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six-white-venus · 2 months

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UHMM uhm. thoughts on strays

Dear God,

I am- you must know my name already, right? After all, I’m your child. My mother tells me you used to be a shepherd. My hair is white like that of a sheep. You must’ve let me go astray. What a bad master you are.

Dear God,

I’m sorry. I didn’t mean that.

Dear God,

Father (I can call you that, right? I’m your son, after all), won’t you take care of ma? She’s sick, and she screams way too much these days. You will take care of her, right? Ma tells me you are everywhere. I think I saw you yesterday. The doctor looks an awful lot like you when she tells me ma’s gonna be alright. I see you, father. You have a pretty smile.

Dear God,

I kissed a boy today. He tastes like apples.

Dear God,

I haven’t seen the boy I kissed in a week. The doctor won’t look me in the eyes anymore. I can’t see you. Where are you?

Dear God,

Would you come running if I burn the words that praise you? Would you come running, not for your kin or your children, but for yourself?

I must say, fire looks prettier than your smile. I rather like it. The smell of your beloved bible burning stings my nose. How very sweet.

GOD,

IT HURTS. IT HURTS. MOTHER CARVED MY EYE OPEN WITH A CROSS. NOW MY EYE BEARS THE CROSS YOU HUNG ON. HOW AWFUL. IT HURTS. I CAN SEE YOU.

Father,

Mother died today. The doctor cried. I see you. Do you know how I figured that was you, right there?

There was no sorrow in those tears.

God,

What do I call you, now that I have deemed you unworthy of prayer? You are not human. You are not holy. You are cruel and twisted. You, do you exist? No. No, you exist. If you don’t exist, then that means I am my own God. Then that means I am the one who hates me so. You exist. Can you see me? I can’t see you.

I think I know what to call you. Coward sure does have a good ring to it.

Coward,

No one knows I talk to you.

I laugh when someone brings up your name when I’m in the room. I spit on your existence. I don’t pray. But I talk to you. Because it’s soothing to pretend you’re here. You villain. It’s easier to pretend I’m just a stray searching for its way back to Bethlehem. Easier to pretend there is no freedom for a stray. I roam the streets searching for you with my leash in my mouth, whimpering, weeping, howling. It’s terrifying to be alone. So I talk. If I am the cause of my own demons, then what’s adding one more to the roster?

Demon,

I made a priest go mad with anger today. In my defense, he kissed me back. I was the one who let go, too. A perfect gentleman. He told me I would never know of the lord ever again. I wanted to tell him: you silly thing. I have known him my whole life.

He is a stray stuck on the top of a lonely mountain. He is your father, the one that beats you black and blue for your own good. He is the light that blinds you. He is the filth that spills out of your mouth. He’s the hands you pulled me closer with. He is the holiest sin. To be holy is to be sinful. To sin is a thing of beauty. Beauty has always been bloody. I know God. He is the bloodiest one of them all.

Dear God,

I like to talk to you because one day, when I find my way home, I can fall to my knees in front of you. Father, look at these teeth you’ve given me. Father, I will promise to make you holy again. Father, why are you screaming? Father, don’t be scared, it all happens for a reason. Did you know a stray doesn’t cross the path of another in fear that the other will sink its teeth in its fur? Is that way you hid from me for so long, Father?

Father, look at these teeth you’ve given me. My hair was never sheep-white, was it? It has always been the white of Lilith’s fangs. I will see you again, Father. You would be proud to see the man your son has grown to be.

Can you hear me, Father? Soon, I will be the holiest (bloodiest) of them all. Watch out for my teeth, father. Watch out for the one stray you never came back for.

#diary of a madman #sorry about the VERY late answer to your ask lou ily #this one is very messy but hope you like it #this was inspired by a character. nikolai gogol from bungou stray dogs #but for all of you girlies with religious trauma!! finger guns. go wild besties #my writing #prose poetry #words #writeblr #prose #religious trauma #tw religious themes #nikolai gogol #bungou stray dogs

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trenchcoatsbi · 4 months

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SOOO YK HOW I'M KINSIDERING FRANZISKA VON KARMA UHMM.... I'm trying to kinfirm her rn yeah? and I'm thinking how it feels there is a relation with her and my noncanon snow kin cuz like we both have blue hair and I'm always comparing her relationship with edgeworth with me and quackity's idk what the relation is but its interesting shdgsj ANYWAYS GOING BACK TO TRY TO SEE IF I'M A VON KARMA KIN SEE U LATER!!! o//// -(cannon divergent llulah anon)⭑

a bit late on this one cause we literally just got an ask where it looks like ya kinfirmed but yeah that kinda stuff is interesting!

i have a big list/chart of me things in common between my kins that me or my friends have noticed and i would simply like to highlight the fact that there's categories called "kind of dilfy (gender inclusive)" and "in theory would kick a child for fun" which are right next to each other. its just so funny to me...

