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mouvs · 13 hours

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My last uni final exam is in 2 days and I’m actually stressed the fuck out, so to take my mind off it I’m requesting this because the longer I keep starting at my lecture notes the more I’m getting the urge to cry soo here I am anyway can you do joost with female reader and she’s been a more distant towards him and when he asks if she’s ok she lies saying she’s fine but he knows her better than that so he comes over to find her studying knowing she hasn’t gotten sleep or properly eaten in days and she starts crying from the stress and just comforts her, maybe runs her a bath, gets her food, and then plays with her hair till she falls asleep. Don’t feel pressure to do it if you don’t want to and make sure to take care of your self!

Aawww thanks for the request sorry im a bit late to it hope your exam went well love🩷

Take care - joost klein

Its been a few days since joost has had a proper conversation with you as he looked at your latest text messages, he was quite busy himself so it took him a second to see how dry and short you were over texts. He got the sense something wasn’t right, making him feel a little anxious as he decided to stop by.

With a bouquet flowers in his hands he rang your doorbell, shuffling on his feet and playing with the string of his earbuds as he waited for you to open.

He heard a load groan on the other side of the door before it opened “oh joost hi” you sounded surprised “i didn’t know you were coming” you said as you looked at the flowers in his hand.

“I wanted to come check on you ya know see how you are” he said, presenting you the flowers “for you” he said with a big grin showing his theet as he gave you the biggest smile.

“Aw thank you love” you mumbled as you wrapped your arms around his neck, holding him close “thats really sweet” you whisper in his ear.

As you let him in you went to put the flowers in a vase as joost looked around your appartement.

“Are you sure your doing okay?” He asks, looking around to see your place.. kind of neglected as clothes and other stuff spread around everywhere. You sigh sitting at the kitchen counter bend over your laptop again as you cover your face in your hands. “Ive been busy” you mumble.

“Whats up?” He nonchalantly says as he hovers over you. You lean your head on your arms as you sigh again. “Its to much stress these exams, i have to study so much and i feel like i cant do enough or im to dumb or ill have a black out, did you know i have to do a whole ass presentation?” You sounded more upset by the second as you raised your head to look at him in disbelief.

“Thirty fucking minutes joost what the fuck am i even going to do and i cant even take care of myself at the same time i haven’t eaten a meal in days i mean look at this place” you let out frustrated as you stare at your laptop again.

“Hey babe no” he shushes as his hands caressed your shoulders “your not dumb we’ve been over this you got this dont let the stress cloud your head like that, you gotta stay positive and ask for help when u need it alright i can help you out with… this..?” He said questionable as he pointed at all the words on your screen, making you let out a giggle as you pouted at him.

You sighed “no your right im not dumb its just to much joost” you mumble as you lean into his chest.

“Look since i know you pretty well, lets go over your exam for tomorrow and THEN take a break alright ill take good care of you” he said firmly kissing your cheek before he sat on the chair beside you sliding the laptop infront of him.

He squeezed his eyes and made a few faces as he looked at all of it. “Okay tell you what you explain this shit to me and if i understand it then you pass” he said flashing you his signature grin as he gave you the laptop back making you giggle while you rolled your eyes.

Lets just say it took a little while… joost couldn’t possibly focus on all those hard terms coming out of your mouth as he just mindlessly admired you and giggled when u scolded him to pay attention.

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“Hmmm why don’t you take a nice bath while i try to make dinner for us” he said as he looked in all the cabinets of your kitchen.

“What if you blow up my house?” You said raising an eyebrow while turning to him. He gave you a mad face “no i will not blow up your house y/n” he chuckled “if you say so sweetie” you sang as you joined.

The evening ended with the two of you in the couch eating pasta joost made that was actually quite good. You gave him lots of compliments making the boy blush and smile at you like a little boy.

You laid in his lap as you watched your favourite show, his hand in your hair as you enjoyed the comfort and warmth of your boyfriend finally feeling relaxed. “Thank you” you whispered

“Anytime sweetheart” he said, kissing the top of your head.

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honeybcj · 3 days

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wip it out (pt. 3)!

thank u for the tag my lovely @sommerregenjuniluft <3 i need an excuse to post something about the rosekiller seven deadly sins au……….don’t worry, i haven’t forgotten about that one!! here we go, mwah!

