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lotus-n-l0ve Β· 1 year
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𝐘/𝐍-𝐜𝐑𝐚𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐊𝐞𝐧-𝐂𝐑𝐒𝐧?
β€” Manjiro 'Mikey' Sano x F!Reader
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☯ SYNOPSIS : A text conversation cause a misunderstanding to Mikey.
☯ WARNINGS : Cheating, sick!Mikey, dumb!Mikey, 800 words.
☯ NOTE FROM LOTUS: Just a small blurb that came to mind. Originally I was going to make small imagines with multiple characters but then decided to make just this one. If you like the it then please leave a like, comment and reblong. Follow me for more like this. Enjoy β™‘
πƒπ‘π€πŠπ„π'𝐒 π•πˆπ‘π’πˆπŽπ
πŒπ€πˆπ πŒπ€π’π“π„π‘π‹πˆπ’π“ || π“πŽπŠπ˜πŽ 𝐑𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐍𝐆𝐄𝐑𝐒 πŒπ€π’π“π„π‘π‹πˆπ’π“
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Mikey was in the bedroom already in the bed waiting for you finish your night routine. Then you could cuddle him to sleep. This was his favourite time of the day on top of that Mikey was sick today so he was extra clingy.
Your phone on the nightstand lit up with a incoming message grabbing Mikey's attention but he ignored it the first time, paying no mind to it. But then phone kept buzzing with one after another incoming messages. Mikey got curious as to who was messaging you that much.
Mikey sat up on the bed with his back resting on the headboard. He grabbed the phone and unlocked it.
Ken-chin?
He saw the messages were from Draken which was wired because you and Draken barely talk. Mikey tapped on the notification and the conversation opened Mikey scrolled through them β€”
Ken : Baby is Mikey Okay?
Ken : Can you come now?
Ken : Babe?
Ken : Baby?
Ken : Darling?
Babe? Baby? Darling?
Mikey's heart dropped. You would not. No you can't. You can't cheat on him. Right?
Mikey scrolled up a little more to your last text with Draken which seemed to happen when he was in the bedroom and you were out in the living room with Emma.
Ken : Baby the bed feels so empty without you.
Ken : Come back here.
Y/N : You know I can't.
Y/N : Mikey is sick and I need to take care of him.
Ken : Do you really have to do that?
Ken : Come on he is not a kid anymore.
Y/N : Ken you know I want to be with you more than anywhere else.
Y/N : I have to go now. Mikey is calling.
Y/N : Bye bye 😚😚😚😚
Ken : Bye babe. Will miss you.
Mikey's eyes filled with water as fat tears kept rolling down his cheek. Loud sobbs kept erupting from his chest. He loves you and needs you like he needs oxygen and you do this. Cheat on him with his very bestfriend?
Y/N-chan and Ken-Chin?
You put back the night cream container on the counter. This was your last step of night skin care. You looked at yourself in the mirror for the last time before going back in the bedroom.
Just as you were about to leave the bathroom a scream shook up the whole house, "Y/N-CHAAAAAAN?"
You quickly ran outside to the bedroom, "Mikey what happened?"
You gasp when saw your boyfriend crying his eyes out with loud sobbs and hiccups. You rush to sit in front of him on the bed.
"What happened?" You palm his warm cheeks, wipping away the tears.
Mikey looks at like a puppy who got kicked by his owner and that hurt your heart. Mikey was a lively person always laughing and smiling. Even if he was feeling down he would put on this carefree persona and keep his real emotions locked away in his heart.
"Y/N-chan." Mikey stammered between sobbs, "Do you not love me anymore? What did I do wrong?"
You frowned at his words, "What are saying?"
"You and, you and Ken-Chin are cheating on me behind my back. Was my love not enough?" Mikey choked on his words.
"What?" Now you were even more confused than ever.
"What is this?" Mikey shoved the phone in your face. You gave him a confused glance before looking down at the phone screen. As you read through the texts your temperature highed and a eye twitched.
You gave his head a smack to knock some sense into his thick skull, "Manjiro you dumbass. This is not my phone but Emma's. Our phone probably got switched."
Mikey.exe stopped working.
"Oh!"
The smack seemed have worked because the next moment a big ass smile appeared on his dumb face, "You are not cheating on me with Ken-Chin?"
"No."
"And you love me?"
"Yes but now I'm doubting if I should."
"Oh! Come on. You love me. You can't live without me." Mikey wrapped his arm around you, pulling you in a hug and making you nose slam on his hard chest.
"Ow. Manjiro you dumbass." You punch his side, which made little to no impact on him, before you also hug him back.
One thing you realised was 'sick Mikey is dumb mikey.' because if Mikey was okay then things would have been much more chaotic and Draken would have been six feet under the ground. Doesn't matter how much Mikey loves or cares for him.
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Β© π‹πŽπ“π”π’-𝐍-π‹πŸŽπ•π„ πŸπŸŽπŸπŸ‘, 𝐀𝐋𝐋 π‘πˆπ†π‡π“π’ 𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐄𝐑𝐕𝐄𝐃 β€” all content rights belongs to LOTUS-N-L0VE. do not plagiarize any works and do not repost or translate onto any other sites.
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kristvns Β· 2 years
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ππ€πˆπ‘πˆππ†; π—π—‚π—Œπ—π—ˆπ—‹π—‚π–Ί π—‹π–Ύπ—‚π—Œπ—Œ x 𝖻𝗅𝖺𝖼𝗄! π–»π—‚π—†π–»π—ˆ 𝖿𝖾𝗆 𝗋𝖾𝖺𝖽𝖾𝗋
π–πŽπ‘πƒ π‚πŽπ”ππ“; 0.9k
π–π€π‘ππˆππ†π’; π–»π—Žπ—…π—…π—’! π—π—‚π—Œπ—π—ˆπ—‹π—‚π–Ί, π–§π—Žπ—†π—‚π—…π—‚π–Ίπ—π—‚π—ˆπ—‡, & π—Œπ—…π—‚π—€π—π— π—Œπ–Ύπ—‘π—Žπ–Ίπ—… π–Όπ—ˆπ—‡π—π–Ύπ—‡π—
δΉ‚Β Β  ( π“’π˜ππŽπ“π‡π„π’πˆπ’ ! ──── )
κ—ƒ ))Β° 𝐈𝐍 π–π‡πˆπ‚π‡β”ƒπ—’/𝗇 π–Ώπ–Ίπ–Όπ–Ύπ—Œ 𝗍𝗁𝖾 π—π—‹π—ˆπ—Žπ–»π—…π–Ύπ—Œ π—ˆπ–Ώ 𝗍𝗁𝖾 π—‡π—ˆπ— π—Œπ—ˆ sweet popular πŸ—―οΈΒ  Β  )) Β° 𝗆𝖾𝖺𝗇 𝗀𝗂𝗋𝗅. 𝗆𝖾𝖺𝗇 π—π—ˆ π—’π—ˆπ—Ž π—π—ˆ π—Œπ–Ίπ—’ π–Ίπ—π—…π–Ύπ–Ίπ—Œπ—.