#phil posts #sbi asks #llulah anon #i made the mistake of letting my friends title the categories...#its a very funny chart but it's only fueled their jokes about the type of characters i kin #some of the categories like the uh kicking a kid one are just them doing horrible goofy vibe checks on my kintypes lol

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budpuppy · 7 months

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>:) 3 bc I need to see yours now

YAY 💚💚

OK I ALSO DON'T RLLY DO FANDOMS. but i have been known to enjoy things on occasion...😳

spinel from steven universe is my #1 kin honest to god. it's where my old username spineliott came from...it's our ship name. obviously. i think ud like her too if u like the fizzerolis, but idk if u've seen steven universe the movie or future but trust me.

#2 kin of all time is the nowhere king/elk from centaurworld...<3

twilight from mlp 💚 also chrysalis

uhmm i looove five nights at freddy's<33 i've always loved the chunky chicas...the og, rockstar chica, and nightmare chica. also i know u don't wanna hear this but springtrap is hot

oh almost forgot duck from don't hug me i'm scared...i love that guy. and that show.

i also love helluva boss but idk who i identify much with 😳 my fav character is probably stolis tho !!!

#THIS HAS BEEN SO FUN THANK U FOR INDULGING ME #it's jay #mutuals do this

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constantstateofpain · 1 year

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for the character list thing I wanna see you do Jay!!

EHEHEHEHE

favorite thing about them:

idk even as a kid i loved him 😭😭

i think i just really kin him. but we’re not going into that.

he’s just always so fun on screen, i love seeing him a little dumbass <3

least favorite thing about them:

skybound …

okay imma be fr. i loved skybound as a kid and still have so much fun watching it during rewatches.

however!!

JAY HAD TO STOP OH MY GOD. like nya said no!! like jay, ilysm but a no is a no!!

also like i love skybound but god i could rant ab that too 😭😭

favorite line:

god he has so many good lines. hmmm i think that one interaction with cole in s5 is so funny.

“why’d you touch the scary painting, JAY”

“because i didn’t know it would do that, COLE”

or like that one in s7 “lefty, righty, nice to meet you. DO BETTER-“

there’s way more but these are the ones that come to mind right away.

brOTP:

him with zane or him with nya!! jay and zane, they’re just so silly when they’re on screen together i love them!! him and nya took bc really they’re both techs and ngl it was a missed opportunity not having them bond over their love of inventing. ik they had to fade out his tech thing bc they were too many of them on the team but shh idc!!

OTP:

bruise!! idk they’ve always given off couple vibes to me. like an old married couple who gets divorced every week but still ends up back together. i love their interactions. i also think mudshock is cool, although in a very specific circumstance. like jay is dating cole and nya but latter two aren’t dating each other. i just don’t know, cole x nya just didn’t do it for me. also i just hc cole as gay so-

anyway-

nOTP:

i think im okay with any ship as long as like they’re not like problematic yk? ( jay x lloyd, something inc3st, etc).

like if you give a ship and they have little interaction, i’ll be like “okayy, can i have an explanation of your vision” and that’s pretty much it.

random headcanon:

he fidgets a lot but he also chews on things. LIKE ALL THE TIME.

he asked lloyd if he could borrow a pencil once while he was working on a blueprint for smth and well … lloyd had funeral for the pencil afterwards 🫡

unpopular opinion:

god idk?? i don’t know a whole ab what opinions are popular ab him LMAO. uhmm. guess i’ll give another hc then?

jay is absolutely trans masc (he/they/zap)

they want to dress more fem bc it seems so fun but they’re worried ab dysphoria and passing. nya is his number one hype man 😎

song i associate with them:

yes, that is three songs, your point is? the first two are purely off of vibes. ik odoriko has smth to do with dancing so yk. i’ll have to look up an english translation later. yeah the second is also just really off of vibes and the last one gives skybound angst 😔

i have entire playlist for him, i could go on and ON.

favorite picture of them:

such a silly guy

#jay ninjago #jay walker #ask game

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astrangeghost · 1 year

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ummmmm silly ninja turtle show. for the ask game :)

