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[my-secret-shame-but-fanfiction]

Cancelled

Jake Lockley x GN!Reader • Rating: T •Masterlist• ao3• want to be tagged? | requestinfo• MK Bingo 2024 Masterlist• ko-fi •

Summary: Your plans change.

🌛For @moonknight-events MK Bingo Spring 2024 Event🌜

A/N: Sat on a few of these fics for ages because I'm overthinking them, but thought 'ahhh, I need to post them now in time for the event!' Having a deadline is very helpful.

Warnings: Reader experiencing some sensory issues, Jake reading smutty books, overuse of italics, typos, not beta read, rail-road sentences, please let me know if I've missed a warning!

Word Count: 801

Your phone buzzes on the bed. The drone is muffled slightly by the pillow it’s under. You finish fixing your outfit in the mirror and sigh. 

The material was ever so slightly wrong today. Normally it was fine, but now the feel of it just irritated you. But this was the seventh outfit you’d tried on and honestly if you were going to make it to the restaurant by 8pm, even with Jake’s ingenious driving, you had to leave now. 

You pick up your phone, glancing at the screen as you unlock it. 

One message. 

From one of your friends you were meeting up with. Probably something along the lines of ‘see everyone soon’. Usually you were excited to see them. They were some of your oldest and dearest friends, and you loved their company. But today it just felt off. Getting dressed up and going out. Eating at a semi expensive (for your budget anyway) restaurant that you didn’t even like that much. Putting on your ‘social interaction face’. It all just seems far too exhausting. 

Your eyes widened as you read the messages on the group chat. 

‘Can’t make it, stupid traffic at the tunnel! Been stuck for 50 mins and haven’t moved!’

‘I can’t either, babysitter fell through!’

‘So sorry everyone, maybe it’s for the best, I’ve got a horrible headache and was gonna power through, but maybe it’s best if we reschedule?’

The last message had you at-ted. 

‘It’s that okay with you? Sorry you let you down! <3’

Relief floods your veins and you hastily type a, ‘no worries, let’s reschedule’, adding several happy face emojis out of paranoia that your message could be misread, before you wish everyone well and to have a good evening. 

Jake hears you throw your bedroom door open, but doesn’t glance up from where he’s slouched over your armchair reading. It’s one of those bodice-ripping paperbacks from the 80s with the fabulously illustrated covers. Jake’s guilty pleasure. While he knows that Marc and Steven wouldn’t care, and most likely wouldn’t be bothered at all by his reading choices, he also very much does not want them to know. A feeling he’s sure he should try to unpack at some point. 

But that was a future Jake task. 

Which is why he’d taken to either hiding them behind the cistern in Steven’s flat or keeping them at yours, tucked neatly on your bookshelf (with your permission) behind a row of your books. 

“You ready to go amor?” He asked as he turned the page. 

You bounded over to him, ripping your stupid, itchy top off in the process. “Excellent news!” You stopped in front of him, smacking your hands onto the armchair for emphasis. 

Jake didn’t even flinch, half absorbed in his book and half used to your dramatic flare.

“Oh?” He glanced up at you and paused, a small frown of interest crossing his face. “You don’t have a top on.” 

“Exceptional observation skills Lockey.” 

He smirks. 

“Guess what?” 

“You’re embracing a new life as a nudist?” 

“The meal’s cancelled.” 

“What?” 

“The meal’s cancelled. You know cancelled, as in not happening.” You grin.

He gives you a playful look and swats your upper arm softly with his book. (His middle finger pressed inside to keep his page.) “I know what cancelled means, why?”

“Traffic, no babysitter, and headache.” You list the reasons as you count them on your hand excitedly. 

He smiles. “Really weren’t feeling it today were you?”

“How could you tell?” You say playfully. 

“Well, you kicking the door open to tell me was a good give away.”

You laugh.

“Plus, you really were leaving it pretty fine to get there on time.” He slips his bookmark between the pages and puts the book down on the floor before inching forward, he wraps his arms around your waist and gently pulls you into his lap, giving you plenty of time to step back if you wanted to. “I know how much being late makes you anxious.” 

