#this was painful to stare at

[cocogum]

The Great Wave’s chapter 1 should’ve been renamed to The Heat Wave.

#i wanna cry #i’m not funny #plz end me #this was painful to stare at #that sounded better in my head #end me #wakfu #ankama #krosmoz #wakfu manga #wakfu webtoon #wakfu the great wave manga #wakfu the great wave #the great wave #the great wave manga #wakfu chapter 1 #wakfu the great wave chapter 1 #the great wave chapter 1

[chrliekclly]

ummm first time becoming self conscious about the way you act with your best friend because of some middle school bullies :)

#iasip #always sunny #charmac #charlie kelly #mac mcdonald #fanart #mine #i watched ‘close’ nd had some pain #but yeah ofc my brain was like 'i can make that charmac' h8 myslf #mac macdonald #im not good @ dialogue it feel ooc to me but iv ben like staring @ this for days i just need to post it #for th record i dont think mac wd giv a shit abt wat bullies think of him. bt he'd still get n his own head abt it #like hed nevr thought of their relationship tht way b4 #nd th possibility alone scares him #1k

[opens-up-4-nobody]

A victory for the Empire it would be.

#this fucking line echoes in my head all the time. i didnt get the expression right #just the way he says it. it sounds so absurd and he says it with such awkwardness. like the words feel painful #and silna is just staring at him like bro fuck off. hes a good lad tho #the terror #amc the terror #harry goodsir #silna

[s0fter-sin]

soapghost circus au

ghost’s an extreme motorcycle stunt performer - globe of death, riding on his back wheel along tightropes, that sort of thing

soap’s a fire breather/dancer. he’s a roaming performer; he just finds empty spaces or bored people and starts twirling

he pretends not to notice the way he always wanders towards a certain tent every night to watch a certain masked daredevil defy gravity. he thinks he's slick and that ghost won't notice him in the crowd, completely forgetting that he's carrying something that happens to be on fire

ghost couldn't miss him if he tried

one day off, soap's trialing fire whips; he loves the loud crack and the way the flame licks through the air and maybe he's a little too impatient to practice with non flaming whips first, even though he's never used one before

he's covered in soot and fine welts where the tip of the whip keeps flicking back up at him, cutting through his shirt and stinging his skin but he doesn't let that stop him. it starts to stick to him, damp with sweat and blood and he's quick to strip it off; throwing it to the side to keep practicing

when soap finally gets a few good cracks in a row and breaks to celebrate, he almost jumps out of his skin when he sees the masked rider leaning against a trailer watching him

of all the times he's wanted ghost to talk to him, this is not one of them

he wanted to impress him, dance for him with his flaming batons and be mesmerised by his fluidity and skill

not catch him filthy and struggling with something as basic as a whip

he's ready for ghost to ream him out for not having control over the whip - he's known throughout the circuit for expecting utter perfection in his routines - but when ghost finally does speak, it's only to ask if he's done for the day

soap falters for a moment. he wanted to get some consistency with the whip before he stopped, but he's starting to feel the hours of practice; muscles aching and skin blistered with minor burns

he says he is and ghost pushes off the trailer, nodding his head to make soap follow. he brings him back to his trailer and tells him to clean up then takes out his personal med kit to treat the grazes on soap's skin

soap's shocked; for all that he loves to watch ghost perform, they've never really talked before

part of why he joined the circus was so he wouldn't be a burden on anyone, the oldest in a family with too many mouths to feed and not even time to nurture, and here he is taking up ghost's valuable practice time be he wasn't good enough to handle his own discipline. he tries to brush him off, downplaying the burns and tries to leave before half them can be treated but ghost just glares and orders him to sit back down

ghost does expect perfection from himself but it isn’t out of any malice or ego; it's bc he knows if he isn't perfect, he could very easily die. he’s picked a dangerous profession and he gives it the respect it deserves. there isn't any shame in being a novice or failing at something; he thinks there's a lot of beauty in having the courage to get back up again and again

so every day he watches soap practice and bullies him into his trailer to put him back together bc he knows he won't do it by himself

and every night soap wanders over to ghost's section of the fair grounds, in awe of his skill and wishing he could be worthy of the care he gives him

