#terrible people. absolutely horrible

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

more idiot scribbles <3

#i Heart them #terrible people. absolutely horrible #okay im exaggerating a lil but theyre all Absolute Bastards and Menaces To Society #and! complete dumbasses! #scribble salad #oc #forced idiots <3 #original character #& do i scribble aces more than the others? yes. do i play favorites? maybe #oh my god he looks So Fucking Big next to the others #i mean! he's a big guy! he's 6'4! #the second tallest person in the group caps out at like... 5'9! #and that's at her full height! at the point of time of these scribbles K.Z is not! at! full! height! #by yk what? it suits him. he probably wears platforms just to piss everyone off

[chainofclovers]

Being a human is literally like this weird combo of being okay and not okay that goes on forever except there is also death

#(i'm fine) #(personally) (mostly) (really) #this has just been an absolutely terrible year for our planet and its people and animals #and it's fucking insane that as an american living in relative safety and comfort and experiencing the pleasures and guilt of that... #...i can experience this horrible yet ENTIRELY SURVIVABLE blend of acute pain over so many things at once #including war and genocide and the utter hopelessness of that #and also things like being really really sad that matthew perry's life was so hard and he died #and also so many bad and weird things have happened to family members this year but we mostly have the resources to come together and deal #which is amazing and bolstering and exhausting #and my brain still has space to be excited about writing and numb to writing and angry/impotent about writing #desperate for feedback yet private and retreat-y and weird #always hoping to hit upon The Perfect Thing :-/ #and i live in a place that basically is not a democracy any more and also the u.s. is so cursed we've never been what we said we were #so a lot of my own perceived safety is incredibly fragile #but still so much more solid than what the people i am mourning for had #and none of the comparisons make a lick of sense and are in and of themselves deeply unfair #to the point that it's humiliating to feel guilt (making it about me) and simultaneously humiliating that i don't feel guilt *constantly* #and i have therapy this week but also this deep sense that while my therapist will be a fine person to talk to it will feel unuseful #i've always been a muddle of optimism and pessimism and i am very adamant that life is super beautiful and this is precisely why... #...all the violence in the world is so brutally devastating #it's just that the casserole of all these thoughts feels increasingly horrible #and feeling that way is 100% sane #and even intersectional frameworks and intentional attempts at gentleness only get you so far in the grapple #for meaning and for ideas of what to do #so i end up contacting my reps about various awful things #and zooming in and out on my fixations and having excellent days and terrible days #often dependent on what feels like a camera setting i only partially control #and i'm sure i'm not alone in feeling embarrassed that deep empathy and grief for people i've not met somehow ends up being... #...at least a sliver about ME and my little world #about me

[unopenablebox]

have you guys ever had cholent

#my dad and i were discussing the fact that weve never had it (though i think my savta did as a kid? i'll have to ask her) #and apparently every time my dad considers making it someone tells him it's horrible and not to bother #but i can't figure out why it would be horrible because it appears to just be like. short rib beef stew with some grain and beans added? #all the recipes i can find seem pretty normal and pleasant #so either lots of peoples' families were absolutely terrible at cooking (plausible) #or the addition of barley and navy beans can ruin a stew beyond repair. somehow. #food #box opener #write in let us know.

[some-pers0n]

Y'know, I'm really happy that Scarlet's husband is just as delightfully evil and horrible. I think they'd both love to spend their evenings cackling and sharing ideas of hypothetical matches that'll end the bloodiest and most brutal. They'd spend day and night in the arena, demanding battle after battle. After getting news of a successful seige they spend the night drinking and dancing and laughing to each other.

#I just think the trope of: “Terrible horrible and completely awful people having a healthy relationship” is both really funny and quite cute #wof #wings of fire #scarlet wof #I prefer this over them being abusive and toxic to each other ten-fold #Or Scarlet being the absolute worst to a relatively normal person #What if they were both evil but also great with each other? #sp-rambles

[800db-cloud]

I think you should be made aware that theres a minidrama on twitter claiming Shiver fans to be racist. Which...some might be. My mutual in law got DOGGED recently and i saw all of it (all they did was make a lil joke i think

so i’ve heard… :( the entire situation is terrible , honestly. i’m not big into splatoon but i am a brown person, and seeing the infighting between fans about the racism and colorism in the fanbase is. stressful, to put it VERY lightly

i’m very sorry to hear what happened to your mutual-in-law. the recent splatfest has a LOT of people agitated. thankfully nobody has been rude to me yet, but knowing the internet (and how things are going right now) who knows how long that’ll last

