#reminder that i wrote a thing

[uncanny-tranny]

The thing that gets me about history and humanity is that you never know what is immortalized, and the things that will be immortalized are things you would never think.

I saw a person sharing a new tattoo, and it was one of Onfim's drawings. A boy who lived so long ago he is barely a blip now, but his drawings meant so much to people that somebody is now permanently marked in their skin with one of those drawings. Do you ever look at the things you make and just sit there and wonder if this is the thing that future people look at? Do you ever look at your art, your writing, your schoolwork, or anything that is yours and just wonder who will find it, who will fall in love with a piece of your humanity and become overwhelmed with emotion over? It's not unlikely. It's not totally unlikely that somebody will find a piece of you in the distant future and devoid of any other context of who you were will still love you because you were here. You were here, and you are still here, even hundreds or thousands of years later. Treat yourself with the same love that so many have for dear Onfim.

#positivity #gentle reminders #if anybody has ancient children's drawings beside onfim let me know they melt my heart #i have always wanted a tattoo of that kind of thing too and i want ideas #see if archeologists dig me up or whomever else they won't find significant tattoos or other things. they will see i have loss.jpeg on me #and i think that's just as important. these people must know that people are silly and weird and don't make sense and that's IMPORTANT #i'm just. so obsessed with this because it's instantly humanizing #what little child hasn't drawn humans with twelve fingers per hand #or those kids drawings where it's only a torso/head conglomerate with stick legs and hands #i just really lived seeing how their tattoo turned out because i wasn't sure if it would look good in ink and skin #i feel the same way about archiving the internet. i was looking for the written crochet pattern for something #and the person who wrote and created it passed away and their blog has been scrubbed #their blog only exists on the archives. their pattern is only accessible on youtube because somebody made a video tutorial with the pattern #it's an eerie feeling. they've been gone for two years but their blog has been tethered by the wayback machine

[xiaq]

Publishing is weird. Especially when you're used to fic. Because you write this thing. And then a year later you cut it in half and edit it for publication. And then a year after that, the first part comes out. And then a year after that the second part comes out. And you finally decide to sit down and read both of them through after a bit of distance except then you're immediately going "look at this glaring plothole, why did you use so many en dashes, stop saying the word 'like,'" except, unlike Ao3 where you can just go...make adjustments as needed, you're stuck with everyone seeing your writing's flaws.

And now I'm being overly critical about the things I'm currently writing because god forbid I'm making mistakes (not recognizing them) that I will someday kick myself for once I have further matured as a writer.

I guess the good news is that I'm writing at all? But that bad news is I'm a neurotic mess.

#things to talk to my therapist about #lol #author things #this morning i wrote 1k words of fic and 2k words of original fiction #so progress is progress #i just wish i was less of a basketcase about the original fiction #writing is supposed to be fun #i remind myself darkly

[sonicposting]

i'm always here

#sonic the hedgehog #shadow the hedgehog #sonadow #super sonic #super shadow #dreamy doodles #traditional art #alcohol markers #ik the song is moreso about addiction BUT i was brainrotting over sa2 and its ending #and went 'oh this reminds me of the thing i wrote recently' #bc of some lyrics #that i REALLY wanna illustrate at some point dheshaeyhea

[puppyeared]

I love you when we haven’t talked in weeks and months I love you when I have 12 unread messages I love you when im not in the mood to talk. We’re still friends even when we spend time apart

#it’s like delayed parallel play to me.. or perhaps sending letters in the mail #when I wrote this it’s because I have this thing that is like. having too much of a good thing #like if I talk to someone and love them too much I burn out.. does that make sense?? is that a universal experience??? #so sometimes when I have to spend time by myself I don’t stop loving my friends I think #especially because when I burn out I feel miserable for no reason and my brain comes up with ways to hate people #like oh they’re probably spending time with other ppl you’re disposable.. they probably forgot about you #one time I thought that if my friends were getting married they’d forget to invite me and it became a fear I’m trying to get over #but the answer I came up with is to keep reminding people I exist to stay present in their lives #even if it’s not as often as I can manage or would like. idk #yapping #feelings

[firehose118]

It’s not that Eddie is hanging out with someone else. It’s not that said someone is exciting, can give Eddie things that Buck can’t, can bond with him over things that Buck can’t.

It’s that Buck knew this would happen. He knew he would be replaced when Eddie found someone better, knew that it wouldn’t be hard.

