#she never does this ibe been blessed

[the-smeck-group]

Shes asleep right next to meee

#ash the cat #beast baby girl #she never does this ibe been blessed

[isekai-crow]

Cherry Magic Ep 3

I thought we were gonna get the partner for Masato in episode 3, but we got him in episode 4. INSTEAD HOWEVER, in episode 3 we got some other fun characters!!

ONE OF THEM BEING VOICED BY FUCKING YUUSUKE SHIRAI!!!!

Was not expecting his high pitched whiney voice to appear OUT OF A CHARACTER LIKE THIS but also I really SHOULDN'T HAVE BEEN SURPRISED. HE'S A STAPLE IN BL ANIME AND AUDIO DRAMAS. High pitched whiney is a compliment by the way because its CUTE and made Capybara have conniptions while listening cause this is his favorite VA, and also DAMN THIS DUDE HAS RANGE.

GO listen to the character Ramuda's voice from HypMic and you'll see what I'm talking about. His other characters are friggen Sasaki from Sasaki and Miyano, Nikaido from Idolish7, Usui Masumi from A3!, and basically this man can SING and has RANGE and is bread and butter in the anime idol boy world.

So yea, Shirai, Yuusuke plays the annoying kouhai Yuuta Rokkaku, whose only purpose is to make Kurosawa jealous of Adachi spending time with someone and make Adachi jealous of Kurosawa's 'perfection' when Kurosawa starts showing off trying to get his attention away from Rokkaku. I also hope he becomes a Shipper On Deck with the other new character, Nozomi Fujisaki!

Koshimizu, Ami is the voice of Fujisaki sempai, who is so far just a stereotypical Japanese office lady, but having seen her in the opening we know that she is the CAPTAIN of this Ship, All Hands On Deck, and has fucking Acrylic Stands of these two that she's absolutely gonna make kiss like barbie dolls.

She also voices fricken Ryuuko fro Kill La Kill, Kallen Stadtfield from Code Geass, Sailor Jupiter from Sailer Moon Crystal, and a TON of other big name female characters!! Delightful.

LMAO if this isn't the first thing that pops up in episode 3!! I'VE TAKEN THIS MEDICINE BEFORE. It's OTC anti-hangover meds THAT FUCKING WORK. They're also really good for dealing with certain IBS symptoms. OTC Meds in Japan are Great. (*w*)b

Episode 3 is the Karaoke Episode, standard Japanese business life going drinking with your superiors to "improve moral" (This shit sucks, and I only had to deal with it the first 3 years I lived here. Bosses don't know what boundaries are, don't even know the word).

There's tons of funny faces. This episode was having so much fun.

Poor Kurosawa fails at impressing his love interest with Karaoke cause the man is too upset by how perfect he is. WHY DOES HE HAVE TO BE GOOD AT EVERYTHING. I'm waiting for the moment when that perfection is peeled back to show the person underneath.

Adachi tries to rescue his female co-worker whose being catcalled / harrased by drunk dudes not even from their company, only to get rescued himself.

Fujisaki is all of us. She knows EXACTLY WHAT'S GOING ON. Even if Adachi doesn't lmao. She doesn't need to read minds. She's got Fujoshi-Senses.

Adachi is also not subtle at ALL ABOUT TOUCHING?????? But he's also NEVER successful???????? MY BOY. THINK. USE THAT SINGULAR BRAIN CELL TO FIND A BETTER WAY.

I guess Adachi like Rokkoku enough to go to a Sauna with him? And Kurosawa is of course tags along because he gets to see Adachi naked.

This is also SUCH a Japanese thing. Someone's hobby is always something boring like "listening to music" or "watching movies" or "drinking socially" which aren't REAL hobbies, OR IT'S WEIRD RANDOM STUFF LIKE GOING TO A SAUNA.

OH LOOK HIS NIPPLES ARE GROWN IN. (This is a running joke between me and Capybara about whether a character is an adult or not)

Bless this poor simping man. Some day. Just you wait.

STEAM CONDUCTS THOUGHTS!!!!! Poor Adachi clutching his towel and running like the fair maiden heart he is after seeing all of Kuroswa's fantasies.

So capybara and my theory is that it's BODY heat that transfers the thoughts, otherwise it wouldn't work through clothing. (What happens if we get an Adachi or Kurosawa with hypothermia? Sick Fic anyone?)

But also this is the kind of stuff I feel bad for Kurosawa about. He's allowed to have fantasies damnit! They shouldn't be held against him! Unless he does something to Adachi that he doesn't want or consent to LET THE MAN LIVE DAMNIT.

But also poor Adachi for having to experience that anyways haha.

We get a rare moment here of hearing Kurosawa's inner thoughts (mostly self pity about the situation his heart has gotten him into), and it's NOT filtered through Adachi for once! So it humanizes him a bit more (not that he wasn't human before? But like people idolize him rather than villanize him... I don't know the word I'm looking for... endears us to him?) and we get to see his thoughts on the situation, the damage that's been done from being basically a "Gifted Kid" in more ways than one, fucking SA'd by a CEO Lady and also WHY he likes Adachi and damn, it took someone seeing him as something less then Ken Doll Perfect for once in his life to fall for someone of the same sex. It's definitely more than that, but like. That's so story book sweet and a little sad type romantic. I love it.

It took one man giving him a Dom Face to awaken the Inner Sub in him, and his heart was stolen, lmao. (I think this might be Capybara projecting and wanting someone to look at HIM like that tho >w>) (im gonna get murdered for that)

I hope they continue to play with tropes and don't follow the standard "One of these MALE characters is just a stand in for a FEMALE, so one is the seme/top and one is the uke/bottom and they NEVER switch."

God I hope they switch. And/Or Adachi makes the first real move. Or like, Pins / Kabe-Don's Kurosawa to the wall. That would make me so happy.

CAREFUL ADACHI. HE'S ON TO YOU. HE'S STARTING TO SUSPECT YOU'RE USING WITCH CRAFT ON HIM.

also AHHHH THIS IS SO CUTE. Kurosawa is adorable and so in love and so worried, and it's fairly realistic! I can't wait for more.

#anime winter 2024 #cherry maho #cherry magic #チェリまほ #adachi kiyoshi #kurosawa yuichi #shirai yusuke #bl anime #yaoi #yaoi anime

[ell-vellan]

Ellawyn Enansalla Lavallen

(portrait by @ib-gomes, balcony art by @oxygenforthewicked-art )

An overview of my Lavellan, a continuation of my "elfy" worldstate

Ellawyn grew up surrounded by love and simple joys, the only child of doting parents, she had close relationships in Clan Lavallen. She was a quiet, gentle, and obedient child, and loved nothing more than halla -- spending so much time at their pen to the point the halla-keeper was happy to take her under her wing as a future apprentice even at a young age.

Then, one winter at age 11, she was sent to recover a lost halla in the woods and was captured by a runaway templar. Alone, terrorized, and certain she was bound for a slaver's ship, she summoned lightning for the first time and burnt her would-be kidnapper to ash. After rescuing herself, the lost halla appeared to take her home.

For this, she earned the second name Enansalla, halla-blessed. It is the name her keeper calls her, and no one else.

Everything changed after that. As the only mage child born in the clan, she was immediately declared the First, and began leadership and magic training with her keeper. With her magic obviously tied to outbursts of emotion, she was kept somewhat apart from the rest of the clan until she was safe to be around them; her keeper drilled into her stringent lessons on self-control so as to avoid misfiring her magic. She was set apart from her friends, and from then on had difficulty fitting in with the clan as she did before, everyone knowing who she would one day grow to be. The weight of responsibility settled heavily onto her shoulders, but she bore it with the self-sacrifice her keeper advised her was needed to be a leader of the People.

When she came of age she chose Ghilan'nain's vallaslin, believing the halla that appeared at the same time as her magic was a sign that she had been set down this path, and she would walk it willingly, even when it veered away from where she would rather go.

Young, untrained, tightly wound, diplomatic to a fault, full of self-doubt and a crushing need to do enough, be enough, she is utterly out of her depth in the human world. When she is declared Herald, she accepts the role as an inevitable sacrifice on the journey she was chosen to take. She grows to detest the song and dance she must perform as Inquisitor, bending to nobles who almost certainly committed acts of violence against her people, but still gives no complaint and allows the pressure of the role to beat her down until there is almost nothing left but the figurehead. In giving more and more of herself to the saving of the world, she loses more and more of herself.

Whenever and wherever she can, she helps the common people in need, but does not shy away from the pride of where she comes from -- emblazoning Skyhold with Dalish heraldry so that no one may forget that the "chosen" of Andraste is both elven and a mage.

As a knight-enchanter she becomes reckless in battle, throwing herself into harm's way, desperately seeking some kind of relief from the stress of her day to day -- to the point she narrowly avoids death again and again and ignores proper care of her wounds.

She sides with the mages, and whenever possible, follows her heart to find just punishment for the war criminals she captures, typically some third alternative to death or imprisonment. She never invokes the Rite of Tranquility.

El maintains a strictly professional relationship with everyone in the Inquisition, taking her role as leader and demi-god seriously and performs that untouchable facade those under her command. She allows no elves to be her servants, and goes out of her way to use her power and resources to help every elf she can.

Even her inner circle are but coworkers; she shares her doubts and true inner self with no one, performing a display of otherworldly strength that she does not possess in order to appear the leader she believes the world needs her to be.

She, literally and figuratively, never takes her hair down except when alone. She works herself half to death in a sort of sacrificial clinging to duty, to fulfill her purpose. To protect her people and make them proud.

She becomes friendly with Solas and Dorian, both of whom help expand her knowledge and skill over her own magic. But is sorely lacking of anyone who can relate or understand the toll it takes to constantly play a role -- until Iron Bull.

She shares a kiss with Solas in the Fade, momentarily believing their friendship and camaraderie of being the only two elves in the Inquisition meant more than friendship. But when Solas gently tells her later it was a mistake, she is embarrassed and ashamed, and quickly agrees to their relationship being strictly platonic. She continues to care about him, admire and respect him. Her crush fades until she thinks perhaps it was not a crush at all, simply loneliness. Certain later events make her suspicious of where he came from, and if he is truly trustworthy, but she allows him to dissuade her by drawing on their shared identity and past affection.

El reunites Briala and Celene, though she trusts neither -- but Gaspard even less.

She will try to save Solas from himself, but is prepared to kill him if need be. Even if it will haunt her forever.

She believes herself to be too soft-hearted to be a good leader, and begins to question everything after Here Lies the Abyss -- that perhaps nothing in her life has been pre-ordained by any gods at all, and what she thought was a divine commandment to sacrifice herself for the good of the world was truly just...a collection of random unlucky events. It upends her worldview and sends her into a tailspin.

The Iron Bull is perhaps the least likely person in the world for her to fall in love with. But she does, quietly, secretly, from afar. She sees the innate self-sacrificing goodness beneath the vulgarity and bluster, and admires his courage, strength, and confidence, all of which she believes herself to lack. But he -- and his reputation -- are far too intimidating for El, who has never had time for any sort of relationship, and too busy, and is wound much too tightly to ever relax enough for one. Or so she tells herself. They are complete opposites, after all. Quiet to his loud, knowing little of the world compared to his vast experience.

But Iron Bull sees much even with his one eye, and realizes when perhaps no one else does that El is going to break under the strain unless someone intervenes.

He, of course, volunteers.

Anyway I've written nearly 200k of hurt/comfort character study smut about Ellawyn and Bull, and the way their very different stories converge, so I'll leave it here.

Art thanks to @thegoblinwitchqueen !!

#my ocs #ellawyn lavellan

[mvttsvn]

Good Little, Liar

Literal sadist😳Toji Fushiguro x bratty fem!reader

warnings: 18+ smut, ABSOLUTE FILTH,  cussing, reader is a masochist, dacryphilia, manhandling, choking, pain kink, daddy kink, impact play, degrading pet names “whore, slut”, use of “princess”, Toji threatens to kill you like once👩🏻‍🦯, no prep, mentions of blood, stomach bulge, size kink, mind break, dumbification, no aftercare :/, angsty at the end.

authors note: 2k words, UNEDITED holy fuck this was supposed to be a short drabble but I got carried away. this is completely self indulgent, it so nasty literally how did I even think of this??? I cannot get this shitty ass dad out of my head... literally just ib this one pic🤒

You convinced him alright. Convinced him so much that he whole heartedly believed he picked up and took home a totally different person tonight. You and Toji and been together a couple of times prior, nothing too serious, went out for a drink, maybe kissed, probably rode him in his backseat. Each and every time you put on your good girl façade, always so sweet, and submissive. Following his each every command. Taking exactly what he gives and thanking him for it every time.

He thought you were sent from the gods, how could he have found someone like you, who fit just perfect under his thumb, so willing to do anything just for his attention. Yet here you were, same pretty little girl, same pretty little face, telling him “no” ???.

You were straddling his lap, on his rough leather couch, the tv lowly played a old movie which by now has left both of your minds. The dim light from the kitchen buzzing due to the bulbs starting to burn out, which completely unfazed Toji, but left you slightly annoyed.

“No?” He scoffed.

You adjusted your hands to fit onto his built shoulders had his began gripping you hips tighter and tighter.

“Nope, I don’t want my jaw to hurt in the morning” you gave him a coy smile, while tilting your head down to stare at him through your lashes.

His right hand came up and  roughly gripping your jaw. “Does it look like I fucking care?” He practically growled in your face. In all honesty he was more confused than pissed, of course he was going to immediately put you in your place, but you had him genuinely concerned, we’re you always like this? Did he do something wrong?? You tried to shake you head but due to his grip you could only move so far.

