#this is the journalism we deserve

[piratesofthedarkwidesea]

The Ringer with the real fucking stats [x]

#succession #i saw a post about this on here but the reblogs were deactivated and i really need these stats on my blog tbh #the ringer #this is the journalism we deserve #lol

[rexscanonwife]

Hey. I'm not really one to throw my hat into the ring over any kind of discourse or anything like that, it's really not my style. But it is really upsetting seeing mutuals, especially my friends, openly and honestly kinda viciously put themselves down.

I struggled a LOT with self love/acceptance, and I know how hard it is to achieve it, but I promise you the effort is SO worth it. Self shipping, whether it's a coping mechanism or a hobby, is something that should make you happy, not sad, and believe me it is detrimental to your health to constantly be making a mockery of yourself, especially through the lense of something that you LOVE.

I know each one of you has boundless love for your f/os and for each other, turn it INWARD. Make your f/os as crazy about you as you are about them, even if you don't really believe it at first and I promise you that over time you will and self shipping will be more fun than ever.

#jane journals #negative #i guess? i mean its got a positive spin #im trying to remind people that positivity goes a long way #and listen i dont CARE if ur f/o is a villain or if they're a robot or it would be 'ooc' for them to be crazy about you #I DONT CARE #YOU DESERVE IT. WE ALL DESERVE IT #and the benefits WAY outweigh the cons believe me #ok i go now

[badgal-noriri]

a love that feels as easy as breathing.

#I wrote that in a journal entry a few months ago #but I think I’m just now realizing the magnitude of that #I said it out loud for the first time #and it was in that moment I realized I was gasping for air before #feeling suffocated #and smothered #I didn’t think feeling free would feel this calm #it’s so beautiful #and necessary #I’ll remember this feeling forever #even if we aren’t meant to be for that long #so thank you #for simply showing me this exists #that this is possible #& I am deserving of it #<3

[cerise-on-top]

Hiiiii how have you been love bug? (Please tell me if your uncomfortable with that term since you are non-binary and they/them I’m not sure what nicknames you are uncomfortable with it’s just what I call my friends and just a nickname I have for people in general🫶🏻🫶🏻 ) so I’d like to to request farah with a adhd reader who is hyper forgetful and sometimes has meltdowns ( as someone with adhd)🧡🧡🧡

Hey! I'm fine! Bought some more yarn for my leftover blanket today, which I'm excited to work on! And don't worry, I think love bug is really cute! I don't mind most nicknames, but thank you for being considerate, I really do appreciate it! Hope you're doing well as well ^^

I don't have ADHD, so I don't know at all what it's like for someone with it! I had to do some research on it, so I don't know if these are actually viable methods of helping, but I tried! Please do correct me with something that might help and I'll add it in this post afterwards! I hope this is enjoyable to you regardless! Thank you for the request!

Farah with a Reader with ADHD

Farah doesn’t particularly know a lot about mental illnesses. She may be traumatized, yes, but that doesn’t mean she ever had the time to research any of them. So she’s definitely not the best person to go to when it comes to things like these, but she tries, even if she can’t always understand everything that’s going on. You’re suffering, and that’s enough for her to know she should do something to help you.

You being this forgetful may be a cause of concern for her, though. It’s not every day she meets someone who forgot what they did five minutes prior. It’s especially concerning when it’s something important, though, like seeing a doctor. Although she may be worried for you potentially developing something as severe as dementia eventually, she’ll try to push her worries aside and help you to the best of her abilities. If you ever need reminders, she can help you. Farah remembers and retains things very well, she’s never had any issues with it since she had to in order to get by. If you need to remember something, she’ll remind you a few times a day. You have an appointment? Don’t forget about it tomorrow, I’ll tell you again then. However, she’s also a big fan of post its and will write down whatever it is you may need and place it somewhere she knows you’re going to see it. I know, out of sight, out of mind, but she’ll also text you and have you make reminders on your phone for important things so you don’t forget. Won’t get mad at you for forgetting your anniversary, she can see that it’s hard for you to remember things and won’t yell at you or anything either. However, she will mention that it was your anniversary, or maybe her birthday. For the most part she just wants to spend those days with you, if she can, and will thus remind you. Again, you don’t need to feel ashamed for forgetting, she’ll tell you that it’s quite alright and that you shouldn’t worry. She’s patient like that.