The feeling of fear dissipates in a matter of seconds, being replaced with something far more precarious. One moment Barty’s insides are bathing in anguish, sizzling him from the inside out. Barely a breath in between, and Barty’s insides are on fire, all the blood in his body rushing downward.

Dumbly, Barty keeps shaking the man’s—Rosie’s—hand. A gleam of something flashes across the other man’s eyes. Every point of contact Barty has with the man’s hand feels like being electrocuted. His eyes refuse to leave Rosie’s. Even when he tries, he’s drawn right back in, as though he is wrapped under some sort of spell.

Then again, it could just be the overwhelming desire in Barty’s bones to kiss the life out of the full lips on display in front of him.

“And your name?” Rosie goads, quirking a well-carved brow.

“Oh, uh,” Barty blinks, finally dropping Rosie’s hand. Undoubtedly, he’s red in the cheeks, taking in every detail on Rosie’s torso beneath the sheer, gray top. “Barty. You can call me Barty.”

Rosie’s lips curl at the corners, eyes falling hooded as he leans forward until his lips are brushing over Barty’s ear, “Well then, Barty. How would you like to see me on my knees for you?”

It takes everything inside Barty not to collapse in that moment. His muscles seize, the atmosphere suddenly far too warm for comfort. He jerks his head back, angling it down to stare, open-mouthed, at Rosie.

“Oh, baby,” Barty hums, inhaling deeply to keep his cool in check. “Wouldn’t you look like an angel.”

Rosie snorts at that. “Angel? Not what I’m going for, sweetheart.”

“The Devil then,” Barty offers, swallowing thickly as Rosie moves just right to leave the column of his throat on display.

“Now that,” Rosie chuckles deeply, trailing his fingertips over the waistband of Barty’s jeans, “is more like it.”

If a sound could kill, Barty would drop dead upon hearing Rosie chuckle like that. Or better yet, he’d be the one dropping to his knees like the proper whore he is.

But he doesn’t have the chance to say anything before Rosie is taking his hand, tugging him off into the direction of the toilets. Forget why he’s out, there’s far more pressing matter at hand: that being finally getting his hands on the prettiest person in the room.

tags: are open because i know so many people have done this already, but tag me if you want because i love seeing what everyone is working on!!!!

#rosekiller #barty crouch jr #evan rosier #han’s writing #seven deadly sins au

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fanficmaniatic · 2 years

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Guess who caved in and and drew the regular teenager ninja humans!

This concept was EATING ME alive and literally did not let me sleep, so take this, is 4 am for me and I should be sleeping.

Won’t bother posting this in my art account cuz I am not sure this is going to be their final versions in my head. I might change Leo’s clothes, I am not sure. Trying to make them all look mixed was harder than expected, but in case u r wondering, I did my best so they all look/are blasian. Have a nice day.

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ethereal-maia · 8 months

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ONCE AGAIN I AM BLESSING @pealeii’S NAME FOR CONVINCING ME TO LISTEN TO THE SECRET GARDEN MUSICAL

#literally want to sob at every single time we get harmonies I’m so in love #it’s literally almost exactly JUST LIKE THE BOOK HHHHHHHHHHHH #IM SOOO NORMAL ABT MUSIC #btw if you haven’t listened to it you need to because it’s everything ever #love you pealeii <33 (btw do you have a prefered name that I can call u?)

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coffeeandcalligraphy · 8 months

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ok ok so you know how my life has majorly revolved around my pain since july & how that has been extremely difficult :) well lately I find myself getting up later than I want to & making my bed as badly as I possibly can & getting out of the house after noon when I planned to get out in the morning & walking to the library when it’s sunny & sitting there for hours & the whole time I’m most concerned with writing & that it’s incredible what I’m doing, it’s a little paradise

