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submalevolentgrace · 1 year

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hi hello, sorry it's another amputee question, idk if you get tired of these. i found your blog and i like how you share your experiences, thank you for this. im abled myself but im writing a story, and i want my main girlie protag to have a prosthetic leg and here's the thing, i dont really have a reason for it. i guess it says something about me, don't know what, but i just don't know if that's considered, well, offensive, or rude, or something. i don't plan to have any focus on it in the story. the medium is a comic so it's going to be always visible as a prosthetic, but i don't want to explain it in-story either, no backstory, she would probably just have it since early childhood. it won't affect the plot. and that's where i don't know if that's even okay. it feels weird to want that, to include that, almost as if i need to somehow turn the story about it, to have some kind of statement. which i don't actually want to make or even feel able to make as never experiencing it. i want for her to have a prosthetic leg just because. and i don't have anyone to ask this, and i don't mean to offend you by this, and i apologize if i somehow did. but if it's okay with you to answer, i'd appreciate reading. if it's gonna be an angry rant i'd like to read it too. i know you're an upper body amp, but idk, i feel like this question isn't much about the use of prosthetics and more of the general amputee characters, and im scared to ask reddit, i don't even know if that ask made sense. thank you if you read that all, please don't feel pressured to answer. hopefully you'll have something good that brightens your day a little!

thank you, i actually really appreciate this ask! sorry that the response is long and wordy, i got a bit carried away…

so, i've gotten a lot of asks/dms/notes from writers asking about how to write their amputee characters/ocs after my big "writing advice" post, and i think i've ended up ignoring every single one of them, because… well, not to be rude to all those people, but they seem to have completely bounced off the whole 'know why you are writing this' thesis, too caught up in the excitement of their own fantasy to even notice the bit about understanding your own intent as an author and why that matters, let alone really engaging with it. and at that point, i don't think there's any advice or feedback i can give that would break through, especially when it seems what most people are seeking is little details and nuances to add authenticity to their token representation characters or unintentional stereotypes.

but, without any other details or nuances that shape a character's portrayal, based solely on what you've said in this ask, i feel like you're on the right track and probably gonna do fine. the thing that sticks out most clearly to me is how you phrase it, "i WANT to write a protagonist to have a prosthetic leg", you are acknowleding your role as omnipotent author, and i honestly think that's worth a lot more than many people realise when it comes to crafting fiction. you've acknowledged your desire for this character to be a certain way, and you're being introspective about the source of those desires and how it will come across - and that means you're almost certainly also thinking about how it interacts with the rest of the story, how it serves your themes, and how it will be interpreted and understood by the audience.

a lot of responses or people asking me for advice say things like "i am writing a character who HAS an amputation", implying it's an observable fact, pre-concluded before their authoring of them, and therefore something they're much less likely to examine critically. maybe it's unfair of me to draw such deep conclusions from shallow choice of language, but firstly, so many people have been far more obvious about it, saying a character "revealed" or "told" them about the amputation, or just straight up talking abot them as independent entities with their own agency, as if it's a biography and not fiction. and secondly, what are we even doing talking about improving the craft of our writing and how it will be recieved by the audience if we're not going to think about how framing affects interpretation? if someone is reaching out to me asking for writing advice, you bet i am going to assume this is a person who wants to improve the details of their own writing craft, and i'm going to critically engage with the tiny snippet of writing they've given me and analyse how it reflects on them, even if it is "just" a tumblr interaction. i don't even consider myself a writer really, the art i mainly dedicate myself to is music, but i still put careful thought into anything i write that's more than a few sentences, and think about the audience it will be seen by.

sorry, that's a whole other tangent… not at all about what you asked. but by way of example and segue back; what i see you reveal in the writing of your ask is a nervousness and anxiety to 'do well' in your writing, to create a character with an amputation in a way that holds up to scrutiny and criticism, and also a fear of what unfortunate things you might be saying and the responses it would provoke if you misstep. i can totally understand that, not just because you messaged me and i personally have a track record of going off on people lol, but also… yeah, people are very eager to judge and attack art based on a hidden metric of how 'well' it does 'representation' or handles things, and be vocal about the failings of things that make an earnest attempt. and i can see that it's very appealing to want to pull back and hide from that; a character who has a prosthetic leg opens you up to your audience critiquing how well you've handled it, most of them not amputees, many of them with the subtlety and media analysis skills of a sledgehammer… while if you write a story with no amputees in it, nobody has anything to critique.

unfortunately, no matter how well or carefully or authentically you write, there will always be someone engaging with it in bad faith yelling loudly about how awful you are; i recently made a short sharp post giving a trigger warning for medical abuse and body horror in the new zelda game that painfully evoked some of my own experiences, i still got people reblogging it telling me i'm ableist for saying disability is body horror (piss on the poor reading comprehension) and should apologise to all amputees (waves my one hand and nub around in a comical hello gesture). maybe that is on me for writing it quickly in an upset huff instead of making at least two proofreading and editing passes and oh geez, this is getting waaay too long and off topic. okay, to the point.

