#this has left a bad taste in my mouth

[canisalbus]

Is ok if I use Machete as a character for my DnD campaign?

I thought about it for a moment, and I'm sorry but I don't think I'd be comfortable with that.

#several of my characters (Machete in particular) have a history of being stolen for roleplaying purposes without my permission or awareness #and if has left something of a bad taste in my mouth #answered #anonymous

[arachnicas]

I want to read a fanfic where Miles just straight-up leaves Miguel's lab after Miguel throws that heavy trashcan at his head. A grown-ass adult threw a heavy object at him, a fifteen-year-old kid, and Miles is expected to just stick around and put up with the abuse? No. I want Miles to put his mask back on, turn invisible, and leave because an adult acting like this is wild. Maybe he gives Peter something to consider by telling him that an adult acting out like this shouldn't be running an organization.

"You're telling me that his bark is worse than his bite after he just threw a trashcan at my head like an overgrown toddler?"

"C'mon, kid, Miguel is just--"

"Just what? A bigger baby than May Day? Can't handle his big feelings, so he just throws things at people? Naw, I don't feel safe around him. See ya', Peter."

#miles morales #across the spiderverse #miguel o'hara #yeah I know Miles has spidey senses and quick reflexes which helped him dodge it #but seriously ain't no way in the world you can expect me to stick around after having trash thrown at my head #every time miguel gets mad at miles over nothing miles just walks away #he doesn't have to take this shit #I know it's supposed to be seen as funny but that scene always left a bad taste in my mouth #like why are you throwing stuff at a minor???

[brieflykay]

There was a point where I deleted all of my DSMP related art for personal reasons... But I feel like with things ending I should repost some of my old pieces to celebrate something that impacted me so greatly and meant so much.

Goodbye, DSMP.

#Dream smp #dsmp #goodbye dsmp #dsmp finale #tubbo #sapnap #philza #technoblade #emerald duo #dropsbyponk #awesamdude #awesamponk #it meant a lot to me when it was in its prime and some stuff has left a bad taste in my mouth but #i will never pretend the peak didnt mean the world to me #this is one of those things that will stick with me forever i think #my art

[snakesinsocks2005]

Pre scooped mike refs wooooo

#my art #mike afton #michael afton #i reckon mikes the kinda guy that really has no real sense of fashion. and just wears whats quick and comfy to put on #and tends to gravitate towards simple dark colours #fnaf designs #you know what. speaking of mike hcs im going to dump some more in the tags why not #mike has grown to be slightly disgusted by pizza. he ate Way too much of it as a kid and got sick a few times so its left a bad taste in hi #mouth. he likes brine-y sorta stuff like olvies pickles anchovies etc #its salty but in the Good not nauseous way. atleast in his opinion #he also Hates purple. living in a purple house with a horrible purple dad with a purple car and purple glassware does that too you #and as the guide book says is canon: chewing gum excessively as a thing for stress has a chokehold on him #adding a few more details is An option. that i will mull over later

[bixiaoshi]

i hate when news r like "bad news for x manga fans!!! author announces break for several weeks" idk man i don't think those are bad news at all, i'd rather have them take breaks and be healthy than die due to writing their manga without breaks

#like i just saw an article 'bad news for one piece: shonen jump announces eiichiro oda is taking a break' #and it left such a bitter taste in my mouth. that man has been working with little to no breaks on one piece for over 20 years. 3 weeks are #NOTHING #i like being dramatic sometimes and say what it'll be without my lil mangas but i'd rather have those author healthy than dying on that #drawing table #jo.txt

[camgoloud]

you ever just. become overwhelmed by a sudden out-of-nowhere wave of tenderness and affection and longing for reconnection directed towards someone to whom you no longer speak for Very Good Reasons

