#there's a weird sort of reverse respect you get from these things that you don't get from going to the health department

[dangermousie]

I really loved the first six episodes of AJTL. It feels adult in a way too few cdramas do nowadays. The protagonists are (sometimes sociopathic, weird) adults and the narrative is adult and the humor and darkness are both adult. Now, I don't mean this is some sort of meditation on the human condition like Royal Nirvana or NiF or Three Kingdoms, but the situations and characters are of a nature you wouldn't usually see in youth-oriented stuff nowadays - whether it's the fact that our FL just wants to ML for stud so she can have a baby with good genetics and no family ties or the fact that literally every politician in this is a complete scumbag.

I actually love that our FL isn't just the most terrifying mofo in the narrative full of killers but that she is a bona fide borderline sociopath who has no understanding of boundaries or proper behavior or consent or even any sort of flirtation let alone a deeper feeling. She's been a killer since childhood; what normal does she have? The fact that she's managed to have any sort of emotions left is a miracle.

So her deciding she needs a child because her benefactor told her she should as a dying wish and picking a sperm donor in our ML because he's suitable, all with about as much understanding of relationships as an alien - she doesn't want ML because she fancies him, she doesn't want a child to love. It's basically a weird duty thing. It all makes sense.

It's a wonderful gender reversal, with FL the goal-oriented, robotic psycho and ML going "but wait a minute, feelings, also no way, no how." His realization as to how crazy she is, is something else.

Look how she explains it, as if it's the most logical business transaction - your genetic material is great, you are not married so nobody will be hurt, if you die on this mission you will have someone to carry on your lineage, you are scheming so if a kid takes after you and is scheming, it's good. None of it will seduce a man in the least, let alone anything further. But I think in a way it's a weird mark of respect where she's not trying to lie but put all her cards on the table. But also - it shows how far from normal she is that she doesn't even realize how insane it sounds to anyone. He may be a spy but his life has been pretty different than hers; he's got friends and he had family - he is a fairly functional dude. She doesn't have any relationship, and the closest she had was weird stubs...

Like - she is acting like an alien...

Yeah, I don't think psychotic rose through the ranks assassins are big on consent.

She's bona fide nuts and I love that for once we have an unhinged FL. But one of the things I love so is that you slowly see her melt a little around the edges, if barely, because he keeps treating her as a proper lady however murdery and crazy she gets - she was an assassin and then she was a spy-whore, she's basically never been treated as a proper person instead of a tool, except possibly by the dowager and that was a long time ago. No wonder she gets drawn in - like she did by his decency in that rooftop speech scene. It's such a great reversal!

Like she genuinely doesn't get why he doesn't jump at the offer.

I really do love the ML who'd be the unhinged one in any other drama but here he's the sane one. And also his angry decency is mmmm.

I don't usually have fantasy casts for characters; there are very few exceptions - CGY and LYX for the mains of 2ha, Chen Kun for the ML of Dreamer in the Spring Boudoir, SZE for Prisoner of Beauty (alas), but LYN is on that short list - he's 100% my fan cast for Yuwu's Mo Xi and stuff like this gives me mad MX vibes:

I mean...

Anyway, this drama is awesome!

PS also the way secrets don't get dragged out. ML knows her true identity and we are long moving on to other stuff, hooray!

#cdrama #a journey to love #liu yuning #liu shi shi

[sytokun]

I just find it really curious why you shipped White Knight (Jaune/Weiss) of all things. What’s the appeal, if I may ask?

Okay, strap in.

I've been meaning to compile my varied thoughts about Whiteknight through the years, so this is my opportunity to do so.

First is this r/RWBY post, where a good number of people also chipped in their thoughts, so it's a good look of the general thought process for liking the ship.

Next is this comment I left on a Phoenix/Night video years ago:

transcript (with some edits):

I've always had a soft spot for White Knight. At the time, I saw Jaune and Ruby more as siblings and Jaune and Pyrrha as platonic partners, so that left Weiss. After Pyrrha's death I considered Arkos more, but I actually think that Pyrrha's death made White Knight more interesting. I imagine Weiss' respect for Jaune would keep growing, and seeing Jaune grieving would make her more sympathetic to him and grow more concerned for him. I imagine that eventually she would indeed garner romantic feelings for him, but feels like she should hide her feelings - partly out of awkwardness due to the way she treated him last time, and partly out of thinking that Jaune only had eyes for Pyrrha and would not choose her.

It's my headcanon, sure, but I think it adds a nice depth to Jaune and Weiss' relationship, because the tables would literally be turned and where once Jaune pined for Weiss, now Weiss pines for the now heroic and capable Jaune. It's not abrupt either, it's very much a slow burn. It still makes Pyrrha relevant because her memory lingers over the both of them, and Jaune getting together with Weiss would symbolise positive growth for both of them, a nice reversal of their initial relationship, and a good point for Jaune to move on from Pyrrha's death through Weiss.

Weiss had always felt superior to others. Sure now she considers her teammates and friends as equals, but I don't think she ever truly considers herself the one on the back foot. Her feeling she could never replace Pyrrha in Jaune's heart and just be the "second choice" - a combination of pride, pain from Pyrrha's death and condemning herself for having such selfish thoughts leading to not allowing herself to confront her feelings - is very interesting to me and I think has loads of potential to dive deep into both of their selves and what they truly feel for each other, confirming what has been ambiguously floating in the air all this time.

When it comes to Whiteknight, it hangs on my perception of Weiss, which I have two different branching headcanons of: If Pyrrha Died (canon-aligned) and If Pyrrha Lives (canon-divergent).

In a version of RWBY where Pyrrha dies, Whiteknight is my top choice for a Weiss ship, because Pyrrha's death is sort of the secret ingredient to making this ship a goldmine of emotions and drama to explore. The shared commiseration between Weiss and Jaune over Pyrrha being gone; their shared admiration of her and subsequent feelings of loss and shared recovery.

There is also the contrast between their dynamics pre- and post-Pyrrha. The sense of immature puppy love that Weiss has no patience for eventually growing into a very real, mature love borne out of familiarity, friendship and mutual respect and reliance on each other's strengths.

In a RWBY where Pyrrha lives, Whiteknight loses most of its sweet narrative juice for me and I start considering other ships for Weiss, like Monochrome or Freezerburn. I would also likely default to Arkos for Jaune in this scenario, but only really because it's a safe choice I can still find interest in.

There is also the weird canon meta surrounding WK's development, pointed out by someone's comment in the above r/RWBY post. Basically the idea that WK felt really awkward and forced, so RT kind of swept it under the rug and forgot about it, only to (perhaps inadvertently) slowly give Jaune and Weiss moments together that felt oddly genuine and natural - a far cry from how their relationship initially began.

Whiteknight though will always have a special little place for me, because there's just... so much to like about it.

It has a slow burn. It has shared angst over character death. Romantic reversal, unrequited love, moments of epiphany about how much has changed between them and within themselves... It 's a fanfiction paradise.

And while yeah, the initial stages of their relationship are not great and pretty embarrassing to watch, the cringe parts somehow make the latter stages even more of a fun surprise to watch unfold. The fact that they can feasibly transition from friends to lovers with barely any effort now, when such a thing would be unthinkable back then... There is a charm to its matter-of-factness that can only be earned with time.

As someone who's watched RWBY in my late teens-early twenties and now watching it as an adult, Whiteknight feels like a ship that grew alongside its audience, and I think a lot of other WK shippers can attest to this.