#you know how I hoped September would be kind to me well it delivered #I actually didn’t realize how mentally poorly I was doing until I got out of it !#like oooooof it’s like a chronic pain veil #& to be very honest it’s because I’m physically better so I cannot blame myself and I don’t lol bc there will be a time when that happens #<< again #I mean better loosely I just mean I haven’t had 8/10 pain every day for weeks LOLLL #but it’s really quiet and beautiful & im grateful !!! like yay I can still create !#I’m not thinking abt my pain 95% of the day now it’s probably about 40%? 50? so a lot but I’m literally not every single thought LOL #sometimes it’s even like 20! not even cuz anything is getting better bc it’s not but I will take it even if idk why!!!#(& by nothing is getting better I mean meaningfully better but I have been blessed with some good days lately which I had none #of all summer)#I say this bc every day I wake up and immediately think OH GOD MY PAIN which is so valid bc it’s awful in the morning getting up is like #falling into a black hole Lol but also while that thought is still there I also thought #wow I’m so excited to write today I’m so excited to see what Jeremiah does #HE IS THE NARRATOR OF HEALING #also like SOOO PRIVILEGED to be able to do this like I also wanted to say that!#anyway update for u since I know I have shared the Despair but none of the beauty yet lol #lots of love chronic illness/pain bbs <3

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motherfuckingbrad · 8 months

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i shouldn’t be saying this because i’m already working on 3 (maybe 4) different various mythic quest fics (all braddavid except one for poppy li<3) and i am drowning in college work BUT if anyone ever has any good ideas for fics … send them my way

can’t promise they will actually get written, but i am always looking for new concepts and when something grabs me it usually does not let go until i’ve written it out

#i was just thinking abt this because i haven’t been motivated to finish any of the ones i started #and i want to write about them again #can be platonic can be romantic i don’t care tbh i love angst i love fluff i love it all #i won’t write smut tho so know that at least #i just know the mq fanfics are few and far between so i’m tryingggg to write more #also check out what i already have up on my ao3 if u haven’t!#username picturesonthewcll #two braddavid angsty one shots already there <3 #ok that’s the end of my plug sorry #pls send ideas if u have them!!#mythic quest #mythic quest fanfiction #braddavid #brad bakshi fanfiction #ao3

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seventh-district · 2 months

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i’m not like other girls, my “Rest” stats are a heart rate of 110bpm and a HRV of 14 fucking milliseconds. :)

#Seven’s Public Diary #vent #vent post #cw vent #cw vent post #cw health #cw heart #i’m so stressed :) i am soooo fucking stressed and my body is Suffering because of it #i want to just lay here and stare at the ceiling but. maybe a little venting will help #sighhhh wish [N]MbD Sun were here to obsessively fret over me #he can be mean about it idc. at least i’d have someone acknowledging how bad things are for me #sometimes i wonder when the last time was that my body Wasn’t in fight or flight to some degree #have i Ever actually relaxed #hhhhhhh c-ptsd is a bitch #anyways there’s so much to vent about but i’m. doing my best to be vague. i need to be more vague about things #a lot of stuff i can’t vent about anyways. it’s too personal #so instead i’m gonna complain abt how i haven’t been able to play Genshin or Star Rail for nearly a month now #and about how slowly my back is recovering. it’s like every time i re-injure/have a flare up. it heals.. worse. slower and lesser #i dunno how it’s ever gonna get better. truly better. maybe i’ll live with this forever #if being fat is the problem which is definitely partly is. then yeah i’m fucked #all of my problems just make each other worse and i don’t know where the way out of it all is #every time i think i’ve found it i’m wrong and i just make it all worse #anyways as soon as i figure out how to strengthen my core without breaking my back. it’s over for u bitches #‘u bitches’ being uh. all of the shit that needs doing that i cannot physically fucking do right now #i miss being able to sit down. and i’m Regretting de-converting my standing desk back to sitting bc now. i cannot use my PC #which means i can’t fucking do a some of my work or play my silly little gacha games and i’m mad abt it #i’m mad abt a lot more serious things too but again. can’t talk abt it so i’m gonna focus on trivial shit instead #anyways. sorry as always to everyone i haven’t spoken with lately. and in general. i’m so drained from the Everything that i just. can’t.#it shouldn’t be this hard for me to stay in touch w ppl but. it is. guess i’ll add that onto my list of things to be stressed about #i’m so tired of everything man. and i hate being so negative and mean when im stressed & in pain. makes me feel like im becoming my father

