#to experience the nature of existence

[amazythelsblogs]

Hey Olara, how many fish in the sea?

There is an infinite amount of fish in the sea, because the number is subject to perception! You can count how many fish there are in a pond, but because of nature of the sea, the fact that you would have to catch every fish once you have counted it, you can't dertermine a concrete amount of fish that are in the sea, they are constantly evolvng, constantly multiplying, and constantly moving. As so do possibilities in life. Your realities are infinite, becaus ethere are infinite amount of outcomes, triggers and present moments, that you cannot fully, consciously perceive ervy possible outcome, unless you were a being existing on a higher dimensional plane, where it is able to comprehend while remaining grounded in the centre, many, if not many infinites, at once. So you may ask how many fish there are, in a precise, to-the-milisecond space/time vaccum, but you cannot possibly ask the open ended question, of how many fish there are in the sea. Which sea? Which fish? What does 'many' mean to you? These are the type of tedious but crucial questions you must ask yourself, before all else. This is what shapes your perception on reality. This is what shapes who you are. This is what shapes how to choose, what you choose, and when you come into alignment to make that choice. Once you have chosen, you are. In the devine flow.

And so. That is One of my many answers. Which each comes from one source. Each steming, looping back to the same one concept. Which is this concept? Why is it there? Who put there? Why are you learning this? Why are you reading this, still? There is something that you are sensing, aware of, know of, but don't yet quite remember, or perhpas know but shy away from, what is that thing? Reality Bender. What is that thing? It is you. Only You. Always has been You.

Don't try to pin yourself. Or place your thoughts into a box. To get stuck in a certain way of thinking for the rest of your existence. Open your mind up. See beyond the lines. The net. the colour, light and shadow. See into your own truth.

The Basis of reality, is that everything is. Swirling yet stillness in possibility. Until you reach out and touch it, until you make the conscious choice to bring it, welcome it, align it into your present reality, presnt way of being.

There are infinite ways I could have answered your question. And yet, I answered it as I did. Why is that? Why is this message so specific, so perfect, before I have even completed my sentence? Why do the words flow so perfectly, the ideas, the concepts. Why?

Why am I here?

#tolearn #to remember #to blossom #to experience the nature of existence #to be baller

[uncanny-tranny]

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #trans meme #described images #image description in alt #this goes for ANY reason a trans person is on the 'wrong' hormones for their gender... #...whether it is by chance or choice it need not be excluded. there are no 'right' hormones for your gender or experience... #...if you're a trans person who is fine with your body's natural hormone levels that's FINE... #...or if you're a trans person who chose to take the 'wrong' hormones (again there's no wrong hormone)... #...or if you're just fucking EXISTING... #...you belong here. even if there are commonalities between trans people amd what hormones they do or don't take that's just a commonality. #...that by NO MEANS indicates that you must adhere one way or the other if you so choose... #...two things can exist at once: 1) hormones are a necessity and 2) people are allowed to go on whatever hormone they want #my testosterone is a NECESSITY it isn't something i can choose to take. but that doesn't mean that i am threatened by trans people... #...who exist how they do

[soullessjack]

love it when the autistic experience of not fully belonging anywhere and always being on the fringes of whatever community you find yourself in. of masking to belong even slightly and still knowing that you don’t really Belong and that the people you surround yourself with Don’t Really Care about you and being the butt of a joke you don’t understand and being in your own little bubble, not as a safe space but as a result of being isolated from everyone else because no matter where you are you are autistic and you just can’t belong, is replicated in fandom spaces. in spaces for things you love and enjoy. love that so much

#cal.txt #this is about many things #autism #autism posting #autistic experiences #naturally this is about babyjack and jacks entire fandom treatment but again. it’s also about many other things #spn #spn fandom #jack kline #autistic jack kline #autistic representation #online spaces #fandom spaces #tiktok #actually autistic #lolcow #im just in a bad mood and rambling I think. sorryyyy lol #like. jackgirls don’t even exist to the other —Girls in the fandom we have no standing here we are all in our own bubble #and it’s nice to have something to yourself but not when it’s only a result of outward isolation #idk #I am. not feeling great today #I haven’t been feeling great in a while . awesome love thatc #the horrors never cease #sorry yea this is me feeling like utter garbage ab the divide between —girls in the spn fandom but also me hating the world that I live in #this is what happens when I can’t sit under the hot shower and let the water hit my limp body (pressure gauge broke)

