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gatorbites-imagines · 9 months

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Might be weird to ask but petplay? I just think certain COD men *cough cough* soap *cough cough* would be esp good as dumb puppies y'know?

COD petplay headcanons

Little do you know anon, I enjoy petplay, so this is no weird question at all. And you are so right. Petplay COD be upon ye.

Ill be going on holiday all of next week, so if you guys are fine with shorter replies i can write some on my phone, let me know what you think.

John “Soap” MacTavish

Soap is such a good pup, kind of a brat sometimes but its because he wants your attention. You’ll catch him crawling around with your clothes in his mouth or half crawled under the kitchen table, his lower body still sticking out as he chews on something he shouldn’t be chewing on.

Whines loudly and paws at your leg for attention any time you aren’t paying attention to him. Can’t you see how good he’s being? How tempted his tummy is when he rolls onto his back? Don’t you wanna rub it?

The type to crawl around in a jockstrap, a harness, a collar, a puphood and pup gloves. Don’t forget the plug with a tail attached so he can wag so prettily for you, or so it can wag all over the place when he’s feeling playful.

Sadly, you’ll have to punish the poor pup on the regular, he makes a mess and can’t keep himself from humping your leg or crawling onto the furniture to lick and bite at you. Its not unusual to find him humping pillows in your bedroom, whining for you.

Kyle “Gaz” Garrick

Hes more calm than the others, but don’t expect that means he’s less of a troublemaker. Will steal your keys or your clothes and hide them under the bed, or under his dog bed so that you can’t leave. Will chew on your belts and throw your laundry all over the place.

A whiner too, has this warbled pathetic sounding whine he lets out when you tell him to stay still and quiet so you can work, but settles down if hes allowed to wrap around your feet. It always ends up with him chewing or licking your ankles though.

Wears a getup similar to Soap, with the jockstrap, harness, hood and gloves. Likes how it makes him dependent on you as his master to take care of him. Sometimes he just gets home from a mission, puts on his hood, and lays down with his head in your lap to calm down from the day.

Tries to be more sneaky when he’s horny, like subtly grinding into the floor or his dog bed, or sitting down and wiggling in his spot so he can move his plug around inside him. You always catch him though, since he starts that warbly whine when he gets close but can’t finish without you.

Simon “Ghost” Riley

The most well-behaved pup, think like a well-trained military dog. Always standing straight on all fours, back straight, head lifted, and chest puffed out. He soaks up any praise you give him with a gruff bark and a small wag.

Doesn’t regularly whine, is more of a barker or growler. He growls the most if there are other pups around that try to get close to you or play with him, as he’s always standing on guard in front of you. You always have to muzzle him around other pups cuz Ghost does nip at times, especially when other pups are acting up and he needs to correct their behavior.

Tends to do play either fully dressed in his military gear, just a tail strapped to his belt and a customized hood with his skull paint. Or fully naked, only wearing maybe a harness, a spikey collar, his hood, his tail, and a cockcage unless you need it off.

If Ghost is in the mood, you’ll invite other pups over (unless you are poly and have multiple partners who are pups) and Ghost will assert himself as the alpha amongst them. This is where you take the cage off him so he can push down the other pups and take them. He will always arch his back for you though, or roll onto his back and spread his legs with a tiny barely audible whine for you.

Gary “Roach” Sanderson

A very quiet pup and doesn’t act up much, tends to be more on the chill side. Hes even allowed in the furniture since he wont mess it up like others, and likes to curl up beside you with his head in your lap.

When hes feeling it though, like if you’ve been apart for a while, he might start growing antsy. Crawling around in front of you or sitting right by your feet and letting out tiny barely audible whines. It always ends up with him pawing at your knee and looking at you with the most lethal puppy eyes ever.

Doesn’t wear as much gear at the others, I don’t think he would enjoy the gloves that make his hands unusable, and the hood might feel too restrictive to him. Instead hed just resort to walking on his knuckles, wearing a headband with ears, and maybe wearing a belt with a tail on top of his boxers.

A licker, he doesn’t say much, but you will know he’s truly in the mood when he starts licking you all over. Licking at your hands, your legs, your torso, slobbering all over your pants and crotch until you open your belt and give him what he wants.

Phillip Graves

Another troublemaking pup, a brat. Rips up pillows and gnaws on your belts and wallet. The type you have to play tug of war with for your belt as he growls and yips, wagging his tail and drooling on the floor.

The kinda pup you’ll have to spank and punish in other ways, not out of this world to put him in a cockcage or crate for the night if he’s acted out way too much. He enjoys it very much though, so it’s nothing he hasn’t asked for himself. Graves has probably come up with some of the punishments himself.

Hes fully geared up, hood, gloves, tail and all, except he wouldn’t wear a jockstrap, just fully naked expect for the pup parts. Hes not always wearing a cage as its only for punishment, so you can catch him grinding against stuff sometimes.

The most effective punishment for him is overstimulation, laying him across your lap and jerking him off until he’s whining and writhing and shaking, where after you’ll let him cuddle against your chest after cleaning him up, praising him and giving him good aftercare.

