#this scene is both so healing and heartbreaking at the same time how did they do that???

[cherries-and-knives]

Another one of the Peeta moments that rot in my brain constantly is the scene in catching fire when Katniss and Finnick get stuck with the Jabberjays.

Peeta had his hands pressed against the force field, trying so so hard to be there for her and wanting so badly to protect her. And when it finally ended he held her, and rocked her, and let her hide her face in his arms, and protected her for as long as she needed him to and…..that’s just so ughhhh….so heartbreakingly sweet.

#if you can’t tell I think about them constantly #even more so specifically #I think about Peeta constantly #I don’t think I’ll ever get over him #this scene is both so healing and heartbreaking at the same time how did they do that??? #in case u were wondering #yes I am crying again #hunger games #the hunger games #the hunger games katniss #the hunger games peeta #thg catching fire #thg #thg peeta #peeta mellark #peeta #peeta supremacy #katniss and peeta #everlark #katniss everdeen #catching fire #peeta my beloved #team peeta #peeta and katniss #thg katniss #thg Everlark #tbosas #the ballad of songbirds and snakes #lucy gray baird #coriolanus snow

[escapingrealityforamoment]

So what if Reader was friends with Steven? Like she didn't knew Belly, Conrad and Jeremiah but she was Steven's friend, so he invited her for the summer, and reader was a posh person who wasn't a really fan of these things, but listened to her friend, and when she did come there, everyone was all over her as she was really pretty, except Jeremiah and Conrad, Jeremiah liked her as a friend and conrad didn't liked her at all, slowly Reader and Jeremiah had feelings for each other and came into a relationship, and reader came into the same college as conrad and they also slowly became friends, but when they both saw Jeremiah and Belly kissing, both of them hated them and stayed more closer?

Hi love! Thank you so much for the request and I am so sorry it has taken so long for me to respond!! I hope you enjoy reading this and there will be a part two 💖😘

When I first arrived at Cousins Beach for the summer, I had no idea what to expect. My friend Steven had talked up his summers here with the Fisher family, and although I was more accustomed to city life, I trusted his judgment and embarked on the adventure.

As soon as I set foot in this coastal paradise, it felt like the whole world revolved around me. People couldn't help but be drawn to me, a stranger in their tight-knit community. I became a curiosity, a beautiful anomaly in their simple, beachside world. Among those who were captivated by my presence, Jeremiah and Conrad stood out, but for entirely different reasons.

Jeremiah, who had a friendly and approachable demeanor, was the first to break the ice. He didn't treat me as a stranger but as a friend. We spent countless hours talking about our dreams, our love for art, and the little things that made life by the sea so extraordinary. What began as friendship soon blossomed into a deep connection, and my heart couldn't deny the fluttering I felt whenever he was nearby.

Conrad, however, was a different story. His icy exterior never seemed to thaw, and his disapproval of me was evident in every word and gesture. I couldn't understand why I bothered him so much, but no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't break through to the warm-hearted person hidden beneath.

As the summer days melted into the golden hues of fall, the connection between Jeremiah and me couldn't be ignored. We faced the challenges of a long-distance relationship as he went off to college. Our bond remained strong, even as the miles separated us, our late-night calls and longing texts keeping the connection alive.

Surprisingly, Conrad also ended up at my college, and our paths continued to cross. Over time, I could sense his icy exterior slowly thawing as we became friends. Our shared experiences and moments of vulnerability revealed the layers beneath his tough facade.

But then, everything took an unexpected turn. One evening, I found myself witnessing a heartbreaking scene: Jeremiah and Belly, locked in an intimate kiss. My heart shattered, mirroring the pain in Conrad's eyes when he witnessed the same moment. Our worlds collided, and the shared agony of our unrequited love brought us together.

In the midst of heartbreak, Conrad and I found comfort in each other's presence. We shared our stories of love and loss, our struggles and dreams. What had once been a source of tension between us had transformed into a deep and lasting friendship. Together, we healed our wounded hearts, finding solace in each other's company and understanding.

Our shared pain forged an unbreakable bond, and Conrad and I became inseparable. While the scars of the past still ached, we had discovered a deep and meaningful connection that transcended mere friendship. We hoped that someday, we would find the love we both deserved. For now, we found contentment in each other's understanding, empathy, and unwavering support.

#conrad fisher imagine #conrad fisher #conrad fisher x you #conrad fisher x y/n #conrad x reader #conrad fisher x reader #tsitp conrad #jeremiah fisher x y/n #jeremiah fisher x reader #jeremiah x reader #jeremiah fisher imagine #tsitp jeremiah #tsitp x reader #tsitp x you #team conrad #team jeremiah

[twig-tea]

TsukuTabe S2 Is Perfection

I’ve been waffling about what to write about Tsukuritai Onna to Tabetai Onna s2, which completed last week (and which we have access to at all thanks to the hard work of @furritsubs). I have had to just give up on getting across how much this show means to me; there's no way I'll be able to communicate these feelings with words. Season 1 was excellent but Season 2 was everything I wanted and more that I didn't know I needed. This is going to be more disjointed than usual because I don't know how to be coherent about this show (and because tumblr ate my first two attempts).

At its core, Tsukuritai Onna to Tabtetai Onna asks what if we were all just a little bit more conscientious and kind to one another? What if women were given space to be themselves and to make the choices that were best for them? This is the world of TsukuTabe, and I'm so grateful to have had the chance to inhabit it over these last four weeks. 

I have so much love for the way Nomoto and Kasuga develop their relationship in conjunction with their relationships with the other women in their lives. Nagumo, Sayama, and Yako are integral to the success of Nomoto and Kasuga’s relationship, and they're also important relationships for the happiness of Nomoto and Kasuga in their own right. The found family vibes are immaculate. 

The conflict between Kasuga and Nomoto this season was so perfectly them; the way they struggled with the transition from friends to lovers and being two people who are kind and giving in a relationship together and how that requires honesty and trust were both familiar conflicts that hit me hard in the feels. 

Kasuga's conflict with her family also hit me really hard. I once did the wrong thing and showed up to support my family in caring for someone who abused me, and it was a horrible experience that was ruinous to my mental health and took years to get over (and in the end they had to find a different solution anyway, which they could have done in the first place). Watching Kasuga refuse to make a similar decision, standing strong in the face of the social pressures of her parents and her aunt was so healing for me. And then to have her decision affirmed by someone of her parent's age? I sobbed in those scenes. 

I also loved the way this season handled Nagumo’s anxiety issues and how she was given space to decide to get professional help on her own time and terms. The way her parents tried to help was also very familiar to me and realistic, and it was just a little heartbreaking how they tried and didn't understand how their attempts at helping added pressure in a way that wasn't helpful. 

The way this show covers this important beats in a person's life through these small, everyday moments, and in such a gentle way, is what I love so much about it. The show itself makes a safe space so that these subjects can come up and not feel overwhelming. 

And it's also really important to me that all of the characters get to have these moments. Sakae not only reflects on her insensitivity and the unfairness of Japan not having marriage equality, but she also reflects on the pressures on her to marry and whether she actually wants that for herself. Fujita not only helps Kasuga gain proxy acceptance for her choices but gets the same back for herself around her decision to divorce. All of these women live in ways that invoke social stigma, and the way this show gives explicit permission to these women to live their best lives is both cathartic and critical.

I can't end this disjointed ramble without talking about the character I most identified with this season, Yako. Yako is an older, self-actualized asexual lesbian who makes friends with Nomoto on the Internet, recommends lesbian films to her, and mostly listens and affirms as Nomoto goes through her own process of discovering herself. I ran a GSA and have been on the Internet a long time, I've been in Yako’s position a lot (though I can only aspire to be as kind and wise). She is so patient and so genuinely happy for Nomoto when she and Kasuga get together, and she seems so quietly thrilled to have more wonderful people in her life willing to indulge her random party ideas. Her sharing a connection to a LGBTQ+-friendly real estate agency while being angry on their behalf that she even has to was perfection. 