“Now, on. your. knees.” He released his grip only for his hand to move to the back of you neck waiting for you to comply. You slowly leaned in kissing the scar on his lip to kiss down to his jaw then leaning back up to whisper two little words that could make or break your night, probably both.

“Make me”

the millisecond your breathy whisper hit his ear it was over, you were done for. Say goodbye to you legs you’re probably never walking again.

The force in which he pulled you hair made you shriek. He stood up tossing you over his shoulder furiously stomping into the bedroom. He threw you onto his mattress, you couldn’t help but giggle, this is exactly what you wanted it only added to his rage. He threw off his shirt, then gripped your ankles pulling you to the edge of the bed. He was immediately on top of you, his knees digging into your calves holding down your legs, has one hand gripped both of your wrists and the other tightly around your throat. You were already breathing hard due to anticipation but now he practically had you life in his hands.

“What the fuck did you do with my good little girl hmm?” His voice darkened by lust.

“I don’t know who your talking about” you laughed again, his grip tightening around your throat.

Before you could make another comment his knee was pushed up between your thighs has the hand holding your wrist bunched your shirt up exposing your bra. He ripped the right strap off  making you choke out a gasp, then he slid the rest of garment out from under you to throw it across the room. Toji mouth immediately on your breast teasing you to no avail.

“M..m..more” you choked out, you were in no right to be making demands but you really wanted to see how angry you could make him. His only reply was catching you nipple on a canine and biting down hard. You almost screamed, you thought he probably wanted to see you bleed.

He continued his teasing, you wanted to keep this game up for longer but your vision was starting to get hazy from the lack of oxygen. You started pawing at his shoulders, while wrapping you legs around his waist, quietly pleading, “I’m.. I’m sorry... T...oji..I’m...” the hand on your throat let go to harshly slap your thigh making you yelp in pain once again.

“That’s not my name. C’mon what is it?”... you met his harsh gaze, maybe just a little longer... “Toj-“ he slapped you across the face. You didn’t make a single sound but the tears pricking your eyes said enough. Lucky for you, Toji’s into that.

He met your lips in a sloppy kiss shoving his tongue down your throat. You tapped his collar bone silently signaling you needed to breathe, once he moved away he removed his pants and helped you wiggled out of yours.

“Who knew you’re such a fucking brat” he slapped your thigh again watching you squirm. His hand hovered over your already drenched cunt, as he starred right into your eyes. The flush on your chest started moving to you face. Why were suddenly getting all worked up now??

“Are you gonna give in already?, gonna be my good little whore again?”, you wanted to answer no again because he looked so hot when he was angry. The words got caught in your throat and all you could do was nod.

He lightly slapped your clit “Hmm need to hear it little girl, tell me who owns you?”

“you do....daddy” you admitted, you tilted your down, you couldn’t meet his eyes.

His calloused palm came up and caressed your jaw leaning in closer. “Are you sorry? Tell daddy your sorry for being such a brat.” He mocked making a fake pout. “M’sorry daddy, j..just wanted to make you angry.”

“I know you did princess...” He reeled his hand back to full on slap your cunt, squirming up the bed you let out a pathetic whine.

He slapped three, four more times now, and the tears started running down your face. He moved to tuck his face in the nape of your neck, leaving deep red bruises as he moved down your torso.

The muscles in his back rippled as he held himself up but the palms of his hands. God he looked so..big... not sure if he would ever explicitly admit the he liked how he overpowered you in almost every single way...but you liked it too.

There was no way you could’ve played you act for any longer, he would’ve choked you out. And would’ve done it with ease since his hand was bigger than your actual face. You knew how dangerous this was, yet still tilled wanted to play fire, but alas here you were once again, bowing to his every command.

“D..d..ddaddy..p..please..”

“Aw there she is” he lifted his face from you chest giving you one of his sickening grins. “I thought he wanted to play the little bitchy brat huh? What happened?” His voice dripping with mockery.

“N..need..you”

“How princess, you know daddy can’t help if you don-“

“please, PLEASE! need daddy’s cock! ….” you were getting impatient now, was this the most he was going to? you expected at lea-.

The scream ripped from you chest was silenced by the strong hand around your throat in a death like grip. He shoved his whole cock inside your tight little cunt, there was no prep not even when you were on the couch, he didn’t he stuff his fingers in your little cunt to stretch you out. You knew he was big, since the time he shoved his entire cock down your throat but feeling it twitch inside you making you feel like your being absolutely split open on Toji’s cock.

He gave a deep throaty chuckle, you knew how much he was enjoying this. New tears pricked from your eyes, wetting your cheeks, he moved his free hand pinching your clit between his fore finger and thumb, watching your eyes roll to the back of your head. The hand on your throat gripped your hair moving so his face was flushed with yours, spatting in your ear, “You don’t cum until I say, understand?” All you could do was whine in response.

“I give you rules for a reason break them and I’ll kill you where you lay.” A threat, empty of not, it had you clenching hard around his dick. You glanced down to where you were connect, to be met with a indescribable bulge in your lower stomach.

Dear god, bless your poor cervix, he hasn’t even started moving yet  and you could feel the intrusion all the same. He started rocking his hips slight against yours, at least he was giving you sometime to adjust, all while staring two lust filled hole into your head as you writhed and whimpered underneath him. He pulled his hips back to pull out but when he’s met with the slightest sign of blood mixed with the milky white arousal coating his dick, he could’ve came right there.

He gripped your hips sinking right back into you making you scream once again. “DA-DADDY..fuck..shit..” the tears running down you face only egged him on.

“So god damn tight, maybe I should never prep you again, if you’re gonna feel like this every time” he groaned. “Such dirty little words, I would’ve punished you if you didn’t already dig yourself a grave”.

The pained moans falling from your lips were music to ears. Profanities fell from his as he continued a rough pace, your tits bouncing with every thrust. He had fucked you completely and utterly dumb, no coherent thought where making their way to you consciousness. Only daddy, Toji, and cock.

You have gotten numb to the pain but right now you were putting all you effort into not focusing on the way his dick was bruising you cervix, trying so hard not to come just from the way his pelvic bone catches your clit. You didn’t realize he was speaking to you till he lightly slapped your cheek. “Aw look at you, you’ve gone all stupid. Too bad, if you played nice I would’ve let you cum by now.” The malice in his voice made you clench around his cock, squeezing more of your arousal on his thighs. “ at least you’re taking me so well.” His breath hitched as his thrust stared getting sloppy.

“Holy fuck, keep squeezing just like that-“ you saw his abs clench, “remember you don’t cum till I say” his eyes flicked right back into yours you nodded, more like messily rolled your head around. “Holy fuck princess...” he was practically already using your cunt like a toy. With a last few harsh thrust he filled you cunt to the brim with hot, thick cum.

The groans falling from his mouth sounded almost angelic. All you could let out was a low whine met with heavy breathing. The sweat dripping down his toned chest shone from the dim light of the lamp on the corner the side table. He pulled out watching his cum drip out of you down to your asshole and onto his dark sheets.

Your body laid motionless barely opening your eyes to see him move away from edge and walk to his discarded pants. Your brain couldn’t even process this as you licked you’re tongue to wet your now dry lips.

Then it dawned that he didn’t let you cum... that fucker. You couldn’t do a single thing about it.

Because here you were unsatisfied, speechless, practically crippled, staring blankly at the ceiling. As he sat and lit a cigarette on the opposite end of the bed.

Notes: I am so sorry. There’s just something about Toji Fushiguro that I just forget how to function correctly. Um I hope you enjoyed! And that I didn’t rot ur brain too much<3

ps: ppp..ppart 2??? fluff???😏

#I am ashamed #fushiguro toji x reader #toji fushiguro #toji smut #fushiguro toji x you #jjk smut #jjk toji #jujutsu kaisen smut #toji fic.🔪 #jjksmut

[tellywoodtrash]

immj2 13.10.20 lb

askjdshkfjdhkfkjdhfkj vansh being told the number of things that went wrong in the 24ish hours he wasn't in this house of horrors and his face is like THIS IS EXACTLY WHY I DON'T LEAVE YOU FUCKING DUMBASSES ALONE

lol, like i said in the firsttttttttt lb, vansh is taking this news realllllllll chill. he's not mad at riddhima at allllllllll for keeping all this from him. 

saasuji, chachi, and aryan adding some shuddh desi ghee in this aag. can't blame them. riddhima IS a colossal pain in the ass.

lmao one more bomb thrown on vansh, ki sejal bhi kidnap hui hai aur yahin kahin hai. yaaaaaar, i never thought i'd feel this bad for Ghar Ka Bada Beta after shivaay, but this man is truly having to deal with The Most.

accusation after accusation thrown left and right, and vansh is literally like

man, idk why kabir does any of this devious planning and effort. with allllllll this dumbfuckery, it's just a matter of time before the raisinghanias go extinct from SHEER STUPIDITY. he should just bide his time and let them wipe themselves out. should take like, 3 months, tops.

VANSH HAS A BOMB OF HIS OWNNNNNNNNN: “SEJAL MERE PAAS HAI.” WHUT??!!?!?!?

lmao the panic on allllllllllll these fools' faces hearing that vansh has sejal. dadi and siya are the only oblivious and unbothered ones here.

hahahahahaha vansh turns around and sees YET another fucker who's out to test him and is like MOTHERF....... AB TU KAUN HAI BEYYYYY

vansh playing march 24th waale modiji and is like NONE OF YOU FUCKERS LEAVING THE HOUSE FROM NOW ON. NO ONE. EVER.

dang this growly vansh aint the smiley simp from the last 2-3 eps. i'm intrigued.

he promises everyyyyyything's gonna come out in a bit. yissssssssssssssss *grabs my popcorn from the rasoda*

vanshhhhhhhh OUT!

my queschun is ki does mishra know he's fully being made to shady shit by kabir or not!?!?!??!?

mishra not picking phone. he dedddddddddddd, lol. #RIPMishra

KABIR WTF DON'T BE PULLING THE DUDE'S WIFE AROUND LIKE THIS. OH GOD THEY'RE FULLY GONNA GET MURDERED TODAY. 

ainvayi ka nakli fikar and some chugli against vansh.

REJECTED. honestly, she's really asking to be murdered, lol. sis, you can't be playing both parties like this.

lol kabir is meeeeeeee, so sick and tired of heterosexual ppl in love.

blah blah blah find out what he knows.

lmao everyoneeeeeeeeee is panickkkkkk.

WHY DOES HE KEEP TAKING HIS BLOODY MASK OFFFFFFFF

AND DESTROYING PROPERTY AND MAKING NOISE TO DRAW MORE ATTENTION TO THE ROOM. KABIR, SATYAAANAAASH, I THOUGHT YOU WERE THE SMART ONE HERE.

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOP.

lolololololololololllllllll mummy ki haalat kharaab.

kabir using his half brain cell and not panicking out of control. good.

god bless this vapid praani. idhar sab ki hawa tight hai aur isko apni hairstyle ki padi hai. he's like an evil rudra from IB.

chachi is relatably stress-eating carbs. my most potent coping mechanism.

aryan is like, chillllllll this is mauke pe chauka type situation. 

ASDLFKDSLKFJDLSKFJDLSJFLDSKJFL VANSH WHY ARE YOU LIKE THISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS HE LAMINATED IT AND EVERYTHING HAHAHAHAHHAHA GODDDDDDD I LOVE HIS PETTY ASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

chalo inn madam ki baari ab, phat ke haath mein aane ki.

helllllllllllllllo, sir. immediate aankhon ko thandak now that he changed out of that red suit.

damn, my aankhein not the only thing thandiiiiiii in this room. temp just dropped to -20 with how chilly he's being to her.

SIS HAS WIPED HER SWEATY UPPER LIP SO MANY TIMES KI FREEFUND KI MOOCHON KI WAXING HO GAYI HAI FRICTION SE. BEHEN POWDER THAT SHIT AND STOP TOUCHING IT; YOU'RE GIVING THE WHOLE GAME AWAY. JESUS. ISKO SPY BANAAKE BHEJA HAI?!?!?! ISKO?????? 🤦🏽‍♀️🤦🏽‍♀️🤦🏽‍♀️

lol does he look like he gives a rat’s ass about sejal and your ramkathaa??????

DUDE STOP RAMBLING. JESUS. YOU'RE SOFA KING BAD AT THIS.

speaking of bad sofas, wth is up with the RIDICULOUSLY high backed chairs in this house, they look fucking insane.

vansh willing her to STFU with his eyes is honestly me.

“maine apni pasand badal li, riddhima.” yiiiiiiiiikes. he's not just talking about cologne, is he???

but also, you deserve much better than this twit, so good for you, my man. you deserve to be with someone who at least has six (6) brain cells.

dhat tere ki. he still seems into her. bloody heterosexuality. hum sabko le doobegi.

“itni nervous kyun ho tum aaj?”

NERVOUSNESS JAAYE BHAAD MEIN; I WOULD FUCKING NEVER LET ANYONE TOUCH MY FACE WITH THEIR BLOODY HANDKERCHIEF EXCUSE ME SIR THIS SKIN TAKES A LOT OF MAINTENANCE I CANNOT HAVE YOU DABBING AT IT WITH YOUR FILTHY POCKET CLOTH AND RISKING BREAKOUTS I MUST INSIST YOU REASSURE AND COMFORT ME FROM 2 FEET AWAY THANK YOU

riddhima trying valiantly to bluff her way through this conversation but vansh is like me on online shopping sites after filling my cart full of stuff: NOT BUYING IT.

literally me any time someone touches my face. internally screaming and thinking about how i’ll have to go dab tea tree oil all over to preemptively stop a breakout.

uhhhhhhhhhhh, she didn't say anything about wanting to know what sejal said to you????? mind-reading is very rude and an invasion of privacy, vansh!!!!!