Eddie deserves this. He deserves a friend who can take him up in the sky and bring him safely back down. Not someone who steps on his shoe and pushes him to the ground.

Buck deserves to be left. He’s been selfish. It serves him right for thinking he could hold on to Eddie, to their little family. He knew it was too good to last. Everyone leaves him sooner or later. No one wants to keep him forever.

Eddie has Marisol and now he has Tommy. What does he need Buck for?

#won’t be writing this full thing but I woke up at 4am and couldn’t get back to sleep until I wrote this #buck is gonna be so sad next week and I can’t wait to watch eddie remind him how much he loves him. HIM. #911 #911 abc #buddie #mine

[a-stitch-in-time-and-space]

kira's ongoing narrative in relation to cardassia and post-genocide complication of easy stories -- not, of course, that it was not genocide, but that some people she thought of as enemies were allies, and many people who were a part of the oppressing forces, were later, in turn, the victims of a mass attempted-genocide

and the idea that she, personally, cannot hate every individual cardassian, because she genuinely wants to build and heal and what that looks like, versus many (understandably) traumatised bajorans who are still and will always be at war

it's such a complicated, ongoing, twisty-turny storyline that returns again and again, with dukat, with garak, with ghemor, with damar, with ziyal, with rugal (although he and kira don't really interact, but in terms of the wider complexity of bajoran-cardassian interactions), with marritza (I've forgotten characters I know it -- there's natima as well, although I don't think she and kira interact?)

and then her ongoing narrative related to healing vs punishment vs power with -- yes li nalas and bareil, with winn and opaka (battle lines really is the first realisation I think of kira's needs and ongoing journey), with the people she was in the resistance with, some of whom are trying to create new lives some of whom cannot, ziyal again...

i also wonder about a stitch in time, and the knowledge that cardassia's rich, spiritual life was all but stamped out by a military dictatorship, and how kira would feel about this/whether she would feel a connection with the underground religious space that survived despite it

i think the reason it (mostly, let's not go into the storyline with her mother) works is that it's something her narrative returns to over and over, like a worried tooth, not necessarily in a single straight line, but via individual stories from many directions, with this understanding that she's at the centre of this massive change and she may have to take on a leadership position in order to facilitate and hold together bajoran ideals and culture and history and pain and hope through that, and bit by bit she grows into that role. and in some ways it doesn't come across as conscious, but it builds up slowly like drops accumulating, until there's a picture there

it's so so good, and imo the most complete/successful storyline given to a character in ds9 (I think nog-and-rom as a somewhat more intimate ongoing push-and-pull storyline, and also benjamin sisko on a macro spiritual level have a similar kind of thorough exploration, if different in focus, and also - to an extent - odo). my one big thing with kira's narrative is consistently how they handled ziyal, that is my personal biggest detractor. shocking because -- perhaps with benefit of hindsight, perhaps with a little less sexism idk -- there were so many ways they could have gone with ziyal, it seemed obvious while i was watching, and yet

#am reminded as i write that i literally wrote fanfic about these things #but i have not finished any of it #i wanna go back to having time and brainspace #thematically ds9 is to me so much kiras and siskos stories as the main main #ramblerambleramlbe #this is not a proper meta it's just... there really was so much focus given to this #in a way that i think some stories need so badly #vs a single linear progression #lot of changes happening in tv in the near future -- one of my biggest hopes is that something can be made to fit the format #rather than attempting to consistently squash everything into one size #i just imagine if michael burnham had been given this kind of space to really delve into her #we'll always have fanfiction ofc

[sohaoying]

unfinished business

#your turn to die #yttd spoilers #sou hiyori #shin tsukimi #kugie kizuchi #yeah i'll make a ghost au #i didn't have room for more dialog but i think he'd want to be called shin here #shin's my fav and i like the greenblings so much but sometimes i forget that he was kind of a cringefail brother #sou being to kanna almost like what midori was to him + kugie rubbing it in >> #but also there's no way to know what their time in ch 2 was like for sure #it's only ever others who say kanna was being used while kanna herself denies it+her whole thing is that the main cast overlooks her agency #they had normal conversations (e.g. mint choco ice cream) and kanna was more aware than she let on (e.g. knowing sou wrote the phone note) #but the one conversation we saw of them alone from sou's pov (post-nightmare to be fair) was not a good look #we just don't know how healthy their dynamic was overall! #kugie wasn't the best sister initially either so i think she's reminded of her regrets too. but the dunking comes first #sometimes you see something you hated about yourself in someone else and go hm. hate that #i think they should have ghost adventures after their initial beef though. why? bc the kanna hallucination cg is my fav and i said so #and yttd is all about feeling empathy for everyone y'know? #art

[shywhumpauthor]

A Whumpee who is so touch starved that they will do literally anything for just a ghost of contact but who also hates being touched for whatever trauma reason, so they’re stuck in this hellish limbo between their desire to just be held by someone and the awful prickling feeling they get whenever someone so much as brushes against them.

