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forgottenfourr · 10 months

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i saw you in a dream - university smau

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chapter eleven - not off the hook

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word count: 656

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a/n: tbh i have been awake for 43 hours so this shit has not been proof read. so if it doesn't make any sense i will fix it once i wake up from my slumber.

it has come to my attention that a lot of you probably think i am female. i am not. i am male. gay man. homosexual. blue green pride flag. trans flag too. my pronouns are he/xe and i’m a dude :)

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jeongin’s pov:

being emotionally vulnerable is something he never lets himself be. it doesn’t matter if it’s with his family or a professional therapist. he doesn’t do it. so now that he’s come to a head with felix, his best friend, he feels like he is going to bust at the seams at the thought of explaining everything to him.

though felix is a complete and utter asshole for what he did, jeongin feels like he is partly to blame. in felix’s eyes, his behavior the other day wasn’t much different from how he and his friends usually act. jeongin is sure that if felix truly did know just how serious the situation was, he wouldn’t have spilled it to everyone and furthermore breaking jeongin’s trust.

he could feel his breath hitch in his throat as he heard the front door of his apartment click open. his freckled blue hair friend weakly making his way through the door, his usual sunshine demeanor clouded and dazed. even though he tried his best to hide it, guilt and sadness was evident on felix’s face, pinging jeongin in the heart.

one thing felix isn’t is, and never will be, is a bad person. that is something jeongin is 100% sure of. there is not a single bad bone or intention in his body. not even if he tried. jeongin always admired that about him.

that’s why it is almost impossible to stay mad at him. there was no malice or hatred behind felix’s actions.

the air in the apartment was still and almost chilling. even on a warm day like today.

“hi” felix says, almost inaudible.

“hey lix,” there is a smile laced in jeongin’s tone. causing felix to turn to face him almost instantly. the familiar nickname making him feel once again comfortable in his own home.

there is a brief shared moment between them. a collective acknowledgment that things were going to be okay.

“aye-“ felix begins to call out, guilt straining through his voice. but his words became muffled in jeongin’s shoulder and he gets wrapped into a tight hug.

jeongin isn’t one for physical affection so the embrace is taken fully after felix’s initial shock.

felix breaks the hug.

“ayen i am so fucking sorry i didn’t realize how serious it was and i never met to hurt you.-“

“lix.” jeongin tries to cut his best friend off.

felix continues to ramble on. “if i knew i would’ve never said anything in the first place and-“

“FELIX.” jeongin calls out again, admittedly way louder than he was meaning.

felix stopped talking.

“i know you and i know you didn’t mean any harm.” jeongin says in a reassuring tone and felix finds himself releasing a breath he wasn’t aware he was holding in.

“you fucked up big time. but you’re aware of it.” he takes a deep breath, mentally preparing himself for the emotional vulnerability he knew had to come. “but i don’t blame you for it. well i do. but you didn’t know anything other than what i let you know. and that wasn’t much. if i was in your shoes, i’m sure i wouldn’t have taken what i said seriously at all. because frankly, it sounds ridiculous.”

felix finds himself chuckling at jeongin’s words. “yeah, it’s not everyday your best friend tells you that he has strangely realistic dreams and simultaneously has fallen for the person who has been showing up in them.”

jeongin could feel the tips of his ears warm at felix’s statement. he really did sound insane.

“oh fuck off would you?” jeongin says in a teasing and fake annoyed tone. felix just gives him a deadpanned expression before breaking into a smile.

“for the record though,” jeongin adds on. “you’re not off the hook. you’re doing my apartment chores for the rest of the week.” felix groans in response, dramatically throwing himself on the couch.

it was impossible to stay upset with felix.

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demonic-shadowlucifer · 11 months

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Let's talk about Radical Feminists and TERFs: Another collection of hate.

(Content Warning: Pretty much everything, but especially transmisia, particularly transmisogyny, eugenics and other Nazi rhetoric, racism, intersexism, slur usage, mentions of not sfw topics/not sfw sentences and mentions of sexual assault. Reader discretion is especially advised on this, as this is probably one of the most triggering posts I've ever created). Additional Disclaimer: Like with my "Let's Talk about Exclusionists" post, I've collected multiple screenshots of the horrid things TERFs and other Radfems have said or done. Not all of those screenshots are mine, some of them are things I have found on the web. Credits to especially radfemstruggles (Twitter), terfism-harms-women, terf-cringe and other anti-terf pages/blogs I've found these on. As always, I don't condone harassment. Just because someone is a TERF doesn't give you the right to harass them, especially considering a good chunk of TERFs I've noticed are literal teenagers (of course, that never excuses their actions). Just report them and block. Pride month is over, but that doesn't mean queer folks are going away.

However, neither are the bigots, and especially not the TERFs. Nope. They're still out there and as harmful as ever. "Now, wait a minute Shadow. What even *IS* a TERF anyway?" Well, you're gonna be in for one hell of a ride, so buckle up sunshine.

TERF is short for Trans Exclusionary Radical Feminist. Put simply, Transphobic "feminists". TERFs align themselves with Radical Feminism- Radfem for short, a very extreme branch of feminism. However, not every Radfem is a TERF, though Radfems are still best to be avoided due to their extreme ideology. (Likewise, not every feminist is a Radfem, let alone a TERF). How to Identify a TERF: Common Dogwhistles and Nicknames. TERFs won't call themselves a TERF by themselves. In fact, some consider the term to be a slur (News flash: no it is fucking not lmfao). There are many dogwhistles, and I can't fit all of them in here. However here's the most common ones: Gender Critical - a very *VERY* common identifer by TERFs. MERF - Short for Male Exclusionary Radical Feminist. It basically calls trans women men and also ignores the fact that there are, contrary to popular belief, men that are also feminists. "TERF is a slur/Cis is a slur" - A common dogwhistle. The latter is also used by transphobes in general. Misandrist/Proud Misandrist - Misandrist refers to hatred of men. The term originated from misogynists as a counter to feminism, however the term has been reclaimed by radfems. However, a good majority of folks who identify with this term are transphobic, so it should best be avoided. Womyn/Wombyn and their varients - Alternative spellings of "woman/women". Per Wikipedia, "Some writers who use such alternative spellings, avoiding the suffix "-man" or "-men", see them as an expression of female independence and a repudiation of traditions that define women by reference to a male norm." The term "womxn" is also used in some cases, however that term should not be a sole identifier, as "womxn" is also sometimes used by agender individuals. "Womyn" alone is also not a sole identifier, as there are some who try to reclaim it (that and there's also something about it being used in AAVE, but I can't find much info on that). However, "Womyn-born woman" should be an instant red flag. KAM - Short for K-ll all men (i). Even without the TERFy connections, I don't think I need to explain why this is bad. --It should also be noted that any variation of "all men are trash" is inherently TERFy, no matter how you look at it. You'll see why in a bit. Hygenic - Another term used by TERFs. It also references eugenics, explained further in this post. FebFem - Short for "Female Exclusive Bisexual Female". This term is common in TERF spaces, especially with Bi TERFs. However, there have been attempts to reclaim the term from the group. Similar groups that overlap - Should also be avoided:

