#this sucks cuz like…it could be? maybe? idk??

[mossytrashcan]

Unrelated but I was thinking about Koschei for reasons (I was reading about proto indo European pantheon and it turns out 'Fire God formed in water' is a myth researchers think they mightve had and it remonded me of Vassa) and am I allowed to say how funny it is that like, Koschei is so directly named after a myth. Like Bone Carvers his own thing and Stryga is technically got like The Three Fates/The Witch in Hansel and Gretel vibes, and then there's Koschei who is basically just the guy from the myth including the title. ALSO protoindoeuropean pantheon speculation is dope BTW you should research it its fascinating

Bold of you to assume I haven’t already researched it. I fucking loved anything protoindoeuropean as a kid, the folklore FUCKS

Anyways, personally I would’ve loved it if SJM combined Lanthys and Koschei together into one character. I think (no shade to ACOSF and it’s enthusiasts) instead of the rehab/whatever plot we got, we could’ve gotten to see a little brief corruption arc w Nesta and Koschei

Cuz like imagine a story where this deathless death god found out about cauldrongate and was like psychologically manipulating Nesta into gathering all of the troves (his soul bits) so that she could 1) become his queen/weapon, 2) make him all powerful, and 3) become a literal shield for him because the gang would have to kill her to kill him

(gonna unprofessionally ramble in the tags because I need to brainstorm about this lol)

#this probably sucks ass but I genuinely love the Koschei the Deathless myths sauuur much #like how fucking dare you throw him in there casually #anyways I need to work out the wrinkles in this hmmm #I know I’m bomb at pitching stories but there’s stuff missing and I need to work it out yknow #but yeah drop the mortal queen who’s evil thing cuz honestly who gives a fuck #also no shade to the rehab thing it was v relatable but also clearly a background for super sex #it could’ve been set up in the christmas special too #like oooo look something’s weird with nesta what could it be #and then also instead of there being too much free time for cassian to come off as an asshole #maybe he’s like trying to get thru to her or something #maybe it could be a literal retelling of the koschei story where the guy fucks his ass up for his lover #yeah that’s good see I just need to brainstorm in live time #sjm critical #THIS ISNT ABOUT HER I SWEAR IM JUST PITCHING #also also you could tie in nesta’s grooming for grooming #like in a sick way this is what she was raised to do #her wacky grandmother who def existed to make her story more sad laid the foundation for this #and now she has to like break that cycle and reaffirm that NO she doesn’t need to exist for old men #she deserves something better and epic #idk man I’m going crazy sorry

[lesbiangiratina]

Johnny has 2 extra voice lines for testament besides the intros… “family is great, looks like you’ve figured that out by now, huh?” and uhhhh. “Fashionista.” Idk what theyre used for exactly im just looking in the files rn. And yeahhhh testament has nothing for him. This is so weird its gotta be like a VA scheduling problem or something…….. ?

#would be interesting to poke around in the text files to see if theres anything for them. i dont know how to do that though. #also yeah no tess in his arcade mode i heard it kind of sucks actually. may stuff #maybe there’s an ending where she… calms down…? i dont know. it would be nice if they did something like that. #also btw the line about family is in the files twice for some reason. idk if he says it in 2 different contexts or if someone fucked up lol #i assume if its used in 2 contexts the same file could be used tho so. idk SHRUG #it jusy got me excited cuz i saw he had 5 voice lines for them… 2 are the same… 😔… 4 is still nice #idk man i miss testament. i was mostly excited for johnny because i assumed i would get some testament crumbs. is that mean. my bad. #johnny’s voice lines for them are nice enough i guess ;-; the family thing is super sweet. thats my crumb……… #the kat goes meow #gg

[rigels-nigels]