#‘out of nowhere’ she says like she hasn’t been doing a lot of reading/thinking recently about various tragic messy breakups #and the later regrets of the parties involved #anyway. tell me not to text her #it’s been over two years since the last time we talked… absolutely no reason to break that streak now. lord give me strength #she was really fucking mean to me! like objectively intentionally unwarrantedly cruel! it ruined an entire year of my life #and fundamentally changed me as a person on a deep level! there’s a lot of things i used to like about myself that i don’t think i’m ever #going to get back #and yet every once in a while we have to do the whole ‘maybe i could make things right’ song and dance 😔 #the thing is most of the time i’m not even really angry with her anymore like enough time has passed since all the shit went down that #really i just sort of look at her behavior and feel sad. both because of the impact on me but also because of the ‘that’s really how you #felt you needed to act towards someone who cared about you? you couldn’t have just expressed your feelings in an honest and productive way #instead of just lashing out in the cruelest possible way and ruining the entire relationship beyond hope of repair?’ #and i feel bad and sorry that it went that way and honestly i kind of pity her and hope she’s gotten some of her shit worked out #so i’m not like. actively pissed off at her anymore. but also i can’t think about her without thinking about the worst year of my life so 🙃 #i don’t actually feel that trying to reopen that door would be very healthy for me at least #we did try a Reconciliation of sorts a couple of months after the initial falling-out and while it was kind of helpful for me in that she #like. apologized lmao. and affirmed that i wasn’t crazy and she did in fact On Purpose say the most hurtful things she possibly could have #said to me given the information she had at her disposal. and that i really had not done anything to her that could warrant that. etc. #it also left a sour enough taste in my mouth that i just don’t see a future where the two of us spending time together is enjoyable for me #and yet… the regret will always live inside me i think. maybe if i were a stronger person… #caseyposting

[gene-and-the-riskyfixins]

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#what also gets me about all this is seeing all of these people all of a sudden have an opinion on this #I have seen so many people having all these takes about the watcher stuff but I’m like I have no idea who you are #like I have never seen people care about watcher as much as when everyone was hating on it #like it has been trending on here for the past couple of days but I haven’t really seen that before #it just bugs me #also all these people not like the watcher content #like why are you watching it then #the whole thing has just left me with a bad taste in my mouth regarding this fandom #thankfully the people I follow are what seems to be the few whole have been nice and reasonable about this whole thing

[capricious-bastard13]

I've watched Jack's (Jacksepticeye's) playthrough of MyHouse.Wad, and at first, because I only heard of Doom and never played it, I let it play in the background. Until Jack's voice starts reading the attached letter to the game.

My thought immediately went, "This is something, and I feel like I'll like this something." I rewind it and watched it from the very start to the end. But I felt it wasn't all that it was, I bounced from his to the comments, explaining the game and all being recommended to play it for yourself. I don't have the resources to do so, so when I saw a comment about a video explaining it, I looked it up. The video lays out the house and the different ways you can go from point a to point b. I've seen Power Pak's after watching Jack's playthrough. And just now, I've watched Pyrocynical's video and theory on it.

There's two that stood out to me, near the end; he lays out the theories and practically dismisses the queer interpretations of it. Until now, I've always been in the camp of "Thomas and Steve were a couple, but due to the time period, or their families, they kept it hidden." When watching Pyro's video, I started realising, why were there pills on the bathroom floor, why the crib, the ring? And I felt like Pyro was nearly there, he was so close to putting it together.

But he dismisses Thomas perhaps being trans or that Steve and Thomas are gay--calls a "fat stretch" and "Level difficulty: Medium" respectively.

I've prefaced all this, because as someone who's transmasc, it felt invalidating. For months I've seen this game--although I never played it and only watched it--as a queer story of grief and loss, of processing that loss, of going through stages of denial, of reliving memories, of just wanting to reach an end where you feel at peace, of looking back on that journey and thinking to yourself that you've made it--past the hardships to a place where you can feel at peace again.

MyHouse.wad being as ambiguous as it is but leaving all these little tidbits is as when it comes to art, hard to piece together. But hearing about how there's also a trans interpretation of made me perk up, thinking, "oh, it's going to be talked about in detail," only to be disappointed.

So, despite being that MyHouse.wad has probably had this interpretation ("tHeOrY") put up already, I still felt compelled to write my own view on it using the pieces that I know of--but, there might be details that I describe vaguely because I don't remember them all that much.