ππŽπ“π„π’; 𝖯𝖺𝗋𝗍 𝟀 π–Όπ—ˆπ—†π—†π—‚π—‡π—€ π—Œπ—ˆπ—ˆπ—‡ ! π—ƒπ—Žπ—Œπ— 𝗐𝖺𝗇𝗍𝖾𝖽 π—π—ˆ 𝗐𝗋𝗂𝗍𝖾 𝖺 π—Šπ—Žπ—‚π–Όπ—„ 𝖽𝗋𝖺𝖻𝖻𝗅𝖾 π—Œπ—‚π—‡π–Όe 𝗂 𝗁𝖺𝖽 𝖺 π—π—‚π—Œπ—π—ˆπ—‹π—‚π–Ί 𝖻𝗋𝖺𝗂𝗇 π—‹π—ˆπ— ! reblongs are helpful :) 𝗂 𝖽𝗂𝖽𝗇𝗍 𝖾𝖽𝗂𝗍 π—Œπ—ˆ π—‰π—…π–Ύπ–Ίπ—Œπ–Ύ π–Ύπ—‘π–Όπ—Žπ—Œπ–Ύ 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗀𝗋𝖺𝗆𝗆𝖺𝗍𝗂𝖼𝖺𝗅 π–Ύπ—‹π—‹π—ˆπ—‹π—Œ.
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β€· ππ”π‹π‹π˜. π—π—‚π—Œπ—π—ˆπ—‹π—‚π–Ί π—‹π–Ύπ—‚π—Œπ—Œ
ππ”π‹π‹π˜! π‡πˆπ’π“πŽπ‘πˆπ€ picks on you every fucking chance she gets. Weather is in the morning, during lunch, in the girls locker room, hell even on your way home from school. Doesn’t matter. Why? Maybe it’s because she finds the thrill of it. Maybe it’s the way you yell β€œstop historia!” With a pout At least 10 times everyday. Maybe it’s the way your lips turn into a pout when she calls you out your name for the 6th time today.
ππ”π‹π‹π˜! π‡πˆπ’π“πŽπ‘πˆπ€ who doesn’t want you talking to anyone else but her. She didn’t like it when she caught Ymir trying to make a move on you. Scumbags like Ymir didn’t deserved to be with saint girls like you. Which is exactly why she found some way to blackmail Ymir. Why? Because you’re her’s. & her’s only.
ππ”π‹π‹π˜! π‡πˆπ’π“πŽπ‘πˆπ€ who purposely finds a way to walk your way home after cheer practice. She claims β€œshe goes this way home too” when in reality she doesn’t. She just wants to spend more time with you without it being suspicious. She’ll use this time to find out exactly where you live & possibly more about your social life.
ππ”π‹π‹π˜! π‡πˆπ’π“πŽπ‘πˆπ€ who catches you in the locker room during cheer practice. She spots you holding your cheer items ready to walk past her as if she doesn’t exist. That pissed her off even more which made her to purposely bump into you causing all your belongings to drop and splatter across the girls locker room floor.
ππ”π‹π‹π˜! π‡πˆπ’π“πŽπ‘πˆπ€ who despite her bumping into you. You still apologize. But what really caught her attention as she witness you bend over showing those white panties with no care in the world. β€œPathetic…” she says under her breath causing you get to flustered. β€œAre you trying to taunt me..?” She said a under her breath. You turned your head and stood up. β€œw-what? No.” You said in a confused tone. That caused historia to scoff. β€œNext time where them in the color pink for me. yeah?” Historia said whispering in your ear before fully walking off.
ππ”π‹π‹π˜! π‡πˆπ’π“πŽπ‘πˆπ€ who gets β€œpissed of” when she finds out the next day that the two of you have to do a project together when in reality before class she begged the teacher if she could work with you. She looks across the classroom seeing you already looking at her causing her to smirk.
ππ”π‹π‹π˜! π‡πˆπ’π“πŽπ‘πˆπ€ who gives you her address before class is over despite it being an in school project.
ππ”π‹π‹π˜! π‡πˆπ’π“πŽπ‘πˆπ€ who gets mad when you show up a few minutes later than the time she had specifically gave you. Who also makes you get comfortable in her house, showing you around where everything is at. Despite you thinking coming over here is only a one time thing, but in her mind? Yeah this definitely won’t be your first time. οΏΌ
ππ”π‹π‹π˜! π‡πˆπ’π“πŽπ‘πˆπ€ who gets mad when you said you honestly didn’t care and just wanted to start the project. Hearing those words fall so smoothly of your tongue caused her to grab your hand and stomp up the steps to her bedroom at the end of the hallway.
ππ”π‹π‹π˜! π‡πˆπ’π“πŽπ‘πˆπ€ who gets a little more closely than ever before claiming that she just wanted to make sure you don’t β€œmess anything up” so you both won’t fail.
ππ”π‹π‹π˜! π‡πˆπ’π“πŽπ‘πˆπ€ who also ever gets more touchy ever than before. Touching your thighs claiming it was an accident even though she just wanted to watch you squirm on the floor.
ππ”π‹π‹π˜! π‡πˆπ’π“πŽπ‘πˆπ€ who notices when you reach over the table you did exactly what she told you to do which was wearing her favorite color next time. Pink. Those bright pink panties that slowed slightly anytime you bend over definitely cause her to squirm.
ππ”π‹π‹π˜! π‡πˆπ’π“πŽπ‘πˆπ€ who couldn’t help with teasing you. It was a thrill that she couldn’t get from any other girl but you. She would start with remarks of asking if you were a virgin. And when you told her you were she couldn’t help but get eagerly excited.