#era.txt #anon #this entire ‘situation’ is ridiculous in my opinion #i’m absolutely not discrediting the blatant racism and colorism of the fanbase because that absolutely exists #i’m talking about how RIDICULOUSLY rigged the splatfests are. especially the latest few #its horrible that one of the biggest reasons why frye isn’t winning is BECAUSE she’s brown. that’s it. its because people are terrible #its horrible to think that she has a disadvantage just because her skin is darker than shivers. i dont know how to articulate my feelings-> #<-properly but just know that i find this entire thing EXTREMELY tiring. i feel like im walking on eggshells here #IM VERY SORRY FOR THE LONG RANT! #i know i couldve said some things better here but i just woke up from a 6 hour nap oops #if you need anything tagged here feel free to lmk

[dredshirtroberts]

hey. hey universe. hey fucker universe.

no one said you could bring back the Wednesday Curse, bitch. fuck off with this shit i didn't need any of this first thing today.

#the Wednesday Curse is related to a span of about... almost 10 years of every single wednesday having something major go wrong #''major'' is a strong word but it would always feel big and afterwards would be when i would notice it was wednesday #it was a lot and i got very tired of it very quickly but it eventually stopped and i stopped noticing wednesdays #because they stopped being bad every single week #i would wake up on a wednesday bracing for whatever terrible news i would learn or whatever horrible thing would happen inevitably #and i stopped having to do that #my dreams lately have been absolutely horrific and last nights/this mornings was.... worse than usual in a way i wasn't anticipating that's #made me very very worried about a dear friend i can't easily reach out to and i'm doing my best at waiting patiently for a response #but it's hard and then the tire on the car exploded *again* so we're scrambling to figure out how to fix that and we've got a plan #and at least 3 butches on the job and it's going to be okay in the end but i have extreme car anxiety and tires going out is one of the mai #triggers for that and i'm just #i'm also still dealing with the tail end (hopefully) of an upper respiratory infection which makes all the crying i keep doing difficult #because i keep needing to hack my lungs out because breathing sucks rn even though i've had all my meds for it #and i'm just... it's just... anyway #i'm having a rough morning #but i am surrounded by people who are very lovely and care a lot and are willing and able to help with whatever they can #and that's helped a lot and it's just... i know i gotta wait patiently for resolution on things and i'm gonna do my best #to calm myself down and try to be less anxious but i'm only able to do that because of the love that surrounds me and it's a lot #it's all a lot and idk man #the spectre of my dad is doing his best to ruin it but he doesn't exist here in this space it's just a bad memory and no one is at fault

[llilychen]

no one understands overhated female characters the way i do 💔💔💔

#alicent my beloved #yeah she sucks #is she a good person? no 💔 #is she gonna get worse? absolutely #but i understand why she is the way she is #if i was pretty much forced by my dad to marry a gross old man at the age of 15 and have a bunch of babies really young #i would want to make other people miserable too #she hasn’t done anything too horrible yet and she’s getting a lot of hate #these people really like daemon who is way worse #i didn’t even care that much about her at first but seeing people’s reactions to her made me get defensive #anyways i love female characters who are not good people and i look forward to her doing terrible things #also this is got and everyone does shitty things #alicent is the scum of the earth yes but so is everyone else #i also think that people love pitting women against each other and since rhaenyra is the fan favorite in people’s minds #everything alicent does against her is 100x worse no matter how minute an action it is #and yeah i know the conflict is one sided at the moment #and alicent is messy and petty and self centered and everything will kinda be her fault at the end #but people have been hating on her since episode 1 and by the time she actually did questionable things i was already annoyed #at the people hating on her #and seeing people use that audio seeing that they stop being feminists when alicent comes on screen #shut up!! it’s not cute it’s not funny #i rooted for cersei every once in a while and i thought that daenerys burning down king’s landing could have been a slay #if it hadn’t been for bad writing #this is all over the place lol #alicent hightower #house of the dragon

