#so i'm going to lie a lot

[just-an-enby-lemon]

@pharoahkittylover completly agrees with me that Mr. Freeze should be a controlling abusive husband or even better an obcessive asshole creating delusions over a girl he never actually knew (New 52 my beloved) and all positive depictions of Victor are not only uncharacteristic but offensive. Fries isn't a complex characther with a tragic backstory he is just more proof people are born bad and can't change and violent cops are necessary actually.

#april fools #in brazil april's fool is lies day #so i'm going to lie a lot #the new 52 did unreparable damage to my baby and I hate it #mr freeze #victor fries #nora fries #let them have a good marriage please

[inkskinned]

you have to go to work so you can pay for your doctor, who is not taking your insurance right now, and if you say i can't afford the doctor's you are told - get a better job. it is very sad that you are unwell, yes, but maybe you should have thought about that before not having a better job.

(where is the better job? who is giving out these better jobs? you are sick, you are hurting - how the hell are you supposed to be well enough for this better job?)

but you go to the doctor because you had the nerve to be hurt or sick or whatever else. and they tell you that it is because you have anxiety. you try your best. you are a self-advocate. you've done the reading (which sometimes pisses them off worse, honestly). you say it is actually adding to my anxiety, it is effecting my quality of life. so they say that you are fat. they say that all young people have this happen to them, isn't it a medical marvel! they say that you should eat more vegetables. they say that you probably just need to lose a little more weight, and that you are faking it for attention.

(what attention could this doctor possibly give? what validation? that's their fucking job, isn't it?)

there is always a hypochondriac, right. someone always tells you about a hypochondriac. or someone who is unnecessarily aggressive during the worst days of their life. or someone looking "for a quick fix". or some idiot who wasn't educated about how to properly care for themselves who just abandons their treatment. and again, the hypochondriac, the overly-cautious hysteric. these people don't deserve to be treated like humans (right), and since you might be one of these people, you also don't get treated like a human. because those people can really fuck with the system, you now have to pay for it. and besides. you're actually probably faking it.

(more often than not, you find a 2:1 ratio of these stories. for every "hypochondriac", there are 2 people who knew something was wrong, and yet nobody could fucking find it. the story often ends with pointless suffering. the story often ends with and now it's too late, and it's going to kill me.)

you are actually just making excuses. someone else got that procedure or that diagnosis and he's fine, you should be fine too. someone else said they watched a documentary about other inspirational people with your exact same condition, maybe you should be inspirational, too. you're just too morbid. your pain and your experience is probably just not statistically concerning. it is all self-reported anyway, and you're just being a baby.

(once, while sitting down in the middle of making coffee, you had the sudden, horrible thought - i could kill myself to make the pain stop. you had to call your best friend after that. had to pet your dog. had to cry about it in the shower. you won't, but that moment - god, fuck. the pain just goes on and on.)

you know someone who went in for routine surgery and said i still feel everything. they told her to just relax. it took her kicking and screaming before they figured out she wasn't lying - the anesthetic drip hadn't been working. you know someone who went in for severe migraines who was told drink water and lose weight. you know someone who was actively bleeding out and throwing up in the ER and was told you're just having a bad period.

in the ER there are always these little posters saying things like "don't wait! get checked today!" and you think about how often you do wait. how often the days spool out. you once waited a full week before seeing the doctor for what you thought was a sprained wrist. it had actually been broken - they had to rebreak it to set it.

but you go into the doctor. the problem you're having is immediate. the person behind the counter frowns and says we're not taking your insurance. you will be paying for this out-of-pocket.

they send you home with tylenol and a little health packet about weight loss or anxiety or attention deficit. on the front it has your birthday and diagnosis. you think about crying, and the words swim. it might as well say go fuck yourself. it might as well say you're a fucking idiot. it might as well say light your money on fire and lie down in it. and the entire fucking time - the problem persists.

it's okay. it's okay, it's just another thing, you think. it's just another thing i have to learn to live with.