#syto asks #rwby #shipping #jaune arc #weiss schnee #whiteknight #white knight

[rukafais]

Ruka, I just wanna express my condolences for the Drizzt fandom being such a pain on here. Made me realize that I got lucky just finding the books randomly in a store and picking em up because they looked cool. Absolutely 0 background info or interaction with the fandom, just purely immersing myself in the series for weeks and sharing some highlights with friends. Hope the haters leave you alone and you can just keep enjoying the series for what it is.

Honestly that was close to my experience once I finally got to reading them and not just absorbing What People Knew About Them, I tore through all the books without looking them up at all or stepping into the fandom even a little bit haha, which means I got to get through them all without watching people dump on them near-constantly like Drizzt is the worst series ever made.

It's part of why I love them so much, because when I finally got to sit down and read the damn things my opinion completely reversed, that's how hard they won me over. The books are full of love for their characters, their setting, and are respectful of the reader's time, and I do love them for that.

Which, uh, was a double nasty surprise when I went to look for cute fanart and found a tag filled with weird circlejerking about how much everybody hates Drizzt and the author (what is with the weird fucking ad hominem btw, like you can't just say you don't like the writing style, the author is also responsible for everything wrong with drow and dnd).

Like I hadn't already absorbed a shit ton of jokes by osmosis about how Drizzt is a mopey bitch who's so sad and tragic and brooding and also found out that was...a total fucking lie actually, so it wasn't a great atmosphere to run into and did not endear me to a lot of the community here :/ It's improved massively of course, but the fact that intensely negative people have been running the show for as long as this site has existed is fucking dumb actually.

ALSO PEOPLE KEPT LEAVING SHITTY COMMENTS ON MY CUTE FANART POSTS IN THE TAGS WHICH WAS REALLY ANNOYING ACTUALLY I DIDNT LIKE THAT VERY MUCH. I ENJOY THAT PEOPLE ENJOYED MY EARLY FANART BUT I DID NOT ENJOY PEOPLE LEAVING DISPARAGING COMMENTS ABOUT HOW BOOKS I HADNT READ SUCKED.

But honestly it's fine. I can handle a few weird comments even if they annoy the hell out of me (and are often demonstratably completely wrong, like cmon if you're going to be an asshole at least be correct about the stuff you like), I don't like it when people leave weird comments on the stuff of people who are just starting or clearly enjoying the books because it's so out of pocket but all I can do is write or draw to counteract that effect and clean up the tag a little.

I feel worse for the people who have loved this series from childhood honestly. There's so much negativity surrounding Drizzt and I can't imagine how exhausting that must be to never have a place to talk about a series that means a lot to you because the general accepted opinion is that you hate it, the series sucks, and everyone is in some sort of bizarre love-hate orbit because The Author Loves Me Not and His Characters Are Wasted On Him, He's A Hack.

So yeah, hope you continue to enjoy yourself with it too anon :)b

#rukamemes

[real-sun-wukong-fan01]

Hi there! I hope your week is alright to you. Say, in your Time Swap AU, what happens in s4 and its special? Why and how would the Camel Ridge Trio mess with MK and his tudi, or do you already have that answer in another post? Does Azure still die in that AU?

I can't help but snort at imagining that if the JTTW fam of this AU see Canon Macaque anywhere near their Wukong without knowing any better, that shadow monkey is gonna get dropkicked by four demon kids and piled under them, ala Red Son in s1 special.

How does SWK feel about his monkey form after being confronted by his Ink self in the scroll? Does he confront MK about it? Does he get called the Harbinger of Chaos?

How does the meeting between the monk, the demon kids and their past lives in the scroll go?

How would the canon cast of Monkie Crew consisting of Mei, Sandy, Tang, and Pigsy react to meeting with their counterparts of the JTTW fam of Time Swap AU, specifically just them, excluding the monkey related dudes. What would they talk about? Would they gripe about their respective SWK to each other?

What is Erlang's role in Time Swap AU?

Have a great month! Treat yourself to something nice once in a while!

I actually haven't been working on S4 much, but that's probably because I'm in other three fandoms at the moment and I have other aus there too, or maybe didn't have motivation, but I'll answer anyway!

Though not everything I say here might stay as it is, so count it as a maybe.

- I was planning on changing who the trio is, but I can't figure out who. But I'm assuming it's going to be for revenge or some sort.

- yes azure will die here too, by the hands of sun wukong. (Or anyone who will replace azure.)

- he's not so happy, since he's literally given an identity crisis. He's been living thinking his biological family died in a fire, and that he was simply a human adopted by Tripitaka, but knowing that it was all a lie, and that he's a monkey now from a rock,,is not the best thing. Especially his ink self, he's not helping.

His name is now a lie too, since it's a foreshadowing that he's a monkey. As sun wukong literally means "monkey awakened by the emptiness.”"

- he'll be called that, even though I wanted him to be called something similar to the great sage equal to heaven.

- I don't think he can confront mk about it, since the guy didn't know either. (Not like ink wukong can blame mk or call him a monster, since mk from the start was NEVER threat or dangerous like wukong is in the original story during jttw, or before.)

- we get to see tang, pigsy, sandy and mei! Luckily mk won't be there, or he would have cried.

But it remains pretty similar to the original, just role reversed.

- tang would go crazy seeing them, but would also need to be reminded a LOT that they aren't the actual gang, but a different version of them (meaning they didn't went on the journey), Tripitaka would be kinda weirded out, but would also be curious about the journey tang keeps talking about.

Pigsy and bajie..like a dad disciplining their kid.

Sandy and Sha wujing would just vibe with the cats!

Mei and ao lie would want to know about their ancestors, and about each other.

they would ask about wukong yes, but mainly from the swap au.

- Erlang takes nezha's place!

Thank you!!

#lego monkie kid #journey to the west #jttw #monkie kid #time swap au

[sometimes-love-is-enough]

Fanfic asks: 1, 2, 3 (does it help you to share ideas?), 34, 43, 50, 76, 78, 79 and 80 (How do you deal with writer’s block?)

I’ve been kinda feeling…creatively constipated, is as best as I can describe it. Ideas and worlds in my head but they stay locked up without a key to free them. So I guess I wanted to pick someone’s brain, writer to writer, see if there’s anything I can try to get myself inspired again. I hope that’s not weird.

1. Do you daydream a lot before you write, or go for it as soon as the ideas strike?

For the most part, I force myself to daydream a lot before I sit down to start writing, because otherwise there's the very real chance I'll sit down and get 3k into it and realize, 'oh. there's not very much meat on this one at all. I don't want to finish it anymore.' There's something to be said for the concept of 'Writing For The Sake Of Writing', but a lot of the time getting a decent length into something and just, not having the ideas or drive to finish it.. it kind of sucks.

2. Where do you get your fic ideas?

All sorts of places, although I tend to draw a lot from real-life experiences and things I'm currently learning about/interested in (e.g. philosophy chapters of Pick A Side, chessboxing), as well as various types of mythologies and lore (Eucat, Melliferous).

3. Do you share your fic ideas, or do you keep them to yourself?

I'm the sort of person who hoards the fine details of my WIPs very close to my chest until I'm absolutely sure that I'm going to stick to writing the whole damn thing. I'm not great at sharing. But also I really enjoy sharing out of context little bits and pieces as I go, and constantly want to talk about the things I write - I'm a contradiction of a person.

34. How much of your personal life/experience do you include in your fics?

Well, when I was 17, I died, went to bee hell, and had to wait for the combined-yet-separate fractals of my personality to come bail me out I don't include an overwhelming amount, I don't think, but sometimes real life is the best source for an interesting story. It gives it a bit of spice and depth. For example, the thing in Syzygy with Thomas blaming his creaky apartment on an 'apartment ghost' and constantly talking to it because he's lonely is something that I do in fact do in real life.