[oflgtfol]

if they truly did implode then like they died absolutely instantly no pain no suffering, just conscious one moment, dead the next, zero agony involved. so sorry i have even less sympathy now like goo hoo the billionaires get a quick and painless death instead of suffering the consequences of their actions

#brot posts #like its an absolutely gruesome way to die dont get me wrong #but the gore part is more for the people who discover it later #for the people actually experiencing it. well they dont experience it. because its instantaneous #this is a much gorier way to die than suffocating as oxygen is depleted #but its by far the much more humane and least painful way #i was sympathetic in a ‘this is undeniably a horrible way to die’ about the suffocation possibility #i still thought it was funny in the hubris way but theres no denying its a terrifying and terrible way to go #but like. well now i cant even say that! #anyway my whole point to all this is eveyone hand wringing saying oh no billionaires in pain :( #like shut the fuck up because now we know they werent even in pain anyway!!! #all that infantilizing literal billionaires for naught

[dmclemblems]

I want to know where that Anon get their dimiclaude fics with Rhea positivity. Anon, please drop a link. Every single dimiclaude fics I have read so far always bash Rhea. Rhea is universally a villain in fics. I'm desperate for something that is not.

I hear ya, nonnie. Basically any Houses fic I've read either doesn't have her or she's not really portrayed well. I read like, one fic that had all the characters in it, generally speaking, and Rhea was handled kinda well? But also like, wasn't an important character and it was an AU (and is a fic that is probably not to everyone's taste, i.e. dead dove content unrelated to Rhea).

I've yet to actually find any fics period, ship or not, that have her included or where she's not getting at least a side eye. Personally I'm not a fan of Edelgard but I've had her in AUs and will continue to where she's not a, or the, villain. Seems like it's difficult for people to even find that much for Rhea.

Guess I'll have to do that shit myself.

#maybe it's bc I just don't read a whole lot of fics but even then #a good chunk of them do include other characters and she's just not there #tbh tho I'd rather her not be there than be written horribly wrong bc like #the amount of fics I've been through that portray Lorenz horrendously just bc ppl don't like him #is absolutely awful and it's completely clear to me that those people have zero grasp on his character whatsoever #I'd rather he just be left out of the fic entirely if ppl are gonna write him that poorly #and by poorly I don't mean misinterpreting what he means and all that #I mean intentionally writing him like a heartless snob and using terms to describe him that #make him sound like a horrible person with no redeeming qualities #like if you hate a character then at least keep them in character? bc the character you're hating #you should be hating because of who they are when they're in character #not having to write them completely wrong and off track to make them sound like a terrible character #I've read some great fics esp dmcl where the portrayal of Lorenz is just absolutely pisspoor and I'm like... w h y #there are WAY worse people in the universe than Lorenz yiiiikes #unfortunately it seems Rhea gets that same kind of treatment or she's just not there at all #DCE Ask

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

WAIT??? MY BOOPS??? THEY SHOW FROM MY MAIN. OH NO. HOW WILL EVERYONE KNOW THAT IT IS I, BOG, WHO IS BOOPING

#its bog-fruit oh my god. #I FORGET THAT EVERYTHING COMES FROM THE MAIN!!!! #AGONY!!! AGONY!!! #oh no.... so many people must be looking at their notifs like Who The Fuck Is This Idiot #ITS ME!!! IM THE IDIOT!!! #agony agony AGONY!!!! #this is terrible... oh its just Horrible... #night RUINED #< im jesting! this is a minor inconvenience #but also its. its devastating. how will they all know #ITS MEEEEEEEEEE bangbangbang LET ME INNNNNN ITS MEEEEEE bangbangbangbang #absolutely unprompted

[devertigozation]

I mean, but I can't stop thinking about Kuang's ending. How the hell do you think this is the better path for your fantasy China?

So the Westerners will kill all the gods - how is this good?

Like even in the script which she presented (which is the farthest thing from the truth), personally, I'd still choose Rin. Better a monster for a ruler, better a country burned than a country incapacitated, humiliated, drained.