[ghost-bxrd]

Fae Dick meeting Talon Dick. How do you think that would go?

catastrophically, actually 😭

Fae!Dick would take one look at Talon!Dick and know. Know he’s unnatural. Wrong. Not in the way fae!dick is wrong, but something… something isn’t right with him. Somehow there’s an air of nothing about him. Like the world tries to shrink away from talon!dick, like the absolute absence of natural life.

He knows this version of himself got twisted from something human to something that is human-adjacent only in the vaguest sense of the word.

And he doesn’t like it.

Talon!dick would have a similar epiphany, but more in a “this guy is dangerous” sense. Dangerous enough to be a threat to them all. To Jason.

And… well, we all know talon!dick doesn’t take kindly to that last part lol.

I think they’d end up attacking each other because they perceive the other as a THREAT (all in caps). And it would take Talon!Dick’s Jason to stop it and at least one of fae!dick’s family.

#look one is a creature of nature #the purest form of life and chaos and balance that exists in the world #and the other is an experiment that got injected with a chemical that changed his genetic makeup #it’s a match made in hell lol #I don’t think they’d ever get along #but they’d call a ceasefire for their family #owl song #fae dick grayson #talon dick grayson #ghost talks

[edge-oftheworld]

'shallow hearts for shallow minds that ache to be alive' the chokehold you have on me

#literally keep finding new relevance for this one line #like. in my life. in christianity; surprisingly. in the way it kinda resolves the bridge of starting line on luke's part #we fall apart and redefine what keeps you up at night->also that #basically this is just an incredible bridge all around. a true pivotal point #like. just existing in a world of people who prefer to stay in a fraction of the depth you (read: I) naturally do and trying to be myself #all through that. not letting having to conform rob me of my own existence and experiences and the fact that not everyone sees everything #it doesn't make it any less real #why are we not talking about this song more in our predictions for lh2? #take my hand #5sos5 #luke hemmings #5sos #5 seconds of summer

[toomking]

"I loved you like the sun."

[[I did a style study of @alenseress and tried to emulate his artstyle (especially to learn from his line and expression work) :] I'm a stubborn single brush user and this is helping me break out ]]

Geto: “Instead I made a bed with apathy. My heart knew the weight. Ten years worth of dust and neglect. We made our peace with weariness and let it be.”

Gojo: “I want to feel the fire that you kept from me.”

if you're insane put this on shuffle, I swear by it:

#satosugu #gojo satoru #geto suguru #jjk gojo #jjk geto #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #geto is gojo's sun #gojo is geto's moon #and that DOES exist simultaneously with #gojo works the 9 to 5 and geto has the nightshift #Geto: “the moon will sing a song for me” #the moon (gojo) singing “I loved you like the sun” #The Moon Will Sing by The Crane Wives #i NEED to incorporate words into my work more this was liberating #i LOOOVVVEEEE his colors and I made sure not to color pick because I'm trying to work on that but still tried to get the same general tones #but gradient map still carries my ass so #he is the digital artist who inspires me the most #his line work and COMPOSITIONS and EXPRESIONSSSS it all gives such a natural human feeling #emotion!!! it expresses human emotion and experiences- #i have so much to learn 🫡 #also omg alen seress' merlin au's are just SO *chef's kiss* #art #Spotify

[crescentfool]

having the hc that minato is ace is incredibly funny sometimes when you think about how ryoji is oh so very bi because it's like. "ah. death stole my ability to be attracted to people," in the same way that ryoji stole minato's eye color and energy level. like wow, thanks ryoji, you just keep finding things to steal from minato!

