#though tbf i never have

[wannaremember]

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#i don't know how ill manage anything if what im anxious about happening does happen #and unfortunately i think it will #i hate everything so much #and i wish i was able to do anything else but everything needs experience that i dont have #and idk but i guess ill have to figure it out when it happens #the when part of it is killing me #also like why didnt they just put me out of my misery friday so i wouldn't be worrying all weekend and dreading monday #god... #i just want to [redacted] and idk what to do about anything #though tbf i never have #and despite the fact that i dont thinkg ive ever truly been happy or loved life much anyway #i genuinely feel like my time in [redacted] was still the best #missing it so much i want to go back 😭 #and i also miss [redacted] so much #why does distance exist from people who would be there for me #i dont really have many people but the ones i do arent even here #and yeah my family will be here soon but tbh that makes it worse because i dont want them to know about this #but they will #i wish i could cry more easily because i need a good cry right now #and a hug #😭

[assblastergaster]

being an etho follower means you will patiently and diligently wait all day for the SL upload, watching other perspectives go up in the early hours of the morning, and then seeing the announcement that the episodes are getting combined far too late in the day to replan the snack-getting relaxation time you had prepared

#it happens every series 😔😔 this poor sick man #tbf though i played minecraft sick last night and tried to mlg down a mineshaft at least 20 times before making it #ethoslab #secret life #also i dont have twitter I'll never have twitter and i never see the announcements in a timely manner dont come for me #oh ew btw was NOT going to eat mcdonalds fuck them and fuck israel

[avanchnzel]

a moment of rest

#.jpg #linked universe #lu #linked universe fanart #lu fanart #lu twilight #lu wild #do not tag as ship #this is actually a redraw of a twi and wild drawing i did in feb #the original is so bad its insane how much ive improved just this year alone #we move #my first posted lu fanart. wild. ive posted several lu fics but never fanart #though tbf i generally never finish fanart? like at all? its only been recently i have #anyway ill stop rambling now #sorry for any inaccuracies i did most of this while half asleep last night

[fernlessbastard]

hot take moment cwilbur is literally just psychotic as all hell and i think people got way too comfortable villianizing the shit out of a man who was clearly portraying signs of severe mental illness. cwilbur was like im so fucking paranoid and scared and i think everyone is out to get me and hurt me and ive spiralled to the point i cant reach out to the people closest to me because im so afraid and lost in this spiral and im having constant panic attacks and hurting myself because i dong know what to do with myself and the only way out for me is to die. and everybody was like EVIL MAN WHO ENJOYS HURTING OTHERS AND IS ABUSIVE ON PURPOSE AND A VILLAIN AND SHOULD NEVER BE TRUSTED AGAIN. and then he came back and was like im still deeply troubled and afraid but im desperately trying to make up for the wrongs i did in the past and the people i hurt in my own way and communication is really hard for me but i hope people know that im truely sorry and i love them. im going to try my hardest to fix this in the only way i know how and then respectfully remove myself from the situation because i feel thats the kindest thing i can do to the people ive hurt. and people were like ABUSER ABUSER ABUSER EVIL MAN ABUSER. like girl

Yeah no based true real no questions asked

I'd hope I manage to portray Wilbur the way he deserves in my content, cause that man is heavily bpd coded and he just needs therapy and someone who genuinely loves him but also can handle his bullshit (which has exclusively and reliably been Quackity like, canonically)

But yeah no completely agreed. The man has issues and has definitely fucked up a lot but at the end of the day he really does need love and care and patience, but also boundaries (and therapy and meds, obviously)

#i deeeefinitely have no reason to have strong feelings about bpd bitches deserving love and care and stability ha ha nooo it's definitely- #-not like I've been dating one for well over 4 years now and even though we've been through so much shit together and I still can't- #-understand why people with bpd and conditions that have similar symptoms are so demonised. It just makes no sense to me. #my bf is the love of my life and i can't imagine /not/ supporting it through all the splitting and episodes and all of that cause they're- #-absolutely worth everything #i don't know not to be too gay on main but tbf it's too late now anyway i think-- #is it unstable? sure. but it's also the most caring and loving person i've ever been close with and it always makes sure i'm ok #and it loves me so undeniably deeply no matter what purely for who i am #i've never had anyone care about me this much and this genuinely and this unconditionally - it'd always be what /they/ can get out of /me/ #but my boyfriend just cares about me - the actual me - no matter if i'm acting how it imagined i'd act. what matters is if i'm /me/ #listen bpd isn't sunshine and rainbows - we've been through some TERRIBLE shit (including s-cide attempts) #but when people claim it makes a relationship toxic/abusive it's so stupid cause ultimately with mutual love support and reassurance- #-and professional help you can have a genuinely happy and healthy life with someone with bpd #love isn't mean to be easy. it's meant to be safe and supportive and genuine but a relationship always takes effort and work on both sides #you should never sacrifice your well being of course! #but when love takes effort and extra care it doesn't inherently mean it's unhealthy or toxic or abusive. it just means you're people. #tldr if you love someone then don't care about some diagnosis - care about the actual perso. #ask #asks #ask fern #tntduo #dsmp #tnt duo #wilbur soot #quackity #quackbur #dream smp #tntblr #c!quackbur #c!tntduo

