#ripped away for the second time

[its-alittleobssessed]

Orpheus and Eurydice but it's Dean and Castiel coming out of the empty. Jesus Christ. JESUS. is there a fic like that?

Like imagine Dean, smack dab in the middle of nothing. Pitch black for miles and miles and the empty speaks to him, says, "I'll give him back on one condition."

And Dean nodding, desperate to it, "Anything."

And the empty smiles, though it doesn't have a face or body or soul, Dean can hear it smile, can feel it in the molecules around him, when it says, "Do not look back."

There's a small light at the end of nothing, so miniscule it looks like a grain of rice. The empty points it out, commands, "Go."

And Dean doesn't move. The grain of rice is so small and it is so quiet around him. "Go?"

"Yes, go."

The empty is nothing. It is nothing in nothing. A black hole sucking up another black hole—that is what the empty is. Dean’s inside it, inside the hole inside another hole, looking for a guy who shines brighter than the sun on a cloudless day. 

It’s so fucking quiet. Dean shakes his head, “I don’t—”

“You don’t trust that I’ve placed him behind you?” The empty snarls, groans, and festers, “You don’t trust that he’ll follow you?”

The first step he takes is heavy. It weighs and echoes across the great expanse of hollowness. It is not followed by another immediate step. He is the only thing breathing, the only noise rising, and he asks, because he has to know, “Cas?”

There is no reply. 

“He’s behind you.” The empty assures. There’s a tilt to its voice like it might be lying. Or maybe it’s amused. Dean can’t tell, his heart’s beating too loudly in his ears to tell the difference. 

The second, third, and fourth steps are just as earth quaking as the first. He walks—drags his feet below him, closer to the blinding light leading them home, still so far away, still the size of a mere flame. 

“It was really fucked up. What you did.” Dean says, because he can’t look, and he can’t hear, but he can still talk. “What kind of an asshole does that? What kind of a—” He swallows, keeps a steady rhythm foot after foot, “You said. What you said. Why’d you say it?”

He’d practiced this in his room a few times. What he’d say if he ever saw Cas again. At least then, the walls would hum back. They'd stare back and hold him up if he couldn’t keep his knees from buckling. But here, in this vacuum, what is there to rely on? 

“Thought I was dyin’. ” Dean confesses, the light has turned into the size of a dime, and he keeps staring it down, determined, “Watchin’ you get taken, I mean. Felt like—felt like you took my heart with you down here, y’know?” 

There aren’t any footsteps behind him. There’s no flutter of wings or exhale or exasperated sigh. He’s—he feels alone. 

“Couldn’t go on without you, man. S’why I’m here.” Why is it so fucking quiet? Dean wasn’t this quiet when Cas said his piece. He’d been frozen, maybe, but not quiet. Never quiet. “I—I need you to be there. I can’t—don’t know how I’m supposed to go on if you aren't there.”

The empty’s stopped replying, too. The rice turned into dime and now it’s the size of a baseball and it’s still so fucking. Hollow. And the empty likes to play games doesn’t it? Likes to trick poor schmucks like Dean who are desperate hopeful bastards. 

With Cas in the room, there’d be electricity around them. A spark of something. But now, Jesus, now, there isn’t—the air’s so fucking stiff and horrible. 

Dean reaches an arm back, still walking, “Gimme your hand.” 

No one touches him.

“Empty didn’t say nothin’ about skin on skin, man. C’mon.” His steps stutter and his hand shakes, “C’mon.”

The light is the size of a window. He’s getting closer—no, no, no they’re getting closer. Both of them. ‘Cause Cas is there. He’s right there. He’s—

“I just wanna know you’re okay.” He looks at the ground, tries to cheat, tries to find another set of feet with his peripheral vision. “M’not leavin’ without you, you dick. So you better—you better gimme a fuckn’ sign or I’ll stay here. Forever if I gotta.”

His voice doesn’t even bounce off the fucking walls. There are no walls. Or feet or breaths or hands touching his own. There is no answer to any of his questions. And he stretches his arm as far as it can go behind him, as far as his broken muscles can, he begs, “Please, Cas.”