SWERF - Short for Sex Worker Exclusionary Radical Feminist. This group is against the objectification of women, sex trafficking and the exploitation of women in pornography. Sounds harmless right? Wrong. While it appears good intentioned at first, most SWERFs are against sex work overall, believing that women can't *truly* partake in sex work willingly. This group also overlaps with TERFs, 99% of the time, though not every SWERF is a TERF. Due to sex work being a topic that gets pretty NSFW, I won't be going over this group in this post any further outside of mentions, since I'm not qualified to talk about NSFW topics as a minor. There are, however, probably several other posts that talk about this particular group. TEHM - Short for Trans Exclusionary Homosexual Males. The same as TERFs, but with homosexual men instead of women. Enby Skeptics - A group skeptical of nonbinary identities, as shown by the name. Some TERFs may identify with this term. Longsword Lesbian/Gravity Knife Gays/Gold Star Lesbian - See here for more information regarding these groups. LGB/LGB Drop the T - A movement that claims that being Trans isn't queer. It should go without saying - TERFs aren't harmless. TERFs aren't just some weird basement dwellers on the internet. Nope. They exist *everywhere*. You know JK Rowling? She's a TERF! And probably one of the most recognizable TERFs out there (she's also a lot more bigoted beyond transphobia, so yeah). However, this post will mostly cover the online aspect of TERFism, since even the online world can seep into danger in real life. So, without further ado, let's get into the hate. Note: This post covers Radical Feminism in general, however the main focus is TERFs and similar groups. Of course, you have the transphobia, slurs and suibait.

(Image: Two Tumblr anons side by side. One word has been covered in red. One anon reads "You troons sure love playing the victim. 😂😂No won-der people can't stand you". The second reads "Hng yourself gendie". End ID).

(Image ID: An anon that reads ""They can't even say woman" Not everyone who menstruates is a woman." The reply is "Yes they are. Nonbinary isn't real, only two genders exist. Gender and sex are the same thing. Your personality and clothing preference doesn't define your sex. Your biology does. Have a good day!" End ID) ...Having pronouns is misogynistic? Really? You know women have pronouns too... right?

(Image ID: A user's twitter bio. Their username is covered. The bio reads "All I think about is karma. Pronouns in bio signify membership of misogynist cult". End ID) Seriously they're not even trying to hide the transphobia.

(Image ID: A Tumblr bio that reads "trans activism is misogyny").

(Image ID: A post from user "radfem-moira" that reads "Transwomen are men and it shows when they speak").

However, the transphobia, as despicable as it is, is not the only thing that makes TERFs dangerous. TERFs have also even went as far as to advocate for violence, as shown here.

(Image ID: A post from user "terf-vengeance" featuring artwork of an individual wearing a crop top covered in blood, reading "I punch trans activists". Below the artwork reads "Is it okay to punch transtrenders? Yes two thousand times, yes, punch them!" Also, here is something I've noticed. Notice how Radfems talk about abuse, particularly sexual abuse. In conversations regarding such a topic, women are usually brought up as the victims. Male victims are almost never mentioned, and when you bring them up they accuse you of not caring about male victims because you brought them up when talking about women. Well, you might not think much of it, but it goes deeper than just misinformation and being insensitive. TERFs don't care about male victims either. In fact, they don't care about sexual assault survivors at all if you look hard enough. In fact, if the victim is a male, they actually *encourage* it. And will sometimes admit to even *wanting* to do the same thing to men. Here's one *literally* repeating a common misogynistic argument, but with men at the focus.

(Image ID: A Twitter post with the individual's username and profile picture covered. The post reads "Males are only tools for sex and labor. THATS IT". End ID). ...this post makes me sick just by looking at it alone.

(Image ID: A Twitter post from a person named "aoi". Some information is covered. The post reads "Young boys are degenerates beyond any help. I wouldn't even oppose them getting their ass rped by grown men (they deserve that) if it wasn't for the risk that other grown ass men would also start to advocate for pedophilia on girls. I can't care less about boys". End ID). And this one is even *worse*

(Image ID: A Tumblr post featuring an anon asking "What are your thoughts on male sex workers?". The reply is "Male "sex workers" make up an incredibly tiny amount of "sex workers", and while I think prostituted men deserve to get out of it as well, they're pimped and rped by men, which makes it a male-on-male issue and not a priority for feminists"). The point of feminism is gender equality for ALL and fighting the patriarchy. This however is not feminism. This only shows that you don't actually care about gender equality. Here's one straight up admitting to want to abuse people.

(Image ID: A Tumblr post with the individual's name blacked out. The post reads "i won't lie the urge to manipulate, gaslight and psychologically torture a man and lead him to suicide has been festering inside me for a while now. studying psychology too, i genuinely think i could pull it off. they grow attachments very easily and if i could just find one that was already mentally ill i think i could do it easily". End ID). ...All I'm gonna say about that one is that I hope this individual never EVER gets into a relationship or has kids, and if they're already in a relationship I genuinely feel sorry for their partner and I hope said partner leaves them. And here's someone who sent a sexual assault wish to a literal *minor* (And when called out on it they said the screenshot was "fake").

(Image ID: Two Tumblr convos side by side, both have two messages, the first one reads, from stopglorifyingkillers, "I never called you a pedo, please point out where I had.". itchy-astroterf replies with "I hope your stupidity and misguided trust in trans gets you rped. Maybe then you'll see my fucking point.". The next convo reads, the first message from actuallyabused, "ah yes, you totally dont want anyone to get rped.". To which itchy-astroterf replies with "That's copyshopped, you dingus".) Oh yeah. You know how TERFs argue that "Trans women are predatory"? Well... about that. (Full post here - CW: Pedophilia, sexual assault, ableism, uncensored slur).

(Image ID: Three posts from Tumblr user "homohooker". Reading, in this order, "You look beautiful with makeup on !", "You're so cute 😍😍😍 but this isn't gay babes this would be straight" and "Its a sexual orientation like being lesbian or gay lol you're a fucking"- the final word is blanked out. Next to the username reads either "taling to a minor" or "talking about pedophilia" in red text. End ID).

