#plus im crying so

[risetherivermoon]

thought abt the oak family...crying sobbing tears in my eyes

#aUGhhhgGghg #dndads #dndads s2 #dndads s1 #dndaddies #dungeons and daddies #dungeons & daddies #the oak family #too lazy to tag all the characters #plus im crying so #autumn rambling #🍁

[thaliasthunder]

yeah sex is cool but have you ever thought about how we're gonna see nico- nico di angelo. the man himself. the son of hades. the ghost king and the heir of the underworld, make big power moves on screen like raising an army of skeletons from the earth, close ups to him twisting his skull ring, angrily yelling at percy, showing up in a carriot w hades and persephone and more

#god im about to puke #we're gonna see nico raising fucking skeletons on screen i'll cry #yelling at percy IS one of his power moves btw #i actually hope the directors/producers have some creative freedom in how they gonna portray nico's powers #i want COOL SHOTS of him #for example: (close up to his face deadly serious brow furrowed and chin slightly low so gaze's looking up) 'i am the ghost king' #or smthing like that *close up to his foot dramatically stomping on the floor* and then the earth shooks and 10 skeletons appear around him #everyone is shockkk #and i'll be like GO BABY #nico di angelo #percy jackson #pjo #hoo #pjo/hoo #rick riordan #disney plus #walker scobell #solangelo

[saintofanything]

"final waltz: the disc war finale" (x)

getty image sources: [first] [second] [third]

#brad marchand #patrice bergeron #boston bruins #marcheron #hockey edit #my 4th stage mcyt brain rot is now hockeyblrs problem #apologies in advance im a pens girlie to the bitter end but brad marchand the rat bastard he is stole my heart with his bi-antics #plus being a crosby defender makes u my bestie so here have a little edit u deserve it until later this week when u beat the pens and i cry #is this hockey poetry?? its something but idk i'll save it for the sidgeno post i have rolling around like a loose puck in my brain #i cant believe my first post in this fandom is for a team i dont even root for marcheron is just that powerful #my gifs #my hockey post #only took me 13 years to tag my own work properly whoops

[ivymarquis]

How am I supposed to go out into the world and attempt to date, knowing that John Price is a figment of our imaginations and not real. What is even the point

#why cant he be real #i am sobbing I am crying I am screaming #im throwing up #john price #plus like #imma be so real with yall #my local dating pool is just yuppy assholes who think making money is a personality trait #crypto bros #republicans and libertarians #which are diet republicans #like I am a bleeding heart liberal and I have lgbtq family members #i will not be bringing a transphobe home for Christmas it’s not happening #which you’d think thst wouldn’t narrow my dating pool THAT much #but locally????? #babes I am in the fucking trenches #and Im not quite ready to broach dating women irl BUT THEY ARE SO PRETTY #Im just gonna to munches in My Nearest Big City and pray to god I strike gold

[hammill-goes-fogwalking]

I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI. I HATE AI.

#not dislike. its hate #it made me cry several times today #thinking of how my classmates manipulate our teachers #and chatgpt AIs can EVERYTHING #its so painful to think of it #today I broke down in the bus and cried #idc what people think. hiding my feelings any longer would destroy me from the inside #maybe youve also seen how people use freakin AIs in their exams #the thing is that: #we wrote an exam for which Ive studies for like 2 whole days #this week we finally got the exams back (w the grades ofc) #and ok Ive got a 3 (C in America syste #*m) #my friends who used chatgpt throughout the exam got way better grades (I didnt expect it otherwise) #PLUS #the most provocating messages from the teacher: #“10/10 POINTS :)” “YOURE ROCKING THIS” “YEAH” #💔 #seriously #this breaks my heart #dont the teacher see something suspect in the exam?! #why cant they open their eyes and get modernized to reality. #& they KNOW- the students Im talking of. they usally have bad results. #once our teacher came to a chatgpt student and said the most miserable thing: #“youve been using duolingo a lot lately hm? thats where your nice grades come from 😉🥰” #you get it? #no- this peoson didnt learn. #no- this person isnt even interested in the stuff we learn in lessons #AWFUL feeling to hear the praisings of da teachers when *I* gotta sit among the gpt-students and look like Im a worse student than *them* #[writing this at almost 1 at night] still have some tears. this topic really has the power to destroy someones day. 💔💔