GHWEFHEFHVGWFJHSDHGRRAAAAAEXPLODEISJH Favorite character: MIKEY :D!!! SOO BLORBO TO ME Least Favorite character: hmmm I guess I'd say the sando brothers! I just don't really like them(they're the crab acrobatic villains and sound much more interesting than that actually are ftghj but theyre fine) 5 Favorite ships (canon or non-canon): uhmm I don't really ship anything in rottmnt that I can think of..? Like pretty much every relationship in the show is platonic or familial :) i have been entertaining the idea of making an oc to be mikeys bf(cause he strikes me as the type to start dating before any of his siblings even if teh relationship doesnt last ya know) Character I find most attractive: big mama. shes hot Character I would marry: fuck it! Casandra is so fucking cool id love to do crime with her Character I would be best friends with: I would like. to be besties with Leo. I think he needs it DRFTGH a random thought: i wonder where that rat who turned splinter into a mutant went.cause baren draxum didn't MAKE splints turn into a rat that was just something that happened. like if that rat didnt bite him he wouldve still been human. idk! An unpopular opinion: RAPH!! ISN'T!!!! STUPID!!!!!!!! PEOPLE WHP SAY THAT IM. ATTACKING GRA My Canon OTP: mad dogs x trauma My Non-canon OTP: mad dogs x therapy Most Badass Character: there could be a good case made for each of the mad dogs tbh i mean. donnie and the us arsenal mikey and chucking boats at people raph and brute strength leo and his killer shots Most Epic Villain: baren draxum man did you even SEE HIM in that ep after the train like the jailbreak one that was wild Pairing I am not a fan of: leo and that bunny character ive seen everywhere i dont know who they are and its so confusing.. Character I feel the writers screwed up (in one way or another): uhmm idk! im not really into any other tmnt thing(weirly looks twords the 2012 show.for now) so i wouldnt be able to compare to other iterations of characters :) plus im really not good at being critical of things i like fghbj Favorite Friendship: COLLAPSES. OHHH THIS ONE WILL HURT. i really like the goyles.... april and the mad dogs obligatory mention<3 Character I most identify with: tbh? havent kinned anyone yet but most of the mad dogs have had their moments of oh shit me.. Character I wish I could be: maybe some yokai in the hidden city : ) seems like a fun place!

#asks

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spamtons · 2 years

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Rant about one of your favorite characters

VERY RANDOM SPONTANEOUS RAMBLING BELOW!

OH YAY uhmm one of my favorite characters is uh...well i have a lot but also none at the same time because they can never really come to the top of my head whenever i try to think about my favorites. i have like. a sort of paradoxical thing going on inside my mind thats like “oh i have favorites but i dont think about them at all!” or maybe that’s just me being forgetful and trying to cover it up with some wacky explanation for it (which i totally AM now that i realize that lol!!) sorry its my weird girl swag

aside from all the mucho texto i just spewed out at you i guess id have to go with uhmmm spamton? i guess? i mean he’s sort of this blog’s namesake of course i love him. and perhaps am him in some weird way (more than just kinning at least, my brain likes to be very funny!)?? he’s so small. i love him. i wish to shove him inside an air fryer until golden brown. he’s so terrible. he’s literal spam getting clicks everywhere on the internet (outside the game) because people just love him so much. i think that’s kind of silly. what am i even saying? i don’t know. he’s so fun. he’s so quirky. he’s unknowingly fulfilling his purpose as a walking spam advert. do you ever think about that? if spamton was real i think he’d turn into wet slop over that statement. i dont know what im saying any more but i hope you enjoyed that.

#ask #gleamfuls #repetition

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hitsuyou-fukaketsu · 2 years

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If your years of experience are correct, prove to me that enstars kins are a mirror of one's self than needed.

Niki

Makoto

Have a fair day

I'm sorry to dissappoint but i was talking more about me and some friends help. I don't know what this ask is supposed to mean uhmm

Well i'll explain my reasoning and that's it.

My years of experience in enstars start in september 2020 (help idk if thats a lot for you or...) but i also meant to say that for like 6 years i've been taking and retaking mbti tests, i read a looooott of things of the types that i got and never one really clicked for me. But everytime i read something about leo i get this feeling like 'oh wow we share minds'. Ofc i don't growl to people (unless....) Ofc i don't try to be like the character, i just happen to relate more to anime orange shrimp boy than 4 letters with a meaning.

I also see some of my friends in some characters like midori or ritsu and i think thats nice too

I know mbti doesn't have to be super accurate but for me it has to, and leo does the trick for me

I don't have to prove anything i just thought it was a funny post

#(putting the mbti is the horoscope of science people post here)#and i think thats it #sorry if i took this the wrong way i just woke up and i have very bad reading comprehension #<3 #ask #like idk what i was supposed to say #'if you kin makoto you need to have these traits!' nah pal i think that's between you and your characters

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drakenlvr · 2 years

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Buisness attire is just so sexy on woman, especially with a gun ahhh- when me and my friends binge watched hxh on christmas the last few years we were all giggling and screaming whenever she came on screen -the second arc broke my heart so bad. It really went from 0 to 100 way too fast.

The ant arc was a rollercoaster but damn did it break me, gon going absolutely feral on pitou and seeing kaito dead, dude I died inside

Tho the phantom troupe going wild on this scorpion spider whatever woman was 10/10

Pariston is this dude you wanna kiss and then spit into his mouth <3 ur so right about the enemies to lovers thing tho

Uhmm... tbh the 1999 Version is so messy and funny, I love that they kept feitans accent/type of speech and hisoka looked so funny in it -the moment when he came out of the river with a fish in his mouth omg I can't. But they also had chrollo looking like Michael scott from the Office and the va's were so bad brrr. I think 2011 hxh grew a little more on me, sadly we didn't get kurapika destroying gender in that one car scene there :/

Okay so, basically I don't think he is a real predetor, not in the weird sense at least. Sure he is unhinged and says dubious shit all the time but I do think he only says that cause he knows that he can make people absolutely mad with that, a true troll if you ask me. I mean I like him in a weird way, or more like I love to hate him? He is as funny as he is scary and while I think he is a little too op in the end he is a fun guy, neither villain nor a good guy -a neutral disaster. Can't get over that he killed shalnark though... your thoughts?