You snuggle up to him, wrapping your own arms around his shoulders and kissing his cheek. His day old stubble rubs against your skin. But this sensation is comforting. Like home. 

“So you letting it get to this time without us going, or without you telling me off for reading instead of putting my shoes on.” 

“I don’t tell you off.” You grumble, your words muffled by how your mouth is pressed against his neck. 

Jake laughs. “Playfully.”

You tut affectionately. “Alright, playfully.” You adjust your position on his lap, getting comfortable. 

“So, what do you want to do tonight?” He presses a light kiss to your temple.

“Hmm, how about… pizza and you can read some of your smutty book to me?” 

He laughs again and kisses your lips. “Sounds good.” 

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[batmanisagatewaydrug]

going to format this like a reddit post because it’s the only way. i (transmasc) don’t know if i’m sexually attracted to the girl (transfem) im having sex with. i’ve known for a while that i’m asexual and fuck for fun, and when i see my friend who i’m fucking, i don’t have any immediate overwhelming desire to have sex with her, unless we’re like, in the moment yknow? like i totally forget that it’s even an option bc i could just sit there and talk to her for hours as my friend bc i love (platonic) her dearly and we have a lot of stuff in common. my only quip is that like, is that sexual attraction ???? being in her bed and having our hands on each other and kinda feeling it then? but not at other times? is sexual attraction constant?? maybe im bisexual and aromantic. or maybe i’m regular bisexual and i just dont like romantic relationships. makenzie why are human minds so goddamn difficult to parse the emotions of? i want to be her friend but im confused by my emotions towards her. how am i consistently having sex with someone im not literally sexually attracted to? and liking it? i mean that kinda has to be sexual attraction right? idk. help girl (gender neutral)

hi anon,

have a seat. drink some water. take a deep breath. we're wildly overthinking this.

what you call yourself - asexual, aro bi, bi but not into romance, whatever - that doesn't actually matter.

here are the things I'm worried about here: are you feeling at all pressured or coerced here? given the choice would you want to stop having sex with this person? do you feel comfortable setting boundaries and saying no when you have sex? you don't need to be overcome with raw sexual yearning for your sexual buddy, but do you enjoy and look forward to having sex with her? is this a positive experience for you?

it's fine to have sex even if you don't walk around thinking about it drooling like a horny cartoon wolf, whether it's because you're asexual or just allosexual without a particularly vigorous sex drive. (the line between those things can be pretty blurry and is pretty up to you to define, by the way.) sex can be fun and feel great; it's fine to want to do that even if you don't have a longing in your loins for it.

think of it this way? I don't particularly like most vegetables, but I like how my body will feel when I eat them, so I make a point of doing that as much as I can. and when I cook them they'll usually come out pretty tasty, and I'll enjoy or at least fell neutral about them. and still doesn't mean I like vegetables, or at least I don't particularly identify as someone who likes vegetables, but I did. eat those vegetables.

the sex is vegetables.

I can't tell you if this is sexual attraction. but also it doesn't matter very much as long as you're being safe and having fun.

#sex edventures 2024

[crow-with-a-pencil]

Sunnyyyyyy

#my ârt #fnaf daycare attendant #fnaf #sundrop #stop overthinking it stop overthinking it just post #this is like the uhhhhhh #s'éventh or eighth pose I sketched out #< idek what autocorrect did there #something about sun I swear it's so hard to think of poses #something something bright and goofy but more simple to contrast moons poses #which is a difficult combo to think of stuff for #but ITs HARD SO I HAVE TO CHANGE IT UP ANYWAY #oughhhh #next time I complain about poses someone just sauté me with some veggies pls #need to stop overthinkin it

[inchidentally]

lando is nervous; oscar takes big steps; is oscar there? yeah oscar's there <3

#landoscar #twinklaren #mctwinks #tw flashing #lola alert #I love how lando stops so far back and oscar bundles up behind him #/overthinking but gives me very shy person looking out for fellow shy person #sorry these gifs are awful I'm just glad I dl that story since mclaren never posted this :( #mine #vegas gp 2023

[atomgecko]

Dren, my Nerevarine OC 🌙⭐️

Also known as the Two-In-One God-Slayer —

#idk if anyones interested but yeets them in the void #wanna work on my social media mindset and feel better about everything as a whole #so im just gonna post whatever i like and stop overthinking everything #the elder scrolls #elder scrolls #tes #morrowind #nerevarine #morrowind oc #dunmer #OC tag: Dren #my art #my ocs #my stuff: tes

[omppupiiras]

oh no, he's too small to open a glögi carton!! 😭 anybody want to help him?