[melatien]

My submission for @aimportantdragoncollector's trioholders event (bonus round)!!

they are at the beach

#why? to smash childrens sandcastles and so yoichi can force third to let him give him a sand mermaid tail #jk its because yoichis pale ass needs to photosynthesise #even just a smidge of tan would be a miracle #anyways it took me 16 days but i did it yall #im gonna go cry in a corner now this was a PAIN to draw #was nearly gonna draw thirds hand on yoichis waist but then i realised i'd have to draw hands 😔 #i was gonna give yoichi sunglasses but i ran out of time (ironic isnt it) #i had to make sure my first proper piece with the third ofa user was immaculate. i simply had to go plus ultra on him #....then the abs came #suddenly my will to art vanished #dont ask what happend with yoichi.... i cannot explain this phenomenon/miracle #something snapped in me after all my horrible yoichi arts i did the previous month #third only took me 3 days to draw. BLAME YOICHI FOR HOW LONG THIS TOOK!!! #his prettiness became the weakness for me finishing by the deadline #mha #shigaraki yoichi #yoichi shigaraki #one for all #my hero academia #first ofa user #third ofa user #my art #Three Weeks Of Trioholders #ichisan #i swear if i forgot a tag in here im gonna cry ITS TOO DAMN MANY #being someone that overdoes everything and is a artist AND writer is so painful. limits dont exist in the eyes of tien #just like sugis many ways to store me away #YEAH YOU THOUGHT YOU WERE SAFE HUH SUGI NOW EVERYONE KNOWS YOUR A VAULTER #i will escape from under your shoe. one day.

[petorahs]

shuake rite of passage is like. spending most of the entire game going 😐🤨🤔😳 at their banter/flirting/dates. being intrigued when the normally silent protagonist exclaims a heated "this isn't 'trivial'!" about his one and only rival's life, completely independent of player input. accepting the undeniable fact that 'our light' is basically a love song from protag's point of view to said rival. finding out about proof of justice ova. watching proof of justice ova. watching proof of justice ova again. going insane at the fact that the normally silent protag who never cries, cried over their rival in public. the fact that he was thinking about him before bed. realizing the one active, 'selfish' choice and wish protag had always involved his fated rival in some way, again completely independent from player's views on said rival.

and then becoming lucid for one second and finding out you just dug yourself into a shuake rabbit hole and theres no getting out

#aishi.txt #highly specific but surely im not the only one #clutching my hair cry-laughing they drive me insaneeee ahhhh #shuake #goro akechi #akira kurusu #i got into vanilla p5 in 2020 and never got so invested in shuake like. it was there. it was the popular ship #plus i didnt actually see it for myself #2-3 years later coming back to the royal additions was.... a thing that made me widen my eyes at a lot of points. in a good way #like fckkkkk i can see why people like them frfr #the fics can be so quality and amazing too when you know where to look #novel length and accompanied by art 😭 you can feel the passion #one thing about coming into the fandom relatively late is discovering gems like this TT blessed

[mudandsludg3]

i drew babygirl gojo hello

#jujutsu kaisen #jjk #gojo satoru #i love this man so much unfortunately #fanart #jjk fanart #i have no idea how to use tumblr im crying plus the quality of that drawing is so ass #my art

[peridots-pixiwolf]

sketches from @mipexch 's whiteboard a couple days ago!!

also feat. a very small reference to @onlineviolence :]