If you have a meltdown in front of her, she definitely would not know what to do at first. Depending on what kind of meltdown it is, she’ll react differently. If it creeps up on you, slowly making you irritated, then she’ll ask you what’s wrong. Regardless of your answer, she’ll ask you how she can help you, if you would like to be left alone or if you would like to take a small break in any way. She gets it and she’ll get you away from whatever is stressing you out so you can slowly recharge. If you really do want to be left alone for a while, she will comply, but will knock on your door to check up on you every once in a while and will bring you some food as well. Farah just wants you to be well, so she’ll take care of you how she thinks might help. Food is always good, food usually helps her, so she hopes it’ll do the same for you as well.

If it’s a sudden meltdown where you don’t know where left and right are anymore, then she’ll get you away from everyone else at first. While she can’t imagine what it’s like for you, it likely isn’t very pleasant for you to be crying and screaming in front of other people. Hoping that you trust her, she’ll try to ground you, asking you how you’re feeling, what you’re feeling and how she could help you. What happened is also another question she would ask you. Again, she won’t really know what to do on her own, but she tries her best. Farah will talk to you in a soothing tone and try to distract you at first so you can calm down a bit. Whether it be cracking a joke or asking you about your top five favorite reptiles. Even if you can’t answer her properly, she’ll just reassure you that it’s okay, that everything is just bad in this moment and that it’ll pass. She’s with you this entire time and won’t leave you unless you want her to. Asks you to breathe a bit with her. In all your time being together, she’s likely learned a breathing technique or two that might help you.

Once your meltdown is over, she’ll be very gentle with you, especially if she can see you’re beating yourself up over it. You really shouldn’t feel ashamed for something that you can’t help, it’s not your fault. If you feel especially down, she’ll give you a kiss on the forehead and get some ice cream with you. Something like a meltdown seems exhausting to her. While she doesn’t want to seem like she’s rewarding you for having a meltdown, she does want you to be kind to yourself afterwards, that’s what the ice cream is for. And if you don’t want ice cream, then some berries, fruits or a small snack will suffice as well. Either way, she’s there for you the entire time until you feel better.

#cod #cod x reader #farah karim #farah karim x reader #I didn't think anyone at all would notice or remember that I'm non binary #I don't really mention that fact as much as other things but it makes me happy that some people do pay attention! #also love bug is a really cute nickname! your friends must be very lucky to have someone like you in their lives! #again I don't have ADHD I only have schizophrenia and there doesn't seem to be too much of an overlap among them #so I really don't know what it's like to live with ADHD but I get the forgetfulness #I have so many reminders on my phone and on small paper notes it's incredible #I also journal every day so I don't forget what I did during the day. that's one of my best habits yet #but yeah I'm also the kind of person who can't remember what they did five minutes ago and it's so very frustrating #sometimes I wanna look something up on google only to forget five seconds later what it was #sometimes retracing my steps helps me remember but not always unfortunately it's very annoying #but we are just so very strong for living with our mental illnesses!! #being mentally ill is exhausting and I can't think of any positives either #I know it may seem hard at times but it's important to be patient with oneself. I learned that the hard way #so please do be kind to yourself anon! you deserve it! you seem like such a nice person!

[greghatecrimes]

also p.s. if i'm quiet for a few days it's nothing personal. i'm probably just resting. moving & new job & new place & getting out of crappy situation really sucked the spoons outta me

about + tag list + pinned post here

#personal #i feel a giant adrenaline crash coming on #probably no one cares/would check but at this point this blog is kind of like a journal? sometimes i write things here just for myself #so i can look back and read them when time has passed and remember where i was at that point #this is one of those 'just for myself' things. this is a big time in my life. i don't keep a handwritten diary #so this blog is kind of like a selected journal for this part of my life #and what i'm hyperfixated on at this stage of my life #and why it's important to me #to past and future anya: we deserve to rest!!!! we will learn how to rest

[coffee-in-veins]

