#reblogging again because i think i just realized im a lesbian

[baby-dollinkz]

made this post on my old account but i can't find the reblogged ver. that was on my brothers blog so im doing it again but with the whole rainbow

need younger lgbt members to realize that labels are optional.

gay people who don't use the label of gay are as valid as those who do

lesbians who don't use the label of lesbian are as valid as those who do

bisexual/pansexual people who don't use the label of bi or pan are as valid as those who do

trans/nonbinary people who don't use the label of trans are as valid as those who do

a member of the lgbt who does not label themself are just as fucking valid as those who do. do not ever force someone who is unlabeled to have a label

also people are allowed to change who they are because, and i know this will be a shocker, people are always changing. you can think your a cis lesbian only to realize your just someone who doesn't identify with any gender or sexuality.

anyways be safe and just remember your always learning new things.

#neon blogging #lgbtq #psa #please don't use this post to harass anyone btw #this is for people to learn and grow from. not to be used as a weapon #this is also based on personal experiences of me and some people i know

[thornybushybrambles]

im not talking trans guys tho, but i could and do understand that one with the eroticism of words. a partner of mine used to refer to her clit as a dick and talk sexually going off of that. i obviously did not picture a dick. i imagined her as she was

i just mean the people who are legit talking about men men, not transmen, and getting off to imagining them; visuals, and what have you. that's what i'm referring to not being a lesbian thing

Again, I can't speak for anyone but myself, so you'd probably have better luck talking to the OP of some of the other reblogs. I get the skepticism, multiple exes of mine swore up and down they were lesbians and then would watch like, real life live action male gay porn, and imply we were on the same level. At the time, I didn't think much of it because I didn't wanna sound like I was judging, but now that I'm away from those spaces and people, I'm completely baffled by that and later realized that they would talk about having crushes on boys as kids and just, stuff like that where I couldn't relate to them. Then they'd get all pissed off bc they thought I was acting superior when in actuality I was just genuinely confused bc I'd thought we were on the same page.

So idk, maybe I phrased my posts in an unrelatable way, or maybe some of the other posters did, but all I do know for sure is what it's like to spend a good chunk of time divorcing your sexuality from your body and desires, and I relate to other lesbians who experienced that through fandom. I assume when they talk about slash, they're talking about the same things I was referring to and OP talks about in the original post ie: masculinizing your vocabulary, spending more time fantasizing about top/bottom roles and dynamics than bodies, seeing yourself and other transmascs as nonlesbians despite...being in a lesbian relationship and using fic as a way of writing it more solidly in stone.

I do agree with you that a woman imagining having sex with a man herself is not a lesbian, probably just a very heavy SSA bisexual, but the lines definitely get way blurrier imo when there's not even actual visuals, just the ones you make in your mind from your associations with words. The word penis turns me off because it's graphic and clinical and refers only to the male genitalia. Cock is vague and sexual, it's a naughty word and it can mean anything from clit to strapon to dildo in my head. The associations are just not even comparable for me.

#ask

[autisticmiqote]

a friend of mine reblogged from you and the url piqued my interest (big ffxiv nerd) please tell me about your catgirl

thank you SO much for asking (i will put many pictures of her under a read more but theres also one in my pfp :))

i forgot to put her name in the post so im putting it here. shes yarns sappha (probably gonna change it when i inevitably fantasia because shes become more of her own character and less of an "i am playing the game" self insert)

also disclaimer im only a little bit into stormblood so anything i say could very much be contradicted by info i havent learned yet

second disclaimer im in fucking ffxiv withdrawal right now because i dont have my mouse and im waiting until i go home for break so i can make my parents pay for it

my current backstory for her is that she was some type of guard at whatever nerd place alphinaud and alisae and krile came from (i forgor the name) (the wiki says sharlayan i should have known) i kind of just chose this arbitrarily lmao. i dont currently have a lot of story for her in my head apart from that and the fact that she is a Woman Liker.

i started with lancer for her because on previous characters i knew that i liked playing conjurer but i feel like i always play conjurer so i wanted to do something else that would let me start conjurer pretty soon

i think monk might honestly be my favorite class to play either that or bard- i feel like monk allows me some more flexibility in that i have like 3 main options per rotation (and also i really like the thunderclap ability lmao) but bard is fun because its like ohohohoho look at how much damage i can do with mages ballad + bloodletter >:)

i currently have all the base game classes except thaumaturge because i didnt like it when i tried it on another character (probably gonna try again with it at some point though). i started with healing but i realized i really fuck with tanking also (and it lets me dress up as a cowboy with an axe)

ANYWAYS. pictures now. (tumblr kinda ate the quality ngl)

my halloween outfit :) i think thats still my whm/sch glam

i just love this crouching pose

this is my dark knight outfit i like it a whole lot

i just saw this while i was looking through screenshots we love transgenderism

this is my astrologian fit :) ive been playing ast a lot

someone said this about my pld glam i owe them my life (image below) (it was intended to be a lesbian glam) (idk if you can see its a hawaiian shirt, sunhat, and shorts)

anyways i dont blame you if you didnt make it this far but again thanks so much for asking :) im normal and not autistic about this game at all /s

#ffxiv

[transmascore]

ive recently realised im transmasc and gay but my main blog for the past few years is very lesbian focused, saturated and oriented, since until recently i thought i was a lesbian. but i think it would be a bit obnoxious and jarring for me to suddenly start posting about being more masc and all the men im suddenly attracted to ....

it would be better to just leave my lesbian blog as is and make a whole new one for who i am now, right?

Sorry for the late reply - things have been hectic in real life between me being sick and having a lot of various tasks to work on. But I'm here now!

So, the thing is: the blog is your blog. And it's your space, your words, your journey. Especially since it's your main blog, I wouldn't feel pressured to leave it or start over if you don't want to. I know I still have reblogs back in my archive talking about wlw attraction, and posts from several months ago where I was talking about being mspec. For me, at least, my blog is both a time capsule and a reflection of who I am. It's got layers, like soil. There's the different eras of my life stacked up on top of each other. But, I've also had my main blog for 12 years and it's never been specifically focused on my gender or orientation as much as it's incidental to it.

Now, there's an artist I've reblogged work from here before - ryegarden. And his blog used to be primarily lesbian-oriented before he realized he was attracted to men also and that he's trans. Like, the sapphic work was his whole schtick as an artist, essentially. And, again, like with my main blog, he just kept posting on it - so you see the earlier art where it's sapphic focused, moving into the art that's now more trans and gay focused.

All of that said, though, there's nothing wrong with wanting a fresh start and keeping the lesbian blog as an archive. You're not obligated to keep posting on it or to transform it into something else. And maybe starting anew is what feels the most organic for you, because you won't have the expectations of posting the same sort of content.

Totally your call - it's ultimately what you're most comfortable with.

#asks #anonymous

[xhellodollyx]

I posted 89 times in 2022

43 posts created (48%)

46 posts reblogged (52%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@twyz

@chuckysource

@lexyscross

@marril96

@userethereal

I tagged 88 of my posts in 2022

Only 1% of my posts had no tags

#chucky - 69 posts

#chucky tv series - 38 posts

#chucky spoilers - 21 posts

#tiffany ray - 15 posts

#chucky tv series spoilers - 14 posts

#glen ray - 13 posts

#fanart - 12 posts

#glenda ray - 11 posts

#chiffany - 10 posts

#tiffany valentine - 10 posts

Longest Tag: 138 characters

#i do find it funny though that chiffany still seems to be going strong on the official chucky accounts like an outside canon sort of thing

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

IM LOSING MY MIND OVER THIS IMAGE

88 notes - Posted September 29, 2022

#4

Also seeing the Glen doll again and hearing the Seed of Chucky theme playing in the background it really felt like a true sequel to Seed that i never thought we'd get to see again in the franchise 😭

99 notes - Posted November 3, 2022

#3

Okay Im surprised that Don didn't make the twins campy and actually added emotional layers to them both, with Glenda talking about what having their dad be absent did to them and Glen also talking about the hole in their heart. Don actually emphasized the fact that the reason the twins dont feel whole and are so close, almost unnaturally so, because they shared one body for so long, two souls in one body, that it makes sense that even all those years later they would feel like two halves and not fully whole. Im SHOCKED don didnt make that into a joke and actually made it something people could sympathize with.