#spilled ink #warm up #can you tell what i'm mad about today specifically #i will say that there are a LOT of things that go into this. like a lot. this is ungendered and unspecific for a reason #it isn't just sexism. it's also racism. and ableism. and honestly classism. #and before a healthcare professional reads this as a personal attack: i understand ur burnt out #we are ALSO burnt out. your situation is also dire. this is not an attack on you. #this is a commentary on the incredible amounts of bigotry that lie at the heart of capitalism #where people have to pay money out of pocket to be told to fuck off. #your job is important. so is our humanity. and if you cannot accept that people are fucking mad as hell #at the industry - you are probably not listening . #anyway at some point im gonna write a piece about sexism specifically in medical shit #but i don't want terfs clowning in it bc they can't understand nuance #> it is true that ppl w/a uterus are more likely to experience medical malpractice & dismissal globally #> it is also true that trans people experience an equally fucked up and bad time in the medical field #> great news! the medical industrial complex is an equal opportunity life ruiner :) #(if you find it necessary to go into a debate about biology while discussing medical malpractice #i want to warn you that you're misunderstanding the issue. because guess what. #cis MEN might experience this. particularly black men. particularly disabled men. #so YES having a uterus can lead to more trouble for you. but this happens a LOT. #instead of fighting those ALSO experiencing your pain.... try working WITH them. #which btw. is like. actual feminism.)

[pocketgalaxies]

crazy how in c2 they'll have three extensive convos checking in with each other while traveling like an hour in-game meanwhile in c3 they've been on the moon for days and still haven't discussed the following:

laudna fucking ate a guy

imogen's mom is a mythical legend amongst the enemy

orym vs. laudna's response to imogen giving into predathos

how did chetney suddenly learn to make hypnotizing toys

delilah briarwood

"some of us are expendable, we should get captured"

anything and everything they said during the trust exercise, including but not limited to:

laudna not being able to distinguish her thoughts from delilah's

imogen's disgust at delilah's inevitable presence

chetney's fear that his new family will leave him

orym's feelings about dorian

fcg relieving stress through murder

fearne's insecurities about their chances of success

ashton's guilt about the shard

and more!

#i'm not complaining i'm just complaining #the difference between the two campaigns is SO STARK and i don't understand why #that's a lie i do understand why. it's bc there's been a ticking time bomb in c3 for a full year's worth of episodes at this point #if not longer #so i get it. but also i'm gonna go crazy. #if they had a full 4hr ep of just debriefing and talking i'd be so much more engaged than another 4 hours of traveling through ruidus #ik there are a lot of ppl out there enjoying the moon lore and the npcs etc but i feel like personally my brain is in a tiny gloomy prison #and the only thing that can free me is SOMEBODY AT THIS DAMN TABLE ASKING 'ARE YOU OKAY?' #anyway! back to c2 :) #2h30m c2e59 #text #critical role #cr2 #cr lb #r: mighty nein #cr3 #cr negativity #r: bells hells

[avephelis]

every time someone mischaracterises jay ferin as the therapist friend a fairy loses its wings btw. put some respect on her emotionally-constipated ass.

#there's a whole ongoing bit where she either a. forces chip to do feelings talks for her or b. says the most awkward shit ever #like someone opens up to her she's like “wow that was a lot. anyway.” #jay “well i'm just a girl so” ferin. jay the answer is gun ferin. #i get this is a common issue with fandom treatment of female characters but COME THE FUCK ON. IT'S A CANON CHARACTER TRAIT. #and it adds so much depth to the times she DOES try to help or comfort people like in 81/82 where she goes up to chip about gill like #“i'm kind of shit at this emotional stuff but i'm going to do my best for you damnit”. AND SHE FUCKING TRIES. BECAUSE SHE LOVES THEM. #also her getting tipsy and spewing the most insane shit and going teehee ^_^ was that awkward sorry ^_^ and falling over. so fucking funny. #jay ferin #jrwi #im so normal about these fictional characters <- lie #i talk about this all the time in my dms im finally making a post about it I CANT STAND IT ANYMOREE

[inkly-heart]

Do you have a group discord server? If others want to chill and interact with you. Just wondering

That aside just hoping you’re doing okay Blastic. Still, if you’re not your gotta a lot people care about you.