honestly, from what little you've told me, to be overly reductive, i'd give it a stamp of approval. sometimes people just only have one leg and that's fine, people are born like that, it's a thing that happens - and it doesn't need to shape the entirety of their lives, and reflecting that in fiction is more than just fine, i think it's what we need. sure any amputee character i write is going to be an overt commentary on ableism and medical abuse, because that's what i live, that's what affects me. but i know because i've watched their stuff on youtube, that there are so many people out there that were born limb different that just, don't care about it, and it doesn't really affect their life at all. if your protag has a prosthesis, sure she's had to get fitted for it and train for it, and it might benefit you to do an afternoon of research into that if you want to see how it might holistically flesh out her worldview (look up osseointegration vs external sockets, if you want keywords to help, look for patient experiences instead of doctors).

but also, if her other leg has finished growing and she's got a prosthesis that works, she may not have thought about it literally for years, maybe decades depending on her age. i had braces as a teen and it has zero impact on my life, i've had foot and back problems in the past, and it's irrelevant to me now other than getting new off the shelf shoe inserts every few years. i can think of at least one (australian) celebrity with a pretty long and successful comedy career who most people don't even know was born without one foot, it's just not relevant.

sometimes people just have things going on in the background that don't matter, and sometimes characters should have something just going on in the background too, no matter what "save the cat" sort of writing advice tells you. sometimes cutting literally everything out of a story unless it serves the plot or themes is bad actually, and i guarantee you, even as a hand amputee, i would absolutely LOVE to see a leg amp character who is just having a life, doing other plot relevant things. especially much more than i want to see all the characters of people leaving tags saying some version of "thanks OP, now i can write the suffering and torment of my oc much more authentically". think of the hypothetical little girl born without a leg that just wants to see someone like her.

and finally. what i think is maybe at the core of your anxiousness, at least to my read of your ask. you've thought about your role as author and self reflected about why you want to write a character with a prosthetic leg, and you can't find an answer in you, and you're not sure if that means it's something bad. well, assuming good faith from you, i think that's fine too. people who fetishise prostheses or amputations, people obsessed with the suffering or (percieved) depenedncy, or whatever else it is that makes them yearn to write their hacky awful robot arm characters; they probably don't do the introspection, and if they did, they'd find their answer right away (horniness or power fantasy usually), although i doubt they'd be honest with themselves about it, let alone others. assuming good faith and honesty, if you can't find in yourself WHY you want to write this character with a prosthetic leg….. it's probably just a harmless aesthetic preference.

if you wanted it to do cool things or make her more powerful or more special than others or be endless inconvenience and suffering or make her the chosen one because of it or something, that'd set off alarm bells for me yeah, and i'd be reading into it as a much more harmful aesthetic choice, and responding much more aggressively. but if you want to write a story about other things that features a protagonist who just so happens to have a plausibly normal boring prosthetic leg…. that seems fine to me, honestly. i tend towards having characters with certain hair and eye colour combinations that i find aesthetically pleasing, and as long as i'm thinking about how that could come across and trying to avoid any pitfalls around fetishisation and nastier implications, i think it's probably fine.

there are really only three concrete pieces of advice i would give you:

one, when you've got a cohesive first/beta draft, try to find at least one sensitivity reader who's got as similar disability experience as possible to your character (lower limb, same kinda circumstances, same general use of prosthesis), and listen to their feedback.

two, while i totally acknowledge that leg protheses can be super useful everyday kit for many people, i still have a general aversion to "this character NEEDS a prosthesis or they're helpless" readings, and many people don't want to or can't use leg prostheses… if it were me doing it, i'd make acknowledgement of that, and in a visual medium like a comic, i think that's as simple as having a single panel showing your character waking up in bed without the prosthesis, and maybe at her home there are forearm crutches leaning against the wall as background decoration. maybe if you have any scenes where she's woken up in the middle of the night, or interrupted before being fully dressed for the day, you could show them in use. but that's a personal value suggestion from me, your judgement or sensitivity readers might disagree on the importance of that.

three, you will absolutely need to establish as early and overtly as possible that the prosthesis and amputation DOES NOT MATTER to the story or her character arc. people still very much have a default normative body in mind when engaging with fiction, and anything that deviates from that will 100% be interpreted as a checkov's gun that they will be anticipating and theorising about going off, unless you squash that down. if you want to make a statement about it not mattering, unfortunately i think you're going to have to spell that out as obviously as possible without breaking the fourth wall, or else the audience trained on existing robot limb tropes will be waiting for the traumatic tragic backstory or secret rocket booster to become relevant.

but also…. i'm just some bitch on the internet, talking like i'm more important than i am, getting loudly angry about limb difference when i'm a pretty recent and unusual addition to the group myself. so like, don't take anything i say as absolute, and while it's always good to listen to others, at the end of the day you still gotta synthesise all their thoughts into your own.

i don't really have a nice concluding statement other than to say, thankyou for appreciating my post, and most importantly, thankyou for caring about the craft of writing enough to critically analyse your own authorship, and being curious about how to improve on a sensitive topic.

