#the in between phase!

[coffeeandcalligraphy]

WIP Intro - Changing States

Genre: Adult literary fiction, short fiction (a Moth Work story that occurs after BODY BACK)

Status: Currently drafting / 3k words

Synopsis: After a whirlwind romance devastatingly ends, Jeremiah moves back to his hometown in Maryland for support only to receive word there’s been a death in the family the day he's set to arrive.

Setting: Baltimore, MD

Vibe: Sunny backroads, noonday fields, retro diners, long car rides, the sparkle of headlights, motion blur, undeveloped film, dusty sunsets, a purple MP3 player, the way childhood feels in photographs, crackling home movies, misty autumn evenings, quiet bursts of grief, summers at the lakeside, the first dreamy flare of sunrise, returning to a place you once knew

Characters:

Jeremiah (narrator - 21) | gentle, thoughtful, nostalgic, devoted, wistful, romantic, sad, brokenhearted

Excerpt:

On the evening Jeremiah decides he’ll drive thirty hours to Maryland, the other half of his mattress is cold and Madonna’s on the radio. In his bedroom, he taps his cigarette on the windowsill, the ash scattering into rainy blue hour, and listens. Time goes by so slowly, she goes, her voice singed through his boombox’s broken speakers. He’s meant to replace it, though he’s meant to do a lot of things: check the mail, make a quiche, buy lightbulbs, call his sister, take up cross-stitch, recycle an olive jar, move his bed to the opposite side of his room. But time goes by so slowly, and Jeremiah would know—he’s twenty-one, yet feels he’s been alive for much, much longer.

#writeblr #wip intro #writerblr #wip introduction #amwriting #writing #fostered #mothwork #changing states #HEHEHE HERE WE ARE!!!! #i know i have shared that first paragraph a bajillion times BUT THIS IS THE BEST ONE TO SHARE FOR THIS LOL #anyway jeremiah baby boy #do you KOW how hard it was to write “brokenhearted” next to his name #raise your hand if you want to enact revenge on harrison #now I know how a ton of y'all feel about lonan lol let's make that guy PAYYY #i'll explain the title later but it's both literally changing states and being in a state of change lol #the in between phase!

[cleric4vampire]

wyll.y.am ravengard, I love you so

everyone loves to put him in gold (rightly so) but my personal style is lots of silver jewelry + heavy eyeliner so that's what I gave him. also roses because he's so damn venusian

#wyll #wyll ravengard #bg3 fanart #bg3 #three color versions because I'm so damn indecisive. I'm experimenting with a more sketchy style and had a lot of fun with it #I have so many thoughts about wyll and his venusian qualities; how he embodies some of the truest and starkest aspects of venus #as well as its most painful and burdensome weaknesses #I could write an essay on it but I don't know how many people live in the intersection between bg3 and classical astrology. so I won't #also - I've had this sitting in my drafts for way too long and it was in danger of entering the ''I changed my mind I don't want this to #see the light of day'' phase so Im pressing the damn button #my art

[melrosing]

wanted to imagine outfits for them as heads of their houses!

#jaime x brienne #jaime lannister #brienne of tarth #asoiaf #valyrianscrolls #melrosing art #Jaime’s is a cross between Tudor and seafaring which is how I imagine Lannister garb #for Brienne I like to imagine the Evenstar leads some sort of celestial ritual on Tarth based on phases of the moon or whatever #so tried some more priestly/fantasy esque for her?? idk

[l1-b1]

Sketches of Nya from Hands of Time and Skybound!!

The outgrown Bob haircut phase

#i want a Nya suit to have Black as the main colour in her suit again pls #pls pls pls #Anyway this haircut is the point where she starts considering growing her hair out #hands of time and Skybound changed aspects of who she was and her life so it seemed natural for her to let herself physically change as well #fanart #lego ninjago #ninjago #lego ninjago fanart #ninjago fanart #ninjago nya #nya smith #nya jiang #Nya means sm to me and her character development and change through time matters sm to me #i think her hair has had many phases #representing who she was who she is and who she will be #Skybound was her turning point she was now apart of the team and not just kais sister of jays girlfriend #she was nya so she wanted to change her appaerence so she could put a distance between her past self #idk this is just a ramble nya just makes me insane

[hermitcraft-alignment-charts]

i have been resurrected from the dead by the pure energy of absentmindedly scrolling through rendogs channel and being forcefully YANKED back into my hermitcraft phase by the sound of his voice