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xxshadowbabexx · 2 months

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Cheating headcanons

Warnings: heavy angst, light smut

I was thinking about which cod men would be most likely to cheat, so heres my order of most to least likely, with reasons why:

Soap will straight up gaslight you about it. you’re such a crazy, stupid lil bonnie lass. so jealous and possessive over him an his monster cock. how pathetic. he’ll straight up gaslight you over it. convince you that you’re losing your bloody mind. tell you your paranoid over the phone as if he doesn’t have your best friend bent over the bathroom sink.

Graves he was drunk. does that make it better? no? shame. he’ll promise to change, but he won’t. not even a week after you caught him with her, you find her yet again in his bed. riding him vigorously as they pass the blunt between themselves.

König sure, he has anxiety so you could argue that he’d he too anxious to cheat, but i don’t think thats true. i think he would get in his head, tell himself that hes not good enough for you, and scare himself into thinking that youll leave him for someone better. so what does he do? he cheats on you with several women to prove to himself that he can get women, that he is good enough. (dummy doesn’t realize that cheating is what makes him not good enough).

Ghost now, once ghost is down for you, he is incredibly loyal. the problem? he’ll never let himself get to that point. his walls are built too high up for them to come down for a silly little girl like you (thats what he calls you, a silly little girl, when you confront him about his infidelity). what’s worse is he doesn’t feel bad about it.

Gaz the worst part is the shock. he’s such a charmer, you could’ve sworn he was different. but that’s not your lipstick on his neck. you didn’t leave those hickeys on his chest. he’ll be honest with you if you ask him about it. the variable is whether or not he’ll change. if he truly, truly loves you (unlikely) then he genuinely won’t do it again. but if he doesn’t care about you? oh then it just gets worse. when you call him he’ll answer, only to put his phone by the girl he’s balls-deep ins mouth, so all you can hear is her moans, and how he praises her. saying things you thought were only for you.

Roach it was only one time, and he was incredibly high. he feels so guilty after, he can hardly look at you. and when he tells you it’s in a break up letter. because if he cheated, that means you deserve better. your life would be better if he left. at least you wont have to worry about him cheating again.

Price incredibly loyal, and you never doubted it. but this time was different. he had been gone for eight months, and he was aching for sex. so when that pretty lady at the bar threw him a line, who was he to say no? he feels like shit afterwords, unsure of how to tell you about what he did, but with time he will. and if you chose not to leave him, he will never make that mistake again.

Alejandro he is nothing if not a lover. the circumstances do not matter. if he wont see you for years, then he will not have sex for years. it’s that simple. he will never, ever cheat on you.

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ghostieyanyan · 1 year

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You know I think Jamil is one of those characters I can envision as a yandere. If you’ve seen Aladdin, you’d know that once Jafar took over the kingdom, Jasmine became his slave? I like to imagine that overblot Jamil kept MC around instead, dressed them up in that red slave outfit and put shackles on them which sounds really kinky. Jamil would like to keep MC around as a slave but is also like crazy about them even before their overblot because MC was kind to him and didn’t treat him like a servant. Maybe he teases them a little bit to rile them up. Kinda like a glorified pet but also lover at the same time

Yes yes YESSSSSS!!!! without a doubt i love overblot jamil so much... its kinda bad xD

~My Jasmine~

Overblot!Yan!Jamil x mc

(i drew mc fem so it’ll fit the jasmine outfit. the red one, chef kiss. also chapter 4 spoilers. also sorry for my spelling and grammar mistakes. this is why i draw qwq)

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i feel like jamil had a love at first sight with mc. like when they met in the kitchen and they offer to help with cooking and hearing his troubles. like yes, he wanted to used them at first but after like a few minutes he fell HARD.

He knew he wanted mc as his queen/king but he, of course, needed Kalim to be out of the picture. With him as housewarden, he’ll be highly respected with his beloved by his side. and Kalim? well he’ll be gone, who knows maybe he’ll be kicked out of NRC too. If Jamil plays his cards right.

But noo... you just had to run from him and fall into those slimy octavinelle’s hands. They even had to mock him when they came by! Stupid slimy-.

During his Overblot!

yes yes yes! he will totally have you as a pet. his personal play thing. even with this power, he’ll be bored, so entertain with him..

no? you don’t want to play with him? what’s going to happen to your friends? oh, that’s the last thing you should worry about. master has to teach you how to behave. He can’t have a pet that bites that hand that feeds it, right?

I think at first he wont actually use his unique spell, it'll be a waste to just force you to behave when he can just train your body to behave first and you’ll stay like that for the long term. instead of the short term option, right? Let’s just hope you body and mind can take it.

but hey! if you be good, he’ll treat you. maybe he’ll feed you and look inside your pretty lips. Or he’ll keep you safe from those roaches that insist on coming back and steal what rightfully belongs to him.

Just don't leave his side. K, pet?