#persona 3 spoilers #minato arisato #hc and au nonsense #lizzy speaks #happy international asexuality day to my fellow aces out there i hope you know that you are loved!!! 🎊🎉🥳 #i like viewing minato with the lens of him being gay / ace. esp bc it stems from my own experiences so it's fun to look at- #him from that perspective even if that's not what was intended by atlus y'know? #and im sure others have other hcs from me that are informed by their own life experiences and i think that's great ^_^ #something that i found interesting while playing FES was how. stilted? minato's animations felt when hugging the girls #you could definitely go with the perspective that it's a graphical limitation or they didn't have time to polish the animations #and that's def true!! but sometimes i see the hug @ yakushima beach + the other hugs and then i compare it to the sou/yo hug in p4 #and there's like... a noticeable difference to me with how intimate and close together the hugs are... #that said i do know that the animations for reload are updated and the hugs are much more natural (good on them tbh!) #the other thing is (pensive sigh). the way you couldn't reject any of the girls when doing their social links in FES #objectively speaking i'm glad that they did away with that and i like how the rejections were handled in reload. it feels naturally written #but also a part of me enjoyed looking at the “hey atlus what the FUCK” moment and thought of how to interpret it differently #specifically with the idea of minato having like.. little to no autonomy and kind of going along with the relationship #it kind of reminded me of myself tbh with like going along with the rship without considering what you want bc #it's what others want or expect out of you... LOL. i dont think atlus intended for someone to interpret it this way but #eh i think that's the fun part of hcs and looking at characters with certain lenses! #regardless of how you perceive minato i do think there's something to be said about him being the kind of guy who molds himself- #into someone that is needed. not wanted. but needed. important distinction here. #the one caveat my brain runs into when im like “minato is ace!” is when i remember thanatos exists and i go #“you know what these ideas can exist simultaneously” GKLHFHDFHD when in doubt schrodinger's headcanons #anyway that's all i've had this thought in my brain in awhile and haven't sat down to share it properly until now 👍 #have an excellent weekend everyone !!! lizzy loves you all lets all nurture our inner yippee!!! 🥺💙

[vvitchering]

If anyone tries to tell me baldur’s gate 3 isn’t an authentic dnd experience I will tell them about how my sorcerer tried to misty step across a lava lake to get to an item, failed 8 rolls to unlock the box it was in, and then tried to misty step back to the rest of the party only to run out of spell slots halfway. He fortunately had a scroll of misty step on him. He unfortunately had a wild magic episode the second he landed and entangled himself in vines and then set the whole party on fire.

#from what I understand this is as authentic an experience as one can have with dnd #it was so frustrating but so funny I cried laughing #like bro is so high and mighty about his natural magical gifts #and yet he keeps having these wild magic attacks and doing himself and the party harm #I’m having so much fun with this stupid game #and my stupid tav #bg3 #it’s worth mentioning I 100% could have just used a waypoint to get back #I simply ✨forgot they existed✨

[carpathxanridge]

what’s so funny is this spirituality drama was started by a person that basically posted “i don’t understand why some radical feminists don’t believe in witchcraft or don’t even show an interest in it” on the website of literalist blunt skeptical women who read the words “i don’t understand” and go “ok let me explain.” and then upon receiving a bunch of answers explaining exactly why many of us are critical of spirituality, was like “wow they’re attacking my beliefs, they don’t get what spirituality means to ME” when yall are the ones saying you literally think it is sad and closed-minded for us to not entertain spirituality in our OWN feminism and personal belief systems, and making all of these masturbatory posts about how uniquely enlightened you are because of your spirituality. and then you go on wondering why so many of us hate “woo woo” shit

#really should never have said “i don’t understand” which implies opening a dialogue #should’ve instead said “i believe that radfems who won’t entertain spirituality are closed-minded” #if that’s already your stance #and it’s like okay you think i’m close minded for my atheism #you and literally every christian i’ve met #‘why won’t you entertain belief in god? can’t you admit that you at least don’t know?’ #okay but then you ALSO don’t know and yet you choose to believe…. #i’m sorry that i’m incapable of manifesting even an ounce of genuine feeling or questioning about the existence of a spiritual realm #you can go on thinking it’s sad but i will also go on thinking it’s sad (and stupid) that you feel you NEED spirituality #to experience wonder or connection with nature or to think deeply about our purpose in this world

[alevolpe]

your hc on the tiaras being the eyes of serenity makes me wonder if you have any hc about the planetary symbols on the foreheads aside from it being the natural state

Mmh, let’s see. Not particularly I guess, if anything I think I’d take away stuff from canon.