#hermitcraft #hermitcraft alignment charts #rendog #docm77 #grian #geminitay #cubfan #etho #ethoslab #xisuma #xisumavoid #bdubs #bdoubleo100 #keralis #goodtimeswithscar #i am literally boiling alive as i wite this #it’s so motherfucking hot in my room #but can’t belive my hermitcraft phase is back #i TOLD y’all i woild never abandon this account #i literally got diagnosed with autism did my gcses went to college and dropped out of college in between now and the last post #i now am taking a year off #unsure of what to do with my life #perhaps i’ll pursue tumblr full time xxx

[mokadevs]

yellow💛

#kiki draws #carnelian #arknights carnelian #carnelian arknights #arknights #three down four to go! #in between the lineart phase and coloring part of this i went to urgent care heehe #but the grind doesnt stop etc #hueweek continues on!!!!

[ravenmoodle]

one more for the Starkid kids. one quality goat Bastard

#my art #starkid #tinky #T'noy Karaxis #time bastard #lords in black #npmd #hatchetfield #horror #bro's whole personality is cubism. smh #i wanted to make him look like he was both alive and dead at the same time #and kind of phasing between.. time and space. #i also like giving all of the lords these black 'stains' somewhere on them. i think it's neat

[canisalbus]

Hello! I hope I won't sour your mood with this ask but I have been thinking a lot about your gay dogs this month especially.

I'll just try to keep the context short but in general I'm someone that has accepted being romantically undesireable. It was hard but in the end I have built my life just around me, my humble family and at this point in time I don't even think I have the time for a partner. And considering that it's the love month and a lot of people are preparing to celebrate it with their SOs I assumed that, actually, this is a thing that I sort of have in common with Machete.

From the miscellaneous lore on your profile I see Machete as someone that also has kind of rejected love. That also has built his life around his job, possibly hobbies, his family or mentors (depending if we're talking about canon or modern au). Who kind of forgot that relationships are a thing and that people bond with others in that way. Well, at least he did until meeting Vasco.

I just love thinking about their awkward beginnings. Machete being 100% sure that Vasco is just joking, maybe even sometimes teasing him (in a friendly banter type way) or just explaining to himself that all that kindness and interest is just him being a very considerate friend. And then we have Vasco that just tries to be subtle, as if he was trying to pass a fawn without it noticing and running away, but also with time gains confidence and tries more risque moves. Vasco being all smug and Machete being flustered when their hands or shoulders or tails brush in passing. And then when both are sure of their feelings we have Machete who has to choose between God and his love. Who, at first, unwillingly accepts that divine wrath will be worth their brief love.

I just love your boys. I swear they are all the love supply one might possibly need

Thank you for such a long and thoughtful message! I don't know why you thought you might accidentally sour my mood, I'm utterly delighted whenever I hear that someone has been pondering my little guys (rotating them in their head, as they say), and when they go through the trouble of sharing their findings and conclusions I'm so happy I could crawl up a wall.

I think you deciphered Machete's inner workings very well, especially those of the original canon version. The concept of love is of course prominent in Christianity, so even as a kid being raised in a religious environment that discouraged overt displays of affection and close personal bonds, Machete wasn't completely alienated from it. But it has always been a nebulous, unperceivable and unattainable thing for him. When he was old enough to lock down his career choice he readily accepted he'd never have romantic relationships, spouse or a family, and I think he must've been too young and socially inexperienced to think of it as a significant loss. Either he consciously blocked out the need for companionship by studying and working like his life depended on it, or he didn't really consider that being genuinely befriended, appreciated and loved as a person instead of a respectable and competent authority figure was even an option for him, at least not until Vasco came along.

#I think it took some time to get through his initial defences #especially since when they first met the stressful apprenticeship period was still fresh in Machete's mind #the years under his explosive and gaslighting mentor's wing had made him very distrustful so he preferred to just stick to himself #Vasco is good at winning people over and once he convinced him that he didn't have any ulterior motives they became besties pretty quickly #and even though the line between platonic and romantic started gradually blurring Machete kept convincing himself #that his feelings for Vasco were just Very Deep Friendship #and Vasco has an eye for noticing these things and a bolder personality #so when he tried to reciprocate a little bit Machete thought 'what a good friend he is' #'so kind and considerate and I'm so grateful and lucky to have him and I must not ruin things by getting too personal' #it was awkward and at times a little bit painful but I'd like to believe the progression was for the most part smooth and natural #considering the circumstances it could've been a lot more distressing #as corny as it is I think they were just happy to have found each other #they advanced at the same phase and reached the 'I think we've become a couple actually' stage at the same time #at least that's how I imagine it at the moment #answered #anonymous #Vaschete lore #long post

[rebouks]

Oscar heaved a sigh of defeat, plonking himself at the edge of the bed. “Well, he locked his door again-.. and he’s either ignoring me, or he’s got his headphones in, or both.”