And adding layers to Glenda as well and not making them a caricature killer like their parents have turned out to be. Which again, makes me think that the fact Glenda was WORKING with Kyle and not just Glen, it makes me think they're gonna separate Chucky and Nica. Im wondering, and this is just a theory, a wild, wacky theory, BUT—

If Kyle survived and is alive, maybe Andy did too, and hell, maybe the Chucky head, the original Chucky, is in on this plan as well, because he realized he fucked up by making all these other versions of himself? Maybe thats why both the twins were clearly working with Kyle and possibly by some extension (if he's alive) Andy — maybe in exchange for the og!Chucky in some degree. Because right now they all have bigger problems than just the main Chucky, like a WAY bigger problem. And besides, maybe the twins just want their dad back— not one of the clones running around, but their actual Dad

136 notes - Posted October 27, 2022

#2

See the full post

187 notes - Posted September 27, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Glen: "Mom's a murderer?"

Glenda: "Mom's a lesbian?"

GLENDA OH MY GOD

189 notes - Posted September 14, 2022

Get your Tumblr 2022 Year in Review →

#tumblr2022 #year in review #my 2022 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review

[dogstarblues]

read Sisters of Sorrow. thoughts under the cut

realized ive been keeping my head down about my abuse and being dismissive of my own experiences more than i thought and that it wasnt actually me healing bc otherwise i would not have felt seriously empowered for the actual first time in my life reading about women dressing up in nun's habits and killing abusers and rapists with guns and rosaries. ive been ignoring posts that are like "kill all abusers" even tho thats my instinct and i desperately want to reblog them bc ive been trying to engage emotionally with harm reduction and transformative+restorative justice and like. emotionally its just not helping. i think they could be good practices when implemented on a community and institutional level but i dont have community outside of my online community and ive only known of two abusers (among all the people who hurt me and my friends) who ever fucking stopped of their own accord and tried to be better. because otherwise ive never heard of an abuser who just fucking stopped and justice doesnt happen institutionally. so i think i need to be angry again for a while longer, in a way that allows me to work through things. i need to learn to recognize my feelings before letting them go. and i think i need to feel like killing for a time to process my hurt. bc i think i just shut my hurt away with my last abuser who i have complicated feelings abt bc first lesbian relationship and all that. i dont want her dead. but what she did to me felt like it was in a different area or something, even tho ive been emotionally abused before. much to think abt there.

sisters of sorrow is especially timely since my first abuser, my mother, might be really sick and my first thought after breaking down crying the third time was to be apologetic abt what she did to me and have the urge to visit her and repair things when i had been wishing thay she was dead and wanting to rip her throat out with my teeth since i was 12 years old, if not earlier until the age of 28. and im 30. i KNOW seeing her is a horrible idea bc shes been trying to sink her teeth into me ever since i got out or clutches and the only reason my sister wants me there is to act as a buffer between her and my mother, who abuses her too. i should treat myself better. i shouldnt keep my head down about whats happened to me. i shouldnt keep saying my automatic reply of: "it's okay." i should learn how to acknowledge my anger before letting it go, before the waters in my river take it from me.

#dogstar speaking #abuse// #abuse mention//

[theultimatefanficwriter]

My Ships!

Hey guys! So currently it's late at night and I wanna write something to help me sleep. So here I am on my phone quickly writing out all my ships down so you guys can see what a loser I am lol.

Now feel free to discuss your opinions, but dont start any ship wars or bash anyone's ships, alright? Cool! So here we go! Each ship will have a short explanation as to why I ship it. And they are in order from favorite to least, though my least favorite is still one I like.

Ishimondo-This is my biggest comfort ship. I love enemies to lovers so much and these two idiots are just...such a beautiful tragedy.

Saimota-Can someone say bromance? Like please they were flirting so hard it hurts. They are dating your honor.

Saimatsu-Please the way she was able to motivate him? Even after death she helped him improve. They had such chemistry from the very beginning.

SakurAoi-Yeah yeah Sakura has a bf whatever. But they technically werent dating yet cause they were waiting til Kenshiro got well. So...LES GO LESBIANS! Hina was about to commit murder suicide for her boo. Literally lovers.

HaruKaito-So even besides the fact Maki straight up confesses, I disagree with people saying they dont have chemistry. They're adorable and Kaito opens her up to people. This ship is adorable af.

Tokomaru-Similair to Kaito and Maki! Komaru helped Toko be a better person! Like I hated Toko at first, but after UDG, shes a top tier favorite. This ship is too cute.

Soudam-Again I love enemies to lovers. Idgaf if they never show romantic interest in each other shut up. They're beautiful bastards, both of them.

Fuyupeko-...do...do I really need to explain? Just play the second chapter again lol.

Hinanami-Im not a big fan of Hajime. In fact hes my least fave protag. But I think the way they interact and the way he is around Chiaki is too fucking cute.

Sondam-They had the more obvious chemistry in the game, and I love Sonia with Gundham. They fit each perfectly, having similar interests. Plus how sad she was when he died? 😭

Kiiruma-Ok so they're a perfect fit right? Kiibo was one of the only ones to even care when Miu died, and Miu seemed to care about Kiibo. Yeah because she could upgrade him, but I feel theres more there!

Naihiro-Now this is a rare pair. I think the two of them are very cute and soft boys, so they relate to each other. Theyd be a very sweet couple.

Akanidai-Nekomaru literally died to protect Akane, and took two bazookas to the chest for her. They were inseparable. Case closed. They cute.

Daiyakure-Another rarepair. It's hard to ship Hiro with people cause you'll get hit with the "hes 21 and they're underage" argument. But with Daiya Oowada, you can say hey, fuck you! Theres literally no interactions between them. It's almost a crack ship. But I love it more than I should.

Naekure-Another Hiro ship, but this one can be justified by saying they start dating after they escape the game and they know they're both adults. I think Makoto would be a decent balance to Hiro's...everything.

Togakure-Same logic as with Makoto as to when they get together. Byakuya would be able to deal with his idiot enough to calm him down slightly. Plus it would be a funny contrast.

Ishikure-Ok now this is a bit harder to explain. I see it more as they were dating before the mind wipe, and in survivor aus theyd date again. I just think Hiro being the only one to care about him after ch 2 is sweet and that the two would be cute.

Hagekureon-Same reasoning as with Taka;Hiro and Leon were dating before the game and/or they date in survivor aus. I think the two idiots together would be an interesting combo, like with Ishimondo.

Naegami-Finally, back to well known ships!😅 So Byakuya clearly cares for Makoto even if he tries to hide it. He'd be a good partner to Makoto, if not a bit tsundereish.

Kuzusouda-Fuyuhiko was like the only one to try to curb Kazuichi's simping, and they have a nice friendship in the anime(from what I've seen and heard, havent seen all of it😅)so I think Fuyu would be able to help Kaz accept himself.

Asakure-Once again, getting together after game. My friend put it as "the two idiots getting together. Its cute." And hes not wrong lol Despite Hina being slightly smarter and the fact she bullied Hiro a bit in game, I can see them working off each other nicely.

Goshi-Firstly I just love the striking difference in their heights. It's funny as hell to me lmao. But secondly I think Gonta's sincereness and kindness could eventually break through to Ryoma and help him realize he isnt unlovable, and he is worth something.

Twobuki-I just think Ibuki's constant praise and lowkey flirting with Twogami is adorable, especially given his...size. Usually people would make a character like that completely unlovable, so the fact she was seen doting on him so much is adorable.

BandAid-Now I normally dont ship killers and victims. It just doesnt feel right to me. But given Mikan was more or less brainwashed into doing it, i kinda give this ship a pass. Plus i think Ibuki could help her be more confident in herself and stop letting others use her.

Soapies-I dont really like either of these characters, thus why its last on the list, but I think Mahiru is the only one who could "tame" Hiyoko, for lack of a better word. She could help her stop being a bully and actually open up to others. Plus they both care a lot about each other. It's cute. Its sweet.

So that's my list! It might grow, and if it does I'll reblog this post to add onto it! Feel free to give your opinions on it, but remember: no ship wars!