It's so important that these characters say the things they say aloud. I want to inscribe every sentence of this show into everyone's brains. This show is perfect, and lovely, and a warm bath, and a hug, and a cup of your favourite warm beverage perfectly fixed to your liking all in one. If you haven't done yourself the favour of watching yet, I highly recommend that you do so immediately. 

[not an ID: Real footage of the entire audience's satisfaction and catharsis after watching TsukuTabe S2. Actual ID in alt text].

#tsukuritai onna to tabetai onna #she loves to cook and she loves to eat #tsukutabe #gl meta #sapphic media #typed so that I can stop thinking it

[dinitride-art]

Au fics that i think are neat and that i want to compile into a list because im trying to figure out how to comment on a chapter of a fic but i need time to sort out my thoughts (usually for fic recs i try to rec fics with less kudos/engagement because reasons but im just gonna throw everything in this list. probably multiple fics by the same author in the same universe because thats the one im trying to sort out my thoughts on.)

the strawberries are dying by eggowlss - historical fiction and very interesting character relationships and also character exploration within the time period. I really like this one because the pacing and tone are very gentle. There’s a srt of ebb and flow to the story that makes both the time period and the characters really fit into it. idk how to describe it i just like it a lot.

in the quiet of the night (acswy ao3 series) - they’re putting those characters in situations. It’s a very good time. 10/10 do recommend. If you haven't heard of this one though, it’s basically a modern au where everyone works at a summer camp and Mike and Will cause problems for themselves, each other, and usually everyone else around them. 

si vis amari, ama by perexcri - demons and angels and heaven and hell and its honestly just one hell of a story. like ive got vivid images in my head of scenes i imagined when reading this. 

you start to kiss (and the record skips) by eclipseadventure - this is a band au with a side of a secret relationship and im a sucker for secret relationships. a bit of drama/high stakes in here too which is always pretty fun. 

End Racism on the OTW! - you and me and the horrible teenaged ghost who keeps eviscerating himself in our apartment makes three by TheWrongKindOfPC - i am also a sucker for buzzfeed unsolved aus. buzzfeed unsolved, hauntings, ghosts, yknow the fun stuff. 

into the daylight by andiwriteordie - THIS IS NOT THE FIRST ONE, it’s just the first one that came up in my bookmarks. anyways, this is the second fic in a fantasy au series. The worldbuilding is really cool and there’s magic and history and politics and i like it a lot. the most recent chapter is spinning around in my mind.

the heartbreak prince by andiwriteordie - THIS IS THE FIRST ONE. 

beneath these boughs, my devotion blooms by perexcri - this is the fic that nearly killed me. i literally cant summarize it because im still recovering from what happened to me when i read it. Did i read it in april? Maybe. Listen, it had me asking questions about things i had never considered before. its 11k but im pretty sure it took me a good few hours to read because it made me think about it so much. again, ive got a bunch of visuals running through my head. its just... so much.

sweetheart, you're so cruel by perexcri - Mike’s in a band, Will’s a music snob, they’re both contemplating their life choices. very fun, very interesting, also made me think about some things. 

keep it hush by wiseatom - theres an amusement park and the horrors of customer service. and some other stuff but basically its pretty bright (the visuals of the fic in my head are bright- like sun glinting off metal- and idk how else to describe it)

the start of an age by delusionaltogether (Whyyyyy) - this ones funny and serious at times and its got Max in it. fantasy au with prince will and knight mike and a secret relationship and a small scheme between three parties that involves a fake (ish) marriage. 

superhero therapy by silverluminoqity - spiderman au with a side of trauma and healing? it’s complicated theres stuff happening, i had a good time reading it. 

you've got this spell on me by andiwriteordie - this one was really fun. basically its a fantasy au theres magic and mike gets himself hit with a spell that makes him fall in love with will and will freaks out about it for a while.

Daydream by disaster_energy - i really really liked this fic. its a fantasy au and its got gods and stuff and will gets chosen by the moon goddess because hes Will and everyone is like... woah.

takes one to know one by andiwriteordie - i also liked this one a lot, its a superhero au and its got ironic (like... dramatic irony- i think is what im talking about? maybe? but like fun irony) secret identities. 

Love goes 'round by evil_ontheinside - conversations in a laundry mat. mikes flopping (as in, flopping around like a fish) around a bit and this was pretty cute. 

my promise could be your fiend (could be the smallest of signs) by s0ld_it - spider man au, theres a bookstore involved and a lot of stuff. ive read this fic twice and greatly enjoyed it both times. 

Tip-toeing on Lily-pads by cherryisgone - very very fun, fantasy au and... mike gets cursed to be a frog. can only be un-cursed with a kiss. 

filling in the blanks as we go by delusionaltogether (Whyyyyy) - bookstore meetcute

there’s more but i spent all day painting my room and i am tired. Ive also got way too many bookmarks to go through and i have decided to stop here. still haven't figured out how to write that comment (but i am working on it because i love the fi(s) and ive been thinking about one specific thing that came up in a new chapter for so long). anyways, i hope someone enjoys this list of au fics from my bookmarks. 

#byler #fic rec

[sunatooru]

I wanna be yours - insert your own (Haikyuu guys)

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Warnings: slight angst, love triangle, college setting towards end

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You were only 15 when you had your first heartbreak.

You watched as another girl confessed to him, hugging him tightly and voicing her affection.

You couldn’t hear anything but the scene was enough to gather tears in your eyes.

You remember returning to class and trying your hardest to push the tears back. You remember the bell ringing and classroom filling up and just a second before the teacher started, your best friend walked in. You would’ve usually smiled at him, telling him to sit down. But that day you couldn’t. You couldn’t even look at him. You couldn’t because your eyes were on the girl behind him. The girl who confessed.

It took some time to heal from the ache. You didn’t stop being friends but there was a gap growing. You felt like no matter how much you pushed your feelings down, they kept bubbling up again. You didn’t really see him with her but it was a topic you two never spoke about. And you didn’t know if you preferred it or not.

Years later you both entered the same college. It was a new environment but you were still best friends. But this was a chance to meet new people. A chance to maybe have your feelings reciprocated.

And then Valentine’s Day came around. You wasn’t expecting much. I mean there was a guy in class who flirted with you here and there but you didn’t think it was serious. And your best friend definitely got the attention you knew he would but you couldn’t be jealous at that. Not publicly anyways.

You went about your day but somehow a letter got into your hands. You opened it not thinking much. You saw your name and as you read the letter, you felt your heart jump at the words. Did someone really feel this way about me? Was I really worth being complimented and cherished?

Your mind started racing. Who could it be? This has to be a mistake? Did I open someone else’s confession letter?!

You were so lost in your thoughts that you didn’t even see who was walking towards you.

“Y/n”

“Oh, hey”

“Did you get it?”

“Get what?” You hesitated. Was it him?

“My letter. I know we haven’t spoken as much but I really like you and would love to take you out.”

You couldn’t believe it. The guy who would flirt with you was now asking you out. You thought back to the letter. There was nothing malicious in it. It was pure. It was beautiful. You watched his face for a bit, chewed your cheeks as you saw nervousness grow on his face. He was nice. He was handsome. And if what he wrote was true, then how could you deny him?

“I would love to go out.”