“What the hell happened yesterday?” Courtney asked, rolling toward Oscar sleepily.

Oscar shrugged; he wasn’t entirely sure. The whole evening had been a disaster from start to finish. “I don’t know, he got in a fight with that kid, didn’t he-.. and my old neighbour saw us n’ decided to reminisce about me fucking OD’ing.”

“He didn’t actually say that, did he?” Courtney’s brows knitted together in shock.

Oscar shook his head, “No, he just said some shit about how he thought I was dead in that grotty bathroom at the Mill-.. I thought Ivan n’ Rhys found me but I guess he must’ve been there too, who knows.”

“What an idiot, bringing that up at the school gates.” Courtney tutted. Oscar nodded in agreement, pausing for a moment before suggesting, “Maybe I should explain what actually happened? He knew I was lying.” Courtney stiffened, “No, he’s too young!” “I hated it when my parents blatantly lied to me though, I’m telling you; he fucking knows.”

Courtney hummed, scratching Oscar’s back thoughtfully. “I’m more worried about him fighting.” Oscar pondered for a moment before replying, “It sounds like he was just standing up for himself. If he makes a habit of it, then we’ll worry.” “Yeah, okay…”

Oscar and Courtney glanced at one another as Robin unlocked his door and bolted to the bathroom, hastily locking that door behind him too. With a quick shove, Courtney hissed, “Go, go!”

Robin leapt across the landing and threw himself into his room, his sigh of relief swiftly retreated in on itself as he swung his door shut, however; Oscar had outsmarted him, waiting behind the door.

“I’m not going!” Robin yelled, “I’m sick…” Oscar calmly shook his head from side to side, “That’s not gonna fly, is it? We both know you’re not sick…”

Robin clenched his fists tight enough for his knuckles to turn white, desperately willing himself to vomit on command, faint, have some kind of fit-.. anything would do.

“If you’re worried about-…” “I don’t give a shit about Levi.” Robin spat.

Oscar frowned worriedly; he knew Robin hadn’t wanted their holiday to end, or to go back to school, but this abrupt fit of anger was highly uncharacteristic. Surely it was still too early to be worried about the dreaded P word? He had the faint beginnings of bags under his little eyes too-.. which were red raw and puffy, as though he’d spent more time crying last night than he had sleeping.

“What’s the matter, buddy?” Oscar asked gently, gesturing toward Robin with an outstretched hand. Robin shrugged a shoulder as he crawled beside Oscar, suddenly feeling guilty for yelling. What if his father died right after he’d said something awful and mean? He’d never forgive himself.

“Is it something in particular? A bit of everything?” Robin remained silent, anxiously nibbling at a stray strip of skin on his bottom lip. “Talk to me…” Oscar pleaded.

Robin wriggled away from the comfort of his father’s arms and curled into a ball. What the hell was he supposed to say? That he couldn’t sleep all night because he kept seeing Oscar’s lifeless body on a bathroom floor, on a stretcher, in a hospital-.. dying in various awful ways again and again until he wasn’t sure what the difference was between someone else’s memories and his own imagination. That he just wanted his brain to stop and for everyone to just shut up-.. just for once, please.

Oscar didn’t know what to do with Robin’s prolonged silence. He desperately wanted to explain what Larry had been talking about, but Courtney was probably right about him being too young. Besides, he didn’t even know if that was the issue. It could’ve been Larry, or the fight with Levi, or the fact that he missed Alex-.. all of the above, something else entirely?

“I know this Levi kid is probably doing your head in, but you can’t just go around hitting people-.. it’s not okay.”

Robin knew full well that violence wasn’t the answer, but he couldn’t deny that it’d felt a little satisfying to take his frustrations out on Levi. Any normal child might’ve asked if their parents were angry with them-.. except Robin wasn’t normal, and he already knew that Oscar wasn’t mad, nor his mother, so he kept his mouth shut.