#have i posted this before? yes but it has an actual idea behind it now #anyway back on my ‘soap pushes himself too hard to meet expectations only he is holding him to’ bullshit #price is obviously the ring master and id say gaz is probably trapeze #ghost used to work for robas circus who kept pushing him to do more and more dangerous stunts with less and less safety measures in place #and for a long time he thought thats how it was supposed to be #he was supposed to court death every night. supposed to limp back to his trailer and take care of his own injuries #and its only when price comes to one of his shows to scope out roba as competition and confronts him afterwards abt the conditions #that he realises something might be wrong #so seeing his past staring back at him in the form of soap hurts something deep within him and he has to make it right #he doesnt want soap to have to live with the same deep pains that he does #injuries that couldve been avoided if hed just gone easier on himself #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #we’re a team. ghost team #soapghost #ghostsoap #ghoap #john soap mactavish #soap cod #simon ghost riley #ghost cod

[clownsuu]

Eddie and Frank are already revealed to be husbands, so that's one ship for you.

(Was it husbands or was it just implied them being pretty gay for each other DJSHFYDUD)

also true but I must gain true happiness for my boi howdy for he is truly a silly goofy bug man who runs da shop and exists to give barnaby the sacred hotdog for a mere funny silly-

#A small price to pay for a hotdog to stare at and marvel at its glory #I wish this mans happiness even tho we all know they all are prob gunna suffer a excruciating painful agonizing non silly goofy death #Sadness ensues #welcome home #welcome home howdy

[molinaesque]

Cooper Howard & Lucy MacLean | Betrayal

#fallout #fallout prime #cooper howard #the ghoul #lucy maclean #fallout tv #fallouttvgifs #the PARALLELS between this and episode 7 is just *chef's kiss* #cannot wait for the two to have to parse through this stuff looking each other #staring into broken mirrors in all it's wretched painful truths #maybe they'll find some comfort in that within each other amongst the desolate wasteland #UGHHHHH

[eliasdrid]

It's always they/them o'clock in the Limbus Company Bus

Some more Dante sketches because people liked these and I really wanted to draw them in more outfits.

bonus Vergilius covering with and then giving Dante his blazer so it's less obvious when their skirt goes up as they walk and they don't have to worry about it

#LCB Dante #Limbus Company #Limbus Company fanart #limbus co #LCB Vergilius #my art #my journey of not knowing what the hell to tag things continues... #verg is judging whoever was staring at dante's butt as well #sidenote drawing dante with skirts sure reminded me of the pain of short skirts (u have to pull them down sometimes)

[karfild]

Ao3, the love of my life, my dearest of companions, my shawtyest of bae, my babiest of baby girls, please, come back to me.. I cannot do this without you

#ao3 #I am reloading the page over and over #I feel like the wife of a soldier #Waiting. Sitting by the doorstep. Staring out the window with pain in my heart #Waiting and waiting for a lover I'm not sure will return #Checking my mailbox several times a day #Waiting for letters from the battlefield #I fear that I may too die of lead poisoning from the paint on the walls

[thatgothsamurai]

Theerapanyakul Bros as The Saturday Evening Post cover (in Leyendecker style) with made-up format(1st) and the original format (2nd)

the draft’s actually for Kinnporsche Week 2022 | Day 7 - Main or Minor Family? (but without the parents pls)

what a shame they could’ve teamed up and make a family band

#actually them would be forever wip but #THEY KEPT STARING AT ME #yeah this style is really something it gave me back pain #but so fun tho will def do it again yes i like pain👍 #it was a mistake to start in grayscale first i sucked at it it took me forever to finish this😔 #anyway #i need a theerapanyakul bros sitcom #kinnporsche the series #kpweek2022 #kp fanart #tankhun theerapanyakul #kinn theerapanyakul #vegas theerapanyakul #kim theerapanyakul #macau theerapanyakul #thai series #fanart #my art #nandskarth #oop long tags

[dootznbootz]

Menelaus rambles a lot about not only Helen, but also Hermione. About how she used to say Olive like "Olifs". How she lost her first tooth running too fast and running into a low branch while out with Helen. How he'd sometimes wake up to Hermione leaning over him and poking his face to say, "Dad, can we go see the horses?" even though it was barely daylight. How she was much nicer waking Helen and how he thinks Hermione did that on purpose because she found "dad's face funny". How her favorite color was every color.

