#the home inside my head

[east-coast-sad-girl]

Stuck is where I feel in place, a feeling I'll embrace.

The home inside my head has a bed for me, that no one will ever get the chance to see.

// Real Friends

#real friends #the home inside my head #empty picture frames #pop punk aesthetic #pop punk #lyrics #punk #emo #emo girl #scene #scene girl #punk aesthetic #art #artists on tumblr #knuckle puck #the story so far #neck deep #tattoos #ink #band merch

[clunge]

Real Friends - Mess

#real friends #mess #dan lambton #the home inside my head

[sagehaleyofficial]

"LaSt yEaR i WaS a TrAinWrEcK, nOw i'M jUsT a MeSs"  🍷

Follow @sagehaleyofficial for more memes every Monday!

#sage haley #meme #memes #pop punk #pop punk meme #pop punk memes #defend pop punk #real friends #the home inside my head

[shea-like-the-butter]

Wednesday, July 19th 2023

#she is beauty she is grace #juni bb 🥹 #mine #cats of tumblr #the home inside my head

[breaking-justin]

someone tell Dan and Cody that they’re my only two real friends

#pop punk #real friends #dan lambton #cody muraro #bony knees #there’s nothing worse than too late #composure #put yourself back together #maybe this place is the same and we’re just changing #the home inside my head #torn in two #tell me you’re sorry

[ghostcoochie]

I’m too young for nostalgia

#my photos #aesthetic #inside my head #midwest #winter #midwestern gothic #photography #old house #old home #cats of tumblr #country aesthetic #blue sky #blue hour #rural gothic

[krasytoonz]

Strawberry Ice Cream Soda-Pop or something like That!

#I love how Barnaby sounds EXACTLY like how I imagined him to Sound! And Howdy’s voice too! It’s so so Great! #and their Interactions.. OH MAN! I CANT believe I would say this But I ship them EVEN MORE #Everytime I replay that Audio of Howdy and Barnaby talking about Family and all I just think to Myself ‘they’re such a Lovely Duo’ #and then Howdy says something About meeting Barnaby’s mom and I just Ascended to Nirvana because you see #It’s Him meeting his Mother in Law and in my Head they’re Married #AND IT’S KILLING ME INSIDE BECAUSE I KNOW ITS ALL PLATONIC BUT I CAN’T HELP BUT SHIP THEM MORE NOW #LIKE THE CHEMISTRY IS DJKSMSMXMX LETS JUST ADMIT IT THEYRE CUTE TOGETHER #welcome home puppet show #welcome home #barnaby x howdy #howdy x barnaby #beaglepillar #laughingstock #welcome home fanart #welcome home arg #welcome home project #fanart #barnaby b beagle #barnaby b. beagle #krasytoonz #barnaby Beagle #wally darling #welcome home barnaby #welcome home howdy #welcome home Wally #my beloved OTP they ARE SO SO SO CUTE

[emoreooo]

so carry me from these walls, brother of mine

#going with colored sketches for now augh.... #what if whenever kel had a nightmare hero would keep him company and play with him until he falls asleep #and kel cld always rely on his brother to help him see reason and to soothe the storm inside his head #tonight kel wakes up from another nightmare. tears in his eyes sweat dampening his shirt etc. but his brother remains unresponsive #kel wonders if hero gets nightmares of.. mari. and was too depressed to even react strongly about it. always crying silently barely moving #so he curls up beside hero in his bed and makes himself comfortable there #kel wld provide him comfort even if hero wont ask for it #but as time passes kel painfully realizes that he too missed the home he once had in his brother #omori kel #omori hero #kel omori #hero omori #omori #omori fanart #fanart #my art

[thelightwillbreakthrough]

…and if i said ‘maps’ from fun home is also spankoffski brothers coded (specifically pete’s pov)?

#hatchetfield #ted spankoffski #pete spankoffski #spankoffski bros #tgwdlm #black friday #nightmare time #npmd #like. the image stuck in my head is pete roaming about town after [whichever one of teds deaths] just to look at everywhere he'd been #they keep calling it a ‘tiny town’ so like. what is the true distance from their family home to downtown? #from the college to hidgens’ house? or the theater???? #the places he went every day vs where sheila or melissa dumped his body... #his entire existence within the confines of this Tiny Town...and the people he left behind still there with the empty space.... #pete looking at his life in comparison to ted’s; being essentially the same age now ted was when he was born… #…the points where their lives converged; teds past and pete’s future going on in opposite directions… #head in hands. his whole life was inside

[veenusde]

I’m like if an avatar of the corruption was a non-binary college student majoring in entomology

#I can’t tell if I’m just rotting in my mind or all throughout my insides #the earth calls to me I want to lie in the soft dirt and watch roots replace my veins and insects make a home from my flesh #you lie down on my lap and you can’t tell if it’s just in your head but you could swear something is moving under my skin #one moment I’m in bed the next I am a bog body preserved on the outside but I may as well be a hive with all who have made a home in me #they/them because I’m never alone… #I’m a museum intern surrounded my death and decay but the insects I pin are perfectly pereserved #you can’t tell from looking at me but if you were to touch my skin it’s dry and chitonous like pinned and dried insects or maybe a molt #the magnus protocol #the magnus archives #tma podcast #the corruption

[crabussy]

when did you first realise you hosted a system?

sometime in 2020 if I remember correctly? had been experiencing very obvious osdd symptoms for YEAAARS but had no idea what it was before meeting some friends who did. learned a bit about it and went okay interesting! and then a few months later went oh fuuuuck.