first time when i watched hxh i was literally drooling over the women (+kurapika, phinks (don’t judge me) n hisoka) bcs let’s be real, regardless of personalities the character design is ♾/10

killua saying that he will stick with gon until he finds a reason to live honestly made me both cry n realize why i kin him. but honestly anything after greed island is ✨traumatic✨

kaito was definitely one of my favorites, gone too soon. his dismantled form literally crushed me. like seeing someone so strong be so helpless was the worst i could’ve imagined, especially someone like him, i mean gon literally looked up to him and then…

zazan (the scorpion bitch) was kinda hot not even gonna lie to u,,, i mean, this speaks for itself ->

like 👀 and feitan straight up cooked her. he made her hot inside out, quite literally 🥰

kurapika has always destroyed gender norms please,,, you need to see him in the manga if u haven’t read it — you should. giving slay

i have so many thoughts on hisoka. as a start i do like him, i like: his sorta playful but threatening personality ; the fact that he’s a morally grey character — he just has that egotistical wish to gain more and more power and knowledge and that’s an ambition i can get behind ; he’s (potentially imo the strongest character in the series) ; his style is amazing. i think he’s the strongest, bcs of what we’ve seen in the fight with chrollo, but idk if i should share my thoughts cuz idk if u’ve read it or only heard abt it 😭 now do i think he could’ve beat netero hmm potentially, but idk… i’m kinda hisoka leaning in that fight, but it’s kinda hard to decide

ALSO CAN WE TALK ABT THE NETERO X MERUEM FIGHT ???!

#ugh we’re finally getting more hxh content !!#ʚĭɞ — interacts !#bestie <33

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alonelysimp · 2 years

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𝙼𝚞𝚝𝚞𝚊𝚕𝚜 𝙻𝚒𝚜𝚝

@hqrbinger - Loser (affectionate), dragged me onto tumblr, homophobic how we've not met irl yet so i cannot say she's my irl, *slaps roof of curse* this bad thing can fit so many Conan Gray songs in it

@heyitslane-sl - monsterkisser, best dad, list goes on !! has hot ocs, idk what to tell you man. intimidating, but ily <3 a god disguised as a human that jokes about being a god so no one will suspect them of being one

@cerasus--flores - my spouse that's proposed to me... 4? 5 times now? i think?? first choice of homoerotically fighting one of my moots to the death, has an adorable laugh and is vv pretty

@hushyouu - Ven, my beloved partner in EBG against Curse !! Really sweet, I will fight multiple people for their voice. Really pretty art, I see her staying up in vc with Curse at about the time I wake up ^^

@belovedespressosimp - Platonic spouse, assigned madeleine cookie kinnie (kin assigned me espresso cookie), never online, "9+ messages from [REDACTED]" ig notifs, regularly infodumps dsmp lore, my sweet sugar plum angel darling baby sunshine partner /ij

@kamiyatos - I love their writing so much omg- watches naruto !! vv nice, i followed xyr old blog for their monachopsis series and hunted down their new blog for it >:D a cool moot, kinda intimidating but ily ^^' <3 /p

@mrpenguinpants - old moot !! i never see their posts on the dash bc tumblr is. well. tumblr. but fellow chaeya enjoyer !! member of the chaeya roundtable !! ily ^^ /p

@hunniewriting - Ottis !! beloved moot even tho we don't talk much !! writes for m!reader and i love u for it /p. fellow arcana and twst enjoyer :D <3

@urujiako - sweet moot, giving her a big hug rn !! seeing her online always brightens my day a little :D fellow barbara kinnie too, if i remember correctly?? hehe <3

@helpidkwhattoput - i shoved her into the moot circle <33 was also intimidated by lane. a chaotic little gremlin whom i love dearly

@chichikoi - diluc simp. (my first memory of u is fighting healers vs food <3)

@heartofdef - EBG menace, other beloved partner in EBG against Curse !! I'm convinced they're a cryptid tho, which is a bit odd but that's okay I love them anyways

@simp-lyzity - Probably isn't a cryptid, just disappears sometimes. Tried to bonk Karu once, which was the equivalent of throwing gasoline on the fire. Love u still ^^

uhmm this is a pt 1, I'll do a pt 2 soon !! also apologies for the tag !! hehe

#dango shaking his plastic bug terrarium #<- new moot tag

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1990jeevas · 3 years

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🎂🌈✨?:00

🎂- if you had 3 wishes, what would they be?

this is so very teenager who just graduated high school of me but literally all i want rn is a job that i can at least sort of enjoy, or at least not have anxiety attacks/sensory overload regularly while working <3 (last two wishes go to meeting the gay lil people in my phone, specifically you, annnnnd probably like. a good s/o to cure my touch starvedness /hj)

🌈- things I find attractive in girls/guys

this is a very bad question for me bc i find a lot of things attractive and they are not consistent at all like i genuinely can never describe my type bc i dont think i really have one but uhm?? ill try and list a few??

