#to worse then death. she literally says I DON'T KNOW WHAT THIS MEANS. could've been percy could be luke and who knows what exactly 'love'

[meatmensch]

*jenny slate voice* i had to stop reading the battle of the labyrinth cuz it made me too crazy!!

#there's. SO MUCH GOING ON. in ALL regards. especially romantically #like. my man. was about to go on a date with annabeth then bumped into red. went on a quest with annabeth. told her to get the hell out of #mt st helens knowing he would die. she kissed him. he LIVED. got sent to OGYGIA. had a genuine lil romance with calypso. returns after 2 #weeks. annabeth's like omg i thought u were fucking dead. he's like hi um let's invite red into the labyrinth we need her on YOUR quest. #annabeth and percy basically ignore each other for the rest of the summer. she finally tells him the last line of the prophecy: lose a love #to worse then death. she literally says I DON'T KNOW WHAT THIS MEANS. could've been percy could be luke and who knows what exactly 'love' #means in that context. he gets home. paul says 'girl trouble?' poseidon says 'about mt st helens.' percy freaks cuz he thinks he means the #kiss. he plants calypso's flower. #NOT TO MENTION THE NICO STUFF. WHICH HE KNOWS IS COMPLICATED BUT HE DOESN'T KNOW HOW IT IS ACTUALLY EXTREMELY COMPLICATED #and honestly i think nico having a crush on percy might have been a retcon but idk #anyway. accurate summer camp romance complexities #very insane #pjo #my posts

[vole-mon-amour]

1x09, part 3.

I'm so sad for him. He would literally forgive her ANYTHING.

He's TERRIFIED at the idea of losing her. And he's so right, Vi can't bring back Powder. It was so obvious when Jinx lit a fire & Vi got a taste of what Jinx is like these days. Vi wouldn't be able to control her, nor would she be able to love her when she's like this. The problem is, it IS her nowadays. There is no Powder anymore. It's such a fucking tragedy that Silco dies.

Honestly, say it, Silco. V is into Caitlyn now way more than she is into Jinx. Actually, she's not into Jinx at all. Again, there is NO Powder. Every time Vi calls her that, I cringe. I can't stand that name, it's simply not her. Just like Silco says, "that girl does not exist anymore".

And it's only them, you see? And she's his daughter, you see? ;______; The way he loves her, help. ;___; The look he gives her. It doesn't fucking matter she kidnapped him and tied him up and gagged him, he doesn't fucking care, he only wants her and he wants her to stay with him. ;_____; All the walls around him fall apart for her sake. He's the most vulnerable with her.

"I'll never forsake you." The voice acting. The animation. I feel unwell.

Gods, he's so scared she will leave him. So confused about her dropping her gun.

He's like a caged animal when he grabs Jinx's gun. Vi only made it worse for Jinx. But yeah, just like Jinx said, it's up to Vi if she gets Jinx or Powder, and Vi's shouting and SIlco's death sealed the deal.

She really caresses behind his ear as he's bleeding out. Oh, the fucking tragedy. ;___;

"Don't cry. You're perfect." FUCK OFFFFF. The pain is real and I am feeling it. Like, no stills or gifs can truly makes you feel the same if you don't remember the tone of his voice, the feelings in his voice.

"I hope you know we had everything, When you broke me and left these pieces."

Honestly, the difference between Jinx getting Vander killed and Jinx getting Silco killed is that Vi means it and she leaves her. Yes, they were kids, full stop. She gave into those emotions, though. For the moment, she hated Jinx & she meant it. She can never love Jinx.

Jinx kills Silco? He tells her not to cry. He tells her JINX is perfect. She kills him and yet, she's his entire word. "I'll never forsake you. <...> I never would have given you to them. Not for anything." and he MEANS it. As he bleeds out while she holds his face, he tells her not to cry and that she's PERFECT.

"'Cause I, I was meant to be yours."

Yeah, they can all burn, indeed.

V is so confused because how can her sister feel all those feelings for Silco? How can she cry for him? He's a monster, he deserved to die, didn't he? Yeah, she just doesn't understand. Fuck. (breaks down) I love Silco so much.

"Even though I'm different." That's exactly the problem. Vi can't love her as she is now. Silco could. He did.

I'm going to miss him so much.

I hope she doesn't die in s2 (or turns into something that's completely unrecognizable). I really fucking hope so. ;____; And man, Silco is so beautiful. Was? Anyway.

She's alive! My girl is alive! Maybe she'll take over the undercity without Silco? "What we could've been." right when they focus on her and Silco's empty chair. Gods. I'm hurting. The song at the end is absolutely perfect and I can't stop crying.

Oh, Ekko found himself a friend. Oh, what could've been, indeed. This is such a great alliance because Ekko is somewhat a scientist himself and he's open-minded and he has nothing to gain, so he gladly shares about his experience with Heimerdinger.

The animation is incredible. And Vi still chooses Caitlyn over Jinx. Like I said she would. :(

Even Viktor looks hopeful. Season 2, "Devastating"? "No one is going to be happy after watching it"? Oh, they're going to break me.

#jilco #silco and jinx #arcane #silcojinx #natiswatching #long post

[possiblylando]

Chainsaw Man 123 'Early' Analsys.

This chapter gives us a lot to chew on unlike the previous ones which where just fully mystery. Which is why I'm not really sure where we start. I guess at the beginning of the chapter? Yeah.

So this chapter we meet the falling devil. I can't say I was expecting this but I was right about this current body she's using being made from the corpses of the people that jumped off the apartment complex. She's got rather weird theming as she's a Primal Fear who is also a Chef despite it not really fitting with her fear. I guess Primal Fears can have hobbies?

"Hor D'oeuvre, La Root Vonla" is french for something. Someone who speaks french probably has a better translation (If you speak French lemme know the correct translation in the comment or reblogs) but I have to use google translate which was really shitting itself on this one. So the rough translation is: "Appetizers, The Will Route" It being an Appetizer means that this is probably the weakest of her attacks. Things are gonna get a lot worse from here on out. "The Will Route" is clearly in reference to the attack's affects.

It appears the way to overcome this first attack is to come to terms with your past Trauma so that it doesn't weigh on you as much if at all. Falling says "A word of warning- Those who don't finish their food will taste death." which seems like it's directly referring to the way to escape the attack Then we get a flashback of Asa's life soon after the Typhoon Devil attack. This probably only takes place a few Days-Weeks after the event due to Asa's hair still being about the same length as it was in the original flashback.

Left 102 Flashback, Right 123 Flashback. It's pretty clear that Asa has been using the Cat (Crambon) as a substitute for her mother. She's become anti-social and solitary only spending time with Crambon. (Which is fair by the way). At this point Crambon and her School Uniform are the only things she has left of her mother. Then we get this evil fucking bitch

She is easily one of, If not the most evil human character we've ever met.

Up until this point everything seems fine. Asa is willing to try to move on from her mother's death for the good of those around her by letting Crambon move on as well. It's a moment of personal growth.

This bastard could've easily said "Yes, Crambon's fine" even if it was a lie. But instead:

I don't know if this is Asa's mind making the situation worse than it actually was. She might not have even said this but the way Chainsaw Man does it's flashback they're rarely if ever wrong due to human memory being at fault. This demon of a person was so upset about Asa having literally anything to find comfort in that she killed Crambon. Back to the real world we get some more information on the attack.

Reading through this chapter I thought they this was going to be a literal falling attack. Where Falling just lifts up a bunch of people and drops them to die. But the reality is much worse. Anyone who is unable to deal with their Trauma is dragged straight into hell. This is a Therapy Session by Fire. You WILL overcome your emotional baggage or die. Which is why it's important it's Asa in control of the body right now. Since Asa is the one who has to overcome her Trauma to escape this situation. Thats the end of 123. Time to the-- Uh.. I don't know what to call this section. Post-Chapter analyses? Whatever. Now I think the solution to Falling's attack has already been revealed. Chapter 102 was when we got the flashback of Asa's Mother's Death. In the same chapter we get a flashback of Yuko giving Asa her shoes. It's the same chapter when Asa resolves to try and be better.

Even if Yuko is gone now she'll still have an affect on Asa. I hope this is the case cause that'd be nice. Here's what I think we're gonna be seeing in the coming chapter(s) 1. Asa is able to accept that her past Trauma can't be changed and that it wasn't her fault. (Hopefully we get that Yuko mention in some way cmon) 2. Denji shows up and has to deal with his own issues fully (Unless the attack has ended by then) This last one I'm not confident will happen but it'd be cool. We see the first death of a Primal Fear at the hands of Denji & Asa/Yoru. Additionally I wanna know what the deal with Falling is. Her whole theming is rather weird. She's the falling devil yet she's a chef? It doesn't quite seem like something a Primal Fear would do. But I guess they can have hobbies as well? That's all I've got for now. 123 End Question:

Would you?

#chainsaw man #chainsaw man 123 #csm #csm manga #csm 123 #falling devil #asa mitaka

[reticent-writer]

Hi I can say I liked the Reader's Request to Be Like a Father to the Hashiras. So I Can Ask For Them To Be Comforted And Hugged By Their Father After A Hard Time

◡̈⋆ʜᴇʟʟᴏ(●’◡’●)ﾉ your wish is my command.

Shinobu

One of Shinobu's patients just died and after reviewing the body she realized they could've been saved with a simple antibiotic.

You were sitting outside watching the girls do the laundry when she told you what happened. You immediately pulled her into a hug telling her it wasn't her fault.

"Kocho, this unfortunately happens. It happened to me once and every since then I've been very carefully with my work. Don't let it you down or else more people could die. It's sad but if you focus on it it'll once get worse." You said in a deadly calm voice.

She sucked in a harsh breath and pulled you to the floor. When Kiyo, Sumi and Nayo saw this they went to see what was wrong.

Shinobu replies with her usual smile. "Everything is fine."

Rengoku

Rengoku came to you when shenjuro was being less than pleasant.

"Do you think I'm a failure of a son." He looked deep in your eyes and you looked back. You were about to say something when he hugged you.

"Of course I don't. Your amazing, your father is just scared you'll die on a mission after your mothers death." You basically whispered as you messaged his head.

You didn't realize he had fallen asleep on your shoulder.

Muichirou

He wanted to remember. He tried to remember.

He was walking around with no place in particular to go when he was you. He ran to you and nearly tackled you into a hug.

It was so out of character, you nearly forgot he was only 14. Placing a hand on his head as he spoke.

"Do you remember what my family was like." He looked up at you with a dead face.

"I'm sorry I don't, I only know that you had a twin."

He hummed putting his head in your chest.

Sanemi

Genya came to you in near tears saying sanemi was hearling insults at him again.

You went to scold him until you saw his face. He looked like he hit his all time low, without missing a beat you pulled him into a hug.

"I just don't want him to be like me."

"Why, who wouldn't want to be like the amazing wind hashira who puts fear into even the toughest demon." You ruffled his hair and he scoffed pushing you away.

You laughed as he speed walked away from you.

Tengen

Tengen had a habit of saying thing out loud when he didn't mean to. Most times about his siblings or him going to hell.

Like today you both were sitting on their engawa. You were sharpening his swords while he was deep in thought when he said.