We get tiny little small glimpses of Thomas through Steve's entries, of introduction we get along with the link to download it. And even just from the descriptions of the items in the game like the ring, the die, and whatnot. And the first thought is, "oh, they're gay, but they're not out," which is a sad thought, yes. But I held that interpretation close to me. It's a journey of Steve trying to get through his grief, of plunging in to his thoughts, dismantled and breaking apart as they are. The rawness of everything, of how for him, it probably felt so fresh still and this game, of going through their mod map is his way of processing--never mind how it consumed him, as he said.

And what I consider to be the best ending; the real beach, with a heart on the sand, initials--"S and A, forever". Who's 'A'? Isn't it supposed to be 'T' for Thomas?

I've seen how 'A' could be for "Allord", Thomas' last name, and at the time, yeah, maybe it is A for Allord. But what if it isn't? What if 'A' is the deadname--using that initial, despite it being a deadname, was probably used to protect them, protect him-Thomas. To be seen a heteronormative couple to get away from the hate, the stares, the animosity.

What about the excerpt of their death? Thomas' photo clearly being of a man? Well, that's just it. It's an indication of how the family has accepted Thomas for who he is and to honor him properly, used what a photo of what he looks like now, of who he really is. Proudly too, showing him as Thomas Allord, age 35, in the newspapers. This is their son, brother, and husband.

This is certainly something that will be labeled as a "fat stretch". The crib, then? The pills? And the bloodied bathroom? Perhaps, Thomas had gotten pregnant, experienced a miscarriage in the airport bathroom and had to be rushed to the hospital. As Steve puts in the description of the baby bottle; "It wasn't meant to be." And as he writes in his journal entry, he had a dream, a baby crying in the attic, in the crib, a still born baby.

Perhaps, Thomas was ready to carry the baby--their baby and due to complications, what happened, happened. They'd already bought the crib, but put it away, and we see, maybe both of them had hope that they still had a chance, clinging on.

"If Steve and Thomas are together as you say, then why does Steve refer to Thomas as "my friend" or "my childhood friend"?" Living through life closeted brings habits, unfortunately.

I've grown up without realising that I'm trans, and it was only the past few years where I've realised that the gender I was given and raised to be, isn't who I am. Despite my family knowing, they still call me with feminine pronouns, I get referred to as "sister", or "she/her" a lot of the times. And it's become the biggest norm for me that they just fly by my head without even noticing it, without getting the chance to say "that's not my pronouns".

Is this a "weak" point of the "theory"? No, because I see it as valid. People who aren't out or don't have the chance to express who they are live day to day with being misgendered, seen as someone they're not. I don't want to say, "everybody experiences this" or that there are people who don't go through intense dysphoria that it becomes crippling; I'm just saying, that for me, this is how my day to day is today, what it's like--a sort of cynical indifference to it that boils beneath the surface of my skin.

Or, this is Steve's way to be ambiguous; Thomas was Steve's friend first before they reunited, gotten married, lived together, after all.

Maybe, he wanted to detach himself in his grief and longing. A way to protect himself from the immense loss he's going through and this is his way of doing that. By saying that Thomas was just a childhood friend, it probably eased the pain just a bit.

Or, Power Pak states in his video, isn't it strange how explicit names are never--if ever, rarely-- given. Thomas' name doesn't show up until February of 2023. Steve's name is never used. Maybe, Steve wasn't the one who wrote the journal; a third party who saw the effects of loss on Steve, instead?

In the newspaper clipping of Thomas' life, it's stated how he reconnected with his high school crush, got married and moved in with his partner. The ambiguity could mean that the family simply didn't want bigots to be bigots toward their loved one.

In Steve's clipping detailing his life, he also reconnected with his high school crush. "Soulmate", this person is described as. And like with Thomas', "partner" is used, rather something explicit like, "husband" or "wife."

Although, "wife" can't be correct either since Steve doesn't have a partner listed who outlived him, simply his family.

With MyHouse.wad being as up for interpretation as it is, there's ways of reading into things, one can take it however way they want to, where they want to.

And I, personally, like to think that Steve and Thomas are happy together, with their cat, cuddled up together in their home.

You picked up Die. "Roll for intercourse?"