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for nicknames, i thought of pet and desert flower but then i was like wait... i know a flower, jasmine! but now after finishing the drawing, idk how i feel about it? cuz its an actual name.. so ya sorry if you don't like it. i really dont want to fix it rn TWT also i didn't know if i should keep his bangs so i did one with and one without. so yay. i’m actually very happy with his picture, it might change in a few days but rn, i love it. i hope you guys love it too. ^^

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icarus-star · 7 months

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nsfw alphabet // clay roach

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

he doesn't really know what he's doing when it comes to aftercare. honestly, he didn't know what aftercare was before you. i think that aftercare with him would usually consist of getting cleaned up, sharing a cigarette, and maybe if you're lucky, he'll cuddle with you.

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

gn!reader: he happens to really like your thighs. squeezing them when he gives you head, and leaving deep purpleish hickeys on the inside of them. he also enjoys just laying his head on them, even if he'd never admit it. masc!reader: your shoulders. kind of the same as the other one, he likes leaving hickeys. coming up from behind, kissing n biting on your shoulders and leaving as many marks as he can. fem!reader: he just adores your lips! kissing them, biting them, especially seeing them wrapped around his cock. especially if you like using some kind of lip gloss or flavoured chap stick.

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

he always loves cumming on your face. even when your not giving him a blowjob, he'll pull out just to cum on your face. and he makes a really pretty face whenever he cums, n always ends up gripping onto something until his knuckles turn white.

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

he doesn't keep many secrets when it comes to sex, he really just says what he wasnt and how he wants it. he's super straightforward about that kind of thing.

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

before you, he only had sex to get himself off. if you mean experience by making you feel good, he knows a little of what he's doing. enough to make you cum, but he might need a little help with certain things.

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

honestly, i feel like he enjoys 69 a lot. having you sucking his dick while he gives you head. as well as face off. having you sitting up on his lap while he sits on the edge of your bed, thrusting up into you and trying to fuck you as hard n deep as he can.

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

maybe, maybe not. it's pretty dependent on his mood. if he's just fucking you to get out some pent up rage or whatever he wont say much. if he's in the mood to take it a little slower, maybe, maybe he'll make a small joke or something before/while fucking you.

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

not well groomed in the slightest. he doesn't quite have the proper.. well, anything to do so. even if he did, i don't think he'd shave too often. mainly out of habit, but also because he doesn't really mind.

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

sometimes. if he really feels like it, he can whisper sweet nothings to you during sex. it's rare, but nice.

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

often. especially before meeting you. i don't think there are any specific details other than the fact that he gets random waves of horniness.

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

hmm.. very mild choking (giving), hair pulling (giving), he's super into hickeys (giving and receiving), probably biting too (giving and receiving).

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

anywhere. your home, an alleyway, public bathroom, a forest, outside of your ex's house.

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

seeing hickeys he left on you the night before always gets him going. but if the two of you hadn't been having tons of sex so there were no hickeys, he does think that seeing you smoke (if you do) is a little hot. but also being super intimate with one another, oh boy does he love that.

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

he will absolutely NOT be up for getting ass fucked. even if you beg and cry, he won't get penetrated at all. not even a finger. he also wouldn't like sharing you with anybody.

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

his favorite thing ever. blowjobs are the absolute light of his life. the way you take his cock down your throat and gag around it, especially when you put in more effort. oh and loves face fucking you too! drool dribbling everywhere, when he cums down your throat he thinks that you make the most wonderful sounds ever. and the way you cough when he finally pulls out of your mouth. n when he's giving you head, he always likes to start off with kissing your pussy/cock. mmm, he's a thigh squeezer too.

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

i'd say he likes to take it pretty fast. he kind of only knows rough sex, so fucking you quick and hard is his go to. unless you choose to change that.

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

i don't think that he has much of an opinion on them. you both are horny and need to get off quickly? sure.

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

of course. he'll cum inside of you or risk getting caught, he doesn't care. if something does end up happening as a result.. he'll pay the consequences if he loves you enough.

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

pretty average when it comes to how long he can go. 2-3 rounds before he gets too tired.

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

not really. he's not a big fan of toys, but maybe he'll have you use some nipple clamps on yourself.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

he loves to tease you! the head of his cock just barely prodding at your entrance as he tells you how you haven't quite earned it just yet. or how he kisses all over your thighs before finally giving you head.

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

he definitely gives me grunting/groaning vibes. his voice is pretty raspy, especially when he mumbles curses into your ear whilst both of your brains are all fried and horny.

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

he has a soft spot for shower sex. even if in reality it's not the greatest thing ever, he just loves feeling the hot water pouring on the both of you while fucking you against the shower wall.

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

i'd personally say he's pretty average. maybe a little more prominent veins than others.

a little higher than average. he's not super horny all the time or anything, but he does most definitely have sex/masturbate more than most. 6.9/10

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

i think he gets pretty tired, and as mentioned earlier, he's not that great with aftercare or anything. so i'd say pretty soon after having sex.

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dreamii-krybaby · 6 months

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Y’all remember my raspberry swap au? Which is basically a doll and uzi role swap

Here are like some main ideas

Fist of all, Khan WAS the assigned colony leader but after getting murdered by the disassembly drones (N *cough cough*) alongside Nori, in his will he gave the role to one of his trusted friends, “Adán” (which is Doll’s father btw)

Adán is much more younger than Khan and didn’t have much experience, so getting the role of leader of the colony, plus the fact he is grieving Yeva’s death deeply and has to deal with Doll’s antics takes a heavy toll on him

Adán tried to give the job to someone else but no one wanted and he felt he would be disrespecting khan. So what’s up with his relationship with doll?