Alright imma go pass out now! Good night guys! Lol

#danganronpa #danganronpa 2 #danganronpa trigger happy havoc #danganronpa v3 #danganronpa ultra despair girls #ships #danganronpa ships #ishimondo #saimota #saimatsu #sakuraoi #harukaito #tokomaru #soudam #fuyupeko #hinanami #sondam #akanidai #daiyakure #togakure #naegami #kuzusouda #twobuki #bandaid #soapies

[37q]

hi. ive gotten your over 1000+ messages. i block you, you make another account, you send me another 50 messages, likes, reblogs with commentary, and i block you again. then you remake within a minute. i was hoping this past week would last forever. youve tried adding me on instagram and facebook via similar sock accounts, and ive had to lock key communication capabilities on this platform because of your relentlessness.

im really not sure why you think i have this much power over you. we chatted for a few months and connected over mental health and gender. im also not sure why youre putting the responsibility of your suicide on me. ive only ever discouraged your self harm, and i was an advocate for you until november when you told me that youre a danger to the world for identifying the way you do, and then you asked me permission to admit yourself to a psychiatric institution. that was when i realized that nothing i said could do any good. you gave me control i didnt want nor realize i had, and now instead of empowering yourself to seek help you keep yourself stuck in the idea that im holding you back.

i never called you a rapist, and i didnt defend anybody if / when they did call you specifically a rapist. the thread was about trans men, and people were recounting their trauma surrounding trans men utilizing "female" language to rationalize to lesbians that their intimacy was sapphic. some called it rape, because they were raped by these trans men via deception and other methods. you took this personally.

the group conclusion was that deceiving somebody by omitting vital information like that is a breeding ground for rape, and is itself evidence of a larger rape culture of men lying just to acquire sex. after over 150 comments, where you asked the one question 5 different times, i said you were behaving obtusely (not being stupid, because i dont think behavior is a mark of character save for the flows of karma) because you were refusing to see what was in front of you. what was in front of you was everyone, literally over 20 different people, telling you that there was a fundamental, irreconcilable difference between your and their values and that the conversation was unproductive, stressful, and triggering for everyone involved. you asked questions and they answered them, but you acted as though they didnt. thats comes off obtuseness, whether or not it was intentional on your end.

do you remember what i did? i told you that perhaps it would be better for your mental health to disengage from people that hate you, whose cultural values are so violently disparate from yours, and to look for community with people who understand. you were trying so hard to be accepted by that group, and for what? you understand their, and my, POV as colonialist and overwhelmingly white, so what do you gain from trying to get them to understand and accept you? you told me that doing so made you suicidal as well because you werent true to yourself.

i understand that you have a lot of sexual trauma. i dont think its appropriate to talk about someone elses trauma publicly, but youve kinda... made it impossible not to. i understand you feel a lot of shame for having sexual feelings in general, and you assume the responsibility of sexual violence that isnt related to you because youve been made to feel responsible for the sexual violence youve personally experienced in the past. do you lie to your partner? i know you dont, because shes an incredible advocate for you, and shes expressed an understanding of you that aligns with your own expressions of self understanding.

you saw "trans men have raped me by lying about who they are" and read it as "sapphic transmasculinity is rape". youre forgetting that the condemnation is in the action and not the being -- if youre on the same page about who you both are, how can that be deceptive?

weve talked about the confusion and ambiguity of reconciling your gender with the colonially gendered landscape, and weve talked about ways you can be true to yourself without putting you in harms way, e.g. social retribution. ive said that identity and lifestyle are negotiable, private, nuanced; would someone ask if youre a binary or a nonbinary transmasc in public? would they ask you why you consider yourselves lesbians despite the fact that you also consider yourself a trans man? ive stated that literally none of that is their business, that information such as that is only acquired on an at-will basis. i said if youre fearing for your life, dont hand someone else a weapon. youre fearful of others, particularly lesbians, weaponizing

i think people who call themselves trans men cant be and arent lesbians. theres a semantic distinction there, where trans man is a binary identifier, based in colonial understandings of gender impermanence, much the same way that lesbianism is as a historical concept and word. weve talked about this, about how language that you use may cause misunderstandings due to cultural differences, or even if they do understand what youre meaning they can still have the capacity to dislike you.

EDIT:

so you only wanted to become friends with me because i validated you? what the hell?

i think that throughout the conversations we had, you read into my language a lot. i dont think trans men (nor "transmales", a term we had never used) can be lesbians, in fact ive always ensured i never state such a thing in particular, and we had never talked about "cuspers". the most ive said is that you can make anything work, even if others dont understand the way you feel. i have also never agreed with anyone calling you a sexual abuser.

ive always emphasized the fact that unethical living isnt centered on an inner self but on your choices, and thats why i told you that sexual abuse is an action and not a state of being. if youre not deceiving them (like by misgendering yourself) or weaponizing their compulsory heterosexuality then how does any of this apply to you? ive told you that living your life as you want to without trying to get everyone to understand is the best way to avoid all the conflict youre concerned about, like that some wouldnt want to be intimate with someone like you but if others do and youre on the same page then i dont see whats wrong or why you feel so threatened by not being universally validated for it. some will understand, some wont. so i have no idea how closeting yourself was a natural course of action. like im genuinely so baffled. why do the literal opposite of my words have any impact on your material life like what

the fact of the matter is that men sexually abuse and traumatize lesbians by weaponizing their compulsory heterosexuality all the time, and youre carrying that responsibility yourself when youre doing nothing of the sort... im not going to stop pointing out men's, even trans men's, propensity for sexually abusing lesbians just because you call yourself a man and you're into women.

im not responsible for you putting all your self esteem in my opinion of trans men. i didnt lure you in with an opinion i didnt have because ive never stated such things, and i didnt bait you into an obviously traumatizing situation in a facebook group because you had never expressed the extent to which you feel like a man until that thread. i dont know if you know this but i hate men, and my other male friends are able to reconcile with that. i have been abused in numerous ways by men in the past and have little to no faith in them, having grown up a closeted transfem, but you sought me out on the grounds of my amiability to men -- in particular to them being lesbians -- gave me power over your life, and werent able to handle the fact that i wasnt the image you made of me. for the love of god stop caring about what i think

[kendricksendrick]

Just saw this and wanna answer a few of them :))) feel free to dm me and im sorry in advance if i take forever to reply lmao

My pronouns are she/her, i went back and forth for a while with she/they but i think she/her is me :)) and im a lesbian

Currently the thing that makes me the most happy is seeing an audience of people enjoying a concert together, i took that SO for granted before covid and ive cried at all 3 concerts ive been able to attend/play at since things began to open up. There was such love in the air from everyone appreciating live music together i cant even express how happy it made me seeing everyone else enjoying things together again.

Something I’m very proud of is my solo clarinet recording from this past semester.

https://youtu.be/KFwxAPf82X0

I worked so hard on it, and actually began learning it just as covid hit, i moved home, my life was turned upside down like so many others but after a year of working on it with my private teacher I’m super proud of where I’m at right now. Its also a little bittersweet tho because I’m getting a new private teacher in the fall (again) and this video really shows how muc ive grown in the past two years w the woman I formerly studdied under. I learned so much from her :)

My pride playlist is garb, and i hold myself on a very high pedestal w my playlists so heres one of my go to’s. Mainly early 2010s bangers, it always lifts my spirits when im sad and is great for parties!!

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5mGxIUALVuIYaWAMo4pqdu?si=Ly6ON82hSYi5ozRDL-orjg&dl_branch=1

I dont remember realizing i wasnt straight, but recently i realized all the things i did as a kid that should have been obvious to myself that i wasnt straight. Remembering things lik that makes me laugh, like how didnt i know?? The moment i knew i was gay tho was my first time kissing a girl, it wasnt even good but i was still like yeah this is it.

Fave ship is bechloe, duh

On second thought, bechloe shouldve been a HUGE red flag to myself that ive always been gay like cmon haha

Someone who inspires me is my private teacher. Hearing her play for the first time and realizing shes an actual GOD at what she does showed me like what i could live up to. What i could strive for. Ive always been good at the clarinet, not to suck my own dick, but i practiced the bare minimum when i first started playing bc it was fun, and eventually levelled myself out a bit in high school. It wasnt until i started taking lessons in college that i realized the possibilities, and realized how far ive come in such a short time.

Ok ig i cant link the song that reminds me about pride but ill reblog w it, ive just been listening to it on repeat recently and ig it gives me pride vibes?