Bonus points if their master/caretaker/teammates/whomever within the context has no problem being affectionate but they just won’t do anything unless they are literally asked or something of that sort.

This opens up a lot of potential for some really soft emotional scenes

(prompt 12)

#please someone write this #i need this #I can’t really write comfort in the way I want to express things #so someone pleaseeee #but lowkey this is henchman from Day Off #(pt 2 coming sometime this week I promise) #(Also Cory someone remind me to post Cory’s story in the next two days) #whump #whumpblr #whump community #whump writing #its me coal #coal wrote something #whumpee #whumper #whump prompt #whump prompts #comfort whump #whump comfort #hurt and comfort #hurt/comfort #hurt/angst #sad whumpee #whump idea #whump ideas #writing prompts #writing prompt #hurt/comfort prompts #hurt/comfort prompt #comfort prompts

[dol-dee]

Monster of your own making

#degrees of lewdity #dol sydney #dolgl #sydney the fallen #sydney the faithful #dol pc #nsft #chubby #Dee is contrarily bashful about wearing costumes when it's not for work plus shes wearing a mask #she has worn less clothing in front of more people but its a lot easier to divorce herself from it when its work #You can pretend Sydney is doing this to try and pspspspsps Kylar into a polytrio #Dee: I need to get this bitch down to my level (the monkey paw curls) #This reminds me that I wrote a Dee/Sydney thing a while ago #I think I liked that enough to maybe post it #But also this is what I meant by skyrim mods amount of tit dfsfsdfsdf #Doldykes #pcsydney

[sarsaparilla-star]

I LOVE FALLOUT!!!!!!!!

#i havent seen the show. but the show has gotten all my irl friends to start playing new vegas and 3 and its reminding me about the things i #love about the series #and at least 60% of what i love is peoples theorycrafting and adding to the lore and interpretations and improvements and peoples personal #takes on the world #(theres a lot of fallout thats dogshit thats better in my head. every fallout game is personalised bcus everyone plays it and thinks 'i can #imagine this better than they wrote it' lmao) #i played some fallout 3 for the first time and am enjoying it!! i never have enough fucking AMMO #nead stfu

[b4kuch1n]

tdov was like a week ago already but I just wanna say when I came over to vacation slash help my sworn brother move flat he told me, "ever since you said you wanted to get top surgery I've been thinking about it. it's straight up number two on my bucket list"

#bakuspeech #number one is a house bc obviously. if u can own a house wouldnt u #he was very drunk at that time of the evening. I was not bc I have the constitution of a hot air balloon and any stimulant will blow me up #(relatively new development. france fucked me up big time turns out) #we held hand on his bed for like the whole evening. it was honestly very funny in hindsight but we were extremely earnest in the moment #and Im like. working on this thing as well. I dont got meds or therapy lmao Im bootstrappin here #but yeah early last year his bf offered to get me meds and I... turned it down... I think I was worried abt like. idk. something #but one year past looking back Im fully like that was a stupid move you shouldve gotten meds. youve once again fucked urself baku #but yeah with that kinda realization Ive also come to realized I've somewhat? accepted. that I'm just gonna be. like this #this in light of a number of likely chronic stuff too (hence my balloon-like constitution lmao) and #that's kinda bled into the rest of me without me really noticing #but him bringing that up fully unprompted... kinda jolted me out of it #its just. really incredibly sweet. that someone doesn't want me to settle for what I make do with #and like. preps for that work. just kinda held my hand and told me it's possible to do this actually #I didn't really express how I felt very well in that moment I think my brain is very bad and I process emotions with like a day of delay #but. well. Im thinking abt it Right Now. so yknow thats the kind of impact that had on me lol #not super sure why I wrote all this down here really. I think I just want a good n nice reminder that object permanence is real #and I exist in my friends' life even when Im going insane in a hole by myself #and with the power of friendship we can alter the universe's plan for ourselves and also kill god #that's that. anyways I eat lunch now and then pass out probably. last night was... eventful lmao #but!! very good things on the horizon hopefully. well manifestly we hold hammers and we use them #have a good day lads. let's go out and slay monsters under a highway

[twistedappletree]

Thinking about Lan Sizhui teaching Jin Ling how to play guqin.

