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nicodaws · 1 year
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. hi irls dont read this pls thanks . honestly no1 read this is so incoherent i just wanna put it somewhere bc im too in my head .
#tw whatever idk#tag later#or delete later idk#anyway hahahahha im feeling so fuckin . suicidal . again .#but like#at least im lowkey scared of it this tiem#idk ive been doin way mor drugs recently and ots kinda freaking me out when im sober bc i dont wanna be that person?#qnd i just feel like im being a person i dont fucking like#like im being mean when im high n tryna fix it sober and also being mean sober n tryna fix it and tryna not make my friend group fall apart#but also kinda the split btween ppl doin drugs n not doin em is half the reason its fallin apart#and my closest friends dont do a lot and im still closest w them but ik theres this split and#i just feel like im causin sm problems and#comedowns keep makin me miserable#oml tanent but had The Worst comedown from ket . and i had a homeless friend crashin w me(theyrehoused now nw) but they were there#and i was having the worst sensory overload misery . and was just sobbing and tellun them 2 fuck off#and it was SO HORRIBLE and i cant BELIEVE i put my friend through that like what the fuck was i thinking#and idk#im just rambling but im scared of addiction and i dont think im there yet but#i wanna be high coz i spenf all my time sober upset w myself#and its all makin my depression so bad and im broke as shit and im just#idk#sorry if u read this#dont worry abt me or anything ill be fine#cant fuck up too bad my mum n sibs will notice and im spending a lot of time worrying about what they would think of me rn#im just really really upset w myself rn i know i did bad on some coursework ik i couldve done well on#and ik im messing things up and ik im worrying my bf and my friends and i#just . idk. im just upset#anyway . yeah . sorry abt this rant
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Me: I feel like no one but babe understands the hell I go through mentally
Also me 5 minutes later after he reeneters the room to essentially ignore me because I guess my distress is too much or something: nope no one understands whatsoever at all
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the-nerdler · 2 years
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Thinking about my best friend and sobbing. We've known each other for 18 years. Seriously I wouldn't be who I am with out her. The things I like the things I hate so much of me is molded by her and I know it goes both ways. So much of her is because of me. Who we are has been so deeply woven together through our nearly 2 decades of knowing each other. She is my other half my best friend my soulmate and I love her so deeply. I can love myself because I love her who loves me. I can believe in myself because I believe in her who believes in me.
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veemunson86 · 4 months
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Love of my life
Uploading this story I'm writing on wattpad! Will post the masterlist soon!
Please bare with me, I've never uploaded to Tumblr before so I'm trying to figure this out. Any writers with tips, it would be very appreciated!!
Pt. 2
Love of my life masterlist
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"Eddie no no no no- baby please stay with me-" y/n cried as she held her dying boyfriend in her arms. "Why did you have to come back?" You cried. He coughed a bit and leaned Into your touch "I didn't run this time y/n.. I did the right thing. I didn't run.. I always run.. I'm so tired of running.." you cried and held him "you should have run Eddie. I can't lose you. N-not now.." you sobbed. "I need you. We need you." You managed to get out. He put on a very weak smile "w-we??" He managed to ask "yes we.. I wanted to tell you this under better circumstances but... Eddie I'm pregnant.  You're gonna be a dad. Which is why I need you to stay with me baby. Just alittle bit longer. Help is coming.' You cried and placed a kiss on his forhead.
He coughed a bit, blood slowly slipping from the corners of his lips. " I'm gonna be a dad?.." he asked weakly, tears in his eyes" yeah, you're gonna be a dad
" you cried out "so I need you to stay with me for just alittle bit longer.  I'm gonna get you out of here, and we're gonna get you fixed up. A-and we're gonna get our own place, so we can raise her together." You cried softly qnd rubbed his cheek gently. " her? No way, it's gonna be a boy" he chuckled very weakly before coughing.  "Y-y/n?" He asked "yes my love?" You answered." I-im so cold." You sobbed softly "no Eddie. You're not gonna leave me. Not now. You can't." You cried "stay with me."
"I love you ya know that right?" He said reaching up and brushing some hair out of his face." Yeah I know baby, I love you too. So much" he smiled the best he could "i-i wanna marry you someday. Here. " he slipped off one of his rings and places it in your hands "hold onto this. Because when I get better, I'm gonna get you a real ring. But this is just for now. Be mine forever y/n. Promise me." He said , softer and weaker with each work. "I promise eddie." You held him in your arms "I love you so much. " you said crying softly. " I see Dustin, and Steve. They're gonna help us get you out of- Eddie? Eddie!" You sobbed as you noticed his pale, blank expression. " Eddie baby! Please no!" You sobbed , pulling him closer to you.