Its strained, due to Adán being new to the job and having to manage so many things, he is overworked and burned out and is not in the right headspace at all. And is in deep grieving, which has let him to not pay much attention to doll’s needs, he occasionally seems to be in his own bubble not paying attention to anyone or anything.

Doll is also grieving but in a different way, it has mostly affected her academically. And since her dad hasn’t been paying attention to her emotionally she occasionally lashes out, which lets to arguments which lets to her getting ground and things getting progressively more complicated.

She eventually makes a friend at school, lizzy :3

Meanwhile Uzi kinda goes the same path as Doll does in canon. She plans a whole revenge plan on prom night. On everyone favorite’s boy, N. Who takes more different personality.

Oh and Adán and Doll speak english! But with a very heavy russian accent, but there are scenes where they actually speak russian. Meanwhile Uzi speaks japanese! She got it from Nori.

Also Uzi’s home is similar to doll’s but different aesthetic as in the composition and colors. Also her parents corpse’s are on the living room (get it- haha)

She also has countless of gadgets and weapons littered around and buckets and bags full of drone parts and oil. Also, yes her house is infested with insects but like i was thinking that instead of roaches its like moths or spiders.

Also instead of Uzi bringing knifes she brings many little gadgets, but one of my ideas is that she carries a purse that actually turns into a sort of weapon but still thinking about it.

As for Doll, her equivalent of Uzi’s SAH railgun would be maybe a crossbow or a dagger with poison but am still thinking about it. May go with the crossbow

Also since Doll and Uzi are based on highschooler archetypes, i was thinking that Doll takes more on the “quiet true crimes artsy kid” meanwhile for Uzi, am still figuring her archetype, but definitely am thinking that she is that one kid who gets the highest marks without even trying.

As for Yeva and Nori, their personality wont change that much, as for now. Yeva is more unstable rather than unhinged. As in constant breakdowns, anxiety attacks and dwelling in unhealthy coping mechanisms (Smoking and drinking). She tried her best to make Doll think everything was ok but she became dependent a bit on Adán and all of this happened when she started getting the visions. And I was thinking that instead of doing drawings its maybe something with photography maybe, like collages maybe. But idk

Adán was there for Yeva but things got complicated as he couldn’t deal with how unstable Yeva became. And he blamed himself deeply after Yeva was murdered by the disassembly drones, by being shot in the head.

Also character design wise, Adán is almost the same as his canon design, Doll gets a wardrobe change, Uzi does too. Am still thinking about the rest.

If you have any ideas pleaseeee tell me. I would greatly appreciate it. Also you can ask me anything regarding this AU

Also Yeva’s and Nori’s and Khan’s death didn’t have a big time gap btw, maybe a few months apart.

Also I was thinking of Uzi trying to restrain N by building her own contraption :3

Edit: when the whole “leaving your kid to die” shit happens. When V and Doll team up and beat J’s and N’s ass and win. Adán immediately goes to hug doll and try to apologize but Doll shoves him away and call’s him out, telling him that she feels like she is being treated as nothing but as a burden. Then the rest plays out like in canon mostly

This let’s to Adán trying to find ways to cope (in a healthy way) and get some sort of help with managing the colony and his grief

Edit: Nori’s and Khan’s corpses display nanite acid and have parts that are completely burned or melted off.

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yippeecahier · 10 months

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AITA for insisting on my husband moving his stuff?

This is the kind of thing I'd put on Reddit but with all thats going on, I'm sticking to Tumblr. So I (25 NB) got married to my husband (25 M) on June 24th this year and havent even been married a whole month. We'd talked about boundaries and communication and have had multiple sessions with a premarital and now marital counselor since we got engaged in March. Before that, we dated for 2 years and have known each other and been friends off and on since the 6th grade.

When it comes to boundaries, we have two that are pretty much unshakeable: I need consistent 8 hours of uninterrupted sleep in the dark (with either white noise or relative silence) and going to bed before midnight, and my husband needs alone time to play games for a few hours a day where no one will walk in (he has scopophobia from childhood trauma where his parents and siblings would barge in and even remove the door and fistfight him so now he interprets pairs of eyes as threats and wont use the university library for this reason; I wish I was joking, but I'm not, and my MIL confirmed this is true because she had my husband as an unstable teen and did, in fact, fist fight him in her 20s). I always thought these were both reasonable boundaries and could be worked with given compromise, but this is somehow more contentious than I thought.

I'm currently living in his 1 bed, 1 bath apartment. I was living out of my suitcase up to and a week after our wedding until our counselor told him he had to make space for me; much to his chagrin, I invited my mom over to help me because I was so overwhelmed by all the boxes from wedding gifts and overwhelmed from the wedding (which is why we didn't leave on a honeymoon right away). Our counselor, and now my parents (who are medical professionals), and two of our friends, say he needs to move his computer out of the bedroom.