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heartual · 2 months

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waaaaghhh

#🍄.txt #i lost so much weight being sick in 2021 and finally got back around to where i used to be earlier last year #except w starting birth control this is now the heaviest i’ve ever been 😭#IMAGINE my struggle with clothes the last three years. omfg #before that too actually when i first got sick in 2018 too 😭#tried on pants i got at the beggining of 2023 that i went a size down in bc my normal size was too baggy #they were borderline trying to unzip on me as i sat down and cut off my circulation GODDBYEEEE #i swear that bc has only stopped my period and made me put on weight more easily #CAN U TREAT THE OTHER PCOS SYMPTOMES TOO PLEASE #i haven’t weighed myself in months PUGHHHH i do not wish to see because it’s going to give me a very very bad complex about my weight again #*w my >#the changes w body in the last few years i am going insane please pick one range please i beg #OUUUGGGHHHHHH #it’s not even the weight anymore like i’ve tried to leave most of the internalized fatphobia in high school #but by god are clothes stressful with significant weight changes #also my mom with an eating disorder she won’t acknowledge or go to therapy for constantly being ‘concerned’ for my wellbeing #i finally don’t want to kill myself but god forbid … some of the medicación makes me gain weighte……#anyway. i yam frustrated a little bit #took advantage of old navy’s 50% off sale and got some shorts and pance in a more comfy size at least #amanda small win 💪#should be here in april 1st which is not giving me high hopes already 😭 but we move!#weight mention #ed mention

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look-at-the-stars-tonight · 3 months

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I ran this morning AND wrote some AND made art and I’m so proud of me

#didn’t get any of my actual office work done oopsies #but in my defense it’s a Friday and also I did allot time for it I just ended up not doing it #anyways still proud of me!!! guys art is so so important and I know that and I preach that but I haven’t been doing it #and I just picked up a blank sheet of paper and did it #and is it good or anatomically correct? no but it was so FUN #and I’ve been working thought Tim Clare’s writing stuff and it’s been GOOD #I like this new series of exercises a lot better than the couch to 80k #they’re. the same honestly and I don’t actually care about his commentary all that much #maybe I’m just more present or more invested in them #I only ran for 15. min and then I had to call my brother to pick me up because the heat was gonna make me pass out :/#but also I TRIED #I fucking tried today #also did u know running is utterly miserable.#runners high is def a thing #felt amazing afterward #but holy shit it’s awful in the moment #my roommate ran a 25k recently and I talked to her about it and she said it never gets better #which is. not very encouraging #but also I Want To run as much of this 5k as I can #maybe I’ll be dead after but it’s fine I have a couple days to recuperate before the eclipse #WHICH IM ALSO EXCITED SBOIT. I’ve never seen a total eclipse before #goddamit my brain jumped to too many places #delete later #anyways. if u didn’t u should acknowledge ur accomplishments today #even if they didn’t feel like much #now I’m gonna go read a 115k fanfic that’s gonna wreck me #that’s my treat to me #I HAVE ACTUAL BOOKS TO FINISH. but NO. THIS is how I’m spending my time. and it’s fine I’m valid #I’ve been talking to all the lesbians about running too #and they’ve been so encouraging too!! I love my coworkers and very distantly related coworkers sm

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whumpy-wyrms · 4 months

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Has Aspen watched Wolfwalkers before? I think he would absolutely love that movie :)

YESSSS YES YES ASPEN FUCKING LOVESSSSSS THAT MOVIEEE

AND SO DO I!!!!!!! like i’ve never seen that movie before but i’ve wanted to watch it for a long time and this ask FINALLY made me watch it and oh my god HOLY SHIT IT’S ONE OF MY FAVORITE MOVIES NOW. i literally JUST finished it and i don’t even know what to say besides this

i need everyone to watch this clip in particular because holy shit i cried during it /pos. like i can’t even describe how much i love this movie and how much it means to me just wow WOW it’s absolutely fucking amazing and i definitely recommend it to everyone. the animation is stunning i love the main characters and everything is just so EXPRESSIVE and the COLORS ANR AHHHH THE WOLVESSSS

Aspen loves it. it’s one of his favorite movies now too (maybe his favorite idk i’ll have to think of what other movies he likes) but guys i don’t even know what to sayyyy that movie is sooo good

thank you so much for sending this ask because wow i don’t know what it is with me and wolves now but wolves are COOL and i LOVE this movie i’m so happy i finally watched it!!! :D