I look forward to seeing how the rest of the game goofs.

—goofball anon

I don't and sadly I don't think I will make one. It would be fun to interact with people who enjoys my work and wants to chat with me but I just feel it would be too much work for me to handle a discord server. So at least for now I'm not planning to make one.

#and how I've been doing?? #there been ups and downs #maybe bit better?? At least compared to what it was when this month started #I felt so numb for some reason #I just wanted to lie in bed and do nothing because nothing was making me happy. Not even drawing or playing games #I do still get these kind of days but it hasn't been that bad and I have got some amount motivation back to draw again at least #wanting to play games though still have been very low #but I'm taking small steps #I'm also sorry for not having much good news and that I've been so quiet nowadays #I just been struggling a lot what to say and anxiety isn't making things any easier #but I want to thank everyone who are still here hanging around and enjoying my work #even though I have these struggles I'm happy that you guys still want to support me<33 Thank you<33 #not sure did I word these right but I tried my best #and I will also do my best not to give up and keep on going 🌱 #ask #anon

[pinksilvace]

“It’s cold." “I know. I know, but we’re going to be alright. Do you hear me? You’re alright now. You’re going to be okay.” “I want to go home.” “We can’t go back home. We’re—we’re orphans now, remember? Nobody’s waiting for us back there.”

#this is technically art for my fic so it gets the tag: #silvacegreengardens #I love drawing backgrounds (lie) #my art #fernart #for once I'm feeling pretty proud of this one??? wild #guess that's what happens when I try for a full illustration every once in a while lol #rip to that plant specifically though. abstract shapes be upon ye #the owl house #caleb wittebane #philip wittebane #wittebros #toh fanart #eventually I'm going to post a short green gardens companion fic that explains what Caleb's going through bc it's a Lot #oh rip to the blanket and left hand too. definitely did not try incorporating them as well as I could have. ah well #the focus for this was color and expression anyway #bummer that it's so dark but I couldn't figure out how to get the ambience otherwise and I refuse to shoot reference of myself #dripping wet and sitting in a dark place with vague overhead ambient lighting #you should've seen how Caleb's feet looked in the initial sketch. HUGE. boy came straight out of kingdom hearts

[raiiny-bay]

some kel sketches i'm working on

#hi #i wanted to sketch some scenes from one of my AUs so that's what these are #i still have a lot more to do. spent most of yesterday making pose refs for all of em #sorry all i've been posting lately is drawing stuff. that's just what i've been focused on ig #also apologies to anyone who has sent me an ask/tagged me in something/left a reply on one of my posts in the last like. 2 months #& i didn't reply. uh. #i'm not ignoring you i have just been feeling very. lie face down in the dirt. recently. so. yea. #i'll try to respond eventually. hopefully. #oh! i went to the thrift store yesterday. found pom poko & howl's moving castle! #very exciting adds to my collection. #n e way. i'm gonna go draw now. bye #artwip #rainyrambles

[hajihiko]

not to invalidate the other day people who see themselves in your impostor drawing (and not to validate the jerk that didn’t know how to offer constructive criticism in the first place) but as someone who’s body type is more similar to canon impostor you did slim him down quite a bit. there isn’t any problem with the actual drawing yknow, there are tons of people who look like that, but impostor in canon is fatter.

see that's a comment I can work with! I haven't figured out a way to make the mouth lines work for my style (someone also said they find them offensive I think) but I can look at the sprites better and practice

#I won't lie #it's the first time I'm drawing a fat character in a long time (not a lot of them around) so I got a ways to go 💪 #I also think every character varies a lot in body build between drawings for me especially doodles #Anyway! Like when I made my Teruteru sprite too light. I appreciate when ppl let me know this kinda stuff I might not notice #^politely of course. #not an art

[lloydfrontera]

also javier declaring he's gonna kill a fucking angel,, because they dared to threaten lloyd,,, literally going against divine will because what's heaven against his best friend,,,

#i talk a lot <3 #tged #the greatest estate developer #javier asrahan #lloyd frontera #it's not even a 'back off' or a warning. no it's straight up 'you threatened the person i swore to protect so i'm going to kill you' which. #very hot of him not gonna lie. #ch 317

[inkstainedarchivistmagpie]

You know, playing through Penacony after playing through both Persona 5 and Who's Lila practically back to back is an incredibly surreal experience and makes everything hit you as hard as we hit Sunday with the Astral Express.