And that started your now almost 2 year relationship. You loved him. He was amazing. He treated you amazingly. You watched him play volleyball every week and cheer him on. And he would go and do whatever you wanted, even if it was just to watch a silly show with snacks. You never thought you would have a relationship like this. It was fun and loving. Your boyfriend even became friends with your best friend. You did find it a little awkward, but they actually ended up being closer than you thought. You never told your boyfriend about the crush you had on your best friend. It was old news. You had him now and you two were doing great.

It’s exam season and you’re all struggling to catch up on the reading. You and your boyfriend would usually study together, which was you studying as he was a sport major, but you decided to ask your best friend if he wanted to study with you guys for once. Your best friend studied something much harder and you knew how studying with him might be distracting, so you never asked. Which wasn’t a problem to either of you.

You all read and wrote your notes. Walking around every few minutes for a break. Packets of snacks were everywhere.

“Babe, you’re suppose to be training for the weekend?! You can’t eat all my snacks!” You joked to your boyfriend, laughing as he pouted with a biscuit shoved in his mouth.

Your boyfriend had to leave for training, leaving you and your best friend to cram a bit more before calling it a day.

“Hey, I know it’s a different subject but could you check this for me?” He asked you, handing over his notes and pointing at the answer.

You froze as your stared at his notes. What?

You read the whole page. Once. Twice. Three times.

This couldn’t be.

“Maybe write it again here. Sorry, it’s a little messy with the rest of the notes.” You gave him another sheet and watched as he started writing.

He left soon after, waving bye and good luck for the exam. But that wasn’t even in your head. You ran to the sheet you gave him to write on. Grabbing it and start digging into your wardrobe until you found what you were looking for. You read it over and over. Analysing it until you were sure.

It was the same.

It was the same handwriting. Why hadn’t you noticed before? We’re you trying to block it out?

You stare at the letter you got almost two years ago and the sheet your best friend wrote on.

He wrote that letter. He wrote the letter that made you feel seen and loved.

The person you was in love with at 15, loved you back. But now you’re with someone else and he’s been watching you over the last two years being held by another guy, wishing how he just wanted to be yours. Secrets he’s been holding in his heart. Secrets harder than he thought he could hold. Thinking I just wanna be yours.

•

Was this predictable? Trying to get back into writing and got inspo last night after listening to artic monkeys. I see two haikyuu boys in this guy would love to know who you imagine they are. Feedback always appreciated x

#haikyuu x reader #haikyuu imagines #hq x reader #haikyuu fanfic #haikyuu imagine #haikyuu angst

[queenofmalkier]

Queen Nynaeve is nowhere to be seen in the second of the season

Interestingly, the showrunners seem to be favoring Egwene by making her the hero in both season finales. However, I have high hopes for Nynaeve's character development in the next season, depending on how the writers handle her storyline. One thing that I don't enjoy about the books is the lack of Nynaeve's point of view in the later books and the disregard for her safety by her friends. Nynaeve is my favorite character, and it's disappointing to see her become an afterthought to move the plot forward at times in the book, so I am happy with the show expanding her storyline. With that being said, I was disappointed with the finale, but I do see a path forward in season 3 and future seasons. What are your thoughts on the lack of focus on Nynaeve in the second half of the season? What is your expectation for season 3 and future Lan and Nynaeve moments?

I love this ask because I have so many thoughts.

To start with, I have felt disappointment with Nynaeve in the show not being straight up BAMF. I want to see her get hulk!mad and blow stuff up! SHE ANGY!!! But when I take a step back from my violent need to see Nynaeve commit violence of all forms, I'm actually left pretty satisfied with what they've done so far?

Season 1 was about establishing everybody, including Nynaeve. We needed to see that she came from a position of power and respect in the Two Rivers despite her young age. People trusted her because of her knowledge, because she'd proved herself worthy of that trust.

As she's older in the show we don't see the outbursts she's known for in the books nor does she whack people with a stick, but that's too be expected. She's grown past feeling like an imposter as a wisdom - though she still feels the sting of it, as evidenced by how she interacts with Moiraine.

We see her do some incredible things, and then we see she's capable of wielding some truly awe-inspiring power.

Season 2 takes that Nynaeve and scares the hell out of her. I think Ishamael said it best - she's afraid of power. I have a whole schpeel on the arches that I want to do because I think that episode (mostly) hammered home that pure terror she has about wielding the one power, but that's for another day.

Contrary to the books, Nynaeve isn't treated as another novice. Instead these mythical, powerful women she does not trust are borderline obsessed with making her channel . They keep talking about her potential, about her gift, about what she'll do... but none of them is really talking about Nynaeve al'Meara doing those things. They're thinking about the woman they want her to become: Nynaeve Sedai.

They don't even ask what she wants.

The fact that she has a block and cannot control her power is explored more in the show than it is in the early books, in my opinion. Later books she breaks down and admits just how afraid she is, but instead we're getting that earlier - in the arches, she can't heal Tam, then later she explodes in the same rage she did in season one but nobody is healed, nobody is saved.

Close your eyes, think of a flower. We've seen Nynaeve react negatively to that statement more than once, and I think that's a really, really good way to demonstrate just how unlike the other Aes Sedai she is. "It doesn't work for me like that!"

It's heartbreaking to see, and it's why Liandrin is able to manipulate her, because she doesn't treat Nynaeve like everyone else, nor does she really put her on a pedestal. She challenges her, she shows her the possibilities, she tells her there's no one way to be an Aes Sedai. She makes Nynaeve feel seen. (Putting aside the stolen Siuan scenes.)

Ryma is also able to break through Nynaeve's fear because she approaches it on Nynaeve's level, from a place she'd understand. No flowers, no soft petals. Healing.

Without Ryma there she cannot heal Elayne's leg, and she's so hurt and upset that she can't, but she can still help. She still has all the knowledge of a Wisdom inside of her. It lessens the blow of being unable to channel through her fear.

As much as I want to see Nynaeve channeling like a beast, I'm enjoying watching her work her way through her fear in a way that will make her channeling later on feel earned.

I'm hoping in Season 3 that she acknowledges that fear, as well as her feelings of being a failure to those around her when that imposter syndrome comes back in full - and that she gets past it with the help of Egwene and Elayne, two women who see her for her, and not for the power she can wield.

In regards to Lan/Nynaeve if we don't get the ring scene in Season 3 I'm gonna be so upset lol. It's really difficult to judge where they're taking things from here - how's Tear going to fit in? The hunt for the Black Ajah? Are we staying together? My guess is the 'better together' theme of Season 2 is going to expand to Rand breaking up the gang again because of his own fears, but I really don't know and I'm trying not to overthink it.

#wheel of time #wheel of time tv series #wot prime spoilers #nynaeve al'meara #wheel of time book spoilers

[observeowl]

Ghost Dates N.R

Natasha Romanoff x Reader

Summary: Someone has been sabotaging R dates

Your POV It's been months since Natasha and I broke up. We were arguing and it got too far as we were shouting at one another and in the heat of the moment, we decided to break up. And even though it was tough both for us we were too stubborn to admit that we still love each other.

My sister thought it was about time I got back into the dating scene and set me up with a blind date. I was a little hesitant in doing so as I was meeting a regular citizen and I don't think they'll be patient enough to stay when I'm on a long mission. The whole reason why Natasha and I started arguing - I was tired from a long mission and didn't pay any attention to her as I just wanted to sleep.

"Looking good Y/N." My sister said as I left the room all dressed and ready to go. It's been a while since I dolled up as I'm always in my sweats and baggy shirt.

"Thanks Maria." She gave me the location and I got in my car driving towards it.

Maria POV After seeing Y/N off, I noticed Natasha was nowhere to be seen. She was still here in the living room when Y/N came down. Maybe she went up to her room.