Finally id like to thank the first girl i ever had a major fucking crush on for helping me get to where i am w my sexuality. Literally could not have done it wo her. And i hope she never sees this ahaha

#Spotify #Youtube

[jasperwhitcock]

Favorite Twilight blogs?

i’m always ready to answer this ask again because i love mentioning everyone i admire hehe. here are my fave blogs, my friends, & why they’re the best. ♡

@bellasredchevy ugh i love kae. do i have the power to appoint a ruler of the renaissance? no. but if i could... it’d be kae bc all her takes are the takes. i think her answers to asks are always either really funny and witty or just really smart. she’s super kind but she’s also a very no bullshit person because she’ll tell it like it is to shitty anons. she also has really cool life experiences that she’ll very casually mention and you’re like i’m sorry what. u worked w... tigers??? why can’t i let that go this is literally not the first time i’ve brought that up lmao. anyways, if kae told me to jump off a cliff (recreationally and recklessly), i’d do it. 

@inthemiddleofmymidnight i think kim is the first friend i made on here. she’s wonderful and insanely funny. maybe i’m just easy to make laugh but every story she tells truly makes me laugh out loud... and i’ll laugh again thinking about it later. she is truly a meme queen. her posts... chef’s kiss. also she will put team edward/team jacob shirts in ur animal crossing able’s sisters if u ask. i love u kimmie im ur biggest fan. also like me, kim would be afraid to dive off the cliff if we were cliff diving but then she’d be the one to PUSH me sdhjfhsj i just love her so much. her friendship literally means so much to me!!

@bellaskhakis nayana is the type to go from trashing edward relentlessly to simping for edward in 2 seconds. in real life she’s probably stressing over school but mentally she is in forks, wa in bella & edward’s lil cottage reading fanfiction. if u need recommendations, she’s got u. she’s a great listener & friend & her humor is like wonderfully chaotic. she’ll cry but then she’ll take that energy and drunk liveblog the twilight movies or buy a bunch of plants. if ur friends w her, she will send u all the funny tiktoks & that is LOVE. nay would think she would want to cliff dive but then need to talk herself into it while everyone else goes first and then realize she was the last person up there and freak out but then dive anyways

@cullen-collective omg kaity is such a great person to talk to. she’s like jacob – she’s an easy person to talk to. she listens but also really makes u feel comfortable & like u’ve been friends forever. kaity don’t read the rest of this paragraph i don’t want u to feel self conscious/overly self aware hehe BUT my fave part of kaity’s blogs as i’ve said to her before is like the literal stream of consciousness happening in her tags. why do i feel like kaity would run and JUMP. would she do a cannonball??? i would like to see it

@teamjacobthot my love for dij... unconditional. irrevocable. dee is just like COOL. why did i feel so lame saying that. she just has the best energy and i know i keep calling everyone funny but really dee is FUNNY. like kaity, she’s also the kind of person that i feel like you just automatically get along with & feel comfortable around. obviously we’re all here for fun but i feel like dee’s blog really embodies that fun like no other because either in her posts or notes or answers to asks... it’s the most chaotic unexpected topics that will truly kill u. im thinking of that freaking diarrhea ask she got that she just reblogged again... cursed. but i love her. look i’m not saying she WOULD bc i’m sure it’s probably much scarier once ur actually up there but i feel like dee would also be the instigator with cliff diving and do some kind of trick like a flip idk if she really would but MAYBE

@howlonghaveyoubeenseventeen emma is the ultimate sweetie. always down to talk abt cute dogs or painting or disney channel movies or how jacob is superior to all. she’s just precious and kind but ready to THROW DOWN for u in one second. i literally have been laughing at the same joke for like two weeks but when i said two hurricanes looked like they were coming towards houston she said “good thing i have two fists” shdusdjdkd. emma is the type of friend who would remind u that if u really don't want to jump off the cliff, don’t feel peer pressured bc u don’t have to. but then if u built up the courage, she’d be the one to hold ur hand and jump with u. ok i’m retiring the cliff diving thing i’m sorry i really RAN with that.

@kaquiche man i love taryn. i feel like taryn’s meme usage is always perfect & also she would definitely save ur life. she does ARCHERY ok she would protect us all in the event of a zombie apocalypse. i’m literally fighting the urge to say FUNNY again but it’s not my fault if everyone makes me LAUGH here. taryn’s one of the first people i remember seeing interact w my posts 🥺 she been supporting me since DAY ONE baby. i just love her. she’ll hype u up. she’ll always make u CRY with her twilight video edits. seriously if u want that emo twilight content to make u FEEL SOMETHING... this is who to follow.

@bellas-dumptruck-ass i love elaine and she’s going to laugh at me again but i really think elaine is so smart!!! like a genius... my brain could not process the info that she’s literally studying like it’s no big deal. elaine is so sweet ugh i keep saying that but everyone is just really super kindhearted here ok!! her username KILLS me. like i think this is truly peak comedy. her brand... it’s everything to me. classic memes & great tags.

@phil-dwyer-stan-account addison is SO SO nice and understanding and sensitive. if nayana is in bella & edward’s cottage reading, addison is in there baking bread and cookies and brownies. she’s beautiful and sweet and silly and has the disney channel TEA you didn’t know you needed. she’s another person that will instantly befriend you. she’ll go out of her way to really let you know that she admires you & is excited to be ur friend. the actual definition of a sweetheart. is she the real life esme?? she might be

@volturialice g... i’m lowkey her biggest fan. name a post that didn’t go off...i’ll wait. like literally all of her memes will make u laugh. u know what?? g IS the twilight renaissance. her latest midnight sun posts have especially been making me die and if you’re new here, she’s probably like one of the first blogs u have to follow. every time i see her username in my notifications... my heart is FAT 💗 also she writes fanfics so if ur looking for twilight fanfiction, she has a bunch & also a rec!!

@leahclearwaterdefensesquad kate is so kind & one of my go to people for tag games, but kate is ALWAYS providing the leah content that we NEED. also the lesbian twilight ship moodboards and PLAYLISTS. i also really appreciate how kate & @vampireguarddogs are always some of the first blogs i see that boost a lot of important talking points related to the series on racism. bc if you’re going to be in this fandom, there’s a lot you need to make sure you’re educated on since this series is problematic. like we’re all here to be nostalgic and have fun but we can’t do that whilst ignoring relevant conversations. dee & kae also always have great takes in these discussions too!

@edytheelizabethcullen ok i’m going to try & wrap this up bc i’ve been going on forever and there’s a lot of blogs i really love & admire, but i’ll finish by saying that alex is an actual angel and so intelligent and charming and u will have great conversations about the series with her!!

#sorry for this LONG ASS POST but u asked #ask #anon #faves

[razanartuk]

about me tag game thing

i was tagged by the wonderful @nothingunrealistic! thank you very much ily <3

under read more bc i was not capable of keeping my answers brief this time around

why did you choose your url?

this...was supposed to be a short explanation but it turned into quite a tale so strap in i guess because we are going on a ride. back in 2017 i was just getting into musical theatre rp and i was still feeling too shy to really talk to anyone ooc so i would just wait for people i wanted to interact with to post starter calls so i could just do things in character with them the easy way. So i did this with my friend cam, who posted a starter for me using a lyric from If I Could Tell Her. she linked the song so i could listen to it, so i did and i went ‘wait a minute, is that Ben Platt from Pitch Perfect?? (and other things too, but i only recognized his voice at the time bc of the acappella girl movies)’ and yes it certainly was.

i had zero idea what the plot of Dear Evan Hansen was about at that point, and for some reason based off Just That One Song and the poster art of who i assumed was Some Guy in a Polo Shirt i started to think it was about some jock guy who broke his arm and had an emo/goth friend who had either died or gone missing under mysterious circumstances. also i intuited that Evan had a crush on his friend’s sister but he couldn’t tell her that directly or his emo friend would kick his ass. so i was like mostly wrong, but a little bit right.

oh and i knew jared and alana were characters from the show bc cam said that they were i think?? but i had no idea what their role was. so after listening to if i could tell her, i listened to good for you and all i really got out of that was that evan the apparently not-jock guy had done...something... that really hurt jared and alana. and at that point i finally decided to go look up a plot synopsis and i found out i was waaay off base. but honestly this is why cast recordings should include scene dialogue in the songs bc otherwise you just get soundtracks like dear evan hansen where the songs have like. zero context. we really just go from waving through a window to for forever to sincerely me without like. any reason as to what is happening huh. It’s honestly not a surprise anymore that all those people on twitter had no idea the plot isn’t about gay teenagers.