The light has grown to the size of a door and it’s too quiet. Too vacant and blank. So unlike Cas at the end of everything. And Dean can’t leave—he can’t just—he came here for someone and if he’s not—if this is a trick then, then—

“Please.” 

One more step. That’s all he needs. He’s one step away, just one step, but Cas isn’t answering—he isn’t answering or touching Dean’s hand and the empty lies.

It’s too quiet, the empty lies, and Dean can’t leave without him, he can’t, he can’t, he can’t, and the door is right there, it’s right there but Dean can’t leave, he can’t leave ‘cause Cas isn’t behind him, he was never behind him, and he turns, oh God, Dean turns around and—

Cas smiles, that soft deep smile of his that edges on a little sad, he tilts his head, so loving and forgiving, “I love you too.”

And then he’s gone. Ripped away one more time.

#and then he's gone #ripped away for the second time #this got away from me... #This was not meant to be a fic. #I was actually gonna ask for fic recomendations lmao #dean winchester #destiel #supernatural #ao3 #fanfiction #spn #fanfic #castiel #deancas #writing #oh well #alittleobssessed fic #myfic

[thatskindarough]

Hey, Izzy

#izzy hands #Lucius spriggs #sprizzy #ofmd fanart #ofmd #art #izzyhandsfanart #iz got rizzed up #he may look unamused but his heart is POUNDING #he’s seconds away from imploding from Lucius’s raw seductive energy #giving Izzy ripped jeans was the best decision I ever made #Lucius wears a cropped red/pink jacket in all modern AU drawings (except in his depressed/villian arc #these are my season 2 goals #just let frenchie invent time travel and have one modern AU episode #my art

[mettywiththenotes]

I like to imagine Kudou "Got together with Yoichi in less than 2 months" is infuriated with Izuku "Miscommunication with Kacchan for 10+ years" Midoriya

He is tapping his foot waiting for those kids to talk and kiss already

#he wasn't even there all those years but he sees the way izuku acts around bakugou and wants to rip his hair out #kudou: back in my day we didn't beat around the bush like this. we didn't have time to. #kudou: we just confessed and kissed because the world was in chaos and you didn't know whether it would be your last day on earth or not! #izuku looking at yoichi: First... please help #it would probably be like that #or maybe #izuku: its hard to explain but me and kacchan... we've only just started talking normally again and i can't mess that up #izuku annoyed: it's a lot more complicated than what you think it is #smthg like that idk lol #i feel like izuku would overthink whether the crush is mutual or not because of their history #and kudou's 2 seconds away from grabbing him by the shirt (?) and telling him to confess already #for their (the vestiges) sakes #bnha #bnha manga spoilers #kudoichi #bakudeku #mettys posts #metty posts #bnha spoilers #kudou #izuku midoriya

[kit-kat-jo]

WHAT THE FUCCCKKK WHY DID IT END LIKE THAT??? 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

#…..yeah u alrwady know whats up #the amazing digital circus #spoilers in the next tags now ofc #ragatha…….. my dear ragatha trying her absolute fucking hardest to cheer pomni up #we all saw it coming a mile away bless her soul #and the entire scene under the map #pomni immediately latching onto gummy goo’s misery and being so soft and comforting made me want to THROW UP AND BAWL MY EYES OUT #bc….. rags doesnt know that if she just stopped trying to act overly positive and push everything that happened to her aside #and instead was real with her and tried to find ways they felt similar about being trapped #she would have been so much more successful in helping her like she wanted #FUUUCKKK!!!!!!!! #and the FUCKING FUNERAL FOR KAUFMO????? #jaw dropped when zooble came in saying that #that whole fucking end scene makes me want to throw up and BAWL #THE HANDS REACHING OUT TO POMNI AND CATCHING HER #OUGHDHFHFHHHH #the ragapom enjoyers have been fed. #btw #i have been fed #rewatching throwing up shitting and crying #two big rips to gummy goo and gangles happy mask only being on for 4 minutes and 7 seconds (yeah i checked) #anyway ragatha and pomnis voices are so nice inlove women #and jax showing an emotion for a 000000.00001th of a frame #the jax fans are gonna go crazy over that i can tell #yall can have him but also that facial expression couldve been abt queenie just my hunch tho #SPEAKING OF kinger having a split second of clarity talkin to rags in that scene? #he was absolutely fatherly to her when she first appeared #wish we could see this so bad #time to be normal now alr buhbye #slaps a lesbian sticker on ragatha for doing like 4 finger guns and flirting with the queen