I have autism, IBS, and a history of mental illnesses. He will lock the door to the bedroom that contains the only bathroom for hours at a time and take a long time to respond to texts. I will not be able to sleep in the bedroom or use the toilet for long periods of time. I'm exhausted and overwhelming from having to walk to the local stores to use the bathroom, and none of them are 24 hours so after 11pm I'm exhausted and having a really bad time. I live in the downtown area of a big city with him, so I cannot simply find a bush to pee/poo in. On one very humiliating occasion I used an empty food container to eliminate, and threw my waste in the trash because he wouldn't respond to his phone or unlock the door despite my panicked banging.

The stress of it, and being deprived of sleep past 1am every night only to be woken up by our neighbors at 9am is making my IBS worse and has triggered multiple meltdowns and psych episodes the likes of which I haven't seen for >2 years (including trying to walk to the train tracks to kms to escape the hell my brain was putting me through because I wasnt giving it the sleep it needs).

On one particularly bad incident, I was tired and took a nap in the morning after having a meltdown over seeing a dead cockroach in the kitchen during breakfast when my husband set multiple blaring alarms at 5am because he is a deep sleeper even though we went to bed at 2am (I did blow the situation out of proportion, but I was also sleep deprived and actively psychotic as a result). When my husband came back, he came in guns blazing and pulled me out of bed demanding to see the roaches, and expressed frustration that I went back to bed when I was freaking out about the roach over the phone some 15 minutes prior. We got in an argument about if we need to put in a request for pest control, and at one point, I yelled, "FINE, YOU’RE RIGHT AND I'M WRONG," and put my hands on his throat because I got triggered into an episode. I was shaking and asked to leave the conversation multiple times before it got to that point, but he wouldn't let me leave the kitchen - and pulled me back by my arm - until I'd heard a piece of his mind; that combined with waking up suddenly in the middle of my nap to an angry spouse after another successive night of sleep deprivation caused me to become violent whereas I'd never been violent to others in any episode before.

I regret it and apologized fervently and am trying everything I can to prevent that from happening again. I am not a typically violent person, and previous psychotic episodes only resulted in self-harm, not putting my hands on others. However, him not getting with the program I need to stay sane isn't helping. I started screaming and hitting myself during this last meltdown today over coming to a locked bathroom/bedroom door for the 3rd time after being out of the house for him to play games for 6 hours despite having another stress induced IBS episode, and immediately got back in my car to drive to my parent's house without any of my stuff.

I was deprived of sleep for the 3rd night in a row because I'm doing all the housework so he can have his games alone. His gaming computer is in the bedroom, which is locked, and he refuses to listen to requests to move the computer out of the bedroom or unlock the door because of his scopophobia. I can technically sleep on the futon, but I cannot brush my teeth or go to the bathroom because the bathroom is in the bedroom, and sleeping on the futon is interrupted because he refuses to sleep alone and will come out of the bedroom, wake me, and take me to bed with him at 3am.

Yesterday he got crabby because he "didn't get a break," and I told him I felt "hurt because it sounds to me like [he was] not grateful for the two hours I spent cleaning the apartment and dishes" the latter of which is his job, "to give [him] 2 hours to play games," to which he responded that he needs "at least 4 hours," "with the door closed and locked," and "complete silence," and my housework is "too noisy." This does not make sense to me because he cannot hear his phone notifications when I call or text to use the bathroom, and he is playing music. Moreover, knowing that the vacuum cleaner sets us both off, my parents gifted me a Roomba for cleaning that is much quieter, but he won't help to set it up.

He keeps suggesting compromises with my mom, our friends, and our marital counselor. None of them have worked, and none of them he has kept up.

1) My mom offered to buy him an L-shaped desk for him when she comes over next, but now he refuses to have her come over and doesn't want to spend money on an L-shaped desk. He also wants to use the L-shaped desk for everything BUT the tower.

2) We bought an IKEA desk for $10 at Goodwill and got cables for him to move his keyboard, screen, and mouse out of the room, but he refuses to move the tower (which has RGB that won't turn off while he's using it) out of the bedroom. Then, the door will not completely close because of all the cables running through it and I hear his music, games, and keyboard. His reason for not moving the tower? His dad (my FIL) cut the ethernet cable to the exact length for it to be in the bedroom and my husband wants to be able to lock the door to the bedroom and bathroom during the day (which he can stay there and play games all day, but don't lock the door to the only bathroom, I have literal IBS that will NOT wait. I already soiled a pair of shorts.)

3. My friend stayed with us for a bit while in transitory housing, which is how he justified locking the door (to masturbate without being walked in on). But even after our friend showed him how to turn on notifications from favorite contacts when he puts his phone on Do Not Disturb, he still silences his phone and locks the door.

4. We negotiated together with the marital counselor a possible compromise where I "own" the bedroom for 12 hours at night and he "owns" the bedroom for 12 hours during the day so that he can play games during the day at noon instead of at, say, 2am. He suggested implementing this the week after our wedding. It didn't happen, I brought it up with the counselor. He says it's because he's "on vacation" but we'll implement come July. It's a week into July and it still hasn't happened. I told him I need a functioning sleep schedule for my job two weeks BEFORE I start or I'll have a psych episode at work and get fired, and he agreed, and I still came home to a locked bedroom/bathroom door TODAY.