#käärijä #peas and corn käärijä #i gotta say i really appreciate everyone who's said nice things about my cornson it means a lot!!! thank you! 😭 #im gonna stop overthinking about posting him but just try not to do it too much for my own peace of mind 🙊 #but the whole problem might sort itself out if i were to suddenly run out of inspiration lol #(doubtful)

[thepiecesofcait]

Thinking about Amis meetings by candlelight and how unfamiliar I am with a light source coming from that direction.

High quality and detail shot below the cut!

Freckly Enjolras my beloved

Tumblr stop compress-blurring every picture I upload to heck challenge 2k24.

#Enjolras #Les Amis #Les Miserables #I cant get this eye right #but i am hoping to stop overthinking every almost finished drawing i have and just #post it anyway! #vest inspired by the floral fabric we found for our local production #cait makes #digital art #canon era

[snickerdoodlles]

hey who wants some silly thoughts on theerapanyakul texting habits

#im gonna post some anyways im just giving u a heads up to make my brain stop overthinking it

[trentcrimminallybeautiful]

help this post has infected my brain i can't stop thinking about some journalist ex-colleague of trent's just watching the entirety of richmond's football team + several members of the staff (including ted lasso) scoop him up and sprint across the pitch holding him aloft. this has so much comedic potential. im just picturing so many different like. tableaus. jan maas giving an absolutely stoic trent crimm a piggyback ride. exact same position but it's jamie tartt and trent crimm appears to be pointing directly ahead as tartt cackles and charges. they topple over. dani rojas has elected to carry him bridal style for some reason. sam obinsanya, who was supposed to be one of the reasonable ones, follows his example. one of the players has trent fully sitting on his shoulders somehow and somehow they don't fall. both the participating coaches (ted and beard) simply throw him over their shoulder and book it. for one of them he appears to be laughing loudly for the other his arms are crossed and he is making such a pointed expression of grumpy tolerance (like a cat who has been picked up and is resigned to it but he's not gonna like it!) that it is clearly exaggerated. trent makes exactly one (1) attempt to carry someone else (it's roy) and he actually does fairly well considering but they do end up sprawled on the grass and just. roy flat on his back staring at the sky, trent having half pushed himself up on his elbows, hair a complete mess, laughing. they're all arguing about times. there are fans sitting in on practice who can Just See All This. like. you know how there's like bullshit nothing articles about dumb shit? just. some "article" that's like "richmond appear to be doing wife-carrying races as training for some reason, and even more bafflingly, trent crimm appears to be the wife in question. anyway here's our top twenty photos of this because it is funny and weirdly wholesome." and then it's all over twitter for like three days. trent's ex-wife is texting him like "babe why are you a meme now". keeleys like "good news this is great pr! bad news [sends trent a candid shot of ted scooping him up unexpectedly and trent very obviously blushing]" and trents like "ah." some of the photos are hilariously blurred in motion. they're pretty much all smiling. forget about the realistic "but would they get criticism for not taking practice seriously" shhhh. everyone is enjoying this. it's about the wholesome nature of the whole team playing around and genuinely having fun together and also trent is too. formerly feared respected scary journalist cackling like a little kid while balanced precariously on the shoulders of a premiere league footballer. it's cute. it's also extremely funny. how did anyone find this dork scary

#im going in circles and not articulating this as well as i'd like but i'm picturing it so vividly and spinning spinning spinning it #it's so funny and wholesome to me #he's FRIENDS WITH THEM ALL!!!! #and also just the hysterical image of former colleagues/people who know trent by reputation just seeing this #utterly ridiculous and wholesome photos of someone who is clearly genuinely having fun #although im also not really diving into the implications of photos here. #i guess rather than a journalist it could be like #keeley taking photos for The Nelson Road Group Chat that def exists nad then being like 'these are really wholesome and funny actually #and also probably good pr we should post them' and getting permission? #SHH BRAIN STOP OVERTHINKING THIS #LET ME ENJOY SILLY THE ENTIRE TEAM CARRIES TRENT AROUND FOR SOME REASON POST #<- please that makes it sound like they're just treating him like a little purse dog. #not even the wife carrying races just. #picks him up. walks away #dlfkjlhkjfgh

