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luvwestwood · 5 months

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"AFK" - Choso Kamo (with twt links)

"..like fortnite, i’ma need your skin.."

3,012 words.

warnings. nsfw(18+), bf/gamer! choso, oral sex (m rec.), humiliation, desk sex, exhibitionism, trying not to get caught, feral choso, p in v, throat fucking, oral sex (m receiving), overstimulation, degradation, choso whimper links included lol,

notes. my previous drabble abt choso had a lil kick to it, definitely had to make it into a full one-shot! hope u guys enjoy, and thank u for 450 followers hehe, so I included twt links! ^^

credits to @/plutism for dividers, @/adrienwithane for banner.

russian translation by @juliabelll ❤️

Not too long ago, it was Choso's birthday. Being an amazing girlfriend you are, of course you built him a brand new PC. It cost you an arm and a leg, but that didn't matter at all when it came to Choso. Seeing him happy itched a part of your brain, especially when he was the one who would pay for everything: dates, your online shopping carts, you name it.

He never really bought anything for himself. You were getting tired of the countless times that he went on a tangent about how slow his previous machine was. It was doing your head in, so you saved up. For what you now call a 'not-blessing-in-disguise'.

Choso was obsessed with his new PC, and it wasn’t an exaggeration. Part of you was starting to regret it all. The man barely paid attention to you.

Am I the asshole for being mad that my boyfriend likes his gift a bit too much? No, I wouldn't think so. I should be delighted, but it's pretty much getting outrageous.

The fact that he has almost every single game out there on that PC in just a span of one week since he got it - means there's more for him to do. Every day, he'd wake up, do a bit of house stuff then sit his ass down to play with his friends. For as long as he can. Never leaving that room. Hell, he wouldn't even bother answering your messages until an hour later. 'Mb, was on the game' is something that was engraved in your brain by now.

Every time you'd come over, he'd ignore you simply by just gluing his eyes on the screen. If you try to nap, just go home. You've lost track of how many times he's managed to wake you up with his blood-curdling screams. There were times when Choso didn't even notice you leaving, which upset you quite a bit.

Of course, you had moments when you needed him the most. Like, badly. Freshly shaved, he's not even mentally there to take a peek. You could be naked and oiled up in his bed, Choso wouldn't even bat an eye.

…Advice to self, don't get him a PS5 this Christmas.

"Choso," You called out, sat on the edge of the bed behind him. No answer. Per usual, you wanted to rip that headset off his head.

Dark circles were forming around his eyes, endless cans of monster were scattered all over his desk. "Nah let's just fight Oscar, we've got a minute until the circle closes."

Rolling your eyes, a scoff escapes your mouth. Aaand he didn't hear you. Crossing your arms, you furrow your brows. He was honestly testing your patience. "Choso?!"

Choso flinches a bit, pulling one side of his headset away from his ear. His gaming chair spins around to face you. "Baby?"

He knew you were mad. You looked more than pissed. It was really because this recurring behavior of his was getting too much. "Your eyes are always on that screen! Did you even know that I was here!?”

“I-I’m sorry. Look, I'll get off after this game!” From his headset you could hear Choso’s friends teasing and picking on him. They probably heard you scolding your poor boyfriend. You couldn’t care less.

As soon as you were about to speak, he immediately spun his chair back around to face that stupid monitor again. He was too engrossed in the game. It was his squad of four against the only opposing team.

Groaning, you flop back onto his mattress. "..You always say that, and you never do." Muttering under your breath, you stare at the ceiling blankly. What felt like a hammer to your head, Choso's war cries could only get louder each second.

The past few days, you had no choice but to use your own fingers to toy with yourself. You were needy, and you missed your boyfriend's touch. Too bad he was too occupied. How come his keyboard and mouse get to be touched by him more than your....

Using all of your strength, you sat yourself up again on the edge of his mattress. Realizing there's no use in scolding him, you quietly walked up behind Choso, combing your fingers through his hair. You loved when it was down, and he loved it when you played with his hair. He found it relaxing. You could tell by the way his body was no longer tensed up, the back of his head falling heavy onto your hand.

Your hands left his hair, travelling down to his nape. With your freshly manicured nails (which he paid for), you gently scratched his skin on his neck. You could see goosebumps forming, but said nothing about it. Choso who was ticklish, tilted his head to the side - "Mmm," He hummed, telling you off as you were starting to distract him.

Letting out a laboured sigh, you stared at the back of his head. Wondering what to do with him, you pouted. Maybe I should just leave like every other day? No, I can't back down.

He seems really busy. Would he even notice if I crawled under his desk? Grinning, you got on your knees, crawling like a kitty underneath his desk but making minimal noise. You glanced behind your shoulder to see his reaction, but his eyes were still gawking at the flashing screen in front of him.

Coming face to face with his sweats, you kneeled, just in level with his lap. Peeking your head out from the shadows under his desk, Choso had only noticed you then. His eyes widened, the sight of you looking up at him like a puppy had started to cloud up his thoughts.

Grabbing onto his wrist, he slowly let go of his mouse. Bringing his hand to your cheek, he took it in the palm of his hand, eventually giving in and using his thumb to softly caress your lips. "..I missed you, Choso.." You whispered, softly sucking on his thumb. "..I need you,"

His breath hitched, your words were doing something to him. What a fool he was for ignoring you all this time? Just then, a cacophony of voices screaming through his headset broke him out of his trance. Choso's warm hand left your face, causing you to frown. Your fun was cut short. Way too short.

You had enough, deciding it was time you finally got what you wanted. Snaking your two hands up the soft cotton of his sweats, they stopped right at his crotch. His eyes anxiously shot down to you underneath him, telling you off and pointing to his headset.

Placing a finger onto your lips, you told him to just be quiet. His eyes frantically flickered from you, then to his monitor. Slowly, you slid down his pants. Smiling at the way he rose himself up from his seat slightly, so it would be easier to take them off. Of course, he wasn't wearing anything underneath.

Taking his long, thick cock into your hands, you jerked it ever so slightly. Choso cleared his throat, keeping his mouth shut all of a sudden in case he accidentally makes unwanted noise. He was practically melting under your touch, into the chair. Gliding your tongue over his pink tip, he didn't dare look at you. Not long after, your warm mouth wrapped over him, Choso letting out a sigh of relief at the feeling.

You knew how to push his buttons, bringing yourself to fully deepthroat his cock for a few seconds. His lips purse shut, Choso slightly biting down onto his bottom lip. His fingers started to press on the wrong keys, unable to focus on the game.

Pulling away, a string of saliva connected your tongue and his aching tip. You brought your lips back onto his cock, bobbing your head and hollowing your cheeks as you used your two hands to jerk him off at the same time.

The man above was folding at the pornographic sight underneath him. Hearing Choso moan by accident, he quickly covered it up with a cough. “…Yeah, no, I’m good- Just don’t- feel well..”Friends concerned, Choso had come up with a convincing lie in just seconds. His hand reached down to rake through your hair until his fist was full of it. [link]

He lightly pushed your head up and down his length, your mouth making sloppy noises all over, buckets of spit dripping down your chin and his balls.