[crimsonfeatheredraven]

You know what? I think Jason should be a bit more unhinged about his death. I'm not talking about death jokes or "did you die?" comments or even the angst filled moments that we've been getting, which I respect in their own right.... but I'm thinking more along the lines of him carrying dirt from his grave around in a little pendant that he wears around his neck 90% of the time... using his coffin as a table or bookshelf...having a stain glass window in his actual apartment that has a depiction of the angel that stands over his grave...

I wish he would be allowed to actually enjoy his second life more...but I also think it be interesting to see him have a more macabre fascination with his death without linking it to Bruce...

#jason todd #this may be a cold take #but I just can't help but to wonder #yknow? #what if hecomes to look wistfully on his death while also having it be one of the most traumatic defining moments of his life #what if he has claustrophobia and hates the smell of smoke #but then looks at flowers in the park and distantly wonder how it would feel to be underneath them #what if there's anger and fear and sadness and wistfulness when he thinks about waking up in that coffin #what if; for a few moments; his death wasn't about how he 'failed' Bruce #but how he had been betrayed and beaten and suffocated #right before experiencing actual peace for the second or third time in his life #only to have even that ripped away from him #or maybe I'm just trying to make a puddle into a pool.

[sassmill]

In Act 2 of Lempicka when Tamara and Rafaela enter Le Monocle for the first time they look around at all the women together and Rafaela says “a room full of nothing but US” and Tamara says “let’s never leave” and guys I just went to a lesbian bar for the first time (okay it’s actually a deli but they turn it into a lesbian bar at night) and GUYS? That is the safest I have ever felt out drinking and dancing and I felt so natural and I was surrounded by other queer women and that’s. That’s the first actual queer space I’ve been to in YEARS and especially post-pandemic. And I’m feeling such an overwhelming mix of emotions right now because I didn’t realize how isolated I felt from the queer community in my day to day life (ie not online). I just. God.

Dedicated queer spaces are so important. Lesbian bars are so important. This is the only one I’ve been to but I’m VERY aware that these days there are fewer and fewer of them but I just. I didn’t know how badly this kind of place and experience and connection to community was missing from my life until I suddenly had it tonight.

#also within ten minutes of walking in a woman came over to ask me about my Lempicka tattoo #rip lempicka gone too soon #honestly I don’t think I would’ve agreed to go out tonight if it weren’t for the amount of reflection and reckoning I’ve been doing #since seeing lempicka for the second time #I wouldn’t have been so gutted about its closing if it hadn’t made me feel so SEEN and UNDERSTOOD #and the scene at le monocle is like a microcosm of that within the show #with all of the women approaching Tamara about how her art #her paintings of women #make them feel seen #like that is that show and that was this night for me #thinking about how repressed and isolated I really am in my personal life #and how quickly a show like Lempicka gets taken away from us #it really made me think like ‘shit.’ #if I don’t find a way to connect and engage with the queer community it is entirely possible that something awful will happen #and I’ll never have the chance to #like I need to just fucking live and find it instead of staying at home and wondering #I am very much an introvert #and I am very much not one for going clubbing #not that this was a club per se #but it’s the kind of thing where every once in awhile I know I need to push myself #I need to make myself go out #because when I do I have moments like this #lempicka #lempicka musical #lempicka broadway #tamara de lempicka

[albino-parakeet]

Reading the translation of HGSN 26-1.

And getting to the last few lines said by 'Hikaru' and just being hit with KH thoughts.

'Hikaru' or Yoshiki (probably both tbh) is gonna be like "Guess my Summer Vacation is over" by the end of this.

