#peace be with you too ig

[willsimpforanyone]

A small reminder that you are so precious, and so loved. You mean so much to so many people and I pray that you know how worthy you are of love and acceptance 🫂💓 Peace be with you!!

i... thank you? very sweet of you <3

#is this a religious thing? it feels religious #peace be with you too ig

[locobeary]

I’m having watching brothers sun ngl. Bruce is actually fun for me to watch if not only because of his potential. He’s studying to be a med student(even if he is into improv) which I can see being a lot of useful information for him in the future. He’s watched his mom all his life so he carries similar habits and knowledge. He’s got her brain and planning skills!! He’s his mothers son in every way and it’s so good.

#Charles is cool too ig #the brothers sun #Bruce sun #Bruce is a soft guy who’s slam dunked into all this drama #he just wants a peaceful life and what’s best for his family #combine his talents and you have a great manipulator with med knowledge

[vvitchynerd]

Сообщили о смерти Алексея Навального... Остается один вопрос - а где, собственно, у жителей россии та самая черта, когда уже "все, выходим"? Сколько еще людей "мирная оппозиция" хотят похоронить?

english translation:

Alexei Navalny is dead (inclined to believe, because saw news in trusted non-governmental source). One question remains - where is that line in minds of russians, when its "we're done, to the streets."? How many more people "peaceful opposition" wants to bury?

#i am terribly sorry if you didnt want to see something about russian politics on your feed but im in such shock i had to share #извиняюсь если вы не хотели видеть что-то о политике россии в вашей ленте но я в таком шоке мне нужно было поделиться #i was never a full supporter of this particular man for me he always was too peaceful and obedient to government #я никогда полностью не поддерживал конкретно его для меня он всегда был слишком мирным и послушным власти #he was undoubtedly a face of russian opposition and that i cant deny #он несомнительно был лицом российской оппозиции и это я не могу отрицать #sorry second time about getting political #извиняюсь второй раз за политику #i dont have much to lose except for life ig so i wont be quiet about who i am or my position #мне нечего терять кроме жизни наверное поэтому я не буду молчать о том кто я или о моей позиции #россия #навальный #russia #alexei navalny #not art

[sundial-bee-scribbles]

trying to write a pair of twins that are 1 girl and 1 boy and realizing it's just rin and len 2.0:

#delete later #ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING MEEEEEEEEEEEEEE HAKJHSKJHK 😭😭😭😭 what vocaloid will do to your brain #i was thinking abt lucian and luna again and if i did take potential story developments LITERALLY ITS HAKJFDKIJLKMLDF #luna even has a fuckign bow in her design too ARE YOU GODDAMN KIDDINGSH ME AHRIUO8TYIJ. MY FUCKING SUBCONSCIOSU ARE JRDKHKL;L #screaming. YOU CANT DO THIS TO ME NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO #i do try to have variety in the way i portray sibling relationships obv like some get along better/worse than others etc #but man. VOCALOID DOES IRREPARABLE DAMAGE TO YOUR BRAIN HSKDJH I CAN NEVER BE IN PEACE #funnily enough i was also thinking abt a scenario w/ gekiyaku & kazehiki and in THAT case its a weird fucking. reverse #cause i was like 'wait this is just lucian & luna's story all over again' SO. HUH. #in that case i think potentially its just i keep fuckign reusing the same shit tropes over and over again GODDAMMITTTT 😭😭😭😭 FUUUCCKKKK #IM SORRY IM PREDICTABLE HKJNK 😭 i just. some tropes hit so much fcking harder than others personally idk #my mentally ill brain gravitates towards certain things b/c i have certain issues ig i am A Tad Bit Messed Up 😔✌️

[bl00dw1tch]