"It's funny, my siblings probably made it to heaven while will go no where near... Oops."

He looked over to you as he watched you scoot closer to him. You pulled his head into your shoulder. He didn't fight against you instead he just moved into a more comfortable position against you.

"Your joking right, who wouldn't let my son, the most flashy man I know into heaven. They would be a fool."

He laughed.

Mitsuri

You were preparing mitsuri some snack for her next mission. When you finished you went to look for her.

He you found her she was looked sad as she was getting ready.

"What the matter kanjiro."

She whirled around to face you with tears in her eyes.

"The mission is in my home town. I don't want them to see me."

'Ah the assholes.' You thought as you opened your arm towards her. She ran into you in a bone crushing hug literally.

She doesn't know her own strength.

"I could go with you if you wanted." You weezed out.

"NO! I don't want you getting hurt." You thought hugs couldn't get any tighter but you didn't have the heart to pull away.

Once she realized you were suffocating she let you go.

Obanai

You were walking around obanai's estate when you say him looking into a mirror with his bandages off. Your eyes caught in the reflection.

"Is it bad." He asked keeping eye contact.

"No I don't think so. Its a battle scar, think of it as how you got out of a bad situation." You up behind him and placed a arm on his shoulder.

Surprisingly he turned around and hugged you. Obanai isn't really an affectionate person so when he hugs you, you of course hug back.

"Thank you... For everything."

Giyuu

Even though he was usually so nonchalant you could tell when he was feeling down.

Today for instance, it was the day after he met tanjiro. He wished he arrived sooner than he did.

"Hey tanjiro and his sister lived, right."

He nodded looking down until you put your hands on his shoulder.

"Don't let it get you down. Unfortunately you can't save everyone. If you want to do something about it, keep an eye on the kid, watch him grow." You pulled him into a hug, it took him awile to hug back.

#male reader #demon slayer x reader #kny x reader #sanemi x reader #shinobu x reader #rengoku x reader #tengen x reader #mitsuri x reader #obanai x reader #giyuu x reader #muichirou x reader #reticent writes #reticent-writes

[hauntedpearl]

the cycle of life for the entity of Death on Supernatural is so very interesting!! to me!! until it isn't. which is just. par for the course really.

i mean the idea that you can kill Death at all sounds. Absurd. but they make it happen. and we're hanging out for like a season and some change with the knowledge that the world exists without Death. and then. they introduce reaper lore that gives Death back to the world for a small. price, I'll say. WHICH IS. SO GOOD YK?

this kind of establishes the power of Death to be an amorphous thing really. Like. the Old Death was never killed before deanchester's moment of madness (that we know of anyway), so it's kind of a Doctor's first Regeneration moment there. he dies and you're like oh fuck. but then there's someone else in his place who is slightly different but also the same. it's kind of. like a reincarnation. which is FUN!!! IT'S GOOD!! it also establishes that Death doesn't really...die. there's no resting place that Death needs because Death isn't going to rest when someone "kills" them. mostly it's just power that's hopping celestial bodies.

they really could've leaned into this more with what little screen time Billie had. they definitely allude to it — i haven't watched s13 in a hot minute but the way Billie interacts with Dean as Death does have an allusion to how she *is* Old Death and also isn't. if i remember correctly. (which is not a 100% thing but yk)

the thing about all this super fun lore is that it makes everything from the end of unity sooooo damn stupid. Why would Death fear being killed? How would It even contract an infection that's gonna kill It??? Even if that's somehow possible, wouldn't Death — filled with vengeance even let's assume — just be like. well. I'll come back for you you bitch. like. this is the entity that has lived since before time. Death knows the value of patience and understands the ephemeral nature of life and time more than anyone else would. So why the anger? Or the desperate attempt at killing dean that's straight up Disney villain level of cartoonish. what good is any of it?? Say, Death is mad at Dean, specifically, for being "human disorder incarnate." that's something that still doesn't track for me. because dean's always BEEN that. when Billie became Death, she had the opportunity to exact revenge on him. He hasn't really done anything That Much Worse since then tbh?? Like okay apocalypse world is def a thing that happened, but even then. That "Michael -Lucifer" battle was barely anything. (and im assuming the grace-fed monsters were all taken care of as well bc the plot went nowhere with it anyway). also. at this point Chuck has revealed himself to the world so really. Dean's choices that might have irked Death were all ..like....mostly not his fault anyway? Wouldn't Death understand this?!

also. another thing. Again: You can't kill Death and Death doesn't need a resting place because it's a body-hopping eldritch power. which means that the empty can't kill it either. Which means that when the empty takes Cas and Billie, Billie was just. there. Arguably, neither of them really died. they were just sort of turned off inside the void™ like electronics. Which means!! THAT THERE CAN'T BE ANOTHER DEATH!!!

Death is literally just hanging out in the empty. It would probably escape/leave if the empty opened up again but like we don't know about all that. what I'm trying to say is that the reaper dying in 15.19 and becoming Death is. Stupid™. does not make sense. everything about 15.19 is stupid and does not make sense but the Death thing especially is making me so mad rn.

anyway long post that's just a pointless rant but essentially!!!!! there was no reason for Billie to do a full 180° on her entire personality and the writers to trash the lore to make the Evil Death moment happen like that was literally unnecessary and also stupid and not to mention racist. Like this is why i haaaate despair outside the bubble of the confession. because like yeah that scene literally did something to my brain but my god the actual insane plot gymnastics they did to make that confession go down the way it did is just...so insane lmao

#long post #lmao sorry this is kind og a pointless rant #but I've been thinking about Death bc im getting back to writing ttwoat ajd like. idk how to deal with it #and im just like. so much of it is SUCH..NONSENSE #anyway #doe is talking again #spn crit (kind of) #death #meta (kind of) #despair #inherit the earth #reaper lore

[chidoroki]

182 Days of TPN - Day 177

Chapter 177: "Mother"

This chapter.. this damn chapter never fails at getting me emotional. I'm still so very upset that Isabella dies this way too when we had other characters such as Emma and Barbara also get impaled by fierce demons and survive with their scars, so why not my queen huh?? I know there's that whole neverland fairy tale idea where adults aren't allowed there, which would've been an interesting concept for our series given the several adult deaths we had already, but that would've cancelled out some of the oldest Goldy Pond kids who are already older than 18 at this point. However, with how Emma phrased the new promise to allow all humans raised as food to cross over into the human world, there wouldn't have been any issue. Isabella could've easily joined them then, like c'mon Shirai, couldn't ya at least let these kids have one parent join them, please? They already lost Yuugo and Lucas, we didn't need to add another!

As if stabbing this woman wasn't enough, this bastard goes on to taunt her, saying that she'll never make up for her past mistakes no matter how hard she tries. First off, to hell with this guy. Secondly, that's such nonsense. I know this moment is supposed to be seen as "Isabella's big redemption moment," but it totally didn't need to happen this way. I'm gonna sound like a broken record when I say this, but this woman's redemption arc started way back when she first admitted defeat on the wall while watching her precious children escape GF. From gathering the ropes they used so the demons wouldn't know which direction they ran, to secretly planning an entire uprising within the farm system in hopes to one day assist her children when they returned. She even used her newfound power as Grandma to help spare the lives of other children at GF by lowering the amount of harvests that took place. Granted, walking the children to their deaths as caretaker and her treatment of Ray are certainly her biggest flaws that can definitely outweigh all the good she's done during those several years as a mother, but again, it's not like she truly wanted to act that way! It was her job; a job she only took because she valued her own life so much (& honestly, I would too), but she excelled at it for their sake. She's renowned for being the best for providing such high quality meat to the farm (which sounds bad when ya think of them as food, I know), but it means her children were raised with such rich emotions and were able to reach a reasonable decent age because they knew what happiness and love felt like and she did everything within her power to keep them alive as long as they possibly could. So to hear this demon make a statement like this just irks me because while it's true this one mama bear moment may not be enough for Isabella to be redeemed fully, it completely disregards every other motherly act she's done for her children over the years.

Literally the only positive I can take away from this highly unfortunate demon encounter is how damn strong and determined Isabella is. The fire in her eyes and the intense grip she has on this demon that straight up prevents it from moving to hurt Emma or the other girl.. aahh it's such a badass moment! What a queen!

Every single time I come across these panels, all I hear in my head is that Mushu quote: "You missed! How could you miss? He was three feet in front of you!" Seriously though, I can understand with how quick everything happened and the intense new threat could've caused Ray's aim to be off a little, but my boy, this could not have been a more worse occasion to miss. I don't wanna say it because it'll be so mean but s2!Ray could've done better.

Bro I remember so very clearly when a couple panels of this chapters were first teased before the official release (& yeah I was a complete mess back then too), but when this panel was going around, it was cropped short to where Ray wasn't seen at all, so people were going nuts about where he was, why wasn't he also surrounding Isabella, if his hatred for her really went so deep to not wanna be near her while she's at death's door, etc. It was kinda wild and absolutely made me anxious, but thankfully the panic was short lived when the full page was available. Sorta. I mean, it's still not a pretty panel, seeing my favorite villain minutes away from losing her life, but at least Ray is present along with all the other GF kids.

Seeing Isabella being more concerned about everyone else aside from herself after a serious stab wound.. what a bittersweet "like mother, like daughter" parallel.

Crazy how Krone's actions and words lead the kids to believe Isabella's intentions were just as heartless. Yeah both ladies wanted to survive and would choose to achieve that by any means necessary, but at least Isabella cared for the well-being of her children. That's already a whole lot more than what your typical mom or sister is capable of.

Having this panel placed in the middle of all the heartbreak is very much appreciated because I definitely need some adorable flashbacks to make me feel a little better before diving right back into my puddle of tears. Seeing her smile and laugh alongside the trio is the most adorable thing, especially that head pat she gives Emma. Also love that reference to ch95's extra page where Gilda was working so hard at the shelter that a sleepy Chris mistakenly called her "mom." Oh, my poor boy Chris.. he's gonna have so many things to catch up on once he wakes up and learning about Isabella's death ain't gonna be easy.

Say it louder, sweetie!!! And most definitely repeating myself once more by saying that I'm so glad the second season animated that panel of Isabella hugging the trio despite this chapter's events not happening.

I love this idea of Isabella & Yuugo being the "what if" versions of the kids. Isabella's situation could easily be applied to any of the girls, though most people associate it with Emma which is fair, just as we usually make the connection of Yuugo to Ray due to them both witnessing their family getting killed and all that time they spent alone, whether it be physically, mentally or emotionally. All three honestly.

Seeing all the children beg Isabella to hold on, along with them confessing how much they love her.. oh my goodness, I think so often how thankful I am that this scene wasn't included in the anime because seeing the pain on their faces is hard enough already, imagine how loudly I would sob if I heard the emotion in all their voices.

Oh, if any version of her lullaby played here, my heart would shatter. I already feel close to tears. She probably dreamed of hugging all her precious children and openly declaring her love for them once more without any fear of what the farm system might do to her and/or them, and now that Isabella finally gets that chance, she has such a thankful smile on her face and I'm happy she gets to experience these warm feelings one last time.