[jankwritten]

yall wanna know how fucked up my anxiety is about some shit

i scroll past a post that's about a topic i don't like. whatever, it's fine. i scroll past a video that's a topic i don't care about. that's normal.

i scroll past a video that's a topic i don't like or care about but the person presenting it is a person of color? i IMMEDIATELY feel immensely guilty and need to "compensate" by "proving" it wasn't because of race by also skipping other random posts, JUST IN CASE someone thinks I'm racist because I didn't want to watch a video on a topic I didn't like or care about, that happened to be presented by a person of color.

this just in on: the police in my brain are loud and i'm scared of them

#this is also because i grew up in a racist area and in that culture and my own ignorance i also Was Kinda Racist #but like in that way where you don't realize it's racism until you're out of it and now feel so ashamed that you forcefully block all #those memories just so you don't ever have to associate yourself with them ever again? #(mind you I was like. 15-16 and closeted and scared scared scared all the time so I acted like the Crowd and that was awful of me to do) #BUT NOW that i've grown and am learning and have taken classes on anthropology and all kinds of stuff I just feel like I notice my own shit #like TENFOLD now #it's my anxiety overthinking thing plus if anybody ever knows I could have done anything SLIGHTLY problematic the world will explode #plus my constant paranoia that someone is always watching me and just Knows that I'm Secretly a Bad Person (even though I don't think I am? #also I feel like I need to clarify that the kind of racism in my town wasn't like. klan shit. it was like very hidden racism? #it was like. kids casually doing black accents and making jokes with racist undertones. the kind of racism where race was always #the butt of the joke instead of an outright HATED thing. and I think that's why it was so hard to unlearn #it's like that thing where in order to stop wanting to kill yourself you have to stop joking about wanting to kill yourself #this has become a vent post accidentally i'm so sorry #this is just. one of my Major anxieties that engulfs me every day because of 1) anxiety 2) potential OCD 3) being a bad person in my past #this is another reason I fucking hate florida #because I just know if I had grown up in my home town in MI I would not have been raised in that environment #and it's my own fucking fault for falling into the crowd like that. #all this to say i traumatized myself and likely some people around me by being A Fucking Idiot when I was a kid #and now adult me is doing everything in their power to not ever be that person ever fucking again #tw vent post #tw racism #tw past racism #but im better now and I know my mistakes and I refuse to make them again #fuck florida for every fucking reason under the sun

[thelassoway]

Jason Sudeikis as Ted Lasso » Ted Lasso 3.01 Smells Like Mean Spirit

#Ted Lasso #Theodore Lasso #Jason Sudeikis #*mine: gif #going to try not to overthinking how late this is or the fact a lot of these scenes have been giffed a lot/seen a lot #now to see if I can finish up ep. 2 today to maybe post tomorrow or Monday.... #something about the eye movements in a lot of these scenes #I definitely giffed the under the couch getting the yellow Lego brick scene for a reason but it just didn't fit here #but I'm thinking about that a lot too #it could've been any color and it was just the one missing piece. I'm reading too much into it. He was just being thorough #ugh you idiot with that face #stop staring at me swan #damn I had a feeling this would fail it looks like I need to pull a Roy and quit the giffing/I should not have started to take part in S3 #I'm too slow and my stuff as always been meh. #kind of want to delete this post and other stuff too....I'm in a mood today and this did not help #I thought posting this would help my mood but no #also definitely gave up on working on my ep 2 gifset so this is it. i guess....

[lucky-draws]

in another life kaz was an 80s pop star. to me

#mgs #metal gear solid #kazuhira miller #just wanted to draw his luscious locks . #kaz the smash hits poster boy. listen to his new single love deterrence out now. #quite like that last one bc of how loose n sketchy it is. i need to be less averse to drawing/posting stuff like that. stop #overthinking n worrying about detailed polished anatomy. things look better if you just get messy and Suggest things sometimes.