the way i have absolutely no business being the way i am

#horse.txt #vent // #sort of. too high to be sad abt it im in anthropology mode and listening to music that makes me feel sexy so its fine yk #anyway i typed a whole bunch of other tags talking abt how and why i feel this way by going through a few of the events i can remember #from my childhood that Might explain why im so emotionally guarded and struggle to open up anymore. #bc i Wanted to say they all felt dumb and juvenile esp since ive actually like #made peace with most of the ppl who were involved with them #but the Anthropology mode was just tearing it all down as i typed it bc that Is just a ridiculous way to look at it no matter how you cut it #doesn't matter that nobody involved really Meant to deal that kind of harm and i dont need to hate or blame anyone in order to acknowledge #that it still just Happened. like thats a Memory already babe no do overs. #which is kind of just accidental therapy so sick. love that fir me genuinely! #but also yes theres the bitch part of me that still wants to discredit it bc acknowledging that it happened =/= Fixing My Issues #so im still at square one technically. ive just been pacing in circles on it for a while ig #EVEN WORSE that the Scale of my issues is so incredibly mundane compared to so many of the people i seem to meet. #sitting in bed crying abt not having friends for a few days in elementary school when other ppl have jojos bizarre adventure levels of Lore #i know im not technically invalid for feeling the way i do or anything but god. if it doesn't feel fucking Embarrassing to open up about😭 #its impossible NOT to feel stupid and sensitive for having these first world ass problems. And letting them hold me back #bc ppl not liking me for any reason makes me sooooooooo fucking scared So fucking scared its not even funny 😝 #at least. ppl in my Circles. im pretty ok about being assertive with randos #still some work to be done on it but its better than whatevers going on with my personal relationships rn #sincerely to my mutuals and loved ones who see this i swear to GOD i love you so so so fucking much and im so. im trying to figure out this #the stuff thats got me so distant and bad at keeping in touch. its a whole slew of feelings about how i see Myself--not yall #i double pinky promise cross my heart im extremely serious #thank you for being patient with me you mean more to me than im capable of putting into words right now #alright theres a shot of tears in the hollow of my collar bone time to wrap up this post #daily reminder that i love body hair. there's some honesty. #😎😎😎💪💪💪 #the Quaritch under the cut is just to make me feel better bc i love him and i think hes so pretty. hes like a security blanket

[tinukis]

understanding shanks in foosha village more abt just laughing everything off and doing so does better for my mental health

i mean yeah it's still on my mind but it's better to just have fun and laugh instead of arguing or whatev

#this is bout that damn bird app #i told myself i wouldn't engage w it as much and just post and leave but there are other cool ppl on it which makes it harder and i #just Man !! im way too chronically online 😭 #need my spring semester to start now !! maybe i'll sign up for summer semester again #but anyway im not letting dudebros stop me from posting or drawing anything #being in optwt comes with a big price and it's not worth it but it is what it is #not my first rodeo either bc i did get weird comments on ig when i posted my pkmn oc x canon #when u learn and accept that ppl will hate u no matter what you start to gain some peace #tin talks

[unproduciblesmackdown]

eddie bracken as orville wingait in summer stock (1950)

#don't get it wrong abigail whacking orville upside the head is during their comedy backstage 5 sec to Resolution ending rush #literal last minute conclusion crunch in unsurprising formatting lol; i chose a more peaceful gif to end on. note the prior one's [feet Up] #i hope this illustrates There Is Much Material. more clips than this & truly as good or better a role as any others to choose from here #summer stock #conveniently it's apparently wingait in the movie but via that casting news this (2023) role is wingate #tcm fancam life...we've all been there. akd talking abt meet me in st. louis like maybe i should rewatch lol. have to muddle through someho #anyways there's for sure room to like grab a little thread of plot and enhance it in this story. e.g. orville & abigail could talk Thrice #their B-plot / more idiosyncratic romance there is still >>>>>> the main JUDY & GENE one unsurprisingly even w/o a third convo lol #whoops the main guy is an asshole. judy/jane learns she loves show business so just kinda may as well be in love w/the show guy ig #like girl you don't have to be...but ofc already although her & orville's dynamic is pleasant enough she seems somewhat disinterested #while fascinatingly for our purposes though orville is framed a bit like [this NERD] he can't be too dunked on b/c [romantic B-plot] #meanwhile abigail's Undeserving Of Gene/Joe (she is but she's too good for him) qualities being just that she's been too Indulged so like #in her lack of protestant ethic farm work she's so conceited & sensitive that she wants to rest & not be yelled at??? #smash cut to for real judy/jane on Opening Night like asking tentatively like oh romantic interest you're Not gonna yell at me..?? #but she's been Hard Working so she will tolerate the physical AND emotional demands. but she's also more Talented than abigail #so joe need not be mean to her Anyways like. okay wild maybe we could rework that but congrats abigail for NOT ending up w/him fr #meanwhile orville's arc (joe has none to speak of save realizing he wants to make out w/this other woman now) is as clear as anyone's #extricate himself from otherwise only getting to be an extension of his father who is generally interfering / directing / demeaning him als #another ''well i don't know about that'' element in that when orville Does tell him to cut that out his dad actually just rolls with that #and becomes more amicable lol like well that does work out & it's unsurprisingly like cmon orv you can't LET him treat you like that... #and if you didn't? he'd just be like ''oh haha okay''...like is abigail supposed to be ''right'' abt uhh romance there but yet she's just #too sensitive to handle Tell Don't Ask / No Apologies? maybe; but they both end up getting to Not Stand For It lol. i think that that would #ofc still be fun to develop. whereas w/joe it's like uh maybe make him Not a huge asshole in the end / judy p much in love w/Showbiz.... #abigail & orville out here decidedly Not About Nonsense....but still a bit zany ig such that after the [imagine the foley] hit: it's good #like i'm sure it's ''orville's still enough of a NERD to be chill w/that'' & ''abigail's still DIFFICULT enough to put her foot down'' #['50 gender politics] we all know that couple whose flaws & idiosyncrasies allow them to Apologize & Ask & use their inside voices #and be all upset if someone's trying to demean them. unlike True Romance of the man who won't bully his wife if she earns it :') #joe could instead uhh be a harried director who's actually Wrong for being a dick to his gf (if we even include that) w/the various sources #of pressure to make a show Work but there's all this req'd spontaneity / flexibility anyways & he learns that even if he's clenching throug #it he can Not take it out on other people / Make it succeed by Making ppl do anything. & also jane reminds him of Passion for this.