ππ”π‹π‹π˜! π‡πˆπ’π“πŽπ‘πˆπ€ who noticed you sweating bricks anytime she talked to you. She also noticed you stuttering anytime she asked you a question. And when she asked what’s wrong you got up in defense claiming you were just hot. But the mirror behind you said otherwise when she noticed the wet spot on your panties. She was about to have one hell of a night. :(
( ππ”π‹π‹π˜. π—π—‚π—Œπ—π—ˆπ—‹π—‚π–Ί π—‹π–Ύπ—‚π—Œπ—Œ )
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Β© 𝐀𝐋𝐋 π–πŽπ‘πŠπ’ ππ„π‹πŽππ† π“πŽ πŠπ‘πˆπ’π“π•ππ’, π—‰π—…π–Ύπ–Ίπ—Œπ–Ύ π–½π—ˆπ—‡'𝗍 𝗉𝗅𝖺𝗀𝖺𝗋𝗂𝗓𝖾, π–Όπ—ˆπ—‰π—’, π—Œπ—π–Ύπ–Ίπ—…, 𝗋𝖾𝗆𝗄𝖺𝗄𝖾 ( π—Žπ—‡π—…π–Ύπ—Œπ—Œ π—’π—ˆπ—Ž π–Ίπ—Œπ—„ ) 𝖺𝗇𝗒 π—ˆπ–Ώ 𝗆𝗒 π—π—ˆπ—‹π—„π—Œ π—π—‚π—π—π—ˆπ—Žπ— 𝗆𝗒 π—‰π–Ύπ—‹π—†π—‚π—Œπ—Œπ—‚π—ˆπ—‡, π—ˆπ—‹ 𝖺𝗍 𝖺𝗅𝗅 β€” 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗇𝗄 π—’π—ˆπ—Ž !
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corrodedseraphine Β· 1 year
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playlist | #9 ma belle Evangeline
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pairing: eddie munson x henderson!reader
summary: Just when you thought the boy you were in love with all through high school was gone, he suddenly reappears as your little brother's friend. Fate has once again decided to join your paths, however, everything turns out to be a bit complicated. Will Eddie Munson's sudden return to your life bring with it even more changes?
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masterlistΒ |Β eddie munson masterlistΒ | general masterlist
song that I used: Ma Belle Evangeline from Princess and The Frog
the end! I would like to thank every single one of you who have spent their time reading this story, thank you for the comments, likes, reblongs, for your support, for everything, I really didn't expected this story to have this amount of attention!
I would like to dedicate this chapter to @i-me-mine, my bestie, my biggest writing supporter, great and very talented writer and the most lovely person on Earth. Thank you, you have no idea how grateful I am to have you in my life.
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When the day of your departure from the hospital finally arrived, you couldn't wait to go home. Fortunately, there were no serious injuries, so you were only bothered by bruises, cuts and healing scratches from the glass that were annoyingly itchy. That because you were the only person in your house who had a driver's license, and Steve couldn't pick you up that day, Eddie offered without hesitation to take care of it. First thing in the morning, they showed up there along with your mom and Dustin, the boys quickly picked up the bags with your belongings and carried them to the car while you, with your mom's help, slowly walked towards it, as you insisted on leaving the hospital on your own. After lying down for so long, your body had definitely become unaccustomed to any kind of movement, and by the time you were outside your system had suffered a slight shock which made your head spin. Noticing you stopping in mid-stride they ran back up to you.
"Are you okay?" asked Dustin.Β 
"Yeah, I just got a little weak." you said.
"Baby, are you sure you can make it to the car by yourself?" your mother asked.Β 
"Yes!" you retorted a little too irritated.
"It will take forever!" Dustin shouted at which you sent him a murderous look.
"Stop whining and just go and open the car." said Eddie throwing the keys at him. And then he extended his hand toward you offering support. Slowly step by step you finally reached the car and drove home.
There waiting for you was the longing Naveen, with whom you would not part for an inch for the near time. Eddie helped carry your things into the room.
"Thank you." you said still holding the dog in your arms.
"You're welcome." Eddie winked at you. "How are you feeling?"Β 
"Better now." You replied, sitting down on the bed and smiling in his direction. It was known that it would be a very long time until you completely recovered from what had happened. You also weren't sure how soon you would be able to return to driving, if at all.Β 
"Are you sure?" he asked seeing your thoughtful face and sat down next to you. "You look worried," he said.
"Until Dustin gets his driver's license, I'm the only person in our house who has been responsible for driving, and now the very thought of having to sit behind the wheel freaks me out."Β 
"Hey, don't worry about it now 'kay? You just got back from the hospital, give yourself time to recover." he moved even closer to you, so that you were now touching each other's shoulders. "Besides, you can always count on me, not just with being your chauffeur, in everything." The smell of frying bacon spread through the house, sensing this Naveen jumped out of your embrace and at the speed of light headed for the kitchen leaving you alone.Β 
"Thank you Eddie." you said resting your head on his shoulder.Β 
"You don't have to thank me, the pleasure is mine." he said quietly and uncertainly put one arm around you. You closed your eyes feeling yourself slowly start to calm down and relax. "y/n?" he asked after a moment of silence.
"Hm?" you muttered still not opening your eyes.
"I- I wanted to tell you something..." Hearing his nervous tone, you raised your head to look at him.Β 
"Breakfast ready!" Your mother's voice boomed throughout the house without giving him a chance to finish.Β 
"Come on, she would lose her mind if you didn't stay for the breakfast." you laughed rising from the bed.
The breakfast passed in a pleasant atmosphere for you. Eddie at first felt a little out of place feeling that his presence here didn't belong, but you, Dustin and your mother included him in every conversation that was brought up at the table making his anxiety slowly disappear. When you finished eating the boys helped your mom clean up and Robin and Steve came over to you to see how you were feeling. While you were hanging out with your friends, Dustin insisted that they do their little math lesson with Eddie now, and only when they finished did they join you. Eventually Robin and Steve had to go for their shift at Family Video leaving the three of you alone.Β 
"So what do we do now?" asked Dustin.
"I don't know about you, but I would kill for a burger from Benny's after eating crappy hospital food for so long." You said with a sigh.Β 
"Then what are you waiting for? Get up and let's go." said Eddie breaking off on both feet with a smile. Going out for burgers, however, did not turn out to be a good idea. As soon as you entered the restaurant everyone's eyes were on you. In Hawkins, all news spread instantly, so the one about your accident didn't miss any of the locals either. Seeing them whispering something to each other and observing your visible damage you felt stressed. The behavior of the others did not escape Eddie's attention. Seeing you nervously playing with your fingers he put his hand between yours and intertwined your fingers.Β 
"Is that okay?" he asked quietly. He wasn't sure if that was a good idea. He knew that when people saw you holding the hand of a local freak they might start talking even more. But it was more than okay. Feeling you squeeze his hand even tighter his thumb began to draw small circles on top of it wanting to give you some comfort. Then the curious looks of people and their whispers disappeared. All that mattered were your hands joined together.
