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mousesquared · 1 year
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Hi! How did you realize you were aplspec? I'm questioning myself and am having such a hard time figuring it out lol...
(disclaimer that all of this is my personal experience and i dont speak for all aplspec people) oh also im gonna be saying i/me but this realization was a mix of mouses and mine (toby)
prepare for a long one cause i like to talk a lot i guess
i think it kinda hit me when i really thought about platonic attraction. im aroace and so dont experience romantic or sexual attraction and so thinking of a platonic version of that was a bit confusing. there were only a couple people i could remember feeling a pull towards to either be their friend or be closer as friends. with other friends it just kind of happened? they were someone i talked to about similar interests or in groups with mutual friends and a friendship just happened because of that. i didnt have a goal or pull to specifcally to try and get closer to them, it just happened because of where we hung around.
i know not all alloplatonic friendships are built on an urge to be friends or closer friends, but i do think my experience of it is in an aplatonic(spec) way. there is also the part where i dont specifcally have an urge to need close friends. i of course enjoy it when i do. but when i realized i was aplspec i only had like 2 past friends that i still occasionally texted but we were super distant. i didnt really miss an emotional bond with someone, i just wanted to talk to people. i was lonely in the sense that all my thoughts were having to be kept inside by head with no way out. and when i seeked out a place to talk about them, thats where friendships formed. i didnt join that community in order to get close friends, i just wanted discussion.
most of the time when it comes to friends, i am seeking the activity, the action, the nonloneliness. it is nice to have people fufilling that with me that i like! but with friends i have a really hard time gauging steps in relationships. i have been known to either talk to someone for a very short time and all of a sudden regard us as very close and i have been known to talk to someone and be friends with them for years, and then not consider them as close as they consider me. the latter isnt usually about me not liking them as much as others, i just dont realize how they view our friendship and have trouble gauging that kind of stuff for myself. i think that comes from just having trouble gauging how people see me in general. personally i think thats an autism thing but it affects my aplatonicism so its also an aplatonic thing!
i also think that i view friendship as like a complete separate step than just talking to someone a lot. that may seem like a contradictory thing to what ive said before. but the fact that i seek talking to people and interacting with others, thats why i was ok with not really having friends for a stretch of time. struggling with gauging friendship makes me see friendship as something that has to be kind of barrier you eventually cross instead of it just building up. i often dont realize when we cross that barrier and of course the other person doesnt feel the need to express it because we are already friends in their eyes. i am often hit with the "oh i guess we are friends now" thought. even with the few people i have felt platonic attraction to.
so TLDR: i realized platonic attraction is actually a thing, and most of the time i dont have an actual pull to be friends/closer with people. i dont usually seek the companionship of friends, usually just the sociable & activity doing aspect. i care about my friends but i dont view my care for them as a platonic attraction. i also have trouble gauging relationship levels with people and often dont realize we are friends until they say something or i realize im spending a lot of my time with them. (reminder that im aplspec, not 100% aplatonic too!)
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cozylittleartblog · 3 months
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8th annual nick valentine post! fallout 4 npcs Love sitting. they'll see a chair and ask "is anyone gonna sit here" and not wait for an answer. its like nick is on a personal quest to sit in every chair in the commonwealth. if he sees a chair its on sight
its because his joints are bad, obviously. he's like 140
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filbosstalker · 5 days
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HES FINALLY HERE WELCOME HOME BABY,,
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cannotgiveafuck · 2 years
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Hhmmmm I have been inspired. Have a Constantine and Billy drabble.
“Hey, John, you there? John? Hello? Is the mirror on? Jooohhn! I can see you, ya know. C’mon turn around! C’moncmoncmon pleeeaaas--”
“Oh, for fuck’s sake!” Constantine threw the scrolls down on the desk and whipped around, snagging the cig from edge and glaring at the two-way mirror that sat innocently upon the bookshelf, right where he left it. Right where he could see and hear for whenever one trouble-prone Billy Batson could reach him. The little shit was lucky John deemed pants a worthy effort that day. “What?”
Billy grinned at him, all bright eyed and apple cheeked and very obviously up to no good. It was hardly a wonder why John liked the brat so much. “Do you know how I can get to the veil without actually going through it? I mean, how Marvel could?”
Sometimes, he also really hated how much he liked him. 
Through the steady stream of smoke as inhaled and exhaled, John squinted suspiciously at the kid as he tossed the words about in his head for a moment. “Why the fuck do you wanna go there? Not trying to bring someone back from the dead, are you? Cause necromancy is nasty shit, especially for the Big Cheese.”