[deus-ex-mona]

mfw someone i’m mutually blocked with seems to frequent this blog anyway (you know who you are)

#i’m not gonna name names but if the text in the tags managed to bring someone to mind then… that’s just how it is ig #though don’t send this to the person you think of ok? we may be thinking of different people after all soooooo yeah #let’s all stay clear out of trouble together… maybe~? i’m just gonna vent my confused frustrations in the tags in case the person sees this #seriously. haven’t i gone over this before? don’t we block each other for a reason? #you blocked me first (prolly) bc i ship lxl with each other. i blocked you in return (and bc i hate your ship just like you don’t like mine) #so… let’s just agree to stay off each other’s blogs. capisce? #i don’t like you and i know you don’t like me either. so seriously can we just coexist in separate circles or sth? stay away!!!!!!!!!!! #and like real question: if you are somehow here… why? just why? you made it clear that you don’t trust my tls so… why are you even here?? #it’s getting kinda irritating to be told that you may/may not be making indirect posts @ me on main. seriously!!!!!! #i’m trying to give you the benefit of the doubt (that it may be just a small coincidence) but it’s getting real hard to do so these days #so if you’re somehow reading these tags (and idk how bc we’re mutually blocked remember) please just… stay away????????? #in all seriousness i sincerely hope that this was just a few mere coincidences #bc lbr who would willingly check the blogs of people they’ve blocked without being prompted to? it makes no sense whatsoever #i hope that this will be the last post i make about this. bc seriouslyyyyyyy i don’t have the time for this nonsense </3 #and before you accuse me of wanting to start discourse i’m not!!! i just!!!! want to be left alone!!!!!!!!!!!! #let me shitpost and occasionally tl in peace pls my bones are too aged for this

[bisaster-energy]

i do get making cas essentially human i understand that he can adjust to it and actually enjoy life like that. but um. i just think he can be just as fulfilled as a full blown angel