Dustin and Steve paused in their tracks when they saw Eddie laying lifeless in your arms. The sight of you crying and screaming broke their hearts. But they knew it wasn't safe and they had to bring you back. They ran over,Steve trying to help you up" y/n we don't have much time, we need to go. Now" you sobbed "no I can't! I can't just leave him here!" You said in between sobs. Dustin teared up at the sight.
" y/n we need to go now." Dustin said grabbing your hand comfortingly" he's gone y/n.. we need to go." He said trying to keep himself from crying.
Everything moved in what seemed like slow motion as they pulled you back to the real world. You held the ring tightly in your hands, breathing heavily as you looked around his trailer.
*flashback*
" Eddie set me down!" You squealed as he picked you up, carrying you to his bed, laying you down and hovering over you" I love you y/n." That was the first time you heard those words come out of his mouth. "I love you too Eddie munson." You said pulling him in for a kiss.
*end of flashback*
You looked to the hallway leading to his room, tears streaming down your face." He was gonna be a dad.." Dustin and Steve looked shocked as they heard the words come out of your mouth." He would have been an amazing dad.. he always talked about having kids.. " Dustin hugged you. You hugged back, sobbing Into his arm." I-i can't do this alone. I can't do it without him Dustin. I'm scared.." you sobbed
Dustin tried his best to stay strong for you." Y/n you're not alone. He may be gone, but you have us. You can stay with me and my mom if you need, she loves you. She won't mind at all." He said, calming you.
You nodded a bit. Steve and you used to date before he dated Nancy, but after everything, it wasn't right. He was your best friend, and seeing you like this broke his heart.
"Come here." He said opening his arms. You went over and wrapped your arms around him, sobbing Into his chest "h-hes gone.. he's really gone .." you sobbed.
He was gone. He was really gone.
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cherrykamado · 7 months
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YOU BET YOUR BOTTOM DOLLAR I'D LOVE TO JOIN THE WAITLIST 🤩 i'd love a slot! now i just gotta think of a character BUT I LOVE ALL OF THEM!!
you did a really amazing job, you know! so stunning! 🩷💖🩷💖
WAAAAHH OMG IM GONNA SOB THANK U SM LILY THIS MEANS THE WORLD TO ME!!! 🥺🥺💜💜💜💜 QND ALSO LEMME JOLT U DOWN AS WE SPEAK THANK YOU A MILLION TIMES ONCE AGAIN I KISS U HARDDDDDD<3333
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carnivorousyandeere · 7 months
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IM SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP!!! MY WEAKNESS IS CHARACTERS WHO CRY WHEN THEURE GIVEN AN OUNCE OF AFFECTION BECOS THEY DONT THINK THEY DESERVE IT QND OH GOD THORN SOB SOB
now all i can think abt is a darling that really does wanna be with her and that kind of playfully bats her away but very much cares for her. and so darling is always just making her food, making her take a bath, reminding her to sleep properly (doesn't matter the time as long as she gets the right number of hours), etc etc and darling is just so very understanding and obviously darling snarks here and there and is sarcastic or playful but it's never malicious and it's never mean and just the idea of thorn not understanding, of thorn just waiting for the other shoe to drop-- DUDJAJS HOW ARE U MAKING ME FEEL THESE THINGS FROM THAT SHORT LIL SNIPPET DOE UR A FUCKING GENIUS BUT ALSO OUCHIE PLS HEAL MY HURTIE U GAVE ME 💕💕💕 💕💕💕
YOU!!!! 🫵 YOU GET IT!!!!
Also sorry 😭❤️‍🩹 I can kiss it better if you want 🥺
Or try to write about Thorn kissing you better… or Thorn coming to terms with being loved and lovable 🥺 👉👈
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hades-arcade · 9 months
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wont lie im utterly devastated. i used to have an ipad thati did all of my early art career shit on, qnd now none of it mighr be able to je saved. i know i need to go to sleep but i cant cause ikeep cryong like q bitch, im pretty sure ive looked everywhere i had a social media presence on when i drew on that thing trying to desperately find anything i drew
keep your old artkids, dont become like me, sobbing your eyes out at qlmost 3 am cause you didnt wanna save such a big part of your journey
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stellarspecter · 3 years
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I was gonna make a post asking if it's normal to randomly text ur friends about whatever bc I feel like I should do that more than I currently do (never) but then I realized how sad of a question it js
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literaturebf · 2 years
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hello everyone
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melto · 3 years
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actually we should all be happy g*im exists because the wizard part of the crossover movie is so soo good
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2loady · 3 years
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flintbian · 5 years
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My mother is heartless. On Wednesday evening she guilted me about the top three things she knows will hurt me most. She guilted me about being sick, seeing my dad, and the fact I’ll never see my cousins ever again because I am sick....
