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bereft-of-frogs · 2 years

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Ok. As we head into the final seasons of the year, here’s where I predict the Booktok/Booktube/Book twitter drama phases going. The hot takes weather forecast, if you will:

Right now things are still pretty entrenched in a conversation about privilege and industry plants in publishing, but up next is for sure going to be a return of the Classics vs YA fight. It’s the start of the school year in a lot of places, so the kids going back to college are going to want to romanticize the start of the semester, so we’ll get a surge of #DarkAcademia/#LightAcademia/Etc content followed by a wave of ‘why that’s bad actually’, part of which will for sure involve a fight over Classic Literature because a lot of those #aesthetics involve Classic or Classic-inspired literature, and a good part of Tiktok is always ready to fight over whether Classics are ‘worth it’ and there’s a solid contingency that can’t keep their eyes on their own paper and take other people’s reading preferences as indictments of their own. One person will make a flippant, rude comment about YA, the YA people will strike back and condemn all Classics, and so on. I’m kind of hoping for a new book to cycle into this argument as a weird symbolic touchstone, because I rather enjoyed Crime and Punishment, and want to get another recommendation from the discourse cycles. We will also get a bunch of people feeding into this fight because they got their English class syllabus and it doesn’t have The Hunger Games on it, which is clearly the best book ever written, better than all those stuffy ‘Classics’ so that should propel us through a whole month.

That’s going to segue pretty neatly into the moral purity argument by October. Because at the start, part of the condemnation of #DarkAcademia will involve #Cancelling the long dead authors featured in the #DarkAcademiaAesthetics TikToks either for sins committed in their personal lives or, increasingly as October rolls in, for the content and themes of their books. Because for sure, posing with a pretty edition of Crime and Punishment on stone steps underneath falling leaves means you endorse murder. And October is spooky season, so we’ll also see an uptick in horror recommendations, which will then result in a backlash when people discover that horror books, shockingly, have horrifying things in them. Expect lots of character assassination of horror readers and authors, suggesting that people who read violent content are ‘normalizing’ it or suspicious because reading about it means you want it to happen, and probably accusations that horror literature is ‘exploiting’ ‘real suffering’ even if it’s fictional because things that happen in fiction probably happened to someone somewhere in the world and what if they or one of their family members found it and read it? Expect an argument about trigger warnings that just goes in a circle. (Honestly, I’m not sure what the argument here even is anymore, since StoryGraph has pretty good content warnings, and a lot of modern publications also include them, but people will have the same fight about it because there’s for sure still room for improvement in practice, so they’ll largely be agreeing in principle but doing the thing where they say essentially the same thing with minor variations and get disproportionately angry in comments sections over it.)

And then once Halloween is over we’ll get a slow creeping in of the quantity vs quality argument, as people start panicking about their final counts and try to squeeze in more novellas or short children’s books to inflate it. The Audiobook argument may make an appearance, because someone will suggest that listening to Audiobooks on 3x speed and then not revealing that you’ve done that when people ask how you’ve read 30 books this last month is kind of disingenuous, and people will interpret that as people saying that Audiobooks aren’t ‘real reading’. But the main argument will be if you should track how many books you read in the first place, if setting goals is turning reading into a competition. I expect this to continue through the new year as people start to set their next year goals, by which time we’ll probably cycle back to the start and start fighting about genre vs literary fiction, if last year is any indication.

And to be clear: there will be plenty of variations and micro-drama, and also all of these fights are happening at all times. This is just my weather forecast of what I think will dominate BookTok Drama for the rest of the year. And yes. I said I deleted Tiktok. And I did. But let’s be real, this is really entertaining, and also I actually like all the #DarkAcademiaAesthetics videos. (And other #Aesthetic videos. They’re just…neat and it pleases my brain to watch them. I am willing to wade through the drama for a video of a walk through the forest with a Lord Huron remix over it.) Also, what else are those two expensive pieces of paper on my wall for if not giving me permission to romanticize academia just a little bit, don’t come at me, if you’ve survived the actual nonsense of graduate school you’re allowed to play around with #DarkAcademia, that’s my own hot take.

Thank you for tuning in to the BookTok Drama Climate Report, it took way longer to type this up than I thought it would, I had so many other things I could have been doing with this time, will check back in December to see how accurate my forecast was. 👍

#tales from tiktok #this weather report built on being chronically online for the last 15 years #and watching the same arguments come back like the seasons #anyway #this is my favorite time of year and I’m hoping to have exciting things on the horizon for me personally #and also to be deeply entertained by whatever bullshit tiktok throws at us XD #or twitter #each argument has a 50/50 shot of originating on tiktok or twitter at this point

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franklyautistic · 11 months

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WrongPlanet.net, the largest autism forum, is in the midst of a hostile takeover

tl;dr: WrongPlanet’s owner got hacked and there are now no mods. Please signal boost this so that autistic people know the site is likely to be unsafe from now on.

I heard that Alex Plank, the absentee admin of WrongPlanet, had returned with a big announcement.

Here it is:

Hey there, fellow Wrong Planeters! I know it's been an eternity since I last graced this forum with my presence. I apologize for my absence, but I come bearing an astonishing tale of woe and wonder. Brace yourselves, for I suffer from the most peculiar affliction known to mankind: "Chronic Update Blockage Disorder (and forgetting to change my password)." Yes, you read that right. For a decade now, I have been plagued by a condition that has kept me from updating Wrong Planet, ensuring that it remains untouched, like a relic preserved for future generations to marvel at. Imagine the monumental impact this has had on the state of the internet. Don't worry; I'll give you a moment to gather your thoughts. Now, you may be wondering how such an unusual ailment came to be. Well, let me enlighten you. It all began when I was innocently tinkering with some HTML code, trying to add a dancing unicorn GIF to my signature. Little did I know that this innocent act of digital mischief would lead to my tragic downfall. In a bizarre twist of fate, my fingers slipped on the keyboard, causing a cataclysmic error in the space-time continuum. A rift opened up, and Wrong Planet was sucked into a parallel dimension—an alternate reality where updating websites is a crime punishable by being forced to listen to dial-up modem noises on repeat for eternity. It's a dimension where webmasters are trapped in a perpetual loop of server errors and broken links. Oh, the horror! Ever since that fateful day, I have been caught in a cosmic limbo, unable to break free from the clutches of my disorder. Every time I attempt to update the site, my hands freeze, my eyes glaze over, and my mind is overrun with visions of cascading style sheets and merciless pop-up ads. It's like a digital possession straight out of a techno-horror movie. But fear not! I refuse to let this affliction define me. In my isolation, I have become a webmaster hermit, a guru of outdated HTML and obsolete plugins. I have attained a level of enlightenment that transcends the mere mortal realm of web development. My website, frozen in time, stands as a testament to my indomitable spirit and steadfast refusal to give in to the relentless march of progress. So, as I sit here in my digital dungeon, surrounded by stacks of floppy disks and a shrine dedicated to the ancient Netscape Navigator, I implore you all to cherish your ability to update your websites. Take a moment to appreciate the mundane task of uploading a new blog post or tweaking your site's layout, for it is a privilege denied to the unfortunate few, like me. In conclusion, I hope my tale of woe has brought a smile to your face, despite the tragic consequences it has had on my own online presence. Remember, life is unpredictable, and so are the pitfalls of the digital world. Cherish your ability to hit that "Publish" button, for you never know when it might be taken away from you, leaving you stranded in the abyss of chronic update blockage and forgetting to change my password that's been used for over 10 years. Yours humorously, The Eternally Unresponsive Webmaster Alex i come in peace

Now this is a weird post, right?

Some early commenters mentioned that this was weird - one accused “Alex” of being high - but most of them seemed to think it was just Alex being a bit goofy.

Then on page two, we have a post from The_Walrus, a long-serving moderator. Well, former moderator:

There is a >95% probability that it isn't the real Alex, and instead his account has been compromised. Firstly, Alex doesn't write like that. It just isn't his style. It's far too poetic. Alex is usually very direct and blunt. It's also self-deprecating in a way I do not associate with Alex. Additionally:

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Take a moment to appreciate the mundane task of uploading a new blog post or tweaking your site's layout, for it is a privilege denied to the unfortunate few, like me.

In conclusion, I hope my tale of woe has brought a smile to your face, despite the tragic consequences it has had on my own online presence. Remember, life is unpredictable, and so are the pitfalls of the digital world. Cherish your ability to hit that "Publish" button, for you never know when it might be taken away from you, leaving you stranded in the abyss of chronic update blockage and forgetting to change my password that's been used for over 10 years.

This is pretty much spelling it out - this individual has gained access to Alex's account. Alex's email address has been involved in 30 data breaches, according to https://haveibeenpwned.com/. Having failed to update his site for a long time, the "hacker" (using that word loosely) feels that Alex has forfeited the right to it.

Additionally, all moderators and admins (apart from Alex himself) have been stripped of their permissions.

This is obviously a regular WrongPlanet user, and I can make an educated guess as to who, but almost certainly isn't the real Alex.

To this, “Alex” responded “educate my balls, Cartman”.

It seems WrongPlanet is probably permanently compromised. It has always been a site that has serious issues with spammers, scammers, and passing trolls, but those issues are only likely to get worse now.

If you are on WrongPlanet mailing lists, be very suspicious of any emails you receive. They are likely to be scams or otherwise misleading.

Please signal boost this post as much as possible... @autie-j @asdcats @chavisory I’d be grateful if you could help get the word out however you feel appropriate.

#autism #actuallyautistic #actually autistic #autistic #wrongplanet

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thealogie · 9 months

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Hi why are you hating on Neil? Serious question. I must have missed something.

Multiple things, but to be clear I don’t hate him like I hate some creators who I’m like “wow I can’t consume their work they are so evil” I just don’t like him and don’t think he should be worshipped the way he is on this website.

First and foremost he was rude to fans when this show came out. People would make innocuous posts being like “this show should have been gay” and he’d just reblog their posts and set his little mob of sycophants on them.

Second this show was always getting its popularity from queer fans and he always wanted credit for being a woke writer while making annoying posts reminding everyone how the relationship wasn’t canon. This is just a small sampling. It costs zero dollars to not saying anything

And finally he just cares too chronically online and addicted to correcting the stupidest tales he finds in his inbox. This is fun when you’re just an average tumblrina but guys if I’m ever rich and famous please remind me to knock I’m out and log off

#oh and I forgot when he made only the evil/marginal characters in s1 trans but I gotta hand it to him that he fixed that this time

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mokeonn · 6 months

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Idk I think a tell tale sign that someone is chronically online is if they try to relate everything to morality. Like if you find yourself hunting down bad things about something or someone so you can claim it's morally good to dislike them, or if you're constantly feeling a need to defend things or people you enjoy by hunting down good things about them so you can claim it's morally good to support them, then I think it's time you get offline and go read outside on a porch for a while.

#simon says #recently I have been getting more offline and it has become so clear that some of yall got brainworms or something #you dislike things because you equate them to morality and believe enjoying things you deem morally wrong is bad #i dislike things because im a little hater #we are not the same

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fire-emblem-drabbles · 20 days

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These Violent Desires

Pairing: Yandere! Risotto x reader

Description: You never really had much of a love life. Not for lack of trying on your part, thank you, it just never really happened. Of course, like most people you wanted it: a romance so sweet and comforting it swept you off your feet and left you on cloud nine. But between working full time, being chronically online, and not to mention a depressed mess, you didn't see that happening any time soon. Perhaps its good timing, then, that your ASMR channel starts to take off. Just the distraction you needed from your day to day monotony!