Chapters: 17/? Fandom: Darkest Dungeon (Video Game) Rating: Mature Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death Relationships: Crusader/Highwayman (Darkest Dungeon), Reymas, background Jester/Leper (Darkest Dungeon), Minor or Background Relationship(s) Characters: Highwayman (Darkest Dungeon), Crusader (Darkest Dungeon), Jester (Darkest Dungeon), Leper (Darkest Dungeon), Plague Doctor (Darkest Dungeon), Occultist (Darkest Dungeon), Heir (Darkest Dungeon), Grave Robber (Darkest Dungeon), multiple background OC heroes Additional Tags: Non-Linear Narrative, Established Relationship, Denial of Feelings, Fluff and Angst, Angst with a Happy Ending, Mutual Pining, Sexual Tension, Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms, Survivor Guilt, Drug Abuse, Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism, Self-Loathing, Self-Disregard, Self-Harm, Trauma, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, therapy isn't invented yet, Body Horror, Crimson Curse actually mutates people into bloodsuckers, social segregation, Canon-Typical Violence, Mutilation, Period-Typical Homophobia, this is still Gaylet though, Character Death, i mean it's DD character death is expected here, Dismas creative and explicit cussing, Implied Sexual Content, explicit sexual content in future chapters, Social drama, Religious Bigotry, Other Additional Tags to Be Added, Rating May Change, no beta we die like seekers in DD1, Crimson curse (Darkest Dungeon), i'm in reymas hell and it's cozy in here Series: Part 1 of Nowhereland’s Apocrypha Summary:

Ruin came to Hamlet, and a new incurable plague sweeps across the lands, turning people into monsters and blurring the line between friend and foe. Amidst the tangled thread of inner fighting, religious hysterics and double-crossing intended to keep the feeble peace, an odd dance takes place: one step forward and two to the side, as a supposedly unbreakable relationship between two unlikely "dearest friends" hobbles time after time over the stumbling stone of their feelings towards each other. But this dance of affection, desires, devotion and lies, however pleasurable and painful, can't last forever. Yet another eldritch horror descends upon surrounding lands, leaving both men wishing that they were if not straight, then at least straightforward with each other from the start.

=== Updates every two weeks, on Tuesday

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For anyone having issues with the link above, direct link to chapter:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/47062549/chapters/132488788

#last chapter of the year! #we deserve something hopeful methinks #restructured refractured recalled #dd crusader #dd highwayman #dismas #reynauld #reymas #fanfic #fan fiction #darkest dungeon #the tapestries of words || my ao3 #the bloodied journal page || my writing

[lukereiter]

tried transcribing this but holy fuck amc really did their best efforts making this shit illegible considering it’s the Singular closeup we have of troy’s journal while open

#* #idk maybe i’ll try again later. it’s 0600 and my brain hurts #and btw #i still stand by the fact that we deserved to see the pages to his journal(?) journals(?) #yet another wasted opportunity

[lolchat]

frye had the least amount of points

#journal txt #(^ /j) #frye fans. im so fucking sorry we deserve better

[maybe-itsforthebest]

there's probably something poetic about being scared of growing up and fighting it while having to bury your childhood pet

#but i can't write it right now #because it fucking hurts so bad #we do not deserve animals #like i cant believe she's been here since i was 5 #and now she's gone #my house doesnt feel like home anymore #poetry #grieving #grief #journal #mental health

[fshoulders]

I was reading the Letterboxd blog’s paean to underrated, over-the-top faux-1960s sex comedy “Down with Love”, and this paragraph just about broke me:

[Director Peyton] Reed calls working with McGregor "one of the great pleasures" of his career, adding that the two still talk and keep up with each other. Their friendship began around 2001: "I was invited to a party that was celebrating Moulin Rouge!, and that's where I first met Ewan and semi-pitched him this movie," he remembers. "He was like, [Scottish accent] 'That sounds fantastic! Is there singing in it?'"

I am not sure we as a society deserve Ewan McGregor. LET HIM SING!

(N.B.: There is in fact singing in “Down with Love”, because he and Renee Zellweger begged so much. Love this for him, and for us!)

(N.B.2.: There are also TWO different Ewan McGregor American accents in “Down with Love”. His American accents are not perfect, but they are never mass-produced and boring! They are delightful bespoke efforts full of life and vim! And there are TWO of them in this movie!)