"Hi guys! What can I get you?" Benny greeted you with a broad smile.Β 
"Three times number five, please." Dustin said. Number five was your favorite dish on the menu, you smiled slightly appreciating the small gesture from your brother.
"Anything else?"
"Yeah, can we take a takeaway?" asked Eddie.Β 
"Of course."Β 
"Thanks."
After waiting a while, you took the food and returned home with it to eat in peace without prying eyes pointed in your direction. You were grateful for that, you felt much more comfortable now than you would have in a restaurant.Β 
"I'm going to Will's to play on the console, will you tell Mom I'll be back late?" asked Dustin while finishing his food.
"Yeah, sure." said slightly disappointed.
"Great, bye!" he shouted and a second later he was gone. You sighed and started to collect the plates.
"I'll take care of it." said Eddie taking them from your hands and carried everything into the kitchen. "Something tells me you're not in the best mood, the food didn't taste good?" he asked sitting down across from you at the table.
"It was delicious, my stomach is now overjoyed." you assured him forcing yourself to smile.
"But what about the rest? The rest don't seem to be very happy."Β 
"It's nothing. It's silly." you shrugged your shoulders.
"Wanna talk about this?"
"It's just... Whenever one of us has a bad day or is sick we do movie marathons with Dustin. We usually watch our favorite Disney movies, and I was kind of hoping that today would be the same."
"I may not be as good company as Dustin, but I'm a little behind when it comes to Disney and I'd love to catch up today." he offered.
"Do you really want to?" your face beamed. Seeing this, his heart sped up.Β 
"Sure I do. Sounds like a perfectly good evening."Β 
"Okay!" you exclaimed excitedly rising from your chair. What you didn't think about, however, was that getting up so abruptly would make your head start spinning again. Slightly stunned, you sat back down.
"What happened?" he asked worried.
"I got up a little too quickly." you replied grabbing your head.Β 
"Someone seems to forget that she just got out of the hospital." he smirked.Β 
"Possibly," you laughed lightly.
"Let's take it slow okay? I'll help you."Β 
Just as he said so it happened. Together you slowly prepared a place in the living room filled with blankets and pillows so that you would be most comfortable. You arranged snacks on the coffee table and began to watch. Naveen quickly came running towards you, you opened your arms but the dog quickly jumped over your legs to find himself in Eddie's lap a moment later.Β 
"Traitor!" you shouted in shock. "I feel rejected," you said dramatically putting your hand to your chest.Β 
"Oh come on, there's enough room for the two of you. Plus I know you can't stay mad at him for too long, this guy has you wrapped around his paw." He laughed then put his arm around you shoving you closer to him. With pleasure and a quick heartbeat, you accepted this state of things. Although you loved movie marathons in the company of your younger brother, what was happening now was much better. Movie after movie flew by and you completely lost track of time. Every now and then you changed positions still being very close to each other. Now Eddie had a pillow on his lap where your head was lying. His hand loosely on the indentation of your waist. Feeling its pleasant warmth, you had a little trouble concentrating on what was happening on the screen, but it didn't bother you because, after all, you knew everything almost by heart. Eddie, despite his willingness, couldn't focus either. When you were lying on his lap he could hardly restrain himself not to start playing with your hair which was slightly falling on the pillow or to keep his hand only in one place.Β 
"Ready to know where the idea to name this little traitor came from?" you asked when another of the movie came to an end.Β 
"I was born ready!" he said enthusiastically, and Naveen barked as if he was nodding at him.
"Oh no, I'm not talking to you. You broke my heart today!" you said, pointing your finger at the pet, which completely ignored your words and came over to lay its muzzle on you.
"I think, you've already forgiven him." Eddie laughed as he saw you start patting him.
"I'm too weak to resist him." You rolled your eyes.Β 
"Hey before we start... I have a question." he changed the subject.
"Yeah?"
"In a week Gareth's cousin is opening a new bar in the area and he asked us to play some songs, I thought maybe you'd like to go with us? After all, you haven't heard the latest Corroded Coffin song yet."Β 
"Sure! I'd love to finally hear it." you replied with a smile.
"But this time I'll drive you there, okay? I want to make sure you get there all right." he chuckled.
"We have a deal." With your finger, you lightly tapped the tip of his nose giggling. "Can I take Robin and Steve with me?"
"Yeah, I was just about to suggest it." he replied, feeling himself melt under the impact of your small gesture and the sound of your laughter. The words of how much he adores you came to his lips, but he had to save that for another moment. Charging you with such information right after you left the hospital didn't seem like the best idea to him.Β 
"Then what would you kiss a frog?" he asked when the title appeared on the screen.
"If I was sure that he would turn into the perfect prince with whom I would live happily ever after? Probably yes."
"Okay princess your brain injury must be much more serious than the doctors said." he laughed putting his hand to your forehead pretending to check if you had a fever. Which could be partially true. Princess. That word from his mouth made you get unimaginably hot.Β 
"Shut up and watch." you muttered trying to hide your blush.
Halfway through the movie, Dustin came home.
"I can't believe she made you watch this." he said walking into the living room.
"It was his voluntary decision." you said lifting your head slightly from his lap.
"Eddie blink three times if you need help." Your brother crossed his arms over his chest and watched with amusement as Eddie began to blink rapidly. You knew he was just teasing and it was a joke, but you decided to play along. You grabbed the remote, paused the movie and, sat up straight, looking at Munson with a deadly serious expression.
"If you are so awfully uncomfortable spending time with me you can go. I won't keep you here by force." You said without taking your eyes off him. The smile from his face immediately disappeared and was replaced by shock.
"What? Wait, y/n I was only joking, I was the one who suggested watching myself-" panicked, he began to explain quickly. You glanced at Dustin and when your gazes met you both burst out laughing. Seeing this, Eddie was relieved. He was seriously frightened that you were serious.
"Ha, ha. Veeery funny." he huffed. "Give it back. I have to find out who Evangeline is." he snatched the remote from your hands. So he was really playing attention, after all.
"One of my favorite moments." You smiled as Ray began to sing.
Look how she lights up the sky| Ma Belle Evangeline So far above me, yet I Know her heart belongs to only me
Je t'adore, Je t'aime Evangeline You're my queen of the night So still So bright
That someone as beautiful as she Could love someone like me Love always finds a way it's true! And I love you, Evangeline
Love is beautiful Love is wonderful! Love is everything, do you agree? Mais oui! Look how she lights up the sky I love you, Evangeline
With a smile you watched the TV humming a song under your breath. Taking the opportunity that you were focused on something else Eddie shifted his gaze to you. The sight was incredibly charming. He then thought that you would definitely light up the whole sky. Your slightest smile was so bright that it easily lit up his life. As the song came to an end his eyes returned to the screen.