Girl help I've acquired possibly yet another expensive hobby

#op #2 of them in fact #currently making a frame weaving loom (and by that i mean my dad idk enough about wood working and this wood is too expensive to fuck up) #and getting into mechanical keyboards #i already have a lotta yarn so the real costs rn are the keyboards #which are like at least 100usd a pop #what sucks is that they all seem to be 60% keyboards or tkl's and like. i need my fn and number pad keys pls and thx #debated sacrificing the num pad and getting a seperate one bc wowza these custom boards are absolutely gorgeous but #i am on such a budget and a cheap (cheap!!!) keyboard i found that i quite like is still gonna run me 200cad #if i got a pretty keeb and a seperate numpad i could easily be looking at $500+ like lordy #that's not even counting the switches i want to get (gateron baby kangs which are. $66. I'm assuming in usd bc it doesn't actually say) #anyway debating on whether or not i should order the keyboard now or wait till later cuz like is it even gonna be there later? #so much of this stuff is temporary and u never know #its a 96% keyboard and it has a calculator button!! only other board ive seen with that is my dads maybe 2005 wireless microsoft #so useful tbh #such a pretty board too all things considered #and finding a nice board like that with the numpad is not easy lemme tell ya like i was truly considering a ducky which. #i cant say im quite fond of their logo among other things #i think its more of a cream than white but u cant win em all #hmm to purchase now or to not purchase now‚ that is the question.... i could technically afford it but then #there's ComicCon + cost of supplies and whatnot for opening up my shop which is gonna be probably at least a hundred... #and then i would like to get some nice wool skirts for the winter/now bc pants are of the devil which is gonna be another 100/150 or so... #augh #i think the government should give me more money i think that would be very sexy of them to do #anyway can you believe i went on my phone to find a banana bread recipe then did all this instead? crazy #hashtag adhd life

[creppersfunpalooza]

thinking abt asking my crush out near valentine’s day but i gotta figure out if im like sure enough and also figure out an elaborate way to confess because im incapable of doing things normally

#crep lore #look i know it sounds a bit creepy #but we’ve talked abt going urban exploring a few times #so i was thinking i could like #find some place abandoned #preferably in a field or something #def not closed off or where squatters are likely to be #and just like have a picnic there #but i learned you’re not supposed to bring weapons when going urban exploring #which rlly sucks cuz idk if id feel safe without one #like mann i gotta bring pepper spray to make sure i dont get attacked #now that i think about it. going to abandoned places defenseless might not be super romantic #it is to me #and maybe to them too #general consensus is i don’t like the government because they cause the issues with this plan #problem one is police detaining us for exploring abandoned places #problem two is squatters only exist in the first place because of the homeless epidemic #sorry that got political

[theamazingannie]

I’m a sucker for musical parallels and referencing an old song in a new song but I feel like this TTPD lead up is not just a “this is how I used to feel and now I’m using those themes to show how I feel now” and more of a “those feelings were never real and actually those love songs that were so beautiful before are actually about a bad relationship and full of red flags” cuz it’s honestly ruining my feelings on those old songs. Like Taylor’s whole thing is letting us interrupt the songs and apply them to our own lives and now it’s like even she is encouraging us to only see them through the lens of her most recent breakup and it really sucks tbh

#like when it was just fans being swifties I could ignore it and keep believing they were good love songs #but now that those Apple Music playlists came out and these songs are being sorted through different lenses #it feels like she wants us to look at those beautiful love songs differently and I hate it #taylor swift #ttpd #like I’d make jokes and talk about her personal life #and look at her songs and be like hmmm maybe that’s what she meant by this #but mostly her songs were always separate from her real life relationships #(otherwise I wouldn’t be able to love the speak now era love songs lmao) #I apply her songs to my characters #sweet nothing was the perfect song for one of my ocs who got famous and felt like he couldn’t be himself anymore #expect when he was with his bf who didn’t see him that way #and now I listen to it and I hear all those tweets saying ‘omg he didn’t love her and didn’t care about her and THATS what she was saying’ #and having lover being one of the top wedding songs of the 2020s #and the ‘at every table I’ll save you a seat’ now going from ‘I want you by my side always’ #to ‘I have to save it but you don’t show up cuz you’re never there for me’ #and lavender haze going from ‘we don’t need to be married to be in love and I just want to be with you #and I wish people would stay out of my private life’ #now being ‘I actually did want to get married and this was me just being in denial’ #it SUCKS #things were much easier when I was just playing my thoughts here rather than following fan pages on Twitter #I’ve met a lot of great people and learned some fun stuff but this is exhausting #I just want to listen to my favorite artist without analyzing every line to figure out if she really meant it like that #I love her for her ability to tel stories I can relate my characters to #that’s all I really want to do with her songs #makes me want to leave the fandom and just listen alone #but also doing that before made me miss album announcements and vault puzzles and other news #idk I’ll probably stay but it just really sours the whole experience for me #and I wish it didn’t