43. Is there a trope or idea that you’d really like to write but haven’t yet?

Yeah, I want to do a thorough deconstruction of a soulmate AU. And/or the hanahaki trope, because neither of those are something that I'm entirely fond of. I'm not sure if this is the right fandom to do it in or not, but I have a feeling I'll end up writing it eventually.

50. How would you describe your writing style?

Absurdist realism and/or magical surrealism.

76. How do you deal with writing pressure, whether internal or external?

Internal pressure is a sign I need to take a break and do something else for a bit, or stop taking myself so seriously. External pressure is a sign that I either need to block a rude commenter, or gently remind people that I'm a human being and I do this for fun.

78. What motivates you during the writing process?

Knowing that at the end of it all, I'll have a finished product that a) I will be proud of in some respect b) that other people will enjoy and c) (hopefully) scream at me in fury about. Getting to that end point where I can actually hit the post button and see something that I made show up in the tags is just the best feeling in the world.

79. Do you have any writing advice you want to share?

Be joyful with it. Writing is a game you're playing with yourself, so play. I recognize that this isn't the most helpful and specific of advice, but I can't stress enough how much you should experiment with stylisms and point-of-view and unreliable narrators and all the rest of it! Pastiche someone else's style! Write in reverse chronological order! Give yourself restrictions and take away your pre-existing restrictions, and BREAK THE RULES.

80. How do you deal with writer’s block?

Writer's block (for me, at least) is my brain telling me that it doesn't want to work anymore. It's had enough. It doesn't want me to work! Which is the point where I close the document, and go do something else that my brain does want to do. Sometimes that's going for a walk or making myself a fancy drink or snack, sometimes it's lying in bed and watching Youtube for ages, and sometimes my brain is just screaming and sobbing and kicking and doesn't want to do anything at all, in which case I just have to gently sit with it and wait for it all to be over. Either way, I'll get back to writing when I get back to it - either whatever WIP I was working on at the time, or something new that I'll enjoy writing. Forcing myself to write when I'm not on an actual deadline or timecrunch never works out well for me, so I try to be very gentle about it.

And I hope you get past that brainblock eventually. I've been there too, and it's the worst place to be in. Hopefully you find that idea or project that makes your brain start singing again soon! I wish you luck, and hope this helps.

#fanfic ask meme #long post #asks

[somewhereinthepines]

dunno if you were asked this before but what you most favorite dynamic out of all your supermassive ships?

i don’t think, that i answered it on such a scale before tbh. i’ve been asked about my supermassive otps separately tho, so like mmmm….

idk. i can’t say, that i have a specific favorite among all of them. each pair has elements that fascinate me, and while they all have smth that tangles them together, they’re also fundamentally different. i look at chris x ryan, and john x andrew, which at first glance is what i’m calling a caretaker + their silent, younger companion sort of gimmick, but they’re also go deeper than this, and there is very big difference even in how chris & john handle situations or how andrew & ryan react to things. how andrew will always be more pushy, and how ryan essentially can enter yandere mode, where andrew seem to be just kind of prone to violence of less motivated, less personal kind…..or even a big separation in how chris always tries to cling to imagery of a good person, and john is just kind of embraces the fact, that he’s not a decent man. still, chris somehow fucks up more royally bc of it all vs john, who’s just kinda goes with the flow lol. and then, the roles of who defends who in both ships are reversed. in the quarry, ryan canonically goes out of his way to pretend like everything around him doesn’t scream ‘my mentor isn't who i think he is'. it's so plain. so into your face, yet rayn being unresponsive, being abrasive. and then, he also gets hella passive-aggressive, once someone suggests that he's in denial (he is lol). in LH, it’s john, who canonically closes eyes on andrew’s mishaps and stunted disturbance, downright to forgiving him accidently killing angela (in some routes). i talked in more detail about john & chris’s differences and similarities here. but while they do share the same roots of dynamic, i feel like it evolves into its own category along the way. so honestly, even between those two, it’s kinda impossible for me to pick which is the most preferable or interesting. bc they both are! i'm a sucked for complicated pinning & favoritism, that makes person pick side based on their own selfish pref rather than logic. i love how creepily easy it is for ryan & john to endanger others, if it means that they can keep chris & adnrew 'safe and sound'. i love how this is their first, organic reaction. the quarry kinda messed it up toward the end, but y'know lol. it's the narrative point / the main intent, that counts with me. and where LH wasn't very shy about andrew & john being a 'thing' in whatever way, you might see it....like them being stuck together as oddly 'similiar' unlucky folks or as john being there to mislead you, well, they still were very *cross fingers* like that. in the quarry, you have to actually look a bit more closely to see how much of plot is revolved around ryan & chris's relationships. around ryan trying to save someone, who is in fact, was partly to blame for everything. but honestly, this is what i like about the quarry vs until dawn. at least, chris had someone, who did try to see the best in him. vs until dawn, where by unpopular opinion, i always stuck feeling like josh deserved better friends. i can't watch the prologue and not think, that aside from sam, the rest of josh's friends actually suck tbh. including chris, bc dang, he just abandoned him like that. for a girl..........so while josh did messed up thing, i struggle to feel any sort of sympathy for anyone, but sam in that game. naturally, some characters grew on me and chris was even my fav back at the time, but i don't and cannot respect a half-assed commitmet he showed josh. like man, be more like ryan, dude. point a gun at weird looking gal, that suggest that she's about to kill your camp leader. be like john, and literally ignore safety of everyone, but yourself and that one, young dazed student that you like lol. chris from until dawn is too weak for it. even non-existent dr hill was more devoted to josh vs his best bud. i mean, it kinda sucks, when your mental illness is the only thing, that agrees to keep you company, bc your bff wanna gets laid and just forgets about u. it's realistic tbh, don't get me wrong. but it still stings lol.

*clears throat* sorry, tangled lol.

anyways then, we have the other 2 ships, which are kind of opposites of one another. i mean, dulie & dalim do have similar narrative bits, esp since both pairs have power imbalance as its main trait. but where du’met x charlie will always be a predator/prey, with prey barely being able to do anything against its pursuer, in dalim it's never fully established, who 'controls' the situation in the end. bc realistically, salim would kick dar’s ass, if he saw so fit lol. and the funny part of their relationship is that dar is completely unaware lol. he seems to consider salim to be weaker, more naive and less likely to fight against his commands, since he's kind of a kiss-ass lol. it never occurs to dar, that salim can rebel against him. and if/when salim does, dar basically instantly gets angry/absolutely enraged with him, bc how dare he lol. in dulie, du’met kind of expects charlie to struggle and whine, and cower, and try his hardest, so he’s not holding it against him. he even humors him kinda. still, it's where the big diffence is. charlie is du'met 'prey', whatever intentions he has for him are always 'justified' inside his own mind. dar would only hurt salim, if he goes out of line. he won't randomly harm salim, or consider doing it, even if he might have such impulse. like, i do believe, that he does have them. still, where charlie being du'met 'favorite' means, that du'met would exact more pain and fear on him....with dar, it's the opposite. he would try to keep salim from harm's way, at least to some degree and he certanly won't treat him as poorely as he treats those other people, who are unimportant to him. canonically, out of the whole unit, dar only searching for salim. he's not sorry for all those wasted lives, it seem to barely register with him even. more so, he's actually allows salim to stick in the background for the most part, when he shots around like a maniac lol. it must mean smth comming from a war dog like him. also i must say, that dar & du’met, while both clearly sociopathic, still have very, very different stans there, not to mention, that even their sadism is kinda different too. not even in level, but also in how they apply it. they both clearly love hunting down people. they both enjoy the thrill of chase. but dar in a way uses his position, the situation he’s in as an excuse for it. while, du’met is just like that lol. salim & charlie are also opposites. there is SO very little to connect them by. besides, a very surface level things, such as them being the low-key hyperfixation/main companion for antagonists, and then how they both wander around with a lighter. so once again, its kinda impossible to pick between them, bc they represent very different things, and the characters themselves have way less in common up close vs the chris/ryan and john/adnrew. 