Like in canon is implied that the symbol appears when a senshi “needs help” or “is willing to help”, I don’t have that, cause that would imply the symbols inherently being tied to the team rather than to the individual, or it could mean that the senshis are inherently born to be tied in a connection where they would need this type of almost instinctual communication engrained into their being in the first place.

The ladder isn’t an inherently bad idea and I think you could go very interesting places with it, but I just haven’t gotten that far.

That really cuts to the question of: what is a senshi? Why do they exit and what is their purpose? And I know we have an answer in canon, but I don’t particularly love it, so I’m reworking the whole structure from the ground up.

In the general sense though, the symbols just stand as a way of identifying if one is a senshi or not. A weird analogy I have for it is like the red markings on a black widow, tho in the senshis’ case it doesn’t necessarily mean they’re a threat and the symbols is a warning. The symbol just is, as far as we know, and it’s prob not as easy to understand as the red markings on a spider.

#ask me stuff #The existence of the senshi is a very interesting topic to think about #I don’t hate the canon answer about them #But I don’t like the implications of the senshis being an inherently good force #And chaos being the inherent evil #I think there’s a better way to do this that reflects our own universe #I like the idea of balance but nature and the universe don’t distinguish good and evil #Prey and predator are both equally vital to the ecosystem #Nothing but our own biased morals influence us to think that the prey is any less “evil” than the predator and yet #Most stories feature predators as villains or evil #Coming back to sm what canon does is telling me straight up that the predator is the evil one and that prey is good #When that just isn’t true #Chaos is a very abstract and sort of nonsensical idea of an evil force #Cause chaos itself isn’t an inherently bad thing #We just think it is cause of our own human morals and experiences #Hell without that we wouldn’t have even the idea of chaos #How can “the universe” even distinguish between what is “chaos” and what is “not chaos” #And if it does would that imply the existence a conscience inside of the empty abstract idea of “the universe”

[visualnovelboyfriend]

yeah i havw to be totally honest people acting like DID is such a hardset 'everyones a persecutor protector little caregiver etc' did somuch fucking damage to me LMFAO. i get that thesw labels can be useful for some people i aslo use them as shorthand wehn i need to but like mannnn... learning not to relegate my alters to wahtever i expect from them and just letting them do their own shit has been a lot easier and healthier for me tbh.

#no disrespect to those who find these terms gneuienly helpful we all experience it differently #but from my personal experiences i found taht using these labels limited us really badly #adn made us feel obligated to fulfill these roles rahter than these being roles that we naturally existed as #just letting us be whateever has led to an improved existecne. though that coincided w therapy so maybe that helped too

[dufrau]

gonna spend all day braising a pot roast today even though my taste buds are still only firing at like 50% because andrei will still be able to appreciate it and also because i like cooking even if i can't entirely enjoy the results.

#mainly i think i cant taste sugar? #so like obviously sweet things are very weird tasting right now #i had a cinnamon bun last night and it was just cinnamon and butter to me #also andrei got me an iced coffee from the banh mi place the other day #and i took a sip and was like what the fuck is this??? #because it was so intensely bitter #but then i was like ohhhh this is probably sweetened vietnamese coffee only i cant taste the sugar lol #but also the natural sweetness that exists in almost everything isnt coming through so its like im not getting the full experience #there's just a lot of nuance missing #last time it took me probably like 2 months to fully regain my sense of taste

[dilfkuza]

thought a little too long about what readjusting to being in each other's lives again must have been like for Majima and Saejima. coming back to one of the only people you still have left only to realize they're not the person you had to leave behind. the commadarie is there, but in a new font because you lived an entire life away from each other. how long did it take for Majima to ease up on the Mad Dog persona around Saejima, to register that he was still safe and wouldn't be taken away from him again?