"Wait! They didn't kiss?" he asked outraged. "Oh come on!"
"Yeah, I can't believe they haven't done it yet either, after all, it's obvious with the naked eye that they feel something for each other, right Eddie?" asked Dustin in a very insistent tone.
"Yeah..." Eddie knew what your brother was getting at and felt a little nervous about it. "But on the other hand, maybe they need some patience? And they're waiting for the right moment?"
"They're waiting until it's too late?" Dustin didn't give up.
"Geez, boys." interrupted them. "Let's just keep watching." You didn't know where such an exchange between them had come from, but you didn't suspect what might be between the lines.
"I've watched the movie enough times, I'll leave you two alone." Your brother shrugged his shoulders. "And Eddie, I hope you remember your promise?"
Metalhead was taken aback by the question and went pale, swallowing his saliva loudly. He was afraid that Dustin and his big mouth were about to say a few words too many and ruin everything. "Yes, I remember." he replied trying to sound calm. "Don't worry about it."
"I was just making sure."
When the boy disappeared into his room you tried to figure out what the promise was but Eddie was unbreakable, so you finally gave up, and your head went back to the pillow that lay on his lap. With little focus on the movie anymore, you allowed yourself a moment to dream about how pleasant it would be if days like this spent in Eddie's company were more frequent.
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Throughout the week you hosted guests one by one, because of which time flew by very quickly. The day before the guys' gig, you and Robin arranged a sleepover.Β  Dustin was sitting in his room and playing with the boys when your mom asked him to go to the store. When he walked away from the computer he forgot to mute the microphone due to which everyone could hear a rather loud conversation between you and Robin.
"I'm not going anywhere!" you shouted while standing in front of the bathroom mirror. Today, unfortunately, was one of those days when your self-esteem decided to fall below zero and the wound on your cheek looked even nastier than usual. Eddie curiously began to listen further.
"What are you talking about?" asked Robin. "All week you haven't stopped talking about how much you can't wait!"
"Look at me Robin! I can't even put much makeup on because of this stupid wound!" you walked out of the bathroom into the hallway making your voices even clearer.
"y/n I beg you to stop! Do you really think the only thing Eddie will pay attention to will be your lack of makeup?"
"Dude..." Upon hearing this, Gareth spoke up, but Eddie didn't let him finish.
"Shut up." Eddie said, still listening.
"Maybe he won't pay attention to me at all? Maybe he doesn't even need me there? I'm almost certain he won't be able to chase away girls who are his type."
"Stop being dramatic! How in the world do you know what his type is?" Robin understood how you felt, she knew very well that your insecurities were sometimes far too loud, but she also knew how much you cared about Eddie. You spent almost half the night analyzing your feelings for him.
"I don't know! I'm sure there will be some metal beauty with bloody red lips who will definitely attract his attention." you felt hopeless. What were you really expecting? That out of so many people he would choose you? The thought that you were probably misinterpreting all his signals towards you dragged you down. "Give me my phone. I'll cancel everything." you said in a resigned voice.
"No way!" she shouted and quickly took your phone.
"Robin give back my phone!"
"I won't give it back until you calm down and stop being dramatic."
"Guys I don't think we should listen to all this..." said Will uncertainly.
"It's not our fault they're so loud." replied Mike.
"Eddie will you do something about it?" asked Jeff, but before he could answer they heard Robin's voice again.
"You have a message! Guess from who!" she shouted.
"Robin!" you tried to snatch the phone from her but she ran away from you to Dustin's room and closed the door in front of you.
"It's Eddie, he's asking how you are and what time he can pick you up." she said through the door. Hearing that you wanted to resign he knew he had to react somehow. It was the only option that came to his mind at that moment.
"Robin please give me back my phone." You leaned your forehead against the door.
"I will give it back on the condition that you don't let that monster in your head win and believe me that your presence to him will be more important than crowds of horny groupies." Eddie laughed under his breath hearing this statement. However, your friend was right. It was your presence that he cared most about. "Oh, another message! He wrote that he's happy you'll be there and he's already looking forward to it!"
"Stop lying to me Robin." after a moment, the door abruptly opened causing you to fall into the room. If it wasn't for the fact that she caught you at the last moment you would have been lying on the floor long ago.
"Look." she said, placing the phone in front of your face. "I'm not lying. You feel something for Eddie, you started feeling it back when you were still in a relationship with Tom, and I also know that Eddie feels something for you, so can you stop being idiots and finally do something about it?"
"What the hell are you guys doing in my room?" interrupted Dustin, who had returned from the store.
"We've been playing hide and seek, what else?" your friend said sarcastically.
You returned to your room where, under Robin's supervision, you began to get ready. A part of you was glad that she was so stubborn and wouldn't let you give up, but the other part was trembling with anxiety.
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It was exactly as you thought. Eddie mesmerized most of the audience with his behavior on stage, all around you you could hear the other girls marveling at him, even drooling at the sight of his fingers gracefully stroking the strings. Could you blame them? Of course not. Because it had exactly the same effect on you. Again, you felt like you were in high school when you snuck into their performances at the Hideout to feast your eyes on him and keep every detail in your thoughts, knowing that admiring him was the only thing you had to do. Now you had the feeling that you were in awe of him much more. Especially when his eyes found you every now and then in the crowd, with a wide smile on his face. The excitement you felt then and your heart beating to the rhythm of the music he played made it hard for you to sit still. The sounds he made from his sweetheart made you feel shivers and heat all over your body. Slowly it started to get swelteringly. After the show was over, as if attracted by a magnet, you moved towards him.
"You guys were great! People loved you!" you exclaimed excitedly. Seeing his face light up even more you felt like pulling him as close to you as possible, but Eddie did it for you. He drew you to his sweaty body and hugged you with all his strength.
"I'm so freaking happy you're here." he exhaled while resting his forehead on yours.
"Me too. The new song was great." You pushed back the strands of hair stuck to his face with your hand.
"Did you like it? I wrote it myself."
"Yes, very much." you said feeling a stab of anxiety. Since he wrote it himself he must have written it with someone in mind. You had no idea who this girl was, but the jealousy that awoke in you was surprising. Feeling all this, you moved away from him.