Thinking about Jin Ling absolutely bored to tears by the fundamentals until he hears how beautifully Lan Sizhui plays and suddenly takes an interest (in the guqin, definitely the guqin, he’s interested in the guqin only, okay??)

Thinking about Jin Ling practicing outside of classes because he wants to impress Lan Sizhui by how much he’s improved and wants to make him proud and wants to see his face light up with a smile—I mean, what? No no no, he just wants to show initiative to learn, that’s all there is to it, nothing more. Nothing at all.

Thinking about Lan Sizhui finding Jin Ling asleep on his guqin after a night of wearing himself out with extra practice and gently waking him up to safely escort him back to his room so he doesn’t get caught by their seniors. Meanwhile, Jin Ling sleepily leans against him on the walk back to his room because it’s normal, he’s just tired, it’s obviously normal because Lan Sizhui slips his hand into his and smiles and Jin Ling’s heart feels like it’s on fire. Oh no.

Thinking about Jin Ling opening up to Lan Sizhui about his nightmares from all the trauma he’s endured and Lan Sizhui staying to play guqin for him until he falls asleep, each note chasing away every bad dream that tries to disturb him.

Thinking about them practicing guqin alone together the next day. And the day after. And the day after that—and they really are practicing but it’s a little hard to focus when Lan Sizhui keeps putting his hands over Jin Ling’s to move them to the correct strings, and Jin Ling’s face is a breath away from Lan Sizhui’s every time he leans over to help him.

It’s just guqin practice, that’s all there is to it, perfectly normal. 🩵💛

#zhuiling #blorbo thoughts on the morning bc their tags are being filled with boring discourse again and i need something cute and fun 😭 #ONLY tagging as zhuiling too since main tags always attract fanon-obsessed antis for some reason LOL #anyway #this is a v aspec activity too bc JL definitely would want to learn and become the best he can possibly be at anything really #and LSZ definitely would want to teach and be an effective teacher #also #JC asking JL what he’s learned so far and JL is like ‘um…. uh….. um if you pluck the string by the thingy it…. does a thing???’ #he’s learned stuff for sure it’s just hard to think after being alone with your crush aishajhd go easy on him JC lmaooo #apple babble 🍎 #also guys reminder to read my faq and blacklist zhuiling tag if it bothers you #I don’t waste time fighting people about fictional characters on the internet 🤷‍♀️ #this is my space and I’ll post whatever I want thanksssss 🩵💛🩵💛 #I actually already wrote a lot of this into a fic ahahaHAHA #it’s the companion fic to the manor fic tho so it’ll be a hot minute before it’s posted

[skitskatdacat63]

More matador!Fernando! Ferrari this time :D (I can't help myself.....)

- facial hair

+ closeups

I really wanted the vibe of this Nando pic, I think I did pretty well??

#GUYS THE BULL DO YOU NOTICE WHAT BULL DO YOU UNDERSTAND THE SUBTEXT DO YOU UNDERSTAND MY IMPLICATION #lmao tho i mostly put it there cause i saw this rly cool pic w the shadow of a bull on a matador's cape #i dont understand how i ended up making this one more intensive and detailed than the other #but im not mad cause i really like it aaahhhhhh #but i think this one took more than 6 hours and the other one was 5½? #and both i ended up working until an absolutely horrible time. dont ask me what time i wrote this post #okay btw i didnt draw that embroidery. thank you medibang pattern brush now beloved 🙏 #i think it suits him!!!! i was thinking of doing stars anyways so I'm glad it worked out #two people id like to blame: #thank you 005 for accidentally reminding me of the sword!! im glad his other hand is not just idle :) #and thank you suzuki-ecstar for asking me at some point if id ever draw facial hair on nando #^ particularly the 3 Musketeers look. so thanks. i suddenly remembered and i had to draw it 😭 #it kept shocking me how baby faced i drew him every time i took that layer off #also every time i worked on the suit red genuinely ceased being an actual color to me #its bright red right?? like very fluorescent?? but my brain kept going: is this too orange?? this isnt red right???? #anyways happy with this!!!!! there were a lot more roadblocks than the other but it all worked out #but wow wish i had this level of diligence for yknow. schoolwork. #i can spend 6+ hours on a drawing straight but school? nah i give up every 20 mins or less fjfkkfl #also not abandoning my other aus or anything but i have a lot more ideas for this honestly #i think the ref pics are a lot easier and more interesting to find than for my other AUs #<- cause its so much more modern lmao. so i have a lot more inspo than trying to find ultra specific 18th century paintings #i wanna draw 3 things rn: #nando w the ceremonial cape. seb in a matador suit. and of course some silly vett//onso in this AU #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #catie.art. #fa14 #matador au