#peridots-art #bugs #bots #ultrakill #gabriel ultrakill #swordsmachine ultrakill #bugzapper ultrakill #minos prime ultrakill #v2 ultrakill #plus the rest of the fumos but those weren't done by me. someone was drawing v1 so i put a v2 beside them and came back later to like 5 mor #hence why they are out of frame. anyway this was a LOT of fun I lost track of time and stayed up till dawn even #there were so many cool and/or recognized artists.... i keep checking the ultrakill tag to see if anyone else posts their own sketches #it was posted at like 2am my time though so i didn't get to stay very long.... i checked in today on the fumo drawings and there was #just so much new art over there and in general. so many people doodling and having fun and complimenting each other and bonding over #the things we all like. im gonna cry #anyway. i think this is the longest period of non-posting (not inactivity. lol) on tumblr i've ever had #so might've forgot some tags. also i think i'll use alt text for multiple images and regular id for 1-2 #edit also i wrote 'today' in the tags up there but it was in fact two days ago. regardless #ALSO. sorry if the alt text is hard to read or anything. never used it before + penchant for lengthy descriptions #can you tell i'm really proud of the beetle gabe btw. men will see a character say 'anyone gonna buggify that?' and not wait for an answer #WAIT i've already made that joke haven't i. whatever turn your blorbo into an insect or some sort of gay bug today

[soplapinga]

How the fuck did I learn how to efficiently help my partner through his autistic meltdowns thanks to a vashwood fanfic .what

#me reading ww help w vashs meldowns: oh well I . ?? oh ???? wait It does look similar to - OH ?? IT WOULD HELP MAYBE OH MY GOR #I followed fucking fanfic wws steps next time my bf had one #i used his way of asking and talking #the question that fictional bitch asked #and it WORKED #Fun fact were both autistic #just .completely different breeds of it #plus I cant understand ppls physical reactions to save my life #thought process ?? im a fucking expert . the BEST #but PHYSICAL oh hell naw #I just understand what I physically need but absolutely nothing more #NOW I CAN HELP HIM #U DONT UNDERSTAND HOW HAPPY AM I ABOUT THAT #autism #fanfiction #vashwood #ao3 fanfic #we had obv talked about it b4 but he didnt understand how it worked either so we left it at “dw if u dont know. ure trying and i love u” #(i wanted to eat his face and cry bc I HATE NOT UNDERSTANDING SHIT I SHOULD UNDERSTAND) #oh and I couldnt do what works for me bc my body is 100% uncapable of being vulnerable in anyway in front of ppl for more than .5 min prob #so I just loose my mind a lil bit w laughing randomly and moving compulsively like rocking on the chair or slamming things etc for that time #and the close off until im alone and gave the full needed meltdown #so ive never been actually comforted or helped so I dont know what it would help bc Ive never experienced it #rant ended lads now SORRY

[marymekpop]

⟢ highlight of the hour: my perfect stranger [1/16] ⟣

If I could go back to the past, I would go way back. So that Mom wouldn’t have to love you or me. She wouldn’t need to live with people who make her lonely all her life and fool her. I’ll make her live happily all her life by herself. I’ll make sure she lives.

#my perfect stranger #korean drama #jin ki joo #kim dong wook #mygif #mmkfav #mpshoth #i loved loved loved eps 1 and 2 #sooo so good #always happy to see anything kdw related #and im liking the premise of the time traveling car #plus im invested in both the female and male lead's stories #this specific scene where the female lead saw her young mom again in the past #i wanted to cry bucket of tears #ep 1 was srsly so good #i really liked it #happy to be back with another hoth series!! well-deserved!! #lets goooo

[startrekin-it]

Woke up last night with two hypos that i barely had the brain activity to fix, and i no longer own Jelly Babies. Desperately hoping we don’t have a repeat performance