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joonberriess · 5 months

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this one might be long so i apologize but…

how do you manage to not give a fuck when you write? i’m trying to build myself up to write so i write anonymously on another person’s page (like role plays) and when they’re good, they’re GOOD but then there’s people who complain & people who say rude things about what i generate or the characters i made. i get that i shouldn’t care cause it’s my story but i guess criticism makes me nervous? well i actually don’t mind criticism but harsh criticism is like on the nose to me. i get it, you don’t like her but don’t call her a bitch. like i feel really really bad and i wish i could delete that ask and never do it anymore…i don’t even want to pick it up because of how many people are talking about it and she’s not a lowkey author either. she probably has thousands! so here are thousands of people talking shit about it, liking it, or genuinely give constructive criticism and it just makes me nervous to actually become a writer because some of these people are really rude. the person did stand up and tell people to pipe down, she’s a sweetheart but like how can i just zone all of that out and not feel like a bad writer because i feel like my work is terrible and people will hate it than love it

ooh bestie, i write for myself. i don’t ask anyone for their opinions on how i write lol. i just write, post, and then talk with y’all about it cause writing is supposed to be fun. if i liked it enough to post then the most i hope is the rest liked it too. if they didn’t oh welllll 👨‍🦯 i don’t really care much as i did when i first started writing on this blog, to me fanfiction is never that serious bc im not writing to impress people or get a publisher. im just here for the smut 🤌

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butchviking · 9 months

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the problem with your chess argument is saying "women should be allowed to create a space just for themselves" and NOT thinking that's transphobic. literally in saying that you are implying that trans women aren't women, or aren't "woman enough" to be in the women's league. the "sex-based and not identity-based" part of your argument also feels bad faith to me.

off topic but also you saying that "this is the reblogging website who cares who i reblog from!" is INCREDIBLY irresponsible and shows that you do not actually care about whatever rhetoric you are spreading, you just do le funny reblogs!!! which i'm not saying you have to check the info of every single op you reblog the posts of, i know i certainly don't, but when you reblog an outwardly transphobic post and just say in the tags "i dont agree but funny we have almost the same url!!" it makes me feel like you are treating transphobia as a joke. which it is most certainly not. get a grip please.

you think it's transphobic for women to have spaces for themselves? that is so completely a you problem.

ok. let me say this outright so you can stop guessing. transwomen are not women. and everyone who makes a distinction between so-called 'cis women' and 'trans women' knows it. a transwoman is a person of the male sex who chooses to live in the female gender role, often also transitoning to appear and pass as female. there is nothing wrong with that and there is nothing wrong with admitting it. i've never understood why it's seen as somehow transphobic to acknowledge that transwomen are transwomen. literally why is that offensive to you. what is wrong with being a transwoman.

and uh? sorry for expecting people to think for themselves lol. it's not like i'm out here all day every day reblogging shit i wildly disagree with but yeah, now n then i will rb something i wildly disagree with if i think it's funny - usually clarifying in tags that i dont agree w it. or i'll rb something i mildly disagree with or im not sure about if it makes me think. or i'll rb from someone i completely disgree with bc it's some apolitical picture of a blorbo or smthn. sorry but im literally not responsible for other peoples opinions. i talk abt my own beliefs loudly and repeatedly on this blog and i expect other ppl to do their own critical thinking instead of just taking any random post they see at face value.

anyway, if you want me to rb from fewer terfs, tell everyone who isn't a terf to unblock me so i can rb from them instead. you wouldn't believe how many trans-supportive posts i've tried to rb but not been able to lmao. if people don't want me spreading trans-positive politics then i guess i got nothing left to spead but terfery ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

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officialgleamstar · 10 months

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♧ hello there :]

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You’re my: mutual and my buddy!!! atlas from my dashboard! How I met you: we just run in the same dndads circles :] Why I follow you: you and jay has basically the same url at the time so i felt obligated to follow both of you LOL however, dont ask who i followed first, because i cant remember because you were both jay ferin. i just know i liked both of your blogs!!! Your blog is: do not really understand this question honestly but ghfdbghjbdfjh fun? your blog is fun!!! its a nice mix of good art, silly posts about transgenderisms and aromanticism, and fun personal anecdotes :D Your URL is: very cool! and iirc, you chose it because you also think its cool :] Your icon is: uhhhh the gay people from critical role, im guessing? i dunno honestly but you changed it after The Event LOL A random fact I know about you: youre a dancer, ballet specifically! General opinion: ATLAS FROM MY DASHBOARD!!! youre awesome <333 A random thought I have: we both have critical role names i think? right? travis and sam??? i know nothing about critical role tbh

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sivavakkiyar · 7 months

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hii i love your blog and i know this is a big ask, but id really appreciate if you could recommend any academic articles and books on gandhi's failure as a revolutionary figure, particularly how inefficient non violence is as a doctrine. there is of course the more widely discussed issue of the poona pact and his misogyny, but im really looking for academia that puts his role in india's partition under scrutiny, both in parliament and at the grassroots level. i just feel like youd be the right person to ask about this.

unfortunately, I might not be the best person to ask about this mostly because I’m not connected to academic writing directly—-and definitely not Indian academia.

Obviously almost every position has engaged w/ Gandhi to some degree, except ime the RSS/BJP who only really do so memetically (I guess they don’t know how to handle the ending). I think a lot of Indian writing on Gandhi is still very conflicted/attached to him, and a lot of US writing is dismissive to the level they were engaged in the first place (until about 5 years ago most of them don’t even bring up the Poona Pact).

I’m interested in this so I’ll look into it and post what I find…off the top of my head my memory is that Perry Anderson spends some time on specifically Gandhi in The Indian Ideology. For a mainstream Brahminical Marxist (you feel me) conflicted engagement from a supposedly ‘ML’ perspective, Namboodiripad had an entire book (The Mahatma and the Ism) on him as well. I’m assuming since you brought it up that you’ve read Dr. Ambedkar’s criticisms of Gandhi…

#sorry not as helpful as I’d like it to be. When I think of more I’ll post them

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maziecrazycloud · 1 year

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Drarry in my 2022? More likely than you think…. (Also fuck Jk r*wling, they all gay now).