(Image ID: A Tumblr User's bio reading "Right back at it again" in bold black text. Below it reads "Riley, 21, femle, lesbian, map, kids can consent, men aren't lesbians". End ID) This one wasn't in the post but it's from the same person sooo.

(Image ID: A Tumblr post that reads "ok but who doesn't think 12-17 year old girls are cute". End ID) Honestly, it's posts like these that make me *really* hope it's a troll. Also, let's not ignore the fact that TERFs and Radfems are more than transphobic. In fact, they can be other kinds of bigoted for example. Arophobia and biphobia in ONE.

(Image ID: A tumblr post from user "guncase". The post reads "Men cannot love. It is not in their nature to stay monogamous. You can look at the Bible, you can look at recorded history, you can look at present day - you can even look at your own experiences with men. Their love is one sided. They only love themselves, and not even each other. Find love within yourselves, your fellow women, and keep it safe, because the minute you let a Man find that love, the minute you lose it.") More biphobic crap. (I should also add that there is a huge debate in radfem spaces on whether or not bisexual women are welcome or if their "traitors", just throwing that out there).

(Image ID: Two Tumblr posts/asks with usernames censored. The posts read, respectively, "because your nullye! stop making thousands of fucking accounds and talking to yourself. go d homophobe" and "first off you're female and if you said that you're actually dating a man that makes you fucking hetero. I really doubt that you're actually dating".) I'd also like to add I had to censor an anti-schizophrenic slur in the first one, so there's that.

(Image ID: A Tumblr ask from an anonymous user. The ask reads "I hope you di in a violent and torturous way. I hope your genitals get mutilated. You are a disgusting person for even liking a male. Fuck you." End ID). And let's not forget the intersexism! (Disclaimer: Using it/it's pronouns is valid. Using "it" to describe *all* intersex people however... is shitty).

(Image ID: A Twitter post from an individual who's name is censored. The post reads "If you have XX chromosomes your pronouns are she, if you have XY chromosomes your pronouns are he. If you're intersex your pronouns are it. No way in hell I'm calling an intersex thing 'she'. You are not to appropriate my gender") Oh speaking of ableism, a lot of TERFs can be pretty fucking ableist too. ...Towards each other.

(Image ID: A Tumblr post from user "femaleinsight". The post reads "i hope all autistic men fucking di the most painful fucking death that could ever be experienced on this earth. signed, a tired autistic woman <3") (First of all, what is it with disabled/neurodivergent terfs and wanting their own kind *dead*?) ...And some can also be PRETTY FUCKING RACIST :D (Had to censor the n-word in this one).

(Image ID: A Twitter post that reads "You know saying TERF to someone is like calling someone a ner. Which are terms that are insults and pejorative"). For context, MENA is short for Middle East and North Africa. Make what you will of this screenshot.

(Image ID: A Twitter post that reads "if you see me with a machete randomly k*ll*ng mena males mind your business").

And sometimes, two and two can actually go together! A while back, I reblogged a that talked about TERFs using the word "hygienic" to mean "cis", like this individual shown below (Edit: link and reblog removed since OP fit my DNI + one of the folks adding to it was hacked and became a scambot, and I'd rather not expose people to that).

(Image ID: A Tumblr post from user "dykexy" that reads "petition to change the word "cis" to "hygienic"". End ID) Now you might be wondering, why am I bringing it up again? Well, someone in the comments of said post mentioned that it reminded them of "Racial Hygiene". Now, what is "Racial Hygiene"? Well... according to Wikipedia, it refers to "an approach to eugenics in the early 20th century, which found its most extensive implementation in Nazi Germany (Nazi eugenics)." So basically, it's eugenics. Specifically, Nazi eugenics. And with TERFs using the term "hygienic", they're saying that Trans people are inherently dirty by genetics. You might think this is a reach, but with everything shown here, there's clearly more to it.

Then again, what else do you expect from folks who do *this*

(Image ID: A Twitter post that reads "I'm not really going to spend another Saturday taking photos of trans people and running them through the sex-change filter on FaceApp to see what they looked like before, am i? I am". End ID) And act hypocritical (TERFS: "Trans women fetishize real women!" Also TERFS:)

(Image ID: A Twitter post that reads "It is so weird to me when trans people show a "before and after" when they get their first binder. If you have bad enough chest dysphoria to buy a binder in the first place, why are you showing the whole internet your tits?" End ID) And make nonsensical posts/replies like THIS.

(Image ID: A Twitter user replying to a post that reads "Me and my good friend texting about the #BodyBlitz thing: "People need to get used to gender non-conforming bodies"". The reply reads "Gee, so you are in favor of rpe culture? Telling women to "get used" to rpists and perverts in women's spaces? Really?" End ID) Seriously. Don't let the "feminist" label fool you. TERFs and Radfems do not care about gender equality or women's rights. They are using the feminist label and women's rights as an excuse for their transphobia and other bigotry. They do not care about sexual assault survivors. They do not care about women of color. They do not care about disabled women. In fact, they only advocate for the very abuse they claim to be against. They advocate for the racism and nazism they claim to be against. Don't let them fool you.

Other posts talking about TERFs, Radfems and the like, as well as additional resources: Caelan Conrad's "Gender Critical" series. A bunch of Jessie Gender videos on TERFs and Gender Criticals. The TERF to Fascist Pipeline by Kayley Whalen. The FASCIST Links Of Anti-Trans Activism Exposed by Owen Jones. Tips for Allies of Transgender People. How Can I support someone who's Trans or Nonbinary? Shinigami Eyes - A browser extension that detects anti-trans content.

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oscarisaacasimov · 8 months

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Hozier @ The Anthem (DC), 9/27/23

Madison Cunningham was the perfect opener, the best I've seen in the couple dozen concerts I've been to. Her voice was astonishing live, quite a range with a haunting quality. She had a 3-piece band, more of a rock sound than the acoustic tracks of her earlier work.

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De Selby pt 1 - the first song of the night. The crowd did a good job keeping quiet during the gentle opener, and then we went right into De Selby pt 2.

Cherry Wine - the ground floor started cheering in the middle and Hozier got flustered.

Uiscefhuaraithe - Hozier did a little explainer before the song.

Damage Gets Done - a duet with Kristen Rogers, one of his backup singers for the tour. Glad to see it played even without Brandi Carlile there.

Almost - always a favorite of mine, but this show they had a long jam session in the middle, featuring solos from different musicians! Also, the video was showing the title of different vinyl records mentioned, to sync with the lyrics.

First Light - glad to hear it, but the placement could have been better? This was one of my highlights from the album, the hopeful ending. I love to do yoga to this song, especially in the sunshine.