4 pm, kab bajenge bloody 4, out with it alreadyyyyyyyyy.

lol that tinnnnnnnnny smirk of his as he leaves.

no but forreal, imagine living with this dramaticass man who promises big shows at a given time, like honestly i would be so fucking annoyed. at least shivaay never planned his big living room all-family conferences and made ppl WAITTTTTTTTT for it.

mummy is like kabir plsssssssssssss gtfo.

riddhima is useless as ever and has no info. big surprise.

AEDKLSJFLDSKJLFSKJFLKSDJL HE SNUCK UP ON HER

mummy always been knowing that riddhima is a fucking nikammi.

ok notttttttttt cooool my man. phone is private shit. 

off kardiya shaaaani ne.

lol kiskoooooooo pappu bana rahi ho behen, this man knows everyyyyyyyyything.

was that HIS phone he just picked up and left? usmein recording kar raha tha toh??????

honestly can you even blame vansh for being such a shakki shakeel, his house is filllllllllled with fucking snakes.

THIS FOOL JUST BE WALKING AROUND USING ALL THE MAIN DOORS AND SHIT WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU MANNNNNNNNN

asjdkasjdkajshkdsj and the prize for most valiant effort at hide and seek goes to.................

peripheral vision naam ki bhi koi cheez hoti hai, bhai. use karle.  

4 BAJ GAYE LEKIN PARTY ABHI BAAKI HAI, ABHI TOH PARTY SHURU HUI HAIIIIIIIIIIIIIII 🥳🥳🥳

hahahahahhahahaha what the fuck his ass actually has a fulllllllllblown sirens blowing at 4 pm. like not a small tinkly alarm too, this is like those sirens they have blaring at big factories and shit.

riddhima dressed in that promo waali sari where nothing good happens so............ good luck sis.

(but also this is the sari anika wore when they fucked in laal ishq so maybeeeeeeeeee good times are incoming???)

HE ACTUALLY TURNED AROUND AND TOOK HIS PLACE, FOR MAXIMUMMMMMMM EFFECT. THIS MAN AND HIS FLAIR FOR THE DRAMATIC. I LOVE IT.

“yeh sab kya ho raha hai vansh??”

“chaar baj gaye, dadi.”

yes. totally a satisfactory explanation for this shit. thanks vansh. but you COULD have mentioned in your notes ki 4 baje ko jo hona tha, was a scheduled fire drill.

ANY HIGH TENSION SITUATION MAKES ME WANNA PEE REAL BAD, AND GIRLS, MY BLADDER IS REAL HURTY RN.

also lord, this one’s base makeup is too yellow toned too. just look at the contrast between his face and his ear.

askdlajlkdjlasjdlasjlkj he sat right on THAT table.

“toh bataao mujhe: kya hua, kyun hua, aur kaise hua.”

.............. like.... who are you talking to? and what exactly are you referring to? you want me to like start from the big bang and the creation of the universe and evolution and all that jazz, ya like, from this morning when i woke up?

(it’s stupid shit like this i would ask that would get me fully murdered in a sitch like this. damn my smartassery, it’s gonna get me killed.)

lol aryan is up first. we love to see it. OUT WITH IT, YOU WEASELLY LITTLE SHIT.

noooooooooooooo, he didn't even let him properly stew and sweat over it. ouff vansh, kuch toh dramatic pause dete.

“afwaa phaili hai ki meri nazar baaz se tez hai..........”

why all the guys on colors these days gotta be baaz and cheel and god knows what else?!?!!?

OH DAAAAAAAAAAAAMNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN

OH HELLLLLLLLLLLLLL HE DID USE HIS PERIPHERAL VISION AFTER ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLL GOOOOOOD JOBBBBBBBBB VANSHHHHHHHHHHH

KABIR TU TOH GAYAAAAAAAAAA #RIPKABIR

akjsadkjhskjdhkjskask ngl i am fucking thrilled by this development

riddhima and mummy having simultaneous heart attacks though. lol idc, die bitches.

lmao kabir looking reallllllllllll ulta-chor-kotwaal-ko-daante for someone who got caught hiding inside a table.

DANG, I ACTUALLY CANNOT WAIT FOR THE NEXT EP????????? SHIT. THIS STUPID SHOW HOOKED ME IN SOOOOOOOOO EASY. 😫😫😫

#ishq mein marjawan 2 #immj2 #immj2 lbs #episode liveblogs

[vgperson]

What Did I Do In 2019?

#vgperson

[cypher-of-the-night]

Biography: Asher

“Fufufu~ Now then... Shall we dance~?”

~

Full name: Asher 

Hiragana:  あしぇる

Meaning: Asher - "Fortunate, blessed, happy one"

Nickname(s):

Old Friend (by Karlheinz)

My Beloved (by Ying-Yue)

Master Ash (by Andrew)

Papa (by Naoki)

Age: 20 (Physically)

Birthday: December 20th

Zodiac Sign: Sagittarius

Ethnicity: Demon

Status: Alive (Deceased in Lost Eden)

Race: First Blood

Gender: Male

Height: 180 cm (5’11")

Weight: 68 kg (150 Ib)

Hair color: Blue

Eye color: Golden

Blood Type: O

Occupation: Protector of Naoki Enjo

Relatives: 

Ying-Yue Jiang (lover, deceased)

Naoki Enjo (hostess, adoptive daughter)

Yuuichi Kuroi (adoptive son)

Place: Naoki’s body

Favorite Food: Pineapples

Hobbies: Teasing

Seiyuu: As Himself: Subaru Kimura (Ichiro Yamada from Hypnosis Mic) (Talking / Singing)

As Naoki: Asami Tano ( Saki Nikaido from Zombieland Saga ) (Talking / Singing)

English Voice: As Himself: Austin Tindle (Kaneki Ken from Tokyo Ghoul) (Talking, 1/2) /

As Naoki: Amber Lee Connors (Android 18 from Dragonball Z Abridged) (Talking, 1/2)

Significant Other/Keeper: Ying-Yue Jiang (Deceased, Formerly)

~

Personality:

Due to being alive for more than several several millenniums, Asher is rather a cocky and egotistical trickster. While he always takes order from his hostess, it does not stop Asher from being playfully devious and rebellious. He gets easily bored and often takes up challenges he finds fun. Mischievous and a bit immature, The first blood’s arrogance has always been a coping mechanism to mask the pain of betrayal from Karlheinz whom he once respected as a father-figure. Being a Do-S, Asher has said to have always thirst for chaos and destruction in battle and would sometimes go to the human world to witness it. He would even get himself involved just to shed blood for fun on every eclipses when he is at his strongest; Because of this, he is often viewed as the true monster he is for his blood thirst and sadism. This trait still exist even within the body of Naoki as he would laugh maniacally over the idea of a heated war happening in the Demon world, and be heavily upset about is unable to join in the fray.

However, while the sadism is still there, Asher admitted to have toned down his lust to torture and to kill over the years, only spiking up as it was when given the thought of going against Karlheinz. This is due to the several thousand year influence of his beloved lover and hostess. While he does not acknowledge growing soft, Asher shows hold a soft spot for Enjo Naoki, his new hostess, and began to see her as a daughter-figure due to her uncanny resemblance to his past beloved and having to watch her grow up as her protector. He shows to be overly-protective of Naoki as he has saved her in situations where she was almost killed by even Subaru, who Asher would be capable of killing had it not been for Naoki’s influence chaining him down with taking action to do so. It is revealed that Asher’s overprotectiveness of Naoki is resulted from his beloved’s last wish to keep her safe from harm; Thus, protecting Naoki as the last order from his beloved gave him a reason to live without his love by his side and to cope from the immense loss.

While he is very laid-back and playful, Asher holds resentment towards Karlheinz, the man he himself once admired many years ago. This hatred lived on for a millennium and even lived on even when in the body of Naoki. While Naoki idolized him, Asher agrees with Subaru’s hatred of Karlheinz and finds it justifying. His resentment for him is one of the times when Asher does become serious and prompt Naoki to not try and challenge him on that fact as even that scares her.

Asher is also known for being rather promiscuous, as in-between the Haunted Dark Bridal saga and the MORE BLOOD saga, He is known to flirt with men and women in Naoki’s body; While he claim to joke when he says he states he doesn’t mind sleeping around using Naoki’s body, it is possible that Asher was not joking and was actually serious but only claimed to be joking to prevent Naoki to feel wary of him and forbid him from resurfacing again.

~

Strengths: Cunning, sometimes obedient, fast-learner, observant, highly intelligent, experienced, fatherly when it counts, athletic, fun-loving, persepctive, open-minded, high stamina, analytical, protective, goal-oriented, assertive, adventurous, playful, a realist, perseverant, spontaneous, versatile, serious when needed, decisive, charming, considerate (exclusively to Ying-Yue and sometimes Naoki), and expressive.

Flaws: Extremely sadistic, persistent, cocky, egotistical, rude, perverted, disrespectful (to an extend), devious, rebellious (to an extent), sometimes immature, arrogant, easily bored, thirsts for destruction and bloodshed from conflict, mischievous, impulsive, exasperating at times, selfish, reckless, deceitful, glutton for all the wrong things, and manipulative.

Skills: Teasing, a master of setting traps, playing the piano, dancing, rapping (due to Naoki’s influence), is able to speak different languages (Such as German, English, Japanese, and (due to Ying-Yue’s influence) Chinese), his intelligence, possesses a medium-high level of magic, high stamina, the ability to turn into animals of the four sub-clans (a wolf, snake, bat, and eagle), highly enhanced abilities such as strength and speed, can summon and control familiars, has regenerative abilities, reading people and their emotions, hunting, singing (only does it for Naoki and Ying-Yue), has archery skills, a high-tolerance for alcohol, negotiation skills, quick thinker, surprisingly a strategist when it counts, and swordsmanship.

~

History:

Many millenniums ago, Asher was a First-Blood that was taken under the care of Karlheinz, the Vampire King, after Asher’s parents were killed from the Endzeit illness. He developed a strong friendship with his butler, Andrew, a turned-vampire adopted by Karlheinz. He grew up admiring the Vampire King for his vast knowledge and potential as a ruler. He even wished he could’ve been Karlheinz’s real son, and is often overjoyed when treated as if he was his son. His hobby was to tease a young Richter, even giving him the nickname “Little Ricky”/“Rick-tan”. He was also well-acquainted with Carla Tsukinami, the first prince of Giesbach, as they would see each other often in the kings’ respective castles.

One night, he decided to explore the human world to cause mischief and witness wars and chaos to get over his boredom in the castle. There, he goes to China after receiving word from one of his familiars that two clans are at a heated war with each other. As it was the night of the Eclipse, he decided to take part in it using magic to disguise his appearance as one of the enemy clan members; However, as he was about to join, Asher gets cornered by clan members that believes him to be their enemy. While he was able to slaughter them, the first-blood faints from using too much of his own energy. Waking up, Asher finds himself in a different area of the forest bandaged up. Sensing a human presence, He meets a young girl by the name of “Jiang Ying-Yue”, who found him unconscious near the battlefield with the corpses of the men he killed and bandaged his wounds for him. Sensing she is lowering her guard, Asher initially thought about drinking her blood to quench his thirst before he goes back to the Demon World; However, before he could, Asher notices something off about the girl as her chest pains and started to have difficulties to breathe. When she was calm, He demanded answers from the girl, especially why she would save a stranger such as himself. But before she could answer, the Chinese girl noticed it was time for her to return and promised to meet him again the next night before bidding farewell. After she left, Asher decides to transform into an bat to follow the mysterious girl. He comes to find out that Ying-Yue was the daughter of a member from one of the clans in war, the same clan that he killed other members of, and has been taking care of him in secret the entire time despite of that. While he initially thought about leaving to go back to the Demon World as he has already regenerated, Asher decides not to leave yet. He became curious about the unknown girl who didn’t seem to hesitate helping someone that clearly killed clan members from her own clan, that could likely be a foe that could kill her, and concludes that she did not do it out of the goodness of her heart; Rather, she chose to heal him with an ulterior motive. Because of this, he decided to wait upon her return, and thought about killing her by drinking her blood dry once she gives him answers, reasoning to himself that he would’ve been fine without her help due to being a first-blood and can only die from decapitation.

The next night, Ying-Yue returns with fruits she has taken from the clan for Asher to eat, this includes slices of Pineapples. While he was wary of the human girl, he tries it only to savor the taste. While Ying-Yue was happy he liked it, Asher goes straight to the point and asked her why she helped him, despite knowing he was the one that killed members of her clan.

And the answer was simple to Ying-Yue: She wanted him to kill her next.

Taken aback as he has never been asked by someone (let alone a human) to kill them before, Asher asks why. Ying-Yue reveals that she was actually born with a weak-heart, and brought him to a safe area as she realized he wasn’t from either clans. Despite her condition, She explains that the only value she ever had was by being chosen to be married away by her father to the son of the clan leader; Due to this, she never knew what it was like to be free to make choices for herself or to live her life to the fullest, often used as a pawn for power. With her weak heart, she wished she could live healthier, but understands it would not change how things were. Thus, when she saw that someone from a third-party came to join in the war for the sake of killing, Ying-Yue knew she found the right person that would do the job. A stranger with no strings attached that was capable of taking lives with no remorse. Now understanding why, Asher takes everything into consideration. If he kills her, he will highly likely cause an uproar that will start an all-out war between clans that could cause so much devastation and bloodshed to both sides. A war that could potentially continue for many years to come. As much as he enjoyed the thought, The First-Blood decided to accept the request and drink Ying-Yue’s blood, who was taken aback from this action but started to give in despite the pain. As he drinks her blood, Asher starts to become fond of her blood and stops before he could really succeed in killing her. When questioned why he chose to stop as Ying-Yue was prepared to give into death, Asher took a moment to recollect his thoughts as of why. While he didn’t understand himself, he only knew he wanted to drink more of Ying-Yue’s blood, yet not so much where she could really die. Noticing that it was becoming late, Ying-Yue was about to leave until she nearly faints from having the blood drunk. While reluctant, Asher decides to help her by transforming into a wolf to help her to the site of the clan and healing the bite mark before leaving back to the hidden area.