She was just (and this was said in a much worse way this is a generalization of what went down) “oh so you’re going to spend time with your dad instead of another day with your cousins? You don’t want to spend as long with them but you want to see your dad? Well you’re never going to see your cousins again” (as they are moving across the country and I can’t travel because of my illness and by the time they visit back here I may be dead so...thanks mom....you just guilted me about seeing my dad one time over break, the fact that I can’t hang out longer because I’m sick, and the fact of me being sick means I’ll never see my cousins again and I’ll die early so yeah thanks. Not like I was heartbroken over flaring right now at all and pushing myself to see them at all and not like I haven’t been worried about the other thing considering my worsening state)
I mean just...what kind of a mother guilt trips their sick child over the fact they are sick and dying before they are 30? My mother’s super power is making me feel suicidal within twelve hours of being home. To top it off my mother tried to make me apologize for being upset and therefore making her feel bad and like a terrible mother....WELL MOM
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ABAHH ABABABABABABABABABAAAAAAA
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AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
I AM CY48NG!!!
Crying!!!!!
IM A UGLY CRYYING MESS
IM SO UAPPU!!
Happy!!!
I'M BORKWN
SO LIEK A ADOR SKYWARD SWORD PRICN3SS ZELDA BUT I NEVWE PLAY3D SKWYSRS SWORD AND I JUST LIKE WANTED TO BUY WA S LIEK SO CLOS RTO VUYONG RECENTLY BUT NEVER GOT THE CHANCE
AND NITNWOD PUT IT ON THE IR CIDI3VIDO3 QND IM UGLY SOBBING RIGHT NOW
I XNA FINALYK FPLAY IT
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THIS GIRL IS SO HAPPY LIKE YOU DONT KNOW
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levbug · 3 years
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heyyyy bestie what's five things u like abt urself?? 🥰 love u (something i like abt u is how friendly u r)
(sobs) miss lili,,,u are so kind for calling me friendly i am Literally Not but if lili says so, then i am :))
hmm i really like my EYES !!! i believe that saying, about eyes being windows into the soul, and theyre my favorite part about people ngl :'3 and when im acting, my eyes are the most expressive and idk i just like how sparkly my eyes are :3
next would be my SKIN COLOR !!! for the longest time, my skin color has always been one of my biggest insecurities :(( i'm not that dark, and im not that pale. im just tan. but people around me always said i was too dark, and that i would be prettier if i had lighter skin?? which, obviously, isnt true :(( now that im older, and through the impact of many darker-skinned models/celebrities who are just as, if not more, beautiful than their paler counterpaets, i realize that i am beautiful just as i am and that i dont need to stay out of the sun or be insecure about my skin color :DD (alrho,,,maybe i should start wearing lotion more often LOL)
mm...this ones kind of weird, but i really like that i can always FIND THE GOOD IN PEOPLE :') theres some people who arent worth finding the good in, but i know there always 2 sides to the story, so i try not to judge too quickly :)) although, if someone were to ever contradict my expectations more than once, even after i gave them the benefit of the doubt, its byebye for them </3
i also kinda like that im quite SILLY LOL idk why but i find it as one of my more endearing points :') of course, ill always be serious when the time comes for me to be, but im very lighthearted and i like joking around :') one might even say im mischeivous :')
lastly, i guess my SMILE? this answer is kinda generic, but its true :) smiles are the best and it always makes me happy to see someone smile, especially in times like this :') (except,,,uh just not in public LOL wear ur freaking mask pls) i like my smile because it lights up my entire face and i think i look quite attractive when i smile :) my smile kind of changes depending on who im with, but my favorite smile has got to be when im with friends and were laughing loudly and without care and were just enjoying ourselves :3 that smile is the biggest, brightest, and best during those times, in my opinion :^
hhhHh this kind of got long im so sorry </3 i think u can tell i like myself a lot LOL </3 anyways, thank lili for dropping into my inbox qnd letting me do this :3 ur one of the kindest, most beautiful, and smartest people i know :D
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londonsboy · 3 years
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IM LOGGED OUT BUT ITS INDIRA AND I WAS GOING THROUGH YOIR CARMEN SANDIEGO TAG DURING CLASS QND NOW ITS ALL I CAN THINK ABOUT GONNA GO SOB BYE
JWOFSKJRFKJG STAY STRONG QUEEN 🙏
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kinktae · 4 years
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hi babe !!! i’m starting on my journey through the whole bitchin’ series today !!! and i just wanted to say that it really reminds me of that 70’s show (even if i know urs is set in the 80’s lmao) !!! and i want to congratulate u on the job well done !!!