[yuribalisms]

Okay so for a long time, I did not know what I wanted to do with my life (okay that’s a lie, I would kill to get involved in show running but that is so so so incredibly difficult and will likely never happen unless I get so very insanely lucky) so I needed to come up with a career I can tolerate enough that I could, potentially, do my whole life without wanting to kill myself at the thought of it. I always said editing? Cuz I don’t mind editing and I’m good at it and it makes sense with my degree and maybe I could eventually get involved in the publishing world, but like… editing itself is not anything I’m passionate about

Except recently???? I am realizing I actually love teaching people things? Especially if it is connected to literature/writing. Like I genuinely love explaining to people how awesome this thing is that I’m passionate about so… I have begun to consider teaching as a potential career? Like I will have to commit to going back to school and either double majoring or really reworking my degree plans but I think I would genuinely like that?

Ideally I would love to teach college courses but idk if I could hold out in school long enough to get all the credentials for that (though maybe one day, that could be a really long term goal once I’m like in my 30s or something). I know I wouldn’t be able to handle like middle school kids (plus the things I would be teaching them wouldn’t be as complex as I enjoy) but I wouldn’t mind teaching high schoolers. Like now that I’m thinking about it, I could very easily see myself being an English/lit teacher so maybe I should genuinely consider that and look into going back to school with that in mind….

#and like this is a majorly depressing thought but #worst case scenario if I did this and just could not find a decent job #the high school I went to now has my old youth group pastor and aunt as the principal/dean and I was well liked as a student there #I could play some nepotism cards and get a job there to at least get some experience for a few years #long long time down the road ofc but like that’s an option #idk I’ve been thinking about this more and more recently #cuz I don’t wanna keep doing what I’m doing forever #and I DO like teaching and I DO like working with teens like I was camp counselor for years #(even if that sucked for Jesus reasons but actually working with the kids was enjoyable) #and that’s a job field that’s always gonna need people going into it So #maybe this should be what I go for #and like I said!!!! I could always keep working towards being a college professor if I end up not liking teaching high schoolers that much #but idk just been thinking about it #kaz rambles

[coffeeflavored-tears]

Honestly devastated rn cause I apparently reached the tumblr daily post limit so I can't continue to freak out over the new fob release

rip, post limit sucks ass. hope you get better soon <3

#i’m pretty sure it all resets at like midnight est right? so you’ve got a while to go #um something i did was create a separate account #like email and everything so i could still post and shit #i’ve also seen people sending in like submissions and then the person on post limit editing them and posting them #cuz apparently you can do that maybe? idk #but yeah rip it sucks :( #asks asks asks #the mutuals <3 #charlie 🌈🎶

[gigginox]

naoto :(

#ok so. transgender #it really does suck how weirdly written naoto is written irt their transness cuz it seems to start and end w naotos career as a detective #like tge two main reasons they give for wanting to be a man are 1) bc they thought only men could be detectives and 2) the police force is #a male dominated space and being seen as a man would be fhe only way to succeed in that space #and thats just like. it #idk i knew what to expect but seeing it play out is still weird maybe i need to go thru their social link and hope it gets better

[sh-tp0st]

no but genuinely yall ever feel like ur doing so amazing in a social situation but once u realize that, it all starts going down hill? because me and i feel bad for leaving

#like ugh i feel like crying #cuz i feel like if i’d just like idk #maybe i couldn’t do anything better #maybe thats as good as i could do and it wasn’t my fault if certain situations felt off #but idk! #i just suck so bad talking to people and it makes me sad #mylyf3 #shitpost #tumblr #vent #social anxiety