And Odysseus listens.

And he thinks about how his son only had a few teeth coming in when he left, teething on everything. How he could only say one syllable with his babbles. How his son needed balance to stand but Odysseus was so proud that Telemachus was very good at rolling over. How his son loved pulling at his and Penelope's hair.

How his son would be talking, walking, maybe even lost his first tooth by now. And he doesn't even know if he'll ever know his son's favorite color.

#Hi get sad with me :D #Odysseus and Menelaus are the Bros™ to me. I love them. Both simps who love their family despite being different in personalities #You cannot tell me they didn't talk about this and how this was painful for both of them :') #To make myself feel better. I like the thought of Athena kind of keeping him up to date :'D as he's her pet you know? #okay so this next bit ain't angst but imagine Hermione just coming in staring in the dark with the classic: #“Mom. Dad. I frew up🥺” #scaring the shit outta both her poor parents. Yeah I know she had nurses with her most likely but it's cute and fun!!! #I'm sorry but that's so fucking funny to me. I think every Parent has experienced that I'm pretty sure. #odysseus #menelaus #tagamemnon #greek mythology #this'll probably flop but oh well xD My homies can get sad with me >:) #odyssey #the odyssey #telemachus #hermione #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #helen of sparta #penelope #odypen

[thecraftgremlin]

I think there should be a horse girl movie where our plucky protagonist takes on the ~*problem horse*~ at the ranch but instead of being wild and untamable the horse is just really stupid.

#I don’t know much about horse movies but I have this scene in mind #on the day our protagonist meets her horse for the first time it suddenly starts pouring rain #and nobody can find this one horse let’s call him thunder #and all the stable hands are complaining about thunder and what a pain he is #and our wide eyed protagonist starts to get an image in her head that thunder is this wild unpredictable stallion #that she’s always secretly dreamed about ever since she first started riding #and eventually she finds thunder on her own and he’s just standing perfectly still in 3 inches of mud staring into space #she tries to get him out of the mud and he just lies down in it

[peggy-uwu]

Listen so we know that Sebastian didn't have many human skills like cooking etc at the start of the contract right? so maybe at the very beginning, when he first meets Nina, she teaches him the very basics of sewing, just in case he needs them..

Just imagining like,,, a few days after Ciel returns from the cult with Sebastian, Angelina contacts Nina and asks her to go and check on Ciel, make him some clothes etc bc obvs the mansion burned down with everything inside of it.

She takes all Ciel's measurements, (notices all the scratches and the brand and everything else), and then says she'll stay for a day or two to throw together a few outfits and essentials for him. So Ciel goes to take a nap and she sits down and starts working on his clothes, some shorts, some socks, a nightshirt and a few coats, just enough to last him until she can get him a proper wardrobe. She drags Sebastian along with her thinking 'well hes a butler, he has to have SOME kind of sewing knowledge, he could at least cut some cloth pieces out' but NOPE hes completely useless.

So she sits him down and starts showing him some basic stitches, just in case something happens and he needs to fix something, while asking him about everything that's happened.