I shrugged and sat on the couch joining the rest at what they're watching. Finally Y/N was able to have sometime to herself and heal after the breakup with Natasha. It's never nice having your sister come running to you after a heartbreak. I didn't allow her to go for any mission because I knew she was going to be reckless and careless about her actions.

A few hours later, Y/N came back but she looked down. The rest of us looked between one another not being able to figure out what could have happened. I thought the date would be good for her but maybe it did the opposite?

"Y/N, how was it?" I asked, seeing as no one else dared.

"I... I don't know." Y/N said as she came and sat next to me when Clint made space for her. "I mean, it was going well at first until she came back from the washroom and couldn't wait to leave."

"It's fine Y/N, maybe she wasn't meant for you as well." Wanda said.

Y/N took a huge sigh and stood up. "I guess so. I'm going to change out of this annoying dress and go to sleep. Goodnight guys." She greeted before leaving.

This was just the first try. Every month I try to set someone up with Y/N and it takes a lot of encouragement and bribing for it to work. As if possessed by the devil, each of the dates ended up the same way. It was as if they had seen a ghost and took their bags and left the venue.

"Maria... I don't want to go on a blind date anymore..." She whined when I presented her with the idea again. "The girls just keep running away as if I am some kind of a disease, why do you have to do this to me?"

"Y/N please... just one last time. One last time and if it doesn't work, I will stop, I promise." I pleaded.

Y/N raised her index finger at me. "One last time. I'm sick and tired of this. Wasting my time." She muttered at the end as she turned to face her closet to find something appropriate to wear.

Natasha POV I have been following Y/N on her dates that Maria has so kindly set up for her. My blood boils whenever I see the girl sitting in front of her that should have been me. Each time I threaten them in the washroom, I make sure they follow my orders or my blade is going to end up on their necks.

This time was no different. I hack into her phone as people these days have no sense of security and use the free internet the restaurant has to offer. After sending an anonymous text to her phone, I waited in the washroom until my target entered.

Once the target entered the washroom, I placed my hands around her mouth and dragged her to a stall. "You will listen as I say." I glared at her and she instantly nodded frantically. "Once you get out, I want you to leave whoever you were meeting and never see her again."

"Did I make myself clear?" I raised my voice slightly but enough so that people outside wouldn't know what's happening. She nodded, tears almost streaming down her face. "Good, I will be watching, don't do any funny moves." I released her and let her exit the stall first until I saw Y/N standing in front, surely hearing all the things that happened.

"Sorry about what happened. You can leave. I would make sure she doesn't do anything to you." Y/N told the girl and held open the door for her to exit. Y/N gave me a glance before exiting herself and getting her things to leave.

"Y/N!" I ran after her.

"How could you do this? Terrorising my dates so that they leave. You really make me feel as if I'm unwanted. Was that your goal?" She turned and shouted.

"Y/N baby."

"Don't call me baby. You lost that right when we broke up." She raised her arm to put some distance between us. "You did this for months and..." She scoffed, not knowing how to continue.

"Because I am still in love with you!"

"So do-, but you don't see me creepingly watching you from afar to the point where I chase people away who are surrounding you." She argued. "This is wrong."

"Tell me... tell me you don't love me anymore and I'll stop."

"Nat... you can't make me do this." She shook her head.

"Just say it."

"I... I still love you."

#natasha x y/n #natasha x you #natasha x reader #natasha romanoff #black widow #no idea how to end it #ghost dates #my writing

[jenniquinn]

Eddie Munson X Reader

Watching the scene in front of you about killed you. You and Dustin ran as fast as you could to Eddie. The same Eddie who battled a bunch of demobats to you, the woman he loves. "Y/N" he says and you gently lift him in your lap, tears falling down both your faces. You wipe his tears "I didn't run away this time right" he mumbles and you push his hair from his face. "No baby you didn't run" you say leaning your face closer. You watch as he stops breathing and you scream, still holding onto him. Dustin tries to get you to leave him but you can't.

You'd rather die here in the upside down before you ever left him. Reluctantly the leaves you behind and close the gate. They knew there was no way you'd ever leave Eddie. The same Eddie who was the best part of you. Steve took off Eddie's vest and gave it to you before they left. So here you were hoping death somehow finds you.

You lay next to Eddie holding his hand as you sob. You never knew heartbreak like this. Everything hurts. Time moves slowly, a few days pass when suddenly Eddie shoots up. You scramble away. His eyes are wide but he looks at you. Surprisingly he's healed and you don't know how. He looks over at you "y/n" he whispers moving closer but you manage to stand and he does too. "How are you alive" you whisper looking him over.

He steps towards you "what are you talking about" he asks confused. You take a breath "I watched you die. I watched you take your breath" you tell him. He is confused "I died" he asks and you nod. He looks around him "did we get vecna" he asks and you shrug. You honestly couldn't remember what the others said. "I dunno" he looks at you.

"where is everyone" he asks and you don't know how to answer at first. You step towards him, reaching a hand towards his face to feel if he is actually real. He is. "I made them leave. I promised you I wouldn't leave you". "Are we stuck here" he asks and you shrug. "Let's look around maybe we can figure out something" he nods agreeing.

You walk around and head to the wheeler house. It hits you "maybe we can try the lights. Maybe they can figure something out". He grabs your hand and you both run inside. You look at the light and reach the lights. Hoping someone notices. You try for a bit and decide to walk out. Once on the porch you look in front of you to see a gate open.

You grab Eddie's hand and run into it. You both fall to the ground and see all your friends standing around. "Eddie" everyone screams. "How". A million questions are asked. "I dunno he shot up and was alive, scared me to death" you tell them still holding onto him never wanting to let him go. Next apologies come and tell them all not to worry.

Next you guys head to where Wayne is staying. You can tell he's nervous to see Wayne. Once you step in front of the trailer he looks at you. He grabs your hand again. You pull him close and you knock. Wayne opens the door. He stands shocked before pulling Eddie in for a hug. "Where have you been? I thought you two died in the quake" he says and Eddie looks at you. You smile still refusing to let Eddie's hand go "we got lost but we are back now" you tell him and Eddie nods, unsure of what to say.

"I wanted to stop by before we leave again" Eddie tells Wayne and he just looks at him. "Why would you leave" Wayne asks. "I'm still wanted for Chrissy's murder" Wayne shakes his head. "No boy you've been cleared of all charges" you look at Eddie with a smile but he's confused "how". "Hopper is back. He explained what he could and they got them dropped".

For the first time Eddie relaxes. "I'm gonna shower" Eddie says and you nod. Wayne leaves you be and you walk to his room. He stops and sees boxes with his name on them. He goes through them and finds clothes for both of you. You both strip and you finally see for yourself that he is fact healed. All that is left are scars from the bites.

You turn the shower on and when it's ready you both step in. He sticks his head under the water, letting his hair get wet. You grab shampoo and put it in your hands. "Bend" you say. He turns and bends down as you gently scrub his hair. He sighs. You don't know what he's thinking or feeling, all you want to do is make him feel better. You place a kiss on his neck. "Rinse" you say and he does.

You just watch him, you feel like if you blink he might go away. "My turn" you hear and see he has soap in his hands now. You turn and it feels surreal after everything that he is touching you. Once he's done you grab a wash cloth and hand him one and you both wash off the upside down. It's amazing how much you both feel better. The water shuts off and you move to step out when he pulls you close.

"I never thanked you for staying. I don't know what I would have woken up alone" he says and you stand on toes to his lips. "You will never be alone, ever again you hear me" you say and he nods. Both are too tired so you dry off and quickly dress. You walk out and sit on the couch. Eventually you both sleep. And that is when they began, the nightmares for both of you. But you were there for each other helping you through them. Just thankful you are both alive and together.