[lepusrufus]

Me playing Lifeweaver: oh there's snipers on my team here have a little platform so you have higher ground, love! (Especially for low mobility grandmas) Slow teammate coming back from spawn? Yoink! You're here now <3 No you're not falling into the void. No you're also not standing there in the middle of the enemy team at 20 hp I gotchu!

Me playing Moira: fuck your dps and fuck your supps and fuck your tank too while I'm at it if no one can secure point then I will.

#I'm only like half joking bc I'm not cracked enough to make these statements seriously #but it will never not be funny to me that these two ended up being my supp mains #Moira is still The Main but yeah #LW is for when I'm trying to be nice #Moira us for getting shit done #though tbf most of the reason why I love LW is bc I want the No You Don't kinda kit but don't have the aim to play Ana

[welcometoteyvat]

jing yuan and yanqing are giving zhongli and xiao if the latter’s canon relationship was Actually fanon’s made up father figure/adopted child dynamic

#idkkkkkkkkkkkkk who looks at zx and is like 'you know what. this is a healthy parent child relationship' #like girl by fitting them into father son boxes you are actively making their relationship imbalance Worse #if you do that and dont shy away from it i respect that but if you say dad/son makes their relationship more wholesome or whatever like WHY #now i wont deny shippers might do that too but i see the dad son version so much i think im just averse to it by default #also because i think father son makes people actively Try to make their relationship something that its not and it erases a bunch of subtlet #subtleties in it. it's the nuanced r/ship -> entirely unproblematic and flavorless r/ship that i hate #also the number of people who'll block if you ship zx. like damn thats crazy you guys really think theyre father son (fake)??? #at their peak they're like. 4000 year old guys who have too much history and repression and some weird entanglement of 'nah im bothering him #too much' and 'gotta protect him w my life' complexes. and then this devolves into theyre never gonna kiss until 3000 more years have passed #listen they just Contain Multitudes idc if you dont ship it just dont make it into dad and son and we will be so gucci #jing.yuan and yanqing are like different i think mostly bc yanqing is actually like a minor and jing yuan is also a normal ish person #plus the light cone and the abouts?? yeah this is an actual like adopted parent/child thing #also good or bad news i caved and am now playing hsr. the plan is to pull yanqing and then go on infinite hiatus in the game 👍 #JWKFLJWEK i dont think theres really any draws for me besides him. personally neutral on turn based combat and the open world isn't giving #the only saving grace i have rn is 1) ive gotten to the part where bron.seele is real and man theyre gay 2) trailblazer trio 3) tall female #mc 4) everyone has way better emoting abilities than genshin 5) su.shang's really cute <3 #the story doesnt really interest me though its like cool but not mindgrippingly interesting #tbf i think genshin is the same way storyline wise (at the beginning) but the difference is that turn based combat isnt really my thing LMAO #ramblings! #zhongxiao #if you want to filter it out ??

[factorialsotherfandoms]

Pac: *gets flustered touching Philza's back and runs*

Phil: is he good?

Mike: he's fucking gay is what he is

#qsmp shipping #it accidentally polyculed further while I was rambling #qsmp tazercraft #qsmp philza #qsmp pacza #I may not keep this in the au but like... it pleased me #so I rescued this one tag #context involves taking measurements of Philza's chest to fit disability aids #love this scene in my head but not up to writing it rn #and maybe never because brain fickle #oops i polyculed the island again #though tbf phil only wants qpps not sex partners #in this au anyway #now I do have another one shot I'm working on which is phil and pac #but mike is unfortunately not there to tease #unless I expand it out #god I miss mike so much #oops now I've got more ideas I should note these down somewhere better than random tags #this is sorta happy end au but I don't really want the ship there #so I might just an inspired by my own work alt thing #I reckon I could set it up #maybe #ish #idk brains #the ideas are many but the hands are hurting #so I'll stop now

[thedreadvampy]

like clockwork someone who's been openly a sex pest for decades gets named as a rapist and sexual predator and we all get to play the hit parade with such classics as:

oh my god oh my god did you know this industry full of rich people who are rewarded for exploitative and abusive behaviour...has an issue with rape and abuse??? CAN YOU BELIEVE THERE'S ABUSE IN THIS INDUSTRY???? (yeah man we know. we've known for quite a while actually. for longer than I've been alive for sure.)