I feel so helpless, like I can't do anything to bring him back. I feel so sad and it feels like my heart is heavy. I can't help but think about all of the fun times we had together growing up. All of our adventures, our secrets, and even our arguments. I miss him so much and I can't believe he's gone.

You picked up Ring. "I do."

I attended the funeral of my childhood friend, and I was overwhelmed with grief. As I looked around at everyone else in the room, I could feel the sadness in the air... I never imagined that I would be saying goodbye to my friend so soon.

You picked up Wine Bottle. "Drunk Buddy." You picked up a Bauble. "Christmas makes me happy."

Happy Valentines day to the only person I ever loved. For a short time, you brought a little happiness to this painful existence called life. I hope we can be together again one day.

You picked up Baby Bottle. "It wasn't meant to be." You picked up Pill Bottle. "Refill needed." You picked up Full Pill Bottle. "Feelin' fine."

You picked up Game Controller. "It's my turn."

Somewhere, in another dream, the version of myself that winked back is sitting on the real beach, happy and content, knowing life is finite, there is no afterlife, and happiness is found in the small things around us that we can control. Happiness has to be fought for.

#MyHouse.wad #My Writing #-ish? #If someone reads this please be nice I know I probably got somethings wrong #Or that this interpretation has already been talked about #I just wanted to make a sort of timeline ish interpretation thing so I can get my own thoughts in order #I also know nothing about the Doom community and I only know stuff about MyHouse.wad #Pyrocynical practically dismissing the queer reading and then finding MyHouse's developer's previous partner as if to say #“See guys?” feels quite dirty #in a sense where it just leaves a bad taste in the mouth #Of course MyHouse.wad's story is fiction #but intentionally going out of your way to show the developer's family like it's a Gotcha Moment #Pyro was so close to putting the pieces of a puzzle together but it's as if he's trying to cram in two already interconnected pieces #Into the wrong holes and going “It just won't fit!” #Thomas and Steve left things ambiguous because there are things that are probably just too private and simply only for them #I can't believe honestly how he went about Thomas being trans or how Steve and Thomas can't be gay #Only to talk about their matching obituaries for the next theory #Then adding in the whole "the developer based this mod on his relationship with his partner is just #Do you not know how to separate fact from fiction? Because of course MyHouse is going to be fiction? #If Steve really is dead then Veddge's introduction to the game and saying how his “childhood friend” has passed and implying that #Veddge /is/ Steve? Do you not see how strange that would be? Or does he think that someone from Steve's life is just going around #With his account acting as if they are Steve? #My head's starting to hurt from all this Pyro honestly the fuck lmao

[givemearmstopraywith]

i like what norman finkelstein has to say about the holocaust industry and i think he makes salient, interesting arguments about zionism but please engage with pro-palestine, anti-zionist jews other than finkelstein, who has praised the holocaust denier david irving as a good historian

#i have no real issue with finkelstein but him calling irving a good historian has left such a bad taste in my mouth #i have tried to see if those quotes are out of context and as far as i and see they are not. major L #the criticism of what he said about holocaust denial being taught in schools is absolutely a fair point but i think he also underestimates #how stupid the average undergraduate is skdfgjskhdfg #p #also to clarify: im saying this because if you can sway on one genocide denier then you will sway elsewhere

[crow-the-unknown]

cogs is out indefinitely due to a fractured neck after the hit from behind that eberle laid...

and the dps has done nothing. seattle fans out here talking about how cale got the star treatment from them by only getting suspended one game and yet this bs happens and they do nothing. no suspension. no fine. no hearing. no major. and eberle's was intentional. how is that department even real, seriously. it's a joke.

i hope cogs gets well soon :(

#colorado avalanche #avs lb #andrew cogliano #stanley cup playoffs #boo eberle every time he touches that damn puck tomorrow #come through ball arena and avs faithful #this league (especially is the playoffs) gets so inconsistent with reffing and with the way dps operates its embarrassing #i like seattle in the regular season but this series has left a bad taste in my mouth #jordan eberle i'm in your walls :)