#the summer hikaru died #hgsn spoilers #The fact this isn't the first time lol #Idk whose who more so. #*Sits 'Hikaru' and Yoshiki with Roxas and Xion* #There's something here and it's definitely memories and maybe the yearning of wanting friendships/companionship #Just to feel human in environments where you're an outcast #Only for it to be ripped away lol. #Idk I'm tired but my KH and HGSN sections connected for a second #i'm just rambling #'Hikaru': it would be nice to see the beach at least once. #Me: Oh no... that didn't end well for the last band of friends I knew.

[therevengeoffrankenstein]

x. average sci-fi milf

#he's so star wars imperial. so star trek starfleet command uniform. to me. #myevilposts #pete wentz #he just looks like he's five seconds away from giving a monologue made up of mostly dumb sci-fi jargon for me to spend #five hours at least dissecting relative to the rest of the then lore vs current lore/the recontextualized emotion behind his character #that wasn't established for at least another decade. tbh! #or rip this tunic off to reveal a white tank top underneath and go crawling through a fucked up insane looking #computer room looking ass engine room on the space ship he was stationed as second or third command on. tbh. #in an effort to save his co-workers/co-habitants/friends/family/humanity itself from the ship going down by sabotage and #he winds up having to dig deep into his psyche and confront some hard truths about himself and the horrors #of capitalism before whipping out a blaster and shooting up the shape shifting monster that was hiding itself as a crate in the corner. #the monster shape shifts into his dead/ex lover/friend and begs for mercy as it begins bleeding out. pete bites back tears #and gives a one-liner worthy of arnold. like 'you're appealing to emotions that i simply do not have.' single tear rolls down his cheek #as he fires a second shot at the monster killing it for good this time. it changes back to its normal form that is like some #weird blue tentacle puppet monster. pete wipes sweat off his forehead and shrugs his tunic back on as a kind of cape and #walks off. credits roll as he returns to command center and takes his rightful spot as captain because like only a couple/maybe none #of the other people lived. #pete probably being so hyped to be in a weird sci-fi thing vs his acting skills. fight!

[wishchthumblr]

on todays episode of "mental health issues that could easily be solved by one single thing that i dont have", GET A MICROWAVE!!!

i just know SO many of my eating related issues (not all obviously but a LOT of them) would be solved if this house just had a goddamn microwave

today i ate like... 1/4th of those small frozen pizzas, 1/3rd of a grilled cheese, and 1/3rd bowl of macaroni and meatballs. and yall wanna know why i didnt eat the whole thing of any of them? its cause my stupid adhd ass took too long to eat and the food got cold. and then i Cannot Eat That anymore. so even though i was still hungry i didnt eat the rest of it and just went back to rotting on youtube shorts and being too hungry to do anything and feeling dumb and unproductive and being guilty of making food that i dont eat. just... feeling like a big ol' waste

but the thing is, if i just

✨owned a microwave✨

i could just reheat the motherfucking food and still eat it and not feel like ive wasted that food. ((because since that food is wasted i feel guilty about making it, so i dont make any more food until next meal time, but then i didnt finish that either cause im stupid and eat too slow.))

but we dont have a microwave. only an oven. and yeah maybe i couldve reheated the 3/4th pizza or the grilled cheese in the oven, but then again the oven uses a lot of electricity. and my mom is always complaining that i turn the oven on, forget that its on for a while, and that im wasting electricity. and i was too tired and hungry to deal with that possibility. plus with the oven theres a chance i forget it too long or have it too hot and burn the food and that would just make me feel worse

but we dont have a microwave, because my mom thinks having a microwave leads to "eating more unhealthy foods that you just heat up" instead of "real food". so i didnt reheat any of my food. so i didnt eat it. it got to the point where it got cold and gross so i just threw it in the trash and hope my mom or grandma doesnt notice.

but if i had a microwave, i couldve reheated that food. and i couldve eaten it. ((and yeah, maybe i wouldnt have ate the whole thing, but maybe half at least? that counts right? well it dont really matter if it counts or not cause it didnt happen.))