#i was screaming at the tv during the super intense parts like wow WOW this movie was amazing #imagining Aspen running through the woods as a wolf being so so so happy #i’m so happy i got the idea to turn him into a werewolf later on in the story so he can finally truly live #like Aspen turning into a werewolf marks the end of Silas feeding on him i think. it’s a brand new beginning. he’s truly alive and free now #and i love that so much #i’m so happy #i’ve gotta write down everything i’ve been coming up with for silas and aspen because it’s a lot and some people might be outta the loop #but basically after a very long time of being Silas’s bloodbag Aspen befriends a werewolf and gets turned #Silas was pissed because werewolf blood is kinda gross and Aspen now smells like wet dog and he’s overall less appealing #and Aspen is over the moon when he gets turned because he’s a wolf therian (otherkin) and he basically just got everything he’s ever wanted #and by then he already got closure for some stuff in his past (relating to how he originally died and one of his friends and ghosts)#so like he’s Happy. he’s so fucking happy. he’s the happiest person you’ve ever met by then #and also that is past the point where Silas eventually warms up to him (because aspen is literally a delight to be around #even to people as cold and heartless as silas) he still kills aspen for fun though. aspen is used to it and honestly doesn’t mind anymore #their dynamic is just sooo fun.#and i love werewolf aspen so much and need to talk about him because he’s all i’ve been thinking about and drawing #like Aspen is a bloodthristy werewolf who doesn’t know anything about his powers and Silas begrudgingly helps him because he’s Involved now #lots more happens in the story after this. it’s gonna take forever to actually get there tho like im a slow writer and haven’t even finishe #the first chapter. but yeah i love werewolf aspen and the werewolf who turned him is very cool too. don’t know anything abt them yet but im #working on it. anyway i love wolfwalkers u all should watch it because it’s amazing #ask #aspen oc #silas oc #brc ask #blood runs cold

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28whitepeonies · 2 years

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Born in Doncaster, Tomlinson was part of the boy band One Direction, who sold more than 70 million records worldwide. After they split in 2016, he launched his solo career and returned as a judge to The X Factor, the show that launched the band. He has a son, Freddie, six, from a previous relationship with the stylist Briana Jungwirth, and lives in north London.

I’m not an early riser. When I was touring with One Direction, I used to wake up at 4pm as the adrenaline of being on stage and after-show partying meant staying up until 3am was normal.

I’ve been touring solo all year and the post-show energy is still intense, but I’m out of bed by midday now.

If I’m not touring, Doncaster is where my heart is, but I split my time between my house in north London and LA, where my son lives.

The first thing I do every day is have a strong coffee. I love a full English but I’m lazy, so I’ll probably have a bowl of cereal.

I’m very good at just watching shit TV all day, but if I’m trying to be productive I like to inspire myself by watching interviews with other artists I admire, like Arctic Monkeys or Liam Gallagher. It’s dead interesting hearing the way they think.

If I’m having a lazy day, I’m not gonna lie, I rate Bargain Hunt. I love it when someone pays well over the odds. I’ve not been invited to the celebrity version yet but if my career starts winding down one day, who knows? If I’m writing or recording, I’ll never start a session before 2pm. I’ve learnt not to get too carried away when a tune gains momentum. Sometimes you think it’s a f***ing banger, then you come back to it three days later and it’s not quite as good as you remember.

There’s a different sort of pressure being a solo artist, and the lows are lower on your own. In One Direction we made decisions collectively, but now it’s all on me. That also means the highs are higher. This year I did a concert in Milan in front of 34,000 fans. The adulation was almost overwhelming, but I could take all the credit — not just one fifth.

For lunch, I love a tuna sandwich with salad cream — not mayo — and some prawn cocktail crisps on the side. I’m a shit cook. I’ve survived on microwave meals for years, but I do feel sorry for my son — he must be sick to death of cheesy pasta.

I never work too long away from LA, so I see Freddie as much as I can. After my LA gig he came on stage and played the drums, which he loved. I think he assumes that it’s normal for everyone’s dad to tour the world performing.

Being a father has changed me but because my mum used to work nights and I was the oldest, the responsibility fell to me to feed, dress and bathe my younger siblings, so I’ve already had a parenting crash course. I’d be lying if I said it wasn’t challenging, but it’s so rewarding too.

Social media has been really important for connecting to my fans, but I’ve got a funny relationship with it. It can be a toxic place and I’ve had some unhinged messages sliding into my DMs. I can’t keep up with these people posting 20 photos a day on Instagram, though, as all I’m doing is watching Bargain Hunt and that’s not that interesting.