The meetings at night start to become frequent. Whenever Ying-Yue was in danger by rival clan members, Asher would protect her by either transforming into a Wolf or a snake, or by using a familiar to kill them. In the daytime, He would transform as an eagle to watch over her while he transform into a bat to watch over her at night. They started to form a bond that turned into friendship, where Asher confesses being a First-Blood and talks to her about the Demon world, which helped her understand when he drank her blood for the first time; Meanwhile, Ying-Yue talks about the clan and about the good and bad humans that also resides in the human world, which makes Asher begin to understand about the fascination Karlheinz has for humans in the first place. Asher has even transforms into a Wolf for Ying-Yue and takes her on his back to places she has never gotten the chance to go to. Eventually, as they began to show each other sights they’ve never seen before, they start to form a romance as they began to fall in love; He falls in love with her solidifying fearlessness, as she falls in love with his mischievous rebelliousness.

But after realizing he has already taken too much time away from the Demon world, Asher eventually has to bid farewell to his beloved, who kisses him and makes him promise to return for her. While he was hesitant to come back, He decides he will start to become true to her and swore to keep the promise.

However, everything changed when the Millennial war started to take place. After overhearing about a war coming to place, Asher was initially excited to see bloodshed and wanted to join in ‘the fun’. But once he heard about it being against the clans and about how Karlheinz does not plan to help save all of the First-Bloods from the disease that killed his parents, Asher felt betrayed that his idol would rather use this opportunity for his own personal plans.

Upon finding out that he and Burai, the Demon Lord, would seal the Antenate Castle with the rest of the remaining first-bloods, Asher realizes that he is no longer safe as he concluded that Karlheinz will use the trust Asher had for him to join the rest of the first-bloods and possibly die from Endzeit. Before that happens, Andrew chooses to assist his master in escaping that fate, as he has overheard the instructions Karlheinz gave Menae, the sister of the Founder king’s wife, on how to slip through the barrier that surrounds the castle. Asher decides to make that attempt to escape with Andrew before he could be caught by Karlheinz to be joined among the other First-Blood’s. While they barely escaped, Asher returns to China with Andrew, where he finds Ying-Yue whose heart begins to fail. Not wanting to be part from his beloved in this way, Asher decided to give his heart to her to save her, and orders Andrew to perform the transplant. While Ying-Yue does not know how it can be possible, Andrew only makes her unconscious to have one more moment with his master about how this woman has changed him, only for Asher to respond that if anyone was changing, it was going to be her. With that said, Andrew places Asher to sleep after a farewell to perform the procedure. Once the procedure was a success, Andrew decapitates Asher’s head to fake his own death with no chances of his body surviving.

After that, Ying-Yue and Asher became one in her body, having to become more healthy from the first-blood’s heart. But this does not change Ying-Yue’s fate to marry the son of the clan leader and become a subservient wife of the clan’s leader, bearing a son in the process. During these times, Asher would sometimes take over for her to help release the stress, and start to understand the hardships of a woman during these ancient times. Once he was given word by Andrew about Karlheinz’s plan called the “Adam and Eve” project and about how only the aunt of Carla, Mene, was the only First-Blood that was left alive outside the of the castle, Asher remembers that the Vampire King has wanted to take advantage of his dying race. When he was told that Menae was sent to Burai after she escaped the barrier and is bearing a daughter despite also being infected by Endzeit, Asher realizes that the reason Karlheinz didn’t save the first-blood race, was so that he could create a new race using a woman with first-blood blood for his own plans regarding Endzeit.

Finding out that Karlheinz might’ve sent a familiar to search for him after his escape, Asher tells Ying-Yue that she is no longer safe. The reason for this is because, despite faking his own death, it is still possible for someone like Karlheinz to see that his heart could still live on within her body, and might plan to use her for that plan. When asked if he was sure, Asher explains that the only reason he can be sure about it was because he has been under the Vampire King’s care, surrounded by his researches and Asher knew better than anyone about Karlheinz’s fascination with the human race; Even Andrew himself attest to it. He knows that even if the heart originally belonged to a male first-blood, Ying-Yue was still a female human that could still be a victim to Karlheinz and his experiments. And if she doesn’t comply, Karlheinz will either force her to comply or take the heart for himself to place in another female’s body.

While Asher initially suggested running away into hiding, Ying-Yue, not wanting to leave her baby behind or take any risks of being found, suggests to burn down the village. While she understands this to be cruel to the other villagers, Ying-Yue believes that it is the only way to save herself and her child, and even begs Andrew to turn her into a vampire to lessen her value as a human. If she simply ran away into hiding, then the Vampire King will still find her regardless; Thus, she suggests burning the village down is the only option in order to fake her own death to prevent being found, and allow herself to go into hiding with her son, even takes advantage of being a vampire to protect her son and herself. She would rather take that risk for her freedom than to be forced to a fate against her will again, and wants her son to be given the freedom to choose for himself instead of being forced to go through life with high expectations for the sake of the clan. No matter the cost may be, as a lot of things were taken from her.

Understanding her reasons, and seeing that Ying-Yue has embraced his destructive traits as expected, Asher (with Andrew’s help) arranged the destruction of the village and their escape before Karlheinz’s familiars could travel to look for them. When the day came, the village burned as planned. Despite the death of her husband and other clan members, Ying-Yue successfully managed to escape with her son by the time Karlheinz’s familiars arrived to search for them; This earned Ying-Yue the nickname of Adam’s first wife: Lilith. However, once she managed to escape, Andrew, under hers and Asher’s orders, turns her into a vampire; Unfortunately, He could not afford to stay with them, in fear that his association with them would lead to them being discovered alive; Ying-Yue tried to get him to stay, but Asher stops her and bids his friend farewell, making him promise that they will meet again soon so he may repay him for everything he has done to help his new family. And thus, they parted ways and it was the last time they saw one another.

After that, Ying-Yue starts to adjust her new life as a vampire while experiencing the freedom she dreamed of with her new family, as Asher experiences compassion and love from taking care of the human baby whom he viewed as his own son. Noticing that the son was developing differently from normal humans due to Asher’s blood, Ying-Yue has begun living her life as a Vampire watching as her descendants grow and decided to take the opportunity to save their family secret behind their enhanced abilities by establishing a new clan filled with vampire hunters, which became well-known for their professionalism in their work. Despite having to be stay into hiding for protection, Ying-Yue was very happy with the freedom to live her life as her own, to cherish living a long life after fearing her life would be cut short, and to be free to love Asher, even if they must share her body.

However, the happy days came to an end when one of the descendants was captured by a Vampire and their family secret was leaked to the world. While the original plan was to place Asher’s heart in a male vessel to protect him and to keep it from Karlheinz’s reach, Ying-Yue finds out there was an female infant, an orphan born with the same weak heart she once had as a human. Not wanting the child to die, Ying-Yue decided to pass on Asher’s heart to the child. While Asher tried to convince her otherwise as history might repeat, he gave in after hearing Ying-Yue’s solidified resolve of wanting to save the baby. Her last wish was for him to protect the baby with his life, to give him reason not to give up and to keep moving forward, a reason to keep living without her; The same way he protected her during her times of distress. Seeing what she was trying to do, he decides to honor her last request. They both proclaim their love one last time before they part, transferring Asher’s heart from his beloved to the baby.

That baby was born with the name “Jiang Xiu-Lan”, who would eventually go by a new name: “Enjo Naoki”.

While pained to leave his beloved after thousands of years being together, Asher pushes those emotions aside and end up falling asleep until he woke up within Naoki’s dreams when she was 5. This would be their first real meeting. He is awoken from Naoki’s crying and comforts her, enraged when he finds out she was suffering a fate similar to his beloved’s where she is used as a pawn and restricted from having freedom. He comes to realize she has been adopted by a selfish man that does not allow Naoki to act her age. Because of this, Asher takes it upon himself to become a father-figure to her and play with her in her dreams, where she would refer to him as “Papa” as she is permitted to call whom she believes to be her father “Father”. These blissful dreams came to an end as Naoki started to get older, as Naoki would start to remember it as having an imaginary friend, turning the dreams to bittersweet. Asher is placed to sleep again until she awakens him; However, as he has began to see Naoki’s sanity slip due to the abusive environment she grows up in, Asher decides to take it upon himself to chain himself up from within Naoki to keep her at bay, making her unwittingly and emotionally dependent on his presence. For when the time comes for her to break those chains that bind her once and for all when she needs him the most, He will free and be there to protect her.

Which does upon when Naoki starts to live in the Sakamaki mansion and meet the daughter of Burai and Mēne, Cordelia (in Komori Yui’s body), and an adult Richter. In which, Asher greets after years of slumber.

~

Trivia:

• It is heavily implied that Asher was one of the main reasons why Richter developed an inferiority complex towards Karlheinz, as he has taunted him about being a brat that will never being able to surpass the Vampire King nor Asher himself, even after he has resided to Naoki’s body ever since Richter was young.

• Asher admits, after many millenniums later, he reached a conclusion with his sexuality being pansexual; This is due to experimenting about himself while residing within Ying-Yue’s body, where even found himself comfortable in a female body despite identifying himself as male.

He even admits that, had he have experimented and known about his sexuality sooner, and if it had not been for his love for and influences from Ying-Yue, Asher would’ve taken advantage of her body to flirt with others and have fun without her consent; Although, this May or may not mean the same in Naoki’s case as Asher has made clear.

• It is revealed that after the MORE BLOOD saga, once Naoki and Subaru do become a couple, Asher began to sleep with Subaru using Naoki’s body and admits to enjoy it as Subaru is, what Asher calls, “A beast in the sheets”.

• Asher was the first, in the MORE BLOOD saga, to suspect that Yuuichi Kuroi was another surviving member of the Jiang Clan, mainly due to his scent.

• In the DARK FATE saga, it is revealed that Asher did know Christa and has known her when she was a child, to a point when Naoki finally does meet her, Christa only saw her as Asher due to having his heart; This prompt Asher to take over and comfort Christa, assuring her that he’s not dead as rumored and that he’s really there with her.

• In the Brute Ending in the DARK FATE saga, Asher decides to properly take over Naoki’s body as a vessel, killing her from the inside, in order to follow through Carla’s offer to save the First-Blood race from going extinct once Karlheinz is killed; As a result of such, Asher reigns as the new Vampire ruler, turning Naoki’s body to a turned-Vampire and awakening the full-potential of his powers, while claiming Subaru as his pet, breaking him down and manipulating him by pretending to be Naoki to keep him at bay.

• While Asher appears at the near end of the Haunted Dark Bridal saga, He plays a very prominent, important role in Naoki’s story as her anchor; As he may be crazy, Asher himself is heavily secretive and knows a lot of answers to the questions the Sakamaki’s have.

• While roaming around in Naoki’s body once he has been reawaken, It is implied that Asher is technology-challenged and just as outdated with Modern times as Carla; This is to be expected due to being only conscious in Naoki’s dreams growing up, and has not gained control over her body to roam in the surface until the near end of the Haunted Dark Bridal saga.

• He has to be taught by Naoki over time between the Haunted Dark Bridal saga and the MORE BLOOD saga to learn how to figure it out.

• While Asher can still die, he reveals killing him from within Naoki’s body will cause her will experience imbalance from within psychologically, causing a severe loss of identity/an unstable sense of self as he was the one to keep Naoki has not gone mentally insane from her childhood; Making his existence within her is essential to keep her at bay as she has been unwittingly dependent of him emotionally. This becomes heavily apparent in Naoki’s brutal ending in the Haunted Dark Bridal Saga.

However, in the DARK FATE saga, Asher states that it is possible for Naoki to not suffer such a dangerous aspect when he dies; However, the only way to not suffer it is for Naoki to accept and embrace Asher’s own destructive traits as her own, in a similar way Ying-Yue did when she carried his heart. This way requires a lot of time and effort, which is also why it wouldn’t have been possible to do in the Haunted Dark Bridal saga when he first appeared.

• While it is only implied and hasn’t been decided yet, It is possible that Asher will come back again in the DARK FATE saga after his death.

• While he no longer resides in Naoki after the DARK FATE saga, Some of his personality traits were adopted and embraced by Naoki, along with memories of his past shown in dreams, which makes even Carla question if Asher really did disappear from within her.

~

Height Chart:

Credits: Sprites made by @crezzstar-commissions, Chibi made by minoux-draws, Character sheet image provided by Yuiannii on DeviantArt (color edited by me)

#asher the first blood #naoki enjo

[tempest-loupnoir]

This is one of the many reasons why personal information should not be marketed and distributed everywhere.

Today I got mail from my former veterinarian and from an expo center in my former neighborhood. I have moved twice in one year. Neither place should have my current mailing address. Especially since neither piece of mail was addressed for a living relative!

My dog died this summer and I went on the vet’s website that month to post that we no longer needed their services. My dad died in 2010 and you would think 20 death certificates would have been enough to prove to the many different organizations Mom had to contact to say he was no longer earning income would have been enough. But we got an invitation to the expo with my dad’s name on it. They should not have his name. They should not have our current address! How the hay did they get that and who do I call to say “Get that name off of your list forever!”