guys: big fan of the more feminine boys, a sucker for long hair, im also a big fan of a boy who is literally just the nerdiest motherfucker around but not in a know it all way, i mean in a “let me infodump to you about pokemon even tho i know you have very little interest in it” type of way (same can be said for any gender tbh)

girlies: a sucker for girls who have less typical hairstyles?? idk how to explain this better sorry!! im a big fan of girls with rounder faces ig?? i love me a girl whos like twice my size, give me a girl whos 6ft+ and ill start foaming at the mouth uhmm im also a big fan of “over accessorizing” on girls?? like huge earrings, a shit ton of necklaces, rings on every finger, elaborate outfits, etc. (i cant be the only bitch pulling out all my jewlery for a fucking outing okay, somebodies gotta at least meet me half way /hj)

nongender specific things that i obsess over: crooked or gap teeth, freckles, big fan of redheads, people who look like they could rock my shit but not bc they have muscle, just bc they look super mean, anybody wearing a choker immediately has my heart, bitches that are smart but also dumb as a box of fucking rocks

✨- which fictional character (book, show, or movie) do you relate to most?

richie tozier, jj maybank and john murphy tie for my most Me kins (but probably jj, despite the fact that he is not one of my highest kins. its the being a traumatized himbo who doesnt realize he’s in love with his bestie for me)

#shit self #asks #cinnamon tag 🍄#bttrcoup #sorry im responding so late i just suck at answering asks #kinz

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sayacake-archived · 3 years

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okie dokie! i think i may have more than the four i said i had a few hours ago but whatever! can i have: an aoi asahina fashion kit; no particular theme but if you could for soft/kiddy if you do need a theme ⭐️. secondly, i’d like to request a spinel (steven universe) tumblr layout! i’ve currently gotten back into SU & i remember how i love them. 3rd, can i have a muffet self care kit? also no specific themes (if you can add on plush in there i’ll luv u forever) (1/??) ⭐️ = no kin tags.

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The first batch has been posted !! For your fashion kit I went with a simple happyhappy summer-y style since that just reminds me of aoi ^__^ uhmm I haven't really watched steven universe but spinels design is so cute !! I hope u like ur layouts nd the self care kit was fun 2 make .!! I'll start working on the other things asap ^__^

#plushd0gs.★#events.★

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fangirlingincamouflage · 5 years

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Blind Hope: Chapter 5

Title: Blind Hope Author: Rosie Dayze Word Count: 1376 Pairing: Nick Jakoby x Reader Rating: PG-13 Themes: Angst, Plot, affectionate frustration Disclaimer: I do not own Nick Jakoby, he is the intellectual property of Netflix Originals. I make no money from this fanfiction.

“I don't want to get another scan, I want someone to tell me how Nick is doing.” Your voice is hoarse, and you aren't sure if it's because you are exhausted, because of the concussion, or if it's because you haven't seen Nick in five hours, and no one will tell you why.

The nurse gives you a tight lipped look. Her badge dangles from a I-Heart-My-Veteran lanyard. A single pin thanking her for fifteen years of service is perched above a picture that is at least that old. She carries fourteen hours of work beneath her eyes and a viscous smudge on her Felix the Cat scrubs.

“The doctor wants to make sure that you don't have any internal bleeding.”

“I got hit in the head.” You motion to the large ice pack that you are still holding to the stitches there. “I am fine. I have all eleven stitches. I want to know about Nick.”

She doesn't look at you. Her entire world is the clipboard in front of her, and the orders printed on them. “If you don't want to receive any more care, I'll have to have you sign an AMA form.”

You toss the ice pack down. Your head still hurts, despite the pain relievers they gave you. The sound of the fluorescent lighting is like bees humming in your brain. The anesthetic is wearing off, and betadine has dyed your skin. The term 'over it' does not even come close to how you feel about this hospital. “Then will someone tell me where Nick is?”

“Ma'am, I can't give you that information,” she repeats. “If you want to leave, I'll have to get the doctor.” She turns, and something about seeing nothing but her broad back and her short, crimped hair makes you angry.

“We came in together,” you try to argue. Your heart is in your throat. The last thing you saw was Nick surrounded and beaten. Was he okay? Was he even alive? “We came in together, why can't you just tell me what's going on?”

She turns back to you, one hand on the door handle of your tiny, emergency room cubicle. “Ma'am, you have already stated that you are not family. You are not his emergency contact. Coming in from the same emergency doesn't give you much in the way of rights.” Forced politeness is etched into every weary line.

“Do you have a problem with me asking about my boyfriend's health?” Your mouth doesn't even stumble over the title.

If you hadn't been looking for it, you would have missed it. Distaste tugs at the edges of her lips. “I am not allowed to tell you about the status of another patient without consent of the patient or next of kin.” She holds up her hands. “Now, if you want to-”

“I want another nurse.”

Her cheeks, round and soft, concave for a moment. “Another nurse isn't going to tell you anything.”