"Excuse me! Hi!" came the sound of a female voice from behind you. "I am Lucy and this is my friend Amanda." the girls looked just like you described earlier Robin. A dream come true for any metalhead. Strong makeup, bold clothes added to their charm. They were beautiful, that could not be denied. You took this as a sign to move back into the shadows. Feeling out of place without a word, you walked away leaving him with his new fans and decided it was time to get some fresh air. The evening was quite chilly, wrapping yourself in the thin jacket you took with you, you sat down on a bench. The sky was clear and the stars twinkled beautifully.
"Did you find her?" you felt a hand on your shoulder and jumped up frightened. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to scare you." said Eddie sitting down next to you.
"Where's your jacket, are you crazy?" you asked seeing his bare shoulders start to get covered with goosebumps. "You're all sweaty, do you want to be sick?"
"Woah! You don't have to yell at me!" he laughed, not expecting such a reaction. He wasn't used to anyone but Wayne worrying about him like that. The fact that it was you made him flustered.
"I won't talk to you until you put your jacket on, your uncle will kill me if I let you sit all sweaty in the wind. Your next wish is pneumonia?"
"Your wish is my command." he said and quickly ran to the van to take out a sweatshirt which he quickly pulled over himself. "Better?" he asked returning.
"Better." You nodded.
"So...I'll ask again. Did you find her?"
"Who?" you looked straight into his eyes. They looked even deeper in the evening darkness. He was still smiling, causing cute little wrinkles to spider in their corners, and they sparkled as if all the stars of the sky were reflected in them.
"Evangeline. Did you find her?" he looked up.
"Oh, no. Unfortunately, no." you replied.
"I think I found mine, y'know?"
"That's great Eddie." you lied. "You found her a while ago and her name is Lucy or Amanda?" you wanted to joke about it but the bitterness in your voice was very audible.
Eddie laughed and shook his head. The wind blew harder. "Put the damn hood on, Monson." you muttered while pulling the material over his head. "Your hair is still wet, you're really asking for a fever." What you didn't expect, however, was that as you brushed his hair away from his face Eddie would feel a surge of courage and pull you close to kiss you. Your reaction was almost automatic. You reciprocated the kiss and he put his hands on your waist with intention to pull you into his lap. "I found my Evangeline years ago. In high school." he said pulling away from you for a moment. "I was hopelessly in love with her, I recently found out that she was in love with me too, and I can't forgive myself for not doing it sooner." another kiss. "For years she was the brightest in my sky, hell, she still is. I thought I had to be patient but I can't. I can't stand it anymore." Another kiss in which he showed how thirsty he was for you. You gave yourself over to it completely. In that moment, nothing else mattered.
"When you graduated from high school I lost you once. The second time we almost all lost you after that damn accident and I can't let that happen anymore, not when you're this close, you must know how I feel about you, that you're my queen of the night."
"Eddie if you talk to me with references to this movie you will never get away from me." You laughed and this time it was you who kissed him.
"Oh God please, never." he muttered into your mouth wrapping his arms tighter around you. "I made a promise. I made a promise to your stupid brother that I would tell you all about it. That I will tell you how much I adore you, how much I love the time I spent with you, how beautiful you are. And by the way, you have nothing to worry about with your scar." He said putting his hand to your cheek. "It is beautiful. You are beautiful. Besides, you look like a real badass with it. Are you sure you're not a witcher?"
"And what, do you want to see my silver sword?" you felt your cheeks start to hurt from smiling but nothing could stop you from doing so.
"I want to see everything you want to show me." he whispered again closing the gap between you. "Be mine, please, give me a chance, give us a chance, I swear I will do everything to make you happy."
"I've already given you my heart, so I think giving you a chance won't be a problem."
"I never thought that dreams could come true." he hugged you with all his strength.
"Apparently, this time we said them to a lucky star." You cuddled your face into the bend of his neck. The warmth you felt from him was beginning to feel like something entirely new. As your new favorite place. Your safe haven.
"Good thing Dustin forgot to mute his microphone this morning and I could hear your conversation with Buckley. If it wasn't for that I don't think I would have dared to do it today." he chuckled.
"Oh my god, did you hear that?" Now your sense of happiness was violated by embarrassment. "I'm going to kill him.
"But do it later, 'kay? Now you're here with me and let nothing else matter." If he was going to kiss like this, you were sure it would be hard to find something more important to you than what was developing between you.
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hi zadie, sorry i haven't been active for a while but i was scrolling on my feed and came across somebody that had a very similar username to the person we mass reported months ago for writing niki smut. to my suprise, its the same person. they reposted this,
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and i genuinely gagged at it. like they have been harassed for writing smut for him and they repost that?? why are they making the situation worse for themselves ? also, another thing, i looked at the page of the op of the "petition" and they are another person that is fine with sexualising niki. i sent them an ask confronting them about it even though many people have already told them how and why it's wrong. on the behalf of actual engenes, please send them an ask aswell. this is an issue that's starting to become more and more normalised and its making me sick to my stomach. thank you for sharing thisπŸ’—
please reblong anybody that see's this!!
sorry for my late response and tysm for your reminder baby, kinda forgot this since its already so far down in my inbox but i am happy to pull it all the way up and bring awareness.
it's so important for us to speak up and take care of this and i appreciate your engagement baby! pls make sure to not be hateful or rude or mean, just report and block and go on with your day my loves!🩷
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erwinthings Β· 9 months
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Honestly I kind of don’t know what to do on this app but fuck it we ball. If any kind followers see this. Are you supposed to reblog stuff. Can I just reblong anything. Can I just write anything. Do people care if your feed is messy and unorganized is this different than Instagram. Can I go wild
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skybristle Β· 2 years
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how are you like always responding and reblonging. Do u not have to go to school or soemthing /hj
IM IN SCHOOL RN the thing is like only 2 of my classes care abt me having my phone or not so I'm fucking around all day on here since I'm a Gifted Kid[tm] and dont need to pay attention
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beardedmrbean Β· 2 years
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PleaSe don't reblong the old version of that post,,, man...... Ack*dies*
(Also all my music edits I've done have been undertale and deltarune so far, lmao, probably the only game soundtracks I care about enough to mess with)
if that first bit is about the video then my bad, and that makes much more sense like I said no idea why I would think you would do a Queen song especially after that whole Brian May/Bill Nye thing from a while back where you didn't know who "Sir doctor Brian May PhD astrophysicist and rock god CBE" was.
Imagine the stationary that title would take
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launitaspeciale Β· 10 months
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when i cant reblong something i ahve a really big tantrum and it wakes up my neighbors but i dont care. i dont.