#theyre very important to me ok #my babies #id colour it if i knew how to colour things but i dont #shading it was hard enough #its not even shaded WELL LMAO #just staring at it before i post and noticing all the mistakes.. pAIN #listen if you just ignore the fact that ninas chair is missing a leg #and sebastians pin is gone #and the thread is too thin to see #the incosistent linework #and the fact that i cant colour between the lines #if you ignore all of that #i think its really quite good #👍 #kuroshitsuji #black butler #sebastian michaelis #nina hopkins #ciel phantomhive #my art

[moeblob]

Hello, can i have a modern sylvain pls??? PS: i love how you draw scrimblos

Finally another Wheel Spin and thankfully modern equals I get to draw someone with fish somewhere on their outfit. (Overlay layer my friend how I missed you)

#fe three houses #sylvain jose gautier #also shout out to literally everyone yesterday who backed me up and supported me on making sure i wasnt in pain #regardless of how others told me to take pain meds cause hoo boy #i do feel better today without the pressure of being a disappointment by taking care of pain as need be #esp since im making sure to not overuse it - like im still obeying the times in between the doses and not doing more than allowed #and so yeehaw managed to speed run sylvain aka it took 25 minutes and i know this bc i set a timer for 30mins #just to make sure i didnt overdo it from aiming to please too hard while still recovering #truly wheel rng and desktop timers my beloved #they really help me lmao................. i .... need the motivation to start too so setting a timer makes me have to start #instead of putting it off and off by scrolling here or staring at a blank canvas pondering nothing

[lunarharp]

:')

#witch hat tag #orufrey #i will go back to the angst zone at some point so..... things the way they still are in canon this won't feel right for long #having portrayed the 'we've kissed but haven't worked out the trauma and pain so what we have is still too fraught' era in writing #i just want to draw past that for a bit...there's more..we're more than just this... let's go to the gentle kiss zone #it doesn't feel right not drawing EVERY aspect of Betrayal Processing but damn i'm not going to comic about EVERYTHING it's not possible #so just let me do what comes to mind.. <- still at cai court arguing on behalf of cai (me) to me (cai) #i wish i could do more fic illustrating & be satisfied with it. i want to portray the moment where oru is staring darkly into the fireplace #and basically qifrey sorta wants to die so this shame can be over. well anyway

[dropthedemiurge]

Rewatching "Love for Love's Sake" can't hurt you

Rewatching "Love for Love's Sake":

Episode 4 vs Episode 8

#get recontextualized idiots #and then they ended on - oh i get it why you like the sea i like it too now - and myungha staring at yeowoon #i wonder if there is a hidden agreement of -liking the sea- or is it myungha not being able to share his pain again #ANYWAY Taevin acted his heart out #where it used to be viewed as hesitance to romance and dating now it has another huge freaking layer of trauma #tw suicide #tw death #love for love's sake #korean drama #korean bl #bl series

[astarlightmonbebe]

the appeal of yeojeong as a normal guy who’s just a little bit off. not enough that you would notice when talking to him, of course, but it’s just there, under the surface. a disturbance. and i think it’s interesting because typically you have two types of guys somewhat adjacent to this: guy who seems totally normal but is secretly sadistic/a psychopath, and then guy haunted by a traumatic/troubled past, who has that secret layer of torment running beneath the surface of their image. but yeojeong breaks through these archetypes, and i think part of it is because he’s just so...calm. it’s not that he’s living a double life (kind doctor by day, killer by night) or hiding part of his past (everyone he worked with knew about what happened to his father, and watched his downward spiral during his college days). he’s not the typical male character who is, at every attempt, trying to outrun his tragic past (even though he does run once or twice); he’s not haunted by flashbacks, or suffer from PTSD in the way that is usually portrayed in dramas. and i think part of that is because the glory is a story about victims. it’s dongeun’s story, first and foremost, even though it is also yeojeong’s story, and hyeonnam’s story, and sohee’s story. but it’s a story about dongeun’s pain, and when it’s not about her pain, it’s just about the pain of victimhood - unlike other dramas, this isn’t a show where male pain outweighs the rest.