I dunno about anyone else, but this chapter always feels like a "try not to cry challenge, level: impossible" for me. Doesn't matter if they added in this cute scene of her hugging the trio with such a beautiful smile, my heart is still in pieces on the ground. I'm the one who needs the hug!

Favorite panel/moment:

If you haven't learned how much I love Isabella, Ray and their complicated mother-son relationship yet, then I haven't rambled on long enough. But yes, as much as her death absolutely wrecks me, I'm relieved it allows us to get one final interaction between her and Ray. By now we have a pretty good grasp about Ray's feelings towards Isabella, so the fact he kept his distance this entire time until she called out for him is so sad. We can't really tell if he rushes to her side or if he takes slow steps, but what matters is that he didn't deny her request.

It means so much that this moment is just between the two of them too. Sure it was undeniable sweet to see all the children cry and huddle around Isabella, but she and Ray have such a deep history so they deserve one last scene together. Although it's a very fragile relationship, that doesn't prevent her from giving him a personal apology with the very last bit of strength she has. Aahh, how terrible she must be feeling right now, thinking back on all the times she wasn't allowed to show him the same level of affection as a mother would normally show her son or for making his life such a living hell. She could've very well chosen to be angry at herself here or let the pain show on her face, and yet she chooses to smile instead. Not a smug or confident one Ray's probably used to seeing her use, but a gentle one that really conveys how strong her regrets are.

Having her last wish being for Ray to protect everyone is so perfect with how it shows that right til the very end, Isabella's children have always been her top priority and she'll always think of them first. It's also sweet that she wants Ray to hold onto this promise because us readers already know how committed Ray is to providing for his family and keeping them safe. Hell, his compassion and protective instincts were on full display last chapter when he jumped in to shoot at that demon bastard and when he accepted all the moms and sisters to join the kids in the human world back during ch164. Those were such great opportunities for Isabella to witness just how caring her son really is and how much he's grown. I'm certain she's so proud of him. To this day I still wish Isabella had actually spoke that "I love you so much" to him, but I know she was steadily growing weaker by the minute that even speaking or seeing clearly was becoming a challenge for her. The nice thing with Isabella though, is that she doesn't really need to say such words out loud for Ray or any other child to know how true her feelings are, as Emma confirmed earlier during her moment of reflection, that Isabella's actions speak far louder to the point where everyone was able to recognize how strongly she loved them all. What completely breaks me about this entire chapter though is seeing Ray finally breakout into tears as he holds onto his mother's hand. This boy just found out his mother was alive, along with becoming their enemy once more, saw her betray their common enemy in order to assist the children, which sparks his discussion to forgive her and wish for her to join him in the human world, only to realize that won't happen as she jumps in to protect one of his best friends and ends up critically injured all because he failed to killing a demon. That is so much to experience all in one day. It's a miracle he kept his emotions in check to begin with, but now he's hit with the realization that he's losing his mother for good and.. damn it 'yall. Can we please give my boy a break?? And my queen too while we're at it?? Both of them seriously had two of the worst experiences in this world and instead of having them reconcile and build a better mother-son relationship in the human world together, we gotta make them suffer once last time, huh?? Fucking hell man.. I said it way more than once and I'll say it a million more times up until I'm on my own death bed, but the decision of having Isabella stay alive is by far the absolute best thing to come out of season two.

I want to wish their moment was lasted longer than a page and a third, but I'd probably never recover from all the emotional damage if their tearful goodbye had more focus. AAhhh.. seems like I should've wrote out a lot more considering the amount of time I spent on this chapter and how passionate I get about my favorites, but ya know, the emotions are hella strong today.

#the promised neverland #tpn manga #182daysoftpn #chidoroki used chatter

[everafterfrisk]

Here we go again Folks and today I'll be dissecting the popular topic of "Ruby isn't affected by anything across the volumes"

-I'm gonna be honest and say this claim is pretty much BS

Volume 3

- Ruby falling to the ground in sadness after seeing Penny's Dismantled Body

> Was mortified by Pyrrha's Death at the hands of Cinder

Volume 4

In the DC Comics(which take place during the events of Vol 3-4)

Ruby showcases alot of uneasiness and self doubt

▪︎I.E being worried about how Yang felt back at the end of Volume 3

▪︎Believing that she herself can't go on without her team backing her up

▪︎Questioning if she can truly make the right choice

"No One is truly alone".

"What you can do and Who you are-- These are Two very different things".

"No Person is Lesser for Being Alone,

You miss them but You aren't incomplete without them"

"They may bring Forth the Best in You

But the Best still Belongs to You".

- Episode 2 - Ruby is shown having Nightmares about the events of Volume 3

Vol 5

-After the battle with Tyrian, Ruby was upset that she indirectly got her uncle poisoned as well as not being so welcoming about team JNR joining her as the Problems got increasingly worses

"I should've never brought you guys into this"

But the Most powerful scene in this Volume for Ruby is her talk with Oscar

Where she tells him that how distraught she felt about Pyrrha's and Penny's Deaths & wished she could've gotten to know them better

Proclaiming that if she were have died, Pyrrha and Penny would try to keep fighting no matter the obstacle

As she then says that moving forward is what she has to do in order to protect who she cherishes left

Which parallels Issue #6 of the Comics

"Even When it's Hard---

--Just Live".

Which leads to the 2nd Strongest scene for Volume 5 Ruby

The Letter Scene

"Believe me when I say I know it can feel impossible. Like every single day is a struggle against some unstoppable monster we can never hope to beat. But we have to try…"

As Ruby is writing a letter to Yang about how although the World may seem bleak and while things may be painful in the long run, With the right people working together for a good cause can make an extraordinary change no matter how small it seems at first

Also Ruby LITERALLY TEARS UP DURING THIS SCENE

The Silver Eyes Activated after Ruby had a PTSD flashback of Pyrrha's Death when Jaune was going to clash with Cinder in the battle of Haven

■ Ruby was seen shocked by Weiss's fatal injury from Cinder's Spear strike

Volume 6

■ Felt a little Betrayed by Ozpin's Secret after Jinn revealed the Truth

■ Her Silver Eyes Activated When Blake was almost at death's door against the Apathy

■ Confronted Qrow about his lack of willingness to keep moving forward during "Lost" & "Stealing from the Elderly" Episode

Wanting him to view Team RJNR as people who can fight alongside him instead of just being a bunch of children who needs to be protected

"Just because you don't have an idea, doesn't mean we're out of options! Oz hasn't been here to tell us what to do, but we still managed to get this far anyway. We've been in bad situations before, and we don't need an adult to come save us or tell us what to do. We just did it our way! And I say we do it our way. And if you think you can keep up with us "kids"... we'd be happy to have you"

"We're all in this together, and we're all going to do the best we can. That's all anyone can do. And I know it's what you've always aimed for. We would've come whether or not you'd let us, so stop talking like we're your responsibility! We're not! But we could still use Qrow Branwen on our side"

Volume 7-8

■ Immediately felt guilty about lying to Ironwood about the Other stuff that happen with Ozpin

■ During Her Talk with Qrow, She even questions if she even knows what she has been doing was the correct decision

■ Ruby pleads Harriet in the "Ace Ops vs Team Rwby" to stand down and join her team in saving the citizens

■ Stood in Confusion and shock after witnessing a Silver Eyed Grimm Hybrid

■ in Volume 8 Finale,

Ruby is seen shedding a tear during her fight with Neo(Supposedly as a result of Yang's death)

---> in the Vol 9 sneak peek it showcases Ruby's POV where she was having constant anxiety attacks throughout the fight against Cinder

And in the Volume 9 Chapter 1 Sneak Peek Clip

Ruby breaks down and Cries to herself reflecting upon the events that have transpired

So Yeah I think this pretty much sums up how much these events have had an Impact on Ruby's emotions

(She ain't just Happy all the time and Ignores all the tragedy, if anything she tries using it as a Coping Mechanism of some sort in order to move forward & keep her mind away from the Darkness)

Hope yall Enjoy

#rwby analysis #rwby ruby #ruby rose #rwby

[instantartific]

What do you think would have happened if any of the charters were able to stop B2J?

Or worse, got… killed by B2J?

This is... definitely interesting, and two different questions I'll have to answer.

One: if any of the Charters managed to dissuade them enough to stop, I'll phrase it that way.

... Maybe the Yinu and Mama fight could have been the stopping point for them, if they put their foot down and refused to go into the battle once they heard that they were going to be fighting a child. May does take a step back when she realizes that, but she continues forward.

I think that's the only point I can see them really stopping. Before or just after Yinu's battle, as that one was designed to make you start realizing you're not doing a "good thing."

Two: if any of the Charters killed them (I'm assuming you mean Charter kills B2J, not other way around.)

Yes, any Charter could've hurt them accidentally, as a lot of their battles and lead-ups are dangerous.

I believe only Sayu's is perfectly safe, as Nova balances them on objects, tries to slab giant orbs into them, fIRES A NEUTRON LAZER AT THEM, IMPLODES AND TRIES TO DRAG THEM INTO HIS CORE, and various other things;

Mama ends up taking them up really high and they all fall to the ground, yeah, in any realistic situation one of them is injured gravely from the fall;

1010 firing lasers at and exploding near them and the entirety of the run-up before the battle could have killed them if they fell off the limos and got dragged underneath, not even mentioning Neon for right now;

Eve... well, it's debatable what actually is occurring during her battle, but overall "here, let me throw these massive art pieces at you and try to generally crush you;"

And Tatiana tries to hunt them down her entire battle with giant sword-clock-hand-things.

But the only one who would kill them intentionally is... Neon, I imagine. No one else would have the stomach to try and kill them. And, hell, he literally says: "initiate Kill All Protocol" at some point unless I'm mistaken. You're right, 1010 would not be able to, but that's solely because for their battle, 1010 are blindly following their pre-set routine. They don't fall out of line at all, even when they're reacting to being hit and expressing they're in pain—they don't actually aim for B2J at all. If you're getting hit by them, it's cause you walked into them. They keep up the same song and dance (literally) until they break them, then it starts over, until Neon gets involved. It would be incredibly easy if they did fall out of line, but they don't. Captain gives orders, they follow.

Neon is the only one with the stomach and the motivation to actually try to hurt them, let alone kill them:

Tatiana wants them to stop, and nothing else is deterring them. He is going to serve Tatiana and do whatever they make him do. If they refuse to listen to reason, and are even willing to put a child in harm's way for their little 'cause,' then they need to be stopped.

One way or another.

Now, I will say that Neon would not try to hurt them right outta wedlock; he'd warn them. He'd tell them. They'd know exactly what's about to happen, the entire time, because he's not going to let even one of his enemies have an ungraceful death: they will be told he is going to use force, they will be warned of the exact amount he will be using, really, and they will know that if they do not stand down, he will make them.

And if they don't, he does.

As for what happens after that is a different thing entirely.

#like. neon's a killer but he's not a /mindless/ killer. he's expressed he's willing to cause harm for the better of the people he cares for. #and if he deems that b2j has gotten between that... #or if tatiana directs him so... #well. #he's a soldier at heart. and soldiers follow orders. #the only thing is: maybe he follows them a bit too much. #ও musings #nsr #no straight roads #b2j #djss #sayu #yinu #1010 #neon j #eve #tatiana

[rosemariad]

Supernatural Season 12

only 3 more seasons after this...aw...

so mom's back grk mm the dead...okay...Mary's returned from '83 - boy is she in for a shock. her baby boy Dean is a grown man pushing 40 😱

wild how Dean recounted his parents' love story from their first meeting to their elopement! how did Dean get John to spill the beans on that I wonder...