5) We talked about getting a two bedroom condo that's a walking distance from his university. His assets plus my salary (I'm the breadwinner right now while he's in college but he was in the military and has $40k in savings and $50k in stocks), and we qualify for up to $400k on our mortgage. He refuses to close on the 2 bedroom/2 bathroom condo I requested that's a 5 minute walk from his classes because it's "too expensive" at $375k, and he insists on a 2 bedroom/1 bathroom place for $315k that's a 15 minute walk from his campus. Even though I told him my IBS requires I have access to a bathroom at all times, he still will spend over an hour on the toilet watching YouTube even if he's not "sequestering" to play games. I won't hear a peep from him about sharing a bathroom to save $60k unless he changes his behavior. This also is the driving force behind why I want to try to move into a two bedroom condo ASAP, even though our lease ends in mid-November. He refuses because he doesn't want to pay rent for the apartment while we have a mortgage OR sublease/AirBnB it OR break the lease. I have argued with support from our realtor, mortgage broker, and my parents, that now is the time to find and close on a home because it's a several months long process, especially since we're using VA loans.

Moreover, his ass has the audacity to repeatedly twist my arm about having a baby. When we first got married, I said, "Sure, we can have kids; but first I have to find a way to be mentally stable without medications for a year straight while living with you before I can carry a viable pregnancy. I've been stable and unmedicated before, but that stability requires consistent sleep, a regular and highly regimented schedule, and consistent vigorous exercise to work." We're nowhere near that, (I fucking put my hands on him during an episode and even my OBGYN said given my medical history its not a question of if I'll get postpartum depression but when,) and he keeps asking me to schedule an appointment to change my birth control to something other than an IUD.

I'm an adult, I can leave my husband alone for 4 hours in complete silence with some effort and some frustration, but A BABY fucking won't, because it can't. It needs your attention every 2 hours to eat or poop or what have you. His kid cannot find something else to do like I can to leave him in silence most of the day unless they're in school (by age 5 and only during the schoolyear) or can drive (by age 16), but definitely not all night at any point between their birth and them moving out (given current economic trends, this wont be economically feasible until our kid is 30). Plus, the kid would occupy our 2nd bedroom in the condo and then I'd have to figure out how to get sleep in my husband's room and (share a bathroom if we go with his insisitence on a 1 bathroom cheaper condo) despite my IBS with TWO human beings, when sharing with one is hard enough.

We agreed to getting me a service animal from a program in Canada I'd been on the waiting list for since 2019, and the animal is available for me to take home this summer. I am going to Canada by myself because my husband doesn't have a passport, but we're meeting in New York to drive home together in a rental car with the animal. My parents understandably think this is an additional stressor since now I'm taking care of not only me and my husband, but also an animal. But I need something to step in and perform tasks to mitigate/alert to psych episodes.

Today he hugged me and told me he loved me and was so glad he "married [me]" because I "enhance [his] life every moment," but it feels like lip service when he won't move the computer or implement any of the possible solutions we came up with above. I wish I could say the same. I feel like my life is actually worse since I moved in. I'm contemplating quitting the new job, going back to my old one, and living with my parents until he can get his shit together enough that I can actually sleep and use the bathroom like a normal person.

I can't live with him like this, or one of us will get very badly hurt. I start work in two weeks, and need to be at work by 7am every day, so I cannot be stable enoigh to keep a job if I'm having psych episodes because I'm going to bed after midnight whenever he's feeling kind enough to remember me and unlock the bedroom door. I need two weeks to reset my sleep schedule. He says he understands after I scared him when I put my hands on him, and after each and every sleep-deprivation induced meltdown, but I feel like he really doesn't because none of his behavior has changed.

You are welcome to reblog to give an in-depth response if it doesn't fit in replies or DM me if you want it to be private. I'm desperate for help. He's not a bad guy. Everyone says that it's very apparent he loves me. He's my best friend, and I love him, but my health, sanity, and, in turn, our marriage are at stake if this doesn't get solved and soon.

#vent #advice #actually psychotic #actually audhd #actually autistic #actually adhd #relationships #marriage

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inexplicifics · 2 years

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I don't know if you're still taking requests, but I am lowkey obsessed with your I Shall Not Live in Vain from the wolves' perspective. Do you have a snippet of the first night with Jasker? Like, right after he is bought and Geralt brings him back to the campground and Eskel explains everything and the sense of relief of having an Omega around again, even though it's kind of terrible too? If not, no pressure. Thank you!

It takes Geralt a lot longer to get back from town than it ought to. And when they finally hear Roach’s hooves on the little deer-track leading to their campsite, she’s walking slowly and more heavily than is her usual wont. But she doesn’t sound injured at all.

Eskel and Lambert exchange a glance. Four auctions in, has Geralt actually found someone? They’ve both started wondering if this is a fool’s errand - if they should just ask Gardis if he and Aubry would be willing to travel with them for a month or so at a time, and pray that the scent of an omega will be enough even if it’s not one that meshes with their pack-scent at all.

