleeping like that

•Nico is the ultimate cone head(coana gray stan)* and Will is the ultimate swifty(taylor swift stan), but both totally love gracie abrams

•None of them actually proposed(you'll understand what i mean)

•To the proposal, Nico summoned a bunch of skeletons to help him decorate their house and make a special picnic in the garden(with a surprise party inside the house celebrating the engagement), but he got tired and slept before Will got home from the hospital he worked, so Will found him sleeping in the garden, and when he woke him up, the first thing Nico said was "yes, I'll marry you, future other ghost king" and then kissed him, letting Will totally confused, after comming back to sleep in his arms

•In the morning after the non-proposal, Nico explained everything and they just enjoyed the party without formally proposing to each other

•Will's best man and women were Kayla and Austin, and Nico's were Percy and Annabeth

•They adopted a Hermes child whose mother was their neigborhood after she couldn't take care of him bc of the monsters and left the country

•The name of their daughter was Bianca and turned out the percabeth's daughter(Silena) was her type

*the Nico-cone head headcanon is from @ ghostking on tiktok

That's it, I hope u guys liked and I'll probally do a part 2 later

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[shelbywanders]

“Dear pregnant, glowing, happy friend,

Let’s cut to the chase: Yes I did ignore the scan photo, the maternity pictures where I’m sure you’re gently holding your swelling bump & gazing wistfully into the distance (I haven’t looked to be honest) and your invitation to the baby shower. There are no hearts or comments from me on those. I’ve put you on mute.

You have plenty of friends, half of whom are pregnant like you so I hoped you wouldn’t notice, but you clearly have. I hear you’re a bit upset with me over this. I’m honestly not a horrible person, so here’s why you’re suddenly dead to me, and I hope that you can try to understand:

I can’t stand looking at pregnant women at the moment, and unfortunately I can’t make an exception for you. Yes, you’re more than a walking womb – you’re my friend & we’ve got history, so how dare I ignore you just because you got pregnant, right? What kind of evil witch does that?

This cuts both ways though – as my friend you know exactly what I’ve been through trying to get pregnant. You see, I’m currently an infertile woman and you’re a pregnant woman, and absolutely everyone is happy to throw my mental health under a bus to make a fuss of you. Including you. I’m expected to suck it up for you, but it’s the end of the world if I expect the same consideration. That’s just the way it is apparently – I don’t make the rules.

We have all said “Be kind!” but do we mean it?

It doesn’t matter how much we say “be kind!” and “mental health is important!” when you’re a woman that’s not able to make babies. My mental health matters less than a like on a picture of a scan to some people – and definitely less than a party. You can withdraw our friendship because you think that I owe you the appropriate amount of fawning over your baby shower, even though you know I’m in the middle of IVF. Yes, that sounds appalling, I’m not proud of saying that, but as I will continue to mention – this is a mental health issue – it’s not about manners.

It is not your fault that you don’t understand what’s going on with women like me, and I’m not actually mad with you for that. I’m mad with a society that treats infertile women like they’re selfishly making a fuss, if they dare to try and excuse themselves from the carnival of joy that follows a pregnant woman into the office and beyond. That seems to forget about us & then gets annoyed when it’s reminded that we do exist. That can laugh kindly and be understanding about the emotional behaviour of a pregnant woman, but is quick to label us selfish or drama queens or jealous, if we are sensitive about trauma triggers such as pregnancy. It feels like we’re pitted against each other somehow, and it’s so unfair. We have phrases like “hormones” and “baby brain” to ensure that we make space for a pregnant woman’s reactions and emotions, but we don’t have a way to tactfully say to pregnant women “Hey, maybe you should give your friend with fertility struggles some space and not shove that big old pretty bump in her face right now!”

Of course pregnant women are in a vulnerable and unique position, and pregnancy is hard and of course we should all look out for them. I’m just saying – anonymously, because I know how deep this goes in society, that maybe we don’t have to routinely disregard the mental health of infertility sufferers, for the sake of special parties and social niceties? Those things could take place without us. You could graciously excuse us from all of that, if you knew how deep our suffering runs.

Instead we’re expected to fawn over people who (innocently) trigger our deepest feelings of sadness and anger, with a fake smile on our face and a congratulations card – and I’m sick of it. We’re all sick of it, but I’m just especially sick of it at the moment. I don’t deserve it – and you don’t deserve this bitter version of me that exists at the moment. What if I could just say hey – congratulations but I’m just having a hard time with this because I can’t get pregnant myself. You could say “OK, good luck with that. Not going to be offended if you don’t get involved right now, but you’re always welcome in the future!”

What if we could handle infertility vs pregnancy better?