Content Warning: Depression, more depression, minor intrusive thoughts, parasocial behavior, use of female titles (queen, girl) and female reader (will come up more in other parts), I wasn't kidding when I said she chronically online, ask to tag, other parts will different/darker warnings

Rating (fic as a whole): NSFW Rating (Part): SFW

Word Count: 3640

Ao3 Link:

Notes: I am SO excited to bring this to you! You guys remember the original these violent desires? I sure do! As much as I love that fic, that little series I realize... I really went in to it with not a clue of what my end goal was. Not a great way to write a story. With it being two years since then, and me reading a FANTASTIC FIC [waiting for approval to tag] that inspired me to reconsider my whole characters and motivations I bring you... this mess (affectionate). I'm actually really excited to bring this back and im gonna start writing the next part as soon as I finish this draft. Also, note: I suspect tumblr isn't gonna respect all the formatting and fun stuff I did so feel free to check it out on Ao3!

Part: One | Two

Sometimes, you really hated your job.

Hated seeing all the cute, happy couples out on a date night. Hated seeing all the happy families and precious little babies. Hated seeing people be so effortlessly happy and carefree. Hated that you had to pretend to be just as enchanted. It made you bleed with jealously, and want to scream and hide in shame.

Although you did feel bad about your burning envy, you hated that it was somewhat malicious; it was just you wanted that same kind of love, someone you were best friends and lovers with-- who you had been together with for years and knew you as much as you knew yourself. Someone you could be yourself with, through thick and thin…

Thinking about it just made you bitter. These things don’t just pop out of nowhere. Relationships had to be worked for; love didn’t just appear. It had to be made, to be cared for and nurtured. So even if you wanted (cried screamed begged) that fairy tale romance to come of sweep you off your feet, it wouldn’t happen. Not unless you find yourself a prince charming awfully soon… And at your current rate well, it wasn’t likely too happen.

You were notoriously bad at dating and getting close to people. Of course, you tried dating apps and meeting new people through your friends but nothing really seemed to click… It didn’t help that you were incredibly dense, as well; with little insight on how dating even worked in the real world you were left just as clueless (and alone) as you came in.

You had a sinking feeling you knew what it was, too; beyond being dense or clueless. You had been struggling against your depression for the better part of your adult life. You got by with plastic smiles and laughs that didn’t really meet your eyes, living life just on the outside looking in. Maybe, people could tell. You always had felt a little different, anyways. Maybe one day you would get better. Maybe one day, you could find something to be happy for. Someone to be happy with.

Today, however, you have a job to do. Rent to make. Jealousy to stew in while you smile and nod and play the perfect little hostess at work. And then you would come home, numb and tired, and not be able to fall asleep. Just to do it again tomorrow.

Work is the same as usual. You’re the only support staff-- no back server to be seen. The servers are too busy with their tables to help you. Seat the table. Water the guests. Grab them bread. It’s all monotonous, said with a sweet smile and voice high and kind. Wait for the guest to leave. Bus the table. Set it back up. And wait for the next guest. Repeat, repeat, repeat.

Its one of those moments in-between, where your gaze is lost far off in the hotel and your thoughts are getting darker by the moment. You wonder if anyone would notice if you just left right now. Walked out into the night, took the wrong bus home, and see what happens where ever you end up.

The shrill sound of the phone ringing catches you out of your stupor. You glance at the phone in surprise, looking down at the screen. Private. Not entirely unusual in your line of work, but just interesting enough. With a gentle hand, you grab the receiver and speak.

“Thank you for calling the Mountaintop Bar and Grill, this is _____ speaking. How may I help you?” Talking on the phone was always easy-- no one could see your not as happy as you sound. Strangely, the line is silent a moment, so you repeat. “Hello, is anyone there?” You wait a few moments again, only hearing faint breathing on the other line if anything. “I’m so sorry, but I can’t hear you. Goodbye.” You hang up the receiver, frowning at the phone before looking at the time.

It was so slow tonight, your surprised to find its nearly time to close. You put up the close sign, take back the last tray and make sure the tables are wiped and reset for the next day. You make careful small talk with your coworkers, make sure that they never think to question what lies beneath the surface of you, and check out with your manager.

You walk slow to your bus, taking the time to put on your earbuds to drown out the world around you. You board the bus, scan your card, and take the same seat you do every time you ride. The same as you always do. The same playlist you always listen to plays, but you don’t really hear it as you open your phone and prepare for the bus ride home.

There was one thing that made you smile, though. Explaining it made you feel kind of silly (mostly strange), but you had a youtube channel. It was kind of small, less than 1000 subscribers really, but the community you built really made you happy. The type of content you created was kind of… niche, to put it nicely. You made asmr videos. Stuff like “Your shy girl friend asks you to spend the night during a big storm (she’s so scared! 🥺🥺)” or “Your roommate asks for your help with her homework (but maybe she wants something more 👀)” or even things a little more raunchy like “You accidentally summon an inexperienced succubus!!! (You Are A Dark Mage Looking For A Familiar)”.

Making them was kind of fun, but what you really enjoyed was your fans. Even if you had never shown your face, (some) of the people in your comments were downright simps. You really only lived for the attention at this point. You even got kind of parasocial with it, talking with some fans in your members only discord.

You scroll through the comments, reading them all and responding to a few while you had the time. Most were sweet, telling you how much they liked your voice and content, others talking about how much you made them blush and giggle. You can’t help but notice you have a new commenter, too. From the looks of things they’ve been following you a while, but have only just now left a comment.

@metal_metalica5

Next time, let me take care of you

It almost feels out of place, with the fully black icon next to it. It’s not like you haven’t had people leaving frankly strange and concerning messages in your comments, but this one rides the line. You wonder who could be behind the comment for a moment. Maybe someone just as depressed and lonely as you, seeking comfort they find in your stories and voice. Someone who just wanted to return the favor. You don’t want to consider anything else, really-- you’d like to think the best of this new commenter.