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Rest of VM: Percy?! Why won’t you tell us how you invented that gun and are smoking like a fire?!

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some-thrilling-heroics · 1 year

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i know lucienne used to be dream’s raven, so clearly she used to be out in the waking world, and before that i presume was also a mortal like matthiew so there’s that but that must have been eons ago right?

so she’s been the librarian for ages, and i don’t suppose she’d have a reason to leave the dreaming.... and then dream gets captured and all goes to shit and im just thinking - would she be scared or wary of going out into the waking world? even if there was a valid reason for her to leave the dreaming? would dream be wary in a protective way if it ever came up that lucienne wants to go elsewhere for reasons? is she allowed? the questions just multiply like my damn plot bunnies dammit

and then, she saw the dreaming collapse, does she feel safe there? is she scared that one day her library will disappear again? does she have anxiety? *sobs*

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so who’s writing lucienne-centric parallel episode to the pilot where dream is gone and she has to wonder abt him and worry and has no answers and more and more dreams and nightmares go away and she has to manage the decay and hope he comes back, with a nice ending when she finds him laying outside the gates finally - or do i have to do everything myself around here? xD

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ya im happy for victor and the trans coming out and how that was worked into the plot, that was nice and i liked the little bonding diego had with allison

but what the actual fuck was everything else? warning for spoilers

lila dropping their child on diego after having custody for 12 years? and his shitty attempts at parenting until the kid killed klaus? and then it’s tu eres mi sangre and it’s fiiine - oh btw it’s not actually their kid, lila just wanted to fuck with diego but she’s pregnant and surely that’s a great prognosis for a healthy family i can’t even....

allison is off the fucking rails this season and five is worried about VICTOR turning into a villain???? what the actual fuck? what do you call somebody using mind control to try and rape their brother huh? act of a superhero???? and at the end she gets her happy ending with the daughter from the present and husband from the past which i am happy for on one hand but at the same WHAT THE FUCK how about we get an explanation HOW that works? we didn’t care about diego’s fake kid enough to bring him back to life and check on him after the universe reset but this is cool huh?

don’t get me started on ol’ reggie - somebody needs to kill that slimy bugger for good and dismember him and just to be extra sure the chopped body parts should be locked separately in different corners of the world, maybe THEN the bastard will stay fucking dead

the ending was a mess and im not satisfied - they went to an alt dimension? and stood on magic tiles and almost died to power up some alien machine that was left by the creator of the universe or whatever that reggie somehow knew how to operate and the button was pressed an boom, allison has happy family and they are all healthy

ON THAT NOTE, i would just like to say FUCK YOU sincerely to the writers for that ending - one character loses two fingers in the final battle, the other loses an arm but guess fucking what? they are fine and dandy after the magic reset bc of course it wouldn’t be a happy ending if disability was allowed to exist right?

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so jodie regenerated into DT, huh? not into the new guy, but into DT

and ya i was dreading RTD coming back bc he has issues and is a one trick pony - i was just proven right

to add insult to injury (or the other way round), you know how every doctor at every damn regeneration wears the clothes of the previous doctor bc regeneration only affects the body and ya clothes may be ruined but THEY'RE THE SAME CLOTHES? well not now! apparently DT couldn't possibly wear the clothes jodie wore for her entire run, very curious as to WHY that is.

and also saw a screen in another post that DT and CT are not just coming for a special anniversary but they get THREE EPS? which you know, very weird having loved them as much as i have, when they were on in S4, and i should be bloody excited right? but there's no enjoyment, just bitterness im feeling bc they could have come back in a completely different way - any way.

there are crossover eps with multiple doctors, it's not HARD but i guess RTD couldn't have his best pal DT play second fiddle to a new guy or something - like, honestly WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO THINK?

ALSO as much as i love DT - JESUS FUCKING CHRIST he regenerated from chris into tenth doctor, then in s4 he regenerated but stayed as DT 'bc he liked that body' and then later in s4 got a bloody half human clone with his own face, and now we have another regeneration into DT face and like, i don't give a fuck at this point if there IS a magic brilliant explanation for why he showed up and why the clothes changed along with the regeneration, im just pissed bc HOW IS THAT BLOODY FAIR?

the news abt casting of the new doctor? overshadowed by DT + CT coming back! and now that jodie is out, in the trailer there was just a small one liner snippet from the actual next doctor - they couldn’t let him have his own day be about him so the trailer too cannot be about him.

yes i know this is a messy rant and im probably shitting on the fucking parade some of you have (i wish i could be happy about them coming back) but DT and CT coming back COULD HAVE BEEN HANDLED MORE RESPECTFULLY and they couldn’t even bother to do that AND THAT pisses me the fuck off.