The setlist for this night skipped many of the sadder songs - no Icarion, Butchered Tongue, or Who We Are (and Unknown came later). This suited me fine to have a more upbeat concert, but then First Light didn't feel quite "earned."

Take me to Church - the finale. The crowd passed up a pride flag saying "Protect Trans Kids," which he hung on the mike stand and then walked right up to the crowd. Everyone surged toward him trying to touch him, some pressing flowers, bracelets and other gifts upon him. Felt a bit Pentecostal.

Nina Cried Power - the first encore song after a short break, the crowd kept that energy going. Hozier did a little explainer and duetted with Melissa McMillan, his other touring backup singer.

Unknown - the next encore song, followed by singing Happy Birthday to tour musician Ryan Connor.

Work Song - the final encore, plus a surprised duet with opener Madison Cunningham.

So that was THREE encores and THREE duets. Shoutout to the venue as well. I arrived about an hour after doors and went straight to the top floor of the GA area. View and sound were good, plenty of personal space up there, able to sit between sets and pee without losing your spot, pleasantly strong AC, short bathroom line, chill neighbors - ideal for the over 35 crowd.

Over all, the May pop-up show was a better fangirl experience: smaller venue = better view, the long time since the last tour, the chance to meet and great.

But the Unreal Unearth tour was the better concert - bigger stage, more intricate lighting design, the band was more practiced/experimental with the new music, amazing crowd energy.

video sources: https://www.instagram.com/hozierlatam/

https://www.instagram.com/hozier_coicoi_welcome/

#hozier #unreal unearth #andrew please #the anthem #madison cunningham #work song #unknown / nth #nina cried power #take me to church #almost #first light #damage gets done #uiscefhuaraithe #cherry wine #de selby pt 1 #de selby part 1

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allthecastlesonclouds · 10 months

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so. i’m doing this thing called summer camp. been doing it for a decade. so, here’s a series of the bad kids + co doing every one of my camp activities. there’s three pages and they’ll be coming out while i sketch two full comics.

id under cut!

[BEGIN ID]

A Sketch Page of 8 colored drawings and 1 sketch.

In the top left, Sandra Lynn is using a bow + arrow. She is a ligh/t-skinned wood elf with close-cropped straight brown hair and a tan work uniform. She is drawing back an arrow with a large silver head and pink fletchings. She has one eyes closed and is aiming slightly upwards.

In the top middle, a headshot of Tracker is drawn. Tracker is a tan werewolf in human form. She has a side shave and curly brown hair hanging down the left side of her face. She is looking down slightly and smiling, and in her hands is a messy purple stained glass star.

Above Tracker, a small sketch of Zayn Darkshadow with Edgar on a paddle board is seen. It is in black and white and he is saying “what an i doing here’.

In the top right, Riz is looking at a ten bull sheet. Riz is a light green-skinned goblin with curly green hair. he has on a white dress shirt, dark purple (close to black) pants, and gray shoes. he is holding a rifle in one hand and a ten bull sheet with the other. he is looking at the sheet, frowning, and saying, “Could be better.” Adaine is saying off to the side, “Riz, that’s a 96! What?” For reference, the highest score you can get on a ten bull is a 100.

in the middle left, kristen is sitting with scissors in her hand. kristen is a plus-sized white human with red hair and a stained glass halo. she is looking down, focused.

in the middle, Ragh Barkrock is sitting with a smile on his face. Ragh is a plus-sized green-skinned half orc with a black mohawk. he is so happy he’s almost crying, and he is looking down at a red bowl with a yellow sun. he is grinning widely.

in the middle right, a headshot of gorgug thistlespring, a green skinned half orc, is shown. he is smiling happily and holding up a messily sewn bisexual flag.

in the bottom left, fig faeth, a tiefling girl, is cheering happily. she is in a blue bikini and has large bruises on her legs. the bruises are labeled ‘canuises’ as a combination of canoe and bruises. she is cheering ‘canoe!!’

in the bottom right, adaine and fabian are in a sailboat. adaine is a white high elf in an aqua one piece bathing suit, and fabian is a black trans man in blue swim shorts. adaine is sitting towards the back, clinging to the sides and saying “fabian sit the fuck down”. fabian is standing in the front, one arm up in the air, grinning widely. the boat is labeled the ‘Lady Sunshine’, and the sail is a gradient bi flag.

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#fantasy high #dimension 20 #riz gukgak #fabian seacaster #adaine abernant #kristen applebees #sandra lynn faeth #ragh barkrock #tracker o'shaughnessey #gorgug thistlespring #castles art #d20 fanart

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mistahgrundy · 1 year

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I did it I went to the pride

I saw drag queens and so much rainbow stuff. it was really nice. babbies first pride.

it was really really nice to be around that many lgbt people. like. god. what a feel. living in the south can get you down, but to know that even in your little town (I don't live in Austin anymore) you are so amazingly not alone, there's thousands of you. And allies. good feels.

of course it's June so I got the heat exhaustion twice.

I've mentioned this before but I do not sweat. I literally do not sweat. It's not nice, it's hell. I'd give anything to be a dripping nasty sweaty mess. Give me your pores. There was a cooling off room and you could go inside city hall which I did twice but a lot of the vendors were pretty far from the building and it was just BLAZING down sunshine on me. also I forgot to put on sunblock, but I think I escaped sunburn free. I thought maybe my face got got but I think I was just red from dying.

anyway I still had fun, and I got some pins and jewelrys from some booths and a trans flag hand fan that made the day a lot better

also I played "spot the trans masc in the hawaiian shirt" game (it's ok I'm one too, I'm the free square on the bingo card)

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haystarlight · 2 years

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Yes, these were all sewn by Hunter. God gave him a sewing machine and the world has not known peace since. Let me go off for a second.