In the end, you like the comment, smiling to yourself. You check your members discord, seeing the server is a little more abuzz than usual. It was relatively small, with only around 60 people, many of which were lurking themselves. You’re not surprised to find its the same name as the comment left on your most recent video. Your mods and a few members have already greeted them, but you make sure to as well.

work work work today at 9:17 pm

Hi @metal_metalica5!! Thanks for joining the server, and commenting on the latest video! It’s nice to have your support <3

You don’t wait for a reply, checking out your ats and whats happening in all the other channels. Interacting with everyone brings a smile to your face, and you find yourself grinning as you thank the bus driver and get off at your stop. Cool darkness greets you as you walk down the street to your apartment. Things seem okay-- its your weekend, and you think you could finish recording the last bit of your next video.

Safely indoors, you set your coat and purse down, and make haste to change out of your uniform into something more comfortable. Once you have on some comfortable clothing, you take a seat at your desk and open your laptop. Discord pops open there as well, but you minimize the window for now, opening your recording app. You had been teasing your followers about a 1000 subscriber special for a while, but the idea still made you nervous.

Your plan was to do a live stream/face reveal. It would mostly be talking and playing games, but people could donate to you and you would read out their message. You were still working out the logistics, but you suspected that you would breach 1000 soon so you had better hurry.

“You haven’t ate any food today.” You jump a little at the voice beside you.

“Glory.” You scold, looking over to your stand, Glory and Gore. “I’m not hungry, and I’m busy. I’ll eat before I go to bed.” You turn back to the screen, reading over your transcript for any typos and bad wording.

“It’s not a good idea to neglect the needs of your body.” You can see a frown reach her perfect, pretty lips. You always thought it was unfair your stand was prettier than you. You also thought it ironic that the literal ghost of you was better at taking care of you than the real, physical you (that often felt like a ghost). “You’re already suffering from a few vitamin deficiencies, which aren’t helping with your depression and anxiety at all.”

“Why are you worse than a doctor.” Truthfully, she was right. You should take better care of yourself. You knew that if she could, Glory would fix these things for you. She was a healing stand, able to fix any injury or disease from a person. But vitamin D deficiencies, your stupid little brain chemicals being imbalanced and giving you the Big Sad? Nope. Out of her hands, unfortunately. Ironic that you would have a healing stand and suffer from one of the things she couldn’t fix.

“I just want to see you better.” You look to her, even if she doesn’t have eyes to really see you also, she frowns. Funny, how she was also much more logical and level headed than you.

“Fine, fine. I’ll find some food.” Her hand stops you as you reach for your phone, a stern look taking over her. “Finnnnne, no doordash.” You sigh and place your phone in your pocket, and stand to go to your kitchen. Seeing you head that way, Glory de-manifests, content in knowing you would try to find something to eat.

“...Need to go grocery shopping.” You sigh as you look through the fridge. You really didn’t mind her looking after you. You were aware just how stands were manifest of a users soul and desire-- you wanted someone to take care of you, since you seemed to be failing to do it all by yourself. But at this particular moment, you didn’t have that: what you did have was cheese, and butter. And… turning around, yes, you still have some bread, not yet moldy. Grilled cheese dinner, queen.

You’re even lucky enough to find a singular can of tomato soup in your barren cupboards. Hell yeah, that’s a whole meal. And one you can make in less than 10 minutes. Look at you, being all self sufficient. Queen of mental health over here, cooking her own meals.

As you butter bread and let the pan warm on the oven (soup uncondensed but not quite in the microwave yet), you read more discord chats, surprised to find you have multiple ats all in the gen chat (and a few in the mod chat as well). Everyone is abuzz, with “several people typing” showing up on the bottom of the screen. Gen is moving too fast so you move to the mod chat to see whats happened.

The Best Mod (Jax) today at 10:22 pm

holy shit work work work get in here

Ya Boiiii (Niko) today at 10:22

work work work ‼️‼️‼️‼️

work work work today at 10:23

why is everyone going crazy lol whats up

Ya Boiiii (Niko) today at 10:24

smh she don’t even know

The Best Mod (Jax) today at 10:24

you’re over 1000 subs 😤

was like 1010 last I checked

Ya Boiiii (Niko) today at 10: 25

just keeps going up ‼️

work work work today at 10:26

wha

am grilling chesee hold up

You put your phone down, placing the bowl of soup in the microwave and setting the timer with beating heart. Over 1000 subs already? You take a deep breath and place the bread, butter down in the hot pan, placing a generous handful of cheese on top and then the next piece of bread. You pick up your phone barely hearing the sizzling of the bread, instead closing discord to open youtube.

Sure enough, your creator widget shows it: 1013 subscribers, at least a hundred or more than when you last took a look at it. The number was indeed still going up, as when you refresh the page it now reads 1015.

“Where are all these people coming from?” Is all you can wonder. You send a quick “holy shit” to your mods, but quickly return to your food when the beeping microwave calls for your attention.

You pull your soup out quickly, and realize your grilled cheese is starting to burn on the first side and flip it over, relived to see you got to it before it got too bad. Little burnt never hurt anyone anyways. Even as you feel renewed energy and excitement moving through you, you make sure your food is all ready, make sure to turn off the stove top, and fast walk back to your desk with your dinner, eyes quickly going to discord again.

You make sure to send a message in the gen chat, telling everyone thank you and that you’ve seen the good news. Reading back on messages, it seems another popular asmr youtuber (a guy, one you actually follow yourself) had brought you up. He was apparently live streaming (right now), and one of his followers had sent a donation, asking about his thoughts on you. And apparently, he loved your content-- was excited to see what you would do once you hit 1000 followers and not so subtly encouraged his (thousands) of followers to check you out.

work work work today at 10:31 pm

holy fucking shit!?!?! fuckging,,, golden experience likes my content ⁉️⁉️

I can die happy now

im disceased

Ya Boiiii (Niko) today at 10:31 pm

nooo don’t die

work work work today at 10:32

joining his stream rn

gonna try to lurk but also I wanna thank him 🥺

The Best Mod (Jax) today at 10:32

im already in lol

I’ll tell everyone you’re here :)

work work work today at 10:33

wait nOOO

You tab out over to youtube to where the stream has finally loaded, to see Mr. Golden Experience ASMR himself smiling.