“No! I am not doing necromancy. I just need to get to the... the midpoint. Not quite here, but not there yet.” And he said all that in a way John was sure Billy thought he was being rightly clever. That he could dance around saying outright what he wanted, using half truths and side steps, as if John Constantine wasn’t the fucking master of that particular game.
“You mean you wanna get to the Crossroads.” It wasn’t a question.
“Yes.”
Well, John had to give him that - he knew when to not bullshit the bullshitter.
“No.”
“John--!”
“Do you even know what the Crossroads are? Literally and figuratively and spiritually - do you?” 
“I mean--”
“No, no. Lemme finish.” He took a long drag just to give the kid time to pout and rethink whatever nonsense he wanted to get into. “The Crossroads aren’t for the likes of you nor me, got it. Because you know who resides?”
“Well, kinda--”
“The fuckin’ Fates, that’s who! And unless you’re going to them to tell personally and explicitly to fuck off, you’re not setting foot passed this plane of reality. Understood?”
Billy sighed loud and dramatic. A 50/50 on if John’s words got through. “I’m not trying to contact the Fates, John.”
Oh. Well, that was good. 
Still, woulda been a joy to hear about bright and shiny Champion of Magic telling Fates to shove it.
“Then, why the fuck- This isn’t another stupid fuckin’ game Klarion is trying to rope you into, is it? Or a sorry sob story some poor dead sop gave to you about not wanting to move on? Cause there is no goddamn reason you should be having any sort of business there.” And the more Billy delayed telling him the actual truth, the antsier John got. But he knew, deep in his rotted, wicked heart, he knew how to follow these steps. Knew the script Billy wrote by because that was how he lived this long - testing the waters before going head first. John appreciated every wary bone in that kid’s body. Something had to balance out the overwhelming sense of compassion.
This time when Billy sighed, it was more resigned. More coming to terms with the inevitable fact that he was the one that contacted John because he needed to know something, and no matter what, John would tell it to him straight. Wouldn’t tell him no on the sole basis of whatever bullshit the League of Goody Fucks would feed him. Constantine may still very well say no, but he at least gave a good damn reason, thanks.
Blue gaze right on John, “I have business there cause I need to contact the Goddess Hekate to invite her to dinner.”
Oh, for fucks sake.
“Oh, for fucks sake, kid.”
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password-door-lock · 1 year
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It just needs context 
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rowenabean · 5 months
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ihatebnha · 2 years
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I can't believe Bakugo canonically hates rain now that's so sad
No because… he looks outside and is happy it’s sunny. He thinks things like “the weather is so nice” and “it’s a beautiful day.” He likes the way sunshine feels on his shoulders, and being in patches of light that warm his whole body up.
And when it rains he gets all grumpy and antsy and just wants to hole up inside. He wishes that the sun were out. I’m gonna kill myself.
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yaekiss · 2 months
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its okay qi we can make choco soy crowns and skip through the soybean fields together <33 -🪻
YIPPPPEEEEEEE frolicking through the soybean fields together 🫶🏃🏃✨✨✨
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thedevilinmybrain · 11 months
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mousesquared · 3 months
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wheres my mad pride for phobias what whaaaaat /silly
but really though, people need to be more serious about phobias sometimes :/ it sometimes gets stripped down to "just a fear" and it is way way more than that. when its just seen as a fear it can really make it seem like its something we need to just get over or its not a big deal when the fear is so so intense. and thats not to say people shouldnt be allowed to be light hearted about phobias! i joke about ours a lot and even do some things i know will trigger them because i still want to do the thing. but please see phobias as more than "just a fear"
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okok so. imagine you have bad anxiety unless you already do then just imagine that it's getting bad.
and what do we do when we get scared of people???? we isolate!!!!! so you go off to a corner!!! to hide!!!! somewhere remote and isolated!!!!! and hopefully no one will find you!!!!! right???
i'm hc'ing that foul legacy has a heightened sense of smell.... because moth and also it works for this fic
so he thought of you and wanted to come find you but you weren't there!!! he goes to all the places you normally go but you aren't anywhere!!!! he goes back to ur house/apartment/whatever and then--
sniff there's something in the air. it's awfully familiar........
curious, he follows the trail and-- hey wait a minute, isn't that you? what are you doing out here??? isn't it dangerous???? foul legacy voices his thoughts to you, concerned.
you look up, shocked. someone????? found you??????????? and then you realise it's foul legacy and you relax juuuuust a little bit but!!!! someone found you!!!!!!!! danger.... right???? but technically, you tell yourself, he's not a person!!!! he's not a human!!!!! so maybe it'll be okay???? it's not like he interacts with people much anyways...