Grasping at straws, Oscar cast his mind back to when he was a child. Whenever he was in one of his moods, as his mother always put it, he just needed to know that someone would listen, and he certainly didn’t want to be yelled at or mithered-.. but most of all, he just wanted to be left alone, at least for a little while…

“You can have one day, okay? Just one.” Oscar acquiesced. Robin barely moved, giving the tiniest of nods in response.

“Alright.” Oscar sighed inwardly, tussling Robin’s ginger curls with affection before reluctantly leaving him be.

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#ts4 #sims 4 #simblr #ts4 story #sims story #forever in between #fib #oscar finch #courtney finch #robin finch #woooo prose 🤸‍♀️ #not so woo.. sad robin #MY BOY! #😭 #he's so upset abt the whole larry thing but he can't say anything about it ahhhhhhhhdkjkdjskj #did anyone else go thru a phase where u were convinced ur parents were gonna die when they were a kid? #or was it just my tiny ocd brain that was broken??? #man i hated that phase #i feel u bby bird boy 😩🤧 #twoverdose

[notachair]

Since atla is again having an extra surge of popularity, I'm shooting my shot:

[ID: (Rest of image description in alt). At the bottom of the image sits the text: "Zuko: Okay. Well, I can't remember how it starts, but the punchline is "leaf me alone, I'm bushed."" ID end].

Did we ever find out what the setup for this joke was? I feel kinda haunted by it. If not- anyone wanna make their best or worst guesses?

edit: I now know what "I'm bushed" mean, but go ahead anyway 👍

haunted thoughts in tags ↓

#atla #the way I was early out for this next surge in popularity 🤗 I was in a different phase by 2020 #it's not like it haunts me day and night but it does bother me thinking back on it. please tell me I'm not the only one 🧍‍♂️ #I'll have to reblog the 'closure is a myth' post jk #what kind... of joke is it? leaf pun on leave i get. I'm bushed however I dont get. it implies the punchline sayer is a bush at least I #think. but what prompts the 'i am bushed' I dont get. is it not contextual? is it a phrase ive not connected like 'leaf me alone'? #is there anotger layer between leaf and bush? again what kind of joke (social:joke purpose. what is funny? only pun?) + (in-joke set up)? #is it about the kind of bush it is? is it between two plants? the plant & someone picking on the plant like a teamaker collecting? #is it about a plant that has grown into bush and thus (somethingsomething)?? is it not a plant at all? other elements? iroh *what*. #if the creators actually had a setup in mind- I fear it will be lame. but yet I am haunted #it must have cracked someone up for him to try relay it. (set in term of endearment here) 🧍‍♂️👈 *poking him* #either way. me 🤝 zuko @ being bad at remembering & relaying jokes 😁👍 #at least in that instance anyway #I mainly stick to irony & sarcasm. running along with an mistaken assumption or replying w something silly & blowing it out of proportions. #puns if I'm lucky. ect. fun when I can reference it later tho I try not to overdo it. not like I'll likely remember it for too long anyway #now to lay in wajt see if anything happens.... #avatar the last airbender #zuko #atla zuko #a:tla #my rambles #its lie and not lay is it not.....

[rox-of-iu]

the same clownery as usual lads 🌳🍑

!spoilers (but not for today's upcoming chapter lol)

'cultivate' by amazing wonderful talented @neonghostcat

#cultivate #cultivate: slow life on a monster infested mountain #liushen #listen i know the space between posts is shorter than usual but I had these done and didn't want to hold onto them so uhm everyone hush #anyway hsdkj #i know ive already said this before but youre gonna hear it again aha i loovee shen jiu and esp how he's written here he's so fun #💞💓💖💕 bastard meow meow #hes such an ass but he means good deep down 😭😭 #anyway rip to SY's most probable aneurysm once he reads how SJ decided to sign himself lmao #and also congrats to SY for his first child in a rebellious teen phase ahhasjdh #but tbf xiao draco does scare me to death fr fr troublemaking children are terrifying stay strong shen yuan hdjsah #and thats about it im gonna go take a nap now cheerio everyone

[adhd-merlin]

where can I find a video of this deleted Arthur & Gwen scene? I think it's from ep 5x03. please this is important

#deleted scenes #friendly reminder that there's a 3 year time jump between s4 and s5 #they've been married for three years and still acting like they're in their honeymoon phase #they're digusting I love them so much #arwen #merlin #*

[mumblesplash]

the fact that doctors can just Recommend Weight Loss with no instructions beyond ‘eat healthier/less’ is actually insane to me, i lost weight on purpose ONCE and it took me like 6 years to recover a semi-normal relationship with food and hunger