#human cas fics fuck severely they go hard #but i cant really vibe with cas like. just ''being human'' endgame #cos we already know no matter if he can fly no matter if he has grace he won't BE human that's an entirely different species ya dig #if the show was normal about non-human creatures being people as much as humans are #i probably wouldn't mind as much? but the show is very very sucky about that so #they scratch the surface on nonhumans being capable of like. fear and hopelessness and love. #and instead of really having salmondean explore this they just. forget about it and maybe the cycle restarts in another motw ep #ik it probably aligns with the overall copification of those 2 and it makes me so full of malice... #what im saying is cas is decidedly other. a creature an incredibly powerful one. #and i think it really shows that him not being human separates him from them. he's not as trusted #even after 12 years :/ it's kinda easy to oust him cos he keeps relationships with heaven. #which brings me to the whole ''oh fuck angels we hate angels oh but um not you cas!!'' thing like bro he's still an angel #you pick which monsters u find worthy of redemption but never fully accept them for what they are and discard em pretty easily #so yeah i think having cas be graceless is interesting and even makes sense but ig it just seems too easy on the winchesters #they never had to really accept cas as a full powered angel cos honestly they way they remember it #cas at full power wings in tact was just an asshole and he was barely ever back to that: comfortable in his prime after like s7 wtv #once it's all over and done with i think it'd be cool if cas could have all his wings and power in tact and just be at peace like that #he's an angel but he doesn't have to be a soldier anymore he can quite literally do anything now whole point of free will #and yeah he can choose to be graceless sure but he can never be human anyway. physically at his core he's something Else and i think #dean should have to like. live with that tbh #they never have to REALLY tackle the ''monsters are people too'' aspect and angel cas endgame would prove that regardless #he IS family. they dont NEED him to be an angel to USE him but regardless he is what he is and #they are fine with him not being human because he's family and they love him who cares what you are. #cos in cas' mind he needs his power to be useful but also he cannot truly be part of them while he is noticeably Other due to their bias #this is true for other characters obviously jack rowena crowley #sam's whole thing with benny 💀 #but this is a cas post and i haven't watched the show in years so this isn't like. a cited essay lmao just ramblings #in short i just want cas to be fully angel while not feeling he HAS to be for others' sake and have the brothers be genuinely cool with it #cas my best friend cas #cas studies

[six-of-ravens]

okay, mild "what I've done over the 2 days I wasn't blabbing my whole life online" update bc I drank "high caffeine" tea at 8:30pm and. usually caffeine doesn't affect me but NOW IT IS:

yesterday was boring, most interesting thing was that I finally refilled my prescription and then went to Michaels as a reward (got a spiderweb tablecloth and tea towels at a steep discount) and then hit one of those stupid little concrete curb-median things in the parking lot and undid all the good work the dealership did in realigning my wheels.

beat Portal and started Portal 2!

the zucchini cake was a SUCCESS! I still have literally three quarters of that zucchini left though. apparently you can freeze grated zucchini though, so I might do that and then I can make more cake/cupcakes/muffins/whatever later on

mom's birthday went well, I got encouragement from the family to at least talk to my uncle/someone at his office about cancelling my life insurance so that was.... unexpected but good. Having a family member as an insurance agent is sometimes convenient but sometimes awkward and intimidating

I am also slowly being convinced to start an RRSP instead of a TFSA for my retirement. my aunt is finally explaining it in a way that makes sense (also: tax. breaks. taaaaax breaks. tax breaks.)

started Hummingbird Salamander and I'm enjoying it immensely

Aunt wants to do the same hike I did with a friend back in 2020, which will be nice bc when the friend and I went it was a) super busy so it was hard to take photos and b) raining off and on and therefore not very pleasant. She also wants to go see the suspension bridge nearby which we missed for some reason on our hike (I think I was confused about how to get to it) so that'll be fun. I am extremely worried about bears though, since a couple of seasoned backwoods hikers were attacked and killed a few weeks ago even though they did everything "right" when the bear approached.

and finally, they were selling frozen "leg of mutton" in the grocery store today and I almost said "wow, they sell murder weapons now?!" out loud. which would've been just so great since there was a very suspicious security guard marching around (for no reason I could tell, except maybe to arrest me for referencing the Roald Dahl murder mystery).

#anyway that's my boring life #the thing is i felt nice and peaceful being off social media and such until tonight #when i started worrying that i was missing out on important things #so i redownloaded my news app and there was nothing useful just more horrifying and depressing stuff #and then i redownloaded tumblr just to post plant photos #i feel like i should stay offline until the anxiety fades but also...meh #i think i need to do a cull of my tumblr and ig follows too. there's just too much....junk. in my feeds now. #not mutuals or anything but you gotta trim the fat every now and again right? #anyway now time to force myself to go to the Bad Wet Place (take a shower)

[toytulini]

im willing to believe yellowjackets is a good show but im not sure im willing to forgive it for that title which makes me have to specify "yellowjacket BUG" if i want to see the actual bees