Sam was taken by the bitch ass Men of Letters, and here lies the beginning of the misfortune that is the MoL arc, ugh! I'm going to like this as Much as I did Metatron 🙄

Sam's a fucking trooper, I know he was tortured by the devil personally but still, taking a blow torch to the foot...damn

Mary is naturally feeling out of place and Dean's just dancing around that like it's a problem to be solved on its own...oh Dean.

Castiel reunites with Dean after Mary points a gun at the handsome angelic stranger in the bunker 😆

Dean's tender smile when Cas grabbed him🥺 the way Mary cocked her head when they hugged 🤣

Mary was down to hunt - interesting considering how hard she supposedly tried to avoid it. now the show insinuates she wasn't wholly retired????

Sam & Mary hug when he returns to the bunker - is this technically their first real hug????? the last time would've been when Sam was a literal baby 🥺

But after 3 episodes, Mary just bails? really? the showrunners are giving her the Cas treatment - where she appears every so often. Why is she back then if she's not gonna stay with her sons? they're literally all she had left in the world. everyone else she would've known is long gone. they could've just brought back John (which I now they do in season 14 for 1 episode) to get John's reaction on how his sons have changed since 2006 when he died. they could've discussed Adam - that would've been fun 🤣🤣🤣

if they're gonna keep Mary around, the one whose death started the Brothers on their journey, keep her around! have the boys & their mom struggle to reconnect, get to know one another - let Mary see her sons as they are for better or worse and let them talk about it! let them talk about her and John and their parents' marriage, the good the bad and the family of if all. let them talk out their issues or try to Even if they fail! just cuz they talk doesn't mean they're able to solve and heal their trauma in 1 sitting. that shit takes time. it could take months, years. wasted opportunity.

back to Mary hunting, back in 1980 she saved a boy who grew up to be a hunter on his own, living his best life, being more Dean than Dean Winchester 🤣 until he was killed by his fellow hunter friend by accident (wow).

how dare Asa's mom bitch at Mary for Asa's grown ass man decisions? Please. nobody put a gun to his head! he made his choice and kept at it.

Dean got snippy at his mom cuz she left his ass - Dean she's been dead for 30+ years. her resurrection was your wildest dream/hope, Amara knew that, that's why she brought her back and the 1st thing she do that you don't like and you bitch at her?! ask her to stay then! beg her to stay, say anything and everything you need to so she sticks around! tell her about your drinking, about bow you're almost 40 with no kids or a domestic partner! about how little you Sleep and all the things that haunt you! Give her a reason to be needed!

when Mary says I am your mother, but I am not just your mom - that's 💯 percent facts right there, sorry folks! people are more than just 1 thing, but on the other hand, your sons need you, Mary! ironically, if she remained at her sons side, she wouldn't have suffered the way she does later this season 🤕

it's sad how east the MoL got to her, wearing her down. she's haunted and fucked up from being dead so long. this is why dialogue is important! she seemed to be opening up to Castiel since hers an angel instead of her sons - so be it, talk to the angel man, bare your soul, anything other than making shady deals and getting into bed with those British motherfuckers (see what I did there 🤣😅)

Gavin (imma call him Crowley jr.) got iced, sucks for Crowley I guess. good for Gavin though, stepping up to do the right thing for his girl, bittersweet.

I love that Cas & Dean are in regular contact with each other! too bad we don't get more scenes of their conversations!!! cmon showrunners - don't fear the emotional man on man scenes between men who aren't family, embrace the potential gayness!!! explore it!!!!

Cas & Mandy the waitress - interesting - too bad he's only interested in Dean, at least not anymore - that may be April the reaper's fault!

"devastatingly handsome" - you not low Dean!!! this is how you choose to address your angel bestie?!?! okay 🤣

later after Cas narrowly avoids death (again, thanks Crowley!) the look of relief on Dean's face

and awwww Cas said I love you! to Dean's whole family, how romantic 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 you not low Castiel!!!!

sadly now Dean truly believes that Castiel only loves him as a friend. This is why you don't call Castiel your brother Dean 🤦‍♀️😅🤣

The Alpha vamp died - so much for next season. considering his supposed age and power, shouldn't be impossibly fast? and Ramiel. you're telling me that he struggled fighting a couple of normal people when he pwned Crowley so easily when Crowley himself is a centuries old demon, aka king of hell, after beating Castiel an ancient celestial being?!?!??! but the very mortal Winchesters took him down...yeah sure okay 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

HOLD UP! HOLD THE PHONE! HOLD THE UNIVERSE, TIME AND SPACE, HOLD EVERYTHING!

Dean Winchester gave Castiel a mixtape

Dean GAVE CASTIEL A MIXTAPE!!!!

a mixtape? 😱😱😱 really?!?!?! that's one of THE romantic gestures to make in the 80s and 90s (before CDs came out) to declare your feelings for someone you wanted to be with, as more than a friend. that's not to say friends and family didn't but it was fairly recognized as a something to do for romance too! also it's a labor of love since you'd have to use the radio or get more cassettes to record & compile the music you wanted AND people like to record a personal message before the music starts in the tape they male. you can see it certain TV/movies like the Goldbergs as an example - Adam made such a thing for his school crush when he wanted to declare his feelings for her.

And it's not just that Dean made a mixtape for Cas - he specifically chose Led Zeppelin songs- the love language of his parents, the very union that led to Dean being born in the first place. And the little xx's - hmm wonder what those mean...

and we just gloss over that?!?!? the showrunners - y'all are NOT slick! ya can't stop the Destiel bandwagon cuz after all this times in the year of our Lord 2023 peeps keep shipping it precisely for moments like these.

while we're on 12x19 - when Cas FINALLY returns to the bunker, Dean gives him hell like only a bitchy girlfriend can while Sam was like OMG glad you're back but Dean was PISSED cuz how DARE Cas not just show up & return his phone calls (what about prayers? 👀) Dean kept saying "we" but let's be honest he's talking about himself - u not slick Dean. And this is AFTER Cas tried returning the mixtape cuz he feels he is no longer worthy of Dean's gift given how much he pissed Dean off 🥺

When Sam suggests siphoning out the grace from the nephilim due to be born Dean runs to his precious angel only to discover Cas is gone (again!) just as soon as he appeared.

The betrayal. the deceit, the DRAMA!!! Dean, you didn't put the Colt in the safe?! Rookie mistake, bro.

He kept talking about Castiels feathered ass but then didn't actually fight him, just slams him against the wall, standing very close & maintaining intense eye contact - classic Supernatural 😉 🤣 😀

I wonder what Kelly saw that makes her believe that her child is good because suicide isn't an easy choice but Kelly went through with her attempt out of fear of what her child was capable of given how many times everyone kept saying such things to her face. But it didn't matter cuz her child brought Kelly back from the dead anyway. That's terrifying TBH.

When Cas booked the brothers 🤣🤣🤣 did they really not see that coming? cmon Dean, he did that to Bobby when you first met.

***during Lucifer's mini arc this season I'm reminded of Misha's commentary on the acting advice he got from main devil actor Mark Pelligrino on portraying the infamous figure - he either wanted to kill/fuck the one he's talking to - it definitely seemed that way this season during Mark's scenes. ironic considering his previous work on Lost - anyone remember that show?

Thankfully the MoL are FINALLY dealt with after a rousing speech from Sam fucking Winchester who leads the charge to take those British tarts down, complete with exploding their makeshift headquarters! Dean meanwhile stayed behind to help his mom who's been completely brainwashed by the MoL - which is indicative of Dean's characters as a callback to season 1 - he just wanted his family together!

What Dean told his mom in her head is what he should've said from the very beginning- sure it would've hurt her feelings, possibly cause a mild heart attack but it needed to be said so Dean & Mary could heal as a family!

Thank God Ketch is as dead as the rest of the MoL he was such a creep!

Rowena got killed offscreen? Damn, that's cold. I know she's coming back though 😊

Kelly died 🥲

Crowley died - he was THAT determined to take the devil down. in the long run its not gonna work since Luci will be back eventually but there's something to be said about Crowley's arc considering this is the last we see of the cheeky little devil. I recall prior seasons where he seemed downtrodden in certain scenes, about the futility of his plays for power, his schemes going tits up often because of someone else. I think Mark Shepard said something about taking his character as far as he could or something like that.

Castiel died (again)

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Mary disappeared into that AU with the devil and he is Piiiiiiiiiiiissssed 😱

Given what Kelly gave birth to, all those diapers Cas got were a waste of money...

season highlights

not many TBH I didn't like this season much cuz of the wasted potential with Mary and the brothers and the lack of Castiel. and Crowley for that matter. the season had a good start and it finished in a way that was interesting BUT

12x10 - Dean and Castiel fighting was HILARIOUS. They seriously should've gotten a spinoff even if they only ever remained as innocent platonic friends. it would've been so funny.

and awww...Dean is Castiel's human weaknesss - YEAH NO SHIT HONEY!!!!!

Dean is apparently a natural at riding - mechanical bulls included - did he ride it to completion??? lemme stop 🤣 I mean for the duration of the bull ride for however long - he never fell off? if so, kudos to him and his hips 🤣🤣

#supernatural #dean winchester #castiel #deancas #destiel #sam winchester #mary winchester #crowley #fergus macleod #kelly kline #the mixtape #supernatural season 12

[toastess-with-the-mostess]

Let's Rewind! Toast watches Voltron: Defender of The Universe (1984)

Season 1, Episode 6: The Right Arm of Voltron

The episode title worries me a bit, what the hell did Lance start now

Castle looks super shiny, how many times did it flash the light in someone's eye lol now some of the Arusians have come by to live in the castle

Hunk reduced to a fat joke, as per usual unfortunately Pidge why did you have to flip to reach the button for the door, you could've just walked

Pidge once again being a cutie, his little arm flaps when he's walking through the pantry is adorable

Nothing good ever lasts, another attack on the castle, but now it's worse because people are living in it

Coran said he was activating the robot defenses so I'm sure that the people I saw manning the turrets outside the castle are supposed to be said robots but I think it's cool that the Arusians just arrived at the castle and some are already fighting for Arus again

Ah, that's why Coran said robots, because people literally die There's the princess taking over for the barely dead guy on the floor Now sporting her typical bun!