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crimsonrosee · 2 years

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Hey Emma!! I hope you’ve been well, I love that new coloring of yours :3 your style is quite unique and glittery sparkles I love it haha ^^ I am just checking up because I saw some concerning/worrysome things happening. First, though me saying sorry won’t fix someone else’s mistakes, I’m so sorry to hear what’s been going on with the hate anon. When there are people like that it’s quite hard not to fall into a loop of overthinking and starting to wonder if maybe they are right about everything. But in the end it’s amazing to see you stand strong against them because they are truly wasting their time here on earth judging and not even giving good criticism! Second is about the note situation and how it’s definitely discouraging especially during the time that is the like to reblog ratio on tumblr right now. Times are definitely changing with an influx of users that don’t know how tumblr works but at this point one has to be grateful for whatever they can get right? Lmao. You are so talented and have such great ideas that I only wish the note problem wouldn’t get to you as much. Sure following has a role to play in this and since you started off a little over a year ago I’m sure you have a nice small community (no bad intentions behind saying that I’m just guessing since your blog is still fairly new and you’re still getting used to tumblr)

What I’m trying to get across is this. I’ve been here for 10 years and even to this day I have such a bad habit of eyeing my activity and sometimes it does get to me “why doesn’t this post that I worked super hard on have hardly any attraction? Why doesn’t anyone love it as much as I do?” I suggest not to worry much about how much notes a posts gets and to just love and admire your piece and say to yourself that you did a good job. That you worked hard on that and it’s okay. Whatever you make, never compare to others because that’s where bad habits start to form as well which can possibly lead to trying to steal the style of whoever is successful and just do what they do. Always be unique, and start trying to rid yourself of that habit and I’m positive that it would shift your way of thinking and using the site.

I mean no ill intent with this message And only mean good. Trust me I know how hard it can be to get rid of a bad habit but if you just start, 1% is better than 0%. I believe in your bright and fruitful future doing and making work carefree of the eyes of others. And Ill always wish you nothing but the best Emma. Do what you want, when you want, however you want. And as always if you ever need help or more advice my door will always be open 🤍🤍🤍 oh and it doesn’t matter if you respond to this privately or not, your choice! ^^

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i know ive been feeling gloomy whenever i use this app. Since i have only 1 year experience of using tumblr, it saddens me how my creations are not being recognised. Last year, when i uploaded my works, with no self reblog id end up having 1k notes. This year i thought my creations improved way better but I can't attest that ;(

I stress a lot creating stuff but when i see my creations are being ignored by many ppl it hurts me deep core. And yes i will always work with my own floral styles! Since i love using flowers & sparkles everywhere! 🌺✨ Even if it's girlish but its my vibe. I wish i created tumblr years ago so i wouldn't have to feel ignored this way ˚‧º·(˚ ˃̣̣̥᷄⌓˂̣̣̥᷅ )‧º·˚

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godstrain · 9 months

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Rex’s Gardening Service here.

Loamy Soil:

Your passions outside of role play seep through in your writing; you bring an intellectual edge to your words, and it’s very satisfying to see. You’re also a very sweet person, and I hope you get to know you better.

Sunlight:

I’m just so impressed with your portrayal of Albert Wesker. This is a character I’ve loved for well over a decade, and yet I find myself loving him more and more through your muse. You don’t pull any punches, but you also don’t— hesitate to get down and dirty with his trauma and his struggles. Don’t ever change.

Drizzle from the watering can:

Tell us a self-indulgent headcanon that you have about your muse.

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holy shit rex im going to fuckn cry???? what the fuck this is so sweet of you!!!!

but im going to get super real here.

honestly, when i first jumped into the RE rabbit hole, i was worried that i wouldn't be able to do wesker justice- and you know my track record of muses well enough from seeing me in the pokemon fandom lmao- and it's not like i haven't written characters that are sorta wesker-adjacent before, because i have, and still there was this lingering doubt which i will guess is due to the fact i had also never really been in a horror franchise because i had so much that i was afraid of. fear, i have found, really does hold people back, and i basically had to supreme exposure therapy myself and even then i was having a time.

that was ... may 5th, 2023. the day i decided to bite the bullet and make wesker a blog and write a character from a franchise i literally knew NOTHING about. and that's not often my style. i am a perfectionist at heart- proud and rather critical of my work, wanting to always put out my best and show that i know exactly what the hell i'm talking about. i'm a researcher and scholar just as much as i am an artist and writer- i accept nothing but 100%, and in the past, i would spend countless hours doing research before writing a goddamn thing, i'd comb through my rp partner's blogs for metas so i could make something unique for their portrayal (and that is something i still do and will always do), and then when everything was in place, i'd post a goddamn reply. i usually read at least 5 scholarly articles about a topic that i want to tie into a muse before writing a meta. i put my professional resources to use to bring life to my fiction.

but with wesker, i just went headfirst in. i didn't master the lore. i skimmed a wiki page and watched a few clips from various iterations of his character. i took a look at his tag on tumblr and twitter (and promptly was like mkay can't handle this right now). i read the wiki page a little more closely, and then i took the leap of faith, hoping that all the things i had learned from past characters and all the knowledge i had accumulated and all the experiences i've had working in the inpatient psych unit would be enough. i am not the type to leave anything unattended. this was wildly unlike me.

and i am so glad i did this, and more than that i am so, so honored that you have found more things to love about wesker through my portrayal. the portrayal that didn't get the same perfectionist treatment before it even saw the light of day. wesker, whose lore i have explored rather extensively in the ... what uh. 3 months i have been writing him- there's so much i still have to learn, and so much i want to explore. i see art as it should be: a mirror of life and society. the truth is, albert wesker could be anyone. that pain and suffering and horrible upbringing is a thing that happens. he's so painfully alive in that way. it's hard to look at the truth like that, but i also sure hate ignorance, in myself and in others. we cannot learn if we do not see. so i don't hold my punches, and i don't hide the aspects of him that i know sometimes would be cut out. there's so much i have learned from writing wesker- about how i write, what i expect of myself, and how i can better myself in so many ways, and i never expected to learn through this.

so thank you. thank you so much for this, it means more than i could possibly put into words.

on the note of self-indulgent meta analysis, i want you to know that i picked "wilde" for wesker's original surname because of my love for oscar wilde. it's a common theme in my metas where i will throw in something as a treat for myself like that. i picked cambridge, ma, for his birthplace because i live nearby, and there's something about having a character you love "nearby" that is??? sorta serotonin inducing. you know, in the style of tolkien's desire of dragons- "I desired dragons with a profound desire. Of course, I in my timid body did not wish to have them in the neighborhood. But the world that contained even the imagination of Fáfnir was richer and more beautiful, at whatever the cost of peril." and for me, i guess it's something like that. i keep the things i find the most interesting close in some form, yeah?

