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thaliagrayce · 1 year

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y'know what we don't talk about enough? Hazel died. We talk about how she grew up in the 30's and 40's and we talk about how out of place she feels in the modern world, but! She died! She was dead! She has spent more time dead than alive, and not by a close margin!

How does that effect a person??? We got some of it in the flashbacks, but once those caught up with her present timeline and she shared them, they just kind of... disappeared. And she was a regular girl with some weird past experiences. That's one way of doing it, sure!

I think it would have been a lot cooler if she was just a touch creepier. If she felt a little bit Wrong. Yeah, in general she's more approachable than her brother, she's more sociable and less closed off, but. If you actually spend any time with her, it can be difficult to tell which child of the underworld is actually more unsettling.

Hazel is bright of personality and has a dazzling smile, but sometimes she'll just... shut down. She'll go completely blank for like half an hour and nobody knows what to do with it. Sometimes she forgets she's alive. Sometimes she'll spout the grimmest shit you've ever heard like it's nothing, she won't even notice it's weird until the room goes quiet. She spent decades in Asphodel, which is designed to make people forget about themselves and wander around for eternity, only she didn't have the luxury of forgetting! Wild! After she comes back to life, sometimes she forgets that she's allowed to Do Stuff now. She can spend so long sitting and staring at nothing. Sometimes she'll start crying on cloudless days because it hits her again that she can actually feel the warmth of the sun on her skin and she can hear birdsong. Every little mundane experience is a blessing and she will make you remember that in the most foreboding way possible.

#hazel levesque #hoo #mj talks #like. i am fascinated with characters who die and come back different and it JUST hit me that there was so much potential for hazel there #the idea of how death lingers was not explored At All in heroes of olympus #of course there's the obvious part in that there were what. 3 named character deaths total? 4 if you count leo #which i very much don't because it didn't stick! there were no consequences to this gigantic war!#the first series did well with that because we had plenty of named characters who died #even though some of them were introduced only to die like six chapters later. we still knew them on some level #and more importantly percy knew them. he felt their loss in a way that made consequences seem real #heroes of olympus didn't have any of that. hazel could have been a great way to talk about it a little more!#also i just love characters who have obviously gone through death. that has to change a person! tell me how it changed you!#anyway. i think i'll make hazel creepier from now on in my writing #she deserves it <3 #nico is creepy in an obvious way. he's got power over death and that clings to him like a second skin. he can't hide it #and he's learned that he doesn't have to. there is power in being othered #hazel seems lovely when you first meet her! none of the death power all of the glitter and gold and riches #and then she'll look you dead in the eye and say 'you really don't know how lucky you are to be able to breathe until you can't anymore'#and move on like it's nothing! what!#underworld siblings

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2sw · 1 year

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You got to wake up. because if you don't, then trying to keep that dream alive will destroy you! It'll destroy everything!

Supernatural S8E08 Hunteri Heroici ( + S8E06 Southern Comfort )

#sam winchester #spn 8x08 #spn 8x06 #s8 #gifs #I wish they had actually shown how Sam dealt with his grief after s7 #but it's not that hard to understand why he didn't try harder to find Dean #It was just too much for him. He was left all alone in the world #Bobby was already dead at that point #Dean and Cas disappeared before his eyes (he probably thought they were dead. certainly didn't know they were in purgatory)#and the king of hell took Kevin #Isn't it obvious why he was running from all of it and trying to hold on to something? it was too much for anyone to go through alone #I'm saying it wasn't the best thing to do but totally understandable #(and what's so criminal about trying to make his life less miserable anyway??)#the sad thing is almost every choice he made while running from the burden of reality turned into messes #He had to leave the woman he loves and now his brother trusts a vampire over him #All of that piled up and weighed down on him #It made him question his self-worth #And that insecurity led him to the church in the season finale (not to mention the whole “I'm not clean” thing)#and even after s8... oh I can't do this rn. I'm sad again

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solb4dman · 17 days

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I practically js started playing rdr2 mid march so I don't know jackshit ab it,,

BUT THE MENNNNNNNNN LORD THE MEN.

#rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #ARTHUR MORGAN #ARTHUR MORGAN THE MAN YOU ARE I HATE YOU I NEED YOU ASAPPPP!!!#OHMYGOD JAVIER ESCUELLA NDNBHHHHSHHHH STOP!!#JAVIER BY THE CAMPFIRE USING HIS GUITAR?? I WANT TO TEAR MY HAIR OUT #I need javier's songs by the campfire on spotify asap plieze I need it.#CHARLES SMITH #JAVIER ESCUELLA #CHARLES SMITH. THE MAN YOUUUUU AREEEE. I'M LITERALLY FLOATING OVER W HEART EYES I'M COMING FOR U #guys is it wrong if I say dutch HAHAHAHSHA I'm joking totally...#kieran is strangely babygirl I'm so srs #kieran is a LOSER nd I live for that #kieran duffy #dutch van der linde #there's too many tags I'm sorry HAJAJAHAJ

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stop-breaking-my-heart-dragonage · 5 months

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This week on "CJ needs to gush about DAO": Morrigan's dark ritual.

I adore Origins because depending on how serious you take roleplay, every decision you make is a thread that leads back to your origin, and in this case of the ritual, who you choose to romance can have a major impact on how you handle this choice.

For context, my canon run is with a female Tabris who romances Alistair and keeps him as a Grey Warden, and is close friends with Morrigan. It's more in character for my Tabris to reject Morrigan's ritual and not even bring it up to Alistair, which would result in her leaving him behind while she makes the ultimate sacrifice in killing the archdemon... however, agreeing to convince Alistair to do the ritual with Morrigan is the only choice in the entire game where I break roleplay because I'm selfish and weak and I want Tabris to live.

I have a lot of strong feelings about the ritual, like it hurts me. It makes me want to chew on furniture. I can talk about it until I can talk no more. I so badly want to be strong enough to remain in character and reject the ritual.

Let me explain: Tabris survives an origin that deals with sexual assault. She gets kidnapped on her wedding day, she watches the other kidnapped women and her husband get murdered, and then is too late to save Shianni from being assaulted... and Tabris carries that trauma with her throughout the entire game.

If the way to save her life is to ask the two most important people she cares about; one being her lover and the other being her best friend; who she knows hate each other, to have dubiously consensual sex in order to make a baby to absorb the old god soul... she's saying no. The last thing Tabris would ever do is put someone into a sexual situation where consent is at all dubious after what she saw happen to Shianni and nearly happened to herself. She'd rather die than force that upon Alistair and Morrigan.

That's what I mean when I say origin affects everything; I know some will side eye that with "Really? Your warden would rather die than let Alistair sleep with another woman? It's one time, and Alistair agrees to it, so no one needs to die?"

Let me be clear in saying this isn't a "Morrigan slept with my man" issue. Sure, that part's awkward and it sucks, but that's not even breaking water tension, let alone diving into the deep waters to the core of the issue.

For my Tabris, this is about betrayal, consent, and accepting fate.

The person offering Tabris this deal is someone she thought of as a trusted friend who has actually been lying to her the entire time. It doesn't matter what Morrigan's intentions are now or if she genuinely wants to save the wardens. She knew from the beginning why Flemeth sent her with them, she admits as much. She knew a warden would need to make the ultimate sacrifice and then leveraged that to get what she wants. Morrigan waited until the night before, when Alistair and the warden learn one of them has to die to defeat the archdemon, and took advantage of the high running emotions and possibly the fear of dying to make the warden agree to her ritual.

At least, that's how my Tabris interprets this confrontation. She feels betrayed by someone she came to love like a sister and went out of her way to help Morrigan with her mother upon learning what's in Flemeth's grimoire. And then that someone tells her no one needs to die, she just needs to convince Alistair to sleep with her... which is a huge fucking problem.

The Alistair and Tabris romance is slow; it took a long time for either of them to be comfortable with being emotionally vulnerable and trusting each other with basic intimacy, let alone sex. Tabris is mortified at the idea of putting Alistair in this situation. Not only would it feel like a betrayal on her part to ask that of him, but she knows the last thing Alistair ever wants to do is father a bastard who then goes on to grow up without him. How could she possibly ask him to do that?

Then you consider that ritual or no, there isn't a guarantee that they'll survive anyway. Say they do the ritual and Tabris dies anyway; she made Alistair sleep with Morrigan in order to save her and then she died anyway. Or if Alistair dies then Tabris gets to live with the fact that the last person Alistair was with was a woman he hates because she asked that of him… and either way, Morrigan gets to walk away with what she wanted.

Tabris led the group, and she's accepted that if Riordan dies [which he does] then she'll be the one to make the sacrifice, even if it means breaking both hers and Alistair's heart.... except she doesn't because I'm a coward who doesn't want to lose her because my worldstate isn't good without her in it but I also refuse to lose Alistair so I just pretend it plays out differently in my head it's fine-

But... that's how I play Tabris and view the situation. My friend @pi-creates and I have discussed the dark ritual at length. While I play a Tabris who romances Alistair, Pi plays a Mahariel who romances Morrigan, so we have vastly different interpretations of the ritual itself and Morrigan's intentions.