[hecatesbroom]

So I may or may not have gotten a little bit carried away trying to justify my Dorothy is queer headcanon, wrote a little thing, and figured I might as well post it:

Summary:

A little introspective character piece; an exploration of Dorothy's sexuality from her point of view. -- Their home is a perfect representation of Dorothy’s one-in-four theory: one woman who doesn’t have a type, for every three who do. Dorothy supposes it’s normal, then, that she’s never looked at a man and felt instantly attracted to him before. She’s simply the one in four who doesn't have a type, who needs more time to get to know a man, needs to know if he even wants her in the first place before she knows if she’s attracted to him. She’s carefully stored away the memory of how, as a little girl, before she’d learned how the world worked and what her place in it was, she did have a type. How she'd dreamed of having a wife.

#the golden girls #dorothy zbornak #my only resolution for the new year was to stop overthinking and just post the stuff i write so the internet can suffer my nonsense with me #so here we are lol #my writing

[mrpsychokiller]

sorry if im posting too much. i always feel like im posting too much nowadays but idk what to do with this feeling. im probably just online too much (because again i have nowhere else to go) but then i just developed this bizarrely debilitating anxiety that i post too much and i have some kind of Limit that i need to stay under of how many posts im allowed to make a day or otherwise everybody will unfollow me and block me and hate me because im Annoying and i KNOW its just paranoia but it still makes me anxious every single time i press reblog and makes me obsessively analyze how many posts ive made every day before "allowing" myself to post again

#🧃 #ive seriously become like. intensely obsessive #like keeping track of how long ago since the last post i made and then only allowing myself to post again after 1 hour or something #or like checking my queue compulsively to see exactly what and when its gonna post #and putting a bazillion posts on my queue and drafts instead of just reblogging because i Cant Do It Now because ive already Posted Too Muc #i cant stop overthinking everything when literally nobody else in this website cares that much #i like posting but i just cant get myself to relax and do it just for fun #my brain is fucking broken by now

[kate-m-art]

Uhhhh another dump and run sketch post to prove I'm alive I guess, varied subjects and quality lol see you guys in another month or so

Uhhhh probs don't have explanations that make any sense but mirror twins beloved, Sir Sean, way too many of Autumn and co., Viking besties, and modern au Antione and Mea skating cause adore them sm TvT

#sketch dump #i dont even know how to tag this sorry #just Stuff #havent really gotten anything bigger done but figured it was enough to put together in one post #autumn link #viking link #antione and mea #mirror twins #kate rambles #may private later idk love the first one a lot but akdkdkkf #and wanted to share it #but will only really make any sense to me and one other friend but maybe its looks oki enough thats fine idk ajdjfj #gonna just post and stop overthinking it ajdjfk #tw blood #only in one and not really realistic but ajdjdk #just in case

[brightokyolights]

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#hello time of the day where im deleriously sleepy so buckle your seatbelts and prepare for me to make a dot post that is a bit weird #Anyways! idk why but i really struggle with allowing myself to pet cats? #like i love them. i am a cat person. my biggest dream is to have as many cats as humanly possible #but for some reason whenever i am around them... i just feel so reluctant to bother them? #i dont have this issue with dogs. like i will pet them and mess about and not be so worried about bothering them. im still conscious of not #harassing them because like. idk just boundaries i guess. i have this thing in my mind where its like i know they cant actually Say if im #they want to be pet so i try not to overstep. but yeah with cats i am just So much more wary. even though i know so much about them and #their body language etc. like i love cats i do. but im always so hesitant to try pick them up or pet them etc etc #i think part of it is also that i dont wanna bother owners. because even if they say its chill i personally think if i had a pet and #strangers came up to me like :O can i pet them :OOOOO id be kinda weirded out. idk if i am treating pets too similarly to children lmao #i just dont wanna be disrespectful or overstep ever #and i am 100% overthinking all this and idk how to stop dhdbddjjdjdjdjhdjdjdubsjsshsj #le text post