If I’m performing in the evening, I have a double vodka and Red Bull to calm my nerves. When I was in One Direction, that pre-show ritual made me feel like a rock star. It just gives you such a great f***ing feeling on stage. I’d love to say I don’t get more nervous if I know Harry [Styles] or any of the other boys are in the crowd, but I do. You want to give your best.

When I come off stage I need five minutes to decompress, but I’m still buzzing so normally a big group of us will go out. I won’t be touring like this for ever, but while I am I want to have all the fun I can. That usually ends at about 3am with me crawling into my pitch-black bunk on my tour bus before we start the whole process all over again the next day.

Tomlinson’s album Faith in the Future is out on Friday on BMG

Words of wisdom

Best advice I was given

Always be a student of music

Advice I’d give

Have faith that if you’re not happy with where you are, eventually you’ll be all right

What I wish I’d known

Make the most of the lack of responsibility that youth brings, as being young won’t last for ever

#for my nice anon #I’m pretty much always willing to post these things i just usually only do it if I think folk are interested #or if I have something to comment on #so if I haven’t it’s because of that and if u want it u can slide in my inbox anytime #and I’ll post it for you #as always I get irritated by UA’s posting selectively edited articles #baby he doesn’t need you editing his life #Louis Tomlinson #the times #unedited #a life in the day

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crossbackpoke-check · 1 year

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i C u moyle

captured in 4k

#i REFUSE to admit defeat at the hands of the umich boys #except i did verbatim send a text to my roommate that said ‘bro stop he’s disgusting i’m so in love with him’#after fully watching a trail of spit come out of his mouth while he was bent over to take a face off. i am Down Bad #also nolan never keeps his tongue in his mouth my dude is just out there full 👅 all the time i can’t stand him close ur mouth or i’ll kiss u #nolan moyle #ethan edwards #philippe lapointe #relatedly duker skates EXACTLY the way he runs in the monday videos which is how i identify him at all times & i almost started wheezing #if i knew how to make gifs there would be gifs of nolan stickhandling however i don’t Know how to make live videos gifs ☺️#deep cuts from the draft dumpster dives #is this from two different games? the world may never know (yeah. do i remember exact dates for either of them? no of course not)#we’re just getting close to the end of the season & i am succumbing to my desire to post Him #also inCREDIBLE nemcklance content in the second picture (not of nolan) 🫠#nemcklance #things i am not proud of: my reaction 2 this. everyone shhh i’m allowed one breakdown about a dirtbag per quarter & i haven’t seen mo enough #like most days i do not want to be a puck bunny but sometimes u lock eyes with a man & go ohhh the hoggles are glued on for you ✊😔 buffooner #trying 2 undo my internalized misogyny! by allowing myself 2 say i can be a valid sports fan who likes players! sorry about it! idk why him!#it is 1000% because of la’s umich fic & all the lore though. most likely. also apparently i’m a crustasche lover 😪 the struggle is real #if u loved me u would have stopped at the tag about nolan drooling on the ice & we will never speak of this again (said by someone who will)

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theb0nesofmymind · 10 months

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Imma rant

#my fucking ex husband is pissing me the FUCK off #usually I message him around 4-5 to tell him if I’m getting off early or not #I get off Saturdays to pick up my son anywhere from 6-8:30 #but I was doing a clients nails for 6 fucking hours today and couldn’t get to my phone #he fucking messages me at 7:50 asking if I’m still coming to pick him up like -_-#the fucking massive aggressiveness is not fucking cute #it’s not like I’m at fucking WORK where I can’t have my phone 24/7 or anything #ya imma just not pick up MY OWN son and not even tell u about it #not to mention my son hasn’t been getting consistent sleep because he has been crib training him #and wants to tell me that I should try to as well when I have been reduced to MAYBE a 10’ x 6’ room in my parents house #I CANT FIT A CRIB IN MY ROOM #like I’m so glad you found someone after we split (that happens to have a whole house)#‘try to find somewhere else for him to sleep’ SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU INCONSIDERATE ASSHOLE #i literally don’t complain to him about anything and bend over fucking backwards to accommodate his fucking needs but the second I #don’t message a time I’m coming or I can’t keep the same sleeping pattern as him he has something to fucking say #I swear to FUCK IM GONNA LOOSE IT #the only reason I haven’t is because it literally would not solve anything. he complains. he’s a complainer.#not to mention defensive whenever I BRING something up #like only he can fucking set boundaries and when I try to stand up for myself he turns everything around and makes it my fault #rant fucking over #IM OVER IT #FUUCCKKKKKKKK