#i
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black-rosewolf66 Β· 1 year
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When i got into tumblr it was only a place that my friend forced me to download…and after some time i realized that there are a lot of wise humans hear that it is acceptable to be yourself on here…so i wanted to give it a try telling my self that it will be just likes just the original post maker and i will know about it…ao its not that mich of a thing then i saw that everyone on here are from a different far way country so well nobody eill know who i am and nobody will care nobody can harm me because i would just ignore the message and i wont have any problem…so i started to like more and post some things…then i started to make this place my safe place i only rebloged the things i felt like was cute or beautifull and now here im having my likes on display reblonging every thing even spicy things…i can even tell my sotry now because i know nobody will care for these long thingsπŸ˜‚but maybe someday i will find somebody who will be curious about these fhings and because i keep forgetting everything like an old woman i want to have my thoughts on multiple site so they will be on here even after 20 or more years…when i will meet with that gentle but firm human who will read me like im an open book who will be by myside and i wont have to worry about loosing that human because i will too precious to them they will accept me and i will gradually accept them who will be glad that i dont have my defense on anymore because theye walls detroy my inner peace…who will see me like a wounded animal who will know that my first try would be to push away the help my second would be to bite the hand thats coming close to me because i cant trust in it because i can never be too cautious and after getting hurt by me will gladly accept me as myself help me heal and accept my apology and reasuring me that it was obvious i will react like that that its obvious that i dont hide it that well…that human would see my every thoughts and after some time i would see them too…who will understand me more then i do myself…who will be as open minded as i am who will care about my past because its prt of me at this point…
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secretlysheikah Β· 1 year
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HIIIII
what is your favorite candy or sweet??
this has nothing to do with a certain reblong or any potential gifts...
<3
TYPOS! HI!!!
I love lots of candy, I have multiple sweet teeth. I love jelly beans (they are in season) and salt water taffy (the fruit kind). I also love chocolate and peanut butter M&M’s and sour candy. Sour candy is the best I don’t care if it hurts my mouth after a while.
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lotus-n-l0ve Β· 1 year
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JUJUTSU KAISEN MEN AS YOUR COLLEGE BOYFRIEND
β€” Sukuna, Satoru, Nanami, Toji, Suguru x Female Reader
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➷ ꜱʏɴᴏᴘꜱΙͺꜱ : JJK boys college!boyfriend headcanons.
➷ α΄‘α΄€Κ€Ι΄Ιͺɴɒꜱ : college!au, cursing, mention of sex, pet names.
➷ ɴᴏᴛᴇ κœ°Κ€α΄α΄ ΚŸα΄α΄›α΄œκœ± : Hello people. I'm back from hiatus. First time trying Headcanons so do tell me if I did something wrong or how I can improve. If you like the headcanons then please leave a like, comment and reblong. Follow me for more like this. Enjoy β™‘
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Ryomen Sukuna
Boyfriend!Sukuna who is definitely the captain of the basket ball team. Who absolutely destroys his opponents without any mercy.
Boyfriend!Sukuna who loves you to death. He loves every single small things about you. From the way you watch baby animals with a adorable look on your face to how you buzz with excitement whenever a new episode of your favourite anime airs.
Boyfriend!Sukuna who loves to show you off to littraly anyone and everyone. He loves just going to a random person and introducing you to them as his. 'My girlfriend', 'My girl', 'my princess'.
Boyfriend!Sukuna who loves when you brush the tip of your fingers over his tattoos or when you run your hand through his pastel soft hair. While having sex call him captain and he is gone. Let's just say you would not be able walk properly the next day.
Boyfriend!Sukuna whose eyes always look for you. Even in his basketball matches he is waiting for you to turn up. His game is getting better whenever he sees you wearing his jersey that you borrowed one day and never returned.
Can't wait to win the game and then ripping of the jersey from your body and devouring you all night long as a reward.
Gojo Satoru
Boyfriend!Satoru who is the heartthrob of the college. Girls wants to be with him and boys wants to be him. Eyes always following him around wherever he goes but his eyes are always stuck on you.
Boyfriend!Satoru who loves to annoy you to see your cheeks become red with frustration. When he realised that he was in love with you he straight up told you and congrats now you are dating the heartthrob of the college.
Boyfriend!Satoru who is lokey possesive. When others look at you or comment on he won't say anything on their face but don't be surprised if they suddenly disappeare into the thin air.
Boyfriend!Satoru who wants you attention like a attention sterved kitty. Pet him and that fucker will purr like a fucking cat. He is clingy and is not ashamed of it. He is your baby so you better take care of him. If you hurt him (not pay attention to him all the fucking time) he will pout and wait for you to sincerely 'apologise'.
Boyfriend!Satoru loves to dumb fuck you till the only thing you can do is utter nonchalant words. He has a superior kink and you can't convince me otherwise. He calls you names like 'little slut', 'cock warmer ' etc.
Wants you as his reward everytime he passes any exam.
Nanami Kento
Boyfriend!Nanami who is the topper of the college. His attention is always either on a book or on you. No in between. Hates when Satoru calls him Nanamin but when you do butterfly starts flattering in his stomach. You are his queen and he will fucking treat you like one.
Boyfriend!Nanami is such a sweet and supportive boy. College Boyfriend!Nanami who helps you with your academics or if you have any other problem. He will help any and every way he can.
Boyfriend!Nanami has a pet dog (not cat because they remind him of gojo) which he got because she reminded him of you. No gonna lie but he sometimes feel so jealous when you play with the dog instead of him and then feels stupid because he is Jealous of a dog.
Boyfriend!Nanami will gift you different kind of flowers everyday with a hand written note filled with complimenting and encouraging words. He will praise you for every small or big thing you achieve likeβ€” "I'm so proud of you." "You did great." Etc.
Boyfriend!Nanami who has a breeding kink. He is a family man so he naturally wants a family with you. He will over stimulate you to the point you pussy will throbe in pain. Loves to cum inside of you and the view of cum dripping down you pussy is all he wants after a stressful day.
Fushiguro Toji
Boyfriend!Toji who is the delinquent of the college. The scar on his lips is the proof. Everyone in the college fears him including the teachers.
Boyfriend!Toji who can't see you sad. First he will comfort and then hunt down reason of you sadness. One time a teacher insulted you without any reason so Toji taught him a 'lesson' and that teacher never even looked your way.
Boyfriend!Toji who loves when you kiss his scares. They don't feel dirty if you love them so much, specially the one on his lips which got while fighting the previous delinquent of the college.