Luz:

Bisexual heart 💖💜💙

Gender fluid heart (this one is headcanon)

💖⚪💜🖤💙

A little King and Hooty 🦉💀

A light glyph 💡

A dragon 🐉🐲

An ouroboros snake 🐍

An otter (with a dark side)

A little star ⭐

Twilight Sparkle (because of course my girl watches MLP) 🦄

Azura and Hecate 🧙🏾‍♀️❤️🧙🏻‍♀️

A sun (because she's a little sunshine) ☀️

A Dominican Republic flag (Camila) 🇩🇴

A Puerto Rico flag (Manny) 🇵🇷

Amity:

Lesbian heart ❤️🧡⚪💖💖

Abomination 💜

Cat 🐱🐈

Moon & stars ⭐🌙🌟💫✨🌠🌑🌒🌓🌔🌕🌖🌗

Music notes 🎶🎵🎶

Pink triangle (because GAY LIBERATION)

Butterfly (Amity had butterflies on her journal) 🦋

Paintbrush 🖌️ and pencil ✏️ (Amity likes to draw)

Hecate 🧙🏻‍♀️

Willow:

Pansexual heart (headcanon) 💖💛💙

A patch that says "I love you" (Huntlow brainrot) 💚

Two hearts with an H💛 and a W💚 (more huntlow brainrot)

A photo camera 📸 📷

Flowers 💐🌼🌺🌻🏵️🌸🌷

Sunglasses emoji 😎

Footballs ⚽🏈

Weights 🏋🏻‍♀️🏋🏻‍♀️🏋🏻‍♀️

A patch that says "CAPTAIN" 💚

A skateboard 🛹

A queen bee 🐝👑

Gus:

Trans heart (headcanon) 💙💖⚪💖💙

Dinosaurs 🦖🦕

Stars and planets ⭐🌟💫🌠☄️🌑🌎🌍🌏

Rocket 🚀

Astronaut 👨🏾‍🚀

Telescope 🔭

Robots 🤖

Chameleon 🦎

Vee:

Non-binary heart (headcanon) 💛⚪💜🖤

Pansexual heart (headcanon) 💖💛💙

Insects🐞🐛🐌🦋

Frog and pollywog 🐸

Tortoise 🐢

Pumpkin 🎃

Apple 🍎

Amethyst 💜💎

Autumn leaf 🍁🍂

Emojis 😁😋😄

Camila:

Dominican Republic flag 🇩🇴

Puerto Rico flag (Manny) 🇵🇷

Rainbow heart ❤️🌈

Red cross ⛑️

Rod of Asclepius ⚕️

Planets (Cosmic Frontier) 🌎🌑

A patch that says "#1 Mom" (Hunter Noceda agenda)

Red string (Cancer support)🧵❤️

Darius:

Abomination 💜

A patch that says "#1 Dad" (Hunter Deamonne is still in my heart somewhere)

Jewels💎💎💎 👑👑👑

C.A.T.TS (hisssss) 🐱🐈

B.A.T.TS (hissssss) 🦇🦇

Emojis 😉😎

Eda:

Bisexual heart 💖💜💙

A patch that says "Bad Girl Coven"

A rainstorm (Raeda brainrot) ⛈️🌩️🌧️🌦️💧⚡

B.A.T.TS (hisssssss) 🦇🦇

Little King, Owlbert and Hooty 🦉💀

Music notes 🎶🎵

Money sign 💲💲

Right arm absent

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spookygayferret · 6 months

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The first two chapters of my OFMD fic "do not stand at my grave and cry" are up on AO3 now too! Originally posted on Squidgeworld. Anyway, go check it out for more genderqueer!Ed (and trans!Stede).

Fandom: Our Flag Means Death

Rating: Mature

CW: Implied/Referenced transphobia, implied/referenced homophobia, Ed uses a reclaimed homophobic slur (referring to himself), implied/referenced past abuse, it's generally a good romantic time but it's not all sunshine and rainbows.

Summary:

Edward Teach finds queer joy. In art. In herself. In Stede Bonnet's smile. It starts with ice cream and a borrowed coat. It ends with poetry and herbal tea.

#ofmd #ofmd fanfic #gentlebeard #spooky gay writing

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mikhailoisbaby · 2 years

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Harvey my love I am sitting on ur couch with my chin in my hands and I am saying: trans mickey

Thoughts ples

Hi my sunshine 🖤

TRANS MICKEY !!! * big happy sigh* I love him so much I really need to create more trans Mickey art so like I’m the next couple of days I will start some just for you Alicia !!!

Thinking some trans Mickey in a binder ? Or trans Mickey with the trans flag wrapped around him ?

Thinking about Mickey pre T and Ian’s Ian being soft and gentle with him but not in patronising way just respectful like giving Mickey back rubs when his binder been on too long or after top surgery Ian showering him with compliment and love 😭😭😭😭

#hi Alicia #ily #mickey milkovich #ian gallagher #shameless #gallavich #trans Mickey

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thecryptidcottage · 1 year

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have you ever heard of last kiss by pearl jam ? well, it describes DOMINICK WOLFE to a tee ! the forty-four year old owner + bartender at wolfe’s den was spotted browsing through the stalls at portobello road market last sunday, do you know him ? would you say he is more reticent or more dutiful instead ? anyway, he reminds me of of framed report cards hanging up alongside business and liquor licenses , banana pancakes and retro cartoons on the couch on a sunday morning , faded prison tattoos curling out from under long sleeves and stiff collars , a trans flag strung up in the window of a hole-in-the-wall dive bar , and scorching your tongue on your first sip of coffee. maybe you’ll bump into him soon !

STATS.

name: dominick wolfe nickname(s): dom gender & pronouns: cis male / he + him orientation: tbd age: forty-four date of birth: 27 april, 1978 zodiac: ☼ taurus ☽ capricorn ↑ taurus occupation: bartender + owner of wolfe’s den positive traits: responsible + protective + adaptable + compassionate negative traits: taciturn + gruff + stubborn + emotionally unavailable

HISTORY.

TW: drugs + alcohol + crime + car accident + injury + death

dom grew up on the wrong side of the tracks, if you will ; growing up low income and with absent parents meant dom got involved in the distribution and sale of illicit drugs from the time he was a young teen and had developed a bit of a name ( and a record ) for himself by the time he hit his twenties ; used the money he made to pay for a flat for himself and his grandmother, the woman who raised him ; she knew what he did and turned a blind eye, only urged that he make sure he stayed safe

fell into darker times after he lost his grandmother ; started drinking more and sleeping less, getting reckless with his job, the protocols in place to keep him from getting caught ; it wasn’t until he met charlotte that dom thought he’d ever see the light again, but she charmed him with a melodic laugh and a smile like sunshine, soothed his sorrows like a salve made just for his soul and dom ? well, dominick wolfe fell in love

dom and charlotte hadn’t been together more than a few months when he got arrested ; nearly a year of careless, thoughtless decisions had finally caught up to him, and even with the help of the best lawyer he could afford, he was twenty-three years old and facing seven years in prison for supplying an illicit drug ( he was lucky all they’d found was the cannabis when they searched his property, else he’d likely still be locked up for a number of charges that fell through )

to dom’s constant discouragement and disbelief, charlotte remained faithful to him for all seven years of his sentence ; she wrote him letters, visited when she could, and he spent every day of that near decade falling just a little more in love with her ; when he was released in the spring of 2009, they moved in together, and less than a year later, they were married and expecting a child

while dom was incarcerated, charlotte was scrimping and saving and managed to land a property with an old, run-down bar on the first floor and a connected flat upstairs in slightly better shape ; over the course of charlotte’s pregnancy, dom renovated them both, and though they both joked that they were insane for it, in the same year they welcomed a baby, the wolfe’s den was officially opened for business