OH SHIT THEY'RE FORMING VOLTRON BEFORE FIGHTING A ROBEAST?? I mean there is no robeast yet but my point still stands

"Somehow they built a new castle, it's awesome!" I know awesome is an old word, but man is it weird to hear still

Ok so Allura does have some weird clairvoyant powers then, because Haggar mentions that she's the only other one that knows the secret to make Voltron, and it's because she talks to her dead dad

More discrepancies, Zarkon has been saying he wants Allura brought to him, but only now do we get a reason for it, and apparently he thought she was dead after they first attacked Arus

Oh god is this the episode where Haggar actually does something to stop the team? Not good

Planet Doom is apparently 10 mil light years away from Arus, interesting I do have the canon map of the universe, so I'll have to look at it again to actually see the distance

Damn it we're back at the Galaxy Garrison again, at lease the building looks cool IS THAT THE GUY WHO FUCKS OVER THE TEAM?? MOTHERFUCKER

Why does the Garrison believe that Zarkon was defeated, he has a whole kingdom at his disposal and has literally attacked multiple times before even after Voltron formed Oh ok so this was trying to show that the GG does shit even though they're absolutely useless at best and STILL can't do things for the team like giving them an early attack warning Like their frequencies are blocked because of meteor showers which is why they can't, but man was that scene unnecessary

Allura mans a food cart, more at 10

Hunk reduced to a fat joke again Also, a scene is reused where pidge and hunk try to get more Arusians to come by again

Pidge says he's seen Haggar's cat before, but I don't believe it Yeah, this is the episode I thought was playing last time

Aw cute Lance is protecting Pidge, Very much the second parent to Keith's first

Oh shit both Sven AND Lance run after the cat And now Lance is captured ONLY TO BE SAVED WITH SVEN BY A SWORD LETS GOO

Haggar pulls a hydra on Sven, no matter how many times he slices her she just doubles See you later my dude, don't worry it'll get better because you'll become a trophy husband

Man these fight scenes are weird Pidge Hunk and Allura fuck off to the castle

NO SVEN HE GOT FUCKING TAG TEAMED oh shit blood! That's not something you can easily censor

I like the symbolism from golion seeping into voltron, Sven's sword is still standing after being stuck in the ground, but after Sven begs for the hospital it drops Tears and sorrow, Keith and Lance are crying as they hold their close to death friend This makes for REALLY GOOD LANCE ANGST

Now the robeast attack is ACTUALLY happening, that must be horrifying, losing a friend and the ability to protect the planet I'M SORRY SVEN IS VOLTRONS RIGHT ARM?? BITCH I THINK YOU RIGHT LEG

I can't tell if Lance is being self-sacrificing because of his guilt for leaving Sven alone which got him mortally wounded or not He purposefully led the robeast to a lava pit, so the team would push both of them into it, but then red is immune to really high temps

Well they defeated the robeast by melting it in lava, lucky break They're still celebrating though which I think is weird after your friend has to be sent to a far off planet to get decent medical aid

Episode end! I'm excited to watch golion at the end of this entire thing, the themes just come through because of the animation, it'll probably give me more of what I want tbh

#voltron #voltron dotu #voltron defender of the universe #80s voltron #let's rewind! #toast talks #almost didn't post today because my day so was packed #maybe i'll skip wednesdays then

[storytimewithnova]

DEADLY INSOMNIAC

Chaotic friends group Sho Kei Kenma Kunimi Suna Akasshi keiji(there to keep them under control) Omi Shira Yahaba (shirabu twin) [Semi

Siblings Akaashi Keiji Akaashi Hajime (goes under Iwaizumi at school) Akaashi shona(goes under hinata at school) Akaashi Seijiro Akaashi Natsuki(Shorten to Natsu she will be to young to understand)

Cousins Miya Atsumu Miya Osamu Miya Tori (goes under Oikawa at school)

Shona is Neice to Ushijima

Backstory before the actual story This will involve Fatal familial insomnia or FFI Shona suffers from FFI her brothers Cousins and friends don't know about it but her bfs do how will semishira deal with their girlfriends disease

Songs used

Listen before I go Semishira sing safe and sound even though sho is dead

-------------------------------Keep Reading-------------------------------

Meet Akaashi Shona A bright bubbly kind hearted girl beloved sister to 5 siblings an asset to the Volleyball team with her strategic mind at least the was who shona Use to be let's Meet her now and how her life has changed drastically for the worse

In Average you are meant to have 8 hours of sleep to function but what if sleep can be somewhat deadly what if it leads to your death that is what is happening to Akaashi Shona her 3 brothers and cousins don't know what is happening with her but her boyfriends semishira do after talking with her bfs she agreed for her to tell her brothers cousins and the chaotic Friend group what is happening with her while thinking of a way to tell them she hit a random playlist and just started singing while Kenjiro was recording her

Shona:🎶I had a dream I got everything I wanted Not what you'd think And if I'm being honest It might've been a nightmare To anyone who might care🎶

Eita's thoughts💭 but we care songbird this is killing you literally when you say nightmare you mean that in a very literal sense because this is a nightmare for all of us and i hurts you plastering on a fake smile for us knowing any day could be your last

Shona continues to sing and dance around her room

Shona:🎶Thought I could fly (fly) So I stepped off the Golden, mm Nobody cried (cried, cried, cried, cried) Nobody even noticed I saw them standing right there Kinda thought they might care (might care, might care🎶

Kenjiro's thoughts💭 I thought i told you to get rid of those bad thoughts honey or at least come to me ans Ei I know i act like i have a stick up my ass but i love you both of you this is killing me

Shona:🎶I had a dream I got everything I wanted But when I wake up, I see You with me And you say🎶

Semishira:🎶"As long as I'm here, no one can hurt you Don't wanna lie here, but you can learn to If I could change the way that you see yourself You wouldn't wonder why you hear 'They don't deserve you'"🎶

Shona:Kenji? Ei?

She gave a soft weak smile and continued

Shoma:🎶I tried to scream But my head was underwater They called me weak Like I'm not just somebody's daughter It could've been a nightmare But it felt like they were right there🎶

Shona's Pov I Tried to scream I wanted to scream but I was in the void trapped between lfe and death and it felt like i was underwater when I fell in a coma I remember everything Karasuno did to me and how the called me weak among other things it felt just like a nightmare but everyone was right there and did nothing

shona:🎶And it feels like yesterday was a year ago But I don't wanna let anybody know 'Cause everybody wants something from me now And I don't wanna let 'em down I had a dream I got everything I wanted But when I wake up, I see You with me And you say🎶

semishira:🎶"As long as we're here, no one can hurt you Don't wanna lie here, but you can learn to If I could change the way that you see yourself You wouldn't wonder why you hear 'They don't deserve you'"🎶

Shona:🎶If I knew it all then, would I do it again? Would I do it again? If they knew what they said would go straight to my head What would they say instead? If I knew it all then, would I do it again? Would I do it again? If they knew what they said would go straight to my head What would they say instead?🎶

when shona had finished semi sent it to their GC they watched it they don't see the hospital but the see her and see how weak she looks then they heard her singing and they tried to understand what she is trying to say she finally to took to their chat

In the Chaotic Bitches 4life GC

Shona is online

Sho: hey guys can you sit and observe please

Everyone: Hai

Sho:🎶Take me to the rooftop I wanna see the world when I stop breathing Turning blue Tell me, love is endless, don't be so pretentious Leave me, like you do (like you do)🎶

Shona's thoughts💭 Sorry Ni chans you are finding out this way i guess you could say i Don't have long

Keiji was looking at the chat apart of him dying to question what she meant like did her past trauma come back not that it really left or what happened but something was also holding him back so he waited to see what else she will say he could also see his other siblings itching to question her but he told them No

Back in the chat

Shona:🎶If you need me Wanna see me Better hurry 'Cause I'm leaving soon🎶

The brothers started having worrying thoughts like is shona Su!c!dal or hurting her self in some way to bad thoughts on Shirabu and Semi that they cheated or hurt her

Shona:🎶Sorry, can't save me now Sorry, I don't know how Sorry, there's no way out (sorry) But down, mm down🎶

Semi:songbird where are you you not in your room

What semi means is she is not in her hospital room she is currently on the hospital rooftop but semi and shirabu didn't know that and now he is on high alert

Shira: love please

Semi:- she said Rooftop-

The brothers: where is our sister

The bestie: where is our bestie

Semi: we don't know we are looking

shira:-Eita i'm worried-

Semi:-same Kenji same-

they made it to the rooftop to see Shona at the edge of roof she wasn't looking so good she look like she is trying to just cling on to whatever life he has so she can finish telling her family and friends goodbye

shona:-loves please let me enjoy my final moments under the moon and start with you-

semi:-of course songbird-

shona:🎶Taste me, the salty tears on my cheek That's what a year-long headache does to you I'm not okay, I feel so scattered Don't say I'm all that matters Leave me Deja vu🎶

Her brothers read her messages and they grew ever worried about her the Chaotic friends were in a state of confusion trying to work out why their head bitch their queen of Chaos is saying all this while she was having a scenes of Deja Vu

Shona:🎶If you need me Wanna see me You better hurry I'm leaving soon Sorry, can't save me now Sorry, I don't know how (sorry) Sorry, there's no way out (sorry) But down, mm down🎶

back in the chat her siblings are going mad thiking all sorts and trying to find her location

shona:🎶Call my friends and tell Them that I love them And I'll miss them But I'm not sorry Call my friends and tell them that I love them And I'll miss them Sorry🎶

LATER THAT NIGHT SHONA PASSED AWAY SO SEMISHIRA TOOK TO THE GROUP CHAT WITH EVERYONE NOT JUST TO TELL HER SIBLINGS SHE IS GONE BUT ALSO TO MAKE SOME CROWS REGRET AND THEY ARE PARTLY TO BLAME

ALL SPORTS JUNKIES GC

Everyone is online

Semi is online shira is online

Shirabu: can we ask everyone to sit back and observe and hold all questions pleaae

Semi:🎶I remember tears streaming down your face When I said I'll never let you go🎶

Semi's pov: i do i remember you coming to mine and Jiro's dorm crying your eyes about how Karasuno was using you to beat us how Kageyama repeatedly cheated on you and how their first year manager made up rumours that hurt you more physically and mentally and that was the night me and Jiro told you we would never let you go were we holding on to tight that you slipped through our hands songbird we miss you .

Back to the chat

Shirabu:🎶When all those shadows almost killed your light I remember you said don't leave me here alone But all that's dead and gone and passed tonight🎶

Keiji: what is happened to my sister

Hajime: let them talk baby bro

Semi:🎶 Don't you dare look out your window, darling, everything's on fire The war outside our door keeps raging on Hold onto this lullaby even when the music's gone, gone🎶

Kei: omg no please No

Osamu: moonlight

Kei went offline and he told osamu his theory

Osamu: No please No not my baby cousin please

Everyone else confused osamu inboxed the family the theory

The Akaashi siblings: No say psyche now

Shirabu:🎶Just close your eyes, the sun is going down You'll be alright, no one can hurt you now Come morning light, you and I'll be safe and sound Ooh (ooh)🎶

Shirabu's thoughts💭 no you won't be alright because you are gone i wish me did more so guys we couldn't protect her more

Shirabu is crying hugging shona

🎶Ooh (ooh) Ooh (ooh) Oh whoa (oh whoa) Oh whoa (oh whoa) Ooh (ooh) Ooh (ooh) Oh whoa Oh whoa🎶

Semishira:🎶Just close your eyes You'll be alright Come morning light You and I'll be safe and sound🎶

🎶Ooh, ooh Ooh, ooh Ooh, ooh Ooh, ooh Ooh, ooh Ooh, ooh🎶

Semi: we are sorry shona passed away not long ago

Tori:how? No not my little cousin

The siblings:Tori Ni calm down but yeah was it su!c!de

Shirabu: no guys god where did you get that from

Seijiro: her messages earlier

Semi: no it wasn't it was FFI and the crows are partly to blame

Everyone- the crows: WHAT?! WHAT DID YOU GUYS DO TO HER?