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sammygender · 1 year

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i literally don’t understand what it’s like to be boring. like sorry i guess i’m just built different. imagine possessing the ability to say no. imagine not being incredibly, deeply, maladpatively impulsive. i always attract people who i love but are just like sorta loser adjacent as in they never are up to do Crazy Random Shit (and all of them CLAIM it’s because someone needs to be ‘responsible’ out of us but like i am an older brother and very intelligent i’m just impulsive while i’m smart💔) and always whine at ME for doing things that AREN’T EVEN THAT CRAZY! like sorryyy that my life is interesting and i can’t Not Do Things. sorry that i am not someone who worries in a way that stops him from doing anything. maybe i just befriend too many people with anxiety disorders but that’s not even it cause you can have an anxiety disorder and still Not Be Boring. like being boring is a state of mind. just stop it. sometimes it’s easier to say yes so like why are you even saying no

#‘i can’t be bothered’ BE BOTHERED.#and then when they act like IM somehow worse for it like no??? sorry that ur boring and wouldn’t do anything if it wasn’t for me??#i’ll like do ONE tiny slightly unhinged thing like. idk! smoke a random cigarette from an ash tray #or like talk a lot about jumping over train tracks #or attempt to climb over a barbed wire fence into one of those electrical thingys because there’s a whole pretty grassy area #or like eat muffins off the ground cause i wanted to see what they were like #or miss my stop 3 times in a row and completely change the plan of where i was going to #and suddenly it’s all like. ohhhh you’re so irresponsible i need to keep an eye on you #like. girl. you realise i do this shit alone too and i am always completely fine #newsflash but i know how to use bus systems i know how to get home from places i wouldn’t actually kill myself on train tracks or barbed #wire and ingesting some weird toxin is not going to immediately kill me #i didn’t even ask u to do it with me i just saw a fun opportunity and toon it. DONT #be a spoilsport. don’t judge💔#like u think this is me crazy?#ohhh u haven’t even seen me crazy. trust i can be a LOT more crazy #oliver talks #need more friends who match my energy fr

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ilovethecolorpink · 2 years

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i am so deeply invested in the taylor jenkins reid literary universe because i smile every time a character from one book is mentioned in another

#reading malibu rising. probably the book ive been most excited to read in a WHILE #because i feel like i havent been INVESTED in a book in awhile #well i read far from the tree by robin benway a few weeks ago and was pretty invested in that #but ya idk i just needed something i knew would make me excited to read #something with a STORY u know #i feel like i haven’t updated yall on my reading in forever #after it i read far from the tree and loved it (Cried sooo much too)#then i read the jungle by upton sinclar and was surprised by how much i liked it and how diff it was from what i expected #oh during all this time i was listening to educated by tara westover which was just spectacular and i loved it #truly have such high praise for it like i wanna find a physical copy so i can annotate it and just be able to display it on my shelf #which the other other audiobook ive ever wanted to do the same for was know my name (one of my top books of 2021) so.. that says it all!#then i read nine perfect strangers by liane moriarty which was just fine #my least fav from the 3 ive read tho the only one to make me cry?? the end was sweet idk #idk it was slow to start and i found most of the characters annoying but not annoying enough to dislike fjjejxwkd #actually i also did laugh out loud a couple times too but STILL idk it just wasnt giving what i needed it to give #i need to stop chasing the rush from big little lies she gave me #ok and now on audio i’m reading #the five: the untold lives of the women killed by jack the ripper by hallie rubenhold #liking it so far tho sometimes i find it hard to pay attention #and ive just recently started both notes on a native son by james baldwin and malibu rising by tjr #like less than 30 pages into both 😭#my reading this summer has been very blah but im hoping to turn that around soon #mine #reading

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eldritch-thrumming · 1 year

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#just saw that poll where it’s like vote on something u like abt ur writing #and I was like ok there’s a something else option #because none of the options applied to me #and I say w my phone in my hand and was like what do I like abt my writing #and I couldn’t think of anything 🥲🥲🥲#i like that I can write kinda fast #idk I’m having like a bad low confidence week and everything sucks and I don’t want to do my job anymore #and I haven’t really even been interested in my actual interests #all I’m doing is watching housewives and it’s so depressing and lame and boring and I want to genuinely love writing again lol

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