oh my god I can't believe there are rapists among us (1 in 3 women have experienced rape, who do you think is doing it?)

but he seemed so nice! (not really tbh)

well I met him and he never raped me and like, I'm really hot so if he was really a rapist he would have (Jesus fuck get help)

is it really rape to fuck 16 year old girls when you're in your 30s? (yeah it is if you fucking rape them mate)

can't believe everyone knew but never said!!! (they literally did say and also hey imagine if you will what reasons there might be too not say anything, such as, say, it's not your story to tell and the victim had expressed a wish to not be at the centre of a whole shitstorm)

Real Victims wouldn't go to journalists they'd go to the cops!!! (hey guys I have some upsetting news about the experience of reporting rape to the cops)

This is a conspiracy to make this irrelevant celebrity look bad! (please touch grass)

it's all just a bit of fun innit (no)

and every time we all over again have to go to this place where rape is simultaneously a significant threat and common experience (agreed) but also everyone who's ever talked about being raped is lying, and nobody's ever done a rape even if there's 20 years of documented evidence and on camera confessions and also their whole public persona is 'cheeky sex pest' (fucking. what?)

and then that guy hopefully gets cancelled and people feel a bit more guilty about watching him. and then they'll go HOORAY THE EVIL IS DEFEATED WE HAVE GOT RID OF THAT GUY THAT DID THE RAPES. OUR WORK HERE IS DONE. COMEDY/FILM/MUSIC/TV IS FREE OF PREDATORS NOW

and then 6.5 seconds later allegations will come out about someone else and we will start the whole thing again from scratch OH MY GOD CAN YOU BELIEVE THERE'S ABUSE IN THIS INDUSTRY???

#red said #it gets SO under my skin like how are people STILL SURPRISED????? #like this happens SO OFTEN you canNOT still find it this unexpected??? #especially when it's someone like Russell Brand who is the kind of 2000s comedian who built his entire career on predatory misogyny as a bi #like I'm sorry I'm sorry this isn't a time you so moment #but some people you're like oh that's disappointing. he seemed like he might be sound. #others though. you cannot tell me at any point in the last 20 years anyone's looked at Russell fucking Brand #and not thought at least a little bit oh this man's a fucking nonce #'russell brand predated on teenage girls for years' may be up there in the least surprising sentences I've ever heard #i have never seen a man who's more obviously used to regularly using the phrase 'I waited until her 16th birthday so it's fine' #the fucking fedora ass incorrectly loquacious cult vibes '''''ironic''''' hipster misogyny known-in-thr-scene creepster #like we all know that guy right? sometimes he's a famous comedian and sometimes he's a 38 year old musician who only ever #dates girls under 18 and hangs out at spots frequented by students trying to show off both how hip he is and how he's got Adult Money #but the vibes. the vibes. tbf a lot of those fuckers in the 2000s were probably also modelling their vibes off him also. #the looming monster of rape in the abstract

[threeawfulfruits]

Somehow I have gone my entire life under the impression that Kingdom Hearts and Final Fantasy were the same thing

Cue me growing increasingly confused and disturbed for the first two hours of a FFXVI playthrough on YouTube as I watched graphic violence and sexual content play out on screen with the latent belief that Mickey Mouse was going to show up at some point...

#don’t eviscerate me #OBVIOUSLY I am not a gamer lol #I died laughing when I figured it out #idk I thought Chocobos were like a cutesy fantasy ostrich thing from KH so they and the art style were the (supposedly) common link #which was what confused me #fuck man #I’m so stupid #took me an hour to realize Clive wasn’t some AU version of Cloud Strife #tbf I’ve never seen any content for any of these games nor have I ever had any friends obsessed with them #literally my only context was old commercials from back when cable was a thing #on that note though holy shit what a game those graphics were sickkk #those fight sequences hot damn #and I’m glad Jill ended up with a LITTLE mfing agency because it’s not even REMOTELY a stretch to call that game intensely misogynistic #the few female characters tended to be weak or evil so no dice for me in general #some of the later characters were cool I liked the shipbuilder girl #Mid!!! yeah that was it #kingdom hearts #final fantasy #final fantasy xvi #ffxvi spoilers

[distinguished-rave-moth]

Boyfriends stepdad made us dinner,

A horrible Horrible dinner. But dinner nonetheless,

I'm too polite to refuse it,

Now I am horribly Horribly ill,

Let this be a lesson to you, kids.