#hsr spoilers #hsr 2.2 #looking at Sunday and Maruki from side to side and it's just the same picture #through different means of getting there #and also Kevin Kaslana #also I know it's copium but I like to imagine that Gallagher and Misha can still live if we go with Who's Lila logic #That so long as someone knows their name and of their existence even if someone knows about the 'lie' that is Gallagher #or if Misha fulfills his purpose #So long as they are in someone's mind their existence will linger on and continue on so long as they are kept in someone's unconciouss mind #or the mind of several different people. So long as they have a sustainer if you will then they'll always be able to exist #look I'm still broken up over Misha and the fact that Something Unto Death/Sleepie/Dormancy keeps calling for Gallagher alright? #Gallagher and Misha were absolutely right it's like a big puppy even if it basically killed Firefly and Robin #let me have this headcanon about memetic entities darn it #if Black Swan can keep living as a memetic entity then in some other universe so can they #Now I feel bad fighting Sleepie as a boss in literally anything and that it will be all alone in Penacony with Clockie thanks Shaoji #Galladay fans and Yanmisha fans do with the Who's Lila related information whichever you'd like with #I feel like there's a lot of angst potential there #hsr #penacony spoilers #hsr misha #misha hsr #hsr gallagher #gallagher hsr

[meownotgood]

AKI SIGNED SP CARD AAAAH HIS VA'S SIGNATURE IS SO CUUUUUTE

#the little cat signature.... shogo I can't w you #and this is new artwork too..... aaah he's so cute #whenever I see new artwork of aki I feel insane #he's so cute and beautiful #I'm not gonna lie I literally know... nothing about this card game #all I knew is about the signed cards #so I've been patiently awaiting an aki card with his va's signature #I just didn't expect it to have new art like this... but I love it #but I tried to look up the prices some of these cards go for and #I'll be selling a kidney before I can afford this..... #I'm pretty sure if the set ever gets an english release #it'll run a lot cheaper than the japanese #hahaha would you think I'm inside if I told you I dropped more than my rent costs on a aki trading card with his va signature on it..... #it'll be sealed in a toploader forever to become a family heirloom #aki <3 #aki hayakawa

[warped-paranoia]

#i don't have anything to post rn #except for my kpop doodles. so #2023 skz art dump #i've been having a lot of fun with their music not gonna lie #even bought an album. i've never done that before #what is happening to me bro. i'm mortified #han this is for you #going straight to bed after this post. writing tags is too tiring. posting something here is a full-time job and i'm getting fired! #stray kids #stray kids fanart #skz #skz fanart #han #han jisung #lee know #seungmin #kim seungmin #2min #skzoo #leebit #украрт #укртамблер #укртумбочка #darium_art

[lazuliquetzal]

Saw the tags on ur previous ask, Atreus having to mercy kill his father so obviously kratos does not want revenge on his killer literally pshhhh crying so hard rn

Listen there's this snippet of Lore called The Cycle Of Patricide, and I spent the entire four years between GOW 2018 and Ragnarok EXPECTING Atreus to stab Kratos. Cory Balrog baited me. When I saw that final image on the wall in Jotunheim, I fully interpreted that as Atreus stabbing Kratos and offering his body to Thor. My evidence:

"Is this what it is to be a god? Is this how it always ends? Sons killing their mothers, their fathers?"

We saw Kratos kill Zeus, and more importantly, Atreus saw Kratos kill Zeus.

The repeated motif of violence in parent-child dynamics (Thor and his sons, Thamur and his son, Freya and Baldur, everything with Odin, that side quest with the son who regretted killing his father in Fafnir's Storeroom, pretty sure there's a lot more I'm forgetting)

The enduring question of whether or not fate is inevitable. Is it possible to break the cycle?