taking all 4 ships into account is like examining 4 of your favorite foods. it’s not the matter of which you prefer more, it’s more of what you wanna eat at the moment lol. the silver lining of all my supermassive ships be that they all have a specific brand of fixation/care/pinning/longing for one another. and they usually all have smth, that makes it difficult to approach those relationships/feelings. at least, for one party lol. but it’s kinda impossible to shove them all into some check-box tbh. i mean, it will be very hard to fit let’s say, caring chris, who tries to be good to ryan, even when he scolds him, and dar, who backhands salim, the second he fails to answer him fast enough. or compare andrew, who can push john around and shut him up by mere suggestion of disagrement, and charlie who would most likely fell on his knees and suck du’met off, rather than risk invoking his displeasure. even if simply bc du'met is capable of murdering him lol.

so idk, i can't name the most fav one tbh. i love them all for their own reasons. not to meation, that there is so many ways to explore obsession and other bits, that i love in each ship in its own way. before, i assumed, that i might have a secret fav, but looking at it now, i don't think that i do, haha.

#asks #long post #du'lie #dalim #chris x ryan #john/andrew #and look josh is kinda there too in between it all lol

[optiwashere]

Anon who would like to commission here.

I mentioned it because I had some ideas with Aylin and Isobel that want to write, but I'm so busy I don't have time to do so.

I was intrigued by the concept of Aylin shedding every once of her divinity to be with Isobel. Except, what if she's not only extremely humanized, but also revert to this bestial lust of massive cock mommy pounding into her wife? Two animals breeding until neither can really walk.

It's just that I was looking for someone who might be interested in exploring the same idea. However, I also work in creative field, so I sort of have this weird personal mindset of everyone should be compensated for their work in every kind. And I don't know if it's even appropriate or fair to request someone to create for free, out of goodwill.

Though I suppose this is just me being trapped so long in the industry, I sometimes can't even think about basic concepts like sharing things for fun. But in reverse, I'd be happy to make little things to people and gift them, wanting nothing in return. It's all so weird, isn't it?

But yeah. Now that cat's out of the bag, I think that idea might be one of the things I'd gravitate to again, eventually. Though I think it'd also be very funny if by making this ask, I've planted in multiple people that imagery of Aylin possessing 0 control in the heat of the moment. Only wife warm and she must breed. The hilarity of this idea could be shared, and we would have a collective, intense brainrot over it.

Hey anon, thanks for the follow up!

I also think that everyone should be compensated for their labors, but unfortunately I live in a country where the sort of labor I perform is not at all respected and could result in extreme negative, legal consequences. Wizards of the Coast, the rights holders for D&D, are notoriously litigious and it has only gotten worse in the past few years. They might just send a cease & desist notice, and then we'd all lose out, or they might collect years of evidence and then destroy me in a case that I'd have no standing in. And that's just my personal problems, not to mention the trouble AO3 and the OTW could get into for hosting the content.

Also, I do like the sharing and gift economy of fanfiction. It's nice to have a break from Capitalism breathing down my neck.

So, I'm sorry but it's just too open for a bad time for me. I might consider opening a ko-fi or something, since donations/tips feel a bit less weird for me and I got like 4 anons talking about it after you, but I would have to be in a questionable situation financially. It's complicated. I'll keep people up to date.

As for the request, a breeding kink fic with trans Aylin isn't out of the question for something I'd write. Hell, I wrote one for Asheera/Shadowheart so I can do it again if the flavor tastes right for the pairing. Maybe someone else will be inspired to do it, too? Who knows!

If I work on it, I'll be sure to post an update here :)

#hey you can ask me things!

[angie-j-kay]

Okay, here are my takes from Barbenheimer, and the messages the movies seem to be pushing:

Spoilers under the cut.

Oppenheimer:

If you're autistic, have anxiety, or are generally sensitive to loud scary noises, be warned that this might set you off. This was very much a horror movie, disguised as a historical thing. Also, Christopher Nolan music is Christopher Nolany. YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN.

The great horror wasn't that the people involved were monsters, it was that they were just people. ANYONE handed enough fear and desperation risks becoming this. Yes, even you.

If the monster feels really, really bad about it after, is he still a monster? (Answer: YES, but you still paid to see this movie so now you're culpable too.)

A discussion of how responsible scientists are for what the powerful and cruel do with their inventions.

Ian Malcolm in the first Jurassic Park movie was right. "You were so preoccupied with whether or not you could, you didn't stop and think if you should!"

Hey, it's that actor I had such a crush on when I was 14 and wow, he got old, and OH SHIT I'M OLD TOO... It doesn't matter which actor I'm talking about, MOST of them were that actor to someone or other.

Florence Pugh has nice tits, and Robert Downey Jr. should play more villains. Also, David Krumholz is slowly turning into Alfred Molina.

Spoiler alert: BOOM.

Men suck.

Barbie: This one's gonna get me SO MUCH HATE, because y'all love Barbie, but I'm gonna do it anyway.

They told me it was an empowering movie for women and girls to watch. I went through the whole thing, and was rather insulted by this claim. Yeah, the idea of "women can be whatever we want" was repeated over and over, but the actual movie showed very little of that. Only the DOLLS got to be what they wanted, not the "Real Women."

Barbie not having a vagina is played for laughs, and the first thing that happens when she becomes a Real Woman (Yes, this is a plot point.) is... going to the gynecologist, with her new vagina and uterus. The Mattel board meeting actually had a man ask "I'm a man with no power, does that make me a woman?" How Tumblr hasn't caught the transphobia there is beyond me.

Ha ha, pregnant Midge! Loved that!

Feminism is important, because the patriarchy hurts... Ken. And the other Kens. Look, I get that this plot point was aimed SOLELY at the men who were watching this movie, trying to force them to imagine the role reversal and see how awful it is, but it doesn't change the fact that the main plot point of a supposedly feminist movie was clearly targeted at men. Like... come on.

Why is Will Ferrel here? You could have replaced him with a broken lamp in the corner and the movie would have been just fine.

I can't think of a single time that Barbie invited Ken's company. He pursued her, and she tolerated him because that was just sort of her role and she felt she had to. He respected none of her boundaries, just constantly tried to push past them. Then when he went full incel to the point of violence (Yes, I count brainwashing and enslavement as violence and you should too.) and she defeated him, he threw a screaming, public, self-hatred tantrum until SHE was apologising to HIM and consoling HIM, just a few minutes of screen time after a rant about how unfair it is that women are held responsible for men's bad behavior.

Ruth - "I can't let you become a real woman without you understanding what that means." Ruth - shows a montage of babies and motherhood, with some random crap tacked on the end in hopes that we won't notice that.

Being vocally angry about the patriarchy, racism, and enforced femininity is for dumb, angry teenagers with daddy issues who don't know anything about anything, and growing up into REAL feminism involves pink dresses.

The Velveteen Rabbit walked so that Weird Barbie could somersault while doing the splits.

I did cry when Barbie saw the old woman for the first time and called her beautiful. That was nice.

The boy bands of the early 2000s are finally explained.

The only way out of the patriarchy is by women talking to each other and working together, then... men saying they're sorry and totally promising never to do that again. Because that always works.