Ripping his headset off, Choso didn't care about the game anymore. Or his friends. He groaned as you fondled with his balls, giving them a suck afterwards. His light grey pants were turning a darker shade than before. His two hands clawed into your hair on both sides of your face, Choso started to fuck his cock into the back your throat.

Moaning, his eyes shut tightly as his head fell back onto the cushion of his chair. His balls tightening as he heard how you constantly gagged over his thick cock. "Fuck.. Just like that.."

His moans were a mixture of curses and long groans, tears started to well up in your eyes. Choso opened his eyes again, looking down at you as he drew your mouth away from his cock. He smiled, seeing your makeup all ruined, your face covered with spit and so did his lap.

Rolling his chair away from the desk, he grabbed you from underneath. Only to pull it back again, placing it in front of his PC. Guiding his hand on your back, he bent you over on the chair, making your two legs kneel on the soft cushion so you wouldn't tire out. [link]

Holding tightly onto your hair, your head fell back towards him. Choso had ripped the fabric of your leggings that was unfortunately covering your cunt. Grabbing his cock, he lined himself up with your hole, his hands shaking from how eager he was.

Easily sliding in from the slick that covered your hole, you grabbed onto the arm rest in front of you; Choso stretching you out completely. Wasting no time, he began to move his hips back and forth, fucking his hard cock into you.

His monitor started to gently shake from how hard his cock was bullying into you, skin slapping as his balls that were full of weeks load cum made contact with your clit.

"C-Choso.." You cried out, your hand reaching back to his pelvis. Staring at yourself getting fucked like a slut through the reflection of his PC monitor, your ass rippled with each and every one of his thrusts.

Maintaining his brutal pace, his fingers were no longer woven into your hair, reaching out to the headset on his desk. Confused, you kept your eyes open to watch Choso place them over your head. "W-What..?"

His hands gripped onto the flesh of your hips, Choso leaned into your ear. "Keep moaning you slut, let them hear you." All of a sudden he groaned, feeling you clench around him at what he just said. "You like that, don't you?"

Spinning you slightly to one side, his leg went up onto the chair with you, allowing him more leverage to fuck you deeper. "Eyes up at that camera too, show them how pretty you look taking my cock," Tears started to stream down the sides of your cheeks, your face had flushed red.

Choso's hands took a hold of your hair again, his tip kissing your cervix repeatedly. "I.." Speechless, you lost your ability to form a basic sentence. His fat cock left you braindead, at this point you were seeing nothing but stars.

"..Use your words baby," A creamy white ring started to form at his base as his cock pistoned in and out of you. Choso's hand kept stamping down on your back from time to time to make sure you kept that arch. "..Isn't this what you've been wanting all week?"

"Y-you're so deep.. I can't.." Your hand reached back to his abs, twisting the white fabric of his tank top until it was all wrinkly. He took a hold of your wrist, twisting your arm behind you. Choso slightly bent over, his warm body resting against your back.

He quietly groaned into your ear, chanting your name like a prayer. You were fucked out of your mind. "You feel so good.. like this pussy was made for me." The pace of his thrusts slowed down, but his hips still rut into you hard each time. His strokes hard and deep, you swear could feel him all up in your guts. Your jaw had dropped, your head falling back onto his shoulder.

Choso's hands reached under your loose shirt, letting your tits spill out of your bra. Gently twisting your nipple between his finger tips, fondling with your whole breast afterwards, he forgot how much he loved wrapping his mouth around those.

"Your cock.. It feels so good.." You babbled, Choso sneaking his fingers underneath to rub lazy circles on your clit. Your legs began to tremble, fortunately your throat managed to choke out a whine.

Also seeing him in the reflection of his monitor, strands of his hair started to stick to his face. Multiple beads of sweat had formed on his forehead. Choso didn't want to leave your pussy. Not even Thor could pull him out. He enjoyed using you like a cock whore.

You felt so dizzy, mind full of his cock. Choso let out multiple whimpers as he felt his orgasm nearing, his index finger hooking onto the side of your mouth. The very last few seconds, his cock bottomed into you, trying to chase your orgasm. The desk hitting against he wall non-stop, his headset that was on you started to fall off your head.

Leaving a trail of wet kisses down your back, his hand grabbed onto the plush flesh of your ass, continuously giving it a spank every now and then.

The wet, slapping noises of your skin continued to follow, until you felt his thrusts come to a sudden halt. His hot cum shooting inside of you rope after rope, just before he pulled out to let the rest out onto your ass. "..Fuck.. look at that."

Using his thumb to spread your hole wide open, his load spilt onto the black leather of his gaming chair. You panted, tired and hole throbbing. You got what you wanted, that’s for sure. Forcing his headset off you, you couldn't do anything but lean against his desk, trying to regulate your breathing pattern back to normal.

"..We're not done here," Choso laughed behind you, your cunt still dripping of his thick load. His hands roughly turned your body around, placing you on top the desk to face him. Using his foot to push the chair away, he lined his cock with your hole again, using his cum that was already inside of you as lube.

"Oh m-my- Choso!" You yelped, one hand taking grip onto his shoulder for support, the other holding knocking his keyboard out of the way, trying to find something to hold onto other than his shoulder.

His forehead rested against yours, the staggering movement of his hips causing the desk itself to shake under the two of you. Choso watched as his cock disappeared in and out of your hole, grunts coming out through his clench teeth as he wrapped his large hands around your thighs. He wanted more, and wasn't going to stop anytime soon.

"..Good girl," He gritted through his teeth, "..I love t-this pussy, and you." Choso's hands pressed flat against the desk, his lips locking onto yours. His cock was coated in a mixture of his and your own cum, your sweaty bodies intimately hugging against each other.

Choso wanted to feel all you, he just craved more and more each minute. His hands shakily held onto the sides of your waist, his lips moving to your jaw to plant more kisses.

"You're so beautiful, look at me baby." Choso lightly tapped the side of your face, telling you to maintain eye contact.

Obeying, you kept your eyes open; looking into his but not a thought behind your own eyes. You only continued to whine under his touch, overstimulated from how much he's used you like a cock whore. You were so close to losing your mind, drunk off his cock.

Choso too, was lost in your pussy. God, was he whipped— If only he could stay inside you forever, he definitely would. This whole time he was busy cursing at himself, how much of an idiot he is to not appreciate what he has - you. Your cheeks were stained with your hot tears, Choso hushing you and wiping them away every now and then.

“S-Shit, I’m gonna cum again.” He pants, feeling his balls tighten for the second time, the tightness of your pussy heightening his stimulation.

Your hands cupped both of his cheeks, pulling him in for a kiss. His thrusts turning sloppy, you cooed. “..Cum for me, I want it all inside..”

This caused the coil inside of Choso to snap, him desperately whimpering into your ear as he hid his face in the crook of your neck. “F-fu-ck..” Tightly holding onto the flesh of your hips, he made sure his second load stayed inside of you.

Sliding his cock out, Choso rested his heavy cock just above your pussy. Making sure he planted a peck on your forehead, trying to catch his breath. The two of you laugh, your bodies aching and sweaty, his entire desk and chair a mess.

Reaching for something, you blinked as Choso grabbed his headset that ended up on the other side of the desk. Placing one side against his ear, he spoke into the mic. "..GG."