Which yeah, it makes total sense that someone who romanced Morrigan with a different origin, and has the option to do the ritual with her rather than asking someone else to do it, wouldn't see this the way I do.

To quote Pi: "Playing as a male warden in the Morrigan romance makes the whole situation feel different, and maybe it’s because she’s presenting it differently due to the emotional connection, but it feels more like she’s opening up about her initial instructions (that she had been given by Flemeth) and offering a solution to avoid the possibility of death. And for my Mahariel, the constant threat of sudden death has haunted him from the start – he caught the blight and was ripped away from his clan (something he did not want to do in the slightest), got forced into a Grey Warden ritual that could kill him, was forced into a battle that could kill him, going on this whole quest that he never wanted but has now become responsible for regardless of his thoughts on the matter… the dark ritual may be one of the few moments where he is presented with an option to decide if he wants to walk into certain death, or take actions of his own volition to stop it.

"The idea of the ritual still feels like a dodgy thing to do since the ultimate outcome is unknown at that point, he’s taking Morrigan at her word that it will save the warden and that this child would be unharmed, just with an old god soul that she isn’t exactly clear on why she wants that and is determined to runaway immediately after the battle to secure it properly. It could be interpreted that it’s purely a preservation thing, but I’m biased to wanting Morrigan's intentions to not be power based.

"But also, taking part in the ritual isn’t as outlandish for my warden since he and Morrigan have already been involved in an intimate relationship. It’s the future of the ritual that is scarier – the idea of this old-god baby, and the idea of Morrigan insisting that she’s leaving afterwards when Mahariel and her have a loving relationship. He’s hurting, but he doesn’t want to die, he doesn’t want Alistair to die, he doesn’t want Morrigan to leave, he definitely doesn’t want pregnant Morrigan to leave on her own… it’s complicated, but for completely different reasons."

And I find that fascinating. I want to know how other players approach this part of DAO, what origins they play, and who they romanced. Seriously, this is an invitation to anyone reading to share their thoughts.

What about a warden who doesn't even have Alistair in their party because they made Loghain a warden? Is there anyone out there who has Loghain do the ritual with Morrigan and why? What about male wardens who don't romance her? Do you choose to do it with her anyway, or do you ask Alistair or Loghain to do it? Do you tell Morrigan to fuck off with the ritual? Why? Who makes the ultimate sacrifice in that case? And what about Morrigan herself? How do you interpret her intentions/motivations? I want to know.

I'm telling you, this is a discussion that gets me excited, as most discussions about DAO do.

#dao #dragon age origins #alistair theirin #dao alistair #dao morrigan #da morrigan #tw: sa mention #long post #i love origins so much #every time i replay i end up on discord having this discussion with pi because it makes me *emotional*#and yes this is why i was looking up alistair's dialogue about a dead warden before #also want to clear up that while i am harsh on morrigan based on how my tabris feels i don't hate her or anything i love her #morrigan's one of my favorite characters and that's why the whole thing hurts like... tabris was happy for her to come along with them #since she still didn't know alistair well and felt more comfortable with another woman around even though she never felt threatened by him #and for them both to be her closest companions like.... it's a lot to take in #and its not like tabris is totally in the right here- she doesn't tell alistair it's an option when it could be argued that she should've #but like i said i've never actually turned down the ritual because i love my warden too much... i just close my eyes #and pretend there's an alternate solution where Alistair and Tabris do the ritual and they have the old god baby instead sksksks #that way no one has to sleep with someone they hate and alistair gets to be there to raise his child. it's fine everything's fine sksksk #i don't care if it doesn't work that way okay it's the only way this works out better for everyone... except maybe morrigan but still

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gemglyph · 2 months

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I think my two week long headache is starting to get to me. Anyone have headache advice?

#I can… sort of function. Sort of #Behind the counter (prescription) migraine medicine made it go away #but… I can’t take it in the middle of the day #Because the one I tried side effects were… Not Great™️.. and I have a new one I’m scared to try #Funny how a persistent two week long light and noise sensitive headache can do to someone’s mental state #This isn’t even touching on how it blurs my vision real bad and I can’t see very well #Anyway I’m not dead so I’m fine.. probably #I have things to do.. school work to turn in.. and a computer screen to stab knives into my eyes with #All set for success. It’s totally fine

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minty-bunni · 2 years

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AU where the Fentons know something is wrong with Danny shortly after his accident, but think he is just severely ecto-contaminated and are totally backwards on how that works.

Basically, his parents think Danny is undead/a really smart zombie and everything caused by his fights gets blamed on it.