#IT WAS REALLY FUNNY I DONT KNOW HOW I DIDNT REALISE PREVIOUSLY #like hey man. #you had full blown conversations with another presence inside your head every day on the way home from school for MULTIPLE YEARS #this presence didnt agree with me on everything either like. #dude arguing with someone else inside your own mind is NOT average 11 yo behaviour #anyway ya its been like three or four years. wow #also had an 'imaginary friend' named ivy at the age of like 7 who was mean to me and just. never wanted to play or anything #ask tag #and like. my interests and attitudes towards relationships and even the way I spoke changed almost daily #inchresting stuff ^_^ #I DO WANT TO ADD that disorders involving being a system are VERY COVERT. you might not even HAVE symptoms #I was just. very special or something

[kaeyapilled]

i still feel abnormal about kaeyas adventure to sumeru as a child btw. he tells us about it in this lighthearted "haha look how silly i was as a kid ^^" way (because god forbid he allows one ounce of vulnerability in any situation ever) but tbh its just tremendously sad. to me

#:( he missed a home he'd never even actually been to #desperate enough to literally take the first fucking chance to go there no matter how impossible and dangerous it was #👍like wow ok what do i do with this information now. cry?? #i remember making a post exactly like this when 3.5 came out but #who cares ive already established there are only about 11 thoughts inside my head and i just alternate between them #kaeyaposting #i will never ever stop being sad about kid kaeya #and about adult kaeya #about any flavor of kaeya you can possibly think of #kaeya kaeya kaeya god this man altered my brain chemistry irreversibly #my posts #kaeya alberich

[goldenstarprincesses]

When you grow up a only child who is also the only child in the enter very small family, you don't realize how quiet your family/home is until you spend time with people with large family's/multiple siblings

#why are they YELLING #we are inside! do we not know how to use our indoor voices #pls my head hurts #I want to go home omg #not hetalia #thanksgiving #Friendsgiving #only child

[sherlock-is-ace]

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#oh wow... #i just had an oh shit fuck moment #wow #i usually complain about the one therapist i had in my entire life and how she wouldn't just listen to what i was saying #if it didn't fit her textbook definition of whatever she was thinking at the time #and how i talked to her about my anxiety and how that made me feel and she would only focus on how i acted #so the example i gave her was the one time i went into a shop to buy something by myself #because my mom didn't want to go in for me and arguing with my mom in front of the shop in public and then inevitably have to #go in myself either way was way worse to me #because of the embarrassement of arguing in public. the fact that my mom was gonna spend the entire walk home telling me how i have to #''just suck it up and learn and just overcome my anxiety because i don't have a problem'' or whatever #and then having to go into the shop where the lady had been watching me from inside the entire time how i clearly didn't want to go in #and possibly be even more awkward with teary eyes because of the anxiety and awkwardness i already bring to the table any day... #all of those things that were going inside my head were trumped by the fact that i did go in and did buy what i needed #although my heart was coming out of my chest the entire time... all that didn't matter to my therapist because in her words: #''if you had anxiety. you simply wouldn't have gone in'' #which is ridiculous #but anyways... i just had an epiphany... that was masking wasn't it? #forcing myself to do something that brings me major discomfort to make my mother and the shop lady not judge me? #pretend i'm a normal human being just doing normal things instead of someone who's about to have a heart attack buying embroidery thread? #panicking the entire time because i wasn't prepeared and hadn't scripted the entire transaction in my head? #yet still going in and putting on my ''normal person'' mask to try to seem like i wasn't just dying seconds ago (and still was)? #isn't that literally what masking is?! #and the ''autism specialist'' ass therapist was like ''if you did it then you don't have a problem'' #when i'm literally telling her how much of a problem it actually WAS?! #you know what's the best part about all this #that when i told my mom after i left that therapist that she didn't listen to me because [insert everything above] #my mom's response was ''well sometimes therapist will say things that you don't want to hear but you have to accept them''.... #same woman who's always saying how much she hates therapists because they ''will say whatever and pretend they know shit'' #ok so it's only The Truth when I tell you it isn't...

[devilsminionpdf]

the unfortunate thing about me is when i lie to people it's always carefully constructed to be the most normal believable shit ever but it is typically to hide some outlandish thing i did and as a result when i am honest about my actions people think that not only am i lying but that im also doing a terrible job at it

#'i had to go back to my college town early morning and then come back. y the evening the day after i set foot into my home town because #i got a last minute text from our professor that we have a class' <- believable normal thing #'i contructed an elaborate story and went through the trouble of heading back to my college town because i remembered after id already #set foot in my hometown that i left a glue gun plugged in inside my flat and it's a fire hazard so i have to go back and turn it off and no #my relatives who have a spare key cant do it because they'll immediately come across my ashtray and discover that i smoke' #<- not only is this man lying but is doing a terrible job #apples.txt

[hussyknee]

The OCD urge to convince everyone that you're not a good person really.

#it feels unreal to me that it's not obvious to people what a five alarm trashfire the inside of my head is #it's a fucking warzone in here. people are dying. blood everywhere. things on fire #this ends up presenting itself in seething passive aggression‚ virulent rants at the drop of a hat and randomly exploding at people #but most of it happens at home or with disparate people and places #so a casual observer who isn't targeted and doesn't disagree merely thinks Im being snippy #instead of acting like bear caught in a trap #people see your highlight reel not the behind the scenes footage #so when they still like you despite how toxic you know yourself to be #it feels like you're being disingenuous somehow #the baseline ocd existence is believing you're the reason for humanity's downfall and a plague on the earth #and desperately hoping that nobody finds out but also that people do find out so that you can stop being terrified of being discovered #actually ocd #ocd #scrupulosity #knee of huss #mental illness #mental health