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subskz · 1 month

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Tall girl anon back. Omg I’m not sure about the picture, it probably is but in my memory I feel like it was more visible, but then again memories can be wrong. And although being into the “masculinity” of body hair in certain places is one way of interpreting it, I don’t think it’s the masculinity part. I think it’s just the whole sort of naturalness(???) of it. Humans are animals and things like pubic and pit hair are signs of hormones and sexual maturity and the presence of it just seems very sexy in a “raw” sort of way that idk how to describe. Anyway….

So I need to get this thing off my chest somewhere and my friends probs don’t wanna hear it so imma do it here since we’re all horny on here anyway.

These memories keep coming back to me… I went to a concert at one point, not gonna say when or who, all that’s important to know is that it was a kpop boy group. And I had a sex dream immediately after. This legit never happened before. I’ve had sex dreams, but not after concerts. But anyway… I’d never noticed in videos, but onstage (I had great seats) one of the members was visibly smaller than everyone else, by a lot. I looked it up and the next shortest member was three inches taller than him (he’s 5’6”) and something about seeing this skinny, short, very attractive guy (especially in comparison to the rest of his members) snapped something in me. In the videos, you don’t really notice it but in real life…. Wow…Like, I need to have him. He is so small and for whatever reason that makes me want him even more. And I feel so weird for that very specific feeling but the memories keep coming back and I can’t get rid of it. I need to hug him, I need to pin him down, I bet I could pick up his tiny little body— he’s so skinny that I refuse to believe that he weighs more than me. And this feral urge consumes me. I want to hold his face in my hands and tell him he’s so pretty but I also want to see his face twisted in pleasure and gasping with his eyes rolling back. I want to hold his little hands in my larger ones in the most wholesome way possible and I also want to see how far my long fingers could wrap around his neck. I want to kiss him and love him and hold him and ruin him. Or even just have the most vanilla sex possible just as long as I could hear him moan with his pretty, high-pitched voice. I’m not gonna try getting myself off because tbh I don’t think that’ll be enough to fix this and as much as this feeling is frustrating, I’m not entirely sure I want it to go away. Anyways……

Sorry for the big rant. But if I don’t let this out it may consume me more than it already has.

hihi it’s good to see u again! if there really is a highqual pic of lix’s happy trail out there i hope we find it someday 🔎 i completely agree w you abt finding body hair “sexy in a raw way” that describes it perfectly! there’s nothing more attractive than humans in their most natural state, no makeup, unshaved, their natural scent etc ♡_♡ slight tangent here but when lino’s skin isnt covered w that awful pale smoothing filter and u can see his real complexion with all his little bumps n acne scars…..literally makes me drool

the way this concert awakened smth in you that u already thought had been awakened LOL it seems like it was quite the lifechanging experience 😽 he sounds so adorable 5’6” men are kinda the perfect size…plus him having an itty bitty frame on top of that so you could probably pick him up like he’s weightless and manhandle him if you wanted to…that’s the goal isn’t it <3 being able to eclipse a boy’s hands w your own and scoop him up in ur arms and hold him up against the wall, making him feel small, safe and helpless all at the same time

i hope ur brain stops tormenting you w these thoughts soon but i cant even blame u for being so hooked on it he sounds like a dream for ppl w size kinks ❤️‍🔥

#ask #tall girl anon

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likesunsetorange · 4 months

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I’m a e2l fan so I want anything you could give us about it like characters likes /dislikes ? Small snippet (sorry Im so excited for this fic I’m asking for alot :,(no pressure though <3)

love you hope you’re doing good

hiii! you're so sweet, ily2! i'm mostly good! a little stressed bc school but i'm keeping it pushing haha

and you're not asking for a lot!! i've actually been talking a lot about this au with a few of my moots lately so i've been itching to share about it so honestly go crazy with asking about it!!! since i haven't gotten as many asks about this au i guess i'll make this ask kind of long and just kind of dump some of the stuff from my notes into it? and i have a tiny snippet i can share too!

so i'll just go on a long ass tangent below lol

okay, so first thing about this au, the one thing i really want to emphasize (without spoiling) is the whole thing about this au is that their breakup reason is important, but also that nobody in particular is at fault. sometimes life just happens, and things happen, and sometimes you just need to take a step back and re-evaluate yourself, your goals, and what you really want! it's about coming back together and choosing that person in the end because you realize not being with them is worse than whatever drove y'all apart!

tbh a lot of this au is partially inspired by my own breakup & how the experience of me getting over it! i was in my early 20s for the first time being single after being in a relationship since i was a teenager and i was like woah wtf idk how to be single/without a partner. so that's a big focus of that! learning how to find yourself and realign your goals and all that!

but we can get into the characters now!

eren:

definitely is a bit more obvious about missing mikasa, but tries to act like he doesnt (he has her highlight still up lol, not doing a good job at it)

mostly just works a lot while they're not together

after they breakup, mikasa moves out of their apartment, so he's stuck seeing all their stuff all the time

the first time they see each other its messy, they get into a big fight lol, they aren't allowed to hang out together lol

but he realizes pretty fast that he regrets the breakup, but he sees that mikasa seems to be doing okay, so he wouldn't wanna intrude on that

he gets armin in the breakup basically (mostly bc he sees armin more, but armin still talks to mikasa, just not as much as he does to eren obvi)

he picks up some of mikasa's hobbies bc he misses her so much lol he's down horrendous

at the very least does miss mikasa at least as a friend

mikasa

after their breakup, because she's kind of trying to spite eren, she starts going out a lot to cope—her "hot girl era" essentially lol

she definitely starts prioritizing herself a lot more, and spends more time with her friends and figuring out what she wants outside of eren

but she definitely misses eren, she's just better at hiding it lol

she partially thinks he just doesn't want anything to do with her anymore (a lot of this is just them being fucking idiots lol), and she basically doesn't try to stalk him or see what he's up to bc she doesn't wanna know out of her own peace of mind

she has very bad flight anxiety so when they fly to italy, she lowkey kind of hopes that eren doesn't change his flight (he does bc he has to do something not even to be petty), and she has a very terrible flight experience and all she wishes is that eren were there

and here's a little snippet! this takes place the day after they break up!! sorry for rambling LOl but hope you enjoyed my little tangent! :)

“Damn, Mikasa,” Gabi called out from behind her, only causing Mikasa to turn around. “We didn’t know you went out on weeknights.”

Gabi, one of the college freshmen who worked at the gallery, had a tendency to say whatever was on her mind, never bothering to filter herself. Even if Mikasa had grown rather close to her since she started working at the gallery in August, sometimes she wished Gabi would just shut up.

Mikasa scoffed, confused as to what even prompted her to say that. “What are you talking about, Gabi? And don’t cuss so loud, especially where guests can hear you.”

“Your eyes, they’re all red. Not to mention how bad your bags are,” she said, pointing to her eyes. “Seems like someone was a victim of Sunday Funday.”

Mikasa lifted a finger to touch her eye—still puffy, but from tears, rather than drinking.

“Gabi, you’re not supposed to say stuff like that—it’s rude,” Falco chimed in.

“Hey, it’s not my fault she can’t handle her alcohol,” she shrugged, turning back toward Mikasa. “It’s okay, Mikasa, the prettiest girls are always the biggest lightweights. But anyway, are you feeling okay? Does our favorite party girl need some Tylenol? A Liquid IV, maybe? Even a Gatorade?”