the bar was a humble success ; there was nothing flashy about the place, but the spot was decent and the drinks were cheap, and they managed to lure in enough regulars to keep their little family afloat so long as they lived modestly ; dom ran the front of house, the bar, and charlotte kept their accounts balanced and bills paid, and eventually the wolfe’s den became a cozy little spot in the community for any wayward wanderer looking for a drink ; and yeah, okay, maybe dom was convinced this was it for him ― happily ever after, one he’d found himself, not that he deserved it

and because he didn’t deserve it, of course it couldn’t last ; dom remembers the night it ended as clearly as if it had been yesterday ― 2013, the last weekend in april, and charlotte had insisted they find a babysitter and do something special to celebrate his thirty-fifth birthday, something more than just a simple night in ; the weather was awful, miserable rain, but charlotte wolfe made her own sunshine and had never before been deterred by the weather, and so off they went to dinner and a movie

they never made it to dinner ; and no matter how many times he’s been asked, dom doesn’t remember how it happened ― he doesn’t know if the other driver hadn’t seen them and risked running the intersection or if they’d simply lost control of their vehicle, it all happened so fast ; when dom woke two days later in a hospital bed, it was to charlotte’s mother holding his baby, tears in her eyes ― charlotte didn’t make it

picking up the pieces was harder than anything dom had ever done before ; the bar stayed closed for weeks while he grieved the love of his life, tried to learn how to be a single parent, how to do it on his own ; he had to hire more help, more people to staff the place so he could be home with his kid ; eventually he fell into a routine, learned how to keep himself and his little one moving forward ; it’s been almost ten years since the the accident and even though some days are harder than others, they always manage

a little over a year ago, dom’s child came out to him as transgender in an unexpectedly heartfelt conversation over reality tv and takeaway one night ; though he’d been a bit surprised at first, he couldn’t say it had been by much, and he was proud to find out he not only had a son, but that his son wanted to be called by a name that reminded him of his mother: charlie ; if dom wept like a baby that night, he and charlie don’t talk about it, but he knows that his dad stands by him no matter what

dom and charlie still live in the flat above wolfe’s den, and he’s doing his best to balance being a business owner, bartender, and single dad ; most days he feels like he’s barely keeping his head above water, keeping it together, but it’s worth it to make sure he’s doing everything he can for charlie ; he’s had a few relationships in the more recent years since losing charlotte, including one with thea mackenzie, a spitfire of an american who found her way into his bar and caught his eye, but whether because of his baggage, his kid, or his inability to open up about any of it, dom’s been unable to find anyone serious to try again with

MISCELLANEA.

thanks to a pair of flags dom hung in the front windows of wolfe’s den shortly after charlie came out, one displaying the traditional rainbow and the other a trio of colors for transgender pride, his tiny hole-in-the-wall dive bar is slowly becoming an unintentional and niche spot for notting hill’s queer community to grab a drink ; be warned, though, if you linger at the bar for too long, you might end up getting a dad talk ― unless that’s what you’re looking for, in which case, he does give pretty decent advice

charlie can almost always be found at the bar when his dad’s there unless it’s late ; if he’s not doing his homework at one of the stools where dom can keep an eye on him, he’s polishing glasses or tossing darts or building houses of cards out of coasters ; and, look, dom knows he shouldn’t be raising a kid around a bar, but it’s a hell of a lot better than he had growing up, and besides, charlie never seems to mind ; in fact, dom’s keen to think he enjoys it, leans into the way it makes him feel a little like a rebel

dom has a good heart ; he’s been known to go upstairs into his own kitchen and cook a meal for strangers who are hungry or having a hard time in the bar down below ; he learned how to knit while he was in prison and found that it was a really helpful tool for anger management and stress relief, and you’ll occasionally find him knitting squares somewhere around the bar for blankets he donates to the women & children’s refuge every winter ; if you’re in need of somewhere safe to go, something to eat, someone to talk to... any of it, dom’s your man ― he doesn’t talk about himself much but he’s a damn good listener

WANTED CONNECTIONS.

regulars at the bar. anyone who comes in often enough to be friends with dom and the crew. it’s a small place and dom makes a point to look after his return patrons, which means heavy pours, discounted drinks, and if you’re really lucky, the master code for the jukebox to get unlimited plays.

parent friends. look, dom has been raising charlie on his own for almost a decade now, and he’s doing his damn best to make sure he does a decent job of it, but that doesn’t mean he couldn’t use some advice from time to time, or, at very least, somebody to commiserate with over the struggles of raising a kid ― more than that, a teenager

employees. the folks who work at the bar are almost like a family to dom, and there’s not a whole hell of a lot he wouldn’t do for them. he trusts them with his business when he’s got to look after his kid, and likewise, he’d bend over backwards to help any one of them out in whatever way he could if they were in a tight spot or struggling.

prison pals. i don’t know if this one’s a long shot or not, but it would be interesting to see somebody dom met when he was locked up. were they friends ? enemies ? i just think it could be a fun reunion to explore, and the presence of somebody from that part of his life making a reappearance now would certainly stir up some feelings

a friend of charlotte’s. maybe somebody who didn’t know dom personally at first, but knew him through his late wife and made a point to check in on him and charlie periodically after her passing, whether out of personal concern or care for their friend who couldn’t be there for her family anymore. anyway, this one promises a lot of angst. this is probably the person he calls late at night when he can’t stop thinking about her. they’re a lifeline of sorts.

exes. just because dom hasn’t been in a successful relationship since his marriage doesn’t mean he hasn’t tried to move on and meet somebody else. there are a million different reasons why it might not work out when you’re venturing into a relationship with him, of all people, but his intentions are always good. he just... well, he doesn’t really know what he’s doing anymore, okay ?

something more. this one scares him, because he doesn’t know how to handle the idea that he might be starting to feel something for someone again ; he’s guarded with his heart, even moreso now that he’s got charlie’s to protect, too, but something about this person makes dom want to let down his walls just a little bit, maybe let somebody in. they make him feel safe. maybe it’s still too soon to think about having feelings for somebody else, but it’s been ten years, and charlie deserves more than just him, doesn’t he ? and maybe... maybe he deserves more too

#↳ intro ( dom )#when i tell y'all i haven't even had this man one day yet and he already owns my heart #there's wcs in here so pls hit me up if you wanna plot #nottinghillintro

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pxppet · 2 years

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Grumpy and Sunshine – ‘Parade’

Day 23 of the Proud Egos 2022 event, featuring Chase’s first ever pride festival! Chase and Stacy are both trans here. This takes place while they’re both in college! (Meimei uses he/she/they by the way!)