Atreus's anger and thirst for blood.

Atreus literally shot Kratos and sent them into Hel.

"So you'd let me kill you?" "If it meant that you would live... yes."

SO IT'S NOT MY FAULT IT'S SAD, AND IT'S NOT MY FAULT THAT I WROTE THIS. THIS IS LITERALLY NOT MY IDEA--

#god of war #bluestonewings #THIS SHIT WAS FORESHADOWED SO HARD AND THEY DIDN'T DO IT? SMH #atreus is gonna go evil in a later game and stab kratos i'm calling it now #it will break me in two and i don't think he'd actually kill kratos (unless it is a mercy kill situation) #but you can't just fucking foreshadow this and drop it entirely i'm losing my mind #they didn't even do a metaphorical death. #i spent years bracing myself for Maximum Grief and then they swerved #i love ragnarok a lot! but The Plot Thread. Tie it off. Please #asks #lazuli talks #lie by omission gow

[becca-e-barnes]

this for subby!bucky 😵‍💫

There’s nothing hotter than a man moaning his way through a make out session and grinding his hard-on against your body, idgaf. Men moaning in general fucking floors me 😵‍💫

But I really like the thought of him starting off thinking he's in control of himself. Not necessarily in control of you, he just thinks he's pretty composed, all things considered. The featherlight kisses have his heart beating just a little faster than normal but it's manageable.

It all just gets away from him though. The tiny pecks turn into tender, deeper kisses and your hands start to wander. Those kisses inevitably develop into a kind of frantic passion that he has difficulty keeping up with. His brain goes a little foggy and nothing else matters except getting more of you and getting it now.

He loses himself in the feeling of you so entirely that he hardly notices he's been trying to ease the throbbing need in his own cock. "O-oh fuck." He groans, eyes closed, cheeks flushed, lips slick and dick twitching in his pants.

"We can go slower if this is too much for you, baby." You whisper softly, keeping your face close to his. God, he's beautiful like this and you know he'd whimper if you told him that.

"No, God. I don't need you to go slower. I need more." There's no shame in those blown out pupils when his eyes flutter open. He's not embarrassed by his own need. Instead, there's a complete trust that you'll take care of him because you always do. There's no judgement or reservation between you both because there simply doesn't need to be.

"I can do that." You laugh quietly, tugging him towards you so your lips can crash together with the exact same intensity as before and it never fails to amaze you that he melts into your touch so entirely.

You feel how hard he is and in truth, it would be difficult not to given how he's grinding it against your body with more purpose than before. His mouth is so hungry, never managing to taste enough of you and in no time, it's trailed down your neck, sucking at your skin while his frantic grind continues.

"Good boy, Buck. That's it, rub yourself silly on me." You encourage, drinking in his pathetic groan. That permission almost makes him wish he could cum in his pants.

"You're like a puppy, aren't you? So eager. You just can't help yourself." Your hand drifts downwards, rubbing over the bulge in the front of his sweatpants and you feel him absentmindedly thrusting into your touch. He's a moaning mess, babbling and begging, lost the lust that's now making the fingertips of his flesh hand tingle and his head spin.

#asks answered <3 #anon #becca writes spice #sub!bucky #One more minor inconvenience today #is quite possibly all it would take #for me to burst into tears #Just one #i had an idea stuck in my head all day for some angsty poetry #And I wrote it and it was even more fucking tragic than I expected #over something that I'm literally not even sad about #it just has a lot of potential to be something that someone else in the same situation might be sad about? #So idk where it all came from #And now I can’t go to something I was really excited about #bc it’s over my mum’s 50th birthday #i think I’m just going to lie in bed and not move for the rest of the night #Maybe if I lie still enough I’ll dissolve

[smilesflower]

⟣ forsvt carat birthday event • day two: your biaswrecker(s) ⟢

➼ joshua — double take (dhruv cover)