So we don’t currently handle it that well, and I’m going to miss your whole pregnancy, and that’s obviously a big deal, right? I don’t actually want to miss a huge chunk of your life, but here’s the kicker – I have to. For my mental health. Because it’s just as important as your mental health. You, as a woman who hasn’t had fertility issues, and apparently got pregnant just by glancing at your husband’s penis in the shower- have no idea what’s happening to me. You will think – as society tells you to, that I am being bitter and uncaring and mean because it’s just in my nature to be like that. That I’m making it “all about me”, when I actually just want to slink away unnoticed. But why would you know any better if no-one ever tells you this stuff or talks about it? Can we just bloody stop this merry-go-round and get real about it please? I’m not mean or uncaring – I’m just struggling with pregnancy. Including yours.

Give me a pass for heaven’s sake. I couldn’t even cope if my cat got pregnant right now, never mind someone I went shopping at Tammy Girl with. Pregnancy is deeply, horribly triggering when you desperately wanted a baby and tried your hardest, but instead you had a miscarriage, a chemical pregnancy, a failed embryo implant, an ectopic pregnancy, a termination for medical reasons or a stillbirth. Show me a woman with fertility struggles who hasn’t had at least one of those. A scan is the very last thing you want to look at. A baby shower is the last place in the universe you want to be. But I’m not allowed to simply say “Thanks so much for the invite, truly happy for you but can’t deal with pregnancy RN because I’m doing IVF again” in case it impinges for five seconds upon your fairy-tale. I wonder if I’ll be the same if I ever get pregnant. Probably not, knowing what I know now.

Fertility struggles have given me a new perspective

So what is it that I know now? That infertility is traumatic. That IVF is mentally and physically hard, and it doesn’t always work. That it can cause relationship strain and feelings of inadequacy and mental health challenges galore. Financial struggles. Hormonal drugs. Constant stupid comments from people who don’t understand. There’s something else too.

Women with fertility issues have to track everything – periods, ovulations and appointments. They are often acutely aware of how old their own lost and maybe-babies would have been at any given time, as well as the ongoing sense of loss they experience from not being able to have a baby. Nature has a really cruddy way of timing baby showers in the same month as our due-dates that never were. Your baby shower is two weeks after my due date 2 years ago. I should be bringing my nearly 2 year old with me. See, I told you we track everything.

Do you really want me to explain that I’d be bringing the baggage of my lost child with me to this party? Do I owe you that? Or could you, you know, just be understanding that baby showers might just be a little bit hard for someone that’s been trying to get pregnant for longer than you’ve known your husband?

So that’s my confession, and I’m going to passive-aggressively post it on my wall and hope that you read it. I can’t come to you with my truth, because I’d risk “stressing you out” and “making it all about me” if I did. I can’t just suck it up, because my mental health is too fragile for that right now. So here I am as a woman with fertility struggles, asking for a little understanding from my friends. Can we call a truce? Can we be more honest with each other? Can we accept that pregnancy is wonderful for you but hard for others? As a woman trying so hard for a baby, I live in hope.”

https://bestfertility-now.com/letter-to-my-pregnant-friend-your-happiness-and-my-mental-health-are-not-compatible/?fbclid=IwAR2YARsPG6r_GLntyasTkwhf_fVJ_XTfG6YbMX6BEdpa6BGOlh9jR1EaB5g

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[j-eatsvegan]

Wallowing in self pity on my period so this is very much deserved after eating super healthily these past few weeks. And it was actually really yummy 10/10

#vegan #vegan food #what vegans eat #veganfood #food #plant based #plant based food #chocolate #vegan chocolate #lindt #ttc #trying to conceive #ttc after mc #ttc after loss

[hopelesslyhopefulforyou]

Still waiting...

It's cd24 and I got a peak opk yesterday...

Which usually means cd1 will start in 2 weeks. I usually ovulate on day 14 but I've read a lot of people that have delayed ovulation after retrieval.

So we wait and see if my period will come early or in 2 weeks.

Getting disappointed that I may have to wait a little longer than expected for my transfer cycle to start but I'm proud of my body for still ovulating after all those meds and the retrieval of 33 eggs a few weeks ago.

#ttc with ivf #ttc #ttc with infertility #trying to conceive #ttc after loss #ttc after mc #ivf #ttc ivf

[rainbowinthemaking]

Maybe 2022 Will Be Our Year

After an excruciating wait, we finally had our follow-up with Dr. Elliot. He agrees with our thoughts that endometriosis might be a concern with my unexplained infertility (as it is with ~30% of unexplained infertility cases) and the pain/discomfort I have been experiencing.

Dr. Elliot has suggested that we hold off on IVF Round 2 until I have a laparoscopy. My need is seen as somewhat urgent so I will be closer to the top of the list to get this done. He is hopeful I can have my surgery booked for November/December, as long as this 4th wave of COVID does not put a pause on elective surgeries. If it does, he worries it might be more than 6 months before we get this done.

Until my laparoscopic surgery I will be continuing with Letrozole cycles so we can at least feel like we are doing something. After my laparoscopy we will move on to our final round of IVF with a much more aggressive protocol. We hope to end up with enough embryos for me to try a few transfers and/or proceed with finding a surrogate.