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

tell me why i wrote 4k words of fantasy au the other night but overall Absolutely Nothing Happened in it

#like damn... the length of a Chonky Oneshot and like... 2 things occurred #i really need to cut back on conversations #once i start characters talking its impossible to make them shut up #like me!!!! #but geez. man. #its One Scene and its over 4k and its Not Done #it doesnt even start at the beginning! i started it like... partway through the mini plot i have in my head! #reminds me of that one 15k fic i wrote that was One Battle. it should've been 7k at most #i use to be good at keeping things at a nice length... not dragging it out... sighhhhhhhhh #absolutely unprompted #if anyone's curious the Scene is how the group learns about home #aka wally takes a hard hit. fuckign Dies. #and home is like 'well! time to go insane and slaughter everyone - then use their souls to revive him!' #while very much Ignoring wally's friends who are misjudging the entire situation #barnaby is an unreliable narrator when he doesnt know what the Fuck is going on & also his buddy got kia <3

[delusional-mishaps]

GRRRRR DAY 8!!!! BOXED IN!!!

boxed in a kabedon.. mwahaha punching him punching him punching him punching him punching him

#badsansuary #sorry guys i was reminded abt that thing i wrote with epic kabedoning reader and was inspired #<- i hate epic with all of my heart hes the love of my life #i dont roly have a set dust design but..!! he looks cute like this #ig #i may draw him with eyes sometimes but i like dark-black-void-beneath-hood dust #anyway normal tags #dust sans #dust sans x self insert #self insert #dust x self insert #jesters art

[wikiangela]

seven sentence sunday

tagged by @theotherbuckley 💖

to no one's surprise, more alive shannon lol I'm gonna share way too much of it now bc apparently I can't get inspired to write anything else atm, too excited about this one haha

this time a bit of shannon's pov - I'm planning on switching povs, it's gonna be mostly eddie bc i feel most comfortable in his head lol, but a chapter here and there will be shannon or buck pov too

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She doesn’t remember the impact, the car hitting her – all she remembers is how much pain she was in after that, laying there in the street, unable to move. It was so scary, too. Shannon didn’t want to die. She was just getting her second chance at being a mom, at redeeming herself, trying to make up for it all, and suddenly she was faced with the prospect of being stripped away of it – what’s even worse, she could imagine how confusing and painful this would be for Christopher, getting his mom back just to lose her again. Honestly, that part, the thought of her kid hurting because of her, hurt much more than the fear of dying.

Fortunately, she’s still here, and she has no idea what crazy miracle happened, but she’s so grateful. Now she needs- she needs to see Christopher, promise him she’ll never ever leave him again, she never wants to be away from him again. She hopes Eddie will let her, despite the divorce bomb she dropped on him. It’s not even surprising to her how much of a mess they always end up in when they try to be together – which is why she sees divorce as the only option right now, it’ll be better for everyone.

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no pressure tags: @elvensorceress @gayarthur @diazass @thebravebitch @silentxxsoul @shortsighted-owl @eddiebabygirldiaz @transbuck @jesuisici33 @diazblunt @911onabc @eddiediaztho @housewifebuck @thewolvesof1998 @fortheloveofbuddie @lover-of-mine @gayhoediaz @jeeyuns @rogerzsteven @watchyourbuck @eowon @cowboy-buddie @monsterrae1 @hippolotamus @loserdiaz @ladydorian05 @giddyupbuck @forthewolves @honestlydarkprincess @wildlife4life @spotsandsocks @daffi-990 @disasterbuckdiaz

#the alive shannon fic #seven sentence sunday #I literally just wrote this and it needs so many changes lmao #buddie wip #buddie fic #buddie #wikiangela writes #my writing #fic snippet #my wips #shannon diaz #angst #buddie angst #again small reminder: its a buddie fic but gonna be a lot of shannon too so if its not your thing and you don't wanna be tagged lmk pls #(the buddie aspect will be such a slow burn tho lol)