But sure enough, Roach comes pacing into the clearing with two people on her back: Geralt, looking grim and unhappy, and behind him, too-thin arms looped around Geralt’s waist, a man they don’t recognize.

An omega they don’t recognize.

Eskel gets his wits about him first, and moves forward to greet Geralt and his…companion. The man is tall and surprisingly broad-shouldered, with long brown hair pulled back in a messy tail and brilliant blue eyes, and he’s much, much too thin. There are also far too many bruises on his…everything Eskel can see, actually, which, given that all he’s wearing is a ragged tunic, a threadbare pair of trousers, and a pair of soft shoes hardly worthy of the name, is quite a lot of skin.

Eskel would like to gut everyone who’s ever dared lay hands on the omega, and also feed the omega and put bruise balm all over him and cuddle him until he stops reeking of fear. But cuddling him would probably just scare him worse, so Eskel speaks to Geralt, instead.

“Well, Wolf, what did you find?” he asks, offering the omega a hand down - he doesn’t look like he can dismount without help.

The omega flinches. Eskel barely keeps from wincing. Geralt, of course, doesn’t say anything - fuck, he’s gone nonverbal from stress again, gods damn it - and Eskel realizes that if he leaves it up to Geralt and the omega, they’ll all stand here all night. So he reaches up and lifts the omega down.

He is much, much too light, and he goes stiff and still like a frightened rabbit in Eskel’s hands. Eskel is as gentle as he can be as he puts the omega down. Lambert comes crowding in, eager and worried, and they both breathe in hard.

The omega stinks of days without washing and years of misery, but under that…under that, he smells of cinnamon and citrus, warm and sweet and tangy. It’s the most perfect scent Eskel could have imagined - as good as Remus’s was.

“Well, alright, pretty boy,” Lambert drawls. “I guess he’ll do.”

The omega flinches again. Geralt hums and nudges Roach away to tack her down, and the omega cringes a little but doesn’t move. Like a beaten dog, not sure what might get him kicked again. He looks and smells half-catatonic with terror.

“Wolf,” Eskel says slowly, “did you actually explain anything to him?”

“No,” Geralt replies, which Eskel really should have expected. He can’t suppress the sigh of exasperation, though. But - well, maybe showing the omega that they aren’t bad-tempered will help with his fear? So Eskel makes a joke, just a little one, and banters with Lambert, and the omega looks back and forth between them with enormous eyes and doesn’t visibly relax at all. Shit. Alright, maybe that’s the wrong approach. Eskel decides to try just being straightforward.

“I’m Eskel,” he tells the omega. “What’s your name?”

Evidently the omega was not expecting that question, from the flinch that earns. Well, hell, what did Eskel say wrong now?

But despite the obvious terror in every line of his body, the omega licks his lips and says, clear enough despite his shaking voice, “I’m called Jaskier, alpha, if it pleases you.”

If it pleases him? What, does the omega expect Eskel to say it doesn’t please him and give him an entirely different name -

Oh, what is Eskel thinking. That’s just the sort of jackassery human alphas would get up to, isn’t it. Eskel really does hate everything right now, himself most thoroughly included, for having hurt this omega so very badly. Jaskier. It’s a beautiful name. Eskel keeps his tone as light as he can while he introduces Lambert and Geralt, hoping Jaskier won’t think he’s angry with him - of all the people in the world, Jaskier is most definitely not the one Eskel is angry at - and then ushers Jaskier towards the fire.

Lambert tosses Jaskier one of Geralt’s tunics - Geralt is closest to Jaskier’s size, of the three of them - and after a moment’s obvious hesitation, Jaskier takes his shirt off.

Eskel can count his fucking ribs. And the bruises layered over them, too. Gods fucking damn it, he wants to go right back to that fucking town and start killing slavers, and he can tell by Lambert’s sharp intake of breath that his pack-brother is having the exact same thought -

And then Jaskier pulls on Geralt’s tunic, and makes a soft sound, so quiet no human ears could have caught it, of pleased surprise. Geralt, like all of them, prefers soft fabrics, gentle on his skin, and Lambert has sensibly chosen a nice thick wool tunic, warm and comfortingly heavy, and Jaskier - their omega, theirs to take care of - is happy with it.

Eskel fights down a purr of approval, but he’s sure he’s wearing a fairly dopey smile all the same; certainly his pack-brothers are. Unfortunately, when Jaskier looks up and sees their expressions, he flinches. Eskel loses the desire to purr. What the fuck has Jaskier been through that seeing pleased alphas scares him?

Fuck, Eskel can’t think about that. Getting angry would probably be even worse than being visibly pleased.

He leans forward to fill a bowl with stew, eyeing Jaskier’s too-thin wrists and remembering those prominent ribs. Better not give him too much; humans, Eskel knows, have to be careful about eating after long periods of malnourishment, and Eskel doesn’t want their new omega to spend his evening vomiting.

“Eat,” he urges Jaskier, who takes the bowl like he thinks it’s going to bite him. What sort of asshole makes food a trick?