and then maybe i wouldnt have been feeling like im gonna faint the whole day and maybe i wouldve gotten literally anything done instead of just scrolling on pinterest and youtube shorts for hours and feeling worthless. and maybe if i ate i wouldnt have hurt myself today

but nope. no microwave. it leads to "unhealthy" habits. i guess not eating enough to count as even ONE full meal is healthier since its not "microwave food"

thanks mom

#tw eating issues #tw self harm #btw to my irl friends. if you see this no you did not #sorry honey if you see this. cause i know you like my mom and think shes really nice #which she is!! most of the time aha #the hurting myself happened bc i usually have sprinkled cheese on my macaroni and meatballs #but i used all the cheese in the sandwich that i binned #which made me feel like such a fucking idiot and a waste #so i started crying #and i took the metal lid from the boiling macaroni pot and pressed it to me leg for like 10 seconds straight #fun fact: im really good at muffling any sound when im in pain. haha #it didnt feel like enough though. my knife drawer had stuff infront of it but theres a loose screw on my table #so i ripped that across my skin a couple times #some blood came out but not “enough” pain #so then i had the very strong urge to hurt MORE #and intrusively imagined what id be like to take a knife and drive it into my stomach #which was a little shocking cause i havent had THAT thought in a while #AND THEN i remembered i have my swedish final on monday and i have to make a speech and i havent even chosen a topic yet #and that ill have to meet the swedish teacher that is the reason for the only times i have ever cried or cut at school #and then i had another like... daydream hallucination thing about telling my asshole swedish teacher #that the reason i dont have a speech is cause i realised id see him on monday and wanted to kms :3 #kinda still feel like cutting and i scratched myself with the sharp screw a bit more but at least venting about this helped a little #yall if i look my teacher in the eyes and tell him he makes me want to kms and that his behavior and attitude HAS made me cut myself #and that i pray to god he treats his own children better than he treats his students #think hed let me skip the test? yes or no? #god i feel so dizzy rn #but i dont wanna make more food and have to throw it away. i wish we had snacks in this house #wish’s whispers #personal vent #this was a lot of tags aha

[anotherpapercut]

when I was in 8th grade I had the same teacher for physics and geometry and he was like one of those dudes who always wanted to be one of the cool kids but never was so now he got to be the cool teacher that all the cool kids loved so he would like straight up bully the weird kids (me and my friends lol ✌️) and I thought it was wack as hell that a grown ass man was calling my friend, a 13 year old girl, stupid in front of the whole class for asking a fucking question so I constantly told him to back off and would get in full on screaming matches with the man about why he was not allowed to treat us like that (at one point I basically told him that if he ever made my friend cry again I would not rest until his teaching license was revoked lol) and it got to the point where he was like. actually for real beefing with me during class and in the hallways when he saw me and sometimes after school

anyway I just wanna say first of all fuck you Mr. Glasson, second of all what kind of like 28 y/o man has a fr beef with a fucking 13 year old. I literally wore a cloak to school. he was having beef with a child with pink hair, in a cloak. can you fucking imagine jsbdksbdndmdbnd

#one time i was early for class and i was in like the advanced program so most of us had the majority of our core clases together #so we were all talking abt the history honework due later today and i told my friend that i had made drawings for my answers #and showed her and my other friends and then my other classmates wanted to see so they were like passing it around #then like literally the second the bell rang‚ right as it was being handed back to me to be put away‚ he snatched it out of my fucking hand #and ripped part of it and crumpled it up and threw it in the fucking trash! #and fucking said 'class has started no other work is allowed' #which was bullshit because he used to help the jocky kids with their fucking other classes homework during class so fuck him #anyway i was really upset because i had worked really hard on it and i was afraid i would get a 0 on the assignment #then after class this kid that was one of the cool kids who had like never talked to me in any sort of kind way before #walked up to me and gave me the assignment back #he had dug it out of the trash (glasson actually made sure to put it under food that was in there :)) #and hed wiped it off and smoothed it out and taped it back together #and he couldnt really meet my eyes but as he handed it to me he said 'im sorry. that was really messed up. you didnt deserve that' and left #it still stands out to me as an unbelievably kind gesture #shout out to horned (his last name) #oh and another time id finished literally all my class work and my homework and id helped my friend finish hers #and there was like 20 minutes of class left to i decided to practice my circular gallifreyan and the mother fucker did the exact same thing #bitch what did you want me to do? i completed my work and then did your fucking job for you and helped my friends #should i have stared at a wall???? #FUCK you mr glasson i hope ur wife left u #also i stole his personal copy of his favorite book AND a textbook AND a graphing calculator #bc he told us once he had to pay for them out of his own pocket and they were really expensive ❤️ #i also did manage to kick him in the shin once and stomp on his foot another time without getting in trouble #amd i always wondered why he didnt have me suspended #but now im p sure it was to cover his own ass because he had 2 classes of witnesses who'd seen him say nasty shit to me #as well as an entire hallway of teachers who once heard us fucking screaming at each other #that was the time i threatened to get his license revoked ❤️❤️