At this point, you don't care. Everything has clicked, and you know that she's no different from the orcs who beat Nick. She might not be kicking or hitting. Her assault is one of ugly looks and pursed lips. She clutches her clipboard to her chest like it's armor.

“You're right,” you say. “Another nurse might not tell me anything. But another nurse might actually look me in the eye without sneering.”

Her cheeks go pink as she yanks the door open. “It may be a while before you can get a replacement.”

She disappears down the hallway before you can think of a witty comeback. You lay back against the stiff, gurney mattress and plop the ice pack back to your head, hoping it will do some kind of good. You pick up your phone and think about texting June. You put your phone back down. June is the kind of person who would give up the rest of her night to come and take care of you, and worry over you, and probably snap that nurse into pieces. You don't want to put her in that position, You might be willing to tell a bigot nurse that you don't want her near you, but imposing on your best friend feels like crossing a line. You pick up the remote for the tiny television and promise that you'll tell her first thing in the morning.

You flip absently through the channels, unable to concentrate on anything. You pick up your phone again, and try to call Nick. It's futile. It goes right to voicemail. You throw the phone down again.

“C'mon, Nick,” you mutter. “Please be okay.”

An hour goes by, and another one. You watch half an episode of some crime show you can't even remember the name of before you give up and crawl out of the bed. The floor is cold beneath your feet, and your head gives a plaintive throb. You can't just hang out and wait for something to happen anymore.

“Excuse me,” you say, poking your head out into the hall. The entire emergency area is shaped like a big U, with L shaped desks perched every five rooms. Half a dozen hospital personnel are moving from one task to the next with all the grace of a ballet. A nurse looks up from her computer and notices you.

“Yes?” she asks. Her face is kind, youthful, and perhaps a dash naive. “Can I help you?”

“Can anyone tell me if Nick Jakoby is okay?”

Her eyes flick down to her computer. “Jakoby?” she confirms. When you nod she starts to type. “He's in surgery.”

Your heart sinks. Your head goes light. You can feel every stitch on your brow. “Surgery?”

She reads the screen in front of her again. “Yes. It looks like he went in about an hour ago. Do you want me to let you know when he gets out?”

“I...yes...I...are you sure?”

“Ma'am?” she surges up from her seat. You didn't even know you were stumbling until her arm wraps around your back. “Ma'am you need to get back to your room.”

“I need to see him. I need to see Nick.”

“You must be the date.” A woman's voice says. It's not the nurse, or the other nurse, or even June.

An orc woman, her spots pale with age, is standing just outside the door to your room. Her height and bulk is enough to fill the entire doorframe. Pale brown corduroy pants and a dark button down shirt do nothing to hide the thickness of her.

“I...excuse me?”

“I'm Elizabeth Jakoby. I'm Nick's mother.” She steps up and takes your other arm. “I've got her, thank you.”

The nurse doesn't question it, and you are too shocked to say anything until you are back in your room, and she's tucking the hospital blanket around your legs.

“Well now, let's have a look at you.” Warm fingers turned satin with age grip your chin. You find your head turning this way and that. Her face is round, with sloped cheekbones and sharp eyes. “I bet without that bump you've got a fine face.”

“Uhmm.” You fumble with your words, not entirely sure how to respond. You hadn't expected to meet Nick's mother anytime soon, much less under these circumstances. She looks so much like him, you think. The same eyes, the same nose. “Thanks?”

“Employed?”

“Yes.”

“Married?”

“No!” You blink, wondering what is going on. “No, I'm not married. I've never been married.”

The look she gives you is not entirely kind, but it's not angry either. Resignation tinged with confusion. Quietly, she pulls up a chair and takes a seat at your side. You aren't sure if she is more or less intimidating sitting down. “When they called me, I assumed my son had been hurt on the job.” She settles a massive bag in her lap. “Imagine my surprise then when I show up and he's not in uniform.”

“We were on a date.”

“Yes, I gathered that much. Especially since when I showed up to offer my son comfort before they took him into surgery, he couldn't do anything but ask me how you were doing.”

You can feel your blush burn all the way up to your stitches. “He was worried about me?”

She sighs and sits back. “Do you know how I met Nick's father?”

“I don't.”

“It was easy. We were the only two non blooded orcs who had no direct relation. I married his father, and his sister married my brother. Do you understand?” The look she gives you is direct, and silently demanding.

“It was convenient.”

“In the beginning,” she admits. “But we grew to care for one another, and respect. Respect is important.” She sighs and looks you over. “There is little about you that seems worthy of my respect.”

“Excuse me?”

She shrugs, completely unmoved by the hurt in your voice. “I was hoping, when I walked in this room, that I'd see a good orc woman. Blooded, if possible, not if necessary. But instead I find a soft toothed human. And worse, it seems my son is...attached.”

You sit there, stunned to speechlessness. For a moment all you can hear is the lights, and the sound of something beeping in the distance. “I'm sorry?”

“Don't be,” she says, standing. This close you can see just how incredibly tall she is. “Just end the relationship you have with my son.”