#eddie x you #eddie munson #eddie munson imagine #eddie munson imagines #eddie munson x y/n #stranger things

[heyyallitsbeth]

so i let the hyperfixation win.

over the past several hours i rewatched Sword Art Online and SAO 2.

(this time dubbed, last time i watched it subbed)

here are my thoughts:

-anyone who said the dub was bad is just wrong. Kirito's VA really shines in the more comedic or sweet moments (like when first meeting Yui), he reminds me of like a Peter Parker. and oh my lord, the breakdown by Suguha's VA was just a masterpiece. Still have chills from watching it.

-i have such a big appreciation for every character. This time it really shined through how good of characters Kirito, Asuna, and Suguha actually are.

Kirito's internal conflict throughout SAO2 is so good, grappling with their actions they needed to take in SAO to survive. and throughout all of it you can tell how much they truly loves their friends and family, and how kind hearted they really are. Asuna definitely fits into that role as well, being so ready to take care of Yui and so desperately wanting her to be safe and loved and cared for.

And oh my gosh Suguha. I remember people absolutely hated her arc because it is problematic, but the fact is, it's played entirely serious, her feelings arent taken as a joke. She has a genuine and real internal struggle for feeling things she feels she shouldnt, and how she feels those feelings arent reciprocated or cant be reciprocated, and having her heart broken twice by someone who she loves and someone who also does still genuinely love her. Its absolutely heartbreaking to watch.

Man, Sinon is still fantastic. She's still my absolute favorite, and I think she is one of the best characters in the show, and pretty much steals the show from her introduction. Her arc ties in so seamlessly with Kirito's and how they help eachother heal and grow is fantastic. Only complaint is we never got a scene of the rest of the Gals being jealous about the grenade hug she gave Kirito. After Kirito and Sinon nearly died, wouldve been some nice relief so you didnt feel like you yourself were dying.

-Speaking of, while there was definitely a ton of fanservice, the pseudo-harem aspect with the jokes were kinda cute, between characters seeing flirting happen around them, getting embarassed over it, its fun. Especially when people got jealous of Sinon flirting with Kirito over Excalibur. That part was very fun, since they did that infront of everyone else, almost like they were trying to get a rise out of them. Theyre not exactly the pinnacle of comedy, its definitely a trope, but theres something nostalgic about it that makes it kinda enjoyable.

-Speaking of the psuedo-harem, guys if all of you are constantly flirting with eachother (not just Kirito surprisingly, happens between the other girls frequently) and jealous of any affection with that, just start a polycule. You're a group of gamer girls playing MMOs together and all of you have slept in the same bed with eachother. Stop snipping at eachother and start dating eachother. Polyamory is pretty cool. Kirito and Asuna can still be the main duo and be the parents to Yui and Strea; but yall gotta work on the jealousy or just do what every other group of girl gamers does, polyamory. Lisbeth you should not be angrily drinking while watching Kirito and Asuna talk. (this is mostly a joke, im not actually saying they *have* to do a polycule, its more of a joke because of how tropey a lot of the flirting and jealousy is, and yknow, gay girls do polyamory, so dont take this part toooooo seriously.)

-Speaking of girls dating girls, the LGBT rep aint half bad. Argo canonically using both male and female pronouns is really cool! Most of the girls flirt with eachother a lot too, which is nice. Between the female avatar, the willingness to pretend to be a girl, the introversion, the desire to be an avatar in a virtual world more than irl, Kirito might be transgender. All good stuff here.

Overall, SAO is honestly way better than I remembered, even if some parts definitely show its age. You gotta piece it together a little bit with headcanons, but i do that with every show, nothing is perfect. Except Sinon. And a world where trans Kirito is canon. Those are perfect.

#sao #sword art online

[sayshiny]

Shadows and Rebirth

Over the last few days I've had a name and it's variation pop up in unconnected ways. I've had memories of my ex come up in unexpected ways. Images of blooming flowers. I don't believe in coincidences. When something so seemingly random comes up more than once, I start paying attention.

Especially this week.

What you need to know is I'm seeing all of these paths converging onto one topic: Healing after heartbreak.

"Adonis was the deity of plants and rebirth. He is known as a god who was for ever youthful, the one who would live and die only to be reborn again."

Yesterday I watched The Wedding Planner (JLo and Matthew Mchaughneheyheblahblah) for probably the 30th time. It's a comfort movie that I haven't seen in a handful of years. I haven't seen it since before I left my ex in 2020. There's a scene where JLo and MM are walking through a statue garden and Adonis is brought up (the first instance). I forgot about the later scene where JLO is drunk on the couch crying to MM because they had just ran into her ex in the flower mart along with his pregnant wife, the woman he cheated on her with right before they got married. My ex cheated on me and is now married and (i think) expecting a baby. We can all make small connections like that, no problem. But then...

A part of my job is monitoring licenses for our drivers. My boss told me someone with the last name Donis got a DUI and we needed to revoke his use of company vehicles. My ex, E, got a DUI when we were together and it was a dark cloud that hung over us both. I did all the driving, E did most of the drinking. Especially since he lived 3 hours away from me in Greensboro. Every other weekend for 2 years I drove 3 hours to GBO to spend time with him. Usually it was spent with him drinking and me crying. Shadows followed me during that entire relationship. I haven't been back to GBO since I left him (the morning I found out he cheated) and vowed I would never return... but...

"One thing for sure about Sting is nothing's for sure."

Since childhood, my favorite wrestler has been Sting. Outside of him being a great wrestler, he's a good man, and I've learned a lot from his story. He went through pain, addiction, and depression. He was so affected that his usual surfer Sting style turned into Crow Sting. He taught me that joy and pain are two sides to the same coin. Both exist and one can lead to another no matter how you flip it. I made another vow this year that I would be present for his retirement match no matter how far I had to travel. In 6 days he will be in the ring one last time. In 6 days my favorite wrestler is having his retirement match in Greensboro. In 6 days I'll be spending time with the friends that held me when I cried over E and the Pisces that has watered my wilted vines. In 6 days I'll be going back to the scene of the crime, the city of my heartbreak, the source of my trauma, the place the shadows call home. Of all the cities in all the world.

But I will be there with the friends that held me, with the Pisces that watered me, watching the wrestler that taught me.

What all of these names and images and stories are telling me is that healing from heartbreak is coming. Not the beginning of it, but the completion of it. It's telling me that God has laid a direct, very poetic hand on my heart. It's telling me that justice will be done. The bell is going to ring, the hands will raise, the crowd will cheer, the laces will untie, and the boots will be left where the fight with the shadows ended.

“When a man’s heart is full of deceit, it burns up, dies, and a dark shadow falls over his soul.”

This haunting line is pure Sting, encapsulating the darkness of his “Crow” persona. It’s a poetic, almost Shakespearean reflection on the consequences of betrayal and the inner turmoil it causes. Fans love this quote because it paints a vivid picture of a fallen hero’s journey through the shadows. It’s a reminder that wrestling isn’t just about physical battles; it’s about the emotional and psychological warfare that takes place both in and out of the ring.

#serendipity #spilled ink #scrambled thoughts #shadows #rebirth #love #heartbreak

[firstprince-history-huh]

Top Favourite Tarlos Scenes!

I was tagged by @beautifulhigh @goodways @whenshereads @welcometololaland @rmd-writes

Thank you so much for the tags! ❤💕

Ok so it was a very tough choice to narrow it down to just 5 scenes. So I'm going to mention all my favourite ones! And because I am not able to categorize them according to degree of favourite-ness, I'm putting them in reverse order of appearance.

Here we go:

1. 4x18 The TARLOS WEDDING!