[doctorwormcore]

not me being like 2 days after my period.......and immediately having two hs boils show up on my tit. bOOOOOO

#kass.txt #hidradenitis suppurativa #she aLWAYS shows up after a period ;-; so does the one on my clam that LOVES popping back up and the cystic acne on my chin.......bitch #in between that and heat and sweating causing my scalp and ear psoriasis to flare.....girlies its not a good skin time #anyway....go away please??? #ive learnt my lesson tho. no more pimple patches on the hs boils bc i ripped the one i had last month straight out by accident and it was s #painful it refilled and there was bLOOD everywhere and ugh then the refill was like all blood #and it just HURT hey #i have thinnish skin it tears easy....except where psoriasis is lmaoooooooo she plaquey #also i just had a 'not period' which is were i have all the cramps hormone drops all the lovely shit........but no bleeding #my doc reckons my endometrium isnt building up enough so no blood or tissue. #tbh its been doing this since the second time i had a decidual cast #period mention

[tamagotchikgs]

last post ended up deleting my tags so im continuing them here

#but. #even after all the time i had aparti still went back at 16 #i traveled across the country just to see her again #and it fucking sucked #she ripped that wound right back open #which . felt so weird because she WANTED me to come #she made all the plans #honestly the train trip there was nice #i got to experience a lot of cool things #but the second i got there. it was . one of the worst times of my life #just nonstop #and now ive finally been away for awhile again #but i still miss her #& i dont know why #but it also doesnt help the only gf i have ever had did the same type of thing LMAO//.... i .. i just cannot win #maybe it's just my roll #say all these nice things n then immediately flip #she would make me hang out w her friends n talk me up n then. cheat on me with them with me there #& then get upset when i cried or tried to break up w her LMAO... #like. she wasnt poly or anything she was actually against it #but the worst part is how openly & loudly she'd love me right before it. so now i never know who is telling the truth. i never feel safe #but anyway. again. i stayed #over n over again id try to break up w her but then i loved her & so when she got upset n threaten to kms id flip n stay #n she'd do it again #until eventually she broke up w me n left me so fuckd up im not gonna lie JHVAJH #she still tried to stay friends after that n i tried #but then i started sobbing mid card game & it was very embarrassing top 10 worst things i have done #but i just. all i want is to be a good person. i want to be someone good & loving but i feel like im such a jealous monster #even if i dont let myself show it n try to ignore it bc i dont want to hurt anyone or be this awful it;s still here. just. permeating. #what if i feel too much what if ill never know when someone is genuine what if im just an evil obsessive freak n everyone i love hates me

[davidtennantpussytulpa]

i despise the stereotype that teenagers and young adults are egregiously involved in their phones not because i dont think they arent but because middle aged people are a million times worse

#like. yes we all have phone addictions it comes with the territory of being a human being at this time in history #but for my parents to say shit like me and my brother are always on our phones when we actually put them down during dinners out and when #watching something together #my parents cannot go a fucking SECOND without being on fucking wordscapes or ig reels #like. how are we watching the handmaids tale rn and she is being ripped away from her child after finally seeing her #and while im tearing up you two are blank faced staring at your phones playing FUCKING WORDSCAPES!!!!!!!! #like suddenly im 85 years old i dont think anyone should have a phone its an evil beast turning you into a zombie

[givemewallywestorgivemedeath]

I wanna personally apologize to the many many many people who have asked me things recently that I have not answered.... I have... so many exams.... and everything hurts....