Think about the amount of things we could explain with this and nobody brings it up so the entire family just has a huge miscommunication issue. Danny and Jazz know he is a ghost hybrid, but their parents just straight up think he is the reanimated dead.

The bags under his eyes from lack of sleep

The new clumsiness

All the injuries/bruises from fights (thought to be because being dead made him physically fragile)

The freaky stuff that happens around him

Lower body temperature (and possibly other weird vitals)

Changes in diet (eating less, ectoplasm, etc.)

Constant exhaustion

Slipping grades

Behavioral changes.

#danny phantom #au idea #parents are like yeah ectoplasm reanimated him like the thanksgiving turkey #so he is technically a zombie BUT he stayed himself and at least he isnt a ghost #so we can deal with the falling easy bruising exhaustion ectoplasm eating and glowing eyes #sometimes our lights explode which is kinda weird but we totally have a not ghost kinda dead son #and danny is just like huh I thought they'd be more upset about the ghost thing #jazz tries to get this cleared up but fails spectacularly #spoiler those aren't old bruises from yesterdays trip down the stairs those are new ones from a fight in similar spots

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amarriageoftrueminds · 6 months

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favourite genre of hannigram scene:

an incredibly intimate moment with insane chemistry and prolonged eye-contact and then the camera pans out to reveal a bunch of extras in the background trying to act like this is normal

#rewatching s1 #hannigram #also featuring: jack standing like two feet away from them #and you're like 'holy fuck I totally forgot those other people were there.' 😭#always being like 'you're not alone' to each other YEAH because you keep doing this shit in FRONT of people!#hannibal trying to get will to stay telling him he 'disagrees' that he wouldn't be good company...#[EYE CONTACT EYE CONTACT]#and then the camera cuts to reveal that whole damn kitchen is full of catering staff 😭 SIR #'I was worried you were dead' / 'I appreciate the company' etc. ten feet away from a pair of corpses in a whole room of FBI agents? SIR #will eyefucking hannibal doing surgery in the ambulance when literally everyone else is busy arresting a serial killer? SIR??#poor abigail just standing awkwardly off to the side for the entirety of That conversation in mizufuckingmono?!?#sir. do you know people can hear you right now.#“hannibal nbc”#🤣🤣🤣#more of this in fanfic pls #release the cracken

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flowerflamestars · 6 months

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Abattoir snippet

“Illyrians did this.” He spared her a look, unmoved expression somehow still telling her no. Sighed, before speaking.“If Illyria had magic like this, you’d have died the day Rhys dragged you in wearing a vow.” It had broken, when he did. When the Cauldron and the world did, too. No one in Velaris would re-tattoo the marks for her, refused flat out, no matter how accurately she could draw them. They offered her other things: knots of ribbon to hold secrets, compulsions that would last a year and a day, magical cakes and fiendish trickery. Slowly- even with her strength Feyre moved too quick or too slow, human or incised fae, both and all that she was- sleek and sliding as shadows moved, creeping to end of day, Azriel sank to the ground. Knelt, hands reaching into this endless, open grave. She had paintings like this. A dozen and a dozen more burnt. Rhysand, wings splayed, death incarnate. Only one dated from when he was alive, expression borrowed and borrowed again, memory all the magic left, sorrow realer than the feelings. And so it took a moment, to understand Azriel. To recognize the emotion, even on such a difference face. Reverence. Raw, complete, hunger. To have and hold and believe. Love. “The food,” Feyre whispered, heart suddenly pounding, “Is a gift. For who, Azriel?” “The oldest thing immortals know is debt.” Azriel raised his head, black hair, black eyes, black wings, riven in sparks. “It must be repaid.” He looked like a monster. He looked like- “Blood and bounty,” he murmured, half his mouth rising in a crooked, handsome smile, firelight from nowhere glinting off his teeth. Feyre’s mouth was full of bile. “Hunger and horror. They’ve always been sisters.”

#going to be a week late but not forgotten!#Luzriel if you squint #a secret right out of the corner of your eye #Feyre!!#not quite grown up yet #Azriel is solidly on the list of people better off with Rhysand dead sorry #Feyre is too #but she hasn't actually figured that out yet #who remembers secrets?#who would totally believe in predators wearing faery faces?#who HAPPENS TO BE IN LOVE WITH ONE OF THE PEOPLE THEY LEFT BEHIND?#Az fucked off from Velaris #missed Mor and Cassian's wedding #and crashed right back in to show Feyre a mass grave #frankly #in character dare I say #Carnassial sequel #came out of the Cauldron wrong au

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