only for Saejima to go back to jail and set them back to square one, adding another name to the list of people that Majima is patiently waiting for. another hand holding the leash that grounds him because they're all he really cares about at this point, Tojo be damned. how long did it take for Saejima to learn how to navigate the minefield that is the Mad Dog? how many times did Majima metaphorically bare his teeth and fight against someone seeing under the mask? it would be safe to let him in, it's just his Taiga, but for almost 30 years raising his hackles is what he's known best.

and how many times did Saejima push through regardless, because despite the showmanship and the decades lost, that's still his kyoudai.

#you know that post about bringing the wife back from the dead but shes not the same? #that but Majima's near death experience in the Hole/Saejima's decades lost being institutionalised #both were forever marked by their situations while their idea of each other remained frozen in the 1980s. #the constant they assumed they could come back to no longer exists and something new has to be built out of the rubble #a stranger wearing the face of a loved one. interactions that should be second nature suddenly foreign. #is this a word salad or does this infact make sense? your guess is as good as mine lmao #currently so eepy. allergies knocking my ass out got me feelin like Majima when he thought he was goin zombie #need to rest my head gently on Saejima's tummy so i can get that cartoon snork mimimi honk shoo honk shoo sleep goin on #majima goro #saejima taiga #bulletin board #saemaji

[ajdrawshq]

sometimes i cant help but think about the enemy pokemon u find in mystery dungeons and the in-universe reasons for why theyre Like That. like. i know we have a bunch of examples in each game for pokemon that attack u for various reasons (misunderstandings, guarding something, gone berserk from outside influence, just an asshole, etc) but whats going on with the hundreds of mons that spawn INSIDE the mystery dungeons. like those things are already weird even though theyre well known by most residents and they appear pretty much anywhere but theres tons of pokemon that straight up live in those places. and while some have good reason to wander and attack intruders there, some are just. why. why are there Enemy Pokemon in a Mystery Dungeon next to a School. who are you people.

#and like . ok pmd1 mons are influenced by the natural disasters pmd2 are influenced by time pmd3 by despair and pmd4 by. despair again ? #but theyre still like. sentient. right. #also the fact that there are canonically criminals in the pmd world but wheres the line between that and residents of a mystery dungeon #closest thing i can think of that vaguely answers any of this is the spiritomb from the dark future but even thats an extreme AND rare case #it feels like a weird cross between animals just being animals in nature and then. society and everything that comes w that #why are there even cops in pmd anyway.. #more importantly why is there a mystery dungeon next to the school. was it already there when they built the school #or did they somehow generate one???????? theres no way right #why did they think that was a good idea. mystery dungeons are famously dangerous and these mons are like yknow whatd be great #what if we took a bunch of 10 year olds (maximum.) and let them explore one of the most dangerous things known to monkind #yeah thatll be a nice fun learning experience . #< psmd is so goddamn weird (i love it tho i swear) #i would love to know what mystery dungeons would be like without all the game mechanics..... #some of them wouldnt have floors necessarily like the forests n stuff but some would.. the ever-changing layout still applies tho.. #would traps be a thing. or random items just laying around #would kecleon shops even exist inside dungeons realistically. i feel like thatd be awful for business #no no going back to the fuckin school thing. theres literal groups OFFICIAL groups of pokemon made specifically to traverse the dungeons #like most pokemon dont casually wander around those things unless they live there. so why on earth is there one for the SCHOOL #pmd

[worldsquietestjojosfan]

and J and T 👀

J - Name a fandom you didn’t think about until you saw it all over Tumblr. (You don’t have to care about it or follow it; it just has to be something that Tumblr made you aware of.)

OK so you know these guys

Tim and Moby from Brainpop. I didn't know they had a fandom until I saw someone making a dating sim and there was a good amount of people hyped and i was like

Wait

Yeah! HELL yeah!!

I get it now. I wonder how that fandom is doing. Hope they're well.

T - Do you have any hard and fast headcanons that you will die defending? 