Was she supposed to answer honestly? Tell them that she had spent the entirety of her night crying because she and her boyfriend had broken up. That she was sure that the cops almost got called by their neighbors from how loud they were yelling at one another? That Sasha couldn’t even understand her when she called, telling her she needed somewhere to stay because she stormed out of their apartment, not even giving Eren the chance to finish his sentence, somewhere after one of them had uttered the words, “We shouldn’t be together anymore?”

She had been doing so well, pushing the thoughts to the back of her head, trying to get through the entirety of her shift without thinking about everything—about him. She only had an hour left in her shift, but all of her efforts had been to no avail.

It was as if the wind had been knocked out of her, she suddenly lost the ability to breathe, and she felt all the blood drain from her face.

We aren’t together. We aren’t together. We aren’t together. The words playing in her mind on loop.

“Hey, Mikasa. Are you okay?” Falco asked, his eyes flooding with concern as he looked over Mikasa’s current state.

“I think I’m gonna be sick,” she said quickly, before running off to the bathroom.

But maybe just this once, Mikasa was lucky for Gabi’s inability to shut her mouth—at least being hungover was a good enough cover for sobbing her eyes out in the bathroom.

#exes to lovers au #asks #vic’s wips

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stood-onthecliffside · 3 days

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i think that what you said in this tags of the hoax post is so true! I also loved that you mentioned how she probably didn't know through and through what the song is about (re:the long pond studio sessions) because in my head that's what it is!

i personally write from memory + imagination. this is not me comparing myself to her obviously lol but sometimes through writing some things are just like oh wow this explains something my rational and conscious mind just didn't really think about before. that's weird. and sometimes there's just no explanation for things that come out.

I think that that's what happened with hoax. also cause songwriting is a totally different process than writing in your journal (even though taylor has been a storyteller in her song writing) sometimes you have to pick up words and phrases to add just to rhyme (and even then, it could be something like a revelation) but we can't take everything that's a lyric at face value and can have interpretations of our own and meanings of our own to attach to those lyrics. I do think that it was about joe (no other sadness in the world would do deeply speaks volumes for her relationship w joe) [re:renegade] but again that's just us speculating. but I do think that is something that's true.

I don't know what I'm saying

[context : vee and i are talking about this post.] i am sorry it took me so long to reply i was trying to absorb hoax in general from this perspective (another reason why! we need to acknowledge that with hoax you will never get straight answers? especially if you're used to percieve taylor songs with her own experiences). i fear often people dont take into the artistic point of view (which you explain so beautifully) and that is one of the shortcomings of not understanding a song like hoax when if you're so fixated and acting as if an artist song is a gossip blog. and with taylor who is such an autobiographic writer this is what has been happening. so in hindsight hoax is such a wake-up call for this. + i have been fathomining how hoax is such a good foundation for ttpd- in hoax she is unintentionally a unreliable narrator and swirling different muses into this song! <3 and with ttpd songs especially fresh out the slammer this is a reflection !?? you cannot trust her as a narrator and she is taking inspiration from all these muses. and yeah so at one point, because some of the lyrics from ttpd dont make sense so it forces you to make your interpretation- which is essentially NOT about taylor as a person. hope this makes sense? i went on a tangent in the end lmao.

#*ask #vee my beloved <33 #q #*hoax tag <3

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sailorsplatoon · 24 days

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so in the musician au, can we get some headcannons after parallel cannon after leaving the memverse(for some reason i can see pc as a trans allegory bc she wants to be a real inkling but feel like they can't, you get what im saying?)

The trans allegory is so good omg. I love that so much!!!

It can be like, after finding out that they’re a clone, Parallel Canon started to really desprately want to be a real inkling, but they feel like they shouldn’t. They know that they’re just a clone and worry that Four and the others will tell them that wanting to be a real inkling is weird or a bad idea. But this desire gets so strong to the point that they feel like they are a real inkling, just not in every way. And this is entirely true. Since they’re a clone of Four, who’s a real inkling, they have the mind of a real inkling, they just don’t have a physicial body. This really strengthens the trans allegory because what they are doesn’t match them physically.

Parallel Canon eventually feels like they need to tell Four about this, and rather than Four reacting poorly like they expected, Four supports them entirely. This is when Four starts to work with Marina on building them a physicial body (which is like getting on hormones or getting a surgery). When Parallel finally gets to have this physical body, they are so excited (first time feeling gendder euphoria). They decide that they want to spend the rest of their life like this because they are a real inkling, just when they were created they weren’t physically.

Sorry, I know you asked about headcanons and then I went on a tangent about a trans allegory. Headcanon time now!

They can’t keep going by Parallel Canon, that’s kind of their deadname now I guess, so they start going by Elle (because parallel).

They begin to forge their own identity outside of being Agent 4’s clone. Over time, they grow into their own person. Them and Four are certainly still similar in a lot of ways, but they’ve also become different in some. Having that sense of individuality is super important to both of them.

Elle loves to play ink battles and has a pretty good reputation. They don’t have one specific main though, and are fairly good with all the classes. They like to change it up often. Having to use the same splattershot for so long got boring, so now they like to try out all different kind of weapons.

They can’t really eat, since their body is a robot, but they still like to buy food just to look at it. This food often ends up at Four’s apartment in hopes that they will eat it.

Elle also doesn’t need sleep, but they still lay down in a bed every night. They enjoy being underneath the warm blankets, plus they can take that time to recharge their battery or do any updates they might need.

Thank you for the ask!!! That’s all I’ve got for now, but I’m sure I’ll come up with more! I think I’m slowly turning Parallel Canon into my own oc lol.

#parallel canon #splatoon au #agent 4 #asks #ask box

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dumplingsjinson · 10 months

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I like a deep mans voice and tall guys because they give protective hugs

Lowkey (highkey, actually), long distance dude's deep ass voice is the reason why I started to like him a lot lmfao. Listening to him over voice messages/listening to him while we were voice calling, I was like... 😩 I remember when he sent the first voice message and I practically MELTED cause he sounded so fucking nice. I didn't even realise how much I liked men with deep and gentle sounding voices until then. I literally fangirled and told him how much I liked his voice and I'm surprised he didn't find that weird welkfnwelkfn. But anyway yeah, deep voices for the win, and no other men I've gone out with has as deep of a voice as he does. Not even the one I'm going out with right now lol, I remember when he first spoke and I was like... Um. (Now I'm okay with his voice and I find something comforting about it haha.)

There was this one guy who I was talking to for about a month (this guy traumatised me in many ways, I'm ngl) sent me voice messages on Insta and right off the bat I was like... This is a turn off. I'm sorry. (Obviously I never told him that but KALJNELKNF.) And he'd KEEP sending me voice messages and I was like "I'm SO tempted to tell him to stop." Like, I had to convince myself at one point that he sounded okay and not totally grating to my ears. Granted, I probably should stfu because I have an ugly ass voice but DAMN.