[babsaros]

hey, regular reminder that if you get someone in your inbox (that you have never interacted with before/has never been following you) asking you to reblog a post on their blog (sob story asking for donations, usually about a pet to make it extra guilt-trippy) and they specifically ask you to answer this ask privately (for a vague and weak reason, why wouldn't they want more eyes on this post?) and then you go to their blog and their account is days old at most (and they're even claiming they have an old account that got shadowbanned ((?? being "shadowbanned" on tumblr does not mean you can't still post from that account?)) but never mention the url of that old blog) and all their reblogs are straight from the op and not from anyone they might be following who reblogged the post first (indicating they just quickly searched a semi-popular fandom tag to reblog some innocuous fanart to make the blog seem lived in)-

this is probably a scam :/ keep your eye out for odd details, inconsistency, and a glaring lack of credibility. stay safe out there everypony.

#ugh #yucky #bad taste in my mouth #this specific format of ask has also just been previously proven to be a scam tactic #so anybody trying to use it legitimately to fundraise is begging not to be taken seriously srry #they've clearly been in other peoples' inboxes with the same guilt-trippy copypasta #bc the ~200 notes they got are filled with ppl saying they cant donate rn but will signal boost it #ughhh #i'm rereading the exact wording of this post and getting so mad it doesn't make any sense #one of the pictures included is a vet invoice but they say they haven't gone to the vet yet but also the cat is pictured in a cone already #it does not make sense #said vet is also “the only one in the area that will take donations over the phone” but “needs to be paid upfront” #so. you cant have taken the cat to the vet yet. bc you dont have the money. which you are asking to be donated directly to ur paypal #thats not over the phone. thats. what? #MAYBE they mean an online payment but like. #then why do u have an invoice and the cat is clearly bandaged and in a cone already!! #then they also say the cat is already on antibiotics and only has days left if they dont get further treatment #and then a paragraph later claim the cat needs antibiotics! #im SO tempted to email this vet #i wont #im gonna put this to bed now

[spurgie-cousin]

Just saw the video and commentary you posted around the poverty cosplaying and I just want to add that there used to be a different place in Arkansas that did a similar thing, sorta. It was through a charity organization that shifted focus so they no longer run the program, but they used to have a "global village" where people would get assigned different regions of the world to live in by lottery with a couple key differences. First, they used actual names of actual countries and provided actual information about the country/culture. Secondly, it wasn't for mission training but instead was meant to be an educational tool to help middle school and high school students to consider how existing in different global and socio-economic circumstances change your decision making etc. and in depth discussion and educational activities were facilitated frequently. I went there as part of an overnight high school trip and while in retrospect the "poverty cosplaying" does give me the ick I still feel like that particular program was informative. Mostly I'm shook that two distinct programs like this exist in AR? I've literally never heard of the Harding one from the video until now and went on a Google deep dive to see if they were connected in some way, but not that I can tell. Anyway, no deep thoughts really, just thought it was super interesting/weird.

There is something in the water over there in Arkansas man lol. I can never learn just some normal fact about AR, it's always something weird.

I totally understand wanting to create more empathy for those who live in poverty, especially in teenagers who are in a really formative years of their lives. And it's one thing to replicate conditions in your immediate area which you are intimately familiar with, but I just can't get on board with play-acting poverty in different areas of the world. I just think about how I'd feel if some religious group in another country tried to replicate my life experience for shock value.

Even replicating the conditions semi-well can't replicate the actual stakes faced by the people they're cosplaying. You can't replicate the stress of a single mother working 2 jobs and supporting 3 kids in a one-room house, you can't replicate the stress of food insecurity and legitimately being worried about when your next meal will be, etc etc. And something about pretending to do them when you can just go back to normal life at any time just feels disrespectful in a way I can't really articulate.

Idk if people get something from it that's great and I do get the thinking behind the one you described at least, I'm mostly still ranting about the first camp lol. I don't have any doubt that some of the people running the camp you went to had good intentions (the other one though I'm really not sure based on the town names) I just have a lot of mixed experience in Christian missionary culture where poverty is treated voyeuristically which is just definitely the vibe I got from the first camp.