Honestly the entire wedding was so beautiful & such an amazing celebration of their love! And THE VOWS! Absolutely beautiful & emotional & so full of love for each other! Miracle. The care for each other's hearts. And I loved how each of their faiths was incorporated into it!

2. 4x16 SOULMATES

"I'll say, hi! You're TK. I'm Carlos. And we're soulmates."

"How long have you thought that?" "Since the first night I took you home."

THEY'RE SOULMATES YOUR HONOR!

Honestly, this was so beautiful! Carlos being so in love with TK from the very beginning & TK feeling the same way about Carlos but not wanting to experience another heartbreak so running away then. But how in this scene to show TK that he's always going to be there for him Carlos does say that he's not going anywhere.

The EMOTIONS! Ronen & Rafa just were so brilliant here! The was Carlos says 'Hi' & the way TK says 'Soulmate' I just- my heart melted right there!

3. 4x04 "It's yours"

When he said that, I absolutely went feral! It was such a lovely moment!

4. 4x02 The couch scene

"I was trying to fix myself. But I was trying to fix something that wasn't actually broken."

"When did you figure that out?"

"Probably... the day I met you."

Carlos saying this last line & in the absolutely cutest voice ever, TK saying "Shut up."

It was such a beautiful & lovely moment! All his life, Carlos being lonely & thinking he was never going to truly have the love he wanted & thinking that he was broken & THEN. AND THEN seeing TK & realising that that he was not actually broken & that he could have this love!

5. 3x18 The PROPOSAL

The absolute simplicity & beauty of it just blew me away! And the number of times I have rewatched it! It was so perfect because it was so them! And the "IS THE LIZARD BACK" had me laughing so much!

And I felt this was such a full-circle moment for TK. In the pilot he was proposing to someone to save the relationship & how that turned out for him & how it lead him to the place where he would heal & find love again. And then how he proposed to Carlos here to progress into cementing their future together just like he always wanted.

6. 3x13 The dinner scene

This scene is so brilliant! Carlos expresses his feelings & TK explains his. And by the end of this episode Carlos realises that despite wanting to help TK, he might not always be able to. And also another thought I have about this is how at the end of that episode the "I love you." "I know." was so beautiful. And my HC (and as I've seen others express this as well) is that it was this moment that TK thought that he wanted to marry Carlos.

7. 3x08 The tarmac hug

All the worry & fear on their faces & how it relaxed when they saw each other. And the body slam hug. And Carlos blaming himself & panicking & TK knowing exactly what he needs! It's such a beautiful scene!

8. 3x04 Hi baby. Breathe, breathe, breathe & Welcome home

Such a lovely & satisfying conclusion to the Ice Storm arc! And TARLOS BEING BACK TOGETHER! TK reaching out for Carlos & then the hug with Carlos literally collapsing into him & TK holding him as tight as he is able to! And then TK coming home to Carlos because he is his home! (I love the fact that they are each other's home! They are the perfect embodiment of the thought that home is not four walls but a person!)

9. 2x04 The fight & the making up

The fight & how both of them in that moment not getting where the other is coming from but then later Carlos telling his truth & TK being so supportive & understanding!

10. 2x02 Hug at the stairs

Owen telling everyone to go home & TK going to Carlos because (once again, as I said before) THEY'RE EACH OTHER'S HOME! And Carlos waiting for TK at the stairs & how TK just collapses into the hug with Carlos. That collapsing & the hug was such a soft moment.

11. 1x03 At the police station

TK being vulnerable early on & Carlos's reaction to it. Carlos trying to be all cool & aloof at first & not letting his hurt show from the dinner scene of the previous episode & then immediately blaming himself & apologizing when TK tells him why he reacted the way he did at the dinner. And I love that this scene was their chemistry read!

I'm a bit late to doing this so not sure who has done it yet. But no pressure tagging:

@actuallysara @actual-sleeping-beauty @first-kanaphan @detective-giggles @sarnagati @ladytessa74 @just-inside-her @carlos-in-glasses @heartstringsduet @liminalmemories21 @cold-blooded-jelly-doughnut @meditating-honey-badger @fangirl-paba @paperstorm @kiloskywalker & anyone who wants to participate!

#tarlos #911 lone star #tag games #favourite tarlos scenes

[thinkingofausername]

I should be writing a book report for uni and what better way to procrastinate than to continue the commentary of @redwingedwhump's Captured series :)

Chapter 13

Ah. The Chapter. I'm getting giddy before I've even started reading.

Three-days-long break? Harrow, sweetie, I hope you've appreciated it because you're in for a ride xd

Harrow trying to get up, while being watched, being too slow and getting manhandled for it? I love the subtle tension and embarrassment.

"Harrow was shocked and then furious with himself at how thoughtlessly he did as ordered" - the gradual resignation and obedience, intentional or not, never fails to amaze me. The writing is incredibly well-paced.

Harrow having Conroy's hands on his throat and immediately expecting to be choked? *sobs*

Okay but the parallel between Harrow sacrificing folks on an altar and him being on the anvil, looking much the same as the people he sacrificed? Beautiful.

The "purified through pain" never fails to make my blood boil, Jesus.

Emmet looking away *sobs some more*

"On the anvil we are all forged, and on the anvil you will be broken." Okay ngl, Conroy has a way with words. That was kind of beautiful. (Sorry Harrow)

Those boys watching, almost gleefully, before realizing the reality before them is much more brutal? Wow.

"You can control how long this takes and how bloody you're about to be, Harrow." God, I love the irony so much. He absolutely could not control any of this. He tried, as he always has, but the entire experience was Harrow coming to terms with the fact that he Is Not In Control.

"Glare if you understand me. Ah, good." I'm sorry but this is hilarious xd

"The horse-kick force of the blow followed a second later by the pain, delayed but brilliant and sharp." Wow. Just wow. (I'm starting to think the author was actually there, ngl)

Harrow making a sound only after the sixth blow? Jesus, that man was Something. Makes his downfall even more tragic, looking back.

Whipping over the already freshly whipped skin? JESUS. How Harrow didn't pass out or throw up right then and there is truly beyond me.

Harrow looking Emmet right in the eyes during this? CHILLS. LITERAL CHILLS.

Conroy continuing to whip Harrow after he's passed out was gruesome, ngl. Just imagining the scene, the horrified boys, especially Emmet, Harrow's back likely looking shredded and receiving even more cruelty on top of that, likely the only sound being the sound of the whip? Goosebumps.

Chapter 14

Harrow resembling a feral, injured animal lashing out at Emmet is beautiful for some reason. I bet he was quite graceful to witness before all this, with his confidence and wine and reputation.

Harrow's attitude switching and him being soft with the boy? Heartbreaking. They both had their lives changed forever in that cell, in ways both different and similar. They both learned the thin line between righteousness and cruelty and this story overall is just incredible for that.

Harrow feeling the bit of reprieve when the cold cloth touched his back? Making me incredibly sad for some reason.

"Luckily the combined weight of both men was enough to hold the mat down, or Harrow might have dragged it to the wall with how hard he was pulling on that chain, Emmet thought." Wonderful detail, but also I love that Harrow still had strength in him then.

Harrow is older than me and yet somehow I feel incredibly fond of him when he reveals he's just 27.

Harrow's interactions with Emmet being the only soft moments in captivity, and yet even they can't go without pain (of the healing) is just... yeah.

"I wasn’t exactly born an unredeemably evil warlock, you know. I was seventeen once… A very long time ago.

Emmet didn’t answer, and then door was closing, and the bolts turned in the lock." Goddddddd. This killed me.

Chapter 15

"Gears were turning somewhere and he was lifted until his toes brushed the ground, driving a breathless sob out of him as his weight against muscle and bone tore and opened some of the tender places on his shoulders. He felt thin rivulets of blood begin to trickle between his shoulder blades and down his back." REDDDDDDDDD I can't with your cleverly simple and vivid descriptions.