All the bitchin’ asks I didn’t get to answer in time uwu. Spoilers ahead:
prince-jjk said: just read your beyond the story for bitchin’ and i literally cried twice 🥺 especially in the 10yrs later when, for the wedding gift, jk gives y/n the contract they wrote all the way back when they barely knew eachother, that part just made me be like skfkskckskfkd on the inside, that was adorable.
Anonymous said: bitchin is so soft 🥺 it was love at first chapter for me, i loved watching y/n and jk grow throughout the story both together and on their own and i love all the soft lil moments and reading every chapter warmed my heart so damn much 🥺 thank you 💕
Anonymous said: okay so i finally read bitchin’ all in one day and 🥺🥺🥺🥺 they are both idiots i love them sm,, thank u for writing such an incredible story!!💕💗💕💘💗
Anonymous said: MISS ROSE?!?!?!?! BITCHIN' IS BACK AND WITH YOUR BEHIND THE SCENES COMMENTARY?!?! I'VE NEVER BEEN MORE EXCITED MA'AM!! AND WELCOME BACK QUEEN WE'VE MISSED YOU AND THESE LOVABLE DORKS!!!!💛💓💙💕💜💖💚💞❤💘💗
Anonymous said: I LOVED WHAT YOU POSTED FOR BITCHIN OMGGG i actually LOVE seeing behind the scenes of writing so i really enjoyed reading about the details of bitchin. nOT TO MENTION HOW CUTE THE EPILOGUE WAS PLEASE I DONT THINK ILL EVER GET OVER THEM but overall i really liked it and thank you so so so so so so so much for this
Anonymous said: i swear Yara and Taehyung do be the cutest couple :(
beifong-bitch said: So im new around here and just started reading bitchin and oh god- I KEEP IMAGINING TAES VOICE SOUNDING LIKE THAT ONE SURFER DUDE FROM TOTAL DRAMA.
Anonymous said: beyond the story: bitchin’ got me so emotional like??? i think i can’t live without them:( thank you for this beautiful story🤧 you’re so talented
sapphireprinces5 said: can I just say that the fact you called it Behind The Story as BTS is so genius and the best chef’s kiss of the century. reading this made me tear up like I miss the two so much and to see them happy forever was just 🤧 it was so cool to see how the stories developed and your thoughts as you wrote them. thank you for giving this to us - probably one of the best gifts i’ve ever received as a reader. amazing, you’re amazing
mochiieberry said: JUST READ THE UPDATE FOR BITCHIN AND FINALLY I CAN START MY DAY(ignore the fact it’s 3 am :) ). But honestly after reading BITCHIN I questioned what happened afterwards and thank you for writing the behind the scenes and giving us 10 year update!!
ggukcangetit said: oh my gosh i was missing bitchin' and you posted the most incredible companion piece. also love how its called beyond the story (BTS) so sneaky rose (¬‿¬) you really spoilt us with the connect i am sad and happy so thanks for that. lastly, just wanna appreciate how much effort, hard work, and care you devote to your stories, characters, and readers. since you are a LOT younger than me imma go ahead and say this- uWu rose is the best liddol bean in the world. okay bye.
Anonymous said: I just wanted to say thank you for the extra bitchin' content! It's one of my favorite fics ever (mainly bc I am a woman in stem who takes shit from no man and I hardcore identify with yn) and to see how much you love the fic and genuinely get excited about the little details you slip in to make it more enjoyable for you to write just makes my heart !!! bc i love nothing more than hearing writers talk about their works with pride. love you lots and thank you for always putting out great content!
Anonymous said: Yara refusing to put a label on her relationship after 10 years sends me. For one thing, as an independent woman who is terrified of commitment, I can 100% relate lol. The titles she gives him instead killed me as well. Her outrage at the crustaceans was also so something I’d do. Like “no ma’am my best friend ain’t sign up for this and as far as I’m concerned she’s gonna get exactly what she wants”. Yara is my spirit animal.
Anonymous said: I have a lot of questions. #1- How dare you? Bitch I am sobbing. I love those Bitchin fools and I ain’t ever gonna stop loving them!
lee-u-ne12 said: I may have giggled one too many times during my "beyond the story: bitchin'" reading. Dammit it's just so cute! I found it charming how instead of just giving us an update on the characters you included some commentery on each chapter! Ngl i was rlly sad earlier but this made me smile :)
Anonymous said: I definitely noticed the sock thing and thought it was stupidly cute (like this entire fic tbh) and djjdjdjdjjd I wish I had commented on it when I first read it! I loved the behind the stuff and loved all the reasoning as to why you didn't want y/n to be a 'popular guy gave me confidence' type of character 👏 honestly loved it all thank you!!!!