“Oh, look, it seems our new favorite has joined us. Hello, Gore Gone Wild.” He smiles, sweet and serene at the camera and you feel your heart pound a little.

@Gore_Gone_Wild

omg hiii!! My mod told me you gave me a little shout out, thank you so much :D

You try so hard to be normal. All the sudden, you’re the fan interacting with your fav. Your dinner goes ignored, soup and grilled cheese cooling as you focus your efforts on Golden Experience's stream.

“It was a donation from your mod that brought the topic up.” He laughs soft and sweet. When you look to the top donations of the stream, you can see Niko’s youtube (@onionthepaladin) at on the top of the banner, having donated $100.

@Gore_Gone_Wild

omggg that’s… literally so sweet of him. And you!! I’m also a big fan of yours <3

That’s it, you have to kill Niko. You have to travel across the united states, kill your mod, and make sure he never pulls this shit again. You suddenly feel so embarrassed, so light and free.

“Don’t be too rough with him.” Another sweet smile reaches him. God, he’s literally so pretty and perfect. Like, the opposite of you really. How could someone so put together like anything about you…? Oh yeah, you were hiding behind a screen. That’s why. Super easy to keep up the charade… “Truth be told, I’ve been your fan for a while. I was also excited to see what you would do for 1000 followers.” You smile wide as his chat echos his excitement.

@Gore_Gone_Wild

welll… since its you… I guess I can let you in on my secret :) but only you! Not even my followers know yet so… I’ll dm you :3c

You feel so giddy when you see his eyes widen, see his smile widen a hair.

“Well, I look forward to seeing it.” He chuckles again, and returns to the conversation from before your arrival. His stream is nice noise to eat your now cold dinner to, as your heart hammers a bit when hitting up his dms on twitter. You send him a cute little message, telling him your plans: how you wanted to do your first live stream, reveal your place, and just chill with your followers, playing some games and taking read requests for him. But if he had suggestions, or tips for live streams, you would love to hear them.

You hear a buzz on stream, and watch as Golden Experience picks up his phone. “Looks like miss Gore just dmed me.” He smiles as his eyes scan your text. “I don’t want to seem desperate chat, should I wait to respond?” You watch as chat moves a little faster, some people spamming “simp”, others saying “she’s still here lol”. A few people leave actual advice, to which he reads a few aloud.

“Hmm, you’re right, shouldn’t leave a lady waiting.” He winks at his face cam and you nearly die. You’re gonna have to watch something else, now. Quickly leaving his stream, you take a moment to simply breath at your sub feed, heart pounding fast. You hadn’t been this excited in forever… Guess now it was time to tell your followers for real what what happening.

It’s actually your weekend, you have the next three days off… So with that in mind you go about telling everyone your plans. Your mods (Jax, Nico, and Sammy, whose probably already sleeping), already know, but after Golden Experience, you tell your discord your plans to host the live stream in the next two days.

Then, take a teasing little picture of your setup, with just a little plushie sitting next to your screen. “Excited to see you all this friday :3 Here’s to 1000!” is all the post itself says, but you make a live stream reminder on your page just so everyone knows what happening. You’re so excited you refresh all the pages, seeing at the night owls commenting on your posts with excitement. Now, you aren’t surprised to see a familiar name among them.

First comment on your youtube belongs to you newest member, @metal_metalica5, with another kind of ominous, but not quite out of line comment that simply reads “I know you’re perfect already, bella.” Second comment belongs to Golden Experience himself, commenting from his own account that says “Look forward to seeing you! I’m happy to see you’ve grown so much”.

You tear yourself away from your phone screen, and have to close your computer not to end up just replying to comments on that. You steel yourself to take your dishes to the sink, and actually wash them, too excited by the nights events to even realize that you were. You’re even too excited to review your writing, or record it for that matter, so in the end you end up pacing around in your nerves.

Pacing only wears you down so much, so you decide to lay down with your phone pulled close to your face. Curiosity gets the better of you as you look to the comments again. You click on the profile of @metal_metalica5, curious to see if he has anything on there. He hasn’t posted anything to youtube, nor has he created any playlists for that matter. With the pure black icon, it seems like he doesn’t want anyone to really notice or see him.

You recall he joined your discord as well, and open that up (to tell everyone goodnight, you convince yourself), only to find yourself scrolling through your members to find him offline, with the same blank icon and user name. He has no server profile, no custom status, no banner nor nitro. But… interestingly, it says he joined discord today: member since April 3 rd , 2024, joined April 3 rd , 2024. He must have created discord just to join your server. Perhaps even, he created a youtube account just to comment on your stuff. The idea has you smiling. That someone liked what you created so much, they had to subscribe. Wanted to be closer to you. Were interested in getting to know you beyond what you posted…

Soon, you grow too tired to keep your phone up. Your eyes slowly close, phone cuddled to your chest. Tonight, you sleep tight, content and happy with your online life. When you woke up, it would be the same, gray world as the one you woke to today, but it would be different, better-- because there was something to look forward to. Something, if even for just a little while, to stave off the monotony and sadness and jealousy. For a little while, you could be Gore_Gone_Wild, and everyone will adore you.

Oh, and you'll have to read that DM Golden Experience sent you too! You got so excited you nearly forgot you messaged him.