In regards to height... I'm 149cm, so it's not hard for me to find someone taller than me. The first guy I went on dates with was like... maybe 1-2 inches taller than me? And that was when I knew I couldn't date someone around the same height as me lmfao. I need someone at LEAST 165cm or over. Even 160cm is fine lmao. That was when I realised height does matter to me, at least to a certain extent, and I justify it by saying it's because I'm short as fuck myself anyway so it's definitely not a hard standard to meet. The guy I'm seeing right now (cat guy) is, I think, around 165cm? Give or take. He's shorter than some of my girl friends HAHA (they're like easily 170cm+), but he's at least a head taller than me and I absolutely love it. Even if I do wear heels, I think he'd still be taller than me. So yeah, I get it when you say taller guys give protective hugs AHA. They just give off a more protective aura in general. (And if I start talking about the way he stood behind me on the escalator, arms spread wide open in like... an almost protective stance and leaning his forehead against my shoulder, I'm probably going to go off on a very delusional tangent so lemme just save that for another day LMAO.)

#long post #anon asks #not prompts

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antonarcana · 10 months

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It may seem silly but I'm happy you enjoy making art, I see artists too often burnt out and hating what they make because they want to get content out when they should make for themselves

That’s not silly at all! I find great joy in what I do, and all my art is made out of the love of the creation process/love of bringing ideas to life ❤️ I think that’s part of why I draw so much, I just really enjoy it! It’s not about getting content out, I just post what I would be making anyway if that makes sense. I think it’s really easy to get swept up in numbers and algorithms, and I certainly don’t blame anybody that happens to, but here’s the thing right. I think art is just part of what humans do, it’s a natural behaviour for us like eating, sleeping, caring for our community etc. and I think it’s a great injustice to the creativity of the human soul that art has to be quantified in whether or not it gets numbers online, does that make sense? I think that goes for all creativity, it’s just part of what humans do.

Of course there’s the issue of needing to put art out to survive if that’s what your income relies on, and again, I don’t blame anybody who gets swept up in numbers, because I think wanting to be liked by your peers is also a natural human behaviour.

This is very long winded LOL I’m so sorry, I got excited to talk about art and how happy it makes me and went on a tangent. 🌙

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cosmic-kaden · 3 months

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Confession: I really hate this website. I don't understand how to make friends or why some things get interaction and some don't and although it's the only place with self shippers, I am so lonely most of the time I think I should just leave because what's the point? I also don't have any art or writing skills so can't post anything like that and my husband's world is not popular or one where other people self ship so it's not like I can even get into fandom stuff. Just so tired. I miss Livejournal (outing my age, lol). I GOT that. I just want people to know and remember he and I, we were, we loved. Our love existed.

anonymously confess something to you.

Awe, I'm sorry you're feeling so frustrated. You don't have to have the skill to draw or write. I used to be god-awful at both art and drawing but I just...practiced whenever I was able too. Practice makes progress after all, I didn't care if my writing or art was bad in comparison (not that you should compare) but I created it because it makes me happy!

Again, it's ultimately up to you on how you want to do things and in no way am I implying you should do it my way!!

You can always just love post! For a long while and I mean like... two years I hardly produced anything. All I did really was reblog other mutuals art/wrting and occasionally I would make a post just hollering about my f/o. The good thing about that is that it doesn't have to be coherent you can literally type "LSDKJFLKSDJFLDSK MY F/O HHHHHHHH" and people would like it because you're just screaming that you love them!

I remember Livejournal, I never used it myself but I do remember it. I guess in a way you got to put yourself out there. interact with some people either through tags of something they made and you rbd or like participate in sending asks to people. I am in no means "well known" but I found some people who like to put up with my annoying ass /lh

I don't really talk to people privately either, its all mainly through dash communication and asks/asks games.

I understand that it can be hard and frustrating but there are a multitude of different ways of showing your f/o you love them and just a gentle reminder that you're here for you and your ships and if you find some people a long the way who also support your ships, that's a bonus! <3

I know quite a few who have obscure f/o and while yeah content can be hard to come by, like I said there is a lot you can do from if you wanted to try drawing/writing, moodboard making, playlist creation, pintrest board creation, loveposting (Even if it is keysmashes followed by 100 ilus lol)

I'm sorry if I went on a tangent, if you fell asleep partway through I don't blame you! lol I just wanted to kind of reassure you in a sense that there are ways of loving your f/o and showing that love. You don't NEED to make content of them to prove your love or your ships worth and you're here because you want to share some form of love for them right? You're doing that for you and because you want too! Eventually, the right people will find you.

I've never actively looked for friends on the hellsite, people migrated towards me and now I have a lot of lovely mutuals who I can also call friends. It didn't happen overnight (I've been here since like....2017? a least self shipping, been here longer than that tho) but it will happen.

I just be super unapologetic about this insane amount of love I feel and whenever I feel the need I scream via a text post haha

I'M R A M B L I N G (WRAP IT UP KADEN GAWD!) /j /lh

I'm sorry you're feeling frustrated/upset with your experience on the hellsite and I really do with all my heart anon, hope that it turns around for you <3 Please take care!

#I'm a rambler! : D hhhhh #anonnies;#long post

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writinandcrying · 2 years

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Hey I’m new so I want my request to have a ROTTMNT matchup. 💗💙❤️💜 So to begin, I am 5’9 and have black, curly shoulder length hair. I would describe myself as immature, strong, wild, energetic and caring. I also love animals because I have a pet dog. I play a lot of sports too and I would always protect my friends and loved ones at all costs. I’m almost all the time getting hurt, scratches for example but I recover and keep going.

I’ll start by saying I’m SO SORRY I took so long to do this ): I hope you still into tmnt (there are so many requests in my askbox and unfortunately my life went into a spiral the last. 2-ish years (aaaaand it’s still a mess lols) but I’m I truly apologize for the long wait)

I match you with…

BIG RED aka RAPHAEL (the cutest teddy bear of them all!!)

(I love all rottmnt boys but Raph is growing a soft stop for him in my heart the last weeks forgive me)

I think how caring you can be would the first that stood out to Raph, then the fact you absolutely love animals, if he ever saw you being gentle with any mistreated street cat/dog he would fall in love right on spot I’m 100% sure of it, I can see Raph being either with someone super energetic (kinda has a “chaotic” energy) or someone super soft (he’s just so shippable what can I say), but he needs to be with someone who’s def fun! That wants to do new stuff with him, either that being something extremely adventurous or stuff he hasn’t been able to live it yet, like cuddles, kisses and so on, he thinks your strength is really impressive! Would still be extremely gentle with you, even if you asked for him to stop “that you can take it” - what if he hurts you? He can’t, he’s the one that can’t even think of that possibility. You and him often try new sports and have “date matches”, sometimes Leo and Mikey tag along (he can’t say no to this baby brothers) but it’s always a fun time between all of you! He also adores how loyal you are, but it’s a bit concerned how fearless, I mean, he adores and admire that you are protective of his family and friends, but you aren’t “build” like them, so if you jump heads in at a fight, expect Raph to scolt you afterwards, and he will get emotional-specially if you get hurt, you need to understand that there’s a lot of pressure on his shoulders, and you being so dear to him have to be a bit more careful, even if your actions do come from love, I can see you both having a agreement into always taking about strategy and possible moves you can pull between missions if you tag along, he doesn’t want to restrict you or your flow, but please be more careful cuz his heart is big but also very soft ☹️🫶🏼 also forgot to mention (got on a tangent there lmao) but he loves your hair, if he’s right behind you and your curls are bouncing with every step you take, sometimes bounces a little bit side to side, following the way your hair moves, it’s irresistible for him and makes him giggle every time

Hope you liked it! Match ups are closed

#rottmnt #tmnt x reader #rottmnt x reader #tmnt match up #giulia writes #tmnt headcannons #rottmnt headcanons

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sillspore · 6 months

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How will be the three relationship with Leafpool and squirrelflight?

i rlly dont know what the drama will be bc the half clan relationship won’t be revealed point blank 😭 it’s a law in my code that queens do not have to reveal who brought them to be with kits, and since leafpool is a warrior, she’s not breaking the healer code either (since they don’t know she’s with mothwing). the three will be raised knowing leafpool is their mother, and spend a lot of time being co-parented by leaf and squirrel! cool mama and aunty. if i decide to make bramble a sweety, he’ll be the nice uncle.