#chounaifu #writing is hard ╱ out #ONE DAY THERE WILL BE ASSOCIATED WITH MY NAME THE RECOLLECTION OF SOMETHING FRIGHTFUL‚ OF A CRISIS LIKE NO OTHER BEFORE ╱ META

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frozen-odin · 2 years

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I posted 1,236 times in 2021

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1224 posts reblogged (99%)

For every post I created, I reblogged 102.0 posts.

I added 73 tags in 2021

#critical role - 23 posts

#cr spoilers - 15 posts

#critical role spoilers - 9 posts

#dimension 20 - 9 posts

#the unsleeping city - 5 posts

#cr2 spoilers - 3 posts

#langston brown - 3 posts

#trans - 2 posts

#blm - 2 posts

#black lives matter - 2 posts

Longest Tag: 124 characters

#really interested to see unsleeping city become their first sci-fi setting even if that wound up not being the focus of this

My Top Posts in 2021

I’m really surprised theyre ending at level 15. I thought the Somnovum would be this campaigns Chroma Conclave and after this theyd fight Tharizdun

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Unsleeping City Season 3 as Sci-Fi

You know I wasn’t really too excited when they first announced that they’re going back to Unsleeping City. I mean I knew it would still be good; it’s Dimension 20, it’s always good. And I understand why they did it with the pandemic being completely draining and just generally harder to plan for, so this made sense to ease the transition into Roll20. But it’s an anthology show and going back to anything other than Fantasy High felt weird. Not to mention at the time it felt like the story of the Unsleeping City was done and I wanted a significantly fresh setting and Unsleeping City 2 wasn’t that.

But Unsleeping City 3 CAN be.

So it’s no secret that after the end of Season 2 everyone is clamoring to hear more about the toddlers and how they grow up. And I’m excited for that too but what I think everyone is missing in this discussion is just how big a time gap this would be. Chapter 2 already takes place in the near future of 2022 to avoid quarantine and give some extra space for the characters to process the events of season 1. The epilogue is another 3 years in the future making it 2025. Guys if we want next return to the Unsleeping City to revolve around the next generation then the stories going to be at least 2042 at like the earliest that i can see it. (they could do a rug rats mode but I can’t really see the cast putting children in the combats that D&D requires and are established as cannon in the Unsleeping City verse)

Unsleeping City has always been about the New York we know vs. what it could be and what’s lying underneath. And especially with season 2 being largely about keeping a connection to history, season 3 could echo that even further with a near future cyberpunk NYC with floating cars, internet implants, and new corporates monopolies that won’t risk the entire cast being sued!

Imagine JJ breaking off part of the society from an older Esther to form an ARtificer’s guild that combines magic and new emerging technologies. Esther is furious but even more so that her own daughter, Alejandra, is interested in joining! Cat is trying to find anything she can do to rebel against her loving monk parents by becoming a warlock and fully embracing the magic once again questioning the Monastery’s place in this new New York City. Meanwhile, Langston Brown always knew they were adopted but about their Draconic heritage until the death of their beloved father. At the funeral Langston awakens and realizes just how much of the Unsleeping City was happening all around them without them every realizing it, eventually prompting an ageing Pete to step in and play a similar mentor role to Langston that Kingston played to him.

Even the Lisowski siblings can get in on the action by being established in their fields at this time. I know Brennan said that Nick was a Hexblade Warlock but come on, his power comes from his dead grandmothers aiding him in physical battle. That guy is definitely a path of the Ancestral Guardian Barbarian. Which is interesting cause Jessica learned much of her wizardry from literal vampires which might make her want to specialize in Necromancy. I can imagine that disconnect between souls and Bodies (respecting the dead vs. not respecting the dead) could also drive a wedge between them in a possible schism in Gramercy.

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Essek Thelyss is a War Criminal

Ok I’m sick of the whole “Essek did nothing wrong” discourse. The dude literally helped instigate a war just so he could further his own research interests. He doesn’t just feel guilty because he betrayed his Stringent Theocracy or cause Trent Ikithon made him do it. The dude literally got thousands of people killed to give Trent the Time-stop spell.

The miracle of Essek isn’t that he’s an innocent man who now has an opportunity to do good. It’s that he was a fucking evil bastard who through the literal power of friendship realized the error of his own ways and became remorseful about it without the heroes even doing a “you’re better than this” speech. Just the fact they offered him friendship was enough to change it on his own.

Yes Essek is fucking hard on himself and it hits the feels and it’s great he’s able to move on and do good now but that’s not going to erase what else he’s done. And don’t even think that it was on the same level as Caleb. Caleb was tricked into murdering two people, Essek has the blood of thousands on his hands. And I think because we’re in the mighty nein’s view for so much and don’t find out his involvement until after he’s already repentant just how much he had done willingly and knowingly. When we first met him the dude literally was in charge of imprisoning Yeza.