Boyfriend!Toji is the most possesive one out them. His family never loved him or cared for him so he always feels like he doesn't deserve you but is too selfish to let you go. Those days you just hold him in your arm and assure him that you love him and will never leave him.
Boyfriend!Toji fucks you like a sex deprived man. He can and will eat you out like a sterved man. You are his own personal cumbag. He will plam your stomach to feel the bulge when he is balls deep inside you.
You are his personal whore so you better lay back and take everything he is giving you.
Geto Suguru
Boyfriend!Suguru who believes that everyone is bellow him. If Satoru has superior kink then this man has god complex. He thinks everyone is a lowlife. You are the only exception.
Boyfriend!Suguru will take you to expensive restaurants on dates. You know each and every single pincode to his cards. He gifts you jewellery, branded clothes etc. And when you tell him that you can't accept them, they are too expensive, he will reply with somthing like 'This is not expensive at all princess.' or 'This is not even half of what I spent in a day.' He is arrogant.
Boyfriend!Suguru who won't say but loves the cheap dango you buy everyday. Why does he act like that? Obviously because they are cheap. So when you force him eat one he will act like doesn't like them but internally prays that you force him to eat another one.
Boyfriend!Suguru brought a custom made coller for you with his name on it. He makes you wear it whenever you two are fucking. He will not let cum easily. He will tell you to earn it. He loves when you whine and moan for his cock.
Boyfriend!Suguru is wild. There is not a single corner in the house he has left to fuck you. The kitchen island? Check. The back of his car? Check. The terrace where everyone can see you being wrecked by him? Check baby.
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charleswatford Β· 3 years
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saj9 Β· 3 years
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To all the boys and men out there
You all are awesome. I know there are very little posts that appreciate us boys so how about I start it.
If you are fat you are awesome (though you should start exercising staying too fat is unhealthy).
If you are skinny, you are awesome.
If you are short, you are awesome.
If you don't earn great sum of money. You are still awesome.
If you are not physically strong and emotionally strong. You are awesome as well.
If you cry. You are awesome and strong. This is the same as above tbh.
If you fail your exams. Um..... Try again. You are awesome if you faught all the setbacks in life.
If someone says man up. Ignore them. They don't know what a real man is.
Stay positive guys. I hope this gets 50 reblongs. I am not asking for thousands. But if I get 50 reblongs. At least I can feel secure that people do know that people care about us as well. Because I don't see many posts like this.
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asphaltfchewinggum Β· 3 years
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thanks for reblogging my oposts that i like. stop reblonging the ones i dont care so much for. thank you though.. ok
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mickies-amadwoman Β· 4 years
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Hello everyone,
First off, I’d like to introduce myself as this is a new tumblr I made. My name is Mickie (they/them), I’m 24 years old and I love all things Taylor Swift, dogs, and Disney Pixar. For as long as I can remember I’ve connected to Taylor on a level I always convinced myself wasn’t possible. I am an abuse survivor and due to that pain, I went to her to survive. From the age of 10 years old, most of my positive memories were and are still associated with Taylor. To start this off on a positive note, let me show you some photos of me in my happiest of places, anything involving Taylor.
I sadly have no photos of me at The Fearless Tour so here is one I took on the 10 year anniversary of Fearless coming out.
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Speak Now World Tour:
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Red Tour:
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1989 World Tour:
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rep tour:
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Release of Lover:
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Wango Tango:
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Now here’s the hard part...I’m terrified to do this because one thing that’s really really hard for me is asking for help.....but here I go anyway because Taylor taught me that being fearless isn’t being unafraid, it’s being terrified and jumping anyway.
I have an eating disorder and have struggled with it for the past 15 years. One that’s almost killed me too many times. On June 1st of this year, I admitted into a residential treatment program for my eating disorder and other chronic mental health issues including bipolar disorder and C-PTSD. I stepped down to partial hospitalization two weeks ago and today my insurance decided to no longer pay for my care because β€œmy labs are now normal and I’m medically stable enough” to go down to intensive outpatient. Here’s the thing, I’d be okay with that if it weren’t for some other factors in my life right now that make that impossible. I’m homeless and have absolutely no way to make IOP a possibility because due to covid, everything’s gone virtual. With that happening, I’d need a place to stay with a computer and WiFi. With less than 24 hours notice, that’s pretty much an impossible task. I’m also nowhere near ready to step down as I’m still struggling with behavior use, self harm, and a lot of trauma responses. My team at program is very angry and is trying to fight for me to get the care I need but it’s seeming very hopeless at this point. My insurance company told my psychiatrist to not even try doing an appeal because they’re gonna say no anyway. How is this ethical? It’s not. What it is though is inhumane and unsafe. During my stay in PHP I had access to apartments to live in while going to program 11 hours a day, 7 days a week. However, those are no longer available to me because they don’t offer them in lower levels of care. I’m not trying to be negative but I know myself rather well and I know for sure I will not survive another relapse. My body won’t be able to handle it again. If it’s illegal to evict someone during a global pandemic, how is it okay to discharge me without a place to live or a team I can work with? That’s literally killing me. My life is not a monetary value, IT’S A LIFE and I deserve a real shot at getting better. So I’ve hit a point of self realization where I KNOW exactly where I need to be. I need to stay in partial hospitalization. So here’s me being very vulnerable and asking for your help. Please please reblong this is and if that’s all you’re capable of, that’s enough. I’m hoping that people can help me in some way, whether that be big or small. I am asking for support in this journey that I’ve been battling my whole life so I can change my entire family dynamic and my future. I want to be a Mom, I wanna see all the sunsets and every Pixar movie that comes out. I want to see everything Taylor does in her future too but I’m telling you that won’t happen if I have to leave treatment right now. I want to travel and see broadway musicals. I want a life worth living for the first time in 24 years. Treatment is very expensive and I have no way of paying for it out of pocket. I’m trying to stay hopeful and remind myself that I will get through this but to be 100% I’m terrified. I’m so scared that I’ll leave and since I’ll have nowhere to go and no way to buy food, my eating disorder will take control of me once again. I am sick of being sick...and I’m willing to do anything to finally be free from this debilitating disorder but I don’t think I can do it alone....in fact, I know I can’t do it alone. I need support in any way you can give it. If you read this whole thing, thank you. I appreciate you more than you know.
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saranyx Β· 5 years
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Me: β€œI want my blog to be aesthetically pleasing and organized to something”
Me: *reblongs everything I like without a care in the world*
Me: β€œFuck...”
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