On the adoption front… we will be having our virtual Initial Interview and Application Meeting early October. However, that is as far as the process will go for us until their next Education Seminar at the end of January. In 2022 our perspective parent file will be open but we will still be at the mercy of being chosen. A process that can take 1-10 years.

I won’t lie and say this doesn’t all suck. When we started fertility treatment a year ago I thought by now we would definitely at least have a baby on the way or even another miscarriage. Right now I am feeling further away from the goal than ever. Luckily, we are working with an agency that allows you to pursue fertility treatments while you wait for a match. So we don’t yet have to make a choice on which road to go down, we can at least go down all of them simultaneously.

2020 and 2021 might not have brought us a baby, but here’s hoping 2022 does.

#laparoscopy #laparoscopic surgery #ivf #implanation failure #ttc with ivf #ttc with infertility #ttc after loss #ttc after mc #ttc community #ivf warrior #letrozole #adoption #surrogacy #waiting for my rainbow

[iamshwee]

I'm not gonna lie, Ive honestly been wake up most mornings wanting to fucking die lately with this whole situation I'm stuck in...

but then I wake up to Derek... and he gives me that stupid smile I love, and I get my morning hugs, and I listen to how his morning is going so far while I drink my coffee, as he makes me laugh and kisses me goodbye before I go to work, and I suddenly feel a little better.. like I can actually breathe for a moment..

because at the end of the day.. I still have him.

it just kinda occurs to me slowly that any asshole can give me a baby.. but not everyone loves me.

hell, no one loves me the way he does. Period.

I might want a family more than I've ever wanted anything in this world... but I want him more

#thoughts of ashley #depressed #i love him #infertility #ttc with infertility #ttc #ttc over 20 #ttc after mc

[mrs-geuse]

Another pregnancy announcement from someone else we know. Baby #2 for them, she announced at like 9 weeks, and since my sister-in-law is attached at the hip to this person, I'm sure she'll be the next one in the family to get pregnant. It was so easy for them the first time - she gloated about it in front of me - and their firstborns are literally a day apart because they both got pregnant at the same time.

Crazy how things seem to work out for everyone else - even when they cant financially support a child.

Yet here my husband and I are paying $400 a visit to see a fertility specialist - not even going through expensive treatment yet, just the cheapest option of Clomid - and we still cant fucking have a baby.

We do everything by the book, the way we are told: trying to eat better, exercise, take the supplements, bd every other day. And even when I was pregnant we waited to announce until 12 weeks...and it didn't matter because the baby's heart stopped at 9.

What the fuck is wrong with me?

Why the fuck is this my path?

#i cant do this anymore #my hormones are all over the place from these fertility meds and im just sad today #im so so fucking sad #i miss my baby #i miss being hopeful #i ache #ttc #ttc with infertility #clomid #trying to conceive #ttc after loss #ttc after mc #ttc with clomid #tw miscarriage #tw missed miscarriage #tw infertility

[onepinkline]

Our wedding anniversary was last week...

HAPPY THREE YEARS OF INFERTILITY, YOU WASTELAND OF A UTERUS! CHEERS TO THE OVARIES THAT THINK THEYRE TESTICLES!!

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[ttc-baby]

CD1

I’m officially on CD1, I called and scheduled my HSG for next Friday. Let the nerves begin 😓

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[chasingaprilsrainbow]

TWW

OPK was positive this morning. My husband and I BD last night and plan to tonight and tomorrow as well. Hoping this is the cycle we get our rainbow. I'm cautiously optimistic that this will be our cycle.

Other thoughts on my mind are mostly around how stressful ttc is, not sure if this is the same for other couples, but it feels like my husband is just so laid back, not worried about anything, he's just so relaxed while I'm over here peeing in cups for ovulation tests, tracking BTT, buying special lubes and vitamins, and tracking my cycle.

How is this fair? lol the husband should have to do some of this, I know obviously they can't, but heck man, it would be nice if we could alternate taking OPK lol like why am I the one that has to pee on my fingers all the time. I tell you what by the time this is over, I'm going to have impeccable aim when it comes to peeing in a cup.

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[pregnancyloss-support]

I feel like gender reveals hurt the most because I was just about to find out my gender 🥺

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[shelbywanders]

God, I just want our rainbow baby. 😪

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[fromfertilitytodelivery]

Dear Unborn Child of Mine,

I can feel you in my womb, even when you weren't there years ago.

I can smell your baby scent from your skin that only a newborn exudes.

I touch your warm swaddled body and I know that you were meant for me.

You chose me through time and space. As a soul travels through the dimensions to the final destination, so too you came to be inside of me.

I know you are on your own schedule and I honor that.

I am wide open and ready to hold you in my arms.

Two hearts beating in one body.

Two spirits co-creating a life together.

Love you always,

Your mommy <<Your Name Here>>

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[hopelesslyhopefulforyou]

We have a transfer date!!

We transfer our lovely little darling on Thursday, November 4th!

I start Progesterone in Oil tomorrow!

💗💙

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