so yeojeong is just a normal guy. he’s handsome. he has a good career. he’s a plastic surgeon, an interesting choice when both his parents were/are hospital directors, and his father seemed to have worked in the er or something of the sort prior to his death (or at the very least wasn’t a plastic surgeon). something could be said here of yeojeong choosing the ‘safe’ path as a doctor, a path where he cures pain and makes people happy without the added risk of being attacked by one of his patients. there’s no proof of that in the show - why he chose to be a plastic surgeon - but it’s an interesting thought path to travel. 

dongeun says he must have lived a good life. that he’s never had to worry about the path that he’s on. and that’s true, to a certain extent. to everyone, including her in the beginning, yeojeong is perfectly friendly. he’s perfect, but not the perfect that people perceive as too perfect (i.e. the guy who’s hiding things); he has his moments where he spazzes out, gets into fights, goes crazy over dongeun texting him back, teases his mom. he’s perfectly well adjusted (a perfect contrast to dongeun’s ‘maladjustment’). he wears flip flops to work and gets the same coffee order daily. he plays go with old men in the park.

he likes to listen to the fizzing of vitamin tablets in water because it calms him down. is this a strange thing? only because he thinks it’s important enough to mention to his therapist. he does it at work too - drops the tablet in, closes his eyes, rests his head. he does it at home - drops the tablet in, opens the drawer, draws a knife. it’s about the noise. bubbles rising to the surface, like bubbles rising from underwater. he stays underwater until the last possible moment, when he has to break the surface in order to breath. dongeun makes him feel like he’s at the eye of a storm - a deceptively calm center, while everything else rages outside. and i think it’s kind of important that he makes that comparison, when he’s someone always seeking that calm. the soothing noise, that makes him feel lonely.

so he’s just a normal guy. a normal guy who receives letters on a regular basis from the prisoner who brutally murdered his father. he doesn’t like letters, he tells dongeun. who knows what he does with the letters - does he keep them? does he throw them away as soon as he sees them? he must have read some of them; maybe you only need to read one to know what is in the rest. maybe he’s still reading them; maybe he keeps them without reading, an invisible torment. it’s not what he does with the letters that matters, but that he receives letters at all. 

can you still call it a haunting if you’ve almost made your peace with it? if you’re living with it? 

he’s just a normal guy, who looks his therapist right in the eyes and tells her that she couldn’t fix him. he diligently attends therapy for years on a regular basis, even though it doesn’t work. he finally abandons it when he moves to semyeong, because he chooses to embrace dongeun’s revenge. he chooses his own revenge, too, in a way. the dark part of him that he can’t escape. the one that makes him pick up the knife, who asks dongeun who to kill before she even tells him she wants any of them dead, even when he’s a doctor from a family of doctors, and doctors don’t kill - they save lives instead. 

you couldn’t fix me, he tells his therapist calmly. so calmly. as if there’s not a bloodied man sitting next to him, a man he dreams of killing. the man is just life to him, just like the letters are life to him to. a dulled numbness. an acceptance of it. 

is your son going through hell? can you even tell it’s hell, if it’s what you’ve become used to? is it hell when you’re a doctor dreaming of murder? is it hell to no longer be tormented by dead men and living murderers who send you letters? is it?

#star stumbles #my thoughts #the glory #the glory 2022 #netflix the glory #kdrama #joo yeojeong #hmm. yes. how long has it been since i made a very long text post analyzing a character? quite a bit #he's just under my skin #it's the normalcy and then the just...tad bit off uncanniness to it all #like staring at a room and feeling as if something is wrong but you can't pinpoint what it is #until maybe you finally discover there's a book out of place or something missing or something unaligned #and it's not even psychopathic. seen a lot of people say that but like...it's not #it's a slightly different vibe from that #it's like dongeun staring at the boiling kettle and reaching out to touch it #the dissociation from reality #when you hurt yourself and marvel at the wound before feeling the pain #the fizzing of the vitamin tablets got me first & the letters #but mostly - what really wormed into my core - was the way he stared at his therapist and simply said 'you couldn't fix me' #'after all this time you couldn't fix me' #the dead acceptance. #feeling so mentally unwell about him i can't even describe it #the way his character was designed to be dongeun's (romantic) partner in crime