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“Come on, Chase it’s not that terrible!” Stacy says, hoisting her backpack up higher on her shoulders as she and Chase make their way through the crowded Brighton streets.

“Stace- I- I’m just really nervous. You know I’ve never been to these before, hell, I don’t even think the towns around in Iowa had them… It’s a lo- Woah!” Chase shouts as Stacy grabs his hand and tugs him into a run, laughing. Chase groans and pants along behind her as she grins and weaves through the crowd. He sidesteps and shouts apologies as his girlfriend jogs forwards.

“Look around you, Chasey! Look how bright and gorgeous everyone is!”

“All I can see is you almost bangin’ into them!” Chase says, dodging a man with rainbow shaped pasties who giggles good-naturedly at Chase’s apology.

“Oh, come off it, turtle,” Stacy teases, finally slowing to a stop at a place significantly louder, with cheering and bumping music. Chase pants, rubbing the back of his neck. He tries to focus on the music, the colour, the joy all around him. But shit man, all he can feel is how weirdly his packer fits in his pants, and how exposed his binderless chest feels, and how embarrassing he must look with the rainbow dyed hair-

“Chase, baby…” Stacy is suddenly hugging him, blocking him softly against a wall to help him hide. She always knows exactly what to do. Chase hadn’t realized it, but he had doubled over and was clutching his ears over his hearing aids. “Honey, let’s go sit down.”

Fifteen minutes later, Chase is face down on a smooth dark brown wooden table in a coffee shop, tracing the woodgrain with lazy eyes. Stacy comes walking over with two waters, and something that smells delicious. Chase perks his head up hopefully at the tart, cinnamony smell.

“Hi, turtle,” Stacy signs to him in ASL, Chase having turned off his hearing aids to help with the overstimulation.

“Hi, what do you have?” he signs back. Stacy grins, flipping back her rainbow dyed strands of hair and tucking it into her trans flag patterned headband. She sets down a plate covered in apple cobbler, Chase’s favourite dessert. He sits up straight, grinning to himself. Stacy beams, and even though Chase can’t hear it, he can picture her laugh. Like sunshine and lemongrass and cigarettes after a long day. He calms down significantly at the thought.

“Love you,” he throws her the sign as he digs in with a plastic fork. She throws it back, then sits down across from him.

The parade is passing by outside. Stacy’s smile falters softly, and she rests her head on one palm. She would be lying if she said she didn’t feel guilty dragging him here. The floats and dancers and musicians alike are drenched in colour, just like she is. But, taking a glance at Chase, he is dressed in grey and black and white. The only colours of pride on him is the hair she made him dye in order to match her. She cringes and looks away.

Chase notices, and taps her for attention. “Sweetheart? Why are you sad?”

“I’m fine,” she taps against her chest. Chase doesn’t believe her and gives her a ‘look’. She sighs. “You aren’t proud.”

Chase lowers his head. “Complicated,” he signs. Stacy is about to respond, when a loud, bustling group of drag queens burst into the coffee shop, clearly having a fantastic time. Chase shrinks into himself a bit, and seems intently focused on his cobbler.

The queens seem to single him out nonetheless, and two of them come over to the table.

“Hey babes!” greets one with very tall hair and a flowing, waving purple dress. He’s gorgeous. His friend - another queen in a neon green gymnastics suit and less massive hair that is full of glitter, wearing a pin that says “She Her Me I!” – waves lazily and smiles. “We noticed you looked so sad! Tell me what’s up, babe.”

“Oh, he’s deaf, one second!” Stacy taps Chase, and indicates to turn on his hearing aids. Chase turns them on and looks up at the two, looking much like a bug who’s had his damp loggy home lifted off of him.

“Hey sweetie, wanna tell Meimei what’s the matter?” says the one in the purple dress, smiling so her eyes crease softly in crow’s feet.

“Um… I just feel all… Y-you know. I’m- Struggling. I’m struggling a lot with- w-with-“

“Feeling proud of being himself,” Stacy finishes helpfully as she notices his stutter. Meimei taps his chin and nods.

“Honey,” she touches Chase’s hand softly. “Every one of us here has had that struggle. I just need you to know you are not at the end of the tunnel. I mean, check out me and the ladies!” She waves at the rest of the group, who cheer and laugh. “We all feel outta the water at first, don’t you doubt that. But we grew and changed, learned to accept and love, til we broke that mold in half and came out as proud, wonderful queer people. You’re still cracking the mold, and it gets tiring, don’t I know it baby. But trust me, it’s worth it to get to the outside. It’s worth it to step into that big bright sunny rainbow.” Meimei pats his hand firmly, and gives him a nod just as assured.

The other queen reaches into her bag and pulls out a pin. It’s simple, a ribbon of the trans flag curled through a safety pin. “Start with this,” she whispers, like they’re sharing something special - some important secret. “You’ll find that sunny sky soon as can be.”

And as quick as they came, the girls shuffle back to their friend group. Chase cups the pin in his hands, tracing the seams of the ribbon. He could wear this. It’s subtle, small, barely noticeable if you’re not looking. He can always take it off after. Yeah… Chase can wear his colours, at least at the parade’s festival.

Once he’s finished his snack, Chase and Stacy step out into the street as the stragglers of the festival pass by. And Chase can see it, finally. He sees it in the teen boys that run by holding hands, joyful at the freedom to just be; in the queens from earlier singing for a young girl with her mums; in the older man with a bare chest strapped in leather; in a group of three men wearing pasties and lacking binders with pride; he sees it in the blue pink and white ribbon adorned on his chest, bright and shining against his grey….

He sees the sun, peeking through the softly cracking mold.

#chase brody #stacy brody #proud egos 2022 #trans pride #gay pride #pride month #jacksepticeye egos #jacksepticeye #writersofjack #writings #writers of jack #jse egos #jse chase #jacksepticeye chase

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elytrafemme · 2 years

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so 💫 cough syrup ✨✨

this chapter has quite a bit going on and i regret not doing a big ask like this one for the last chapter but i found the time to do it for this chapter >:)

so fist off before i get into the whole thing with jack, this part in particular stood out to me.“Except maybe, like, Ranboo, though it’s not exactly like he’s ever seen him angry. He just seems too mellow for it. Red flag, maybe, who knows.” especially considering the last ranboo pov which featured what might be (i don’t quite remember) the first time we saw ranboo get angry, or annoyed at least. and it mainly had to do with dream! but he didn’t really act on his anger and this little bit makes me worried to see the moment ranboo has his hashtag angry moment. if there is one… i think he deserves to be a little angry :}

“oh. That’s kind of really fucked up. But Jack just laughs bitterly before Tubbo can think on that further and continues” jack!!! jack manifold!!!! i’m just!!!! okay so this whole bit with his dad feels so fulfilling to see! like getting this enlightening look into a character that’s been mentioned in the background. it feels nice but also it’s unfortunate because the guy has a not so great living situation and it’s rare someone acknowledges his accomplishments. i want to give him a good pat on the back.