“What? Why?” You sit up, anger making you forget that you are supposed to be rest. The bigoted nurse was bad enough, but hearing this from Nick's mother is something else entirely.

The look she gives you is withering. “They just wheeled my son into a surgery room and you have the audacity to ask me why?” She shakes her head. “Not only are you human but your are an idiot too.”

You swallow around a lump in your throat. Her words hurt, even more because they are true. Even through the haze of pain meds and a mild concussion you remember what the orcs said. They hadn't been happy to see Nick, but they'd been even angrier that he was out with a human. Had it been your fault.

“I never meant to-”

She holds up a single hand “I know you didn't. You just didn't think.” Annoyed she stands up. “It would be better for everyone if you let this situation break you apart. I don't want to see my son hurt.”

“You think breaking up wont hurt Nick?”

She doesn't answer until she's already halfway out the door. “Maybe, but at least he'll be alive.”

#nick jakoby x reader #nick jakoby #nick jakoby fanfiction #bright fanfiction #bright movie #bright 2017

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So, a while ago, err, about a week ago someone asked about possibly a fifth asanoya child and so, well...yeah. :D Although, this fic focuses mostly on Isao and Rai, it also ties into Nishinoya and Asahi having another child.

Anyway, I hope you enjoy.

[haikyuu omegaverse] [asanoya tag] [omegaverse children tag]

OMEGAVERSE WARNING

“I’m telling you I’m not pregnant!” Isao hissed, clenching his fists in frustration.

This wasn’t the first time he’d heard this stupid rumor, it first began at his school but now it was obvious that it had spread to the outside world. Isao could deal with rumors while he was at school, no problem, he knew how to brush them off. However, when the rumors begin to invade the outside, including home, is when problems begin to arise.

This was his home and he was being accused of something he was not.

This was his home, home, not like where his parents lived and where he went to sleep at night. No, this was his real home, with Rai.

And to hear Rai questioning his honesty made him feel a little out of place in a place where he felt safe.

“I’m not saying I don’t believe you,” Rai reasoned, “I just -- I -- uhhhgggh, Kin and Nao and even Katsuo have told me and I’m just concerned.”

Isao moved away from the doorway and sat down with Rai on the couch, he leaned in and asked in a soft voice, “Why are you concerned?”

“Because you’re my friend.” Rai explained, he looked Isao in the eyes as he breathed in the omega’s scent, he smelled so delicate and beautiful, but instead of lingering on his unspoken desire, Rai continued the conversation, “And, and I know how your alpha can be and I don’t want, err, rather, I am afraid of what could happen…” he reached out and touched a bruise on Isao’s forearm.

The bruise could have been from volleyball, or it could have been from the hands of someone who was supposed to show love.

Isao held his breath, and bit down on his bottom lip.

“...Isao.”

To Rai, he was Isao not Sawamura.

Rai pronounced his name carefully, he didn’t rush through it.

Isao shook his head, he very well knew why that rumor started and he knew who started it. It was out of spite, it was to manipulate the social pressures of being a high school omega. Isao wasn’t going to fall for such manipulation. No, he was tired and he wasn’t going to go back to where he came from if he didn’t have to. He had spent years trying to make it better, to make it work. Years believing in something that really wasn’t anything.

Why go backward when the view in front is so much more promising?

“Okay then, drive me to the nearest open store, let’s get a pregnancy test so I can prove it to you.” Isao demanded, crossing his arms and grinning.

Rai glanced down at his open books, he should be studying, not worrying about his friend being pregnant but, what could he do? Isao was important him, and he wanted to ease his mind, besides, there was no way he would be able to focus with this weighing on his mind.

“Fine.” Rai decided, “Let’s go.”

Of all the people to run into at the store, so late at night, Rai did not expect his own parents to be there. Okay, well it was more what he saw in their bag that surprised him and not the fact that they were shopping so late.Of course, when Rai saw them he didn't mention anything about what was in their bag because they didn't comment on what Isao had in his hands.They were both buying the same item.

A pregnancy test.

“Did you see what they were buying?” Nishinoya asked Asahi once they arrived home.

“I did.”

“Doesn’t Isao have a boyfriend who isn't Rai?” Nishinoya asked as he opened the box of tests.

“Maybe Isao and Rai, ummm….” Asahi speculated, although thinking about his son performing sexual acts made him feel uneasy, “All it takes is one night of passion.”

Nishinoya laughed, “Ha, yeah I guess you're right, but I couldn't imagine expecting a grandchild while I'm pregnant myself.”

Asahi smiled to himself, because yeah, it would be strange if something like that happened, but the fact that it could was, well, a little amusing. Recently, him and Nishinoya had decided to try for another child. Both Aya and Rai had already moved out, and so, there was extra space in the home -- not to mention Nishinoya had been feeling a little down because all of his little babies were beginning to grow up and leave.

Nishinoya was, of course, joyous to see his kids breaking out into the world on their own but it still left him feeling a little saddened.

And so, Asahi asked him one day if he wanted to try for another baby and just see what happens. They’d start having sex without protection, and if Nishinoya conceived it’d be great, but if he didn’t, then, that’d be okay too.