Semi: are you going to tell them or us

The crows: ....

Shirabu: vow of silence okay us it is Keiji Haijime and Seijiro they were using your sister to beat us they overworked her when she was dating Kageyama he was using her for her body and was serial cheat their first year manager made up rumours that coursed her to be bulled beaten up on a daily bases

Semi: everything they did coursed her nightmares she suffered so much and she was diagnosed with FFI she struggled to sleep she stopped eating she got weaker and weaker lately she has been living in the hospital and earlier tonight she died

The crows: .....

Kise: you lot a despicable you did that to princess and showed zero remorse

Keiji:you are the reason for our sisters death

Haijime: we will have Karasuno sued

Osamu: and Kei is coming to inarizaki

Kei: was already planning on it i told my parents the moment i saw the crows true colors

Ushijima:Coaches are you reading this

Coaches: we are Wakatoshi

The crows:😨

Ushijima: what do you think should happen to the crows as punishment for sunshine

Tendou: wow ushi you are really protective of little monster

Ushijima: she is my Niece and those crows really tried me so Coaches what do you say

Ukai: for the record i knew none of what the crows did but in light of learning about it me and Takada quit you guys do what you want

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Word got around about what the crows did no one wants to join the Volleyball club after that let alone the school itself semi found one more message was left for the family and friends

Hey shona here for i guess the vey last time Eita if you received this it means i passed away any way i knew i had FFI i knew I was a ticking time bomb you see FFI i read about it or a version of it in a fanfic about Keiji Ni and bokuto san I made Kenji read it well as you can see its real and it kills looks like i was it's next victim i said Karasuno was partly to blame main Kageyama but there were other factors EITA SHITABU I LOVE YOU, OKAY I LOVE YOU TO THE MOON AND BEYOND BUT THERE ARE SOME THINGS THAT YOU JUST CAN’T FIGHT THIS IS ONE Please Eita and Kenji Remember Me just knowing you’re here and you loved me is enough just seeing you and making memories before the Inevitable is enough playing volleyball and goofing off even if it’s one last time is enough we’re enough for this world and the next and that is where i will find you both again.

As semi and shirabu read it they said

Semishira:promise you will come back to Us Songbird/Sunshine in the next life

Shona:Plan on honoring that promise till We three meet again goodbye my loves

Semishira:we love you Sho Too the Moon

Shona:I love You too And Beyond

Shona fades leaving Her two crying boyfriends standing there cluching their lockets like a lifeline to their one and only

#Youtube

[melonfairyghost]

!Stranger Things 4 BIG SPOILER!

what she says: i'm fine what she means: Real talk. Eddie dying was bullshit. And I'm not saying that just because Eddie, My Beloved. It was EXPECTED for him to die. I really thought they were gonna subvert the trope of killing off the new likeable character after they did literally the same to Sean Astin but this is even worse because Eddie was so fully fledged out, he was oooooozing chemistry with all the other actors, he was ready to turn over a new leaf with the new gang. And his death felt preventable. He could've been written to have a moment to stand up to the bats and save Dustin and get out of it without a leg or some shit. But it genuinely feels like the reason they wrote that dumbass Ash-Ketchum-vs-Flock-of-Spearow Death was because it was the easy way out as it was way easier to do that than to bring him back to town. :/ I saw on a post around that MAYBE he could appear in the next season because we don't know how dying works in the Upside Down but :/ i don't know. Even if original DnD Vecna canonically is very involved with undead and necromancy, if Eddie comes back it'll be corrupted to mess with Dustin or something and it's gonna be absolute bullshit.

#stranger things 4 #st4 #st4 spoilers #stranger things 4 spoilers

[loving-villanelle]

Having been religiously following all the cast interviews and reviewers' thoughts since the start of S4, I'm now like 99.99% certain that either V or Eve kill each other. All this talk about the scorpion and the frog since the start fits perfectly with that dynamic.

It also aligns with how Sandra and Jodie have emphasised that "the story led them there truthfully/it's true to the characters" etc. etc. because let's be honest, the KE team never believed these two could have a lasting romance. They've repeatedly said they're doomed from the start.

Imo, that's gonna be a worse ending than the two of them dying because of the Twelve. Surely some of us expected the Twelve being the death of them, and it would've been plausible but we'd never expect V or Eve to turn on each other again so that's the surprise factor they're going for. I think they firmly believed the Eve and V would always be the death of each other and they're now simply acting on it. (Remember Sandra's interview? "Eve realises that to reach her end, it must be with V" or something along those lines)

And it'll be oh so disappointing to see that play out because it'll throw all the character development out the window and quite literally tarnish their entire relationship once we see how it ended. I mean if they had to kill each other, could've just done it in Season 1 and call it a day, y'know? Sure that would've been disappointing in its own right cuz it wouldn't have the ~build-up~ but would've saved us the agony of this back and forth for more than 4 years.

I'm betting that's what's gotten everyone so disappointed.

Also, sorry to put this negativity in your asks but I've just got SO many thoughts and theories and have no one else to share them with :(

"The story led them there truthfully/it's true to the characters"

If one kills the other, you will never in 197064469 years be able to convince me that their story truthfully led them there or that it's true to the characters.

Even in season 1, Eve didn't really want to kill Villanelle. The second she stabbed her, she immediately regretted it and was saying "let me help you."

When Villanelle shot Eve, she was so clearly struggling to move on after and was so relieved when she found out that she was still alive.

These are not two women who have ever truly wanted the other dead. So if KE brings us to that conclusion, it'll be the biggest joke in the history of television because I can't think of anything that would be more untrue to the characters. That wouldn't be where their journey truthfully led them, it would be the show literally just erasing 4 seasons of growth and connection and discovery and development.

If they wanted to go the "they'll be the death of each other" route, why not at least make it beautiful? Why not make it that they were so drawn to each other and found it so impossible to stay away from each other that they just couldn't help themselves, even knowing they were risking their lives. Then have them go down together. I have said from the beginning that I could live with that happening. If they died but it was with each other, that would be truthful because we already know how impossible it is for them to stay out of each other's orbits.

What I couldn't live with is one of them betraying the other and killing them. Not after everything they've been through. Not after 3x08, which they can't just pretend didn't happen because it did. If I stuck with this show for 4 years for an ending like that, I can't think of a worse ending quite honestly and how anyone on the KE production team could've greenlit it would absolutely boggle my mind. How anyone could think an ending like that is glorious or triumphant or funny or "a little bit" heartbreaking. That would be a lot bit heartbreaking. That would be ripping out the heart of your audience, stomping on it, and giving them the middle finger for good measure. No one wants that. Even casual viewers who don't necessarily view Villaneve as romantic (all 2 of them) are rooting for them and don't want to see their dynamic and their relationship be destroyed by something that ridiculous.

But this whole season has been ridiculous, in my opinion, and I never thought Eve would betray Villanelle. So what the hell do I know

#villaneve #killing eve spoilers

[silverhandjoytoys]

I got you, V.

Those words ricocheted off the walls of her mind, steadily growing louder with each passing second.

Told you that was a bad idea, but you just don't fuckin' listen.

Even when V was drifting somewhere between life and death, she could still hear the voice of the asshole rocker boy that lived in her.

The glitching was worse than it had ever been, making her feel as if her head was going to explode. She wasn't ready to die, but it seemed to be a foregone conclusion. It didn't matter how deep they went into finding a way to stop it, they were still so far away from a solution.

Come on, V, fight it.

Her eyes fluttered open sometime later. The smell of cigarettes and a dingy motel room filled her nostrils.

"Wha- fuck… Johnny?" She said, willing herself to sit up.

"Stay down, V. Need to take it easy." He appeared next to her, crouching next to the bed.

"What... where-" the room was blurred, objects barely formed as she tried to focus.

The only thing she could see clearly was Johnny. A hint of concern etched across his face, but she assumed it was just her vision.

"Brought you to a safe place. Those fucks won't find us here." Johnny said, answering a question she felt like she asked hours ago.

"Where... is here?" She struggled to return to full consciousness, head buzzing and vision distorting.

"Motel outside of the city. Stayed here a long time ago," he answered.

"This a they don't care if you vomit on the carpet kinda place?"

"Can't smell the aroma of vomit's past?" He asked with a little smirk.

V tried to laugh but she was hit with a shit storm of nausea and couldn't hold it back. She leaned over the edge of the bed and emptied the contents of her stomach at Johnny's feet.

"Barely missed me." He moved back.

V rolled back on the bed, feeling slightly better, "did you- how did you get me here?"

"Had to take your body over for a while. Only choice I had to keep you alive," he explained, stepping around her vomit to sit on the edge of the bed.

"Surprised I'm still alive after what you did the first time you were in control," she smirked and propped herself up against the headboard.

"Wasn't about to leave you in a pool of your own fluids." He kept his gaze on her.

V felt like she'd been hit by a truck, "thanks. I don't know what I'd do without you riding shotgun." She smiled slightly, trying to ignore the buzzing in her head.

"Guess there are some benefits to sharing the same body." He pulled a cigarette out and lit it.

There was something oddly comforting about it. Like a certain amount of stability had returned just from seeing him smoke. Normalcy in the midst of chaos.

"You ever wish you'd gotten stuck with someone else?" V asked.

"Someone with a dick maybe." He passed the cigarette to V.

"I can only imagine the chaos you'd cause if you had full access to someone's dick." She took the cigarette from his fingers.

Normally she wasn't one for smoking, but it was becoming a habit after a black out.

"You have terrible taste in sex partners," he chided.

"Still won't let the whole River thing go, huh?" V grinned and passed the cigarette back as she blew out a stream of smoke.

"A cop, V. You made me fuck a cop."

"Oh, then I can only assume you came too? Does that mean... you enjoyed it?" She grinned.

"Fuck you." Johnny shook his head and plucked the cigarette from her fingers.

"Had to feel good since you're feeling everything same as me. River is a God with his tongue." V pulled her knees up to her chest and watched Johnny take a long drag of the cigarette.

"Can we at least talk about future fucking? I should have a say," he said after a long silence.

"Okay, who did you have in mind?" V was curious if this was something he'd put actual thought into.

"Anyone with tits and a pussy." He said.

"That narrows it down a bit. I'm all for fucking chicks, but can we be a little more... selective?" 

"Selective? The fuck does that mean?" Johnny furrowed his brow.

"No back alley hookers for one." V explained.

"Joytoys need attention too, V."

"Wait, so you'll bitch about flirting with Judy, but you're okay with back alley hookers?" She asked.

"Don't get me started on Judy," he warned, passing her the cigarette.

"Sound a little jealous there, Silverhand."

"Never been jealous before, ain't about to start." He shook his head.

V grinned and scooted closer, placing her hand on his shoulder, "don't deny it, you get all grumpy when Judy's around." 

"Don't get grumpy either." He shrugged her hand off his shoulder.