I mean, the movie wasn't terrible. It just wasn't made for feminists. It was made to get men angry enough to go see the movie so they'd have something to make angry podcasts about, in hopes that a few of them would start to think about what garbage they're spewing. Also, to sell toys, Hummers and Birkenstocks.

Also, I'm not sure this was Greta Gerwig's fault. This whole thing reeks of studio meddling.

OH, and men suck.

#barbenheimer #you're not gonna like this #hot take probably #HOW did I like Oppenheimer better? #feminism #tw transphobia #angie says trans rights not whatever the hell this shit was

[playstation-lichenthrope]

Speaking of Jayrockin's specbio works, we're just. Assigning VRAI/VRV characters species from the Jayrockin Extended Universe (their MLP stuff + Runaway to the Stars) because of course we are. I'm imagining that the Tiny Sapient Ungulates/MLP species are also spacefaring in this AU, but still have the near-religious respect for the Alicorns (this is a surprise tool that will help us later!) So far we've got: All Y2KVR characters are sentient AI much like Bip. Y2K Benrey (we've dubbed him as Messenger) takes the form of a larval/"evil" changeling after turning blue, originally looking like a adult/"good" changeling and essentially molting in reverse once he realized he was stuck in the computer indefinitely. Y2K Bubby is definitely a kirin because. He's the FIREwall and MLP kirins... set themselves on fire when angry yeah you get where this is going. Y2K Tommy is a virtual bugferret because family oriented guy. Y2K G-Man probably is also a virtual bugferret, and it's a good job he's virtual and not an ACTUAL bugferret or he'd be all kinds of fucked up from isolation. Y2K Darnold is probably some kind of pony because he just feels like a pony to me. Y2K Forzen is the "human" of the cast, human being in quotes because virtual. Y2K Coomer is a centaur to me for reasons I cannot explain. He just IS. VRAI Benrey + Swap + Da Boss + all non Y2K G-Men are similar to what they describe Discord from MLP as, aka "less a creature of biology than a roiling mass of extra-dimensional limbs". Da Boss is significantly weaker than the others, possibly because the Resonance Cascade of his universe was keeping his powers limited. On the subject of G-Man and his relatives, thinking that non-Y2K Tommies are all magically created creatures because G-Men, being horrific creatures (/pos) from beyond the universe, probably couldn't have kids with normal creatures. I'm thinking they're something similar to Glyph, one of Jayrockin's MLP OCs, in that they're not actually biological creatures but rather sentient constructs of some sort. Unlike Glyph, they don't eat souls. Malcom is a good old MLP unicorn (TOTALLY NOT BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT OUR GAMER BOY'S SONA IS. /lying) Capital M is a changeling, specifically the larval/"evil" form, possibly molting and reaching a proper adult form post-Last Resort. (Not because that's MY sona, definitely not. /lying again)

Sleepless and Doc are, in my mind, a dynamic similar to Pinkie and Brownie from Runaway. They're pair bonded. Doc sees the rest of the Mad Science Team + the other Gordons as platonic family, and he and Sleepless are romantic family. However, Sleepless is in fact not a bugferret. Sleepless is a Skimmer Avian because they just feel right. This means that the Sleepless/Doc relationship probably has some weird bits, considering the bugferret family thing and the avian "not really common to live with partners" thing. This might also explain part of the reason Doc felt so betrayed by Sleepless in In Your Dreams, because not only did Sleepless "side with" GVRV knowing what he did, he also abandoned Doc, leaving him completely alone for the first time. It's a really, REALLY good thing that the Admins picked Doc up when they did. This also makes GVRV promising Doc his family MORE fucked up because while Doc may have THOUGHT he had his family, he would still be completely isolated, even more so than he was before. Freeman is also a bugferret for similar plot reasons to Doc. Admin C, like all Tommies, is a magical construct, but he was made to look like an Alicorn because GVRV's thought process was "If my son looks like what amounts to a deity figure, I can use him to manipulate Equestrian society". Keyword, he was MADE to look like an Alicorn. He ended up getting a little messed up in the construct creation process, so he looks more like a really fucking tall unicorn. He has wings, but even though he's a magical construct, he can't actually fly. GVRV was... not happy about this, at all. The other Admins think Admin C is so fucking cool though because he is literally made of magic and consumes magic to survive and HOLY SHIT he's so epic to them. Admin F is an ACTUAL kirin and not just a virtual one. Same goes for VRAI Bubby. Same goes for Admin P/VRAI Coomer being a centaur, VRAI Forzen and probably admin!Forzen being humans, VRAI/admin! Darnold being ponies, etc. Neo is an interesting case. He's a bugferret who gets most of his social interaction from virtual sources, and they're just. OK with it. Maybe they get overstimulated by crowds and he just prefers to communicate through digital avenues. Player is also a bugferret, but unlike Neo, she (she/her Player for the WIN) is very big on in person contact. This makes the Worldstop stuff even more fucked up. Worldstop Darnold is also a pony, but he may have been modified to have kirin traits, namely the fire thing. Instead of rocket boots, he was given mechanical wings (he's a unicorn). WAIT SHIT I DID NOT REALIZE HOW MUCH I TYPED AGH. SORRY. The hyperfixation and latent special interest just slammed together in our brain and said "Type up so much about HLVRAI x Jayrockin Extended Universe RIGHT NOW." UHHHH. Combining interests. /pos

FUCK YEAAAAA These are great thank you so so so much and if you ever want to tell us more feel free! /g /vpos I would try to add my own thoughts to this but I'm having a bad word day yknow? But I love your headcanons YIPPEEEEEEEE

-⛈ Rookie

#asks #uppercase-m

[kayfarafey]

Greetings!

I think this question is perfect for yours truly.

Defence attorney Miles Edgeworth and Prosecutor Phoenix Wright. Due to some weird supernatural incident they both find themselves in different roles. It's essentially the cliché body-swap-but-each-person-retains-their-own-minds that we've seen all too often in media. Do you have any headcanons, thoughts or similar as to what it would look like if their roles were reversed? We have already seen Edgeworth take on the role of a defence attorney temporarily, and I think he was quite good. Also, what about their dynamic?

I know this may be a question that you possibly need to think about first, so please take as much time as you'd like, or if you don't want to answer it at all, you can definitely let me know in a PM. I don't mind. <3

Thank you and best wishes,

Zieksy

...WAIT ZIEKSY DO YOU NOT KNOW IM WORKING ON A ROLESWAP AU RIGHT NOW? THATS SO CRAZY. read more because i went ham on this response i got so excited

the general premise is that in this au, because theres a bunch of prosecutor phoenix von karma fics out there (complete respect to them, but i don't want to steal anyone's dead horse) is that when phoenix's parents die around the same time as dl-6 occurs in canon, he ends up being taken in by the hawthornes. i wanted to experiment with phoenix's own past instead of just totally switching him with edgeworth, and i love dahlia she's like. Antagonist of All Time. so i wanted to play around with her and what sort of effect she would have if her relationship with phoenix (to clarify, it is a sibling relationship as opposed to a romantic one) was a) actually her, and b) far more significant than an 8 month college romance, with all the complicated messiness of having a family member who is Not a good person but they are your family.