#yandere #risotto x reader #yandere risotto #yandere risotto x reader #risotto nero #jjba #jjba part 5 #im so so so excited!!!#had to edit this like 5 times bc of accidentally tagging random blogs #so if you see random links in this thats why #they should redirect to something cute now :)

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violetthekiller · 10 months

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What exactly is the issue with using the precedent set with Milligan’s case to tell a fictional empathetic tale or someone with DID? In your opinion because I’m failing to see the problem besides a chronically online bitchfest.

I personally don’t have any issues with it, but it could potentially be argued that using the story of someone who cause mass harm and violence towards many people (mainly women) and then changing the crimes to be less harmful and ‘revenge’ centred so the audience sympathises with the criminal. This would be a bigger issue if the initial concept of TCR where it was an adaptation of the book and a retelling of Billy’s story had ended up being the final product, and used this idea.

The part of the Billy Milligan story that has ‘inspired’ TCR is the idea of pleading ‘insanity’ and being acquitted of a crime due to having DID or ‘Multiple Personalities’. The rest is completely fictional.

As I said, I have no problem with using The Minds Of Billy Milligan as initial inspiration for the story concept, but some people don’t understand the difference between something being ‘inspired by’ and ‘based on’. TCR is very loosely ‘inspired by’ Billy Milligans story as a basis to create an empathetic story of how someone’s mental health may impact their behaviour and even cause them to be unaware or their actions.

#and i’m going to bed lol #ask

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the-epitome-of-sunsets · 29 days

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you called?

testing, testing. jakob's my idiot of a brother, and i love sunsets.

DNI IF: pro-israel, zionist, homophobic, islamophobic, antisemetic, proshipper, religiophobic, xenophobic, transphobic, ableists, anti-blm, porn bot, pro-facist, MAPs, NSFW, racist, sexist, creep, or if you want me to judo flip you :)

fandoms: tales of arcadia, riordanverse, harry potter, marauders, avatar the last airbender, ghosts (bbc), ghosts (us), merlin bbc, boarders, four o'clock club, get even (bbc), creeped out, owl house, grishaverse, and kotlc

music: taylor swift, ariana grande, stray kids, one direction, conan gray, olivia rodrigo, rosendale, lewis capaldi, ava max, billie eilish, miley cyrus, bob marley, tate mcrae, MKTO, alan walker, alexander stewart, nico collins and ed sheeran

hobbies: judo, netball, football, fencing, ballet, fitness, underthinking shit, tumblr, pinterest, embroidery, painting, listening to music, guitar, reading, being a material girl, swearing and cussing, and judo flipping my brother

personal tags:

#the epitome speaks- if i need to speak

#the epitome rants- vent stuff

#tsunami whirls- about jakob

#this punk ass bitch- about cassie

#lightning shatters- about siya

#im going to kill this jock- about my bf kyle

#my beloved moots

I support Palestine. If you don't, you better run, because I will track you down and shoot you with the gun I hide in the basement. If you don't, you're a zionazi- end of story.

@that-one-clotpole & @the-ocean-is-inside-of-me thank you for the help with blog aesthetic <3

I share an account with @the-punk-and-the-jock too <3

Hey! I'm Dawn. I'm a minor, and I decided to join this hellsite, because of my brother- @the-ocean-is-inside-of-me. I thought it would be best to watch over him, and also because I wanted to see what exactly Tumblr has it in for me. You see, I'm the granddaughter of a Greek mafia boss, and I've seen... interesting things. Let's see how crazy this hellsite can get. My ask box is open, as well as my DMs, if you wanna talk, have any concerns or if you just wanna be friends! Oh, and don't you dare try to hurt my brother, or our friends, because if I do, you're invoking the wrath of the ✨judo flipper✨. I think that's all from me! Stay safe, little people on my phone. Dawn, signing out.

#the epitome speaks #the epitome's intro post

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yeyinde · 11 months

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do you have any recs for folklore/mythology books to learn from or docs/videos?

I have tonnes!!! I prefer non-fiction books when it comes to mythology, with the exception of American Gods and Anansi Boys by Neil Gaiman, and Things Fall Apart by Chinua Achebe. This one is more history focused but it blends the mythology and culture of Nigeria/Igbo folklore. I would recommend it to anyone just looking for a really good book to read about culture, history, the perception of masculinity within that culture, and of course, the negative effects of colonisation, and the history of pre-colonisation in Nigeria. It's one of my favourite history books by a really amazing author and poet! Def recommend.

I tried to focus on mythology that is not as widely popularised as others since they are often harder to find. But here are some of the ones that I enjoyed! Most of them were available at my public library as well so if you can't find them in stores or online, that's always another good place to look for mythology books/refs!

Books:

Myths from Mesopotamia by Stephanie Dalley

Voices from the Other World: Ancient Egyptian Tales by Naguib Mahfouz

Conceptions of God in Ancient Egypt: The One and the Many by Erik Hornung

Indaba, my Children: African Folktales by Vusamazulu Credo Mutwa (this is a massive encyclopedia at 700 pages but sooooo worth it!)

Folktales from India by A.K. Ramanujan

Myth = Mithya: Decoding Hindu Mythology by Devdutt Pattanaik (also: The Goddess in India: The 5 faces of Eternal Feminism, 99 thoughts on Ganesha: stories, symbols and Rituals of India's beloved Elephant Headed Deity, and the Pregnant King are really good)

Myth and Reality: Studies in the Formation of Indian Culture by Damodar Dharmananda Kosambi

The Ramayana & Mahabharata by Chakravarti Rajagopalachari (these are epics but OH GOD they are fantastic!)

Irish Mythology - this is a massive tumblr reference with books and guides on where to find Irish Folklore

I've really been enjoying the Chronical Books series on mythology - if only for the illustrations. My favourite so far is Tales of East Africa by Jamilla Okubo, Tales of India: Folktales from Bengal, Punjab, and Tamil Nadu by Svabhu Kohli and Viplov Singh. I wouldn't really say these are super important for mythology - the stories are very basic (not in a bad way at all, just less in-depth since I believe the books are geared toward a younger audience) but the art alone makes them worth it!