anyways. cam was writing jared and she made a post at one point about wishing somebody would write alana and i was like ‘oh i could do that!’ (after i had actually Seen a bootleg and finally knew what the whole story was, of course) so i made a multimuse rp blog featuring alana beck, nabulungi hatimbi, chloe valentine and some other characters, and cam started sharing her headcanons with me that alana is trans, jared and alana were close friends when they were little kids but they sort of drifted apart as they got older and their priorities in life changed, jared was the first person alana came out to when she realized she’s trans, etc.

one night i started talking about wanting to pick a more theatre-relevant url for my blog and trans-[character name] urls were getting pretty popular, and at least 3 of the friends i made through rp had changed theirs to coordinating trans-[character name] and i think it was cam suggested i should make mine be trans-alana so i did. eventually i realized the unhyphenated version was available so i changed it to transalana with no hyphen and i have lived here ever since. sometimes i think about changing it but i feel like transalana has become a part of My Brand and i am not so great with coming up with cool names for things.

any side blogs? if you have them, name them and why you have them

in theory, i have sideblogs... i don’t really use them, but of the ones i do have, there is:

emsbookblog - this was supposed to be where i would post excerpts of the book that i’m working on, but i think i did that maybe one time roughly 2 years ago and then promptly forgot about it/got nervous about my writing and was scared to share anything else. the rest of the stuff that is there is assorted writing tips. i don’t really know what to do with it now. i probably should post all my little thoughts about em and anita and caleb there instead of infodumping on my main from time to time, but if i do that then i have to promo a sideblog and direct people over to it which is always annoying to me when i could just do it on this blog which is much easier

dearnovelhansen - this is basically no longer used, but was a sideblog i made specifically to talk/complain about the novel adaptation of Dear Evan Hansen which was about 3 years ago?? maybe? i can’t be trusted to understand the passage of time. but to summarize: i thought it was an honor just to have the story be made more accessible since many of us couldn’t see the stage performance, but i hated a lot of the creative liberties that were taken. my main grumbles are that everyone who isn’t evan or connor is done so dirty in the novel. connor’s still kind of done dirty in the book, but not as much as like. heidi, alana, jared, and zoe are.

horseisle3 - this one was meant to be a place where i could just enthusiastically post screenshots from hi3, but instead it turned into a blog where i occasionally reblog other players’ hi3 content and bitch about how bad the game admins are bc hi3 is the tumblr famous (infamous?) homophobic horse game. the game where it was once okay to call your club store the gulag bc according to their head of hr, ‘it’s just a russian word for prison’ but you can’t say ‘im gay’ without somebody accusing you of corrupting young children who play the game. unfortunately there aren’t very many good interactive horse games out there, so this one is still about as good as it gets. it’s either that or star stable and i don’t care about star stable.

mlaenie - i’ve had this url saved for i don’t even know how long. way way way back in the day when i wanted to escape from the clutches of the onceler fandom i abandoned my first blog where i basically had an alter ego i guess?? and i decided to just be myself on the new blog. i don’t fully remember who came up with it, but one of my sister’s mutuals suggested that if you scrambled the letters in your name you could come up with aesthetic-looking urls. so lauren’s url became lrauen, and to match with her mine became mlaenie, which i abandoned on tumblr after about a year or so? but have continued to use as my main username on twitter, reddit, youtube, xbox, steam, and discord. i barely ever use any of these accounts aside from twitter, steam, and xbox, but yeah. so i’ve decided to try and turn this empty sideblog into a place for video game thoughts maybe. we’ll see how long it lasts this time around.

how long have you been on tumblr?

i made my first tumblr account in december of 2010, but i didn’t understand how to use it at all or how to customize my theme to look cool and unique so i quickly abandoned it. i made a new account in september of 2011 after some kids at school and my sister told me i should and i have been trapped here with varying degrees of activity/inactivity ever since. i have witnessed the rise and fall of the lorax/onceler fandom, hyperfocused on lord of the rings, star wars and back to the future all at the same time, and for the past 4 years i’ve mostly been a musical theatre blog with assorted other fandom stuff mixed in. i feel i have seen everything and nothing, but mostly i’m just tired and bored.

do you have a queue tag?

no bc i don’t use a queue. i’ve tried using it in the past but i irrationally feel pressured to sustain a coherent theme to queued posts and my brain simply does not vibe with that so i just don’t use it at all anymore. Instead i instantly reblog or post several unrelated thoughts in succession and then don’t post again at all for 3 days. the way god intended

why did you start your blog in the first place?

my very first blog was intended to be a place for me to post all of my petz 5 animals’ profile info, but i didn’t have any understanding of how coding worked at all and i don’t think i really wanted to learn, either. so it just sat there, unused. my second attempt at blogging was as a classic rock fandom person, so as you can probably imagine i was pretty pretentious about ‘modern pop’ vs the beatles, the rolling stones, the who, the monkees, and so on. and then i slowly devolved into a lorax fandom blog and everything went to shit so i made a new blog for lord of the rings/the hobbit which later evolved to include star wars and back to the future blogging. and then for the past 4 years i’ve been mainly a musical theatre blog with other random stuff i like thrown haphazardly into the pot. wonderful.

why did you choose your icon/pfp?

because my url is transalana and two of my most prominent lgbt headcanons are that alana beck is trans and a lesbian. i gotta be shouting out @kinqmike though bc she’s the one i adopted the trans alana beck headcanon from in the first place!

why did you choose your header?

in 2017 i was hyperfixating on Dear Evan Hansen (and Be More Chill, but there weren’t many gif-able videos then considering it ran for a month in New Jersey in 2015 and there was only one yet-to-resurface 35 minute bootleg) so i just grabbed a random gif off of google. i really should get to replacing it with a new header of my own though. i just don’t know what i should do for it.

what’s your post with the most notes?

i have lost track of how many notes it has (i think it’s somewhere around 200 now?) but when Will Roland and George Salazar performed Two Player Game on Good Morning America, i posted a screencap of their Jeremy and Michael along with that one quiz answer meme that says stuff like ‘i want to see it grow up healthy’. i didn’t tag it with any ship names or anything because i was anxious about having it show up in the tags, but somebody who reblogged it from me did tag it as boyf riends and i firmly believe it took off because of that. i don’t think i make posts that are relevant enough to amass thousands of notes, even by accident. which is probably a good thing bc if i did i would have to block so many of them.

how many followers do you have?

on this blog? 175 according to the counter. how many of those are still real people and how many are bots and abandoned accounts? i have no idea.

how many people do you follow?

i try to keep it somewhere around 200. i think i’m sitting at 180 right now but i kind of need to go through and clear out the really inactive blogs.

have you made a shitpost?

let’s think about this for a second. i’ve been on tumblr for nearly 10 years. you might even be able to say i’ve made more than one. they’re just not what you would call...popular shitposts.

how do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ post?

that stuff makes me so incredibly anxious that i have to fight the urge to want to yeet my laptop or mobile device through the closest window whenever i read it, so i try very hard to avoid any sort of ‘if you don’t reblog this, i’m judging you’ posts. i find them very manipulative and not particularly helpful

do you like tag games?

yeah babey!! i just frequently forget to do them, but please know that if you have ever tagged me in a tag game i felt incredibly touched by the gesture and the @mention even if i completely forgot to do the thing afterward

do you like ask games?

i do! but also rip to literally anyone who has ever sent me an ask meme bc it takes me so long to answer them. i’m still working on a micro fic prompt from a few weeks ago. also, horrified to realized that it has in fact been a few weeks and not 3 days anymore.

which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

i don’t know that any are tumblr famous as a whole. but probably @neverheardnothing

do you have a crush on a mutual?

in any sort of romantic connotation? no. not that i’m aware of. there are mutuals that i have friend crushes on where i want to be friends with them but i get so anxious when it comes to meeting new people that usually nothing ever comes of it. i’m really not good at small talk or other casual conversation either which, as you may or may not be able to imagine, sucks. i just wanna skip over all of the awkward introductions and ‘hey how are you, how is life, what are you doing with yourself?’ stuff. not because i don’t care about it. i do, but i think most of my friends/the people i want to be my friends are also depressed and anxious so asking these basic questions about life tends to uh. make us all nervous. and i don’t do much with my life so i always have the most boring answers anyways.