#i am at my limit #diabetes #im so fog brained and miserable rn #just gotta do my dissertation and then i can think about being a normale person who interacts with people again #i feel like I am rotting interally right now #i dont care about my degree #i dont care about an awful lot at the moment in terms of my own wellbeing outside of the diabetes #im quite frankly failing at socially interacting regularly enough that im going to start crying about it #and all in all i would say i am not having a good time rn #but on the PLUS side i have a job now #job = more dr pepper to cope 🙏

[c-kiddo]

please mountain forest and ocean and air gods etc let Mount Eerie and Black Belt Eagle Scout do a collab EP or song at least itd be so fucking cool

#(imagine the timmy turner praying meme image here but also hes crying or something) #i cant find any recordings of them performing together from when they were touring so now im just imagining it . 💔 #listening to more of black belt eagle scouts stuff too #plus thinking abt phils most recent newsletter abt playing music with her about decolonisation and it just sounds interesting #about learning more about the land he lives on from someone who is really really from there (black belt eagle scout is swinomish/iñupiaq) #. and how despite his deep connection to the nature around him it will never be as deep. idk i think it sounds cool 2 me #and i think the newer sound he's doing (huge fire and then the unreleased new stuff like breathe would go well with her sound #recommend them both sm btw #kiddo say

[good-beanswrites]

I already brought this up, but for quicker reference:

Order of Attack: Mahiru nightmare sequence about Kotoko's attacks. Gotta round out the guilty trio.

Feel free to not prioritize this. :D

LISTEN, I CAN'T BE HELD ACCOUNTABLE FOR THE ANGST THAT YOU REQUEST (<- made myself sad over Mappi and worries I may be in trouble for this one). Obligatory "I don't hate Kotoko and think she's very complex but from these character's pov I had to make her solely scary I'm sorry." And of course I was prioritizing this 👀👀👀 I really loved your nightmare sequences, I tried to make one that completed the set but was still unique!! Thank you for the request >:3

TW for referencing her bf's suicide, and descriptions of the attack injuries

“Aw, come on, you can tell me~” Yuno turned her attention away from where she’d been helping Mahiru with dinner. “Both Fuuta and Amane have had nightmares about her. Hell, I’ve had a nightmare or two about her. I won’t think you’re a mean person for admitting it.”

“I’m not lying,” Mahiru insisted. Her lips rounded into a little pout.

Yuno studied her expression. The girl had a way of really looking at someone when she wanted to. Sometimes it was a wonderful feeling – her gaze could be full of understanding, warmth. You were seen. You were heard. She saw you for all that you were. 

But in times like these, Mahiru found herself shifting under the pressure of it. Yuno was truly seeing her. She could see how Mahiru’s smile was frozen in its forced shape these past few weeks. She could see the way she flinched at loud noises, or how all the blood drained from her face when Kotoko’s voice echoed from the room next door. In waking, there was no doubt Mahiru was afraid of her. In sleep, though…

Yuno took her hands in both of hers.

“Then… what do you dream about?”

—

Mahiru was in the woods. She was running, her feet bare, her breath hitching. 

At first, she thought she was fleeing something. Danger and death loomed around her. The trees closed in. The canopy plunged her into darkness. The branches reached out to tear at her flowered dress, or snag on her hair. The trees pressed close to suffocate her. She grabbed at her throat. 

At some point, it became clear she was running towards something. A figure came into her view, just ahead. Though he didn’t appear to be running, she couldn’t catch up to him. She had to. He was in danger. She had to get to him. She had to stop him. 

He entered a clearing up ahead. Mahiru could just barely see into it. She tried to scream out, begging him to stop, but no words came out of her wheezing mouth. She could stop everything, she could stop all of this, if only –

She burst through the clearing. The figure, now a young woman, stood in the center. She faced away. 

Mahiru tried again to tell Kotoko to stop, but it didn’t matter whether or not she could speak, now; it was too late. 

On the ground below, between tree roots and scattered leaves, lay two small bodies.  