#toy txt post #why they do this to me. come here. come here listen to me #have you considered a title that is not 1 word that is not particularly unique that also happens to make your shit hard to tag and find on #websites. i dont particularly like when shows are trying to cater to develop a fandom but in this aspect i would love that kind of #forethought. please. amyway sorry thos crime is apparently unforgivable and i can never watch it now. sorry #i believe you that its good. however. they have committed an unforgiveable crime to my brain #smh. do u expect me to memorize their latin name or smth? #'toy how often are you looking up bees' not that often but i found it VERY ANNOYING #perhaps this could also be fixed by search engines actually being functional again but. unlikely ig lol #LET A BITCH GOOGLE THE BEES WONT YOU? #it was ddg but still #let a bitch duck duck go the bees in peace wont you???? #i can't think of any off the top of my head rn but i know there have been a number of movies that did this shit too and it pissed me off #then too. stop making me tag random innocuous word movie just come up with an actual title wont u? #bluh #ill probably get over this eventually and then maybe consider watching it #i got mad at arctic monkeys about this too. someone was talking about how cute arctic monkeys were and i thought #it was like a new species of like. monkey that lives in the snow and man. i was so excited. and sooooo disappointed to see a bunch of Guys #i like some of their songs now but man at the time? unforgivable

[luxraydyne]

pop quiz what breed of childhood trauma borne neuroticism is it called when being condescended to on just the most neutral, limpid, nothing thoughts you express like you’re a little silly child, or “out of your depth”, or woefully misinformed, or just speaking on something you shouldn’t cause fuckin hell you’re doing it *wrong*, and with the most plainly obvious remark too, makes you want to chew on your own arm until you reach bone marrow

#i hate internet discourse i hate internet discourse i loathe online Big Fandom it makes me come out in hives #i'm not stupid. i'm NOT stupid. i know this. i'm not being mean and nasty and bitchy either. just saying shit wrong. #siiigh i don't want to just stop making shit and like speaking. about stuff. on the internet. but like also. why would you? #there are exceptions (who i hope would recognise themselves if not i apologise) but largely i am more miserable #and more self destructive more regularly since stepping out of anonymity and engaging with people online #except animal crossing. like everyone i've interacted with through acnh has been. really Nice tbh. which is nuts lol #the stories you hear are almost universally bad and yet everyone i've chatted with albeit briefly has been so nice #i get anxiety over whether or not some stranger i'm never gonna meet thinks i'm an imbecile or not like how stupid is that? it's ridiculous #my self esteem has somehow gone backwards??? #it don't fuckin matter! proving a relative nobody wrong and keeping her in her place don't matter! i mean it's daft but what's the point #and i know i need to internalise that i KNOW but damn it's hard #i want to just say fuck it and leave. become like a fandom esque zombie or whatever. but i also want autonomy over what i've produced now #unless i just delete all that too ig #but why should i!! #i go through this cycle every month it's like having an extra self-loathing hormone #if you're super attached to something w my username on it just download it for yourself you have my blessing give urself peace of mind lol #in principle i want to ghost and all of a sudden i'm am unperceivable and none of it's my damn problem any more lmao #but then i'm too bullish and prideful and egotistical so i'm like 'bbbut my seven tumblr followers who always like my silly text posts uwu' #i'm the dw in this scenario. the sign says 'just leave you're a nuisance' and i'm looking right at it like 'he he. no <3' #even if just doing what the signs says would definitely go some way to help with not wanting to just perish. or the arm chewing thing. #i just. simply. think. i would like to know. what it is i have done specifically #i know the answer is somewhere between nonexistent and nonsensical like it's not worth thinking about #what i've done is exist in a way that is arbitrarily deemed stupid/distasteful/ugly/deviant/noisy/irriating/etc it's irrelevant #and yet. there is a burning black void of needing to know in me. anon hate get into my dms tell me why you dislike me so #nothing is scarier. is the phraseology #like a game of wackamole with every utterance. is this one gonna get bapped with the hammer of 'you are so wrong'? why? does it matter? #who knows....it is a mystery...... #i matter so little! i have 50 followers! two (2) ppl read the fanfic and thought it was 'aight! i don't matter! i am such a tiny fish! #what is even the point just leave me be no one cares! #i *could* redirect this hysterical existential horror energy into my original work. i *should* do that

[nickfowlerrr]

not being able to fit in even with the groups of ppl who don’t fit in lol sometimes it feels like this high school mentality will never end.