HOWEVER. there is the issue of the gap of no medicine cat in between cinderpelt’s death and lion’s becoming a healer if leafpool isn’t one.

so, i may keep leafpool as a medicine cat, but that means she’s gotta die by the end of oots if we want alder as a healer too. luckily, with the code i have written, she’s allowed to have kits as long as there’s another healer to take over. so i think i’d push back the three’s birth a little, so that when cinderpelt dies, it’s when leafpool is out of camp considering running away with mothwing and their (weaned) kits. she decides against it, and is the sole healer until lion apprentices under her like a month later.

i’m thinking of kinda combining pot and oots, bc their plots are so linked and on their own they DRAG. but regardless, i think most family drama will come from ashfur and hollyleaf.

i can kinda see it, too, hollyleaf being a stickler for the code, and mentored by someone equally as serious about it. maybe thornclaw? ashfur corners squilf and the kids, bc he knows they’re not hers but he knows she loves them. same premise. to further the plot, ashfur’s gotta find out the three are half-clan somehow, and taunts them about it during the fire scene. i imagine lion and jay are irritated about not knowing, but because they just have another parent and neither care for starclan they get over it much quicker than poor hollyleaf. her world is shattered, like seriously. she doesn’t have powers, she’s half-clan, and breaking the healer code. sort of. i’ll work on it, haha.

a bunch of other tiny things lead up to her break, i think she’ll snap and kill leafpool. ashfur witnesses it, and taunts that he’ll tell everyone, so she kills him too. she’s horrified afterwards, acting so fidgety and jumpy at camp that everyone’s worried she needs medical attention. i think she’d tell her brothers in desperation for forgiveness, but they shun her, bc girl you killed mom?? wtf??? obviously they still love her, but turn her away. she CRACKS. at the gathering that day, she tells everyone their origins and special powers and what she did, before running off. the boys chase her, only to lose her in the collapsing tunnels.

i think the clans would kind of turn on thunderclan, worried about the power they have, and thunderclan in itself would be divided between hating the three (or two, technically-) for what they’ve “brought upon the clan”, or revering them for the power and security they give. lion tries to be nice, but jay is not pleased lmao.

i’m also considering having firestar die in the fire scene, protecting his daughter and grandchildren. like he finds a way to get them to safety, but he insists on being the last one to go so he dies before he can make it. maybe. i think with firestar in charge, it’s a little too stable. we need some drama!

i wonder who longstar would promote as deputy tbh. brackenfur would be such a good deputy, but a bad choice story wise. him and longtail would make a good leadership, a stable clan, which is bad for plot lmao. however, if i can think of other things to fuck up the battle cat’s lives, brackenfur as deputy could happen

sorry! went off on a tangent lol

#erin hunter warriors #warrior cats #warriors #warriors rewrite #warriors au #squirrelflight #squilf my beloved #leafpool #lionblaze #jayfeather #hollyleaf #ashfur #firestar

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ilovethewaleses · 7 months

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I agree with you that people doesn’t really understand what it is that Catherine/the research centre actually is doing, and I work in “soft” research as well so I know how long things can take and that often polling and data collection is done over a number of years even to find trends etc., so I really don’t see an issue with the work that is going on.

But I do think personally that Kensington Palace as the outlet for Catherine’s work can do a lot better at informing what is going on, giving bimonthly updates or just… really explain what the centre is for. It’s detrimental to her work to say “The Princess has spent x amount of time on this” but then doesn’t show that officially somewhere because it only invites to stupid comments like people saying “oh she’s world on this for x years and this is the only thing she’s come up with?” (I have major gripes with how especially Catherine use the court circular, it’s the only measure of their official work they have but she does so much that are never shown). Or “great to be here to do x!” or “great to learn y!” doesn’t say anything if you don’t follow up with the why and what’s the purpose. They are better now but there was a time they didn’t even bother staying what people she was meeting.

If you are interested you can of course find out yourself, the centre has their own social media for example, but I think Catherine’s press team can do better in explaining things as if we’re all 5 years old. And yeah it’s PR but that’s the job they’re in, it’s not bad just because it’s PR. Not everything needs to be done bts only for it to have a big reveal — take the 5 questions for example, I though that was well planned with a start and ending, even if it was pushed forward a bit with the pandemic. Anyway, I went on an unplanned tangent but I really like the work she’s doing but it also frustrates me how little recognition she and her own team give her for it. I also have many thoughts on the money spent on William’s projects vs Catherine’s but that’s another thing 😅

So sorry about taking a million years to respond to this!

I can definitely agree with a lot of what you're saying. I mean... I'd love more PR from them in general just about everything. Can you imagine if we got a picture every time they held a meeting? More pictures of the kids and family life and the behind the scenes of planning for engagements and creating strategies for events? I'd be happy with a constant stream of updates about their life lol but of course the second they do something with even a whiff of "PR" they get lambasted from certain corners of the internet. Of course, that's always going to happen and they should (and are starting to more) do it anyway but it is a push and pull and rightly so. Oversaturation is also a concern.

I definitely agree that their internet presence/social media has definitely improved and there's definitely a lot of room to grow. Because so much of the good work happens behind the scenes and the Waleses (and Catherine especially) are allergic to getting credit for their good work, a lot of it goes unnoticed. More explanations about the good the work she is doing is creating would be great. The Early Childhood account is great but is not followed or promoted nearly enough and is, I imagine, a little boring for the general public.

Now I do not want to get into a debate about their workload (please 😩) but I *will* say that soo much of this debate could die down if they show us more about what they do behind the scenes. I don't think they really ever will but... they should!

Anyway, there's always room to improve but I do agree that she's doing such good work that should be celebrated and understood as important and a benefit to society.

#ask #answered

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enrapture · 1 year

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So what was the last non-sexual thing that caught your hyperfixation? What’s your current interest?

This answers both lmfao.