It hurts. It freaking hurts seeing names that were part of my identity as a person and who still live on in a big gaping hole in my ragged heart being brought up as if they are still here. It hurts being reminded of how futile it is to try to get everyone to listen.

All this time later, we’re still having to call for More death certificates because Someone didn’t the notice the first ten times. We’ve even gotten a bill from the IRS saying Dad owed income taxes in 2017! Seven freaking years after he died painfully from government caused cancer (Oh yeah, did I forget to mention my dad’s entire generation of classmates has been dropping like flies because back when they were babies, the government set off an atomic bomb in the desert nearby and they All got Downwinders Syndrome!? Thanks a lot. And they still have the Widow’s tax in place that was supposed to be removed after World War 2, and they take away whatever Social Security one married partner earned and force them to choose which one they will live off of, and halve it. That’s right! Halve it! So instead of Mom and Dad living off their individual Social Security checks now like Dad planned, Mom had to give up her own because it was worth less than Dad’s, but because she didn’t earn his herself, she only gets half of it. Which is just enough to cover the cost of groceries each month. Not all the other bills and taxes and what not we as blessed Americans get to pay. Why do people want to come into this country again? There is absolutely nothing that is free. Someone pays for it somehow, be it Social Security (which was made for citizens to invest in for themselves, not for the government to use as their own piggy bank), Wellfare, Medicare, taxes on personal property, death taxes, vehicle taxes, income taxes, etc. Whatever one person does not pay out of pocket, someone else has to pick up the slack somewhere else. Makes me almost want to immigrate Out of this backwards country that my family has defended and built since the 1700’s

Even more off topic, that vet office is lucky I was polite and did not leave a scorching review on their Facebook page. I went there my dog’s entire life. The past six years, they did not take any of my concerns for his health seriously, blaming me for my dog’s instant weight gain after surgery and his coughing and IBS. I followed their directions! I walked my dog multiple times a day, fed him only the amount he was supposed to eat with an expensive brand of dog food (thirty dollars for a three pound bag), made him healthy human food when he wasn’t feeling well like baked chicken, and played fetch indoors with him every day. He was happy, but he was chronically ill and the people I saw (and there were different people there each time I went. That was a red flag I’ll keep in mind in the future) kept treating my dog like an object instead of a sentient caring creature. They practically tortured him trying to get a stool sample when I took him for watery diarrhea hours after he’d stopped going because we could not get an earlier appointment and he had run out at stuff for them to collect. They never wanted to accept samples I brought in on any other visit, and they could not see past his weight to look for an underlying issue causing it. They were satisfied with just blaming me for being a bad dog owner, even though I was trying to get help! Because they never looked beyond “he’s fat”, he did not get medication for a failing diseased liver until it was far far too late for himto recover, and the vet who found his liver cirrhosis found it on our very first visit with her in our new home state! Argh! If I had followed my gut and gone to a different vet years ago, I might still have my baby boy beside me! Or at least I would have known what his chronic issues were really saying about his health and would have gotten him treatment years ago. My poor baby!

End rant. For now. I’ll heal from my sorrow and anger, but this kind of stuff happens all the time to many other people, not just me.

Please, if there is someone out there reading this who handles contact information updates, please ask someone else to help you update everything if you’re falling behind. Don’t ignore anything or save it for another day and let people fall through the cracks. Please follow up if you must! Send a note in the mail. A slip up hurts someone somewhere along the line and while I don’t normally get mail for two dead relatives on the same day, I do get mail and phone calls and emails for my dad often enough, it feels like nobody got the message that he’s dead. It feels like nobody cares that he was a person who meant the world to two people left behind, and nobody cares about their broken minds and hearts.

#personal rant #mail mistakes #Downwinders Syndrome #death #grief #veterinarian oversight #personal hell #the number of death certificates we’ve had to get is probably closer to a hundred now #and no we did not have the energy or finances to sue so we have not gotten reimbursed for all the wasted doc appointments and meds and #end of life expenses are hell and make life hell for the living

[goosegoblin]

Hi my girlfriend is about 7 months into recovery from an ed (she's doing so well im so proud of her!) and she deals with bad nausea and cramps whenever she eats. do you have any advice to help? thank you!

Oh BOY 

(first of all you being so proud of your GF fills my heart with love! bless you!)

So eating disorders will absolutely fuck your gastric tract and your mind up, and it blows! Truly, it blows!

My first piece of advice is- and has to be- make sure she’s seen a doctor and been honest and open with them. If she’s at seven months I’m assuming she’s out of the window for refeeding syndrome, but EDs can sometimes cause more long-term issues like gastroparesis, and that’s something you need to get checked out. 

Moving on from that, there’s a few different things to mention. The first is how her ED manifested. People who purged regularly, for example, often find their body gets ready to throw up even though they… do not want to. If you train your body to know that food doesn’t sit in the stomach very long, it starts to respond automatically. If you’ve restricted to small amounts of food, you need to re-stretch your stomach to a normal size, and that will involve feeling uncomfortably full at times. If you’ve cut out a wide range of foods, re-introducing them may cause pain, etc etc.

The standard advice for digestive issues involves keeping a diary of your what you eat and what symptoms you experience. There is a strong chance she will find this triggering. If she does, look into alternatives. Maybe you keep the diary, writing down what she ate and how she felt. Maybe she uses an app like Recovery Road or Cara where she can plug the data in and then carry on with her day without thinking about it. Maybe she doesn’t write down what she ate as such, but things that are likely to have affected her within it- lactose, high fibre, high FODMAPs, high acid, etc etc. Do not start cutting things out without speaking to a doctor or dietitian (NOT nutritionist)! With EDs, the road to hell really is paved with good intentions, and many a relapse has been led by ‘maybe I’ll feel better if I cut out gluten…’

I also have to mention (sorry!) that some of the pain and nausea is likely psychological. Not all of it- god, no- but anxiety can very much produce those symptoms, and not only is she recovering from an ED, she also knows she’s going to feel physically shitty every time she eats. That’s enough to make anyone anxious. Planning distractions after meals- doing a puzzle together, playing a game together etc- could help a lot. Depending on where she is in her recovery, introducing some gentle exercise (e.g. walks together) could be nice.

In terms of symptom relief (doctor! most important! i am not a medic!), she can try sipping on ginger tea (good for nausea) or peppermint tea (good for bloating). Holding a hot water bottle to her stomach might held with the cramps, and there are some yoga poses that are meant to help with trapped wind (they’ve never worked for me- I find lying flat on my stomach works best). She could try using Sea Bands, which are bands that press on acupuncture points on your wrists to reduce nausea (my stance on sea bands: even if they’re placebo, they work for me, so I’m going to keep believing they work to keep the dream alive). Nausea can sometimes be linked to acid reflux/ your body over-producing acid, and anti-acids or pink bismuth can be nice for that. Personally I find that feeling too hot is a really big nausea trigger for me, so if I notice that happening I’ll sometimes strip my clothes off and press a wet towel to my head to kill it before it starts. I also find CBD oil/paste to be a huge help, as it tackles both my anxiety and my nausea. 

Again, seeing a doctor is paramount, because depending on the rate of her recovery, I wouldn’t necessarily expect to see pain and nausea after every single meal? Then again, IBS and similar issues are common during and after recovery. Think about it: you starved your gut bacteria or washed them with acid or made your body shit itself for days on end. Your body has no idea how to handle food. It’s gonna need to relearn that. There’s a link between IBS/gastric issues and EDs, and nobody is entirely sure of the direction of that link, so it could be that she was always pre-destined to end up with a janky digestive system. If so: welcome!

xxx

#eating disorders #ibs

[fweeble]

Episode 6: My Lost City

Buckle up, and more importantly, arm yourself with tissue boxes, we’re gonna need it.

Pfffft. Max, when will you ever learn the rest of the lines? (Not that I know them, either.)

*swoons into Mappa’s waiting arms* Gorgeous.

Oh, my heart, look at these cuties sleeping. Shorter, cover your tummy, you’ll get a tummy ache. Q vQ

*cries over how precious these two are* Bless this tiny extra scene.

*blows kisses at Mappa*

I LOVE THIS TINY ADDITION. OF COURSE IBE WOULD TAKE PICTURES. I WISH THEY HAD EIJI TAKING PICTURES TOO.

*swoons even more* Mappa, please, you’re killing me.

*cries some more* I have always loved how gentle Ash is with Jennifer.

Jimmy my dude, why’d ya gotta act like this???? >:T

WOW, this is so tame compared to the mango like. Woah.

This had hurt so much, because we know that Max is a father. He has a son, Michael, that he was trying to fight for custody for, but was convinced that giving up was what was best for his son. Imagine being a father who desperately misses their son, who wants to be in their son’s life, and watching another man treat his son like trash. MY HEART. MAX.

Oh god, Ash’s expression. It hurts so much more than it did before. Mappa, why you gotta do this to meeee. I have a soft, squishy little baby girl heart and it bleeds easily.

Totally my bad: They changed the order. JIMMY WHY YOU GOTTA BE LIKE THIS.

*dying hippo noises* IT STILL KILLS ME. FUCK.

*CRIES*

Jennifer is way too good for you, Jim.

*whispers* It’s so gorgeous.

Ash, please. 8′(

I wish Shorter didn’t have his sunglasses on. I want to see his face. Is he super-imposing Nadia onto Griff in this story. We don’t know anything about Shorter’s past. Did Nadia raise him? I HAVE FEELINGS.

Jennifer. Q AQ <3

*cries* I know. I agree with you entirely, Ash. Oof, I love how gentle he is with her. My heart. Look at that face. Let me pretend the one thing he missed about Cape Cod was Jennifer. Let me pretend she had more influence and was able to help Ash and Griff in little ways. Let me pretend Jennifer is stronger than she probably is. 

My heart.

Ash, why you always gotta be like this, twisting the knives in wounds and pouring salt all over them. It’s not like Max wants to see your painful past, it’s just that y’all need to suffer through it to get what you want --the truth about Banana Fish.

Thank you Mappa for adding this scene! I’m constantly so worried you’ll cut out all the light-hearted bits in exchange for pure drama. Q vQ

My heart. Eiji, your precious face. Q vQ

MAPPA STOP PLAYING WITH MY HEART LIKE A STRESS BALL. It grows two sizes at the sight of Eiji’s adorable face and then is crushed by Ash’s pained one. *clutches chest*

WOW YOU ARE SO RUDE MAPPA. SURE, JUST KEEP ADDING NEW PUNCHES TO THE HEART. NOT LIKE I NEED ONE. NOPE.

*whispers* My secret favorite thing is how close Shorter and Eiji have been. I have protective feelings about these two and Shorter has protective feelings for Eiji.

Sure is him. Is it just me or do they all have surprisingly long hair for military people.

Aaaaand Ash brings out a smart phone. Soogle...Soosle? This is... attempt... #5 for cells trying to save the day. (So far, they never have.)

*strangled noises*

Oh Ibe, you’re so soft with Eiji. You still have the mafia after you guys, you should be yoinking Eiji and heading for the nearest international airport. 

Also... y’all aren’t gonna discuss your Visa difficulties?

Trust me, Ash. They all do. Q vQ

Ash, please. Griff would be their age.

Oh gosh, look at their faces. ‘What exactly set him off this time?’ ‘I dunno. It’s like a horse suddenly raging. Maybe a fly flew into his ear.’

Shhhhh, he’s just young. And cranky.

*strangled sobbing*

Excuse me as I interrupt this weekly Nanner Fish Liveblog to cry about the scenery in the next few seconds of footage:

You are such a liar, Ash. You have very particular feelings towards your home.

*cries more at sleeping cuties*

Ash... this feels like such a waste? Someone spent a lot of time brewing that! Couldn’t you have filled empty ones with water??

*cries more at the sky* Clearly what is gonna make me die of dehydration this episode isn’t what I thought it was gonna be. It’s gonna be the backgrounds. 

Eiji... I know nothing about shooting but that looks super precarious. Your center of gravity looks... yeah. Ash looks so judgmental. Q vQ

Alright, Annie Oakley. You missed a shot too. 

Oh, Ibe. Subtly trying to get Eiji away. 

Not subtle enough, though.

*cries both over the words and the detail put into the sky and the sea*

I’ve always found this surprisingly profound, especially since my mother, a naturalized US citizen, has similar opinions about parents in Taiwan coddling their children. (Taiwan has the same age of majority as Japan, 20 years old.)

And Japan’s crime rate is also a lot lower. But Ash is right, Ibe, you aren’t in Japan and you have very dangerous people with very dangerous guns after you all.

Bless their attention to detail. Lookit the truck!

I love how they have Max fixing the truck! Instead of it getting magically fixed, we get a new tidbit about Max! I wonder if he learned this while serving.

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeell...

When Max is the voice of reason, listen.

Yeeees! It’s finally here! Please forgive me as I spam gyazo and take a hundred pictures because I’ve been waiting for this!

*strangled dying manatee noises*

(Shorter, are you trying to steal Ash’s sandwich while you still have yours.)

(Look at that hand. You totally were, weren’t you. You glutton.)

(Oh, my tiny Grinch heart. Look at this smile. It just grew fifteen sizes.)

(*cries forever* Protecting Eiji is like preserving a vision of himself he could never attain. Putting Eiji on a pedestal and keeping him safe and clean and pure, because he wishes he was Eiji. Excuse me as I have painful flashbacks to Tsuki no Ko and Tirt’s love for Seth.)

BLESS THEM. MY HEART. THEY KEPT THESE LINES.

*sings softly* “I will whisper my name to you: Antonio Salieri: patron saint of mediocrities.”