#the first book she's shown - the Japanese were terrible horrible invaders who tortured this land #then the second one she slowly has shown - but even the japanese are not capable as being bad as those westerners can be #all just to turn it all around and say in the end - but the absolute worst monster was Mao all along. and we should absolutely turn #belly up for white people in the hopes they will drain and milk us but won't kill us all #the poppy war

[ihavebeesinmybrain]

trauma fucking sucks

#literally can’t handle cleaning out my old text messages to free up storage space in my phone #because i keep having to scroll past conversations with my ex and his friends and his family and our friends that are now just his friends #and thinking about him is so awful it is so fucking painful #there’s this specific terrible squeezing heat that fills my chest when i see his name and it hurts #and i had to stop cleaning out my texts #i tried to push through it but i started to freak the absolute fuck out #i still feel extremely panicked #and now i can’t fucking back up my phone #because i have too much shit #that im too chickenshit to get rid of #i know i could delete all of those conversations between us and the people we shared #but somehow that feels incredibly dangerous #like i’d be getting rid of all my potential proof #we haven’t spoken in over a year. it’s been a year and a half since the breakup. why would i ever need proof? i don’t know #but i feel like it would totally unmoor me if i were to get rid of all of the evidence i have that i was the best i could be for him #and all the evidence i have that he was fucking horrible to me #he was fucking abusive #and it feels very unsafe to pretend that never happened and to not have something to show as proof #if i ever need proof #idk why i would #but if i did #anyway #this is something to discuss in therapy

[hivepixels]

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#mumblings #ok my fave slkt no-sgrub au style #is sollux with an absolute hot potato of a premonition. smth so spicy he needs to spread it far and wide to ease his conscience #but nobody listens to him bcs he's bad with words and he can't explain his No Good Terrible Horrible Feeling with any semblance of logic #his friends think he's gone off the rails. mental health shot down the deep end. susceptible to internet fearmongering conspiracies. #theyre trying to navigate around his doomsday attitude and redirect the conversation somewhere constructive #he's too obsessed with this apocalypse prophecy thing!!!!!! we need to remind him of his hobbies!!!!!! #here's where it gets stupid (funny) #say he manages to convince karkat bcs they have some super special meaningful eye contact that means Shit is Dead Serious #sir karkat. most valuable recruit. sir karkat with a voice that generates cult followings. who loves and believes with his whole chest #who says things with such conviction it becomes impossible to look away without feeling like youre missing out on history #slowly but surely converts many and more to join and help. they cant stop the end but they sure can save what remains of their people #clapclapclap very dramatic. theyd be my favrite movie

[eff-plays]

Ok so I watched the interview with Stephen Rooney, Astarion's writer, and here are some highlights. (I'm an aspiring writer and current game design student who wants to write for games so I'm sorry if some of these insights aren't as interesting to you as they are to me <3)

He calls Astarion his "horrible little vampire boy"

He loves seeing the fandom around Astarion<3

He did write other characters in the game, but mostly NPCs surrounding Astarion or his storyline, so it mostly revolved around Astarion

Astarion is not as connected to other companions/Origins as, for example, Lae'zel and Shadowheart, or Wyll and Karlach are to each other, but he is still reactive to their stories, even if it's just to stand off to the side and laugh when something terrible happens

He had a clear sense of where Astarion's story would start and end, but it got "muddy in the middle", but those are also moments where the best ideas come from

They write from the general idea that every character has one "good" and one "evil" ending, in order to give the player choice. RIP Ascendant apologists :(

According to Stephen, two of the most important aspects of Astarion's character (to keep consistent when bringing him to Idle Champions, at least) is that he enjoys violence, but is also fun about it

"He has a certain appreciation for violence, I guess? A bit of a murdery streak. [...] He's a vampire, he's all about blood, and he's all about, kind of, those darker sides of humanity. [..] But at the same time, he is ... He is really fun, he's really fun to write, he's really fun to have in your party, and it's very important for me that that is also represented."

"He's gonna stab you, but will have a smile on his face as he does it? I mean, I dunno. That's kind of him in a nutshell."