i’m not tagging anyone officially bc the @ thing has just completely given up on me at this point, but if you want to do it, go for it. and then say i tagged you so i can read it c:

#mel.rtf #abt me #tag games

[felidaeng]

@tikki-tok this is under readmore because i dont want any of my followers taking this as a cue to be rude or anything? but i.. okay, i dont like to talk about the specifics of my sexuality bc im still unclear of my orientation, and i dont think i ever will go back to labels as they feel constricting and cant cement my personal identity, so i dont feel comfortable putting it anywhere on my blog, but i am by all means asexual. i get the “feeling broken or wrong”, not just for not having sexual feelings but also for struggling with not knowing whether i was experiencing romantic or platonic feelings towards others. i get it!!

the uncertainty on the matter comes from the fact that someone automatically being deemed lgbt for being ace, even if they are cisgender and heteromantic, doesnt make much logical sense, but JUST AS MUCH, if someone is aro/ace, they arent straight, are they? thats where i struggle, and thats why i dont have a true opinion. i read through thoughts from both sides, educate myself through them, and become more aware of the points being made. i used to actually be a staunch exclusionist back in high school, but then i realized i wasnt getting the whole picture. 

so, here i am. believing that ace people getting actively kicked out of lgbt spaces is of course not okay, but also thinking that someone whose only connection to the lgbt community is being asexual will never be able to understand what lgbt really go through. does this mean i think they should be removed? no, of course not, but you have to understand that just because you do not experience sexual attraction does not mean you can equate yourself to a gay or trans person. oppression isnt the only thing that defines lgbt, but it does play a major role in every lgbt persons life. i was once in a lesbian (at the time, because this was before i realized i was trans and then society viewed me as a woman) relationship. and frankly, i was never once treated poorly for being asexual, while on the other hand, i lived in legitimate fear of my relationship being discovered, and was almost outed multiple times with the chance of it coming back to my bigoted and abusive family. not to say that asexuals arent targeted or put down by others at any point, but you gotta understand that most of it is online. if you go to any sort of physical lgbt space, more often than not they’ll be supportive of including asexuality. meanwhile, oppression is a very real thing that lgbt people face every day without fail, directly or indirectly. comparing bigotry against ace people to bigotry against trans or bi, etc, people cant be done, theyre entirely different ballparks!!

as for the reblogging from exclusionists... i didnt check any of them to see what their stances on the ace discourse was bc i only reblogged for information regarding the ace flag, some of them straight up being from googling for more sources. turning the conversation to exclusion or inclusion at that point would be derailing from the hypocrisy and lesbophobia that google displayed, and it really is not the time nor place to be discussing this. again, i say this as someone who is asexual.

sorry if this isnt as coherent as id like it to be, and i wont ask you to unblock me, but i just wanted to let you know my viewpoint.

#shadow talks #tikki tok

[pinksthetics]

Flag anon back, that might be true about problems between bisexuals and pansexuals (and I know that’s not limited to non binary people, but also binary trans people based on what my bi friends tell me and what my trans friends have been told), but that’s not stated at all in the post? And OP was very clear that they could make a post specific to bi issues in the notes, but this still happened anyway. To me this felt like a real “all lives matter” moment and if I was good at image editing I’d be slapping that prison stripe straight pride flag onto this because I basically get the same thing out of either. Feels like an issue important to me brought up on a post about people like me is now about infighting within the “B” umbrella without even saying the word pansexual? I’m sorry it’s just frustrating because I know this week someone will be telling me that I can’t be a lesbian if I’m attracted to non binary people, but hey did you know that bisexuality means you can pick two genders (that’s where the bi comes from!) and you can pick non binary and women! That is the plot to literal conversations that I have had with people. Totally fair that pansexuals don’t have a claim to non binary people, but OP was telling people in the notes to stop making it about bi people - bisexuals weren’t excluded to be mean, they were excluded because people tend to be far more close minded about “homosexuals” and who they can be attracted to. Again I’m sorry, I’m just tired of having my identity policed and I’m frustrated and partly taking it out on you. People keep telling me and my trans friends that “bisexuality is the only moral sexuality” and that “the only people who could love a trans person are bisexual” so there’s a lot of real life harmful messaging there 😔

ok putting ur next ask and my response under the read more bc this got rly long 

Flag anon again, okay I think I just needed to kind of yell that out into the empty void that is the internet. Sorry to have made you the victim of that dump, but I guess all of the things have been telling me and my repressed feelings have been swirling around for a while. Just to be clear I fully have nothing against bisexuals as people (the majority of my irl friends are bisexual and are thankfully super nice apart from the odd micro aggressive comment). It just rubbed me the wrong way that I get hateful messaging from some people in the bisexual (not pansexual) community specifically and I felt like the original post might be something that those bisexual people might see and maybe introspect on their attitudes, but with the addition I feel like all of that is lost in them fighting an invisible unnamed enemy. Either way, I guess I have some trauma and this post set me off a bit so I’m sorry again! I just hope people will remember the original point of the post above all else because there are a lot of posts I’ve seen about bisexual and pansexual issues related to non binary people, but there are far less for lesbians and gay men sadly 😔

ok i understand what you’re saying and i see that op doesnt want people to derail the discussion from talking specifically about gay and lesbian people but the original post did say “every sexuality” and i feel like at this point you’re talking about issues beyond just the point of this post. you’re completely valid as a lesbian for being attracted to trans and nonbinary people but it doesnt sit right with me that you have this much frustration towards bi people, whether you realize it or not. 

the addition to the post really did not have any harmful messages as far as i see it, so it seems like your frustration stems from things that other people have said to you. im sorry that people have disrespected and invalidated you. however, the bi community is not “fighting an invisible unnamed enemy.” bi people face just as much invalidation and i recommend you look into that and try to understand it. there really needs to be solidarity between the gay and bi communities because, while we each face our own issues, theres a lot of overlap. 

once again, i completely understand that the original post was specific to gay and lesbian people. its not uncommon for people to add to posts and take away focus from where it should be. if you look in the notes of any posts you’re bound to find some upsetting comments. the important thing is that you have the choice to just reblog the original or even make your own post. 

i really hope you can speak with your friends about how hurtful their comments can be if they are saying things that come off as micro aggressions. and i hope you can find peace in solidarity throughout the lgbt community because honestly its counterproductive to create issues between communities. we all need a space to talk about the problems we face and we should all be supporting each other through it 

#long post

[lethbians]

can you explain what's going on right now? i keep seeing big IT blogs talking about some discourse or something but i have no idea what they're talking about other than it involves you lol

alright i like. i truly do not like having diScOurSE out in public because i’m not one to air out my dirty laundry 24/7 but seeing as how it was brought into public against my will i feel like the least i can do is clear up the situation for those who’ve been seeing the posts. 

i’m putting this under the cut bc it’s long. tws for some biphobia, brief mention of transphobia and, at the end, a rape mention. 

so if you don’t know: hi, i’m migz, i’m an it fandom blogger. its okay, i know, its really cool. part of my shtick here is that i like to turn normal thirst tags into works of art for the sake of comedy. perhaps you’ve seen some of my highlights from my “fhg” tag - perhaps your brain has been spared. either way, it became kind of “my thing” around the third or fourth week (mid nov) of me having this blog. at first, i tagged just about every ask i got mentioning the thirst tags with “bill hader” - they had to do with him, so why not tag him? it would draw more like minded people! about two days into that i got a message asking me to tag my nsfw. i am a big dumb idiot, and apologize for not initially doing it. i havent had a following bigger than like 10 in several years and completely spaced on basic etiquette. so by the end of november i was tagging everything applicable  with “notsfw” and “bill hader”. 

now you’re caught up.

on december 1st i got this message from user billhaderanti:

now i want to start by saying i absolutely was in the wrong here. i didn’t even think about how many people were being subjected to the asks i was getting - especially ones who had no idea they were all jokes. i don’t track the bill hader tag, so it just didn’t even occur to me - that’s ignorance on my part, and to anyone who was subjected to the terrors of me before my tagging system: i am genuinely sorry. i relay the same sentiment in my response, though you can tell i’m on edge.

and they replied:

clearly they Were offended by it but thats.. not the point. at this point, im feeling Really weird about the whole interaction, but still understanding, because again - i GET it. i know my posts are gross - that’s the point. it doesn’t make it excusable, though, which is why i understand why people are offended. so i responded with the only solution i Knew would keep us both safe and happy posting on our own blogs. 