#uhh #disordered eating cw #just in case #mumbling #like jfc i know i’m not the first to say it and my experience is relatively SO tame #but it STILL fucked with my head for YEARS #and most people don’t go nearly that long between weight loss attempts at all for basically their whole lives!!!!! #and we’re so blasé about it like yeah just eat less to lose weight #and so few people talk about the really weird shit that phase of my life taught me even though they seem like pretty universal things #like when you lose weight deliberately by denying yourself food you get COLD #you get cold and you get in your head and you get sad it’s like being less alive #the times i’ve lost weight/recomped on accident (by doing smth that makes me move more‚ getting better sleep etc) #it’s been WARM #burn hotter move freer feel happier #and also the way hunger feels when you’ve been denying yourself food for an extended time is NOT the same as baseline hunger #it’s actually kind of wild that we use the same word to describe both feelings like that shit is NOT the same #that shit is not ‘being really hungry’ it’s a fuckin. blood curse or some shit you feel straight up unhinged #and i should disclaim here i am not talking large amounts of weight #i’ve fluctuated over i think a 20lb range max since reaching close to my adult height and that’s a guesstimate #but even in my relatively unremarkable little experiences here the way deliberate weight loss fucked with my brain is absurd to me #i’m fine now have been for years but seriously thinking back on it the fact that this is routine medical advice. unreal

[i-will-always-love-the-jedi]

„Jeweled diadem gifted by Stellan and Elzar“

Of course, that could have been simply a sweet gesture BUT making it angsty is so much better in my opinion

Because imagine Avar Kriss, a telepath so powerful she always hears so so much -enough for it to physically hurt her- being unable to keep her mental walls up because her energy is already drained… and imagine Elzar Mann and Stellan Gios, researching in the archives for weeks, finding the slightest hint of something that could help and then proceeding to forge the focus with their own hands… :ˋ)

…

#and now it’s as if they are protecting her every time she wears it #‚Avar Kriss can hear all Jedi and the force is like music for her‘ #and then they try telling me she never gets overstimulated by it #or headaches #bffr #anyways it’s okay now cuz her besties helped her out #also i love drawing baby firebrands #Stellan is like 16 in this and the other two are even younger #also idk if anyone noticed but Elzar is smaller than stellan >:) #cuz nothing is more hilarious to me than the ‚elzar is the smallest firebrand‘ hc #anyways the next book is coming out RIGHT IN MY EXAM PHASE #fuck You Star Wars #now I have to choose between Avar Kriss and Elzar mann or passing my semi finals #-_- #we all know what I’m gonna pick #firebrands friday #the high republic #avar kriss #stellan gios #elzar mann

[crescentfool]

i just want good things for them 🥺💗

#persona 3 #ryomina #ryoji mochizuki #minato arisato #makoto yuki #lizzy does art #been working through a backlog of sketches / baselines i have lying around since i am in a coloring mood lately!!! #i alternate between wanting to study things to make more elaborate Things (many sketch pages) then getting bored and wanting 2 color things #as u can see. i am in my coloring phase. i just wanted to draw ryomina being happy together bc thats what heals my soul #seeing them together just sparks joy and GAAH i would like to draw better for them but this shall suffice for now... #like i have so many ideas!! but i have been turtle-ing my way over to them whenever i feel that im ready to tackle smthn bigger. #ryomina can feed me for a lifetime. i love them in a symbolic aspect and the day i can capture that will the day i have ascended #i hope everyones been having a good one btw!!! love you all very much thank you always for the kindness 💛💙

[amykiriwosdefenselawyer]

They're so silly!!! The extended gang!

#sylvia's half-black half-blonde hair...hopefully it stays btw #it would be interesting to see the link between phenotypic effects and psychological state in her #since the sabnock family have high volition and good control over their wicked phases iirc #she doesn't seem like she'd go into an “evil” sort of origins #just super enthusiastic with her desires or smth #anyway the gang drawn together like that reminds me of kagome kagome the vocaloid song #m!ik #mairimashita! iruma kun #mairuma #welcome to demon school iruma kun #sabnock silvia #sabnock sylvia #beem r. judain #crocell chima #asmodeus alice #valac clara #also unrelated but azz is becoming way more laid-back and chill and it's good to see character development #he's friendly and approachable now basically lmao getting rid of that former egocentrism