#seventeen #svtcreations #svtgifs #bycarat #joshua #joshua hong #n.gif #g:svt #m:js #he makes me do a double take A LOT so i felt like this was appropriate #all of them biaswreck me but generally speaking joshua the hardest so i picked just him for this prompt #i have been wanting to gif this video for a while now and the other thing i had in mind for day two didn't work out so i figured why not <3 #not the coloring i usually go for but i'm like obsessed w it?? #i love him a normal amount (totally not a lie) #*eye twitch*

[amethystina]

Really random question: do you thing Gaon and Yohan are the type to celebrate Christmas? Like, exchanging gifts and all that, or do they just have a big meal so the holiday don't go unnoticed

Interesting question!

I don't think Yo Han is very interested in Christmas before he meets Ga On. Like, maybe he made a small effort for Elijah during the years she grew up (i.e. clumsily gave her a gift or two) but, for the most part, I don't think he has very nice memories of Christmas. Given how religious his father was, I'm assuming Christmas in the Kang household was a little more, uh, strict than most people are accustomed to.

Though, considering Kang Ji Sang's track record, we can probably also assume that Yo Han wasn't actually allowed to celebrate Christmas with the rest of the family. Any gifts he got were ones Isaac sneaked down into the basement.

So, overall, I don't think Yo Han has the best association with Christmas and couldn't care less (read: is too traumatised and pretends he doesn't care but, actually, it's just a defence mechanism to prevent him from showing weakness).

As for Ga On, I think he has a more normal relationship with Christmas. And, from what I understand, Christmas in South Korea is a little more relaxed and has fewer traditions than many countries in the West do. Though I assume there's a bit of trauma involved here, too, given that Ga On's parents died when he was still so young. But I think that Soo Hyun and Professor Min stepped in and did their best to make sure he didn't feel too lonely during Christmas.

And, I mean, now that Ga On has a wonderful new family to call his own? Of course he'd want to give it a try, simply because it gives him a reason to spend time with the people he loves. So he'd definitely suggest a nice dinner at the very least, which Yo Han would maybe be a bit sceptical about at first, until he remembers that gift-giving is also a major part of Christmas.

Time to pull out all the stops and spoil the sugar baby rotten, in other words.

And Ga On realises his mistake almost instantly but, even then, he doesn't backtrack. Possibly because he goes to ask Ms. Ji if there are any Kang Christmas traditions he should incorporate into their celebration and is horrified by the answer he gets.

Locking Yo Han in the basement does not qualify as a Christmas tradition.

Adding to that, Elijah has probably gotten pulled into it by then and, while she feigns disinterest and keeps telling Ga On he's sooo embarrassing, she's secretly into it. So Ga On decides that if letting Yo Han (and Elijah) buy him expensive gifts is the way to introduce them to a more normal concept of Christmas and slowly heal some of Yo Han's trauma, then so be it.

But he definitely also makes sure to give Yo Han and Elijah a limit to how many gifts they can give him and how much they can cost.

Naturally, they both pretend the maximum cost is for each individual present, not the total (as was Ga On's intention), and then proceed to buy him a shitload of expensive stuff while claiming innocence.

Ga On vows to leave them fewer loopholes next year.

But, all in all, it's a success. And would probably turn into a tradition, of sorts, yes. One that gives them a reason to eat a nice dinner, play some board games, and shower Ga On with gifts.

And, above all else, spend time together as a family.

Bonus: Ga On quickly learns never to ask Yo Han what he wants for Christmas because the answer is always the same and he really should know better than to give Yo Han such a perfect opening to be an outrageous, shameless flirt.

But, at the same time, Ga On can't deny that it also gives him a bit of a thrill when Yo Han, without missing a beat, always just says:

"You."

(and, naturally, that's exactly what Yo Han gets, too)

#Amethystina Replies #Anonymous #Tbh I feel like I might not be the best person to reply to this #Since I'm obviously not Korean x'D #And like #Not going to lie #The amount of anxiety I have over accidentally misrepresenting the culture is A LOT to carry sometimes #So please know that any mistakes are due to clumsiness not malice #I'm trying my best ;___;