Larian would not have allowed for Astarion to be a typical brooding Dracula type, and there were scenes that were shot down for not being original enough

The main thing about Astarion was trying to get a "sense of fun." It would be easy to write a character that was very unlikable, and they absolutely did not want to do that

Rooney says Astarion is consistently terrible throughout the game and awful in a whole lot of ways, but he also needed to be charming enough that you could tolerate his presence and wanted him around

Rooney also had a lot of input on Astarion's stats (meaning the 10 Charisma is probalby 100% intentional)

He also had input on how certain lines should be delivered, even though the writers didn't directly work with voice actors

The way Astarion moves and poses is "all Neil"

Apparently, Neil Newbon worked on the character for years and Rooney did not speak to him once, though his voice work did influence how Astarion's lines were written and it became a "feedback loop" (Possible context for "ONLY SLIGHTLY, NEIL")

There were no points where a line delivery drastically changed Astarion's writing; rather it was a constant, slow evolution

However, there was one very spoilery moment where Neil gave such emotion to some "basic" lines that it fundamentally changed the scene (WHAT IS IT OMG)

It's difficult to balance approval, as you don't want to straight up write a monster. Every character needs to have some humanity in them. So if it comes to leaving the party, it needed to be the result of something central to said character. They wanted to be mindful of situations that would cause actual rifts between characters. (I assume this is why most generic disapprovals/approvals are +/- 1 or 2, while character-related ones give +/-5 or more)

However, as they don't write straight up horrible people/monsters, it doesn't come up as often as one might think.

The interviewer makes a point about how characters like Astarion and Lae'zel are good examples of how to play "evil" characters, as they are maybe not the best people but are still eager and willing to stick around the other party members

They worked to make sure the characters would work as a group, no matter the configuration of the group. The characters needed to be on the same path, even if they don't always agree or walk that path the same way.

Stephen Rooney is very proud of the "climactic" scene of Astarion's story. (AS HE SHOULD BE.) He even had to step away from the computer and have an emotional moment. Me too, man.

He's also "extremely pleased" that there's a point where you can punch Astarion in the face. "Actually, that one might be my favorite part" A MAN OF THE PEOPLE!!

Stephen Rooney's tip on what specific thing you should try out with Astarion: When he's trying to get a "sneaky nibble" at night, you should "probably" let him bite you. Way ahead of you there, sir.

No discussion about Astarion's romance unfortunately, but that's that!

#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #astarion #anyway ... after dragon age it feels so mindblowing to have writers who aren't apologists for their characters

[tenitchyfingers]

Ok man I’m actually just waiting for Dean to go buttfucking insane because I know it’s just a matter of time (especially when his wife will choose the drug lord/murderer/actual criminal over just... a cheater) and that’s when the Lillard shines, man

#he’s done nothing but shining anyway but still #I just want him to go wild #I want him to go Stu again come on bro #btw I see people hating on Dean and not on Rio and like... #ummm did anyone miss out on the parts where Rio is literally a murderer and drug lord and never gave a shit about Beth like at all #like I haven’t delved into this fandom but people in this seriously seem to have forgotten about all the times Rio fckd over the women here #but they absolutely hate this guy for... what- cheating? as if all the characters here aren’t massive cheaters and liars #like listen I don’t care about the morality of it #every single main character here is a terrible person w/e #but singling out only one of them is just. hypocritical #same reaction I have when people blame Christian solely in Midsommar #like people srsly act like he was the worst character #when like no absolutely not #wanna know who the worst character is in Midsommar? FUCKIN PELLE #and nobody ever points it out #eh whatever #anyway Beth is a terrible person too #I love her but lbr she’s horrible #matter of fact I love all these characters #but let’s not put any of them on a moral pedestal #cuz they got none to stand on #only Leslie’s grandma is innocent come on #Dean is just a middle aged fuckboy nothing worse than that #and again... Rio is literally a murderer #how come there is no ‘criticism’ of him #I know why and it only shows people are shallow #(and Lillard is extra-fuckable too anyway but people aren’t ready to hear it)

[outlying-hyppocrate]

valentine's day? what's that? today? oh, no, silly! it's the third anniversary of my parents' divorce! let's give them a huge round of applause, why don't we.....

#random thoughts #i'm. i'm sorry. this was funnier in my head. oh well #throwing confetti and doing makeup. it's a sort of anti-valentine thing. look #i'm so glad that people are able to have a happy valentine's day but. i like making things about me and #well. my parents ruined the love part of the day for me. hm. how horribly rude #what an absolute shame. a terrible thing really. truly disappointing. i mean. they never got along but. really? of all days #february 14th? a day for happiness? why would you turn it into sadness for your children? i know it's not your fault but #specifically that day... ):