so i thought this would be the end of things! i’d been pretty anxious lately already since i’d started to receive anons telling me i was gross and whore-ish for thirst posting in this way (i delete all of those, so if ur thinking about sending one, i guess no one’s stopping you but it won’t be seeing the light of the dashboard). i’m unsure if it was immediately or a few hours later, seeing as how i have a bad concept of time and the post-dates are right on the edge between nov 30 and dec 1, but i went to their blog - because anyone who has been on the internet knows the opportunity to vague post is near irresistible. and...what do ya know

fair! it’s their blog. however i am an emotionally fragile egg girl and immediately got freaked out. the odds that they were the only one who thought this were low. and, again, i’ve been very open on my blog about how important it is to respect boundaries; my posts are absolutely prone to breaking those boundaries people have created for themselves. 

so i made my own, semi-vague post, letting my following know (and i’m pretty sure i’d answered asks about it before, but this is going to be long enough w/o me searching those up too) that i understood if they wanted to block me or unfollow or whatever - people need to create their own safe spaces. the tension is pretty clear in the tags, i’m not trying to hide that. i felt that the way this woman slid into my dm’s was pretty abrasive (just my opinion/how it made me personally feel) and i let myself be a lil emotional about it in the tags of my post.

alright! maybe this is the end. maybe we both go our separate ways and post happily on our own blogs... except it’s not the end. later in the day (some of this was happening like 1/2am, so now its Day day, i believe - again, not good w time passage lol)

clearly, i’m upset. my groupchat double checked that i didn’t get too emotional in my response - did i mention im anxious about discourse lol - and apparently.. it did the trick. she didn’t message me again. great. it was over. 

at this point, i decided i needed to make an even bigger change. so a few days after i’d calmed down i created an entirely new tag for my thirst posts so if people hadn’t already hidden the notsfw posts or just blocked me outright, they’d have a third option to escape the madness. at this point, id had my blog about 6? weeks, but there were still 2k posts for me to sift through - some of them were completely untagged. i also had to do it post by post, because one of xkits features - the mass re-tagger - was getting blogs deleted for some reason, and i wasn’t going to do that. so i spent a few days going through all 2k+ posts, adding the “fhg” tag. 

YEEHAW! a brand new tagging system, no more hopping into the bill hader tag (minus one or two really funny, not super explicit asks, like the bill hader farquaad meme), and, tbf, i’d completely put this woman out of my mind. i don’t seek out drama and do my best to stay in my lane. yesterday, i checked my activity for the first time in awhile since id put out a couple new original posts that had started to get traction and i Love reading tags. i noticed a mutual had @’d me, and realized i havent checked my @’s in...ever, maybe. i see a post from my good pal billhaderanti. 

since i dont follow them and never check my @’s, i’d completely missed it. however, once i did see it, i was horrified. id gone through all that fucking work to keep my blog My Blog and also respect everyone’s boundaries and it still hadn’t been enough. i’d been awake for almost 24 hours and went. a little crazy. and i didn’t reply immediately because i just had no words. i sent it to my friends because i... i just wasn’t going to be able to figure it out myself. 

there’s a lot to unpack in this post alone, but whatever, i’m gonna put my own grievances with the immaturity of 1. making a callout post to begin with when i’d been nothing but civil 2. making a callout post about something as (in the grand scheme of Life) minor as some tags where i refer to a someone’s genitals as a “whack pack” and 3. making a callout post in such a rude way - aside. at the end, she calls me (and whoever else!) a demonic mlw (man loving woman, we assumed, and then later confirmed with a post further back on her blog). 

which - yeah, we started scrolling. at first we were looking for more vague blogs, and then we just...started finding things. billhaderanti is a self proclaimed lesbian separatist, which... fine. but it’s already pretty clear that this woman hates me on some level simply because i am a bi woman (demonic mlw, remember!) which is just. damn man i can’t believe we are still fighting the biphobic fight lol. so the more we scrolled, the more we uncovered - and not just the biphobic / vaguely mtf transphobic things they posted (or put in tags), but we also found that they had their OWN thirst tags. certainly not as hyperbolically comedic as mine, but they were there, talking about his body and his person the same (and, frankly, a bit creepier for other reasons) as mine. 

there’s one post in particular that snatched my wig in it’s creepiness - and i say creepiness in the sense that it feels personal. like this woman feels like she knows bill to some degree where she can say these things. my tags have always had a sense of distance, as they’re written for humor. and maybe this particular post was written for comedic purposes, but it doesn’t read that way, and if it WAS, then she has no right to call ME out for MY comic tags and posts. 

i’ll let it speak for itself, mostly because i don’t want to read it again. 

i also won’t be going through her blog again to find the posts with biphobic and other Interesting:tm: tags because there are plenty and i just really! want to be done with the whole ordeal! her blog is public and i’m sure you can all find it and look to your heart’s content. 

feeling a bit feral and a bit pissed off now that we knew the depth of how rotten this woman’s vibes were, a couple of my pals made a post or two similar to what my tag’s are like except turned up to eleven (if possible) - and tagged them with “bill hader” (and notsfw!!). yes, a bit childish, but at this point, the entire situation was childish, and making jokes was truly the only way we were going to get through it. another vague post went up on her blog soon after.

talking down to us, calling us children, and then for whatever reason calling us virgins... whatever, weird post. around this time most of us (est) went to bed, because it was nearing 3 or 4 in the morning. 

and then today happened. i woke up fresh and ready for the day after a wonderful 4 hours of sleep and found that jane had made an incredibly intelligent post in response to the situation. i won’t ss it, but i’ll LINK in case you missed it. attached there in the reblog is my own response. i think they can speak for themselves. 

after that, things were kind of jumbled, since i wasn’t online a lot and when i was i was Not checking my activity simply because i was afraid of what i’d see. for the most part, it ended up just being support (which i am very grateful to all of you for - it means a lot that you all enjoy my content to any degree). 

there was some more vague posting from both “““““sides”””””” of the “““““argument”””””” - mostly just people restating the fact that this is a public space and we should All be aware of how we effect others. i still hadn’t heard directly from billhaderanti, so i assumed we’d all be dropping and disengaging and moving on. i still wasn’t blocked, though, so who really knew what would happen. 

eventually, it culminated in this last post. tw for mentions of rape

i’m going to start by saying that 

1. there are nearly no teenagers that were involved in this. im turning 23 in january and most of my friends are 20+. maybe one or two are 19. 

2. none of us sent any sexually violent asks - most of us didn’t send asks at all. i believe one or two of my friends admitted to sending asks however they assured me their nature wasn’t bad; as far as i know, everyone remained civil in whatever went on (again, unclear to me as to what was being sent; no one was actively posting or talking about it. if billhaderanti wishes to elaborate, they can, but i don’t have anything to put in). 

3. before i finish this, i would like to apologize to billhaderanti. as a comedian - not just my stupid tags, i mean in real life, too - i know that humor can hurt. it’s not always funny, it’s not just stupid hahas. sometimes things that are supposed to be jokes just hit people differently and cause bad things. i recognize that. i never meant to trigger you (if you’re reading this) or cause you any severe mental/emotional harm. i apologize for my humor bringing up your trauma, and i never meant for that. regardless of my own thoughts and opinions about the nature of my posts/the thirst tags themselves, they hurt you, and i’m sorry. 

anyway, i’m going to wrap this up (i’m bad at endings, what can i say! steven king and i took the same writer’s class!). if you read all this... sorry. i probably won’t be taking any asks about it, because i find the whole “drama” of this to be stupid and rooted in some seriously biphobic issues this fully grown woman has. 

tldr; i attempted to contain my blog so this woman could exist and function safely on her blog, but it wasn’t enough for her, so she called me out, and then some of the fandom called Her out for being biphobic and mean and overall just immature about the situation. as of now, she’s yet to block me, though her and her wife have blocked a few of my friends. her wife continues to clown on my friends. this post was made for clarity’s sake. the end, i’m getting a drink. 