#also #did you know microwave cauliflower cheese is a thing? #i didnt #and now i got food poisoning #tbf though ive never been able to eat orocessed foods. #my parents insisted on shopping at a farm since i was 8 and ruined my palette #so now i can only eat organic healthy stuff #or my body screams at me #which made going over mates houses for tea incredibly difficult #its a good problem to have i suppose #incentive to keep my diet in check lmao

[catominor]

c. martinus will see l. furius get up to give a speech to the roman people and cough and splutter through it and get freaked out when he looks at the crowd looking at him and be like ouhhhh.. i cant not fuck him

#tbf l. furius does have oratorial training and is a better public speaker than martinus but. his patheticness wins out sometimes #i actually think l. furius is fine giving speeches to the senate or in court because they would be mostly people he at least kind of knows #and/or are of his social class which he is comfortable around/understands. but #other groups like the Commoners or soldiers freak him out... martinus is the opposite #though his speeches are never as well written. unless he has furius write them for him in which case he memorizes them wrong and fucks itup #ficposting

[nbmudkip]

RRRAAAAAHHHHHHHHH FINALLYYYYYY

#me.txt #isat #IT TOOK SO LONGGGG GAHHHHH #and also the one about the coin refused to trigger for me until ACT 4???? HELLO????? #i was so scared bc i thought id missed it somehow despite never using the coin and would have to replay the entire game AGAIN #but i just crossed my fingers and prayed that id already gotten it and just forgot. bc tbf that was pretty probable considering my memory #and then i went to do the last two act 4 exclusives and instead of either of them i immediately got THE MYSTERIOUS MISSING COIN CONVO. LIKE? #im not complaining though thank GOD i dont have to do it all over again #every time i have to beat act 3 i have to take off my headphones and close my eyes or else it gets stuck in my eyelids #the last panel #and the sfx #so im very glad i dont have to do it again.

[rogersstevie]

this season of ted lasso saying sam should forgive racists who vandalized the restaurant and  then you know, dropping anything to do with that storyline immediately afterwards

and the saying jamie should forgive his abusive father bc hating him apparently isn’t good for him or whatever

doesn’t feel great tbh

#ted lasso #like yes absolutely tbf for some people spending that energy hating their abuser doesn't work #and they ultimately decide to forgive for themselves which i get is what they were advocating for #in his and ted's convo #but it's also like i don't even think jamie HAS had a lot of hatred bc so much of the time has been trying to prove himself to his father #and with sam they had that weird bit like 'oh we'll keep the broken mirrors bc it doesn't have to be perfect' #bc he was so concerned about everything being just right with the restaurant like...this was not that #could've kept the mirrors sure but not comparing it to the issue from earlier like....it was intended to be a violent attack #and then ya know. just never mentioned again all wrapped up apparently bc he chose to let it go #which hey they can absolutely go the route of sam choosing to let it go but that doesn't mean the problem is gonna go away #it's just like the whole thing i get forgiveness is a big part of the show but these are two things that i just don't love to see #though at least with jamie they've dedicated a good amount of the show to that particular issue and it's not so with sam #and they gave so much to colin's story line?? which has been pretty well done ofc but they were really like #sam gets a single episode and it's all wrapped up in the end bye like WHAT #ik with so many characters they can't devote the same amount of time to everyone but like....they should've done better for sam #and now there's only one ep left so ya know. i thought they might come back to it but they did not

[lurafita]

Imagine a scene where enemy character is monologing about their tale of woe, and suddenly Magnus goes

"Oh, please, spare us the pity party. You are not the only one to have gone through bad times, you know? Just look at blondie over there. He has to live with the knowledge that he will never be as handsome, clever, or capable as his adopted older brother. And that's on top of his unfortunate hair style. Yet, do you see him trying to destroy the world?"

Jace further down, grumbling: "Love you too, Magnus."

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#magnus bane #shadowhunters tv #shadowhunters #jace wayland #frenemies magnus and jace #as in they will never not poke each other #but they have each others backs when it counts #at least that’s how I like to think of them #even though their show personas didn't really give that impression #and tbh I don't care too much for Jace #but since he is there I will make use of him #and I love friendships that are like bickering siblings #and tbf I feel that the show could have benefitted from maybe investing a bit more into the platonic relationships #instead of just the romantic ones

[the-acid-pear]

I try not to think too hard about how souless corpses work on DSaF bc i understand a lot of things (like their ability to... re-die?) are just plot devices and "just work" and i dont wanna start to sound like ben shapiro in the "beach that makes you old" video.

#luly talks #''man i dont know i was fine and now im rotten.'' ''i just find it hard to believe'' #but fr tho like HOW are they rotting what does it imply to rot? #everything in their body seems to work jack at the very least as far as we know hasnt had anything Fall Off #like even his most sensitive parts are there well maybe not his nose but tbf we never saw a human w a nose i think #its unclear if that's stylization or what uh #but he has ears he apparently still has his dick he has working internal organs too he can pee and he can eat and he can smoke #we know from dave that organs arent necessary either though because god knows what the fuck henry left inside the poor guy #and we know dave too can bleed despite not having a fucking heart like where is the blood coming from. #dsaf #i just love corpses but i wont question it