Mahiru’s hands flew to cover her mouth. Her legs grew weak with horror. There was blood everywhere, and bones bent at wrong angles. Fuuta’s limbs were twisted and limp. Amane had curled herself to cover her face, blood streaming from between her fingers.

 Kotoko, too, had red-stained hands. She surveyed her work with pride.

“What… have you done…?”

Slowly, Kotoko turned. Mahiru wanted to turn around and run before those bloodthirsty eyes could land on her. Her legs stayed frozen in place even as her heart raced in her chest. 

Kotoko met her gaze. Then, she gave a gentle smile.

“Thank you.”

Mahiru stumbled back a few steps.

“You let this happen.” 

“No…”

“You did. You could have stopped this, but you didn’t. Thank you.”

“I-I didn’t –! This isn’t – ! I thought –”

“You knew this was going to happen.” She spoke a familiar name, and Mahiru shook her head violently. “You knew what he was planning. You had plenty of chances to stop him. You didn't. You knew what I was planning. You know how to calm people down, how to bring groups together. But you didn’t speak to me once about it. You wanted this to happen.”

“I didn’t!” She said it frantically, unsure if she was trying to convince Kotoko, the two beaten prisoners, herself, or someone else. “I didn’t.” The statement was true, but it didn’t change anything that Kotoko had said.

The forest closed in. Kotoko reached a hand out, beckoning to her.

“We make a good team, don’t we?”

“No…” 

Mahiru was struck with the thought that she didn’t want to take hold of such a disgusting hand, only to glance down at her own. They were just as slick with blood. She let out a shriek.

It was Amane’s. It was Fuuta’s. It was his. 

Mahiru’s legs finally gave out on her. When she looked up, Kotoko was still smiling.

“So… who will be next?” 

—

Mahiru slipped away from Yuno’s grasp. 

“Oh, don’t you worry about little old me!” She turned back to their work. She brushed her hands off on her apron, giving them an extra swipe for good measure. “I promise, Kotoko isn’t the villain in my dreams.”

#milgram #mahiru shiina #yuno kashiki #kotoko yuzuriha #i kept it in the order i got everything but i was definitely thinking of it nonstop adfsdf #im forever crazy about mahiru's murder-through-inaction theme #since all of the others were pretty direct even if accidental #i firmly believe she knew what her bf was planning and didnt stop him/actively said shed join him because she didnt know how to handle #the situation properly #and if she prides herself so much on being good with people and making friends and bringing people together i wonder if shed feel #responsible for not deescalating kotoko beforehand #plus the more immediate survivors guilt that if she was just in the other room maybe it would have been her and not fuuta/amane #at first i wanted to work in more mv symbols (birds cake carousel horses) because i love wacky and surreal dream sequences #but it got to be distracting when i was planning it out lmao so i decided to stick with the two major trauma moments #vibing on my trip rn but i had just a few lines of this one to finish so i wanted to post it when i had a few minutes... #though now i need to go and pretend im not crying over mappi 😭😭😭😭😭 #drabbles #order of attack #(to go back and make it an official tag later)

[agentplutonium]

Sometimes Sweetheart “sleep walks.”

Though, that was a stretch. They were conscious, just very disoriented. Normally, they say some nonsense and then go back to sleep. Other times, well…

Milo woke up to shuffling sounds, followed by a thud and a muffled curse. He could only guess what had caused it by the lack of warmth at his side. When he finally sat up, his Sweetheart was just getting to the door, the light from the hall being flicked on.

Milo shielded his eyes while they adjusted. "You okay Sweetheart?"

"Grilled cheese."

Milo wasn't sure if it was because his mind was still laggy from sleep, or just the fact that they answered with 'grilled cheese', but he immediately broke into giggles at the absurdity of it all. "What?"

"Grill me a cheese."

"I'm not grilling you a cheese," Milo said, it being muffled by his chuckles.

Sweetheart sniffed, as if they were tearing up. “Hungry.”