V burst out laughing, even though it hurt to do so. "When are you not grumpy?"

"All the time, just said it," he replied without hesitation.

"Liar," V said, feeling his side for another cigarette.

"Told ya smoking is bad. No more," he grumbled, pushing her hand away.

"Seriously? Your first words when you crawled out of my psyche were where are my smokes." V reached for him again.

"No more. Need to keep your health up, what's left of it." He grabbed her wrist.

"Johnny, how do you feel when you're denied smokes?" She inquired.

"Doesn't matter what I feel, this is about you." He pulled another cigarette out and lit it.

"I'm literally getting taken over by you. Give me a goddamn cigarette." She reached for the one between his lips, but he caught her arms.

"Don't make me tie you up." He was able to hold her arms back with little effort.

If V hadn't been curious about him tying her up, she would've been concerned about her lack of strength.

"You wouldn't. Plus, you need me mobile so we can destroy shit."

"Not tonight, I don't. Told you to rest," he warned again.

"I'm not tired. At least let me sit up and smoke with you," V pushed, scooting closer to him.

"You're being more annoying than usual. Upset I used your body without permission?"

"Used my body would be an understatement. You took my body for a joyride." V tried for the cigarette again, this time winning the fight.

She knew it was only because he allowed her too though.

"Got you back in one piece, didn't I?" He asked.

"Barely. I'll need a week soaking in a tub and another week to sleep." She put the cigarette up to her lips.

"Gonna have to accept sleeping on a bed stained with bodily fluids and a shower that might not work."

"You couldn't bring me to a resort?" V joked.

"I brought you here for a reason, V," he admitted without so much as a glance in her direction.

V sat up a little more, "what reason is that? Getting tetanus?" 

"Can you stand?" He turned towards her.

"Yeah, wh-"

"Come over here." He stood without explanation.

V slid off the bed and stood up slowly, letting her legs adjust for a moment before straightening up. She shuffled towards the kitchen, trying to avoid the large stains on the floor.

"Open up that cabinet and lift up the bottom board." He leaned against the wall while she carefully crouched to open it up.

"What am I lookin' for?" She asked, searching for a good spot to lift up the board.

She popped the board out and sat it to the side. She reached in and grabbed two metal dog tags on a chain.

"Are these-"

"Mine." He answered.

V sat back against the wall, turning the tags in her hands, "they've been here all this time?"

"Had to pry that board up myself," he said, stepping in front of her.

"Johnny... I- why are you giving me these?" V felt the significance of the moment right away. Johnny wouldn't do something like that if it was meaningless to him.

"Never found anyone worthy of having them, not one, until I met you, V." Johnny struggled to look up at her.

"Johnny-"

"You had to accept me coming into your life with no warning. Probably know me better than anyone ever has." He watched as she put them around her neck.

"Really didn't have much of a choice, but I'll be honest, I like having you around," V replied, letting the tags rest between her cleavage.

"Of all the people I could've ended up stuck in, I'm glad it was you." 

The softest grin played on his lips and V realized it was the first time she'd seen him genuinely smile. No hint of anger, spite, or sarcasm at all.

She could've come back with a snarky comment like their usual banter but reconsidered. She couldn't ruin the surprisingly soft side he just revealed.

"I uh... thanks, Johnny. Means a lot." She stepped closer and kissed his cheek.

Johnny tensed and V froze, both of them realizing they'd never actually been this close to one another, even though they were connected. V placed her hand on his cheek and turned towards him, hesitating before pressing her lips to his softly.

V noticed his hesitation immediately and began to pull away, but he grabbed her hips and brought her back.

"You don't have to... I- I probably shouldn't have... "

He silenced her with a soft kiss that quickly turned harsh. He grabbed the back of her neck and pulled her in closer, his lips moving perfectly against hers. When he finally released her she was in a daze, feeling like the breath had been taken from her lungs.

"Johnny, I-"

"Been curious about that." He said.

"Yeah? Why'd you wait so long?" She teased as she tried to regain her composure.

"Didn't think you wanted it. Why'd you waste your time on the cop?"

"Just can't let that go, can ya?" She laughed and leaned in for a hug.

"Never will. Still annoys me." He pulled her in and held her pressed against his chest.

"I wouldn't have fucked him had I known you wanted this." V was enjoying the softness of his touch as he ran his hands down her sides to her hips.

"Guess we need to communicate better," he said.

"And here I thought our problem was too much communication." She kissed his neck without thinking and paused, unsure if he was ready for more.

Johnny let out a soft sigh, "you need to rest."

"I'm not tired. Especially not now." V said, not moving away from him.

"Not really sure of this is a good idea." Johnny said.

"Since when do you worry about that?" V pressed her lips to his neck again.

"Since I started to like havin' you around," he admitted, but he made no move to stop you.

"Isn't that a good reason to keep going?" She pulled back, searching his expression for an answer.

"Relationships with me tend to break down once the fucking starts."

"It's not like you can leave though." V shrugged.

"Might not work out like you think." He  stood still and let her continue to kiss along his jaw.

"It might work out better than you think." V placed her hand on his chest.

"Stop and think it over before you keep doin' that, V." He let out a low grunt as she continued to kiss closer to his lips.

"Already thought about it, Johnny," she whispered, breath hot against his skin.

His hand was around her throat in an instant as he shifted their positions, pressing her back against the wall.

"Ain't no going back after. Sure you want this?" Johnny's lips were close, but just out of reach for her.

"Yes, Johnny. Tell me you don't?" She was already panting for him.

"Pretty sure you know the answer to that, V," he said softly.

"Then take what you want," she whispered, eyes darting between his eyes and lips.

"Exactly what I've always done and it usually doesn't end well."

"But not with me." V was struggling to keep from begging. 

"V-"

"Please, Johnny?" She asked softly, hoping he'd give in to what they both wanted.

He pulled her into a harsh kiss, making her moan at the sudden contact.

His hands moved down her sides to grab the hem of her tanktop and pull it over her head. The sound of his dog tags clinging as they fell back to her chest was like music to his ears.

Johnny returned his lips to hers as if he was dying for another taste. She wrapped her arms around his neck and pulled him flush against her. His hands moved down to her pants, working at the button and her belt until he could push her pants down to her knees.

He had to concentrate on being gentle with her after what happened. That wasn't his usual style, but for her, he was willing to change things up. He was finally understanding why it could be satisfying to put someone else's needs above his own. V more than deserved that, especially after he was dropped unceremoniously into her psyche.

"Damn shoes." She sighed as she worked to get them off.

"No rush, V." Johnny said as he trailed his lips down her neck.

She finally got them off and shuffled out of her pants. She pulled him close and kissed him again, needing to feel his lips against her once more.

"We're going slow. Can't have you feeling worse." He slowly walked her towards the bed and gently laid her down.

"You don't have to treat me like glass, Johnny. Not gonna break that easy."

"No doubts that you're tough, V. But you need to take it easy." He crawled on the bed and peeled her panties off, settling between her thighs.

"Just relax," he said as he lowered his head and slid his tongue up her cunt.

V inhaled sharply at the feeling of his tongue flicking over her clit.

"Fuck, Johnny." She squirmed.

"Still, V." He ordered and ducked his head back down to focus on eating her out.

She gripped the sheets beneath her and tried to stay still, but it was proving to be a lot harder than she thought.

The only sounds in the room were her shallow breaths and the faint sound of Johnny's tongue lapping at her clit.

The bed creaked beneath her the harder he pressed her into the mattress.

"Johnny..." V panted for him the closer she got to coming.

"Let go for me, V." Johnny said.

She held on as long as she could, not ready for it to end.

"Don't be stubborn, V," he said, breath warm against her skin.

"You're the stubborn one, Johnny, remember?" She moaned as she squirmed beneath him.

Johnny grinned and dove back in, moving his tongue faster and easing two fingers into her. V bucked and writhed  until she couldn't hold on any longer.

"Fuck... don't stop- right there." She moaned loudly as she came.

#johnny silverhand #johnny x v #cyberpunk 2077 #the joytoys write

[apocalypseornaw]

About Time

*Not my Gif* Sam finally admits he's in love with you. (Some nsfw)

The day Sam met you was a trial by fire sort of thing. Him and Dean needed a couple extra hands on a hunt so Bobby had sent you and your cousin their way. Your cousin was only a couple years older than Dean so the two of them teamed up leaving you with Sam. He was impressed from the start because you managed to finesse the local fuzz in a way that Dean wouldn't even be able to. 

On the hunt itself you held your own against the nest of vamps and ended up even carrying one of the more injured victims out yourself. Your cousin just shook her head when him and Dean told you they could've went back for the girl "She thinks she's wonder woman. I swear this girl is either gonna be the death of me or end up ruling hell" Dean bought you a beer afterwards, Sam was hooked.

Over the years you kept in contact with Sam and Dean then when your cousin died you ended up starting to hunt more often with them and eventually took their offer of a bedroom in the bunker. You and Dean had quickly become best friends, same as you and Cas. Sam had been harboring feelings for you for years that only got worse living in close quarters with you.

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You'd been living in the bunker for a couple months when one morning Sam got back from his run to overhear you talking to Dean in the kitchen "Dean either he doesn't look at me like that or he is the most oblivious man on the face of this earth" you'd recently split from a guy you'd been seeing off and on so he didn't want to get his hopes up until Dean said "That's where it helps having the guy who's known him since birth on your side sweetheart and standford or no standford Sammy doesn't really take subtle well. Just tell him how you feel because I've listened to him talk about you for years. I've heard him cuss every guy you've ever dated. He feels the same"

He headed to his room to act as if he hadn't heard any of the conversation. When he walked into the library after a shower you were sitting at one of the long tables looking over a lore book and glanced up when he walked in "Hey Sam" he smiled "Good morning Y/N. Where's Dean this early?" you held up a half of a glass of orange juice "It was his turn to go on a supply run and we're out of coffee" 

He walked over to sit down next to you and tilted the book you were reading to see the front of it "Enochian?" You shrugged "Figured it'd come in handy if I could translate at least a few words if Cas wasn't around?" "That's smart" he said with a smile and realized just how close he was sitting to you when you moved to face him and your hair brushed his shoulder "Sam, can I ask you something?" your eyes widening told him you hadn't realized the close proximity either "Of course" he held your gaze and watched you nip at the tip of your thumb which was something you did when you were nervous no matter how rare that situation was "Do you wanna go out with me?"

He reached to pull your hand away from your mouth and smiled when you tracked his movements with your eyes "I'd love to"

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That friday you and Sam headed out to a local bar that Dean said served decent enough food. Hell Dean had even let you take baby out which was a rare thing indeed.

You walked into the bar behind Sam and smiled when he reached back to grab your hand "C'mon sweetheart" he pulled you towards a booth in the corner. You slid in first and he slid in after you. You glanced around and saw that a live band was setting up, the bar itself looked clean and with a normal enough crowd. 

After the waitress took your order Sam turned towards you "Why are we nervous? We've known each other for years" You shrugged "I don't know. Maybe we should go ahead and kiss and get that out of the way?" he laughed lightly then said "That actually sounds like a good idea" you leaned up to touch your lips against his in a quick kiss that quickly deepened when he pulled you into his lap. Your hands went to his shoulders to steady yourself when you felt his tongue flick across your lips asking for entrance so you opened your mouth slightly and had to stifle a moan when you felt his tongue slide into your mouth moving against yours. 