Not really strong headcanons 🤔 maybe it is actually

Hmmmmm

- wwx is close to jiang siblings but still only adopted into the clan (despite everything jfm wanted)

- lsz is not adopted by lwj, just taken in to be adopted into the clan

Anything that's approximately those kind of cases, I have the same ideas about

WAIT JUST KIDDING

I HAVE ONE

I cannot believe at all

That nmj didn't die a virgin. In Canon. I badly want him to be a virgin and not only that. The type that never learned because he wasn't told to do it and by the time the elders wanted him to marry and reproduce, he has too much of a backlog with nhs to focus on that. He'll do it after nhs becomes independent

This one

Come on. Please. Someone who became sect leader young and in an environment like the nie clan? Duty must be at his core. Also it's funny. Nmj learn sex Ed with nhs. I'm saying a lot of words but saying nothing. But you gotta hear me. Call it too much projection but when you're the first born son, right? AND the heir to the sect? AND an older brother. You've got all these roles to fulfill. And then you're now upgraded to SECT LEADER? HELP-- now you've got like 600 new main quests added and they're all time bound. Like no way there's nobody trying to usurp a wholeass child. So he gotta stop all these crackass adults from finessing him while running a sect finances, social instability, political instability. He's got a baby brother at home. He himself has to develop for like 5 different roles too and uphold sect image and keep relations with other sects. It's like taking a college entrance exam in 5th grade suddenly.

I'm not able to explain what I mean. But you feel the vibes?

Ehhhh I'm lying I don't have any die hard headcanons. I don't think so. This is the strongest one tho.

#some words #im not neutral i swear i just cant make up my mind #i say i dont have strong headcanons but the top 2 im with strongly #i wont say anymore im not trying to get cancelled over 'what is incest' discourse again HAH #man i love talking thank you #nmj is my doll. i love shoving things into him. life experiences #girls look at this 2 meter tall ox of a man and go 'literally me' #bruh when i was supposed to be taking sex ed i was being prepped how to prevent the government from seizing our assets #how is learning safe sex gonna help me raise a pre-existing child? #how about i dont pay attention and just never have sex. thats one less task from my task list #and then my brothers highschool required a guardian to give the talk. #i told him he'd die if he had sex but its natural to want so he can think about it instead of gaming for entertainment #see i didnt listen. i was busy ok. so the only thing i caught on was the fact that STDs exist and something about people dying #i genuinely thought people were risking death for sex and thats why its considered sacred #and before that i thought you could only have sex once in your life and it was a soul binding ritual thats why they say no sex before marry

[mejomonster]

You know how Google now gives tons of ads as the first results when you search, and sometimes gives nothing fully relevant to what you searched at all?

Solutions:

1. The quickest, switch to Bing or DuckDuckGo which so far don't use the direct you to ads method as much, and should give results about as relevant as before Google went to shit. There will still be ad results, but the results will be somewhat closer to what you were actually searching for

2. Please check out searx.space and just try ANY of the linked search sites, bookmark this searx link or any of its search sites that work for you. I found search.ononoki.org through it, and ononoki is life changing to me. Suddenly I search and get an actual answer for the top result (not an ad thats only semi related to my search terms), and I get a ton of other results that actually are about the terms I searched, and I get a list of suggested search terms that may give me things I'm looking for. I tried looking up specific method language learning materials on here, and got Exactly the kind of sites I actually needed (and the books I was looking for but needed to find again) whereas on Google last week I couldn't find Any of that information. I was also able to sort by if I was looking for sites or specific files! I'm begging you if you want good relevant search results that actually give you something you're trying to find, consider checking out the search sites linked on searx.space

#rant #resources #reference #web reference #websites #search #search reference #please reblog this PLEASE check out searx.space #its fucking eons better. eons. i was so goddamn thankful to find Chinese By The Nature Method linked!!! #which i own in physical copy but was trying to find an online seller of it again. and google wouldnt even act like that book existed! #cause its from 1930 and google cant advertize a used book like new gimmick sites #so anyway im begging. change ur internet experience. use a better search site