"Ah. And there we have the whole of the man, reduced to nothing more than that." I have to hand it to Conroy, his lines are immaculate.

Man, Conroy REALLY wanted Harrow irreparably and thoroughly broken. Burning an already burned man (whose specialty was fire)... there's just so much irony, cruelty and symbolism in here.

Harrow actually wanting to be burned, rather than face the intrusive and haunting memories? Despairing, memorable and gorgeous.

Chapter 16

"That wasn’t pain. That was worse. Because he wanted it." Red, I don't even know what to tell you. These few chapters specifically are peak whump for me. Turning Harrow's mind against himself by making him succumb to the need for comfort and reprieve is still one of the best moments in the entire whump community's history. This is the essence of the psychology of whump for me.

Yeah I can't even imagine how Harrow feels looking back on this day...

Chapter 17

"You bastard!! I couldn’t even try t’ defend myself, I was out of my mind with fever, you sick bastard!!" YES THAT'S EXACTLY IT, HARROW. You were helpless and defenseless and that was taken advantage of. Sound familiar? (I still love him but boy, did he need that lesson)

"Blood met cold air, and stung in the open cut." Loving this.

Aaaaaaand once again, ladies and gentlemen, Harrow's pride is a natural response of his, which aids his downfall. Conroy really butchered him to get him to beg... damn.

as always... to be continued...

#whump #captivity whump

[letstalkwhump]

Let's Talk Whump

Welcome to Let’s Talk Whump, a series of interviews that spotlight the amazing people in our whump community! I’m Malice and I’ll be your host today. 

Here today to talk all things whumpy is the fabulous @flowersarefreetherapy!

It’s an honor to have you here! Do you want to start us off with a fact or two about yourself?

Hi! I’m Marz, I’m a baby adult, and newer here to the whump scene! My favorite color is blue and I enjoy a huge variety of music. I have a Golden Retriever named Guinevere who is five years old and loves swimming, chasing tennis balls, and running through corn fields. Yeah, that’s about it! 

Let’s get straight to the point. What does whump mean to you?

As much as I love the hurt part of it, whump to me is about healing. It’s about picking yourself up even after life has beaten you into the ground. It’s finding your people who will help you and stand by your side on good and bad days. It’s taking those little steps towards healing, then looking back one day and realizing just how far you’ve come and how much you’ve accomplished. The pain and whumping of characters is horribly fun, but it’s the recovery and knowledge that there is something to lose that makes whump for me. 

How did you find the whump community and what made you want to join? 

So, I found the whump community purely by accident by jumping through writing blogs on Tumblr about three years ago, I think?? It was around 2019-2020 and I was looking for writing prompts when I stumbled onto @ashintheairlikesnow’s blog and learned there was a whole community dedicated to the hurt/comfort plotlines I had been reading all my life. Really what made me want to join was seeing there was an audience for the whump I was writing and the acceptance of OCs I was struggling to find in other writing circles. So I lurked for a while and then made the decision to join!

Do you think that your view of whump has shifted since you discovered it?

My view on whump has stayed the same, but what I write about has expanded. I’ve been exploring the BBU sandbox with different characters and different perspectives. It’s been a good challenge and one I look forward to continuing! 

Everyone’s favourite question: what are your favourite whump tropes?

Dehumanization and noncon are two of my favorites. What makes them so appealing to me is the loss of autonomy and the way it can fully break a character. Not only that, but it allows for some very fun power dynamics that I really enjoy in whump. Alongside that, those two tropes lead to the characters learning how to rebuild their world, their trust of other people, and what kind of life they want to make as part of their future. The healing that’s involved in both these tropes is messy and hard and something that is fought for, always with the support of those around them.

Would you mind sharing a favourite piece you've written? Hype yourself up, we want to hear it!

This is one of my favorite pieces! I love Thad’s breakdown here and while writing it, having that insight into how his past training impacts how he sees himself and sees the kids they’ve taken in. Another really fun piece I love is this one, mainly for the emotion and heartbreak of it all. 

Aww Thad! So much emotion in “You Are My Sunshine” ! Do you have a standard writing routine?

Chaos!! *evil laughter here* Just kidding (mostly). I tend to write when the inspiration strikes and knock out large chunks of writing at a time. Sometimes I’ll write bit by bit, especially when life is crazy, but I prefer to have the uninterrupted chunks of time. Usually I have caffeine with me as well to help the writing process speed along, in which my poison of choice there is Dr. Pepper!

And do you find some things are easier to write than others?

Dialogue! I love writing every bit of it! Using the words to both reveal and hide characters’ motives, changing what they want to say into what they can’t, playing around with hidden meaning in the phrases chosen: all of it is so good and makes it so fun to write! If I could write scenes that are all dialogue I would 

Is there anything you're working on at the moment?

Something I’ve been working on for a while is the next part of my Hold On series. It’s about to get sticky and complicated, so I'm working on how to get all the characters going the way I want them to. Of course, that’s not going to happen, but I’m trying to at least plot a path for the characters to run down.

Do you have a joke or pun you would like to share to spread some smiles today?

. . . . . . . wish I could be hilarious on command, but sadly I am cursed to not be.

That’s fine! Do you have any writing advice you’d like to share?

Love your writing, even the bits that seem weird or you think no one will like them. There are people who will love it and read it and scream about parts you didn’t even think were that good. You will find your writing groove and you’ll find your audience. Also, don’t delete anything! That is really important! You can always go back and edit a choppy scene or reuse a bit of dialogue, but deleting something means starting from a blank slate. Scenes can always be reworked, so keep them!

Shout out your favourite writing/whump blogs, bffs or people who've inspired you! 

Oh man, oh man, there are so many people I could highlight! Seriously, this community is fantastic and wonderful and so welcoming! I had heard that about the whump community, but experiencing it for myself has been an honor. Okay, so people to shout out: 

@for-the-love-of-angst (you know why. For everything, thank you <3) @eatyourdamnpears (chaos friend!) @whumpcereal (your writing! ah!), @winedark-whump (your responses to every one of my ramblings on discord always make my day), @ashintheairlikesnow (still in awe of your writing/characters) @pigeonwhumps (*waves*) @quietly-by-myself (your characters!!) @soheavyaburden (characters! Writing! plotline!), @blood-is-compulsory (screaming in the tags is always welcome!) and so many more I have probably forgotten (in which case you can yell at me in the comments)

Seriously, go check out each and every one of these people! They are amazing and so so so cool and you won’t regret it at all!

Finally, is there anything you'd like to add?

Thank you for this opportunity and to everyone for making this community so welcoming!

Thank you for joining us today, @flowersarefreetherapy !

And to all you lovely folk at home, have a whump-derful day!

[michelleelizabethtanner]

Random episode rewatch: 3.05 Au Jus, with an honorable mention to 3.06 Frere Jacques

I decided that pain would propel my workout today so I rewatched 3.05 where Rio and Beth kill Lucy. And yeah, they both kill Lucy. Rio’s men pull the trigger but Beth and Rio’s “lover’s spat” makes it happen. On the heels of El Musgo and one of the most painfully intimate scenes in the entire show, we get Brio heartbreak games – both refusing to give in, both intent on pushing this thing forward, casualties be damned.

You can’t tell me this isn’t just a power trip for them both. Deadly foreplay. The way he flirts with Lucy, speaks softly to her, uses his kindest voice. And the way it’s all for Beth’s benefit and she knows it. It’s almost sexual. Rio’s lip licks and bites and deliberately maneuvering his mouth in ways he thinks are sexual or seductive. Kinda like he did when he invited her to get on top of her desk.