phoenix's defining tenet is his belief in others and his ability to trust them, and while his relationship with dahlia in canon most likely affected that as well it's not really touched upon in detail. something like that would absolutely be seriously damaged by dahlia's hot-and-cold personality as a result of her (imo/hc) npd, as well as her "death" and the subsequent realization that she was alive all along and never told him because she didn't trust him with the secret, because he was too open and honest. after she gets away with killing fawles and valerie hawthorne, phoenix's motivation to become a prosecutor has to do with making sure criminals like her aren't able to evade conviction. it's not quite edgeworth and von karma's "there is no way to determine guilt so we need to prove every defendant is guilty" but more "you cannot put your faith in others to do what they need to do, evidence is everything and people will lie, and i refuse to let criminals escape when their guilt is evident no matter what"

it is also well known that i am a wh*re for beanix wright, so i wanted to utilize that jaded, skeptical element of his characterization. therefore of COURSE prosecutor phoenix has a poker gimmick--if he's not slouched against the bench with his hands in his trouser pockets, he's fiddling with poker chips or a deck of cards. he's almost emotionless, a permanent poker face with just a slight air of smugness. as for his design, i was genuinely thinking "what could be hot and fun" so i have him in a red waistcoat with brass buttons in the shape of the four suits, messy hair and stubble, and a dress shirt with lace decals and no tie. very not-phoenix, which was the intent.

one of the biggest things i wanted to do with this au is address what the potential effects of enduring abuse from someone with narcissism, especially a loss of self-esteem and a loss of identity. when phoenix is taken in by the hawthornes (not out of the kindness of their hearts but more out of obligation) his surname is changed and with dahlia isolating him he really does lose a lot of the stuff that makes him phoenix, in the same way that aa4 phoenix is recognizable but still so different than his character from the trilogy. the red waistcoat of course shows that switch, but phoenix still goes by hawthorne and wears lace (like dahlia) in acknowledgement that more of his life has been spent as phoenix hawthorne than phoenix wright, and the child he once was is not something he can reclaim. that isn't someone he can be again, ever.

oh my god that was all about phoenix. just know you asked for this.

SO WITH EDGEWORTH the accident on december 28th did actually happen, but when von karma was shot by the ricocheting bullet he basically went "fuck this," cut his losses, and dipped instead of shooting gregory. greg ends up with some minor cerebral hypoxia that sometimes affects his motor coordination and short-term memory, so even though miles passes the bar around the same time as canon, he works as his father's co-counsel for 4/5 years. also, because i love her, after byrne faraday's death greg adopts kay so she is edgeworth's little sibling and is actually the defendant in his first solo case. because i am a lunatic i have. all new cases planned. but this is getting so, so long so i wont go into that rn.

he's not so much cold or distant but he is awkward, greg's definitely the heart of their lawyerly duo because he can talk to witnesses without accidentally being too brusque and offending someone. still overly formal, but he loses that rigidity quickly when he's around his family and close friends. one thing i wanted to make sure of is that while he's awkward, he Is still confident in his abilities as a lawyer--think a mix of apollo and post-seven year gap edgeworth. i of course have him in a trench coat, as well as a pretty basic charcoal three-piece and a (tastefully!) blue ascot, because i hate bowties but i wanted to give him dorky neckwear. this contrast of color was literally just because it was fun and i have feenie in red.

AS FOR THEIR DYNAMIC, it's a lot more stilted than in canon. their relationship in canon was built on that childhood connection and phoenix chasing after edgeworth, but that's not the case here. they were important to each other, and edgeworth can't brush that off, but phoenix views miles as a representation of the person who he once was and is not allowed to be anymore. but phoenix is still phoenix, so even when miles pushes only the slightest bit he folds, but his inability to trust edgeworth (even though he wants to) is a huge barrier to the development of their relationship. it's edgeworth's drive in court to unravel the truth and how he values believing in other people that leads phoenix to think about the person he's become. despite not being able to be phoenix wright anymore he still views edgeworth as a paragon of justice and goodness like he did when he was phoenix wright, and if edgeworth believes in that despite everything, if edgeworth believes in him despite everything, edgeworth must be right.

jesus fucking christ i am so sorry. you literally asked this at like. Peak thinking about this au time so you get ten thousand words about it. thank you for asking zieksy you're my moon and stars

#prosecutor phoenix hawthorne #under the cut is word vomit about this au. it's a heavy read. #abuse tw #i talk abt dahlia super quick in there #hot tybalt content

[kochanski]

Fic rant under cut, talkin bout the problematique plot I wrote haha (mostly a joke dw, I'm just talking it through with myself)

Ok I feel so terrible because the entire premise of this thing is just "lister and rimmer DON'T respect each other's boundaries both on a physical read-my-diary level and on a metaphysical made-out-with-an-imaginary-you level" and the wheel just keeps turning from there. so I'm like.... oh you guys are so unhealthy for each other I mean it's fun to observe but also, at what cost,

I do think this characterization makes total sense, like, lister has demonstrated his lack of boundary-related respect by doing this exact thing (diary reading) in canon, so here he just gets reverse uno carded, and meanwhile rimmer never actually was able to have enforceable boundaries with anyone so why would he really understand what it is to cross one? And to be fair they are sort of figuring out all of this together as the story chugs along, the meat of the plot directly ties into this weird hate-love relationship they have and how they're going to have to overcome at least a little of the hatred part if they want to survive

I'm just a bit like.... jeez I recently got done writing an unhealthy relationship fic for a diff fandom where the main character caves and goes back to the relationship out of some misguided expectation things will be different this time. So coming off that emotionally heavy story it feels weird to be doing something so similar for comedy's sake ? But at the same time. It feels very par for the course. Ahh I'm so torn about it. I'm 99% sure I'm handling it fine and the character growth/comedy/tension is well worth the squickier elements, but I don't feel that I handled the last one very well so that insecurity has bled over into this

#ktxt

[nimblermortal]

gosh I love Trae Crowder

#I mean obviously it's not as simple as this #throwing a molotov cocktail at a laundry maschine full of gasoline gives you something akin to glory #certainly notoriety #whereas getting a vaccine takes time and is boring #and afterwards you have to defend yourself to your friends #rather than going #'yeah maybe you wouldn't'a ate that possum but I ain't skeered like you and yeah it was dumb but I'm the one that did it' #there's a weird sort of reverse respect you get from these things that you don't get from going to the health department #and getting a quick jab #short life and long glory for me! #that's the phrase I'm looking for #Achilles would 100% have refused a COVID vaccine

[glassartpeasants]

Okay okay! Is like some reverse comfort fic? For overhaul?

Like, before he lost his arms, how about he is dealing with a lot of pressure from pops, yakuza business and etc but he feels like the overwhelming crushing anxiety is normal because you know? He is not exactly in touch with his feelings so-

But then one day just BOOM he is crying out of extress without even knowing, he just notices the paper or even his pants get wet with tears and he is like "wtf??" and the female reader goes to comfort him somehow?

Ah i don't get fluff often so excuse me if it's trash lol

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Title: Comfort

Warnings: Fluff, angst

A/N: sorry that is short, fluff is kinda hard for me

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Stress.

It seems to be talking over his life to the point it feels like he’s dying. The crushing thought of letting Pops down, knowing that one day he’ll be the head of the Shie Hassakai, and everything else in between.

He couldn’t tell anyone about it. Why would he? It’ll make him look weak. Like he won’t be able to handle being the boss, and he certainly doesn’t want to look weak in front of Pops.

Last but not least, you. He’d met you a year ago while walking past a park. He remembers it was extremely windy out as a storm was about to role in. If it weren’t for the fact that a mask landed in front of his feet.

*Flashback*

“Oh my god im so sorry! I took it off to take a drink of my water and it flew off my face!” You go to pick up the mask but sighed once you realized how dirty it had gotten. You go to the nearest garbage can and throw it in there before pulling out another mask from your pocket, quickly putting it on. You started to walk over to him after putting a decent amount of hand sanitizer on your hands.