Eskel cannot think about that. He focuses instead on the pleasure in Jaskier’s expression as he eats, the soft moan of delight at the taste. Eskel did that - Eskel gave their omega this moment of happiness. He’s…well, he’s doing his job. Doing as an alpha ought. They all are.

Geralt rescued him and Lambert clothed him and Eskel fed him. That’s a damn good start.

And oh, Jaskier has a spine of steel, because once he’s eaten he looks at them, trying so hard to hide his fear, and listens carefully as Eskel does his best to explain how being in a pack works. It’s harder than he expected. He’s never had to explain it to anyone before; the other Wolves already know, and humans don’t generally care.

To his immense relief, Jaskier doesn’t seem horrified by learning that he now has three alphas - or, at least, not more horrified than he already was. And he even contributes to the conversation.

A warm hearth on a cold day. Eskel’s never heard a better description of his pack’s scent. It’s a beautiful way to phrase it.

And Jaskier even dares to ask questions once he starts to relax a little, instead of bowing his head and just accepting whatever the alphas decree. Now that’s a damn good sign, and Eskel is immensely glad of it. And he doesn’t run like a startled rabbit when they lay out, as plainly as they can, what they want of an omega. Even relaxes a little, as though their blunt inelegant words have comforted him somehow.

He’s still clearly deeply apprehensive, which is more than fair, but there’s a sort of desperate willingness about him that breaks Eskel’s heart and gives him hope, all at the same time. He lies down in their nest of bedrolls without flinching, and lets them curl around him and breathe in his scent, and even, after a moment, starts to relax, just a little.

And having an omega so near - having that sweet, glorious scent of cinnamon and citrus filling his senses - holding an omega safely in his arms, knowing they have fed him and clothed him and will protect him -

Gods, Eskel can feel all the tension draining out of himself. Can see how Lambert’s near-perpetual scowl has already vanished, how the line between Geralt’s eyebrows has smoothed away. Just this, just this is enough to start repairing the damage that Remus’s absence has left in their pack.

Gods willing, Jaskier will be just what he seems: bright, and brave, and willing to try. Will be the missing piece that makes their pack work again. Maybe this will not be a complete disaster in the making.

Maybe, Jaskier will fit among them as perfectly as his scent suggests he should.

#questions answered #fic specific asks #i shall not live in vain 'verse #snippet

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roadkillradroach · 6 days

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old concept stuff for my character Spectre

after recently leaving being checked out of a rehabilitation center for his previous undisclosed deeds and legally changing his name, spectre is now only able to afford housing in the most toxic crime-ridden city in america: Atro City- city of broken tail lights

Spectre tries to keep a clear mind in the roach and rat infested city of mutants and freaks, trying not return to his previous unsavory urges-

basically this idea is just an excuse to draw vent art of a character hurting annoying people as well as making strange creature designs, and stupid stuff like this:

i probably wont post about it a lot ive just been thinking about it recently

#atro city #oc spectre

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pigeonrocks · 1 year

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since i cant do digital art rn (school) im just gonna fucking. drop some of my reboot!roach lore

(discussion of roaches suicide under the cut)

Roach is- okay to put it bluntly. roach's supposed suicide left shadow company with more questions than it did anything else. because of how unlikely and bizarre the situation was. it wasn't a weird thing for him to go missing for a few days but he always came back with prized intel on the ultranationalists. now. when roach returns to the shadow company's base he feeds all his intel to graves who then works on routes to intercept and kill said ultranationalists. so- roach.. not coming back when he returns back to base is bizarre. him being dead is even worse to that fact, some of the shadows (cough velikan cough) dont believe that he actually kicked the bucket. nothing about it at all adds up and makes sense- he leaves base with ghost to investigate an ultranationalist snuggling route, like always- and he comes back surviving by a fucking thread with what looks to be either a suicide attempt or an attempt on his life by something else. none of it adds up right.

Soap- is called roach at times in passing. by graves and ghost. not intentionally. but roach died so very very recently. soap tries to learn why but he never gets an answer from either of them.

graves calls soap 'roach' out of just habit. he does not want to address it. he never does. he gets almost depressed when soap brings him up. he is still very much mourning his second in command- it does not take a genius to see how much it stings when soap asks him about it.. a wound all too fresh.

same as graves- ghost called soap roach out of habit. but when soap asked him about it.. he got very cagey? and dismissive of soap's confusion to this guy- soaps never met him. shadow company business stays in shadow company. but everything else about ghost just says otherwise. how it screams guilt- not the mourning and sorrows that graves displays. its guilt- it leaves soap with nothing knew about this- it just rises his own suspicions and frustrations about this- graves atleast tells him something-

ghost doesn't tell him a god damn thing- he didn't expect anything but he didn't expect ghost to get cagey just at the mention of this guy's name. its weird!! what the fuck? with graves he understands- he wont press a man grieving his dead- but with ghost?- he expected maybe something- if anything just to make sense of why he knew this guy so well to call soap by his name.

#mystuff!!#chester rambles #call of duty #uhh #simon ghost riley #bc hes important #john soap mactavish #phillip graves #gary roach sanderson #reboot!roach #I'll draw smth abt this maybe laterr when i get home

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