I’m very glad that Hot Boi was able to turn around and can now dedicate himself to doing good works but boy does he have a lot to make up for. So I’ want to encourage him to find peace, purpose and happiness with his wizard boyfriend but don’t think for a second that he did nothing wrong.

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I love how much you can see Matt’s original intention for the Nonagon Arc in what we have now. Like I can just see matt sriving back one night after getting Tattoos with Taleisin and thinking:

“Yes and then Vess DeRogna spies Mollymauk and decides to manipulare him into inlocking all the secrets of the Somnovum for her but also the former Tomb Takers are gonna start a cult around him and Molly will have to reject that power. And if or rather when one of these groups unleashes the Somnovum, Lucien will be there and Molly will have to face his own past self”

Then Mollymauk dies. Matt puts that idea on the back burner as he has to work on a whole new arc for Caduceus until one night hes scrolling theough dpells and realizes Cree will have acess to True Ressurection by this point. Slowly, an evil grin spreads on Matt Mercer’s face as he becomes the carasouel man once again!

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Cant wait for Aabria Iyengar to show up at my home game and tell me she’s my new GM

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#my 2021 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review #so Im a critical role blog I guess?#ok Im fine with that

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mightybeaujester · 3 years

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Can't watch tonight's episode :(

#the last few weeks i also didnt watch live bc i was too tired and i guessed that most of it would prob be dungeon crawly #which im not the biggest fan of #but tonight theres a v high probability of a lot of stuff going down #but i have a dentist appointment at 8 am #which honestly at this point cr might actually still be on #and its already one am #so yeH #i cannot watch tonight which is saaaaaad #gonna watch it when i come back home prob if i dont need a nap #critical role #i hope this tag is far enough back to show up on my blog but not in the tag

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spacefjords · 5 years

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also if you wanna chat more about fandom stuff or just... look at me talk about fandom stuff? (and some other stuff, but i partitioned off my personal so that i could use my main as my Mainly Fandom Blog and link it here) hit me up at @leechbrain!

i love love talking about stuff but i dont wanna clutter this blog up with too many things that arent art or directly about art, for the people who follow it for... just that. but on my main thats not an issue! <3

#housekeeping.txt #not art #and by fandom blog i mean ... i guess all things im currently into. but also im #mostly currently into critical role so obviously theres gonna be A Lot Of That #with probably a touch of dnd in general and then whatever show im currently watching

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storm-and-starlight · 2 years

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thoughts abt the way fandom approaches eskel? im curious owo (hadn't played any of the games yet, and just went through half of the first book lol)

Okay, so I'm going to preface this by stating that this is... pretty deeply connected to a really rough patch in my life, so if I get overly negative here, it's probably because of that and I apologize. (Also because of this, I don't want to turn this into a discussion about Eskel; it'd just end up leading back into some bad places.)

Warning for fanon!Eskel criticism under the cut.

So basically all of this is my personal opinion -- I'm trying to keep direct criticism out of this as much as possible.

I guess it all boils down to the fact that I personally prefer characters with a bit more bite to them -- more anger, more sarcasm, more rough inter-character interactions, more trauma, etc. Eskel (or at least, my experience of fanon!Eskel) has absolutely none of that. He's generally portrayed as Nice and Soft and Kind, the Best Witcher and the Kindest, and generally Better than Geralt in Every Way, and it feels just... reductive? Like there's no depth to his character at all -- he's just there to be kind and polite and interchangeable. His entire personality is The Nice One, except that doesn't feel like a personality at all. Generally the only character conflict you get is "I feel like a monster because of the facial scarring" and that feels overdone, to the point where I don't even care anymore. Like... generically nice, sweet guy with self-esteem issues who feels like a monster because of cosmetic issues but who gets lovingly affirmed all the time and told he's perfect is just... not the kind of story I want to read. I prefer broken characters who rub each other the wrong way who try to find a way to fit together anyways, not... schmoopy fluff. (no shame if that's your favorite kind of fic, it's just not for me.)

And then there's Lil' Bleater. There was a point in this fandom where every single Eskel in every single fic I could find was just All About Goats All The Time. If he was there, so was Lil' Bleater. He was the Nice Goat Man and that was it. I could barely find fics where he seemed to have any other character trait beyond Likes Goats! It got... tiring, to say the least. Like... I'm ambivalent on the whole "big tough guy is actually super sweet and likes small animals" trope as a whole, but it was just so overdone that I ended up hating the goat. (I'm back to ambivalent, in case you were wondering lmao.)

There's also the way the fandom got... really pissed that he was a side character? Which I get, you want more of your faves, but he was a side character in the books, he's a side character in the games, he plays no major role in the plot of the books (in fact, the hansa is the most important found family in the series, instead of the witchers -- they show up for like the first half of Blood of Elves and never again) -- why are people getting so angry that he doesn't appear more?

Also, a side note, but Geralt is the character I identify the most with and feel the most strongly about, and having Eskel be more or less held up as the better version of him hurts. It's irrational, but it does.

Once again, I'm not really interested in discussing this, or in being sent recs for fandom content about Eskel -- I'm attempting to curate my own experience and the best way to do that for me is largely to just avoid him entirely. I don't want to yuck anyone's yum, which is why I try to keep this stuff off my blog, but like... there they are, those are my opinions.