“Okay, ready?” Nishinoya waved the stick, as he stood up to go to the bathroom, “Moment of truth.”

“Ready.”

“Ready?” Rai asked impatiently.

This had to be the fifteenth time Rai asked, and Isao was getting frustrated.

“It doesn't matter because I'm not pregnant.” Isao snipped.

They were both sitting on the bathroom floor, with their backs against the tub. Rai had been nervously checking his phone every three seconds and reading and rereading the directions on a cleaning solvent he had placed next to the bath earlier in the day to remind himself he needed to clean it.

“C’mon, I'm just worried.” Rai leaned sideways and rested his head on Isao’s shoulders.

“Listen, Rai.” Isao spoke in a very clear and firm tone, “We broke up, I'm not pregnant, he’s only saying that to be spiteful and spread rumors.”

“You broke up?” Rai sat up straight and looked Isao in the eyes.

“Yes.”

“How long ago was this?”

“About two weeks ago.”

“And you're done?”

“Done.”

“Not going back?”

“No.”

“And why didn't you tell me sooner?”

“Because I…” Isao paused for a moment, it was pointless to think of lies, he needed Rai to know the truth, “I was afraid you’d make me stop coming here if I didn't have a reason.”

“You don’t need a reason to be here.”

Isao shook his head, and the alarm on his phone went off meaning it was time to check the test. He stood up and triumphantly waved the pee soaked stick, “Look, not pregnant, just as I said.”

Rai didn't have the words to express his joy, he launched himself at Isao and the two fell forward in between the threshold of the door.

“Thank god, thank god.” Rai chanted in a whisper as he wrapped his arms around Isao’s shoulders and kissed him on the cheek.

Isao laughed, “Rai, Rai what are --,”

Rai was a full glass sitting at the edge of table, and every time he realized the depth of his feelings that glass became more and more full until it finally toppled over. Isao was surprised with Rai’s reaction, but at the same time, he knew it was coming. Ever since he first started getting to know Rai, he felt as if a slow tension was beginning to rise. Rai showed him what his ex could never give him.

He gave him a place of safety and despite wanting things to work out with his ex, he knew it never really would.

“I don’t know what I’d do if…” Rai buried his face against Isao’s neck, “If, if you were stuck with an alpha like that because of a baby, and, I…”

Isao could sense Rai’s nervousness, it charged the air and his eye began to water, “You know…” Isao ran a hand through Rai’s black hair, “I wouldn’t mind if…”

Rai began kissing Isao’s neck, Isao wrapped his arms around Rai’s shoulders, he let out a soft moan and moved his head back showing Rai all of his neck.

“Wouldn't mind if what…”

“If you got me pregnant.”

Rai stopped, and stared down at Isao, he slowly moved downward and kissed Isao on the lips. Isao felt his body begin to shake, this must be what it feel likes to really be in love. He thought his old alpha loved him, but...Rai, Rai loved him in a different way and protected him in ways he’d never felt before.

Isao’s hips were beginning to ache.

But his heat still wasn’t for a while.

He looked up at Rai.

“Are you asking to be my omega?”

“Yes.”

Katsuo was spending the night with Kin and Nao, the three of them were trying to work through some school assignments when they heard a knock at the door. Kin tip toed around all the papers and books and opened the door, his parents were on the other side, “Is something wrong?” he asked.

Katsuo and Nao looked up from their papers, concerned.

“No nothing’s wrong.” Asahi promised, “We, uhh...we just have some news for you.”

“Should I step out?” Katsuo asked.

“No, you don’t have to.” Nishinoya shook his head, “It’s nothing bad.”

“Uhmm, okay.”

All three boys were quiet for a few moments, when Nishinoya took in a deep breath and announced, “Kin, you know how you’re the youngest.”

“Yeah.”

“Well, soon you won’t be anymore.” Kin looked over at Nao, as the words slowly began to register. The words clicked with Nao first, he gasped and shouted, “You’re pregnant!?” “Yes.” Nishinoya answered.

“But...aren’t you a little old?” Kin questioned.

Nishinoya crossed his arms, annoyed, “Obviously not.”

Rai woke up the next morning, alone, in bed but he wasn’t worried about where Isao could have gone off too. He knew Isao had morning practice to attend, and once classes and volleyball was over for the day, he’d likely return. Rai shifted in bed, he breathed in the remains of Isao’s scent and smiled. After a few moments he reached for his phone and frowned at the missed call from his parents, plus some unopened texts.

He sat up on his bed, with his feet dangling on the side of his mattress, his left foot stepped on a discarded condom. It may not of been Isao’s first time, but it was Rai’s and it was hella awkward.

Rai read the text from his omega father, and the second his eyes finished he muttered the words, “What the fuck?”

He quickly dialed Aya’s number and as soon as she answered, “Did you get Dad’s text?”

Aya laughed, “Yes I did, I think I know what this about.”

“Is this real?” Rai asked, “Is Dad -- is he really pregnant again?”

“I think so.”

#haikyuu omegaverse #asanoya

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