Mythology by Edith Hamilton is usually a good introduction to Greek, Roman, and Norse myths

The Prose Edda: Tales from Norse Mythology by Snorri Sturluson

Videos:

Trese on Netflix - it's about Philippine mythology told in modern times, and just an amazing show on its own!

The Entire Story of Greek Mythology Explained - it's 3.5 hours but WORTH IT!

I don't really watch too many videos on mythology, but I do on history and culture. It's just kinda hard to find mythology/folklore specific videos but since it's often interwoven within the cultures respective history, I watch Smithsonian docs on their history instead.

I really hope this helps!!!

#if anyone else has any others to add please do so!!#and before i had disposable income #there's the wikipedia rabbit hole #and tourism pages!

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harley-the-pancake · 3 months

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I kinda love how so many people on here would never let their irls see their tumblr unless they want death

Meanwhile I’m over here with irls following me, mentioning tumblr in college classes, deciding codenames for irls so I can post my tales of them, etc etc

My friends call me chronically online because of my tumblr and I thrive off of it ✌️😘

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digital999placebo · 6 months

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where the ludwig’s fuckin headcanons

OK AORRY DOR LATE REAPONSE BUT WHERE DO I EVEN START….. I have been obsessed with this stupid little anime man for nearly a year now and I have created the most chronically online, mentally ill lore around him so thank u for asking about it. some posts where I think I really went off and still believe SM in are this and this. Also this just has his general vibe.

I like to divide my headcanon and interpretation of Ludwig into two parts, before and after the world wars n cold war. The most important thing to me is before the wars, he has this romanticised idea of violence brought on by his brothers glory tales of it. He’s also touch starved and angry. One quote that summarises my thought p well is: “People want to be loved; failing that admired; failing that feared; failing that hated and despised. They want to evoke some sort of sentiment. The soul shudders before oblivion and seeks connection at any price”. He’s shaped by his brother and by the standards back then, cold, hard n ruthless masculinity. He believes he’s in control of his emotions because he internalises them all and doesn’t realise that anger is an emotion just like any other. Anger n shame is the only emotions his body will allow him.

After the wars and after the Cold War, he’s beginning to turn soft, partly due to realising that his glorification of violence and self isolation never really brought him any happiness and partly due to Feliciano, who’s literally as non macho as u can get still living a good life n enjoying himself despite not being the ideal manly man. SO now he’s just learning to shape his personality outside of being da perfect soldier that his brother shaped him into, he takes an interest in the world not in a way that will aid him in military strategising or learning patterns, but just the world for the sake of the world. He’s innocent n curious n way too trusting and forgiving. He just wants an easy life, a little home with some dogs in it.

He’s also a mega lightweight and a total kinkster despite being a virgin for majority of his life. His sex life with Feliciano is basically Feliciano being like: I’ve been sucking and fucking longer than you’ve been alive, none of ur kinks will surprise me” n then he’s still “WHEN DID THEY INVENT THAT” when Ludwig does tell him. Ludwig is way too embarrassed to try any of the things out tho despite how encouraging Feliciano is, his life is an entire spiral of shame and guilt and embarrassment and self torture.

EDIT: JFC ACCIDEBTALLY PUT THISBIN THE DRAFTS INSTEAD OF POSTING HERE IT IS, RNJOY UR SUPPER

#THERE IS MORE TO BE SAID THAT I CANT THINK OF RN BUT I THINK THAGS IT #asks

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freefloatingtemporally · 8 months

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about me

feelin like maybe making a little intro into my blog for once!

i mostly rb general stuff here :)

my main blog for the dragon prince is @self-spaghettification !

aka my special interest of 10 months </3

quick content warning for my blog: i sometimes post depression/suicidal ideation based content! there also may be nsfw content, i don't really filter/categorize that!

other than that this blog is pretty much just media i like/wanna watch, things i find interesting, issues i care about, relate, or thirst lol

other stuff is below the cut

Hello there! ✧

This is me :]

i love:

❤︎the dragon prince

❤︎the magnus archives

❤︎hazbin hotel ish

❤︎goth subculture

❤︎psychedelic rock

❤︎vampires

currently consuming:

✰supernatural

✰Lego Monkie kid

✰death note

✰the magnus protocol

inactively consuming:

✰hollow knight

✰omori

✰chainsaw man

✰revolutionary girl utena

✰adventure time

✰the bell jar (?)

✰vox machina (at my friend’s behest)

✰what we do in the shadows

things i plan to consume:

➢the case study of vanitas manga

➢dunmeshi (bc @thrandilf )

➢interview with a vampire (⬇️)

➢vampire diaries (⬇️)

➢hannibal (i blame miharin)

➢american psycho

➢elvira

➢tales of arcadia

➢amphibia (bc my sister)

➢the powerpuff girls rewatch <3

➢loki season 2

➢why women kill

➢discworld

➢live action atla

other things i enjoyed/consumed in the past!

❀our flag means death s1 & s2 <3

❀ You

❀hazbin hotel

❀scott pilgrim og movie

❀the magnus archives

❀the adventure zone

❀the penumbra podcast

❀nimona

❀atsv

❀raya

❀the owl house

❀fionna and cake

❀atla and tlok

❀good omens

❀my little pony (it's been a very long time though)

❀gravity falls

❀dsmp / sleepybois inc (why did like 50% of them end up being pedos/abusers 😭) (I’m also somehow not surprised )

❀sanders sides (when the season 2 finale comes out I’ll drop everything for it RAHH)

❀arcane (when s2 drops I’ll drop everything for it)

❀she-ra reboot

❀castlevania: nocturne

❀celeste

❀hades

❀glitchtale (&aus, of which i contributed to)

❀undertale (&aus)

things i like to do

♪be chronically online (jk but not really HAH)

♪analyzing media

♪journaling

♪drawing

♪writing

♪coding (sort of doing it freelance for money right now lol)