His hands slipped under your shirt and a low moan escaped you at the feeling of his hands on your skin. The waitress clearing her throat broke the two of you apart. You never broke eye contact with Sam when you threw a twenty down and said "That'll pay for the drinks, cancel our food please" she simply took the money and walked away with a laugh. 

You climbed out of his lap then grabbed his hand "Suddenly I'm not hungry, how about you?" His eyes ran across your body before he finally said "Not for food"

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The ride back to the bunker felt longer than it ever been. You were trying not to distract Sam but god you'd finally felt his lips on yours and was wondering what they would feel like on other body parts.

About halfway back he finally pulled off the road and killed the lights. When you shot him a look he raised an eyebrow "Come here" you quickly straddled his lap feeling how hard he already was underneath you. "Do you want to wait until we get back?" He asked kissing your neck and down to your collarbone pushing your shirt down further to give him access to more skin. "Who says we can't have another round once we get to a bed?"

He chuckled against your skin "I like that answer" he moved his hands to the seam of your shirt and you moved to let him pull it over your head. "I've wanted this for a long time" he whispered letting his tongue run across the top of your bared breasts. You let your head fall back with a moan as he sucked gently on the skin there. "Sam, is there enough room?" he glanced up at you and you realized your choice of words "I mean in the front seat?"

He thought about it for a moment then pulled back "Get in the back" you climbed off his lap and climbed across the seat while he stepped out then opened the back door to climb in with you. You laid back on the seat and curled your finger at him "Come here Winchester" he pulled his shirt over his head then climbed up you leaving a trail of kisses on every inch of exposed skin. When he got to your mouth the kiss was hungry but gentle. He rolled his hips against your and a groan left his lips when you moaned at the movement. "We really need these jeans off" you laughed so he leaned back up far enough to help you slip off your jeans and boots then kicked his own off.

He spread your legs then licked his lips "God you're beautiful" you felt a slight wave of embarrassment at being completely bared and must have moved to cover yourself because he caught both of your hands in one of his "Nope, I want to see every inch of you baby" there was soo much sincerity in his voice you relaxed and he smiled "Now lay back. If I do anything you don't like tell me ok?" You nodded and he lowered his head leaving kisses up your left leg until he got to where you needed the most attention "Sam" you moaned when he licked into you curling his tongue up against that sensitive spot.

You could feel an orgasm building and gripped his hair as your breathing quickened. He added two fingers in with his tongue and that was all it took. You came with a moan of his name on your lips. He worked you through the orgasm then kissed his way back up your body. When he got to your lips he caught your mouth in a hard kiss allowing you to taste yourself on him "Please fuck me Sam" you moaned and he smiled against your lips "Yes ma'am"

When he slid into you, you bit your lip against the stretch. Once he was fully inside of you he stilled letting you adjust to him. "Are you ok?" he asked kissing your neck and chest. You nodded after a moment and tapped his hips "Move Sam" he started to roll his hips against yours every movement rubbing against that spot deep inside of you "God damn Sam" you moaned and he laughed "I'll take that as a compliment" you knew from the angle and pace he wouldn't be able to come easily so after a few moments you urged him "You can go harder Sam you won't hurt me"

He started to thrust harder and you felt your eyes roll back as that building pressure burst again. "Fuck Y/N you're so damn beautiful taking me like that baby. Ugh you're squeezing me hard enough I can barely move" he groaned biting down on your breast hard enough you knew there'd be a mark there come morning. "Sam oh fuck please tell me you're close" you begged and he nodded hitting even deeper inside of you.

When you felt his hips shudder you knew he was close. "I'm close baby" he whispered and you gripped his shoulders when you felt him come emptying inside of you. He thrust a few more times before collapsing against you moving just enough to make sure you could breath fine. "Fuck why did we wait so long to do that?" you asked with a laugh kissing his tattoo since it was closest to your lips. "I don't know but I look forward to doing it again" "And again?" you asked pulling him to you for a kiss.

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Luckily Dean was asleep by the time you two got back so he didn't see both of you come in carrying your shoes, Sam only wearing jeans and you wearing Sam's shirt. You dropped your pile of clothes in your room then headed to Sam's room with him. The night was far from over.

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A couple weeks later Dean and Cas had ran into town to grab supplies so you were sitting at one of the tables in the library looking over news articles to make sure there was nothing near by that needed attention. Sam stood there watching you for the longest, your hair was falling out of your bun and you were chewing on the end of your pen. He'd never seen a more beautiful sight.  You glanced up after a moment and grinned "I'm literally your wallpaper on your phone so if you wanna stare you have pictures"

"I love you Y/N" he said so easily and didn't even think twice about it until your smile fell. "I um I mean it's ok if you don't feel the same. I just wanted to tell you" but you cut him off by grabbing his hand to pull him closer "Sam! calm down" when he finally stopped talking you laughed "I love you too. I have for a while"

You heard clapping and looked up to see Dean at the bottom of the steps "About damn time" Cas looked around him "I tried to get him to not eavesdrop" you laughed again "Don't worry Cas I'm used to it"

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My thoughts on 139 as an Ereri shipper

Buckle up for a long read and some unpopular opinions haha. Feel free to add on/ correct me but this is only how I feel so take it with a pinch of salt, I'm not asking anyone to change how they feel because we're all feeling some feels right now and your grief is valid. I just really wanna talk about the chapter before I go back to my Yaoi ship. (Forgive my grammar errors and all I wrote this at 5am and I'll probably come back and fix the spelling and stuff later today)

Thoughts on ch 139:

Well... here we are guys. The last chapter, it's been one hell of a ride and even though I have only been a part of the community for three years I'm still sad it ended. (Not to mention it finished 4 days before my birthday but that's just an extra oof) I keep seeing a lot of Mikasa hate and even though I used to despise her this chapter really got me thinking and damn, she's definitely one of the strongest characters (second to Levi at least in terms of resolve but hey I'm biased lol) she killed the person she loved, who pushed her away time and time again, and until the very end wanted to save him yet she was the one who ended it all. I doubt I could do that if my girlfriend was doing something similar... but I guess most people are like that. I admit, when I read the chapter at work I began crying in the break room, not because the ending caught me off guard, it was about what I was expecting, but I'm still sad Eren died. All this stuff was foreshadowed through especially the last few chapters and I kind of hopped into the manga around when Zeke blew Levi up, and even then... I feel like I knew this would be how it turned out some time last year? It was mostly predictable since this story, from it's inception, has done nothing but break the shonen stereotype time and time again and this was just the kind of ending that would shatter the mould and make it worthy of that moniker. Now am I happy that Eremika is canon? Not really, in fact not at all I'm mad. Although tbh it's not that I really expected a same sex, age gap relationship to be canon in mainstream manga, but this is what fan fiction is made for right? Besides as much as this manga has challenged or straight up ignored it's very obvious what the intended ship was going to be from the start. Even still the confession at the end by Eren is honestly OOC from most of everything else he's said/done and feels forced but, 🤷🏻‍♀️ like... the ending would have been better if Eren's feelings stayed vague so we could come to our own conclusion. If I had my way I'd have Eren confessing to Levi and they'd run off to live in secret but again... that isn't how it ended and I'm accepting that even if I don't like it. (Plus I can read/write a fanfic of a 'better' ending to make myself feel better) but I'm glad I stuck around for such a bitter sweet end.

Eren's character:

Now I love Eren as much as anyone else, but I see lots of people crying "character assassination" and I feel this personally isnt true at least not completely. We're all grieving right now and I know he was so cute and lovable at the start (hell in a way he still is) but this has always been his character. He is the one who most desperately yearns for freedom because feels trapped by his fate more than anyone else. The line "I felt like I had to and I let myself get caught up in the flow" is proof he *knows* he isn't free despite his father's reassurance, and his own repetition of the phrase. There's a common phenomenon with mantras or the practice of repeating something over and over in your head, the more you say it, *the less you believe it* and IMHO Eren never really felt free from the start. He knew his fate was sealed and he probably could have, no... *should* have acted differently yet he himself couldn't change what fate had in store. He just kept moving forward for no other reason than he wanted to save Mikasa, Armin, and his people. He (may have?) sacrificed Carla, not to serve as motivation, but so that he could save Armin later on by eating the Colossal titan instead of burning to death. It must have been a heart wrenching choice to make but he cares for his friends more than anyone else. He gave them a fighting chance and his death gave the alliance a good name so the world (or the 20% left of it) would see they aren't the same as him. Of course I'm thinking, "What if he had Dina free Carla or just let her eat Bert I mean Grisha probably would have passed on the Attack titan to Eren even if Carla had lived," but Armin very well could've died in another way or things could've turned out so much worse for everyone else. But even if Eren hates his choice I think something to note here is he doesn't seem to regret it, taking some of Levi's advice with him to the grave (quite literally) Plus you guys have to remember he died at 19 years old, that is *young* and I may only be a few years older but 18-21 is a huge period of change and you wont make the best choices, he's dealing with all that on top of the memories of the other titan holders, and the founding titan which I think really messed with him more than anything. He even says he only wants to live 10 more years ;-; the poor thing deserved a full life too even if his perception of time is warped and he never got a chance to become an adult.

The aftermath:

Well, everyone seems happy for the most part which is great! The one thing that I didn't expect was for the ending to be bitter sweet rather than total annihilation. Historia really does seem... fuck it I don't know and this is the part that bugs me most is she never really got the ending she deserved and felt kinda... forgotten? It's hard to tell but I think she ended up loving her child in the end... maybe... she's smiling while holding her... right? Levi is out beyond the walls and he may be wheelchair bound and half blind but he's still alive! Now this is honestly my saving grace here I mean god imagine him surviving a literal bomb only to die such a lame and pointless death in the last chapter. My boy made it through everything though and he's still got them dad vibes with Gabi and Falco which is kinds sweet... but I still hate Gabi. I still really hate Gabi, but it's nice to see that they're all somewhat okay. (Plus okay... Eren Canonically being reborn as a bird is kinda hilarious yet fitting since he got his freedom... Parasitic Jaeger haha good one Isayama.) Who knows if the war will ever end, heck Isayama himself said this is only the begining and while the fight goes on they have a chance thanks to Eren sacrificing himself the way he did. He could've made so many other choices and I don't know what could've/would've been better. Maybe Isayama knows but time travel and altering the past opens a whole ass can of worms that is just... like the killing your grandpa paradox kinda thing and if I were writing this story I wouldn't wanna try and deal with that either, especially after writing one story for eleven years.

(LEVI LIVED MY BEST BOI LIVED WHOOOO YESS 😭😭😭 ALL I COULD ASK FOR AHHH) *cough* sorry I had some crying fan girl in me that demanded to be seen too

Anyways this was just my thoughts for now, I may eventually write more and hell I'll probably go back to sweet sweet denial myself, posting contradictions because dammit I love my ereri too much and some people have good points or some posts are just funny in general. Have a good day, stay safe, and we are all in this together <3 Thanks for reading all the way if you did! (And here's a good meme to lighten the mood too)