#down with love #Ewan McGregor #american accent #song and dance man #peyton reed #movies #this movie has terrible sex puns and visual gags #Ewan McGregor’s womanizing journalism-bro character’s name is CATCHER BLOCK okay #we do not deserve Ewan mcgregor

[sunnibits]

rewatching the family of blood eps again for the first time since my originally viewing and yeahhh I can see why y’all hate this shit. this sucks balls

#like. did we really have to use this episode as an excuse to be super racist #is that really the narrative we’re going with. it could have been anything else #also I don’t give a shit if he’s in human form you CANNOT. CAN. NOT. tell me that the doctor would act like that even with no memories #like he remembers enough to have weird dreams and keep a journal of things but he doesn’t remember enough to NOT BE RACIST??? #fucking bullshit. #nine would never have done this…. #he would have beaten tens ass for being a racist classist pro-violence shitbag #and it would be deserved!!! #anyways. hater time over. back to being a lover. #dw #doctor who

[aurosoul]

I finally met the founders of Figmin XR in person!!!!!! 💖💖💖

their names are Astra and Javier, they are a husband & wife duo, and their home is JUST as magical and tech-filled as you would expect from the creators of a futuristic, hologram-based sandbox application. every room was a mix of nature, technology, and childlike wonder. (they are also parents, and their kids use XR sometimes too!)

I got to try basically every cutting-edge XR headset that exists during my visit, and witnessed two of the most reality-breaking things my brain has ever been faced with:

1. with both of us wearing augmented reality headsets, Javier (pictured center in the first photo) pulled an animated gif out of thin air and handed it to me - just with bare hands. no controllers required. it was BEYOND surreal to be physically HOLDING a GIF. a GIF!!!!!!!!!!

and 2. I got to use ‘spatial mapping’ (AKA room scanning) in-headset. depth-sensing lasers & cameras around my eyes scanned the topography of everything I looked at, overlaying a green Matrix-style pattern onto everything in my field of view. I felt like a human scanner, and once the scan was complete I could project SHADOWS from virtual objects onto every real surface around me.

I spawned in an adorable virtual giraffe toy, and it was extremely brain-breaking to have a virtual object cast perfect shadows onto a wall, or a couch, or an end table, IN REAL TIME as I was moving it around. with shadows added, my brain fully accepted that the giraffe was a real object physically in the room with me.

ANYWAYS it was wonderful seeing all this cutting-edge tech used specifically for PLAY - and education, and accessibility, and bringing people together IRL, and paying artists, and assisting with everyday tasks, and just....... MORE good things! Figmin XR is built with such an optimistic view of the future, and it is forever going to be an honor that I get to contribute to it in such a significant way.

the future is not all bad. there are plenty of good things still happening, and being created, and yet to exist!!!

#incessant meowing #long post #me #picture journal #also SHOUTOUT TO MY SIBLING FOR TAKING THIS PIC HEHE #i brought them along just for fun and we became the first two artists to ever use figminxr room-scale multiplayer together in the same room #just casual historic tech moments happening willy nilly....... no big deal #anyways i am rambling as usual but i'm just EXCITED!!!!! #i have HOPE for the FUTURE and feel grateful that i'm working with people who have heartfelt goals! and who aren't in tech for the money!! #we are trying to get facebook/meta to sponsor our residency program #and i am REALLY hoping they say yes because i would love to take facebook's money and give it to under-represented artists #the next artist resident i hope to choose is a children's media author who also works in vr :) her work is kind and inspiring #anyways god these people need to have articles written about them. javier especially #figmin xr as a software has already made into into a big facebook article but people deserve to hear about it from his words i think #his life story is fascinating and it felt like being at a ted talk listening to him talk #they deserve all the success they've achieved so far AND MORE

[chasing-chimeras]

what’s up with that map in 6x16?

has anyone done some sort of meta post about the world state in tw? i think we see a couple maps (a few town maps and one of where bh actually is in 6x6 but idk if the surrounding towns are real?) but the one that’s so strange to me is in 6x16 that shows the location of the other nemetons.

it’s weird bc it’s a normal map w all the countries (up to date at the time too bc it has south sudan) but then the oceans and lakes are just wild. i don’t have a screenshot but most of n+s america looks normal aside from a few extra lakes in the western us/sw canada. but then if you look at west asia, north+west+east africa, and central+east europe it’s like……there’s just lakes. so many fucking lakes and bays and rising sea levels but not bc most low lying areas are normal (netherlands, florida, etc). places that’re already hit hard by climate change like bangladesh seem fine but then mountainous areas like central turkey are just under wanter. and the lakes? i need someone to explain the lakes or at least make something up bc i can’t stop trying to figure out how they stuck this thing to the wall and no one thought it looked a little funky? idk man i gotta go to sleep