♪thrifting/fashion

♪knitting

♪making playlists

♪making music

♪playing indie video games

♪walks and bike rides

♪doing silly things for the hell of it

#og post #about me #pinned post

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schrodingersgirlboss · 12 days

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i had a test today and one of the questions included an article about a fairy tale book jk rowling wrote after harry potter. i love that other than the chronically online bubble no one gives a fuck about the discourse and the one thing jk rowling is actually remembered for outside of twitter and tumblr is how talented of a writer she is

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iphisesque · 10 months

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So like what's the deal with the incest stuff. Is it a bit? Did you actually fuck one or both of your parents? Do you just want to? You don't seem, like, upset about it in a way I'd expect if you'd been abused as a child, but maybe my expectations aren't right. Sorry if this is rude but your posts are confusing me.

it is a bit rude but i do want to answer it in earnest just to like clear things up and whatnot (and tbh i doubt there's any way to ask this question nicely so i don't blame you at all lmao).

[very long ramble under the cut in case you understandably don't care or don't want to hear about this; tw for parental abuse and incest]

i didn't actually have sex with either of my parents, i went through a lot of abuse and neglect on both their parts in ways i am not comfortable just enumerating online and that honestly i am not yet comfortable facing in general; i was also raised in a very weird way, which i don't even mean as a negative thing, but one of the things my family believes in (to varying degrees) is that i am on some level the reincarnation of my late grandfather, whom my mother has an actual proper electra complex about. i don't like to throw around the word "emotional incest", im not an expert or a professional and it's a word that gets thrown around way too much to have any credibility anymore, but i do think there was some of that going on with my mother, simply by virtue of our situation being the way it was — struggling single mom with a chronic illness and her eldest star prodigy daughter, tale as old as time or whatever.

i never liked my father, not since i was a child, and i honestly dreaded spending time with him whenever i had to; i definitely saw my mom as a respite from having to go to my father's place or even interact with him at all, not entirely deservedly, since with some distance i can see that he was trying to do his best and that my mother was almost as abusive as him. regardless, it was very much the least of two evils, and there was a long time when i was a teenager that i absolutely hated my mother nearly as much as i hated my father: part of that is definitely due to our clashing opinions on how i should dress and carry myself, she always wanted me to be more feminine-presenting and "sexual" whereas i wanted to be as masculine and modest as possible (which is definitely how i present now, and i do think with time she's grown to understand that it wasn't a phase). at the same time, i also understood this preoccupation as her just wanting me to be like my peers and not be socially ostracized, whereas my father's homophobia and dislike of my gender presentation i had trouble perceiving as anything but him being disappointed he couldn't control me (again, not entirely deservedly).

there would be a lot to get through here, but essentially: neither of my parents were good to me, my mother was the least bad and we clung to each other like lifeboats, my father i could not bear to be around and me and my sister would try as hard as we could not to go see him or spend time with him, so i adapted to my mother's toxic environment as best as i could. i recognized this situation as bad and unhealthy, and i was itching to leave, literally counting down the days until my graduation when i was 13: leaving home was always my dream, especially since my parents and especially my mother were never able to leave their own, and when it came time to make my decision for university i went to rome in a heartbeat (whenever i complain about this city it is with the utmost understanding that she is my ticket to freedom).

however, i was so excited to sever the umbilical cord around my neck that i underestimated the degree to which i would suffer from it: i obviously did not miss my father, and i missed my sister very much as expected (and she's now all alone in the same hell i was stuck in, so i feel really guilty about leaving her), but i found myself missing home and my mother very intensely, i longed and still long to go back home even though i know for a fact i would be absolutely miserable if i did go back. me and my mother both have been sublimating that same homesickness of each other in a "romantic" way, i guess, missing each other like you would miss a life partner and acting accordingly — i suppose we were life partners, in a way, and i can't help feeling like this even knowing what she put me through, i can't help making excuses for her even though i know the reality of her actions, in a way that doesn't ring true for my father.

basically to answer your question, i feel like this incest thing i have going on is a sublimation or like archetypal rendition of my very complex feelings about my mother and my father: it's not that i want to do anything with them, it's a way my brain has found to cope with their abuse and with my present situation, and while definitely not the healthiest, i don't mind entertaining it for now, since it makes me feel good. i am at a point in my life where i cannot impose restrictions on my mind, so i just let myself feel how i feel and experience the world how i do: i am sure in the future i will think back on this season of my life and cringe, but i hope i will have enough grace towards my past self that i will be able to forgive myself and move on with my life. at the end of the day, i believe everyone is entitled to their feelings and that someone's thoughts are not as important as their actions, so the fact that i feel these things doesn't prevent me from being the person i want to be, especially since i don't go around sharing my thoughts on this in real life and risk actually triggering people. i express my thoughts on the internet because it's the ultimate safeword: if you are an actual victim of incest or someone who's otherwise triggered by incest and my blog understandably makes you upset, you can just close it and block me and never look at it again, just as i do with e.g. eating disorder blogs: this says nothing about us as people, just that we know what we can and cannot bear to see and are able to act accordingly.

i hope this was a somewhat clear explanation and that i answered your question to satisfaction! it goes without saying that my fascination with fictional incest and its horror is somewhat detached from my own incestuous feelings, though there's obviously some overlap insofar as your personal experiences inform the types of art you enjoy: i was as young as 12-14 and fascinated by incest literature, i always understood that fiction and reality were two separate matters (and that fiction can treat horrific topics with the respect and gravity they deserve and that is often absent from real life discussion of those very same topics) — though i am sure my subconscious did pull from those very themes and archetypes i enjoy reading about when it was developing this coping mechanism, that's just how the human mind works.

#incest tw #abuse tw #long post (like LONG long. open readmore at your own risk)#this isn't proofread so forgive me if this isn't any stellar prose on my part though i do hope it's at least legible

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