TL;DR, I deeply dislike the way that Eskel ended up being portrayed in fandom and fanon as the perfect nice witcher who can do no wrong but still hates himself because of the facial scars and who is a huge burly man who is Softe and likes animals and especially goats and who is the Best Witcher -- it goes squarely against what I enjoy in character creation in stories, and is also so overused that I've moved past ambivalence to hate.

#apologies if this was a lot more negative than you were hoping for #I have a lot of thoughts and feelings about this but they're caught up in some really dark places in my life #and I'm using this to try to work through what I feel #more salt than the dead sea

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hypahticklish · 3 years

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Hokay so, now that I've finally listened to episode 1 of campaign 3 in it's entirety, figured I'd sum up my experience as a first time Critical Role listener/watcher below the cut

I wanna start off with saying how much I really enjoyed all the PC's. They each have so much life and intrigue to them from go that it was really easy for me to get attached. My live blogging has made it no secret that I'm a big big fan of Fresh Cut Grass, but I think with the exception of Orym, I'm excited by what we've got glimpses of and especially the potential to come. Wanna be clear, nothin against Liam's toon, just didn't get a whole lot of RP time with him (in CR3) for me to get a definable picture in my head. Finding out that Fearne, Dorian, and Orym have some backstory together from the summer campaign with Aabria is somethin imma keep in my back pocket.

And here comes the but...

Im not gonna lie, it took me a while to get through the full 4hrs because I had to keep going back to try to absorb Matt's storytelling/world building style. Like, it was weirdly unengaging for me to the point where I genuinely don't remember much of what he described 😖 worst of all, I have no idea why this is the case when I'm usually such a lore whore. Loved his dialogue/NPC interactions, loved his interactions with the table, but the moment this man started describing things my brain went to static and I feel so bad about that.

I'm gonna watch at least another few episodes of Campaign 3 to see if I'm able to break that cycle or at least figure out the cause. My current guess is it might have to do with the high energy levels I'm used to with The Adventure Zone and Dimension 20, but I really wanna give it a solid effort before I call it. And if anyone has any viewing advice, especially at scene retention (or if this is normal for the CR fandom), please lemme know lol

#Critical role #cr3 #critical role spoilers #cr3 spoilers #non tickles #Chatty blogging

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crizztelcb · 2 years

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Ahh it disgust me! I'm tired of this fandom really, I want to give up already! just came across a salt that actually on a art blog (oh what a FUCKING SUPRISE LOOKS LIKE ALL ART BLOGS I FOLLOW NOW ARE FUCKING SALTERS) Is not even a surprise to me, It was the one that made the art for that au that I said makes me uncomfortable.

I love seeing salt criticism you know hahaha is not like they see a character and just look at the superficial of them you know hahaha must be me how don't criticize things hahaha........

Ugh if there's someone that criticize all things all the time that's me, I don't gonna talk about what the salt was about because I disagree a lot with them and I don't fucking need to bring my point of view there because I know how they work, they will not even care, i was a salter I know how is inside this part of the fandom. Funny how now I can't even stand anything they say, this is how a salter works:

As I said they take the superficial of the characters and not they core and backstory

They care a lot about gender roles and people of color, no is not "we don't like this character because their actions" but yes " depending on your gender and color you gonna be the good person or the bad one" and guess how is always the bad one

They aren't really critical people, they do have good takes sometimes but they are behind hate words and bad actions so is hard to even see them as criticism to beggin with

All of them are the same and is always the same characters in all of them, same takes with different types of words but always the same, and I know that "if something is being said over and over again that's may mean that is a actual problem" but I already read the takes and they all come from a place I know too well and that is very delicate so that I kinda of understand but don't means they are right.

I have more oh i have much more and by no means I say that ml is this ~perfect show that there's no problems~ because it fucking have a lot of problems but they are never in these "critical thinking blogs" they are totally discarted by them because they don't shock and pop to their followers.

Well thats all i have to say, hate me if you want, think I'm wrong and etc but put in your mind that I was there with you and I noticed all of this inside of there, I know we're all of this comes from: fears, trauma, bad experiences etc and the thing I advice for you is let it go. Give up of the show. You already did but is in the fandom? Get out of the fandom this all is going to make you worst than ever! trust me im still recovering, I'm fucking having a hard time because what I did in the past, the way I treated myself in the past year's!

If you like to Salt well.... good luck I guess, hope you have a wonderful life actually, i actually hate the people that send you threads and stuff, you don't deserve it even though I think your opinions are bad you don't deserve receive a dea*h thread on you inbox. I totally disagree with you, I actually fell offended by a lot of takes because they hurt deep into my personal problems, but I don't hate you. I also don't love you but yeah I don't hate you, i just want you guys to look a little more inside the characters you are salting on ok? Maybe some people like me understand that said characters because we have experience with the situation the characters are on. Just hope you ok I totally sounded harsh I'm sorry.

#i will not leave the fandom #i have people here that cheers me up even if i don't interact much with them #im still working on socials skills #because of THAT problem #ml fandom salt #miraculous ladybug #mlb #miraculous #ladybug and cat noir #mlb season 4 #crizztel opinion #i totally sounded harsh no? ugh i always feel like im being disrespectful #well thats my take hope you have a good day #i shoud be focusing on my fanfics but nooo i need to focus on that

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