#teen wolf #teen wolf meta #i know they probably just found a weird map and rolled w it without a second thought but humor me #someone should write somethign about this pls #tell me how they solved the climate crisis by digging lakes or something #or how literally everywhere outside of beacon hills ca is a post apocalyptic climate nightmare and that’s why the world ignores their- #seemingly newsworthy massacres aside from the whole stilinski-raf mccall plotline #more importabtly tell me how scott took malia on a weekend trip near one of those us lakes #or about peter or kate drowning somewhere in central germany or smthn 😌 #with so many new lakes i think they all deserve to have lesbian grandmothers w lake houses #we have the resources #okay goodnight love you guys and thank you for reading my journal as my eyes slowly shut #🤡

[brothersonahotelbed]

listen to me listen up. i wanna fight i want your blood i only want to feel your love why didn't you make me good enough so maybe that i could be loved by yooooooooouuuuuuuu

#i need to make a lyrics tag #really i should journal about this but um. fucked up that the band couldnt even get a partial recording of this song before #TEXAS HAPPENED. FUCK THE DIVINE PLAN I HATE YOU #i dont even care that we dont have the musical mastery to finish this song WE AT LEAST DESERVED A SHOT. GOD.

[tramontane-fire]

I have got to stop reading liberal publications because lately the slant they all take is The South (Especially Texas) is a horrible evil cesspit of fascism, and then you've got the Comments Section which I know you should never read chiming in about how yeah there are good people in Texas much the same way there were good people in Germany in 1933, or that you should just move to, and I quote, New York, Los Angeles, or San Francisco. You know, those famously affordable cities.

So I move every few months for work, but I always come back to Texas because it's the closest thing I have to home. I love it here. I've lived in a couple different parts of the state and not only is it affordable (most places), you can find acceptance where you least expect it.

I was thinking today I would trashtalk these so called blue states and cities the way their highfalutin intellectuals and journalists see fit to trashtalk my home. Here goes:

Chicago, the Windy City, where the smell of hotdogs from street vendors outside Wrigley Field is accompanied by the dulcet tones of a guy with an Eastern European accent talking into a portable mic about how marriage is a sacrament between a man and a woman, and homosexuality is a sin. Behind him, posters tacked to telephone poles proclaim, Chicago doesn't have a gun problem, it has a black problem! in bold, racist lettering.

New York City, hub of arts, music, culture, fine food and wine, where a studio apartment in a bad part of town is a mere $2000/month, utilities not included. It's fine; just get a roommate! A man handing out leaflets on the corner bodyblocks a teenager from crossing the street, saying he will not let her cross until she smiles. Beneath the ever-present scaffolding, young people wearing shirts that say Bible Crusade hand out religious literature.

The Bay Area, where a gentle breeze blows off the water and missing the Grand Avenue exit and getting on the Bay Bridge by accident is only a $7 mistake. That's okay; if you don't want to drive, you can take AC transit in the East Bay, where bus drivers snap and yell at you if you try to ask them a question. Honey, this ain't the south. Scan the QR code and shut up. Oh, and your rent is $2000/month with utilities and you have to share a bathroom. People without $2000 to spare live in tents and broken-down RVs in a bad part of town. Let's go brandon! yells a sticker on a light pole.

True stories all. I have seen your exalted liberal cities and they are shit. You trashtalk the south from your cushy, overpriced apartment in a coastal city and yet you've clearly never been there.

This has been a rant.

#liberal journalism has failed the country #you know this is why even lefty southerners kind of don't want anything to do with mainstream liberalism #because it treats southern as a shorthand for racist sexist homophobic conservative #it says leave your home whether you can or not #whether you want to or not #your coastal marshes #your panhandle plains #your river deltas #your deserts #your hometowns #they're worthless. move to a northern city and pay a landlord four figure rent for a home your family can barely fit in #pay double for groceries and essentials. this is somehow better. #what's that about fixing the politics in your state? well you made them that way so you deserve it. #do people not understand gerrymandering? voter suppression? #do they not understand that the oil barons out west have more control over our elections than the voters do? #how else d'you think ted cruz keeps getting elected? we all hate him!

[aeide-thea]

nefret cat really wants to sit in my accustomed armchair lately but unfortunately for her i also want to sit in my accustomed armchair so we keep having interactions where like. she'll be reclining in it like ingres' grande odalisque, with a similarly watchful gaze, and i'll come by and put my hands on my hips and then sit down, very carefully, more or less on top of her

at which point she sighs a very put-upon sigh but doesn't in fact move—such are the charms of the chair!

#which for the record is. an ektorp we got free on craigslist #but like. one white low-maintenance marshmallow deserves another! :3 #catblogging #journaling #domesticities