Milo tried to stifle the laughs, climbing out of bed to get to them. “Sweetheart, it’s the middle of the night.”

“I’m hungry,” they said again, their voice nearly a whine.

Now closer to them, Milo could see that his Sweetheart was still mostly asleep. They’ve had a tough week, and when this happens the unconsciously seek out comfort. Usually, this was an increase in physical contact with him, or taking an evening to curl up with their favourite blanket and book, or even ordering from their favourite restaurant. Apparently, tonight, at nearly three in the morning, they were looking for their comfort food: Grilled Cheese. Even if they were barely awake.

“You,” Milo said, gently grabbing their arms once they were close enough, “are going to come back to bed.”

“But grilled cheese,” Sweetheart said, and this time they were full on pouting. In the light from the hallway coming through the door, Milo could see that his Sweethearts eyes were shinning slightly.

“Are you about to cry?!” Milo asked, another chuckle bubbling up.

“I want grilled cheese,” Sweetheart repeated.

“You need sleep,” Milo countered, “you’re so tired.”

“No, I’m not-“ The sentence was interrupted by a huge yawn.

Milo chuckled, leaning in to kiss their forehead. “Tell you what,” He said when he leaned back. “Why don’t you try going back to sleep, and if you’re still hungry in an hour I’ll make you grilled cheese.”

Sweetheart physically perked up after that. “Promise?”

“Yes, I promise,” Milo said, knowing they won’t last half an hour in this state.

Sweetheart grabbed his hand, tugging him back toward the bed. He had just enough time to reach around the door frame and flip off the hall light and close the door again before he was dragged back to bed.

It didn’t take long for them to get settled cuddled into his side again, eyes fighting to stay open. Milo had been drawing random shapes on their arm, humming gently. It’s hadn’t been more than ten minutes, and he was sure if he kept this up they’d be back asleep in no time.

“I know what you’re doing,” they slurred after a bit.

“I’m not sure what you’re talking about,” Milo lied.

“You’re trying to put me to sleep.”

“I have no idea what you’re talking about,” Milo lied again. “I would never.”

“I’m getting that grilled cheese,” Sweetheart threatened, but it being lost in the way they could barley open their eyes.

“Oh, I’m sure you will,” Milo said, a quiet chuckle following it. He leaned toward them to kiss their forehead again, Sweetheart sighing at the action. “Do you want to hear about my day?”

Sweetheart hummed in response, already forgoing words. They loved it when he talked about his day in a hushed tone. They were interested to hear about it, but listening was one of the things that could easily put them to sleep. Sometimes they’d get him to ramble to them when they were having trouble falling asleep.

So, that’s what he did now. It didn’t take long before their breathing evened out next to him. It was adorable how his Sweetheart slept. They looked so at peace, something he couldn’t say he saw often.

He leaned in again, pressing a kiss to their nose, then their forehead once more, before finally settling down and closing his eyes himself.

He’d do anything to protect their peace.

#plutonium_oneshot #im gonna cry i love them so much #guys they mean so much to me #plus just #loving milo #im going insane #kgdan #im so in love with milo greer #redacted audio #redacted audio milo #redacted audio sweetheart

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#ay. i wish i wasnt such a cry bby. its so annoying #like pls just ignore my tears. i promise im fine. like probably #i did my target orientation today bc my background check went thru and my 1st full days starts tomorrow at 4.30am #and i just get overwhelmed by new situations. plus the humiliation being forced to take an academic break. plus i kept thinking abt how when #i moved to town my mom and i did a lot of my shopping there to fill out my room #itll b fine after a week or so. im just a lil overwhelmed rn. plus i filled out my resume for possibly getting a government job and asked #for recommendations. so it feels more real that i might not be going back to school in the fall and that's also overwhelming #and i have to focus on getting my masters stuff tied together this summer so im gonna have to meet with my old boss probably next week #again. just a lil overwhelmed. ugh. itll b fine #unrelated