[sw1mmingfoolz]

i just need the world's biggest hug i think lol

#I'll answer people's tags and asks later tonight thank you all for being sweet #especially on the felix fic i thought it sucked cuz I wrote it while suffering from dental anaesthetic lol #i don't publically talk about ocd but it's kicking my ass atm #and the ocd causes bad dpdr and it hit so hard tonight and i wish i could cry or have a panic attack to get it out #but alas my sister is staying with me as she did yesterday and i never allow myself to look weak with her #if i can help it cuz I'm older and the guardian and whatever as if she isn't 19 agdkdhdj #i just feel genuinely awful #like it's not shit i talk about i just wanna be held lmao #a/n #personal #delete later #i might just write the feelings away i do that all the time i did with the narcolepsy #and I'm in my changbin feels atm so hey #maybe #anyway send cute shit to my inbox like. idk cows or smth i like cows ahskdhdj #or do soft hours #like the softest shit u can possibly think of #the type of shit i write at 4am in my feels

[millersix]

vent time

#ive been rlly depressed 4 a long time #nd i dont know what to do w myself or my life #like i had the doctor plan but i rlly cant bring myself to give a shit about anything #nd i know that i could just drag my feet thru school and get in cuz school is easy as fuck #but i just. dont care #about anything #except substance abuse #and sleeping a lot #and ive been living here for 2 years and have 0 friends #ive maybe had 4 social interactions total #that werent talking to someone at work or going to the store #and i rlly just spend all time alone i dont talk to anyone or see anyone cuz its too scary and exhausting #when i have tried to hang out w people those few times it sucked so bad #and the ppl were all cool im just. i cant do that #idk it rlly just feels like i have to not go broke and kill myself until i finish undergrad and grad school #and then i wont be poor yay #but that could be 10 yrs from now #idk where to find enthusiasm for anything #theres shit i find cool and interesting and worthwhile but never for very long #drugs cw #its mental illness innit #i keep hoping if i run away things will get better #i moved across the country got a place moved got a job quit thay job moved again and now i wanna quit my job again #but it never changes anything #bc my mood has little to do with my circumstsnces at this point #im just depressed cuz its easier to be depressed than anything else #and im lucky that i can keep getting away with it #and smart enoguh to do substance abuse while also being a straight A full time student and working a hard demanding job full time #but i also dnt rlly have a choice

[keeps-ache]

oh yeah it's gonna have so many wings and eyes woo

#just me hi #i was designed a ~character~ the other day and ending up basing one of their forms off of the biblical depictions of them #i could put SO MANY hands #do you know how easy it is to make a character based of the End but it's like 2000x more difficult to base a character off the Middle? #or maybe that's just moi lol #anywhoodle do it's gonna suck tho cuz idk how to really draw wings? #i can get vague shapes but it's not something i practice so let's DO this

[per-the-jellicle-magician]

Apparently whatever gov agency that does the uni rules and stuff decided we need to include where we did our internships in the topic of our thesis (and also technology but that was honestly predictable given this basically college started as mostly IT school and we do have random IT related classes every semester)

So either I'll have to find a translator willing to take me in (somewhat unlikely) or hope the "I used CAT tools at my internship successfully and now I'm wondering if I can use them to translate poetry/musicals and if it's even worth it" loophole would work

Cuz I won't let the fact that I did my first internship at a travel agency stop me from picking a topic I would be actually possibly able to actually write about

And honestly writing about CAT tools and CATS is just too funny of a bit to pass on it XD

#'why would a translation student do an internship at a travel agency?' cuz in a small city with literally 5 english translators #and there being bunch of rule changes at the last minute it was the only place i could find and getting to the translators #was impossible with the competition being another like 60 students #and literally every other one in all the nearest towns and stuff declined taking anyone #could be worse honestly cuz my boss was cool and i got to discover i hate legal translation #sure its easy in the sense its repetitive and theres plenty of texts to compare and base your stuff on #but it also makes my brain drip out my ears XD #it sucks he couldn't take me in for another semester but oh well #maybe this time ill be able to find a willing translator #i dont need much just for them to sign all the paperwork and give me some texts to translate so i have a proof of doing smth #also idk yet if i would write about cats with all the changes #but honestly the only other show i can think about rn is Hamilton XD #cuz Cats seems so far like 'nope its not really useful here' while i guess in Hamilton it could at least prevent having to write #'wait for it' 'take a shot' etc over and over and over #sure adjustments would need to be made but at least some of the writing would be done