The band Waterparks, started in the middle of last year very slight with 1-2 songs that hit for me at the time and reminded me of how I was feeling during that period but then evolved as soon as dec - January where it really blossomed started out as curiosity and I have since run down the rabbit hole. *awsten knight’s* ^aka the singer of Waterparks I’ve been collecting his own clothing brand they drop a piece every week and they’re limited to 300 each drop they get sold in literal mere seconds I WISH I WAS JOKING. Its a bloodbath but thanks to this one account on Twitter I follow I’m able to get some pieces ahead of the drop because she guesses passwords which is her thing which helps a shit ton. But sometimes you HAVE to fight for your life if you want that piece. Thank god for PayPal pay immediately lmao but sometimes even that is too slow. People are quick as fuck. But it’s fun. and I’ve managed to get a few not all of this season’s drop. But still little wins! I’m so excited to receive this one tee I bought over the weekend it’s going to be here on the 20th! I’ll have to show it off as soon as it comes! You’ll have to remind me. I’ve got so many *3* good investment because they’re kinda limited as well. vinyls of the same damn album (intellectual property) because awsten said to lmfao and they’re diff colors. I also have a bitten CD by the band for one of the singles off the album and I have another cd of intellectual property with 2 bonus songs on it. recently not too long ago collected the “greatest hits vinyl it glows in the dark* and “fandom” I’m hoping to collect “entertainment” on vinyl but they’re all so expensive on eBay a little bit but I want a unique color so bad and they’re so hard to find kinda and then get the cluster CD. I need to get a CD player now that I think about it... Collecting merch as of recent this girl from texas managed to get me a t shirt and some booty shorts I’m so excited about wearing because I wasn’t able to get them when I went for the show. It was packed as fuck (I also met them a few weeks ago DIDNT go as planned like at all but still was a good time) :,) but I also have grown a major crush on the singer but that’s aside from the fact lol.

Other than that I’ve also been tryna get certain clothing items I think are so sick that awsten wears that I think would look better on me so that’s what I’ve gotten recently is some nike air trainer 1 sp’s c: and I fucking love them. I got some that fit but now I’m tryna sell like two pairs I impulse bought that I thought would fit me that don’t 😭 curse men’s sizes for not fitting women’s feet like the size chart claims. But it’s all good. That’s all as of recent. Besides finding new music (I’m adding to my Spotify playlists that I absolutely hate making but enjoy it in a way) and trying to clear my head - taking a step back and thinking things through and figuring out what I want and what’s best for me personally without anyone else’s judgment clouding my decisions. Im wanting better relationships for myself. Setting healthy boundaries and realizing my worth is all. Not being easily accessible anymore. :)

I hope this answered fuck I’m so sorry for tangenting. (Also trying not to apologize for myself or my emotions / feelings as they’re valid even though I just did lol)

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okay i need to stop posting in the middle of the night bc the last two times i did that i was doing entirely too much in the tags + posted a torso reveal (as if i’m not a pic of snoopy walking around going 👍) but i need to keep talking about lucy grays rainbow dress. so here’s an unasked for progress check + the inspo for the top i wanna crochet in case i wanna connect the skirt to the shirt to actually make it a dress lol:

okay i put a cutoff here bc i wanna rant but don’t wanna put such a long post on anyone’s dash <3. but for the top it was a toss up between a puff sleeve and a corset but i decided to go with the puff sleeves for a few reasons

1) it’s giving 1890s. not to sound like a nerd but i had a huge historical fashion phase when i was younger and i’m in love with the idea of lucy gray’s puff sleeves representing a different era (since, yk, ballad in general represents a diff era)

2) i’ve never crocheted a puff sleeve top before so it would be fun to try hehe (but i have crocheted a corset top and it does not Stay Up so, in the event that lucy gray was performing in an all-yarn outfit, that would not be very practical for her)

3) okay wouldnt the sleeves subtly fluffing around as she performs be kinda cute? obviously they’re not gonna be super fluffy or anything (just the amount of floofiness in the pic) but it’s kinda like a less intense version of the skirt ruffling

speaking of the skirt:

ohhhh my good. i alternate between loving and hating the white panels but tbh there’s nothing i can do unless i wanna drop an ungodly amount of money on a skirt that’s not even my style. but good thing it’s my sisters style (actually it might not be she looked at it and went “omg omg it’s so cuteee <3” and when i asked if she herself would wear it she went “o.o welll..” so maybe i’ll just have to do my hair and makeup entirely different to sell that this is in fact my style bc no way am i not wearing something i spent literal money + time on). sorry that was a tangent but it’s around knee length rn and i think i have enough yarn (of the rainbow color scheme and scrap yarn) to make it a bit longer. i’ve always envisioned lucy grays dress as a maxi, so maybe i’ll get one more skein of yarn at the end of the month since they’re having a sale. but the whimsy when it comes to wearing this skirt is unreal. like when i put it on i always gotta do a little spin to see the ruffles shift. and that’s actually another thing that makes me convinced that lucy grays skirt is a maxi bc making it into a mini skirt was atrocious. and that’s saying something bc if my entire ass isn’t hanging out of a skirt then what the fuck am i even wearing it for. but it just looked a bit strange and i thought it was bc there was SO much volume on top and it made me a look a bit disproportional, but once my mom stopped going “that’s a lot of colors going on” she had an answer that (while very crude.. and maybe a bit problematic) explained things:

“you look like a pedophile’s dream”

yeah. to be clear i don’t agree that women who dress in ruffles and pastels and things that are considered “childish” are trying to appeal to pedophiles, but keeping the skirt so short and colorful and ruffly made it look very Young. also making it longer added to the whimsy since there’s more fabric that swooshes around when you spin

okay i think i’m done. so thankful that i have tumblr now bc where else was i gonna rant about rainbow dress omg. but tbh i think i’m gonna take a break from making this before i get burnt out and finish a chapter for a fic bc the hg grind never stops. bye!!

#long post #sorry for ranting so hard #but there’s no way i’m telling the ppl in my actual life i am making something from the fuckin hunger games <3 #lucy gray why is your dress so hard to crochet </3 #crochet adventures #rainbow dress #kinda #it’s a skirt but i might make it into a dress later

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Ooooh now you're *really* onto something there (you have a really nice way with words btw??) - myu's ice + masa's water + kira's dark energy = the coolest combo!!! They'd have such an elegant mysterious vibe to them....I SO want to see this now!! Aww you're right and I *so* want to see them having a tea party, bless (just don't tell natsuki okay?)

THE HORSEBACK AND THE SWORDS THOUGH?? Absolute peak, your brain is 👌👌 magnificent. Going back a bit here but the way I Need to see Camus doing Hwa's wonderland symphony part....the grand sword gestures......it was made for him 😭

With how much Camus suffers around quartet night, I think he'd appreciate the moment of peace Masato & Kira could offer 😂

On a different tangent here: do you think Sannie & Cecil would get along? Since San loves cats and he's basically an irl cat too.....him & Cecil = same wavelength maybe? 😆

Okay but you're so right, it's impossible to bias one member of the demon line & not stan the rest too!! Sanhwa are especially powerful when they're together 😵‍💫 Ateez as a whole are incredible performers, I'm actually a stay but Ateez quickly became my second ults, I couldnt resist them 😭 Do you stan other groups btw? 👀

I'm sorry but I actually don't know that video 😭 but I'll look for it!!!! But gosh, hwa in a wig.....I'm immediately thinking like, do you know when lee know from stray kids wore the long wig? I'm seeing the vision here....hwa with long blonde hair please we need it 😭😭 can you imagine him doing a dramatic hair flip??