#discourse #biphobia tw #transphobia tw #rape tw #ok goodbye im done with this im back to #only posting gay clown movie #Anonymous

[positivityforlesbians]

hi. i'm questioning if im a lesbian or bi for a while now and sometimes i'm sure i'm a lesbian but sometimes i'm sure i must be bi.. i saw ur answer to someone mentioning that "real attraction to certain people is when you wouldnt mind having sex with them"and that helped me a LOT but could u tell me a little bit how can i know what to expect and how to ask myself? like, i ask myself if i would like to have sex with them IN REAL life if i had the opportunity? and dont liking their genital is +

(2/2) valid enough? Is it okay if thats the reason i wouldn’t like to have sex with a man? i dont know why i dont like penis, i dont have a trauma, i just find it really really really disgusting. but im so confused bc i also like famous men, lmao. thank you and also, happy new year!!!!

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Hi ! Sorry for the time it took before I answered, I had a delay for a bunch of anons (see this post I made on January 1rst which I will probably reblog again every time I’m particularly unabled to answer to anything) but the last few days i’ve been able to answer more asks. So to answer your question yes you have to ask yourself if you would really want to have sex with them given the opportunity, it’s not just about “not minding having sex with people of that sex” it’s also about actively wanting it. Sex isn’t supposed to be something you bear (therefore passively), it’s supposed to be something you want, and for that you have to at least be attracted to the people of that sex (so either same-sex or opposite sex or both). Not liking the genital of men is a valid reason, but understand that there are (from my understanding) many straight women and bi women in relationships with men who don’t like penises either, aesthetically speaking, lmao. But the difference for them is that they still are attracted to men, their body in general, to what their life would be if they married a man or had a long-term relationship with one, they wouldn’t feel like they’re missing something because for women attracted to men their attraction to them is real, even if they can (and do) have problems with certain aspects of their straight relationships.

Liking famous men means nothing if you would never actually pursue a relationship with a man, often it’s a sign that you’re unconsciously liking men that are unattainable because … you really don’t actually want them. So the thing you have to figure out is you would have a relationship with one and would actually want it. Like personally speaking I first figured out i was disgusted by their penises but then realized it’s also a non-attraction to their whole body, to the idea of living with one as a partner, the whole male package felt blank and boring to me. But I didn’t figured this out in one day, for most of my teenage years I thought I was bi and that I could support kissing guys so it meant i could maybe support having sex with them (see ? I didn’t actually think of it as something I could desire, because I never desired it). So these are the things you have to think about in order to figure out if you’re a lesbian or bi, check the Compulsory Heterosexuality document too if you want to see if it fits your experience ! Happy New Year to you too anon, I hope this will help ! Xx

#Anonymous #my answers #lesbian safe #lesbian advices #compulsory heterosexuality #wlw

[tanukyclaws]

This will be a rant/discussion about Fairgame, Bumbleby, and how badly RT actually treats LGBT characters:

Someone said that this volume was meant to be watched in one sitting, and now that I did it I agree, and watching it in one sitting also changes things and some of them get a new meaning.

Firstly, Id like to apologize to the fairgame shippers, I said that nobody’s at fault here since they didnt have enough scenes, stuff like that. I was wrong, I forgot some of them, when you dont rewatch the show you forget things, and I think most of us who did say they werent that focused just forgot all the teasing. I shipped it too, I thought it was cute, wasnt amazed by Clover but i didnt dislike him either and his interactions with Qrow were cute and the start of something nice and healthy. Now that I saw all their scenes again, now that I realized just how much teasing went in there, c12 hits differently.

“Oh they had just 2 scenes” “oh it was just a wink nothing much” may I remind you, before the end of v3 thats all we had for the bees pretty much? I dont want to compare either, but lets face it, the bees werent the most outright teased ship out there like arkos, it was subtle, just like fair game. Often in my pro bees argument I say “Why did they show them like this in this scene?” because scenes exist for a reason, focus exists for a reason, people smile and wink in real life and its just a coincidence sure, but things in the show are done  FOR A REASON. So unless someone can explain to me while all of Clover’s scenes were with Qrow, why he had the same flirty scene as that waitress from v4, why Qrow always playfully smiled and said stuff like “showoff heh” and make it make sense then Ill just blame it on unprofessionalism. No, I dont think its queerbaiting, but heck it almost was. There were miscommunications between the animation team and the writers and you can see that, they even acknowledged it.  But its already done, the hurt is already here.

Now, someone else who was mad about fairgame (rightfully so) said “oh its not queerbaiting cause they have other lgbt characters? Oh yeah that one lesbian that was bad at first and the 2 wlw women we will never see again” and they’re right:

Coco? Have we EVER seen her flirt/have interactions with women? She’s such a “player” in the book but in show she does nothing like that?

Scarlet? Same as Coco, and poor guy had only like  2 lines??

Oh look we have a trans character too! With only 1 line. Trans people, well all lgbt people deserve better. Im happy about May, I hope we get more trans characters that are actually relevant and not just in the background for 2 scenes.

Jaune’s sister? She said she has a wife once, we saw her in 2 scenes, and they touched hands while far away from each other on a couch. PEAK romance right?

I want you to actually look at our lgbt content, like actually look at it. Do you think its satisfying now when you see all those things?

We were too happy about the bees that we didnt realize how shitty lgbt characters get treated. If you think being in the background all the time is satisfying enough then good for you! I dont think lgbt characters not dying is peak representation. And lets face the truth about the bees: its taking too long. I dont care how slowburn you want it to be, they were from the holy trinity: arkos, renora, the bees. It took us how long exactly to get a definitely romantic interaction? (the blush from earlier this season). While Nora was talking about her and Ren and teasing it herself to say so, while Pyrrha was crushing on Jaune and showing it, while the straight characters got the romance.

Gay romance is the fucking same as straight romance. There’s no such thing as “I dont know how to write it”. Simple, write a het romance, then change the gender of one character, boom you got it.

I dont  care that the bees are romantic at this point, they are, I can bet on it, they will be canon too. But what’s up with all this waiting? Why do we have to wait YEARS for this? Why do the straight romances get kisses and blushes and romantic lines while we get a funny cute dance in the background and a few looks? Slowburns are good if done RIGHT, which if they continue like this bumbleby will not be. Its like the feast the straights are having, they give you a plate full of food too but tell you to wait. You wait, and you wait, and you wait, then the food is cold and gone bad and nobody’s there anymore and its just shit. I used to ship bubbline before I got into rwby, heck they were the reason I realized im gay. 

And I felt nothing when they kissed, it was just too long, its been more than 5-6 years of my life that I waited. When does too long become too long? Arent yall also tired of gay character getting some scenes right at the end of the show/episode? Arent we all tired of getting treated like shit?

I want you to take a moment again and think. Think how all the confirmed lgbt characters we have are either in the background/had only 1 line/ never were shown to be lgbt in the show. Think how all the straight pairings got definitely romantic moments, even got to kiss, but we just get a blush and a few looks.

Are you truly satisfied? How come we got to defend roosterteeth so badly? How come we got to defend RWBY and say it got rep, even good rep at that?

Look at these things and tell me in the face RWBY’s got good rep.

I just cant anymore. The show is fantastic, story and animation is really good, but Im tired of how we get treated.

Ill quit RWBY, Ill move to SPOP (which got actual good lgbt content and rep, and its EQUAL to the straight rep, unlike rwby that treats lgbt characters like dogs and barely give them some bones while straight characters get all the shit), Ill probably reblog some fanart and stuff of the bees cause I still love them to death, but roosterteeth is dead in my eyes. Ill cancel my subscription and never subscribe again, and I feel bad that I had so much hope and paid just to be spitted in the face.

Dont try to argue me into anything, I ask you, to please, just actually think about what we got and what we’re getting, and answer yourself honestly: is this enough? Is this what we actually wanted?

* cough salty stuff dont read cough* ALSO WHAT THE FUCK WAS THE POINT OF THE FUCKING “Will they kiss?” IF THEY BARELY HAD 2 SCENES TOGETHER THIS WHOLE VOLUME BARBARA FUCKING PLEASE. You tease something if you FUCKING DELIVER, not for the sake of it. This is one of the biggest factors that got me this disappointed

#rwby #rwby7 #rwby7 spoilers #spoilers #rwby v7 #fairgame #bumbleby #lgbt #Qrow Branwen #Clover Ebi #Yang Xiao Long #Blake Belladonna #AND THEY SAID WE WILL SEE WHAT RUBY GOT YANG #WHAT DID SHE GOT HER HUH??? #Fucking #Deliver #Already #I along others are done