Brain has an out of service sign on it at the moment. Please return in 8-9 business days.

#fumking dying atm jfc #gaAHGGH #whoever invented back to back exams should be burned alive i think #you put your 100% into one exam and are sleep deprived and dying #and then you wake up the next morning feeling like death with like... an academic hangover worse than any hangover youve ever had before #and then... you have to go write... another exam... #worth like 40% of your grade #yeah yeah yeah yeah chiiiiiill. that is definitely a great way of showing that i know thr material. #take what I can write in 4 hrs in a high pressure situation while im two seconds away from death #thats totally gonna represent my understanding of the content #motherfuckers of court: i have SIX exams #back to back to back #literally no breaks #AND TWO ASSIGNMENTS DUE AT THE SAME TIME #WHO THE FUCK DECIDED THAT #anyway im fucking dead rip 🙏👍👌✌️🤘 #on that note i WILL be unhinged for the next week because im running on like 2 hrs of sleep every night and way too much fucking redbull #and im stressed tf out #so maybe block me for a week or two #im serious i am already insane and ive done 10% of it. for your own sanity leave. im either not gonna exist for two weeks #or everyone is going to be ridiculously aware of my lack of sanity

[m00ngbin]

Uh warning this whole thing is me complaining about my bones and pain and stuff so if you're sick of hearing about that you should probably ignore this

Whatever's wrong with my knee spread to my hip so I think that maybe I WILL be needing a cane or something soon and it's not just a joke I was making cause I had to keep sitting down in random places

Joke might be the wrong word because it wasn't really a joke and it wasn't funny, I was just trying to be lighthearted and it didn't seem like it was really happening or that it was probable

#sorry if we're ever in a public place and i suddenly make us stop so i can sit down for a few seconds #its not because im lazy or im trying to be annoying i swear #something ive been thinking about is disability #i don't think im disabled because i can still get around and do things but sometimes it is a little difficult and im worried that #in the future I'll have a really hard time walking without pain and ill have to depend on someone more than i already do #im already going to need to live with someone for the rest of my life anyway because of mental health stuff and i really dont want to have #to give up what freedom i have left #i read somewhere that disability forces you to rely on people and it takes away your independence and totally overhauls your life #and that disability really destroys your walls surrounding asking others for help/support #being independent and being self sufficient #i pride myself on my independence and self sufficiency and seeing that slowly start trickling away while theres nothing i can do about it #and nobody knows what to do to stop it is really painful #maybe it wont get so bad that ill be fully reliant but the possibility is there and not knowing is really scary #my choice and my autonomy are being ripped away and it not a person thats doing it its my own body #im not in control of my own body anymore #maybe im being dramatic but it really doesnt feel like it #because i am slowly watching my joints get worse and i am completely helpless. i cant do anything. im watching whatever this is spread and #not a single person can tell me what it is or why its happening

[phoenixcatch7]

It's so funny how when it's just the Chain, people discuss and compare and characterise each Link as the sensible one, the calm one, the tired one, the 'I mean he could mess you up but he doesn't really want to', there's multiple polite boys. There's one or two 'feral' ones, not naming names. Half of them are considered the responsible ones mothering the others.

But take ANY Link and put them in literally any other context and they Will Be the most feral person around. Hands down.

#Brought to you by the amount of loz crossovers I've been reading #LU fandom: time is tired and experienced and on the way to a stable life #Every crossover: time is three seconds away from exploding his enemies at any given time and WILL cut your hamstrings when threatened #LU: Twilight is a good and responsible older brother who worries constantly about the people around him #Every crossover: twilight can and will rip out a monsters throat with his teeth in human form and not even think twice. #He can smell what you ate for breakfast two days ago and will not hesitate to use it against you #It's so funny #LU really said 'everyone compiled their brain cells and gave them to four and time #They do not have enough braincells to share #linkeduniverse #linked universe #legend of zelda #loz #They're all feral