The way I saw mamma and instantly thought you were talking about hwa (the mom vibes y'know??) 😂 I love your thoughts please keep them coming 👌✨✨

Okay ahem so AAAAAA while reading this ask I went through so many emotions and became so happy ok?? I need a minute to gather myself back together lol.

Firstly thank you so much for the compliment - this is literally the unfiltered flow of my brain through a keyboard sksjdjsjs but most importantly, I really LOVE rambling with you about this!! Thank YOU for that!!

Dear Broccoli, when do we get this trio plz?

And god forbid Natsuki finds the tea party (something tells me his natural chaos would manage to do it somehow)!!! He would literally crash it with happiness and enthusiasm and sparkles and rainbows and honestly? Chances are he had just been carrying a batch of self-baked cookies that he just HAS TO SHARE.... let's just say they switch locations after that event, and remain ever vigilant..

Literally the next week Natsuki would have probably appeared again this time with an entire angry-cat-Syo to join the party.

Actually, something tells me Kira would develop a Natsuki sensor. Like, without a word he would get up and walk off to like a back room and leave Masa and Myu (gotta rant about this in a sec hold up) in their confusion before they look out the window and see Natsuki round a corner 5 seconds later and just KNOW he KNOWS. From then on they use the Kira detector as a safety feature, it is very reliable :)

SO MYU. I FORGOT ABOUT THAT NICKNAME, *THANK YOU FOR BRINGING IT BACK TO MY ATTENTION*!!!

Like I love Moose passionately, but Myu is so endearing!!! 🥺 precious ice prince mode activated 💙

Ps.. I love how tall he is??? People do not appreciate that enough about this man me thinks. What are your thoughts on that matter?

//I love how every one of these gets longer than the last lol this is so wonderful ~♡

Okay so... I HATE how on point you are about San and Cecil. This should not be allowed. Omg. They would seriously be great buds. They would tune into each other's unique aloofness and work so well. I feel like they wouldn't like, be joined at the hip (like Woo likes to do hahaha) but - much like a real cat-human relationship - be super happy and close with each other when they see each other every so often? Like they are comfortable with the little breaks in between but whenever they are spending time together they are the bestest of buds.

.....

Sanhwa is the absolute BEST.

That is all I've got on that. No words needed. Amazeballs. Mind blowing. Holy floof.

.....

I THINK I remember seeing LK in a wig?.. Not entirely certain if my mind maybe made it up though. Was it Halloween costume related by any chance? Bet he looked stunning. Is he your bias in Skz? Owo

I am soooorrt of a multi stan?? Like I really stan ATEEZ way above all, I don't super follow other groups with every single release etc. But I do know a lot of other groups and listen to soooooooooo many different groups I can't keep track :)

Skz is perhaps the group I know the second best?????? Me thinks?? Might be shared with Enhypen. Anyway, 3racha is the bomb. They are all super talented and badass too. My wholehearted approval. The other day I actually learned the 143 challenge!!! It is so fun to do!! :D

Anyways, speaking of boys in wigs, boys with LONG HAIR THO. I sure love those ;)

.. Camus totally gets that right 👌🏻💯🌠

Even mullets! It is really unbelievable just how fabulous boys can be :)

Btw this is the video I was talking about! Very funny and worth watching haha~

I 100% approve of the mom Hwa vibes because really? Does it get any more wholesome than that? He is a blessing to this world seriously. So sweet, so caring and kind :)

Speaking of all these mammas, made me think of Mama - like the show each year - BOY DID YOU SEE THEM KILLING IT WITH THOSE STAGES!?!?!?! THE SECOND YEAR!?!? HWAS OUTFIT???? (EVERYONE'S OUTFIT?!?!?!?!?)

Omg. Like, they sure let out the demons in that one. Beautiful work of art that stage is from front to back, I'm still so blown away by it.

SINCE I CAN MAKE THIS POST EVEN LONGER:

Did you follow Kingdom???? Skz and TEEZ slayed so hard. Tbh all groups did tho. Amazing content. Blown away.

Special mentions go to WOLF cover with their mixed members (and Peniel slaying) was so good. Can still not believe there is such awesome content out there just like that.

Hope your day is going well, you sure are improving mine! Sending happiness your way! ~☆

#ask!#loooong ass post #should probably add a read more hold up #yayy #strawberry-ren #Emmy babbles #uwu #happy inbox noises #happy Emmy times #how do you add read more on mobile again #I remember going through this struggle before :(#sorry yall #edit: HUZZAH

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Hi!! I just wanted to let you know how much the Head Filled with Demons series means to me. My Dad also died a couple years back from COVID and he was a full time caretaker for my terminally ill mother, so when he died I’ve been her caretaker ever since. It was so isolating, I lost all my friends and had to leave college and work because keeping her alive took up my entire day every day. Things are getting better in the regards my Mom is in long term care at a facility because she outgrew what I could do alone, but I just resonate with the story beyond what I ever could have imagined. Every detail is like it cuts through me, not in a triggering way since I’m finally at a point where I’m starting to heal, but in a way that’s validating and kind of helps heal me because it provides a way to relive my experience if I had a support system at the end of it.

O hope this comes off as the compliment I mean it to be!! Your story really spoke to me and I would love to be added to the tag list for the series! If you ever need someone to talk to about your struggles or your parents, idk how much this means coming from a stranger but as someone who has lived the same experience I’ll always be here for you.

Our experience is incredibly unique. Everyone expects their parents to die before them, but never like this. Never before their time, slowly through illness yet still not leaving you any resources or time to prepare. It’s something no one else could ever understand unless they lived it and so if you ever need comfort in someone who understands I’ll always be here to provide that if I can.

My name is Mimi, by the way!! I hope that you have an absolutely beautiful day and I’m going to probably binge some more of your writing :)

Mimi you beautiful angel❤.

First and foremost I am genuinely sorry that you had to experience that grief. Grief in any form whether it be a death or even a disconnect from a parent thats no longer around but still alive just cuts deep. When I lost my father no one explained anything to me.

I was told that you get two weeks to "properly grieve" and then you gotta get back out there. After those 2 weeks passed I remember constantly thinking "What's wrong with me? Why am I still so sad?" After 6 months, it just spiraled from there because I felt so alone. Everyone went back to their lives and I was just sitting here like "How can the world continue being normal when NOTHING is normal anymore?!"

After 2 years and some personal experiences I learned that what I was feeling was normal and worked to be more vulnerable when it comes to those things. I told myself I wanted to share those feelings because I never wanted someone to feel as empty and alone as I did.

It's been almost 10 years since I lost my father and I still miss him. Some days it still hurts just as bad as the day we lost him. Some days I just break and that's ok. All of that is ok.

I hope you know how amazing you are. Not just because you took care of your parents but also because of the strength you had to and still have to utilize everyday when it comes to those responsibilities as well the emotions you have to carry when it comes to everything involving your parents and a society that isnt quiet up to speed when it comes to grief.

Now please forgive me if some of that went off on a tangent or didnt make sense lol because of my PTSD sometimes I struggle to convey what I'm thinking. Writing these fics here has actually helped alot with that and having people on here validate and reiterate that I'm not alone in how I feel or think❤.

I'm always here if you need to talk as well and I appreciate you so much for reading my writings and your compliment.

#aggressive hugs from you afar #you are amazing #youre so sweet #i love you #thank you

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