"i'm hiding," you admit quietly. "from people."
"and yeah, it's dangerous out here. but that's the point. if it's dangerous, no one's going to come looking for me out here."
he coos softly at you, unsure of what to say. he gets down on ur level and looks pleadingly at you, a hand extended. no words are necessary, you know he wants you to go back with him. you know he just wants you to be safe. but something in you tells you no, to go back is to get yourself killed, to go back is to submit to torture. you can't go back.
you shake your head sadly. "i'm... tired. i can't go back, you understand? to go back is to return to a place where i don't belong. to return is to come back to a place where i am vulnerable. i can't go back."
he understands. he knows this feeling well. he knows he can't make you, and it might be worse if he made you return right now. so he sits with you, keeps you company. even if you're here, atleast he can keep you safe. at least you're not totally alone. he'll keep you company until you're ready to go back.
i'm giving you a warm hug right now comrade <33 also anxiety gang!!!! *high fives you*
imagine Foul Legacy just sitting next to you quietly, not pressuring you to hurry up or anything, just being there for you. he radiates patience- he'll wait as long as it takes for you to feel better, do whatever he can to help. want him to hold you? pat your head? purr? listen to you rant? just sit in silence? he'll do any of them! as long as they help you feel better
and even when you DO feel better, he really thinks you should go home to relax and have a calm rest of your day instead of forcing yourself to interact with people more. if you insist, he'll whine and tug on your sleeve, but eventually concede and wait for you at home. but if you don't want to, he'll rumble in delight and scoop you up, carrying you home and setting you on the couch with a pile of blankets. he'll vanish for a moment, but don't worry!! Foul Legacy quickly returns with water and a plate of snacks before snuggling up beside you
he nudges your hand towards the food, letting out chirps and trills of encouragement whenever you get something down, and when you're done he lifts you onto his lap and hugs you gently, claws running over your hair. Foul Legacy presses his head against the underside of your chin, purring and giving your cheek occasional licks- you're not sure how, but somehow he ends up snuggling on top of you, face pressed into the crook of your neck and claws carefully kneading your stomach. he's a bit heavy, but it's in a good way, weighted blanket type of heavy, and whenever you stroke his hair or fluff he absolutely PREENS
just.... comforting Foul Legacy <33
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good-beans · 9 months
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So eepy...
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dreamsy990 · 2 years
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got into the shared control au and man. brainrot
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also as i was going to post this i realized. @sharedcontrolau reblogged another one of my posts so thats p cool. hey man hru good good just living in AWE of the fic potential of this au. angst, fluff, crack- everything works with it. i swear im gonna be that one meme thats like “ive been waiting for this forever this is all im gonna post now” yeah thats me
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wisteriasymphony · 11 months
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obsessed with the idea of karaoke buddies
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part of adrien's/chat's "integration into (im)proper society" 100% involves drunk karaoke night. every song is fair game except promiscuous because they can't agree on who sings what.
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callilouv · 5 months
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uhm gusy i want to kiss link liek so bad
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ahunter8056 · 6 months
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Chapter 2 Summary:
The two Doctors, Clara and Yaz meet. How will they get on with each other?
Fic Summary:
In the exact same area of space, at the exact same time zone, two Doctors are teaching their companions to fly the TARDIS. A mid-air crash of blue boxes leads to an impossible encounter, in which the Doctor's past and future collide.
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Or, Eleven and Clara meet Thirteen and Yaz.
Chapters: 2/2 Fandom: Doctor Who (2005), Doctor Who, Doctor Who & Related Fandoms Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Thirteenth Doctor/Yasmin Khan, Eleventh Doctor & Clara Oswin Oswald Characters: Clara Oswin Oswald, Eleventh Doctor (Doctor Who), Thirteenth Doctor, Yasmin Khan Additional Tags: Multi-Doctor minisode, Post-Episode: s07e14 The Name of the Doctor, Pre-Series 13: Doctor Who: Flux, Eleven meets Thirteen, Yaz meets Clara, Two hyperactive Doctors, Two Shot, Fluff, Pining, Eleven & Clara are besties, Thirteen tries to convince herself she isn't pining for Yaz, Reunions
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