The very specific ways they try to hurt each other, in the deepest, most intimate ways they can.

“My girl.” He knows what that means to her. The familiarity of it. The way he looks right at her while reaching for Lucy.

And the way Beth retaliates by mentioning Rio’s son. That was deliberate and intended to wound deeply. Because he allowed her to know he has a son in good times. He trusted her. He opened up to her. And she betrayed him so deeply. Then used her knowledge of his personal life to infiltrate his family, get close to them, cross boundaries in her greatest betrayal of him. You can see Rio’s face change as she mentions Marcus. Maybe that’s what did it. 🤷‍♀️ Probably not – he would have killed Lucy anyway – but Beth knew what she was doing, knew it was careless, and she didn’t care.

The aftermath of Lucy’s death is what made me do an extra 15 of cardio and watch into 3.06. Because I needed my heart to be in complete shreds. Gets the heart rate up. Burns more calories that way. 😆

All three women are all deeply affected by seeing Lucy killed. Each are desperate to try and process the event. How interesting that In My Room is the song of choice here, particularly performed by a children’s choir.

“There’s a world that I can go and tell my secrets to. In this world I lock out all my worries and my fears. Do my dreaming and my scheming, lie awake and pray. Do my crying and my sighing, laugh at yesterday.”

So a safe space. Annie and Ruby both go to their safe spaces and their safe people.

Ruby goes to Stan and they have a very vulnerable and open discussion about their relationship during which Ruby is ultimately comforted. Same with Annie – she goes to Ben and they have a healing heart-to-heart and both fall asleep comforted.

Beth goes to no one. She carries the event on her own. Even when she discusses it with Annie and Ruby later Beth never shows much emotion. She never leans on anyone and you can almost see her compartmentalize as she deals with the world around her and tries to maintain. Until she can’t anymore.

There isn’t anyone Beth can take this hurt and trauma to. There isn’t anyone who would understand her. Except one person.

The way she waits for him at that picnic table is like someone holding a heavy weight that they can’t bear much longer. She needs to unload on her person. She needs that intimate conversation that Ruby and Annie got to have. She doesn’t want to talk to Mick. She wants Rio. She says the things to get Mick to call him, and he comes to her. Despite whatever anger Rio is feeling, he comes to her and sits beside her. And she can finally let go.

Yeah, they yell and they air their grievances

But in the end she gets to have her moment of comfort with her person. The only person who understands. Despite all the anger and the betrayal, he’s still the only one who sees her.

#3.05 #3.06 #the hurt of it all #i live for their pain #brio #beth x rio #good girls nbc #random episode rewatch

[chidoroki]

182 Days of TPN - Day 26

Chapter 26: “I Want to Live”

Believe me, I did hate Isabella once upon a time because of her causing such serious harm to our best girl, but nowadays I can’t help but be a bit amazed that she had the strength (& skill??) to break Emma’s leg so perfectly that it heals up right before the escape. Take about excellent timing.

Seeing Lani, Thoma, Anna & Nat react this way about Emma’s leg because they’re already informed of the house’s secret since the night Krone spoke with NE is just so good. Aahhh, it’s little moments like this that make revisiting this series so worth it.

I’m constantly flipping between fear and praise for Isabella in regards to everything she’s accomplished in one day. From eliminating Krone and clearing out her room in mere minutes, to breaking the strong six year deal with her son, then sprinting across the entire plantation to reach NE before their wall investigation even began, effortlessly snapping Emma’s leg which in turn delays any other attempt of an early escape and finally revealed the news of Norman’s shipment that sends the group of five into a panic.. all of that Isabella accomplishes in just a couple hours and not once did she encounter any sort of problem. She is such a chess-master. The way her mind works is impressively frightening. 

This panel is totally heartbreaking for sure and only comes up in Emma’s imagination, but why couldn’t the anime include it?? They could’ve even squeezed it into someone’s nightmare at some point post-escape since RE both heavily regretted not being able to save Norman. That’s just wishful thinking on my part though, you know, if the second season actually followed the story and gave us original scenes we actually wanted to see.

Bro he already look so dead inside.. this poor boy is trying his hardest to stay positive for Emma but mentally he is about to fall apart.

The parallel of the cup overfilling with water as Norman experiences an overwhelming desire to live alongside everyone is so emotional. I wanna hug him please!

I know many people (even Ray) believed it was foolish of Emma’s plan to escape with everyone, but I can’t deny that tighter security would be problematic for those that end up getting left behind. Even though they couldn’t save all the kids, escaping with the fifteen oldest kids at least grants the younger ones at the house a couple more years since the farm needed more decent quality merchandise to ship out anyway.

Typical chidoroki post involving even more Isabella praise, what a surprise. Knowing she was prepared to break a limb of someone is such a scary thought though.. this woman is so serious about her own survival and there’s no way she’s gonna let herself be outplayed by a couple children. (Also, what’s with the “silence please” note on the wall? Did she put that there? Why? When? How do I find it so intriguing and humorous at the same time?)

Favorite panel/moment:

This is the first time where I went through a whole chapter and didn’t instantly go “YES! That one!” so let me think for a moment, umm.. here.

 He’s doing his best to hide his pain.

#the promised neverland #tpn manga #182daysoftpn #chidoroki used chatter

[ygsunflower]

Only on S1E08 of my Station 19 rewatch but I can already see how much Maya has changed throughout the seasons- She was such an intense character. Everything about her in the early episodes scream intensity and confidence (with maybe a hint of smugness). Her messed up “eyes forward” mantra was also the signature of her character. She sincerely believed in her Dad’s philosophy and was genuinely happy to be that carbon copy of her dad.

Her “pushing through pain no matter what” mentality not only ingrained in her actions, it also showed up when she’s helping others- a) When she was helping Vic getting over her trauma with being surrounded by fire, Vic was clearly triggered yet Maya kept pushing her over the edge. b) She was championing for Andy to become the captain every opportunity she got. She constantly cheered Andy up, and she also not so subtly reminded others how much Andy had helped each one of them grow into the firefighter they were. And, she wasn’t afraid of making her stand known by everyone. (Side note, Maya truly is a bigger person… I know I am biased and bitter, but she was loyal and genuinely wanted nothing but the best for her friends. She supported them without a single hesitation but look what she got in return… No one cheered for her when she needed the cheering. No one cared for her like she did for them. No one was at her corners when she was down.)

Despite the changes, there were also rare moments of softness, and of the suppressed Maya (or the Maya after meeting Carina who no longer shy away from her kindness)- the scenes involving Mason, and the talk Maya had with Ryan in the park… We can almost glimpse the same vulnerable Maya from later seasons here. I wish either Ryan or Mason were still on the show… I hope at some point, the writers remember that Maya has a younger brother. It’ll be nice to see them connect again. My head canon is that Mason would have a hard time accepting the fact that Maya is healing and that the little Maya was also a product of Lane’s abuse like he was. Carina being both the protective wife and the loving older sister was able to get through Mason. She told Mason how hard Maya has been working to decode and heal from her trauma and how close the trauma came to break them. Yet, they made it out still together. Carina would also share with Mason her family history, and how much she missed her stupid little brother. She would tell Mason to give both Maya and himself a chance to rebuild their relationship because no one and nothing is promised for tomorrow. Also, having their sibling connection back also means to take back another part of what Lane ruined for them.

Anyways, so much possibilities… I honestly just want the show to acknowledge Carina as an independent character more. She has, in my opinion, the most interesting yet heartbreaking backstory on the show. It’s about time they start investing in the many stories of Dr. Carina DeLuca!

#station 19 #maya bishop #carina deluca #marina #mason bishop