[bleetusmcyeetus]

I randomly woke up half an hour ago and I was gonna go back to sleep but of COURSE I had to check to see if anyone texted me and of COURSE one of my friends had to ask me if SAMS is a content farm cuz “it’s got that vibe”

So guess who’s up at 4 am writing a long ass thing in defense of the sun and moon show 😭

#AUGH #this sucks cuz like…it could be? maybe? idk?? #the thumbnails are like those DO NOT DO AT 3 AM (REAL) *NOT CLICKBAIT* videos but…I can’t explain it but it makes sense? #I feel like if it WAS a content farm then it wouldn’t have the lore. cuz the lore is actually good #and the voice acting makes me cry. I don’t think a content farm would have good VAs?? #also. looking at the lore. it makes sense that a lot of content is them playing games or looking at fan things. that’s why they made the #channel in the first place. to have fun #the whole point is the audience enjoying the videos. and they need to have SOMETHING between lore vids yknow? #if it was just the lore eps then there would become the issue of ‘well why are we seeing this. how are we seeing this. what’ and there being #gameplays helps explain that. that they just do that #maybe I’m thinking about this too much. I could be overthinking it and it could be a content farm I don’t know. I just really don’t want it #to be. I’ve lost so many of my past interests due to them being bad that me defending this could honestly just be out of selfishness #☹️

[proonv]

I just spent like a full hour talkign to myself about my tmnt iteration jesus christ

#its rly fun to talk about i feel like it had good potential but. it makes me a little sad #cuz i know me and i know I'll never get this done #which sucks. like i know how id want to post it and i know what spin-offs and what-ifs id post with it #and i feel like other people would really like it. maybe thats just the fantasy bc theres not really a popular fan iteration in the fandom #but. idk. i want to do this and i have so much i could do for it. but i cant #anyway. my lore for it is kinda good i think...?? a good talking-to-myself session has me changing a few things so #i did change a bit #but anyway. its a cute idea i think #oooo you wanna ask me about it so bad. i dont know what id spoil though so. i probably wont be able to say much #just in the hopes that i do make it some day #they arent high hopes but they're there #anyway. oddly sad for talking about the t.eenage m.utant n.inja t.urtles #my b #misty muses #vent

[othercrossee]

if youre asking about my writing for palina and irida in the timeskip one, its probably that they will never ever be as close as they were before. or its better to say they were never that close to begin with

#z rambles #idk maybe its just me but i really cannot see these two being chummy besties #which is even more funny when u realize theres a time when people like. legitimate ship them (and we fucking know why) #like its so weird like damn girl u cannot consume media without making mlm ships then make a half assed assessment for a wlw one #should stated that palina isnt a bad person. but she is a bad friend. shes not evil shes just misguided #and i really do blame how both of them are like and then be due to a lot of trauma inflicted by the elder #generational trauma momeeennnnttt #anyways despite their friendship not working out. i do think they actually like. fucking communicate this whole shit out #so in the timeskip despite them not being perfect. theyre doing a lot better and a lot more on equal grounds #what palina did to irida wont be forgotten. irida will feel the sting and palina will have the guilt #its really up to palina own decision to see pass her pettiness and consider her friends emotion as well #and knowing her. it will be pretty fucking hard but heres the surprise #both of them didnt have support systems when they were young. and tbh i do get where palina is coming from #but it still sucks how she choose to manifest her anger toward the person who admired and loved her #who really thought palina had her best interest at heart and with no explanation. no communication #that fiend just got up. yelled at you. left and refuse to elaborate to the point of scolding and humiliating you time and time again #and sure irida shouldve respect the whole dont call me lina bs but even then? its still rather selfish of her to not see iridas effort #call them bestfriends all u want. idk why yall mfs somehow could read their relationship as a fruitful one #cuz its bad. even in the timeskip irida had to go thru loops to talk to palina cuz palina still doubt her ability #it will never be good enough for her. it will never be good enough of a relationship so uhhhh hope this helps! #and yeah i dont usually shame people but if u ship these two. yeah im gonna need u to replay the game LMAO