“Sorry for such the terrible introduction, my names (L/N) (Y/N). Pleased to meet you sir.” It was weird. He’s never seen someone so obsessed with cleanliness as he was. 

“Your mask is super cool. I just have to ask if it’s really capable to block out germs? If so i might just have to get one myself!” He didn’t know what to say. Normally people would send him weird glances and ask him about it in a rude manner but you, you understood.

“Yes it is. I personally had it handcrafted to do such thing. I’m glad someone finally gets it. Also, My name is Overhaul.” He couldn’t help but let out a little chuckle once he saw a little sparkle in your eye.

“ Such a unique name. And it’s always nice having people that understand. People are always asking me why wear a mask? Or don’t you get hot? I rather be hot that infected with everyone’s germs. I don’t know if someone has some sort of random disease that incurable yet! I mean i guess it doesn’t help that my quirk is literally about cleaning.”

Oh so you had a quirk...that’s...unfortunate-

“Anything I touch instantly turns clean. Most people would say its nice to have such a quirk but it sucks cause it makes me itch every time i have to touch something dirty. I had recently ran out of disposable gloves and the place i get them usually was out of stock. Honestly, I rather have no quirk than this quirk.” To say Overhaul was shocked was an understatement. You would give up your quirk just like that? No questions asked?

Something inside him bubbled up in a strange emotion he’s never felt before. You seemed just to perfect to be true. You understood the need for everything to be clean, you hated quirks as much as he did, you thought his mask was cool. You were the first one he ever had the thought of if someone where to ask who do you respect the most.

“I understand completely. It would be painful knowing you had to touch dirty things to make them clean. I would lose my mind.” Your face scrunched up into a smile before asking him a question that made his heart beat a little to hard.

“Would you like to go out sometime?”

*Flashback over*

You were perfect for him and he was perfect for you. It couldn’t be any better! But that’s what got him the most. You were so perfect and he was afraid one slip up would cause him to lose you and lose everything he worked hard for. It felt like he was so close to losing it that he would stay up all night, fearing for the worst.

It didn’t help that every time he sat in his office, all he would hear is, Overhaul this or Overhaul that. it was driving him to insanity. It felt like the world was against him and he just didn’t know what to do anymore. Sitting in his office just caused his anxiety about the future to sky rocket.

And yet here he was, sitting in his office doing paperwork.

It was surprising as this had never happened before. While he was working on the papers, a sudden wet spot fell onto the papers. And then a few more being to drop on the papers. Overhaul let go of his pen before touching his face, only to feel water rolling down his face. He didn’t knwo what was going on until you opened the door to bring him his tea. Once you saw him you quickly set down the tea and ran over to his side, asking him what was wrong and how you could fix it.

Without any thought and only going off of impulse, Overhaul grabbed your body before hiding his face in your chest. It surprised you to say the least but you quickly understood why. You let out a sigh before hugging him back and petting the top of his hair. Telling him that it’s okay.

But it wasn’t okay. He was so afraid of letting everyone down that the tears kept flowing and he didn’t know how to stop them. He just let them fall and drench your shirt. But you didn’t seem to mind as all your did was kiss the top of his head and rub his back and run your fingers through his hair. 

Overhaul picked you up before putting you on his couch where he laid on top of you, just to hold you as tight as he could while cuddling into you more. Just wanting to be in your presence for a little bit longer. You continued your methods to calm him down and before you knew it, you could hear him steadily breathing, indicating he had fallen asleep. 

You didn’t want to wake him and you knew he would be extremely vulnerable at this time, you did what you could.

And that was lay there and made sure he knew you would always support him and be there for him every step of the way.

#mha overhaul #overhaul x reader #chisaki kai x reader #chisaki x reader #kai chisaki #kai #kai chisaki x reader #overhaul #bnha overhaul #mha #bnha #chisaki overhaul #chisaki kai

[kpop---scenarios]

Sugar Daddy (1)

Pairing: Johnny Seo x Reader

Warnings: None yet..

Word Count: 1.8k

A/N: Let me know if you wanna be tagged!!

"I don't know about this." You say to Hwasa, tugging on her arm as she tries to walk into the club. 

Your dress is tight, and you feel overly uncomfortable in something so revealing and your heels, especially since you are not small. You are a bigger girl, with a stomach, thick thighs and curves. You have rolls when you sit down, and stretch marks radiating up your sides. You're not like the kind of girls who go to these clubs and it was severely affecting your confidence. 

"Ayn." She smiles. "I promise it'll all be okay. You don't have to do anything you don't want to do." 

With a sigh you nod your head and Hwasa takes your hand leading you inside the club. The music was loud, you could feel the bass thumping on your feet as you walked towards the bar. Your eyes wandered as you were being led by Hwasa. Rich looking men in suits that had become untucked, their sleeves rolled up and collars loosened. They made sure to show off their watches, flashing the expensive ones, not a care in the world here. Most of the men were surrounded by women, some looking quite cozy, but some looking rather uninterested in what their company had to say. 

As you sat down at the bar and ordered a glass of wine, your eyes continued to wander, especially over to a group of men who were by themselves. 

"Those guys rarely find anyone here." Hwasa says, leaning over to whisper in your ear. "They are a few of the most wealthy men and their tastes are very particular." She finishes, sitting back up to take a sip of her wine. 

Not even five minutes later a man approaches Hwasa, asking her if she wants to dance. She looks at you, making you roll your eyes. "Go." You laugh. 

"Are you sure?" She asks. 

"Get out of here, I'm fine." You assure her. 

She takes the man's hand, and heads out to the dance floor. You watch her as she laughs, her head thrown back, the man's eyes watching her intently and in awe. You can already tell he's smitten with her, and they just met. 

You turn back around, and take another sip of your drink, when you feel a warm presence behind you, someone pressing himself against you. You turn around slightly, and see a man with a smirk on his face. He backs up, looking at you and then down to his crotch which very clearly proved he had an election. 

"Want to take care of this for me?" He asks, tilting his head to the side. 

"No." You flat out say, going to turn yourself back around, when he grabs onto your arm, his grip tight as he squeezes your wrist. 

"C'mon sweetheart, don't be like that." He grunts, his eyes wide, motioning down to his crotch. 

"I said no." You yell, trying to shake him off your arm but he tightens his grip. 

You can see his face begin to go red as he begins to get angry at your refusal. You try to fight him off more but he won't let go. He raises his other hand as if he was going to slap you. You closed your eyes, bracing yourself for the impact but it never came, and suddenly your arm was free. You open one eye and see the man on the floor, with another man shaking his fist. 

"She said no, fucking respect that." The man yells, giving the man on the ground a swift kick to the ribs. 

"Are you okay?" He asks. 

"Um, yeah.. I'm fine. Thank you." You whisper. You go to turn back around, wanting to leave this place and never let Hwasa convince you to do anything ever again. 

"Would you like to join me at my table?" He asks, causing you to spin back around, mid sip of your cocktail. You try to swallow but slight choke as you nod your head yes  "Sure. I would love to." You sputter, trying to wipe the remnants of your drink from your chin. 

You grab your drinj and follow the man to a table, the table that Hwasa had said before was very particular. 

"Chanyeol this is.." he pauses, motioning to you to speak. 

"Ayn. L/N Ayn." You say with a smile. 

"I'm Park Chanyeol." He smiles, gently shaking your hand.

"And I'm Johnny Seo," He smiles. He eyes trail down your body before going back up to make eye contact.  

"Nice to meet you both." You smile, sitting down on the edge of the couch. Your eyes dart from Johnny to Chanyeol then back to Johnny, but his eyes haven't left you for a moment. You nervously take a sip of your drinj before turning your head and really look at him. 