#idk my dad grew up really really poor and i live in an area with a lot of poverty and so maybe i'm just overly touchy about it #but so much of the “philanthropic” culture i experienced in Christianity was making an other out of poor people #it's hard for me to really articulate well i feel but it was just this disconnect like we are different. we are the saviors. #we're on a different level. when in reality i mean everyone is an arm's length away from being in a bad situation in the right circumstance #i think the fact that a lot of the missionary work we did too was just classic surface level stuff like putting a bandaid on a gaping wound #kind of stuff that never addresses the root issues of poverty left a bad taste in my mouth for the community too #my church in particular has had this fundraising event every year for 80 years for the same area in africa building infrastructure and its #like....it's been damn near a century. how has this goal not been accomplished yet like where is this money going too?? #why have the missionaries in question seemed to make so little progress #idk ok im done lol i havent ranted in the tags in so long

[bandtrees]

im like crying on my knees begging for serirei people to have like a crumb of self awareness when they make serizawa dark skinned to not be making him small petite prettyboy reigen's like emotional support big burly top seme who exists to be hot and comfort him and that is it

#babbles #inspired by a serirei art i just found that left a um. very bad taste in my mouth in this regard #racism tw #take my extremely white opinion with a grain of salt but side quest's serirei racism is not unique to it alone #and it's a line i think some people get dangerously close to crossing in the name of just wanting to be progressive #in general fanon serirei has a problem with making it all about reigen #which is REALLY BAD in this context when ppl just treat him like reigen's emotional support seme #while making him darker skinned and also conveniently big and burly and hairy and masculine and a top and protective and- #and its like. guys in canon serizawa is only like slightly tanner then reigen and slightly taller. weird implicit stereotypes are showing

[motokeith]

can we stop treating our participation in the voltron fandom as something horrific and shameful or is every single voltron post going to be prefaced with self-deprecation and disgust

#before anyone jumps down my throat I am being hyperbolic #but also!! I think we can all agree that vld deserves criticism & its ‘16-‘18 fandom had some miscreants #I think we all collectively understand that custody of these characters/this universe has been revoked from dw by the remaining fans #the miscreants have retired. they left. you’re safe #you can make positive posts I promise I swear to god you don’t have to justify being in this fandom to the rest of us… also in the fandom #yes even in 2024 who cares #use your filtered tags and enjoy your stay my liege #I am just exhausted by the constant negativity and the qualifiers and the criticism of other fans just?? expressing themselves normally #‘I don’t like this trope’ ok cool!! it’s actually way easier to scroll away and not think about it than to make a post shitting on it #we don’t need to know that you don’t like it honestly #filter it and enjoy never seeing it again! #but considering how small the fandom is now there’s a good chance the person who created that piece of art or that fic is going to see your #post proclaiming your hatred of it #idk just leaves a sour taste in my mouth #everything doesn’t have to be For You #anyway there are so many fandoms in the same boat as Voltron where the fandom has largely disengaged with the source material bc it’s bad #and not just bad but at times painful to consume #rant in the tags

[opal-apples]

I haven't watched either of the watcher videos yet (lol) but I am watching two analysis videos on them by youtube user penguinz0 and just feel very :// about it all. like it seems that their apology was pretty good but I'm still confused about their alleged financial struggles, and am kind of blown away that nobody pointed out how awful the wording in the first video was. just overall disappointed

#idk a lot of people have said this and i agree that ive never been into any of the watcher shows as much as i was bfu #ghostfiles and puppet history come sort of close #i really liked too many spirits! thats probably the one show ive seen every ep of lol #but the whole thing has left a bad taste in my mouth #im not gonna say im never watching their stuff again but i personally will be taking a minute away lol #jo talks #this is my void i scream how i wanna #rant #watcher :/

[sharkneto]

My review of The Poppy War: Would rather have just read a book about the Second Sino-Japanese War instead of the fantasy version of it

#i think it would have been better if it hadn't so closely paralleled real world events #how it used the rape of nanjing left a bad taste in my mouth #i don't think it did anything interesting with its historical base - and maybe it does in later books but i shall not be reading them #if anyone has any particular insights on the book and really enjoyed it i would be interested in hearing from you #because i do feel a little bit like i missed something that made this book come together better - so many people rave about it! #but it is also very possible i just didn't like the book and that's life not everyone likes everything #book club