So you’re keeping this bit but not the Visa part? At least Ibe is keeping some of his old manipulative tendencies when it comes to Eiji.

(”It’s the only way to keep that child safe.” Anyone’s Japanese better than mine who can confirm this is indeed Ibe continuing to view Eiji as a child that needs to be sheltered and not just a cultural barrier?)

And straight back into the coddling, right after the profound revelation.

Jimmy, please. 

Tear him a new one, Eiji!

My heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeart. These two lines. Leave to me to die in this small sea of salt and tears.

Something I will always miss is the loss of Eiji’s poor English. Q vQ

Oh boy, get your tissues ready. It’s here.

(Afghanistan is replacing Korea, huh.)

(*dying manatee noises* Someone, save this poor child.)

(FUCK THESE OFFICERS WITH A CIRCULAR SAW. HOW DARE THEY. TO A CHILD. AN ABUSED CHILD. FUCK THEM.)

(*CRIES*)

(Let me spirit him away to a kinder, gentler world. Like GSNK. Or Kimi to Boku where it’s just boys sorting out their feelings.)

(I WILL NEVER FUCKING UNDERSTAND YOUR THOUGHT PROCESS FOR THIS BUT AT LEAST IT FUCKING SAVED ASH. AT LEAST IT SAVED ASH.)

(HE WITHOUT A DOUBT DESERVED WORSE.)

(THIS SICK BASTARD. CMLKDSMFLDSF.)

(I also super hate the way it’s presented in the anime, so take this small manga panel:

LIKE YES, IT MAKES SENSE, WANTING TO PROTECT YOUR SON FROM THE VICIOUS WORDS PEOPLE SAY SO YOU’D SEND HIM TO HIS AUNT’S...

BUT THAT ABSOLUTELY DOES NOT EXPLAIN OR EXCUSE THE SHIT YOU SLING AT HIM NOW, JIM. MY DUDE, YOU HAVE ALREADY LOST ONE SON. TRY TO SAVE WHAT RELATIONSHIP YOU CAN HAVE WITH YOUR LAST ONE.

Shorter. Shorter. He didn’t want anyone to know. He didn’t want anyone to ever know.

*dying manatee noises* Eiji... *strangled noises about leopards and mountains*

Jennifer, you beautiful soul. Why are you with this mess.

No, you listen to Jennifer!

Fuck.

No, Shorter. This is where he’s from. New York is his home.

Yes, good. Thank god.

You’re searching for Ash in the dark. Please take off your shades, Shorter.

Or not.

Shorter, you’re wearing so much more than you were originally in the manga. Q vQ

Look at that. Gorgeous even in the dark. *blows kisses at Mappa*

Good instinct!

Baaaaaaaaaaaad instinct. So bad.

Eiji, no.

He’s got his back pressed against the wall.

Dammit.

Listen to Shorter, Eiji.

They sure fucking did.

It’s so awful that they somehow managed to make this situation even marginally better.

They had ripped off her top in the manga.

It’s entirely possible they did worse. She doesn’t even have her shoes on. D8

Fuck you. Leave Jennifer alone.

*sweats nervously but also blows kisses at Mappa because hnnng I love the way they deal with lighting, lookit the soft glow of the porch lights*

Max has a plan. I love it when Max has plans. Brilliance or hilarity ensues.

JIM’S FACE. Either he just realized his son still loves him or he’s fucking terrified that his son is now in immediate danger. (I think it’s both.)

Oh, Jennifer. You deserve none of this. None of it. Protect her.

Brilliance. That’s what happens today. Brilliance.

FUCKING LISTEN TO SHORTER EIJI.

THIS IS SO MUCH WORSE BECAUSE IN THE MANGA I THOUGHT SHE TRIED TO COVER HIM. BUT THAT ACTUALLY DOESN’T MAKE SENSE SINCE THESE ASSHOLES MAKE IT CLEAR THEY AREN’T TO KILL ASH.

THEY SHOT HER TO MAKE A FUCKING POINT.

JENNIFER.

ASH’S FACE. Nope, this is fine. I was born from water, let me return to the salty depths. 

THERE WAS NO ONE WORD YOU COULD’VE SAID THAT WOULD’VE MADE THIS FUCKING HURT MORE, ASH. *drowns in own tears of feelings*

Don’t fucking see why you’re smiling, asshole.

There, Shorter’s fixed it.

EIJI WHY ARE YOU HERE. SHORTER TOLD YOU TO STAY THERE.

*STRANGLED SOBBING*

YOU SHOULD’VE TREATED HER LIKE A GODDESS, JIM. YOUR LAST WORDS TO HER SHOULDN’T HAVE BEEN THOSE A GIANT TANTRUM THROWING CHILD’S.

Ash’s expressions are going to fucking murder me. 

Sir, why don’t you have a cell phone???? Why aren’t you questioning why none of these people haven’t called yet???? (Well, to be fair, this is a panic situation...)

*sobbing* A father’s love.

And a son’s.

MY HEART. *cries* Why couldn’t you have both talked like this from the beginning?????????????????? JIM, YOU GIANT BABY.

Excuse me. I just need to... cry. Lots.

ASH AND HIS FACE. TELL THE POLICE. THEY ARE THE CULPRITS. MY MURDER.

*whispers* You should’ve kept this line to help explain the robbery. And help fund them in LA.

*weeps*

FUCKING DINO.

SO GORGEOUS. I AM SO UPSET.

HALF-TRUTH. ALSO, PLOOOOOOT.

LEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. NOOOOOOOOOOOO.

FUCKING NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

LEEEEEEEE. FUCK YOOOOOU.

Chinatowns are everywhere. |||orz

Fuuuuuuck. Yut Lung is here.

Shorter, please. Beggars can’t be choosers. (Or, those on the run from the Coriscan Mafia can’t whine when they at least have working transportation.)

*whispers softly to Mappa* Chicago, dearests, not Cicago.

Guess they’re cutting out one of the best scenes if this guy’s already here.

*blows kisses at Mappa* Gorgeous.

Still... where in LA are they supposed to be? I think that’s supposed to be downtown, but I don’t remember any forest-y areas around downtown. (Says someone who may live in LA county but rarely goes west towards downtown. Maybe there are. I tend to go east. :V)

The Great Shorter And Ash Chicken Raid. 

You will not be forgotten.

Oof. Stay hydrated, guys! I’m kinda emotionally drained, so I’m off now. |||orz

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#Fandom: Banana Fish #Banana Fish #Nanner Fish Liveblog #spoilers #tw: spoilers

[imnobodyuknow]

“Well, I guess it’s time to introduce this ‘big reveal,’ or whatever.  Let’s see what it--”

“Oh...”

“Let me see it!  Is it pretty?”

“Oh!”

***Spoilers for Doki Doki Literature Club and Ib Ahead***

Here it is, this blog’s 20th “big reveal”!  I honestly didn’t think I’d ever finish this many drawings, but where there’s a will, there’s a way!

This one is mostly self-explanatory, but I still have a lot to say about it, so just hang on tight...

Unlike my last nine drawings (and most of the rest of them), this one is a bit on the sadder side.  In it, DDLC’s Monika decided to venture outside the realm of her own game and explore a different one -- not ours (thank goodness), but that of a different horror game: Ib.  There she crossed paths with another young, self-righteous antagonist: the painting known as Mary.

Much like in my other crossover drawings, I decided to have these two meet because of how much they share in common, both in their personalities and their experiences.  Both of them, at some point, became self-aware and discovered that the world they lived in was entirely fabricated (as were they), both of them made attempts to change the situation they were “born” into, and, as a result, they each met with very similar fates.

(Artist Unknown)

Now, while I do feel a certain amount of sympathy for both of them, I’m of the opinion that they each got what they ultimately deserved.  And for the record, when it comes to video game villains, Monika is down there with my least favorite, going even lower than Undertale’s Chara and Ace Attorney’s Dahlia Hawthorne -- and bear in mind that I once wrote and sang a hate song about Ms. Hawthorne.  They’re despicable for their own reasons, but at least I didn’t see them messing around with...  Eh, you know what?  I’d better stop myself there before I go on a rant.

Nonetheless, I felt it only fair to include her in my collection of DDLC fan art, along with someone whose situation is practically the same as hers, the only difference being that, rather than escaping from a video game, Mary’s wish is to escape from the “Fabricated World”, a place where she and her fellow artworks live.  In both situations, they felt trapped in some way, and wanted to find some form of escape, no matter what sacrifices had to be made.  Unfortunately, most of those sacrifices were made (or nearly made) by others, but, as I already stated, their plans failed completely in the end.  So now here they are, cursing their fates while holding roses that, in the Fabricated World, represent their hearts.  Incidentally, they’re both fake roses, much like their owners.

Another reason I had for drawing this was to show Monika not wearing her friendly, happy-to-help club president facade.  In the game, the only way we’re shown her true colors is through her words, both when she reveals her true intentions, and during her angry rant once she has them foiled by the player.  I’ve seen a few depictions of her true self in fan art, but I just felt the need to make my own version of it, plus who could resist the urge to have a DDLC character say “join the club”?  I know I’m not the first to come up with that idea, but it’s so fitting that just thinking about it puts a huge grin on my face.

(Man, I can’t get enough of that grin.)

Drawing this picture got me to thinking about how many other fictional villains share a similar backstory: for whatever reason, they're completely unsatisfied with the card they’ve been dealt, whether it’s a king’s brother,

an exiled sea witch,

a (literal) jealous monster,

a young boy with a dream of winning a little league championship,

or Satan himself.

(Source)

It’s common for just about anyone to want something that someone else owns, or just to want something different from what they have, but this temptation is what motivates a lot of the bad guys I’ve seen (and often what makes them bad guys in the first place).  It’s completely understandable to want something more than what you’ve been offered, but it always helps to count your blessings, so I advise you to keep that in mind lest you end up like one of these “poor, unfortunate souls.”

Another strange thing this picture made me realize is how differently I feel about these two antagonists, despite how similar they are.  My dislike of Monika is no secret on this blog, but my attitude toward Mary is so different that I’ve made her the unofficial announcer for this blog...and I’m honestly not sure why that is.  It might just be the fact that Mary’s a young girl (at least in terms of maturity) and at least has some excuse for the evil deeds she does -- she might not even know they’re evil, for that matter.  In Monika’s case, it was pure, unbridled selfishness (and perhaps some loneliness) that fueled her detestable actions.  You’d think a highschooler would know better, but that’s none of my business.

Yet another thing this made me wonder about is whether being a sentient, self-aware fictitious character (like the ones in Wreck-It Ralph, for example) would be better or worse than being a real person.  There’d definitely be some advantages -- gaining attention and fans just by being yourself, knowing exactly what your reason for living is, and not having to worry about job security, just to name a few -- but in my opinion, they’d be far outweighed by the disadvantages.  You’d have a much smaller world to explore, you’d have the same job your entire life, and you’d never know the thrill of discovering for yourself what your purpose in life is.  I don’t know about you, but I think the reality we live in is infinitely more interesting, more enjoyable, and more fulfilling than any game, book, movie, or other fictitious work could ever hope to be.  Plus it’s an experience that’s entirely free!

But if there’s anything I hope you’ll take from this drawing, it’s that the reality we live in is something to be appreciated, and if you’re a human being (and not a bot, in which case you’re not welcome here, so please get out), you’ve been given a great gift by being born into this world.  There might be some of you who'd tell Mary and Monika, “You don’t know how lucky you are.”  But frankly, while our world and reality are far from being perfect, I don’t think it’s too much of a stretch to say they’re beautiful beyond measure.  Human minds and hands can create some amazing things, but when it comes to creating, no one knows beauty like the ultimate Creator Himself.

So in short, real life is something to be coveted -- not killed for, of course, but something of immeasurable value.

One more thing I'd like to mention is the scene for this drawing -- it’s set in one of the hallways of the Fabricated World, in front of one of Guertena’s paintings.

(Bonus points for anyone who can tell me what its name is.)

Anyways, here are the pictures I used as a reference for Mary:

(Artist Unknown)

For Monika, I used her main menu picture, along with one of her “unhappy” sprites:

As Dorothy Parker once said, “Beauty is skin deep, but ugly goes to the bone.”  I don’t know much about her, but she sure knew what she was talking about in that regard.  It’s a sad truth, but it makes me all the more glad there’s such a thing as redemption, both in fiction and in reality.

#ib #mary #doki doki literature club #monika #natsuki #the lion king #scar #the little mermaid #ursula #monsters inc #randall #meet the robinsons #pencil art #colored pencil art #not to get too philosophical or anything

[foxwitchaine]

Please Remember Me: Chapter 5

I'm so sorry...

 "Of?"

 What has happened to you since...

 "..."

 I didn't mean--

 "Please. Just stop."

 ...

 "I haven't had a good night's sleep since I was nine years old. And that was ten years ago"

 ...

 "How did you expect me to react? To find out that all along I've been talking to a painting. A painting in a decade-old gallery of work."

 Ib...

 "And how do you even know my name? I don't remember anything that happened in this Fabricated World."

 Something must've happened to your memory, then.

 "What?"

 It's the only explanation I have. For what has happened.

 "You're not making any sense."

 It's the most sensible answer I can come up with.

 "Wait, you mean--?"

 I do not know myself what has happened.

 "..."

 I only remember what happened here, on this side of the world.

 "So then... You don't remember what's happened to me?"

 We separated when my rose was destroyed.

 "Destroyed?..."

 Yes.

 "I..."

 You do not need to blame yourself.

 "..."

 What has happened has happened. We cannot change it.

 "But... I was so rude..."

 ...

 "How can-- how can you forgive me? When all I did just now was yell and scream?"

 It's to be expected when you encounter something as unfamiliar as this.