Anonymous said: THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR WRITING BITCHIN’!! ITS A WORK OF ART AND SO AMAZING QND I LOVE U SO MUCH MISS ROSE 😭😭😭💕💓💖💕💗💞❣️💖💝
Anonymous said: AHAHJAJAJAJJA THIS MADE ME SOOOOO HAPPY AND I HAVEN’T FELT THIS HAPPY AND SAPPY IN SUCJ A LONG TIMEEE!! i absolutely LOVE LOVE LOVE READING THE BACKSTORY AND BEHIND THE SCENES OF WRITING THIS FIC AND THE 10 YEARS LATER AND WEDDING MADE ME SO FUCKING HAPPY AHAHAHJAHA I ALSO LOVE TAE AND YARA SO MUCH AND I LOVE THAT THEYRE SO HAPPY BRO AND LIKE THEY DIDN’T NEED A LABEL LIKE yES PERIODT!UGHUGHYGHI I LOVE YOU SO MCUH MISS ROSE AJHSJS I HAVE SO MUCG LOVE FOR YOUU 😭😭😭💖💓💕
Anonymous said: ROSE YOU SON OF A BITCH I LOVE YOU
cheeky-kookie said: ROSE, I am so happy this is the best birthday present wowza ily thank you bitchin' update I cry
Anonymous said: oh my gosh yara and tae are gonna get married someday and she's still gonna be like what? husband? you meaN my matChing riGg wEareR.
Anonymous said: Just wanted to let you know, I just read BITCHIN' AND IT'S THE BEST STORY I'VE READ IN A WHILE AND NOW ONE OF MY ALL TIME FAVORITES. I would totally read it again in the future . Thank you for writing it and sharing it with us and you're awesome!
Anonymous said: Bitchin' was amazing. I cried. Thank you for writing it 🖤
Anonymous said: I think I've read bitchin like 3 times now but in never fails to put a smile on my face. The 80s slang kills me every time. Just wanted to say it's one of my favourite fics I've ever read :)
Anonymous said: i just finished bitchin’ AND IT WAS SO GOOD i cried at the end when it came full circle about the paper 😭❤️
Anonymous said: Hi I just binge read bitchin I’ve always ran into it but I hesitate Bc I knew it wasn’t completed I’m the worst but,,, ow. Ow. My heart physically melted you developed two characters so well and there’s no way I’m not going to reread again and again because of how good and genuine their relationship was. Uhh that’s it sorry I just wanted to let you know I’ll need money Bc my heart is unfunctional because of how full it is
Anonymous said: i just wanted to tell you that you made me feel so 🥺🥺🥺🥺!!!! with bitchin', that it is one of my favorite stories ever and that it's just so amazing and well written i just- don't stop doing what you're doing please !!!!!
Anonymous said: hi sorry this is random but im a huge fan of your work! i havent checked in with tumblr too much lately but last night i binge read camellia, groovy, and bitchin and oh my goodness i was so enthralled !! you have such a wonderful ability to engage readers with such relatable and dynamic characters! like wowowow i cant wait to read more of your writing! thanks so much for putting in the time and effort you do to create your work, its great and im glad you get to share it with the world! 🌟
Anonymous said: hi so i may or may not have read all of bitchin in one night BUT I LOVED IT AND IM AMAZED BY YOU 🥺♥️
Anonymous said: hiii! bitchin’ has been the best thing i have ever read and im so sad that its over, but im so happy you wrote it! u are an incredible writer❤️❤️❤️
emdancing said: Hi! I’d just like to say I binged bitchin and i absolutely loved it! It just might be my favorite koo fic 💕 your writing is awesome and so are you!!
Anonymous said: i binge read bitchin this weekend and i don’t even like fanfics but kept seeing it get recommended so decided to check it out and i loved it 😭 jungkook in that fic is so perfect and cute (except for his mess up with kiri) and that note at the end got me emotional 🥺 your story and writing was too too good, i skipped all the smut but still loved it 💗 thank you for sharing one of the most heartwarming and lovely stories i have ever read! 🤧
lowlifeoeuvre said: Hi i just read bitchin and i only have one thing to say about it... A WHOLE MASTERPIECE MAN!! literally almost cried and actually made a very inhuman happy noise at the end. I will for sure be reading anything else you write or have written.
babeewiththepowerr said: I just finished reading Bitchin and now I’m crying 😢 it was soooo pretty and well written 💜
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