“but has bad habits so interwoven in his DNA that he can’t keep a promise not to indulge for even a week.” he sounds so hopeless when talking about his family and aaaaa. i want to take tubbo on a long walk and tell him he’s not a bad guy but he is fictional. i would say more but i don’t know much about addictions but i want!!! to make him!!! be nice to himself!!!!!

^_^ holy crap just figure out how to do that right here what the <_> i think i like the second one better. anyway!!! first beeduo texting interlude and how does ranboo manage to be a bad awkward lier over text. i’m so worried about ranboo and dream (i’m assuming that dream work is the work he has along with some actual school work) but i know we have some stuff to get through before we get the bright sunshine. and then tubbo tries to be supportive of course, it’s very nice of him, unfortunately ranboo doesn’t know how to take those things and!!! he’s probably more on guard now :{

“they’re fine as school friends, I don’t mind them, but- but when it. I don’t- I don’t want them over, I don’t want to trust them, I don’t want that.” i don’t know how to emphasize enough how much i love the tommy and tubbo scene. like idk how to put it into words but i’ll try. like 1. we get a glimpse of what’s going on in tommy’s brain in regards to trust 2. we see more of the effect that dream had on tommy’s mental health 3. we see how hard it must be for tommy after finding out ranboo has ties with dream and like!!!!!! yea i’m just like jumping up and down in my mind over this interaction. ye

SECOND BEEDUO TEXTING INTERLUDE!!! okay so this one is shorter, ranboo finds a way out by saying he has work to do. he also doesn’t want to show tubbo any photos. mr is being closed off and difficult. however i love the :) faces in their texts it helps with the tone methinks. all that jazz. then again i like adding smiles so maybe it’s just me.

i have so many thoughts from the wilbur bit i’ll try and speed run it!!!! 1.tubbo over analyzing the situation and assuming wilbur wants a conversation out of him. 2.trans tubbo:} also the knowledge that phill might(?) be trans and he’s just illusive enough that might not be true but it probably is 3.tubbo almost talking to tommy and then not 4.wilbur and tubbo not talking and then almost talking and then not 5.ranboo not being on shift! what is this man doing! 6.banana muffin :} 7.beeduo texting interlude 3 in which ranboo lies through his teeth 9.ranboo has been out a lot and no one knows where… this could be fundy but it’s probably dream… or idk. i want him to be okay >:{ 10.niki and puffy!!!!!!!

okay and also ranboo being alone for the holidays. oh boy!!! so like he can’t go over to tubbos but tubbo can go to him but that still leaves ranboo alone for a bit. and idk i feel like something bad might happen. maybe i’m wrong but! i feel like something bad is going to happen with most things that’s been going on past like two or three chapters.

tubbos whole thing he has going on with his self worth and perception of himself based on his family is great. like not great for him

but great to read.

and oh boy

the last text message feels so ominous like holy crap. i swear if something happens to ranboo and he’s not at school or something and boom big things go down idk what i’ll do. to be fair i don’t think that big things are coming quite yet. or maybe they are…

anyway this chapter has been amazing, here’s a bonus collection of things/quotes that make me hold csbeeduo in my hands and shake them around like dice:

“Forget Ranboo for a second– a hard task–“

“It was nice crying, he’ll admit, and it was really nice being hugged by Ranboo”

2 instances of people assuming that beeduo are in a relationship hashtag gay

“Tubbo’s silently appreciative of the fact that Wilbur considered Ranboo just to be his friend, even though there’s a thought in the back of Tubbo’s head that tells him that they’re a little past that point.” (i find it super funny if tubbo is like sure we can be ambiguous in our relationship and ranboo is still like idk if this guy thinks we’re friends… what is friends???? how do i make friends??? duality of the csbeeduo) (even though i think ranboon is probably aware that they are friends still)

“But Ranboo hasn’t initiated any texts with Tubbo, and he’s ending all their conversations quickly, and Tubbo’s worried, dammit.”

“well, okay, he knows Ranboo, likes him a little more than he’s ever going to think too much about, but he doesn’t… know Ranboo.”

“Tubbo wants to get Ranboo, wants to know what makes his head tick, wants to know what’s made him so upset. Tubbo wants to fucking help, more than just knowing,”

and of course thank you for writing this chapter it was so much fun!! i tried to keep my big ask slightly small. so many thoughts and not enough words

ohhhh the intricacies of anger and how it exists in people who have been told routinely to suppress it or feel as if they are at risk if they express it in any way.... <333333333 oh cs!ranboo my favorite little writing experiment

im glad it feels fulfilling :D i wanted it to be kind of jarring to bring him to the forefront almost out of nowhere but also like, like its not entirely nonsensical. his character has a lot of convoluted morals and questionable decisions and good intentions and i think it makes him interesting to explore so im really REALLY glad people like him like. genuinely it means a lot. bc it makes me feel excited to pursue his character more :>

cs!tubbo and the neverending belief that he fits into an archetype and his role in the world was premeditated and he's only fighting against fate in what feels like to him a hopeless future

tommy's character is so genuinely difficult to work on in a lot of ways bc so much of it comes easily to me but it's also very difficult to write a lot of what his circumstances are. it's hard to convey the idea that he doesnt want to make tubbo pick a side while also showing how absolutely devastating it can be for someone that these decisions are made the way that they are. the fact that hes terrified of ranboo but also grateful for how ranboo has benefited tubbo. when youre trying so desperately to avoid something that isnt a set-in-stone certainty it creates outright paranoia , thats the definition of the thing nearly, and it becomes irrational and distressing and complicated. its hard to write but im dedicated to doing at the very least an okay job at it

looping the text messages comment just to say. >:) we love foreshadowing and leading up to big moments in a story <_> youre right that guy IS kinda funky

LOT in that wilbur scene i had been looking forward to writing it, both to show more of wilbur's character but also to fit in a lot of context about whats happening around tubbo at that point in the story.

these next few chapters i feel like are really barren of cs!beeduo content but i swear to you all soon you will get SO much beeduo content you almost wish i never had made this have a happy ending /lh

thank u for the comment appreciate ur words in whatever quantity. <3

#nightmare.ask #cough syrup spoilers #nightmare.cough-syrup #long post #sleepy anon ☁️

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