 "Point taken."

       Ib lay in the hospital bed, with only the television on a corny soap opera and the heartrate monitor for company. To say that she felt like utter bull was the understatement of the century, if not the millenium. She had collapsed in front of her best friend, who not only had to drive her to the hospital, but was also paying for her hospital stay as well. Out of her own pocket, and with the money that she had earned all by herself. What had she done to deserve a friend like Karen? What had she done other than be an additional load that her friend didn't need?

       "..."

         She could hear the nurses on the other side of the door talking, with someone familiar with her.

         "Yes, she's over here. Allow me, please,"

         The sound of the door unlocking joined the company of the television and the heart monitor.

         "Ib!" exclaimed the voice of her mother. "What happened?!"

         Yep. Go figure that Karen had called her parents after this fainting episode. Even her father, bless his heart, was worried sick.

         "Oh my goodness, Ib," her father exclaimed. "What on earth happened?"

         How could she explain, she wondered. What had happened. That she fainted after wandering off, entered a state of catatonia, and talked to a living painting. Yep. That would go over so well with her parents, who already had enough to deal with courtesy of her own insomnia.

         "Truth be told, I have no idea myself."

         Not entirely true, but it gave her some leeway until she could find a proper explanation.

         Which could possibly be forever.

         "Karen called us as soon as she came here," her mother said.

         "Really, Ib. You're lucky you weren't alone when you passed out," her father added.

         Harsh words, Ib knew, but words she needed to hear at the time being.

         "Where is... Karen?" Ib rasped out.

         "She's downstairs in the lobby," her mother answered. "You scared her quite a bit. And us by extension."

         She shouldn't be surprised. What sane person wouldn't freak out after seeing someone pass out right in front of them. Landing on hard pavement, no less. She was lucky it was smooth flooring and not the rough asphalt of the road. Or the porous concrete of the sidewalk. She was incredibly lucky (or unlucky, however it's viewed), that she had passed out in front of someone with a phone. Insanely lucky it was someone she knew, who knew how to take care of her in the event of such a spell.

         "Hmm...."

         Speaking of spells, what on earth was going on in there? In the gallery?

         Ib pondered while her parents spoke.

         "Once the doctor clears you to go, you are coming straight home. Understood?"

         "Yes, mother..."

         "Good. I won't have you fainting like that again, do you hear?"

         She had to appreciate how much her mother worried about her. While yes, it was annoying at times, everywhere else it had saved her. Like the time she had passed out from exhaustion on the bus to work. Without Karen, only her father was available to call her mother, since by some miracle, her father took the same bus to his own workplace.

         Really. What did she do to deserve such amazing people in her life?

         "How about this?" her father smiled. "Once we're home, I'll make you a nice big pot of chicken soup. No onions, but lots of lettuce. How does that sound?"

         "Sounds great, papa. I'd love some."

         "Good," her father said, while reaching over to ruffle her hair.

         "Be careful, dear. She's still recovering."

         "Yes, dear," her father joked.

       That very night, Ib was wide awake, another insomnia spell working its way into her routine.

         "Oh please no..."

         The voice didn't come tonight, and after her parents left with Karen, Ib felt an immense loneliness swarm over her.

         Just like that time in the gallery.

         "The gallery..."

         What was she expecting to happen once she reached it? That all her problems would magically go away once she figured out their source? No. These idiotic things took time and money to heal. Money, which had become a precious resource since her treatments started. But what could she do to make it go away? Conduct a magical ritual and wish it away? No. Ib knew she had to face the reality. That this insomnia would plague her until her dying breath. Was there really no hope for her at this point?

         You're certainly a sight for sore eyes...

         "!..."

         There! That voice--!

         I'm... I'm not interrupting your sleep, am I?

         What?

         "No.... No you're not...."

         The voice breathed a sigh of relief.

         Oh, thank goodness.... Dear me, I thought you were a goner.

         Ib had to chuckle. Having dealt with insomnia for ten years, it would take more than a fainting spell to take her out for good.

         "Haha..."

         She knew that, but did the voice know that?

         "I can't believe I'm talking to you here... this far away from the gallery..."

         She was already in a hospital. Would it cause more trouble to send her to a hospital designed for mental patients? She had to wonder how many artists were sent there for thinking out of the box. Out of the accepted norm that people love so much. Was this what Guertena thought when he published his artwork?

         I... meant no harm to you. I'm sorry.

         Sorry? For what? From what Ib remembers, after having cooled down, the voice didn't really do anything worth prison time for. In hindsight, Ib had lashed out and swore to never speak again after she was caught. Was it an effect of leaving the Fabricated World?

         "I'd accept your apology, but I'm stuck in the hospital with a minor concussion. I'd like to be fully healthy before I accept any apologies."

         She got the voice to chuckle this time.

         Even after all these years, you still haven't lost that weird sense of humor.

         "It must be a natural thing for me."

         Such is the world of the creatives.

         Creatives... People who operated outside the accepted norm. Who opened eyes and enraged the authorities just for thinking differently from the masses.

         "I never got to ask."

         Yes?

         Ib had to steel herself, despite laying in a hospital bed.

         "Why did you call out to me?"

         The voice paused, thinking?

         "Was I someone special to you? Was I a relative?"

         The voice chose to think for a while before speaking again.

         I... suppose you are special in a way.

         Ib blushed.

         For someone your age, you were quite brave.

         Brave? Surely, he's joking.

         I had lost my rose to a Painting Lady, and you got it back. What's more, you braved many strange things before you met me, even getting my rose back from a Painting Lady.

         With all the praise he was showering her with, Ib was certain her head would inflate.

         But because of her, all that effort was for nothing...

         "... her who?"

         The painting named Mary.

         Mary...

         "I... think I remember her."

         The voice paused.

         "She seemed like us, at first. But then she went crazy after you found out she was a painting."

         Why... Yes, erm--

         Ib smiled.

         "I think I remember now."

         You--you do?!

         "Yes..."

         Memories of their time from the Fabricated World crashed like a tidal wave, each one more precious than the last. But the last one...

         "You... you died in that world..."

         Yes...

         "I...." Ib felt tears beginning to form. "I thought you were sleeping..."

         Oh no, dear. It was far worse than that, I'm afraid.

         Ib felt the hot tears beginning to flow.

         "And when I found you in the gallery, I didn't... recognize you..."

         Shhh....

         The voice, Garry, soothed her.

         It's alright. You didn't know.

         Ib's quiet tears slowly morphed into a sob.

         "How?... It's not right... It's not right.."

         Garry's voice continued to soothe her, until she calmed down.

         It was something neither of us could have seen coming.

         Ib was quiet.

         But for what it's worth, it was worth it seeing you alive.

         "Thank you..."

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Part 2

Part 3

Part 4

Part 5 - you are here

Epilogue

#ib #ib horror rpg #ib game #garry #well this was short

[panatmansam]

Hey Sam, Ibe been in a relationship with a beautiful girl for about 3-4 years now. Recently I feel like im starting to be very critical of our relationship, and it's starting to get a bit rocky between us, 

I always try to maintain a strong you know "well get through it and we'll be better for it" but she just says i don't know or I guess , I just feel like she doesn't care sometimes , she always says she does and like the little kinda actions shows me she loves me but why am I looking for the ways she shows her love and I feel like im being ignored or something , how do I just let her be her and still love her and accept the love that she gives to me instead of me wanting the love that I think I need if that makes sense?

 I can see that alot of this could be caused from me but how do I make that extra effort for her I love her Sam and tbh I kinda wanna marry her but how do I make it work, I've never had good couple to look to, please help Sam?

Hi! Well, what you are going through is normal. It is not at all unusual for loving couples to get kind of blasé about their relationship after a year or two. Believe it or not, that is human nature. 

We feel an initial rush of emotion when we fall in love. This is a powerful attraction and is based on physical attraction and sexual desire called by psychologists eros.  Eros is temporary lasting no more than several months or a year. Later if the love is strong enough it can transform into pragma, the mature love which combines heart and mind.

You must push past these feelings. People are different. She is not placed upon this Earth to do as you demand. Some people need more space, more breathing room. You can’t change her but the two of you can learn to compromise. You can start talking again. You could even renew the spark of eros. You can’t change her but you can change yourself.

Look into couples counseling if that is an option for you.

Many blessings, ☀ Sam ☀

#sam #writing #musing #musings

[hirakdesherrani]

I was going through your blog, and you seem to criticize Shivaay a lot. But you don't seem to criticize Om as much who is no good either. I know Om started out good but after his character was butchered, there is no difference. At least Shivaay has shown a great character progression, and as of now he is the better man and husband. Not to attack you, 'cos I know everyone has their favs, but Omkara has flaws too.

Okay, so this ask has been licking dust in my inbox for weeks now. At the cost of seeming rude, I didn’t answer it ‘cos I just didn’t know what to reply, and tbh, didn’t feel like replying either.

Anyways, I’ll try now.

First things first anon, this is the first time someone has implied that Omkara is a fav of mine, which is farthest from the truth. Most of the times, I’m accused of hating on him ‘cos I’m blind Gauri stan, who’s white-knighting on her behalf (or so ppl believe). Secondly, LMAO anon, if only you had bothered to go back to posts I made last year, you would’ve seen how much I’ve criticized Om, much more than Shivaay, believe me.

Coming to your statements, lets see.

(Disclaimer: I’m in no way comparing abuse and saying who’s the worst among the two. Both are pathetic and don’t deserve the blessed presence of ‘any’ female in their lives, AniRi toh bahut dur ki baat hai.)

For the Shivaay v/s Omkara thing you mentioned:

As a husband, Shivaay >>>> Omkara. No explanations needed. (Post-their resolution of conflicts)

As a man, Omkara >>>> Shivaay, for the simple reason, that when Gauri told Omkara to GTFO, he accepted her decision and left. Unlike Shivaay, who took it upon himself to decide Gauri’s fate, because he thinks that he knows what’s better for Gauri than Gauri herself, which is damn patronizing. That Gauri chose to forgive Om is her prerogative, Shivaay orchestrating the kidnap was wrong. What if Gauri did not want to return to the Oberoi hellhole, then? Would he have kept her in the Oberoi mansion against her will, just to make his brother happy? I found the whole thing hard to digest, it was funny no doubt, but the underlying message was problematic.

As for character progression, well of course Shivaay has shown greater progression, because in the beginning of the show he’s a damn sociopath. Shivaay starts out as this Lucius Malfoy kinda character, who has rules about blood and lineage, who is proud about his ‘Naam, khoonn, khaandaan’ (just like pureblood nonsense) and calls Annika “road trash” (‘Mudbloods’?). Shivaay starts out from the very bottom, so obviously his growth will be greater. Omkara has his flaws, but as a character he was always better than Shivaay. Even in DBO when he was at the very worst of his graph, he still intervened to save a girl’s life, who he judged and hated, because that was the right thing to do. 

Both Shivaay and Omkara were put in the same situation re: Tia and Gauri. Both of them suspected that Tia and Gauri are lying about the pregnancy, and both had just cause to suspect. However, Shivaay never took any interest in Tia’s pregnancy, which made sense, because Tia was trapping him and he knew the child wasn’t his. It was Annika, in fact, who saved Tia from a miscarriage and actually cared for the baby indirectly, when she had all the reason to hate Tia and the child, because Annika is a kind soul.

Compare this to Omkara, who though acted as the judge, jury and executioner and decided that Gauri was not fit to mother that child (asshole!), but still actively cared for the unborn child who he suspected was not his own. We, as an audience, knew that Shivaay is right in his place, and Omkara is wrong in accusing Gauri. But as characters both Shivaay and Omkara were at the same situation, that is, they were unaware of what the other party had in mind.

Another reason why Shivaay’s character progression or redemption, has better sketched out, is because he is acutely aware of all the wrongs he perpetrated against Annika. Each and every instance, from suspecting Annika of selling the video to the media to the Daksh fiasco, every single misunderstanding has been cleared. But Omkara is not even aware of all the wrongs he committed against Gauri. Till date Omkara does not know the whole truth about Kali Thakur. He still only has a vague idea that he misjudged Gauri, that maybe she was forced into the wedding. The fact that Gauri was kept in chains, she was about to be married to three grooms, they were planning to make her their common sex slave for life, all this is still unknown to him. Even the buamaa truth, that Gauri was not lying when Kali captured Buamaa or even the fact that Gauri was not attempting to drown Buamaa in the swimming pool (for which he called the cops); all this is STILL unknown to him. How can he make reparations for everything he did in DBO, when he doesn’t even know the extent of all his sins in DBO?

And again, at the cost of repeating myself, even at his worst, Omkara did not derive any diabolic pleasure in ruining Gauri’s life. Unlike Shivaay, who put Annika in jail just because she refused to apologize for his arrogance. Annika would still be rotting in prison, if Dadi hadn’t bailed her out and Omkara hadn’t knocked some sense into Shivaay. Shivaay repeatedly fucked with Annika’s life and tried to make her miserable only for his ego. Annika was always at Shivaay’s mercy because Shivaay always used his power to abuse Annika.Contrast this to Omkara, Gauri was never at his mercy. Gauri was held hostage by the situation and had to return to the Oberoi mansion to save his dumb ass, but she was never at Omkara’s mercy. He did not make it a hobby to make her life difficult because that gives him sadistic pleasure. Omkara just wanted to get rid of Gauri and throw her out of his life. Which still makes him an asshole, but in all ways better than Shivaay. It’s just that Shivaay appears better than Omkara during DBO and after, because Shivaay was at the highest point in his character arc that time, while Omkara was at the lowest.