Fuck, he's absolutely beautiful. His combed brown hair perfectly frames his face, his smile radiates through the entire club, and from what you can see from under his dress shirt, he had a nice body. As much as you tried to ignore it, the feeling that you didn't belong radiated through your body, filling your brain up with possible situations or words that could possibly be said to you. And it made you nervous. Johnny leans over, his lips hovering beside your ears. You can feel his hot breath radiating down your neck. "You are beautiful." He whispers. Your face immediately turns red and hot, a blush forming against your will. Before you can respond, Hwasa runs up to you, grabbing your wrist. "Ayn." She panics. "We have to go. Now!" She yells, yanking on your arm to pull you up. 

"Oh." You partially panic. You sort of toss your glass down and stand up, Johnny's eyes on you. "I'm sorry." You say to him before Hwasa pulls you harder. "Thank you." You mouth before turning your head to watch where you're going. 

A few minutes later you and Hwasa are outside and down the street from the club. You both stop, your hands on your hips as you both catch your breath. Running in heels is not an easy task for anyone. 

"What the hell?" You whine. "Did you see that fine ass man in there?" 

Hwasa laughs. "I'm sorry, Ayn. That guy I was dancing with, oh my god. He was fucking weird. Talking about going back to his mom's house, and how we can be loud because she's partially deaf. I needed to get out of there." 

Your mouth hangs open as Hwasa describes the man she had been flirting with. You burst out laughing at her misfortune, the roles finally having reversed on the two of you. 

"Now you know what I go through most of the time." You joke. You both begin walking back towards your apartment, linking arms as you keep a casual pace, talking and laughing, completely forgetting about Johnny, he was something that likely would have never happened for you anyways. He was a dream that would never have come true.  

**

The next day, you went about your day, the thought of Johnny never crossing your mind. You went to your classes, and after that you headed to your part time job at a Taco Truck. It was perfectly located on a very popular beach, and everyday the truck made a killing and you made minimum wage, which is partially why you had shown up at the club last night. You knew it was a club for sugar daddy's to meet potential sugar babies, and you had thought that maybe you'd meet someone to help you out while you got your masters in Child Psychology. But part of you was happy that things ended up the way that they did, you now wouldn't have to suffer any disappointment of him deciding you weren't worth it, and you didn't have to waste his time realizing he should have picked someone else, in the long run it worked out for both parties. 

With a smile you handed the last person their order, not even looking at the person next in line. You held your pencil and the small notepad you kept in front of you as you let out a big yawn. "Excuse me." You said, clearing your throat. "Welcome to Tacos, Tacos, Tacos, what can I get for you today?" You ask.

"Umm, three of your beef Tacos, and a chicken  Taco please." You hear. Your eyes squint as you try to place where you've heard that voice before. You write down the order, continuing to rack your brain on why it sounds so familiar. You look up and are face to face with Park Chanyeol. He smiles at you, recognizing you immediately. 

"Ayn!" He yells, holding his arms up. "You work here?" He asks. 

"Unfortunately." You laugh, scrunching your nose. 

"How much do I owe you?" He asks, grabbing his wallet. 

"$13.5." You announce. Chanyeol hands you a twenty, telling you to keep the change with a wink, which puts a smile on your face. "It'll be out soon." 

As Chanyeol steps away from the truck, he whips out his phone, dialing a number. You can only hear bits and pieces of the conversation, but you do catch the most important part. "She's here." He says. "That taco truck that we're both obsessed with." He laughs. "Yeah that one." You wave to him, hanging his bag out the window to let him know his order was ready. He hangs up his phone, grabbing his food and waving goodbye to you. 

An hour later, you're told you can go home for the day, and honestly you're relieved as fuck. You're tired, your feet hurt and you just want to go to sleep before you head back to campus tomorrow for another full day of classes and then another seven hours at the food truck. 

Wow your life was so exciting. 

** 

The next day you're walking through the psychology building, heading to your next class. You're on your phone texting Hwasa about how dumb your last professor was, when you hear someone clear their throat behind you. 

"You're a tough woman to track down." 

Your head shoots up as you swing your body around. You see Johnny standing there, a smile on his face. Your eyes trail down his body, his suit fitting perfectly to his body, making you want to cry, drool and cream all at the same time. 

"Why are you looking for me?" You ask, tilting your head to the side, making him laugh. 

"You left so quickly the other night. We never got a chance to talk, have a drink or anything." He says, walking closer towards you. 

"What do you want to talk to me about?" You ask. 

"I want you to be my baby." He grins. 

"Your baby?" You stutter. "Why me?" You ask. 

"Why not you?" He rebuttals. 

"Let's talk. Tonight." He says. 

"I work." You tell him. 

"Food truck?" He asks. 

You nod your head. 

"What time are you off? I'll pick you up." 

"9pm." You say. "But you don't.. " you trial off. 

"Perfect. See you then.. " he pauses with a grin. "Baby." 

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[stillflight]

Actually I'm kinda fed up right now and I wanna talk about this, because I have seen a lot of stuff over my time in the community and with more talk of psychological people in the community going around, I feel like this is the best time to vent about it without getting discourse on my posts. Just a fair warning that this post might sound a little heated. This is not directed at any specific person, it is a heap of emotions that have been building up for a long time, for a lot of reasons.

Also I am tired, and I do not have the energy for discourse right now, because it might come as a surprise (given how admittedly argumentative I can get) but I have conflict anxiety and when people come at me on my posts, responding drains 100% of my spoons and I end up sleeping through all of my morning classes. So, because I want to get good grades this semester, I will be deleting and ignoring anyone who instigates.

I don't understand this weird sentiment some people have that psychological 'kin are what, taking over the community? Acting like bigoted militant atheist tools who refuse to respect anyone's beliefs? Twisting everything anyone says to always be about mental illness?-- especially when spiritual 'kin do this to our posts all the time, in reverse. We are not inherently more disrespectful than spiritual 'kin. I don't know where the "psychological otherkin need to stop attacking spiritual 'kin when we've only ever been respectful to them" thing came from. And also especially when you write posts about the general 'kin experience with an apparent expectation that "the otherkin experience" has always implied that this piece is for spiritual people Only. What entitlement. And still people seem to forget that we're not some kind of swarm of locusts descending on your community and overpowering you. Not only are there FAR fewer of us, but we have always been here.

"Psychological explanations" and "respectability politics" should not even be part of the same discussion. We do not get instant respect from non-'kin just because we think it's in our mind instead of our souls. Being more inclusive is not caving to respectability.

Our identity is not inherently pathological. And sometimes it is. For one thing, I don't want to be told that my animality is an illness and damaging to me. For another, I don't want my fictional identity discredited and shoved aside just because it is.

We're not kff. We don't like being grouped in with kff. We don't like the community being sorted into "real spiritual otherkin" and "fake psychological kinnies." Just because there's coping involved in my alterhumanity doesn't mean I "kin to cope." This should be obvious and yet. Why can't we be the otherkin community first and everything else second? I do place a lot of pride on my beliefs, and I would hope that spiritual folk have pride in their beliefs too, because they can be really important to anyone's identity. But they shouldn't define your otherkinity. Stop trying to separate the community into two distinct halves who only have their own spaces and want nothing to do with each other. It's as ridiculous as trying to divide the community based on species. Like... wolves will have different experiences than cats, and there's nothing wrong with wolves wanting tags like #wolfkin or servers to talk to wolves other about being a wolf. But do they consider themselves part of the therian community or do they wall themselves off into the wolf community and refuse to talk to cats or any other species? Just think about this.

#vent #not tagging this one tbh #I genuinely don't want to upset people or make anyone feel like this is about them because it's not