#ranting in the tags #not that it matters but i’m sensitive so i’m gonna complain no matter what #being called a loner all your life then turning it into some kind of badge of honor #bc it’s the only way not being able to click with or connect with ppl stings less #it only works for so long. and when it stops working… lol. just kinda sucks ig. #like every negative trait i was told i have is just reinforced bc duh!!! ding ding ding it’s all making sense ofc ppl don’t wanna talk to u! #i don’t talk enough or make a good effort or i talk too much and make no sense or come off as rude #and either way i’m off putting and it just takes too much effort to be around me #it’s like i make peace with these things and then one fucking thing happens and i’m being slammed back to 15 year old bella mentality again #it’s so exhausting and i’m so tired of being upset that i’m not good at like being a normal functioning fucking person #and ppl try and connect with me but i just give absolutely nothing in return bc i don’t know how to!!! #genuinely like how do ppl just talk to each other? how do you all have friends and make it look so easy and natural #like it’s obviously probably easy and natural bc it’s supposed to be and for some reason i just like… can’t? #okay. whatever #doesn’t matter anyway i’ll go on living #just hate being sad over this. it feels so lame lol. #oscillating between self obsession and self pity every two weeks or so i’m actually so fucking over it hahaha #but it’s cool. i’m cool. rant over 😚 #bella complains

[goredinner]

Honestly when im not talking to you I hope you automatically know im not doing great bc I always always always want to talk to you

#fucking idiot #fuck #no im the idiot actually but #i always want to talk to you and youre prolly just fine without me lmao #ig thats good #but im not happy about it #obviously #cant force you to reciprocate how i feel tho #reason why i would loveeeee to move on #so i quit annoying you #i think ive kinda given up trying to be cute and caring and shit like #im too depressed and hopeless sorry #ive suffered wanting more from you for too long that im just tired now #not your fault ofc #im just #yeah #an idiot #ig #hm #tbh entirely stupid and my fault that i cant function properly and held on to some weird false hope for so long like #i just #need to let it go #i cant talk to you and let it go and the same time #idk #tired #so tired so tired so tired i cant concentrate and tbh nothing even feels real rn #im just glad that i feel so detached rn honestly lol #yeah theres sm peace in detachment #i rlly prefer this

[isanyonetoknow]

i just think that it's neat that everyone around me can easily exist without me

#this is not sarcasm it does make me happy #idk how to explain it. exs include when i learn someone i fell out of contact with went through shit but had support #i wasn't your support and if we were closer i would have been. but i wasn't and im glad you had the people around you to support you #went to watch a dance comp with friends and they all know eachother better than they know me and it was fun and made me feel at peace #it's too extreme to say i dont matter or people wouldn't miss me. but ig im glad that when separation inevitably happens #it won't hurt my friends too much

[everybodysaycbx]

.

#cant sleep... #feels weird that its been 10 years now. shes been gone for so long now but i remember it so well #the pains like a phantom pain tho. i can remember her without crying (tho i am now lol) and not all the memories hurt #but the pain isnt always detatched from the memories. that part of my childhood where she was always there feels......idk how to describe it #im always aware that its gone and sometimes i can live with the reality of it and appreciate my friendship with her #but sometimes the hurt comes back so forcefully and so painfully i want to scream and scream #and sometimes it feels like i am but i was just dissociated for a few hours #my family is still.....unsure of how to act when i exhibit pain about this. idk if its from guilt that they didnt help me initially or... #is it annoyance that this still affects me...maybe both. guess they cant get how my friends suicide when we were in high school would hurt #whether they feel guilty for how they didnt help it doesnt really matter ig bc i know they wont apologize no matter how much id like them to #idk what to do about it tho. i dont think i can just get over that at this point i mean ive waited 10 years #if anyone has advice dm me ig but dont tell me to let it go bc i just cant #ive made my peace with any culpability i have in her death and if her spirit harbors anger with me then thats fine #her family doesnt and has never seemed upset with me so i have no reason to be thinking it but idk. i just couldve done more #but whats done is done and dwelling on what couldve been is a bad road to go on. esp at almost 3 am #i hope and wish for her to be at peace and everyone who loved her to find it if they havent yet #if anyone else has had to go through this too know you can talk to me esp if you dont have anyone else #i had really no one i could talk to about it without feeling like i was burdening everyone else who was in the same situation at the time #and i dont want anyone else to feel like that so. i hope everyones well #otherwise if that doesnt apply to you but you want to cheer me up send me some cute videos or memes or whatever #ive been trying to keep my mind off it for the most part since ive had to work and dont want to have a breakdown there lol #and i have to work tonight so that would be helpful #but anyway i think thats enough of my rambling and depressing thoughts #tw: death #tw: suicide