Coming to the last thing you mentioned about character flaws in Omkara. Sure, Omkara has a LOT of character flaws, you’re absolutely right there, anon. And those flaws are there even in IB 2016, its just that the audience puts him on a pedestal without analyzing his character properly, which is why the fall in DBO seems much more evident.

His biggest flaw is that he is STUPID. Like all the other problems and minor flaws emerge because of his sheer stupidity. Okay, that came out wrong. Omkara in the beginning of IB, is a Kalidas kind of character, who cuts the branch on which he is sitting. Unfortunately, stupidity is not seen as a character flaw, so most of the audience let it go. No wonder Om gets conned all the time, by Roop bua, Ishaana, Riddhima, Ranveer, etc. 

Because he is stupid, Omkara cannot understand the nuances of human beings. All his associated flaws, be it seeing things in black and white, or truth and lies, is because he cannot see the ‘grey’ or the ‘in-between’. To see and understand the grey, one needs brains and that Omkara does not possess.

Another thing is that most of the fandom thought that Om is more gender-equal than his brothers. But he has always been pretty misogynist from the beginning. 

Omkara put women in boxes. One was the good but victimized women (Box A): Jahnvi, Annika, even Pinky to an extent, who tolerated a lot of BS from their partners. And the other were women like Riddhima, Ishaana, Tia, who lied or used men for their own benefits (Box B). Of course, the worst was Svetty who was the ‘home breaker’ in his eyes. The first time he was confronted with this issue he chose to break up with Riddhima and Shivaay had to intervene and explain him that people are not good or bad, there is also the grey. The funny thing is that Om, who judged women harshly, never held Shivaay to the same standards. If he judged Shivaay in the same way, then he would have to put him in the category of bad people, which he refused to do. Hypocrisy much?

The second time when Omkara faces a similar choice, is when Mallika ran away from her wedding. Omkara categorically says that what Mallika did was wrong, even though he understands what compelled her. Again in that situation its Annika who makes Shivaay see sense, because Annika is an empathetic person. 

The thing is, whenever Om clashes with a ‘bad’ woman a/c to his judgments, he reacts badly. He was about to hit/get violent with both Ishana and Riddhima when he came to know of their betrayal. In both the cases, his brothers intervened and stopped him. Similarly he manhandles Svetty, after the whole engagement fiasco. 

The audience never held him accountable that time, because these women were wrong/used him. But the point is that even if these women were wrong, Omkara was also wrong in misbehaving with them. Manhandling or threatening assault to any woman is never right. 

This flaw comes in sharp focus only when Omkara meets Gauri, because unlike the other women before her Gauri is blameless. 

You mentioned the butchering anon. I know we all talk about how Omkara did a 360 degree in personality in DBO, even I say that. But in all honesty, he wasn’t butchered in DBO. His dark side which was suppressed in IB, came out in DBO. Like I explained before, Omkara was always violent with women who fell in category B. That coupled with his stupidity, which is why everyone cons him, spelled disaster for his equation with Gauri. 

If I have to be critical, Omkara was butchered badly only four times in the show (IB+DBO). When he throws money at Gauri’s face and crashes his car into her shop, when he leaves her to die at Kali Thakur’s hands after Chulbul reveal (which undid the very fact that he saved her from the villagers in similar situations the first time), when he shows complete lack of regret/guilt after Gauri leaves him post-inspiration argument and when he was drinking hot chocolate and going off to sleep after returning from Bareilly (instead of properly angstying and expressing regret in solitude) 

Coming back to the misogynist flaw, Omkara by the end of DBO did not know in which box to put Gauri in: due to all the lies and what he saw in Bareilly, he wanted to put her in Box B, but Gauri also put her life at stake multiple times to save his ass which confused him. On top of that, Gauri is not like Jahnvi or Annika who will stay with him despite all the shit he pulled. Gauri leaves immediately after the inspiration fuck up, which puzzled Omkara because Jahnvi never left despite the shit Tej did or Annika did not leave despite how Shivaay continued to insult her after their forced wedding. Annika in fact asked Omkara and Rudy to forgive Shivaay for the forced wedding BS that he did. [One reason why Omkara and Rudy misbehaved with Gauri, Soumya and Bhavya was because they internalized Shivaay’s behavior, ‘cos they saw that Annika forgave him despite everything, so they never expected these girls to dump their ass.]

I know a lot of people felt Omkara was OOC in many scenes in DBO. But actually on second thoughts he was like that in IB too, its just that in Ishana’s or Riddhima’s cases it was a one-off incident, but Gauri was forced to continue living in his presence to save him from Svetty and Buamaa, which made Om even more suspicious and thus, even more violent/verbally abusive. 

Baar haal, when you say character progression, sure Shivaay has progressed a lot from where he began. Omkara by comparison, had character flaws which he overcame post-break up with Gauri, when he realizes how wrong his stereotyping has been all this while, and how messed up his ideologies are. He learnt his lesson, and tried to implement that too, when he himself resorted to lies (as Dilpreet) to win back Gauri’s forgiveness. Character progression is more marked in Shivaay’s case because he started as a villain and went on to become a decent human being, whereas Omkara was in general a decent guy, with faulty judgments and anger management issues, which he sorta overcame. Of course, his stupidity cannot be cured. If one is stupid, then when is stupid, iska koi iilaaj nahi hai. Which is why he has a smart brother and wife to take care of him. 

I know you were not ‘attacking’ me for my choices, anon, but I thought to make it clear anyways. And hopefully, after this longass reply, nobody sends me an ask about the Obros, because writing about them just shoots my blood pressure.

#anon #answered #omkara singh oberoi #shivaay singh oberoi #ishqbaaaz #ishqbaaz #character flaws and comparison #my stuff

[dailyaudiobible]

09/29/2021 DAB Transcript

Isaiah 57:15-59:21, Philippians 1:1-26, Psalms 71:1-24, Proverbs 24:9-10

Today is the 29th day of September welcome to the Daily Audio Bible I’m Brian it's wonderful to be here with you today as we come together and take the next step forward. Today we’ll be continuing our journey through the book of Isaiah in the Old Testament. In the New Testament we are moving into some new territory, the letter to the Philippians. And we’ll talk about that when we get there. We’re reading from the Christian Standard Bible this week. Isaiah chapter 57 verse 15 through 59 verse 21.

Introduction to the letter to the Philippians:

Okay. As…as I mentioned at the beginning, we’re moving into some new territory here in the New Testament, Paul's letter to the Philippians. And this is one of the letters among biblical scholars and historians that Paul's authorship, just about no one debates about this, holds it as an authentic letter of Paul, not just a letter of…of Pauline school or Pauline theology or thought, but from Paul. And there's little disagreement that he was incarcerated when he wrote this letter. And, so, that would likely date this letter somewhere around 61, the year 61 A.D. and written from Rome while he's awaiting a trial before the Emperor. And, so, we realize reading up prison epistle, a letter written while Paul was in prison, but it's also very early Christian text. So, this letter was written before the Gospels were written – Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John. It was written before the book of Acts was written. So, we have a really early letter here written to the Philippians, those at the church in the city called Philippi, which was a colony of the Roman Empire in the region of Macedonia, which is now the northern part of Greece. And Philippi was a prosperous enough city, but it…it appears that the church was not particularly wealthy. They were…they were poor, but rich in love and rich in their allegiance to Paul. And, so, part of this letter is just gratitude, thank…thanks for that. The church in Philippi knew Paul was in prison so they sent somebody to check on him, someone named Epaphroditus who was a part of the congregation there, went to Rome to find out how Paul was doing, bring him a gift from the congregation to support him to lift his spirits. And you can imagine Paul being in prison in Rome on a capital…like a life-or-death case, would find encouragement and comfort in…in this gesture and in any way he could. And Epaphroditus stayed with Paul. And, so, helped Paul during his incarceration, but he eventually got really sick and just about died. And, so, when Epaphroditus got well enough again Paul wanted to send him back to Philippi along with this letter to the Philippians which talks of his circumstances. And, so, in part just the well-being of Paul, like a missionary update. But there's so much more. Paul's in prison writing language of the joy of our salvation more than is expressed in any of his other letters and perseverance. And this is something that we’re gonna keep seeing all the way to the end of the year, more and more. Perseverance and endurance become such an increasing pervasive disruptive theme because perseverance is the last thing we necessarily want to sign up for. But endurance is critical to the life of faith and actually the human experience. And, so, Paul encourages perseverance, and that we can do all things through Christ who strengthens us, which kinda…I mean the last couple years…I mean I could say even longer than that, but we all know what 2020 was like and very different kind of experience of a year. And we’re trying to move back into whatever normal might be, whatever this new normal is, get back to how things were. But Philippians really speaks to us where we are if we’re looking for it. And, so, we begin. Philippians chapter 1 verses 1 through 26.

Prayer:

Father, we thank You for Your word. We thank You for this new letter to the Philippians that we are just getting into, and we invite You to speak to us from days gone by, into the heart of the matter that is happening even today, which is what Your word does. It reveals to us plenty of things over time, and it always lands where we are. And, so, come Holy Spirit and plant the Scriptures in our lives and our hearts pray. In the name of Jesus, we ask. Amen.

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Hey everybody this is Jonathan from Denver. Speaking in the terms of the story of the prodigal son, this past week I have really been off in the far country. I…I really walked away from God, and I fell into my own desires and my own vices, and I was incredibly selfish and just been kind of digging myself deeper into a hole. Today I woke up and kind of just realized how miserable I am. So, I am trying to get back. I fell behind. I wasn't…I wasn't listening to DAB so now I'm catching up. But I just need prayer, that I would fall back into the arms of Christ and let Him fill me and satisfy me instead of trying to satisfy myself with all the selfish desires. So, if you could all just please be praying I would really appreciate that. I hope you’re doing great day and I love you. Bye.

Hey DAB family I'm a first-time caller. I've been listening to the Daily Audio Bible since January 1st and shout out to Jamie in Illinois for encouraging me to check it out because it has definitely changed my life. To the gentleman who mentioned yesterday that he had prayed and asked God to give him a name, that a lot of people use, handle on here, not his word but my word, anyway that they use that to identify themselves instead of their real names. And, so, thank you for that. I can introduce myself as His Crown of Daisies and I have a prayer request. I have a broken, shattered relationship with my father and stepmother, and they have agreed to see me sometime next month to sit down and talk about the things that happened, the drama that happened, all the things that shattered the relationship and to possibly begin the process of restoring those relationships. I have two sons and they don't know their grandfather, or their step grandmother and I really feel like that needs to be rectified. Boys need a grandpa. The girls do too, I'm not saying they don't. But those…this girl needs her daddy. I don't care how old you get; you still need your dad and I would appreciate your prayers for that. Thank you.

Hi DAB family this is Angie from Eugene OR and today I am calling for prayer request for my daughter Savannah. She has stress related IBS and colitis and terrible stomach problems. But more…worse than that she has anxiety. She's in college. She's 20 years old, she's had a pretty rough time. She lost her dad to pancreatic cancer a year ago. She was very very close to him. She lost me, her mom, to drug addiction from the age of 12 to the age of 20. So, I am now sober two years and have been in contact with her for two years by phone. I moved to the state to be by her once I was able to and things are going great now between us. We are rebuilding our relationship but because of the abandonment from me and then the death of her father this little girl has had to be extra strong, and she has suffered immensely to no fault of her own. However, she is resilient, and she just is an amazingly strong girl. So, she faces a lot of challenges at school and in college. She goes to the University of Idaho, and she has to deal with the peer pressure, the drinking, which she confines in me about. But God has brought me out of addiction and he has restored a relationship with me and her which I never believed was even impossible. I never even believed I could be where I am today. So, anyways I’m praying for her stress, I’m praying for her anxiety, I'm praying for her stomach pain. I'm about to run out of time. I love you guys. Thank you, Brian and God bless everybody. Amen. Thank…

Good morning this is Longing to be God's Delight in Pennsylvania. I'm calling in this morning for Maggie Mae who I heard a few days ago in utter despair over the illness of…it sounded like all of her family, there were children and grandchildren, and her voice was just so…so torn and with pain and…and fear and not knowing where to turn. It just broke my heart. I'm also praying for Lazarus who called in this morning. I’ve been praying for him for who was in desperate need of shoulder surgery and extreme financial straits, about to lose his apartment and in terrible pain. Lord, we just don't know where to turn. So, his advice is wise, to turn to Jesus. I want to pray from Psalm 103. Lord, we bless You, we bless You from the depths of our souls and inner being. Help us Lord not to forget Your benefits, to remember that You do forgive us. You have…have died, You sent Jesus to die for us and You do heal our diseases and redeem us from the pit. You crown us with love and mercy and satisfy us with good. I pray for Maggie Mae and her attire family and for Lazarus and for all of us that You would lift them up…lift us up, heal us, renew our Youth like the eagles. Work righteousness in us. Help us Holy Spirit to keep in Your loving arms. I pray this in Jesus’ name. Amen.

Hi DAB this is Renee __ AKA a Kathleen in Illinois and I'm listening on the 27th today on September 27th and I heard Lazarus call in and about being in constant pain and he talked about having to take Percocet every day. That's what I…my mom had had to take that every day because of just chronic pain that she had. And…and I know it's an incredibly strong drug. And I was thinking…and you were saying you're still having pain even despite that. And, so, I just wanted you to know that I'm lifting you up in prayer. In fact, let's just pray Lord right now. Lord Jesus, I wanna lift up Lazarus to you in this chronic pain that he is experiencing and has been experiencing for quite some time. And I pray that…I just pray for healing. I pray for healing for him, just complete healing. I pray that his entire physical body would be renewed, would be raised from the…the death that it is now in, the sickness, the death, that it would be raised just like his namesake Lazarus. I pray this in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.

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